Sunday, July 31, 2005

Dream #6

Applause can be heard.

But she's not satisfied.

She looked around, something's missing. But what? She cant seem to figure it out.

Expectation has not been met. Why the applause then? This is hard. She can't let anyone down.

What if they found out? She thought. How is she ever going to face them again? How is she going to face them, when they have such high hopes? High hopes of the future. High hopes of her.

She looked around. She's looking for something, someone. She doesn't even know what. But she just wanna run. Far away. Away from here.

She started running, but she can't find an exit. She can't find it anywhere. The doors are locked, the tunnel is never ending.

She's getting frantic. How is she ever going to get out of this place? She looks around. It's really getting claustrophobic.

Her thoughts are drowning her, her vision blurred and her breathing in short spurts. She's hyperventilating. No one's there. No one's there to save her. No one's there to help her.

She's alone, trying to find her way out. Trying to continue with her journey that currently, seemed bleak.

She stopped. She fell. She broke.

Then she remembered,

"When one is flat on their back there is no other way to look but up."

She stood. She walked.

The difficult journey begins again.
Dream #5

The face changed. Insulted. It hurts.

The heart shattered, she can't believe it. How is it possible that people always thinks of her like that? Just coz, she doesn't look intelligent or watever shit they can make wild assumption?

There's always underlying meaning within those lines... COz, that's for sure not some thing one would look forward to hear...

For one, no matter how nice you make it sound, that is definitely not a compliment...

It hurts when people she trusts doesn't believe in her..

Never have she felt such humiliation. But what can she do? No matter how hurt she was, no matter how insulted she felt, coz deep down, she's still that girl who would never retort unnecessarily...

Even though her feelings was hurt, she would never be able to hurt whoever it was back... Only rarely, can she achieve that.

Why make a mountain out of a molehill? She thought.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

tralalalalalala.. i'm really bored.

and i'm sitting beside a retard...

*points to my left.. Mel's on my left btw*

he finds joy in the weirdest things...

Like calling our dear azai an idiot.. tsk tsk tsk...

I'm waiting for that warrior priestess of ours to unleash her powers though...

muahahahahahahhahahahahhaha

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

today is not exactly have the nicest beginning to a day... REALLY!

My class was at 9am today...

I woke up with a start.

Nah, not because i was late, its that i woke up coz i cant breathe...

Then after that, I was looking for a particular book that was thick, heavy and blue and written by Michael parkin, ya.. it's econs text.. when my cat's basket fell from above and hit me directly below the eye...

i went out of the house in a rush... but half way to the bus stop i realised i forgot something... I had to do a U-turn...

Went up got the thing ran out again...

Went down the stairs... When....

PIAK~!

Next thing i know i was at the bottom of the stairs...

and now my knees hurt.

Then, i was standing in the rain waiting for a cab that doesn't seem to materialise... took a cab only at tampines... and reached class at 936am.

Monday, July 25, 2005

Guess what??

I did another fantastic thing again today...

I came to school for a lecture that was cancelled...

Is that great or wat? My tut's is at 1pm... but the supposed lecture was at 10am.. so ya..

i'm in school early doing things that i might just die with at the moment...

Last week, i forgot to come to class...

This week, the only lecture that intend to attend for this subject... its cancelled.

*Dies*

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Company Law OP is done...

And Suk Ching ah.. There's nothing to worry about la. No need to say sorry la.. Its ok.. Its over already anywayz.. :P

Yesterday had Project Twinkle meeting before drama. Hahahhahahaa... I think azi's gonna complain on the fact that it was the most "awkward" meeting she has ever attended. LOL! anywayz, its the first time that it was that quiet also.. whahahahhaa...

and guess wat happened? I reached, I looked around... Then i said,"Can i ask a stupid question? But wat meeting am i at ah?" Everyone nearly died. whahahahah

After that i rushed for drama... and i kinda "burst" into the room in the midst of seeing the members crying all over the place... Then i saw shikin giving instructions... so ya, that was when i realised they were doing the emotions thingy that i remembered doing and not being able to concentrate for rehearsals after the exercise.

I was about to stay for more fun when i was pulled along for TPSU meeting.

The meeting was... Hmmmm... I have no idea how the meeting was... but one thing for sure was that we left early... hehehhehehhehee...

And when we reach the studio again, they were doing that mirror thing and soon played the bachelor/bachelorette game.

After typing out this extremely long and pointless that seemed to be getting no where....

My conclusion is that... I think I'm beginning to enjoy certain activities alot alot. whahahahahahaha

PS: nah. not the part about going for meetings after meetings.. I'll manage to confuse myself..

Friday, July 22, 2005

ITS FINALLY FRIDAY!!

Let's see...

Company Law is later on at 3.10pm

Things That Are DONE & Handed up!

1. MLOCT (Both Individual & Group)
2. Accounts (Group)
3. Civil Procedure (F & B P)

Then finally,

I've already gotten my SIP place...

yup... I was anticipating elsewhere but got it at

NTUC Income Insurance Co-operative Limited.

ha. Ambik kAu. panjang pangjang... LOL!

OK. this week just doesn't seem to end. But, its been rather fruitful doncha think?

Hmmmz...

Things to be done:

1. Minutes
a. 10th July
b. 11th July
c. 21st July

2. Book room for next meeting

3. Organize the Drama-tec stuff. *its's seriously in a mess*

4. Go Swimming. *had to postpone it due to some foreseen reasons and feeling of guilt. so ya. I have to do it tmr.*

5. Study for the upcoming exams. *Study Week is on the of 29th August? or earlier?*

6. GO shopping. *Need more office wear like clothes. I am afterall gonna work in an insurance company..*
Accounts just wouldn't seem to get into my head, would it?

ARGH!~

I went home thinking that i'll be doing accounts... but once i reached home....

TA-DA!

I fell asleep.

This is great. Just great. Aisyah is soooo going to killl me.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Tired.

I cant wait to see the house and lie on my bed all day all night... go swimming... tralalallaa...

And guess wat?

It's only Thursday. This week just doesn't seem to end..

AND I'm HUNGRY... SUK CHING!! HUNGRY!!

Even my mom knows that i'm hungry. Told me to eat before continuing with my work again.

Hope that i wont be going home late tonight... hmmmm...

I wanna sleep and wake up late tmr... YAY!!

OH WAIT!!

I have a class in the morning tomorrow... and WHO'S BRILLIANT IDEA WAS IT TO CHANGE THE CLASS FROM WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON TO FRIDAY MORNING WITHOUT ASKING THE REST OF TEH CLASS?!!?!

I seriously wonder what diff will it make.. since i come to school on wednesday... and i still see my classmates around...

so ya
You, You & You!

You.
Do you know that you get on my nerves? Oh well, i suppose you dont. Why? Just coz, you ALWAYS think you're rite. Just coz, you're an elderly. You really don't have to insult me like that.

I'm a person. I have feelings. Oh ya, I forgot, i'm a child. We're suppose to listen to you, regardless of responsibilities that we already have. You hate him. But you dont always have to relate me to him and use it as your outlet.

I'm fucking pissed with you. But what can i say? Nothing. Why? I should respect you shouldnt i? Afterall, you are my mother's mom. He is my past. He is part of me. yes. But i don't need you to constantly remind me that:

1) We're related
2) Similarities between one to the other is stikingly close

You know how much i hate him. But you dont have to constantly rub it in. Such wounds are not easily healed or maybe it will not heal and you doing this to me is not helping either.


You.
I don't need you in my life. Don't you get that from my hints? WHy do you have to constantly question me as though you own me? I'm nothing to you. Nothing now or anywhere in the near future. When i tell you the truth, you think i'm denying. Why should i deny things? Me? Of all people? Deny? I dont think i even have that in me. I thought if i don't like you, i'd either:

1) Tell you straight in the face
2) Find means and ways to avoid you

And finally, STOP ASKING ME SENSITIVE QUESTIONS THAT I'M NOT EVEN PREPARED TO TELL YOU. Once again, i question you. Who Are You To Me?


You.
We're falling apart. There's nothing i can do about it. I'm sorry. I'm no help to the situation. I know i wont be able to make the situation any better. As usual.
I've been thinking hard wondering what is it that i'm forgetting...

Think think think think

Ponders ponders ponders

I looked around... Still can't seem to figure it out...

Then i read Mel's blog.

BAM!

That's it. I forgot all about accounts... ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Had Company Law meeting today...

I dunno how it went actually... Was it fine? Was it not? HMMMMZZZZ... So basically, i have no comments to it..

Then then..

JENG JENG JENG!

I went to an AUDITION!!! WAHAHAHHA!! My first audition ever... Its for a musical called Moon People!

Hidayah.. Stop laughing. Dont worry i didnt sing... Even though i was nearly forced into it.. whahahahaha

It was like.. MY VERY FIRST AUDITION.. I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!

*cue for audience to go: Awwwwww*

Then we went to eat at Mickey-Dees with Kay, Kin, Paul & Totz...
Wahahaa... i'm gonna use that names for blog entries.. its shorter.. :P

Its been so long since i ate there... But i miss the breakfast the most though...

Has anyone actually tried the Kaya Bread Breakfast?

Wonder how it taste like though...

OH YA! Before i forget...

ONCE AGAIN A GREAT BIG CONGRATULATIONS TO AZI FOR BEING..

THE CURRENT FIRST LADY!

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

HARRY POTTER - THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE

I want the damn book!!! ARGH!

LOL!

Its like.. $40.55

ARGH!!!

nvm nvm nvm.. I'll get it soon... like after SIP for example.. LOL! Abit long... but then again, I dont exactly have the cash now... Grrrr....

PS: Anyone have any recommendations for a part-time job? I'm like this close *puts up fingers* Yup. THAT close... into applying at Starbucks or Coffee Bean.. REALLY

And...

Harry Potter - Order of the Phoenix...

Is like selling at an ultra cheap price...

I can get 2 of the abovementioned books for the price of one book of the Sorcerer's Stone...

It's like only 7 friggin bucks!

I paid like wat... $30 for that book!!!

I feel cheated.

But then again, at least, i've read it countless times already... and my cat have actually managed to detach the cover from the rest of the book... And its hard cover mind you... STUPID CATS!

And she even managed to tear my library books... And now the daily newspaper always have a hole without fail...

Sometimes, it feels as though i have a dog in the house..

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Guess what?

I did the cleverest thing a person can ever do... Overslept.

I overslept for a class that i'm kinda prepared for.. Like.. WASTE MY TIME!! ARGH!!!

Class is at 9am... I woke up at 10am... and my class only ends at 12 noon... I feel so accomplished! ARGH! bloody shite...

Its the first signs of falling sick i tell you... ARGHHHH!!!

*Strangles self*
Ok... I've added the comment thingy here on the blog due to the request of some people... SO ya.. Hope that it'll be fully utilised... and well.. now you can comment on even the last few entries that i've made...

Have fun.. See ya
Dream #4

You're surrounded by all those things you want... Dream car, Branded clothes, Great food, perfect figure...

Everything is within your reach... Anything you ask for is either there or will be brought to you... You want everything... Power, Money... EVERYTHING...

You reached out for that one thing... You cant seem to reach it... You stretch further... Suddenly, there's a fine crack in between... It seemed to grow bigger... The width increasing by the second... You stretch even more... Hoping that you'll get that one thing and everything will be fine again...

You lose balance and fell. You keep on falling further into the never ending pit... The darkness engulfs you... You can't see anything at all... All you can see was the light that seemed to be fading...

You can feel that you're towards the end of this fall... Environment is more humid, musky... You see memories flashing by...

THEN...

You woke up with a start... You look around, trying to come to sense, trying to remember where exactly are you... Your clothes drenched with perspiration, your face pale... Then you realised... You're at home.. On your bed...

And, you're alive...

You look around and you realise what that pit actually meant...

Its reality.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Cousins are here.

Grandma's Back. ARGH! LOL!

2 interviews are done. Finally. LOL!

Now its time to wait. I CANT STAND THE ANTICIPATION. ITS KILLING ME!

I hope i'll be pleasantly surprised though. *Heeeeeee* *WINKZ*

I'm just so tired. hmmmm...

Friday, July 15, 2005

A non-dream entry.

A particular feeling. A particular scene.

How long has it been since devdas? Who would expect that i can relate more to it now, then while i was actually doing the production?

Who would expect that a certain scene, would affect me more now than last time?

Who would expect that i would still cry at the same scene, everytime?

Who would thought that it was even possible to cry at just a short time?

*slaps*

[(voice of utter dissapointment & anger) This is your share! What have you come to? I know we're the cause of your fall. Forgive us. Before you are completely ruined, get out of this house. LEAVE!]

Yup. That's the scene. The scene that'll make me weak after every try. A scene that never failed to make me cry. A scene that will never fail to make other people cry as well. So far.

A scene that actually meant alot to me.

Then i realised. That lady i played. She's partly me. Thats the reason why i can feel so much for her. I created her.

I created her using my thoughts, my emotions. Kaushalya.

I think i shall name my emotions - Kaushalya.

Only she will be able to make me bring out that much.

Things that i wont even show.
Dream #3

I saw a pair of the most beautiful eyes ever looking at me... Then... I woke up. I'm looking for that pair again....

Eyes are windows to a person's soul they say.. I will truly believe...

The intensity of the gaze, the gentleness, the concern, the emotions... You can actually see a story just by looking into those eyes... Its like watching a movie, but you're the only audience at that point of time...

Looks and any other physical attributes can never match up to eyes.

Honest, true, unmasked.

Even a flicker of emotion can be seen when you look directly in the person's eyes. There's nothing you can hide.

They can really take you away... Give you the warmth you need... Give you the comfort you asked... At times, you can even feel like slapping that person just by staring into their eyes.. YUP!

They're like a window. Gives you the comfort you need, confidence even. Sometimes, when you look into those eyes... You can actually see a future, with you in it.You'll see great times, bad ones as well... You'll see alot.

A pair like those, i've yet to find.

Misplaced a pair somewhere and another pair as beautiful as those are hard to come by.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Dream #2

Imagine this.

There's 2 girls walking side by side. Laughter in the air. Talking enthusiastically about their day. Updating each other on their lives. Whispering secrets.

The difference. One, receives appreciative stares, compliments, warm smiles... while the other, whispers behind her back, insults can even be heard at times...

Them. Exact opposites of each other. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally.

But how they wish they could be the other.

But they do have things in common... Them with all the rest, victims of pride and ego. Torn apart with no promise of meeting again.

A world filled with glitz, beauty and perfection waits one. While the other goes into the real world, where everything is harsh, honest and brutal.

How she wishes to be the other. To be appreciated that way even though its superficial. To be complimented. Just once, from people who have insulted her all her life.

How she fought to prove her point. But all she was taken for was that girl who was improper, talks to much that she's near rude and definitely (to them) not what a parent imagine their girl to turn out to be.

Both girls. Both have dreams. Both hates to be in the centre. But its normal that one gets everything perfect while the other dont. rite?

One dreams to be complimented by those around her, to just have that bit of looks, to be noticed, to be seen and accepted and to actually receive something positive from the person she cares & likes.

While the other. She's living it. and nothing can spoil it. she has it all planned out. she'll actually sulk if things doesnt go her way. Typical.

Sometimes, wishing to be like her... its like a princess getting her wish granted. but how long will that wish actually last when its granted...

Only till midnight?

Then, realisation hits.

Why wish to be someone else? When there are others who wishes to be you?

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

AHHHHHHH....

I'm scared... SHEESSHHZZZ!!! i'm like wondering what to do... Hmmmm.. I'm so worried.. i hope the interview will go well... *screams like an idiotz*

I've never actually went for an interview by myself... I mean its like nerve wrecking.. I wonder what to bring, is my outfit fine, what am i going to say, whether or not i can answer whatever they're asking... ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Ok ok.. i better stop this and just go and bathe.. haiz...

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Hmmm.. LIke finally Blogger Update the Entry Counts.. So it seemed that this is my 404th Entry...

Have i ever told you my dreams? hahahaha... I must truly be dreaming to be writing this down... I guess most of my upcoming posts now will be about dream then.. heee.

I came across something while rummaging through my wardrobe yesterday while searching for my mascara that seemed to have went missing last year... Yup. Its sad how i only came round to look for it yesterday...

I found something. I opened the box and took it out... I touch it and I look at it...

Then i heard sounds of applause, i saw beaming faces, admiration even... I heard cheers...

Clanging of metals, beads of perspiration, Shouts of frustrations, motivations & encouragement, trusting your own instinct, the beating of your own heart, the sore of your muscles, that particular action that can change your fate, that war....

I feel it all once again... That glory, that triumph, that excitement that has long gone came back to me again... Just by touching it... Just once...

Could i have been missing it unknowingly? Did i regret my decisions relating to it? After all this time? I should have forget it by now, forgo any dreams that i used to harbour... but instead of throwing it away, it was just cast to one side, till the day i come across it again...

And that day was yesterday...

Is that what they call passion? Interest? Destiny? Something that you truly have to fulfill? Something that has been buried deep within you that you can't live without it?

Each time i think about it... A recent conversation came to me... "You are THAT girl arent you?? What happened?"

Ever wondered what happened to that conversation? ahahaha... I denied it... But how long can i deny it even to myself?? hmmmz.

One day i'll flyyyyyyyyy awayyyyyyyyyy.....

And i promise myself... i will make this dream, fight, watever it is... come true.

Ancient Art, Modern Sport
More Than Just A Game

Friday, July 08, 2005

Hmmm.. I think.. thats all for company law.. i have faith in myself.. LOL! I hope..

And sometimes, i'm so thankful that my incoming calls are free all day and all night... hahahahahahahaha...

Ok so thats it.. I'm sleepy and i dont think i can get anything in my head rite now... HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ...

And after this... there's still projects... Haaaiiizzzz....

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

ok.. i'm near dying now...

I'm sleepy and all i wanna do now is to SLEEP. mauhahahaha...

I cant even absorb anything at this rate... My eyes are closing. close close close close... Its that bad.. really.. wahahhaa...

Anywayz, Civil Procedure's OVER! I dont think it was THAT bad... Hmm but i shouldnt get too over confident... i mean.. you wouldn't the know what the possible outcome be like... rite?? rite.

anywayz, i was thinking... maybe i should forgo this tagboard thingy... its seem so totally uninteresting.... reallyy.... nobody ever seem to tag here... aside from a possible of 1*BEEP*2 war... hmmm

I should just get back to accounts and later on think on a possible plan to take over the world!!

Yuppedie doooo dah...

Monday, July 04, 2005

There's Civil Procedure and Company & Partnership Accounts.

I'm gonna die.

Why?

Coz, i lazy to study... wahahahahaha...

tralalalallalalala.....

What shall i do now? Oh yes yes.. i shall study...

haiya.... so lazy...

OH well.. Guess what? i've watched Azizah's Phantom of the Opera...

YUP! THAT IS ONE MOVIE THAT I TOTALLY REGRET MISSING IT... BLOODY SHITE...

Wahahaha.. It was Beeeeeaaaauuuttiiifffuuulllll....... I'm totally in love with it... The singing, the costumes, the props, the storyline, the watevers... totally beautiful....

I'm going to get my own CD and return azi her CD back... and i'm going to watch it over and over again during the hols....

Watched "A lot Like Love" today with Azi & Kay.... Normal pointless kinda story... no wonder 8days gave it a 2 out of 5....

Saw my cousin just now...

Sometimes, its really funny how certain things a person do is usually quite the opposite of what they admit. The kinda people the openly admit they detest, are the people they hang with... The kinda race they complain about are the exact same race that i'm quite sure they would never be able to live without. The talks of moving abroad... hahahaha.. its really quite farnie when you hear it, the promises of their future, but in the end... they will do the exact opposite...

*smiles*
There are things that i'm not prepared for, not interested in, or simply cant be bothered about. Yup. A certain few knows what is it. Certain things that i'm not even sure i wanna explore further.

I know i make it sound like a big deal when it seemed as though its not. Coz, seriously, i've never been this confused about something so trivial before. Conversations that i never enjoyed before i seem to be welcoming it now.

Yup. I agree, the conversations was different from last time. But the reason i'm confused or that i dont want to be a part of anything rite now, Is that i'm afraid i'm making use of someone. I'm afraid that I'm making that person a substitute.

They wonder why wasn't i sad. Well, actually i was. There were many reasons that i was actually sad about.

Anywayz, i was prepared for such things to happen. Coz, i know certain things are impossible or just plain wrong-looking or sounding or watever. Therefore, no matter how sad i was, i knew that i had to get over things. Coz, i know, it was a one-sided thing all along. SO, there was no point brooding over something that didnt even have a beginning to begin with.

Then, at that point of time... the reappearance occurs.

Thats the reason why i'm half-hearted to even grant a possible chance.

Well, thats one of the main reasons... besides the other reasons that i've been giving la... muahahhahahahaa
I just had to get out of the house today... SO, i decided to come to school.. My grandmother was getting on my nerves. We were arguing about rooms. Can you imagine? Rooms? OF ALL THINGS!?! ARGH!!! *toooootttt tttoooottttttt*

Talk about a dam breaking open. You and a certain someone haven't stopped chatting for days -- and you two are showing no signs of stopping in the near future. Better make some coffee.

That's the horoscope reading for today from friendster. Hahahha... and my my, only god knows how close a coincidence that is... whahahahaha

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Quizzes, Quizzes, Quizzes.... Ring Ding Ding!!

GET TO KNOW YOURSELF BETTER
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


THE REAL YOU


Here is the analysis:
1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.


WHAT’S YOUR PERSONALITY LOVE STYLE?

Here is the analysis:
Love at first sight is your style. You are not fussy about who you fall for, and often there seems to be no rational reason for you deciding to love someone, it just happens and you'll follow your heart. When you do fall for someone, you fall completely. Your love is somewhat child-like, or what people like to call "puppy love". While following your heart is important, you should also remember to use your head occasionally.


WHAT TYPE OF PERSONALITY DO YOU HAVE?
Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Why do you have to return? Again?

I'm not prepared for you. Its too hard. I dont wish to get hurt. I dont want to be the victim. Its hard. If only you knew. I can't tell you that. You've been around. Even though at times, the timings are wrong. You were always around, even though you're a friend without face. But i shouldn't let it go on either. This is definitely not a game. You know that. So do i.

Hmmmm... I'm bored... Anywayz.. my shopping list or watever lists are out... whahahaha.. seems like i need to get on with the planning of my taking over the world. whaahahah.. to be rich.. Rich rich rich... LOL!

And Azi, why do you think that my malay is Chim? Seriously? I cant even speak it properly... whahahahahaah

Friday, July 01, 2005

MUAHAHHAAHHAHAHHA.... I have a feeling that this is gonna be one long entry.

Wei. Minahs/senoritas/watever we refer each other tooo.... Anywayz, when are we going to go out??

That makcik promise promise to go out.. i wait until i grow beard and my beard turn white also never go out...

Oh and... i know you wanna hear stories rite?? whahahaha.. i know i know.. but too bad, i need to bring my cat go sunat (circumsize - is this the correct spelling or not?)

Let's see what shall i blog about... Maybe i should bitch about something...

Let's see what's there that is worthy of my time to bitch about.... HMMMMM...

OH YA! Something extremely irritating happened yesterday... ARGH! So irritating i tell you. Irritating Irritating Irritating Irritating!! Muahahaha... Finish bitching already...

HMMMM...

what else ah? Aiyah. My life so uninteresting now. Got nothing to blog about also. So Hid, stop complaining or wondering why i never update or something... MUAAHAHAHAH...

If you want me to update. Meet up la. Make my life more interesting.

Oh ya...

List of Movies that I WANT to watch and die die WILL have to watch

- Alot Like Love
- Batman Begins
- Fantastic 4
- Initial D
- War of the Worlds (Still considering)
- Charlie & the Chocolate Factory
- Sin City

Ok i think thats all on the list of movies, FOR NOW. Now let's see, I KNOW...

List of things i wanna buy

1. Harry Potter, The Halfblood Prince
2. Tommy Hilfiger - True Star
3. Clothes for SIP [AIYA!!!]
4. Lots of Body Shop Products
5. Levi's Jeans
6. BackStreet Boys CD [I know la. A bit the old sch. But i have ALL their albums, might as well buy another one.]
7. Both Phantom of the Opera VCD & Soundtrack
8. Black Eyed Peas - Monkey Business [Oh wait, i've bought the album]
9. Some accessories [Even though i'm running out of things to buy in that dept. but wth.]
10. Nicer Tops.
11. Does buying slimming tablets count?

Now, let's move on to the next list.

List of things that I need money for

1. Slimming Session/Treatments [Whatever they call/refer themselves as.]

I was wondering, if i apply to Jean Yip, You think i'll get possible discounts for slimming sessions? Wahahaha... Just a Thought. Anywayz, Let's Continue with the list.

2. Driving License
3. Fencing Session + Coach
4. Probably a new phone?
5. Oh ya, I remembered Hid wanting to go for a Makeover. SO most prob, a make over?
6. Diving License
7. A Holiday
8. A dream car [Rite now, a Hyundai Coupe would be nice... :P]

Hmmm... I'll BRB. Wonder who's calling at 140am in the morning. trlalalalalala...

[30 minutes have passed]

Ok i'm back.

Hmmm... Let's see.. is there any other list to be put up?? HMMMZZZ....

OH SHIT. THERE'S A MOTH FLYING AROUND IN THE ROOM!!! ARGH!!! *Screams silently*

*Runs off to take Mortein... That's all folks*