Thursday, July 30, 2009

Hello Home

Its been a difficult time adjusting.

I havent been sleeping much. I just can't sleep.

Its too warm. Its too bright. Its too noisy in the middle of the night. And I stay awake, waiting for the night to get darker as it progresses. I waited and waited. And soon I realise, the sounds of engines being turned on gets more frequent, people starts sneezing, coughing, toilets flushing, water running through the pipes. Yup, people are waking up to go to work already. And I am still awake.

Haiz.

And yes, I am currently in Singapore. Its just one of those random moments of mine which I am so famous for but people have agreed that this is by far the random-est of it all. I've had enough. Had enough of boredom and void of human contact. So i've decided to just fly back here.

My aunt (my mom's sister in Malaysia) thinks and is convinced that I am homesick. But I'm not. Seriously.

I was too bored and I've had enough of staring at the wall and later on the ceiling of the house with no one to talk too or hang with for the entire day OR DAYS. Yup. Some form of random activities and human contact would be good. but oh well.

Its funny how when I was in Adelaide, despite the boredom, I did not miss home and now that I am home, I am somewhat missing Adelaide. The quietness, the peacefulness, the tranquillity. And you know what's worst? When I landed at Changi Airport on Monday, strangely enough, I didn't get the feeling of "i'm home" the way I usually get when I return to Singapore from somewhere. Bleargh!

And you know what else is funny? I can no longer understand the Singapore Accent. I'm so used to the Aussie pronunciation even though I do not have their accent. It has reached to a point where I have constantly turned to Deena and ask "how much did he say?" Yup. Its annoying that I can't seem to catch the totals of the bubble teas or Macs which I'm suppose to be paying for. And therefore, I have now officially given up in trying to decipher the amount and have resorted to passing a large note to pay for the stuff resulting in me having more then enough change! -.-" ya.

Truthfully, somehow I suddenly feel out of place here. And its ONLY been 6 months since I left. I feel like a bloody alien in my own country, simply by not being able to catch what others are saying! bleargh~

Sunday, July 26, 2009

APOLOGIES~

I know that i havent been blogging much since the last I blogged about me moving remember?

Ya well.. let's see alot of things have somewhat happened i suppose... lol! Hols ends this week or rather tomorrow and guess what have i been doing? NOTHING. great isnt it? yup.

I'm so grumpy angry frustrated at the fact that I've been bored with nothing to do. Yup. I do get annoyed when i have nothing to do no one to go out with. its the same kind of feeling i get when my grandmother decides to shut down on me back home and I cant go out.

I'm the kinda person who gets restless easily and boredom doesnt really sit well with me. I feel kinda useless.

Anywayz, i went into some house trouble but now i've been moved. followed my housemate and moved with her. SO its all good at least for now. My room is spacious enough but its kinda far from the toilet and with the sprained ankle, that's not really a good thing especially when its already uber urgent. HMPH!

Soooo.. how did i sprain my ankle?

Remember the fencing comp that i was blogging abt last week or so? yup. I had fencing comp 2 fridays ago and I sprained my ankle in the first bout of the Foil comp. And yes, I know I fenced Sabre but I was supposed to fence all 3 weapons in the competition. The last I did that was in Sec School. -.-

SO I sprained my ankle rite? I pulled out of foil and epee and continued fencing sabre in which we won. HAHAHAHAH! Sprained ankles and all. It was quite hilarious how we won the sabre comp coz I can barely move! lol! One of the reason why I still wanted to fence despite the sprain was coz I stayed in Adelaide during sch hols instead of flying back to Singapore was for this comp. so ya.

But ya my teammate have proudly announced that Flinders have a candidate for Paralympics! annoying rite!!??

The first 3 days of the sprain was a nightmare. I couldnt move and it hurt so bad. All i wanted to do was cry. HMPH! Whooops!~ i shouldnt have admit it here. lol! But Mel helped feed me over the weekend. he send dinner over!! yay!! so nice rite my best friend? *smiles*

SO what have i been doing? I've been doing movie marathons and drama series marathons coz I stole it from my housemate. Yup she gave me her entire external hard drive for me to take whatever i wanted. LOL! so i've been having marathons of

Wildchild
X Men Origins
Dragonball Evolution
Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging
Marley and Me
Click
Transporter 1, 2, and 3
Fast & Furious
Bolt
City of Ember
Bedtime Stories
Yes Man
Changeling
Slumdog Millionaire
Space Buddies
Horsemen
Moulin ROuge

YUP. Thats alot of movies but i've watched it all and some more than once! LOL! its only been 3 or 4 days. Watched Desperate Housewives too..

But i've been tired from the moving and the energy drained from trying to control the pain from my ankle that i've just been lying unconscious on the bed half the time and it doesnt help that the weather here has been unpredictable and therefore cutting the internet connection off half the time.

Really pisses me off.

Hmmm.. you know.. Mom asked me to go home the other day. But I was half hearted. I don't know why. There were times that I was thinking that I should have just went home, if i didnt sprain my ankle or with the sprain ankle. but at the same time, i keep on thinking that staying here seems like the best idea.

I've adjusted here enough. If I were to go home, it'll be like going back to a craving no? And then coming back here I will have to readjust all over again.

The thing with me is that I don't even know how I feel sometimes. I'm so used to dealing with things sometimes that I have no idea how i really feel. Whether I miss home or I don't? It doesnt help that I'm someone who have never vocalise my thoughts or feelings.... much.

My cousins have been wanting to go for an end of the year get a way. Hope I can join them... I havent been on a holiday in a really long while. =)

Halimah wants to go KL end of the year and she intends to drag me along as well. LOL!

I need to readjust my body clock. bleargh!

School starts next week and I dont wanna goooooooooooo~!!! LOL

Monday, July 20, 2009

LADY GAGA

I think one can agree with me that its not easy to appreciate the kind of music by Lady Gaga, the techno mix and the overly computerized voice can get alittle annoying when you're not in the right mood for it. But.. I actually like this acoustic version!!! LOL!

So mel! Once your internet is fine again, please download k? i'll post up the list of songs i want toooo~!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

FINALLY

Someone out of the ordinary for National Day Theme Song!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

CLEAN ROOM

I realised one thing today and yesterday.

Its different living by yourself and living with total strangers.

I'm a clean freak.

one of the reasons why i have yet to put my necessary stuff in public areas is coz i have not clean those public areas yet and i am somewhat... errmmm..

well let's just put it.. i wouldnt put it there...

at least not yet.

I would disinfect the entire house if i could. heh.

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Next week's the comp... I might actually most probably hopefully get a medal. khekhekhekhekhe...

But then i have yet to fenced everyone...

so i cannot be over confident.. yup yup

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how's the new house?

haiz. have yet to find out.

its just strange having to own everything... like as if i dont have enough stuff of my own already...

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you know there's always this sinking feeling.

i dont even know what it is anymore...

or maybe its better not knowing...