Friday, June 30, 2006

Anyone ever wondered what happened if Nad actually lost alittle weight?

As in not that kinda skinny skinny, still chubby kinda skinny?

Well,

Here's how i'll probably look like... (look at my face! *Dies*)


UNRECOGNIZABLE!

I'm very sure that if lost a hell lot of weight in UK, once i come back.. No one would recognize me even when i'm standing right in front of them.

*Dies again*

OH SHIT! It's 3am and i'm still awake. And i have a bloody interview tomorrow at 930am at Bedok!! ARGH!!! Shit.

Went to watch Superman with Mel and Azi just now.

Wahahhaa..

I have no comments about the show. THe beginning was kinda draggy but it was ok la.. nothing much.. i dont like the credits.. (is that wat they call the beginning part of the movie?) it looks like WINDOWS Screensaver..

One thing for sure is that...

I'm gonna put romance movies on my LAST RESORT MOVIES TO WATCH LIST.

Coz, i'm pretty sure half way thru the movie.. i actually will feel freaking lonely. BLOODY SHIT.

Happened during Superman. I'm not gonna allow that to happen again.. WAHAHAHAH
OK.

I expected to get into trouble with my mom the moment i got down from the cab...

But i didnt.

Surprisingly.

Especially when she sounded damn pissed on the phone and the fact that my grandmother was nagging in the background didn't help either. Especially when i can hear what my grandmother was nagging is not a good thing as well.

When i met my mom, it was surprisingly normal. She was perfectly fine with me.

So now i know what has always been the problem.

The Dearest Senior Citizen in the house.

Well, at least she was asleep when me and my mom stepped into the house just now. My mom made me rush into the toilet before she notices anything...

ARGH.

I mean HELLO!! I'm like OLD ENOUGH TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

Ok fine. I'm still 19..

but still which 19 yr old gets nagged at for coming home later than 1130pm?? Which 19 yr old gets questioned every time she goes of out the house?? Which 19 yr old is stopped from going out as often as she wants?

Ok. me.

But you know wat i'm trying to say. I have things i wanna do. I have the curiousity of any teenager to try out some things.

ARGH.

I can't wait to go UK.

Yes i really cant.

3 yrs away from home. It MIGHT be 3 yrs of bliss for me.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Ok i'm here to announce to the world that i've finally gotten a replacement to my Samsung phone that broke apart!!

wheeeee!!!

I'm so happy!

lol..

It was a competition between the Moto Pebl and the LG M6100...

and my choice was?


Yup. I got the LG M6100. In singapore the avail. colours are white, silver and titanium gray. My mom thinks that the titanium gray is nice.. So i got the titanium gray.. So interesting. LOL!

One thing though, i have to get use to having such a small phone. lol.

But i'm still itching for moto pebl. Nvm. If there comes a more updated version of the U6. I'll conider it. LOL!

Monday, June 26, 2006

I'm starting work at Toa Payoh most prob next wk. I've not gotten back to the boss.

*scratch head*

Might be going Bangkok this August. No wait. WILL be going Bangkok this August. Will tell the boss that upon acceptance of job. Wahahaha..

I just wanna go there...

besides, its about time we go somewhere out of this country TOGETHER! i'm so looking forward to this..

*jumps around*

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Ok.. my "Dearest" Shahdon was tooo free.. so he decided to give people that he thinks is equally free some thing to do..

so here it is..

7 Random Things About Me
1) I'm shy (really!) especially around strangers.
2) I'm not as innocent as people think i am. LOL!!! *winks*
3) I wanna own my own fashion line and label.
4) I love animals even though i'm allergic to animal fur.
5) I'm allergic to dust so i dont do household chores. (trust me. i'm not lazy. lol.)
6) People love my cooking but i just can't be bothered to cook. (I'll cook only in dire circumstances; i.e: when everyone's sick and i'm broke and hungry)
7) I hate to watch Jurassic Park.

7 Things That Scare Me
1) Sharks (I really can't help it... its because of all the Jaws movies i watch as a kid)
2) the future
3) Cockroaches
4) Losing my mom, or even the thought of it.
5) Technology-less. (Includes cammie-less, hp-less, comp-less, mp3-less and more)
6) Vege. (Esp. Brocolli [yes hally. those are miniature shrubs!! EW!])
7) Fashion disaster moments on others or myself.

7 Random Music At The Moment
1) Rihanna - Unfaithful
2) PCD - Buttons
3) Ashlee Simpson & Missy Elliot Remix - LOVE (I totally love the effects)
4) Ray J - One Wish
5) MC - Never too far, through the rain, we belong together & its like that
6) BSB - Never Gone, Incomplete, What makes you diff makes you beautiful to me & Crawling back to you
7) nivea ft. youngbloodz & lil john - Okay

Ok well this is the only section i can like OVERFLOW... its like.. so easy to write my random music.. 7 is DEFINITELY NOT ENOUGH.. lol.. i have a long list of randoms.. like Ciara ft Lil Bow Wow - Like you and Ciara - 1 2 steps, treyz song ft twista - just gotta make it, BEP - My Humps, sean paul - temperature, marques houston ft Chingy - I Like that

and

I SHOULD STOP IT ALREADY.. lol

7 Things I Like Most
1) Good and Danceable music. (Damn Shiok i tell you.. LOL!)
2) 2 groups of 3s.

oh wait.. thats not things.. ok.. ermmm..
2.1) SHOPPING FOR SHOES AND EARRINGS! yup thats more like it.. now let's continue..

3) Camwhoring and influencing others to do the said.
4) Sitting and staring out the window when its raining (Its really therapeutic and soothing)
5) Fencing & maybe acting? lol...
6) ICE CREAMS, PRESENTS AND SOFT TOYS!! (Yes. i'm turning 20. so sue me for liking things like that. hrmph.)
7) A special moment

7 Things I Often Say
1) "Huh"
2) "Errr"
3) "Wat the fysh"
4) "*Ka-bish*" (That's a sound effect which i've verbalised)
5) "I swear (insert the rest of sentence)"
6) "Go and die"
7) "Aiyah, watever la. I dont care."

7 People To Do This
1) Hidayah
2) Suk Ching
3) Aisyah
4) Wahidah
5) Fadzley
6) Phifie
7) Mastura

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Yes.

I'm ending it tmr..

I cant believe this! Argh! I'm bloody pissed everytime i think about it..

haiz..

oh ya.. before i forget, i'll reply to something one of these days... so ya. stay tuned.

Monday, June 19, 2006

Ok.

My week resumes as per normal...

I'm working again... Even though i'm still recovering from post production exhaustion.

Leave over already wat... wat to do? I cant wait for my upcoming vacation in August!!!

wahahaa

I cant believe myself...

Anywayz, i'm back to doing my Writ of Summons and my quantification and my letter of demands and my bundle of authorities and my research for my lawyer's trial next week.

Yes pple. I'm working at a law firm.

Welcome to the life of a Paralegal.

wahahaha...

But i'm looking for another job.. at another law firm maybe... I'm leaving this one at the end of the month...

yup.

i'm leaving it even though my pay is quite high.. tralalala

why? Ask me and i might consider telling you!

*winks*

Saturday, June 17, 2006

DREAMSCAPE 3.0
play. stop. rewind.

Let me bring you thru the 3 mths of work before we reached the production week.

Welcome everyone.

To the Dreamcape 3.0 journey from the eyes of one of the directors.

ME.

It started off as a dream. Yup, a dream journey. Everything was fine. Everything was going great.

I remembered the first 2 months of rehearsals. It was so fun, i remembered weaving certain characters together to form a single story.

I remembered the daily rehearsals that was planned to end at 5 actually ending at 1 or 2pm.. i remembered thinking that i have such an efficient cast...

That i thought i had my very own dream team.

I really believed in that dream team. Especially when the filming was done, script was on the way out.

Then i suppose every dream will turn into a nightmare.

Its bound to happen. I mean nothing good lasts forever.

I felt them losing the feel, i felt some losing the interest... I checked the calender and its a month away from production. I thought my cast was tired with school work or whatnots so i pushed that naggin feeling out of my mind.

So we scheduled a mass briefing.

Maybe it was a mistake to have it.

I definitely acknowledge my mistake.

My mistake as a director was actually not bringing the entire cast and team to visualize what i had in mind. My mistake was not telling them my vision, telling them what i would see in the end product.

I knew that was the biggest mistake, coz, we did things separately... so no one other than the directors have seen the full picture... and i'm sorry for that mistake of mine...

However, it was no excuse for the lack of faith. but i respect that. Each to their own i suppose.

I took everything that was thrown at me... head on. yes. i should have dodged it alittle.. but i didnt.. i took everything head on, regardless of how hard the impact was.

The directors shared everything together.. Our last minute addition to the team was Shikin. Yup, as last minute as it was... She accepted the role fearlessly.

Courage was what i observe my directors having tons of. The courage to go on with a dream. The courage to face things. The courage to push for the unknown. The courage to face anything that was thrown in their way.

We built a wall. A wall maintained by the directors. We held hands to keep it strong.

The stormy skies did not clear. It stayed for 3 weeks. Yup... The sun begin to appear again as the production week loomed near.

Things miraculously changed throughout the production week.

Suddenly, i have people being extra hard working... giving their all.

But then again, its better late than never. rite? RITE.

Yerp. A miracle happened.

The opening night and closing night was pure magic.

I remembered the journey everyone was put through during the preparation process. The lack of commitment for rehearsals. The difficulty to concentrate during rehearsals.

I actually teared on opening night.

Its hard not too...

I remembered every single incident, i remembered ever single face that kept me going. I remembered every single word that was exchanged. I remembered every hurt that i felt.

And to have a briefing rite before opening night was hard for me. Yerp. Coz, it finally happened.

It ACTUALLY happened.

It came and went. By the end of it, i realised that watever was performed that night was the exact same thing that i saw 3 mths ago in the initial stage.

Yup, i already knew my end product from the beginning.

I've dreamt of it countless times.

And on the 15th June 2006.

That dream became reality.

Closing night came.

I was tearing in the holding area as i heard my cast performing on stage... Yes, I was tearing... I was trying so hard not to lose control.. Tears were dripping on my script. Yup, my script was tear stained.

I was looking at the page of the script that the cast was performing live before me... And i remembered thinking to myself, "Look Nad, Just hear that. Did you realise how much they've transformed?"

By the time Scene 19 came... I was actually tearing quietly beside the door. Doing curtain call wasn't easy.

It actually marked the end of a journey.

During the de-briefing, i've never felt quite so appreciated before.

It was funny how uncomfortable i felt. I couldn't wait for it to end. Maybe its coz, i'm someone who finds it difficult to show certain thigns openly... so when it actually happen to me...

i was speechless. Definitely speechless.

By the end of it, i was numb. Yup. the feeling of satisfaction was great. Later on, i went to the tree on stage. The tree that i built (later on with the help of Hally to complete it). I did wat i did when it came to the end of opening night.

I went to the tree, i went behind the curtains, i looked out at the tree as i turned off the lights on the tree.

Blue first, followed by red... and yellow was finally turned off.

Then i came out from behind the curtains and stood there infront of the tree staring at it. And i told myself, "The end."

I could go on thanking various people. Yet, i feel that its never enough. So here i am thanking you all again.

To the freshies: (both fifis, rainbow, eel, fiona, hidayah, hina [issit?] and the one that wears specs.. lol.. sorry i cant remember your name!)
i never would have thought that it would have been a fun time over such a short period. I never knew i would have the opportunity to spend time with you guys. Its funny how i was under the impression i was somewhat disliked by you guys. lol. I will definitely remember you all. Its difficult not to. You guys are the future of DT, take care and with the enthusiasm that i've seen in you guys... i'm definitely looking forward to see what you guys will bring to DT. Just keep in touch.

Iguana:
Thank you for agreeing to be my costume and make up head. Its been fun. rite? I'm sorry if there were times that i lost my temper and accidentally took it out on you. I'm sorry for that. I dunno wat else to say... i'm just grateful for your presence to do the dreamers' make up... To get the entire group of freshies ready. Remember wat i tell you during our msn convo, ok?

Halimah:
I've given you the note, but somehow i felt that its not enough. Thank you Hally. We became friends because of a production. We stayed because of a production. We definitely became so much closer because of a production. I thank you so much for putting up with my crap during the production period. Basically, i thank you.

Melvyn:
YO! just wanna say countless of thank yous to you.. i'm sure you know that already, from the note and all. I'm sorry for putting you thru alot of things. I'm thankful for your presence. Really grateful for that. Thank you for being there whenever i'm down. Thank you for pulling me up whenever i'm lagging. Thank you for giving me a shake when you know i needed it. i dunno what else to say.. so thank you.

Directors:
I dunno what else to say to you guys. Everything's done. Everything's said. All i hope is that we'll never lose contact with each other. Its been an honour working with the both of you. We watch each others back, we look out for each other. We made it happen together.

The rest of the team:
Thank you for everything. Thank you for staying. Thank you for being there till the end. I'm glad that we started the journey together and we end it together as well. It has been some journey and i thank ALL of you for being a part of it.

__________________________________________________

TO all of you,


I dunno when we'll meet again. this might be a good bye to some... Maybe we'll meet each other again.. Maybe we might not. So i'll just take this oppor. to say... Good Luck to all and take care!!

I wish you guys all the best...


I know that i've made a statement once, sometime during this production during one of those times where i was frustrated... that i would never be in theatre again after this... But then again, i wouldn't know when oppor. will come knocking on my door. In other words, i'm not washing my hands off theatre. Yes kin. i'm listening to you.


so maybe, i might be working with some of you agian..

In another time, another place, another production.


So.. It'll be a goodbye for now, from me to you.


p.s: There will be a cast party. no worries.



-Nadira-
________________________________________________________


Hidayah:
Thank you for your poster design. Thank you for your programme booklet. Sorry for stressing you out with my requests for the poster and the programme booklet. But i know you still love me rite? lol!! Its such a pity that you missed my show.. it receive HIGH RATINGS from the audience from BOTH NIGHTS! too bad. dont believe me.. ask deena. she came to watch it with Haizad.

My friends & Cousin: (azi, deena & Nadia)
Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for coming. Thank you giving a listening ear when i needed it. Thank you once again. I hope you guys enjoyed the show. And thank you for coming to ALL my shows so far.. wahahaha. Love ya'll loads.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Thank you all of you for coming or taking this journey with us.

For now, the dream has end and reality resumes as per normal.


Signing out finally, leaving the dream behind.



This is Nadira.

One of the Directors for Dreamscape 3.0 -Play. Stop. Rewind.-

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Opening night's in 15hrs..

Hahahaha...

i'm actually confident in my cast! i hope no one reads this though.. as in anyone from my cast... they cannot know this.. coz, later they over confident how??

lol.

Its been a long journey and its coming to an end.

and its been some journey indeed.

and i cant wait to see what tomorrow has in store for me..

good nyte Singapore, and welcome to Dreamscape 3.0!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

By Temasek Polytechnic DramaTec

DREAMSCAPE 3.0
p l a y . s t o p . r e w i n d .

PRODUCERS:
Shahdon Md. Jamil
Ramkumar Kabetha Bai

DIRECTORS:
Nurashikin Abd. Rahim
Nur Nadira Zainal (yours truly!!)
Shahdon Md. Jamil

Venue: Auditorium 2 Odyssey (Temasek Poly)
Date: 15th & 16th June 2006 (Thursday & Friday)
Time: 7.30pm SHARP (Door opens at 7pm)
Ticket price: $5 (its even cheaper than a movie ticket!!!)

A devise play, set in an unknown space where dreams are played out. Be fascinated by 3 original pieces interwoven with multimedia and live stage performances.

LOST
It’s a story of 2 souls who are alike yet facing different problems in life. Both are engulfed in loneliness and each yearns for freedom. While in search of an escape, they stumble upon an unknown chance to realize a certain relation that they were never aware of. A story unfolds revealing the past, present and an uncertain future. Will these souls be reunited again to form a happy family or its just one of those fantasies that only occur in dreams?

PARANOIA
A lady believes herself to be reformed and never to turn to her old ways. The ways, which viewed by society, will be considered Forbidden. Happily married to a loving man with wonderful kids, she led a happy life devoting herself fully to the marriage. Till one day, in a midst of the hectic office life that the husband leads, she was neglected. He dreamt of a possible reason why she doesn’t seem bothered by his neglect. Did she really reform or was that an old habit that is difficult to cast aside?

DISAPPOINTMENT
Teenage life is never easy. Ironically, its harder for a parent. Attention-seeking, rebellious and lost, Nur Safarina does everything in her powers to feel accepted or feel loved. Her mother, a single parent, finds it difficult to face the society with her current status as well as the fact that her only daughter is not making her proud. Praying to god to allow her daughter to realize her plight, a twist of events took place. Was her prayers answered or was she hoping for an impossible light to cast down on them?

_____________________________________________________

Interested?

Email me at ddzaniel@gmail.com or my msn, spikeyspike2000@hotmail.com . for those of you that have my number... feel free to message me then..

wheeee

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

When i feel like giving up and i look at the hard work and i push the thoughts aside...

When i feel like screaming, i look around at the faces and the anger subside, alittle, yet it still subside, somewhat.

When i feel like killing, i remembered that there's enough killing going on in the world and they're not even recruiting for new members.

When i lose faith, i look back at the thing that keeps me going.

When i get disappointed, i remind myself of the times i've been proud of them.

When i feel helpless and lost, i turn to you and i thank you for it. A friend with little to say but actions that speak louder than words. A silent friend is wat i call it.

When i feel like crying, i follow a certain someone i know... think of rainbows, bunnies and colourful lollies and everything in this world will be beautiful again.

and then...

when you look back, you wonder why did you endure all of it?

and unconsciously you find yourself answering, that all of this is a learning experience. For the other to learn from you and you to learn from them.

Coz, beneath ALL of it.

You will not realise at that very moment the beautiful things that were present until yrs have passed and you look back at it again.

And then you see it.

There.

Around all the time, waiting for you to realise it.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Hmmm..
I dunno how to describe it.

Hmmm..

I dunno how to describe it.

The people are nice, the bosses are nice... but you know.. you just get the feeling that you wont stay there long?

yup. i get that feeling.

me? getting that feeling is rather odd you know. esp, when i can be considered rather loyal...

ARGH.

i dunno. maybe i'm easily bored there. Maybe soon, i wont be so bored la.. who knows.

I have my own table which i'm gonna decorate soon. no actually i have like 3 tables to myself, making it look like a U-shape cubicle...

i've transported my mugs there, my crocs are there... i need to transport my sweater, shawl, stuff to paste on the wall, and i'm looking for an eeyore soft toy to put on the CPU! wahaha!! oh yes a place to put my stationaries, nice and colourful ones. At least you know, it will have my trademark there...

SPEAKING OF SOFT TOYS AND TRADEMARKS!

i went to watch Da Vinci Code with my mom, cousin and aunt. like FINALLY!

So while waiting for my cousin and aunt to arrive, my mom went to buy the tickets. So i naturally will tag along rite? yup i did.

Both of us walked up to the counter and my mom asked for 4 tickets to Da Vince Code.

The girl at the counter said, "Ermm, for you info this movie is NC16."

My mom: "Ok. i'm fine with that."

The girl kinda ignored my mom and turned to me, "Exactly how old are you?"

(Pls keep in mind, i just came back from work... So, i was not in my jeans and t-shirt)

I stared at her for a moment to check whether was she teasing or something before i answered, "err.. 20?"

She stared at me before she started laughing.

seriously, i dunno whether thats a good thing or a bad thing.

Friday, June 02, 2006

Sometimes, the cheesiest of songs can be the most applicable to the situation.

Eeks.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Ok.. the great singapore sale is here.. and i'm going crazy..

wahahaha... for the very first time, i'm actually buying things during this period.. as in.. buy things by myself for my own use you know... i swear age is the answer to me going for solo shopping sprees... i no longer wait for my mom, unless the things i wanna buy is like way BEYOND my budget.

well, been going out with mel for the past few days.. and its HILARIOUS!

ok we went shopping on Monday... And the best part of being an image consultant is that...

wahahahaha.. you get to pick out ANYTHING and force it on the subject to try!!!

oh well, been doing that to him for close to 3yrs now... so i guess he's used to it.. LOL! ok the fun part is this...

You go to a shop... You pick out something nice... You force him to try... and he ends up buying it...

So its like..

going shopping without spending a thing!! LOL!!

so in the end?

EVERYONE ALSO HAPPY! lol!!!

Wat did i buy for myself?

On Monday, I bought for meself 2 tees from esprit and a tie from topshop. Yes, i've always been into ties but never found those skinny ones... and finally topshop's selling it!!!! so ya, my mom is encouraging me to buy more ties... lol!

I just hope that once i start working, my colleagues or lawyer wont comment that i got to work as though i'm going for a fashion show.

But anywayz,

I spend a total of $68.90 0n monday!! UNLIKE MEL! lol...

So today i met mel at PS.. wahaha.. after he left for Victoria Concert Hall and before i went to shop for production's make-up... I bought meself 2 pairs of heels from X:odus.

YUP! 2!

Yes, for those of you who have hung around me would know i'm a sucker for shoes and earrings... YUP! i have tons of earrings.. big ones, small ones, glittery ones, HUGE & antique ones... YUP, you name it.. i think i might have it...

But now, my shoes collection is on the rise...

I bought 2 shoes from there and i only spent a total of $33!!! YUP!! That's how much i'm loving the sale rite now!!!

Coz, in 1 week i've gotten for myself 5 items and i've spent around $100!!!!

Wooohoooo..

I still have other things to buy!!!

Like jeans & 3/4s from Dorothy Perkins, Formal Shirts from Robinsons... Oh well, i'll have to put my priority on the formal shirts i guess.. SO SAD!!

But then again, formal shirts = me having something to wear my tie with!!!

YAY!!

Ok i'm mad.