Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Warm Fuzzy Feeling

There's a warm fuzzy feeling inside knowing that your friends of yesteryears still read your blog even though we've never spoken online much anymore. Come to think of it, I've never actually met up with them whenever I'm back during the hols.

In other news one of my friends from Singapore is here in Flinders as well... and he's currently attached to his classmate. Its funny really. How everyone seemed to be able to get attached so easily and then here I am as single as ever. Can't seem to latch myself on someone... *shrugs* oh wells. On a brighter side, I don't have to deal with immature behaviour and petty arguments which, well, i truly do not have the patience for! LOL

I'm at Cibo again. Drinking coffee will thinking about my Public Policy Presentation. Doing on the South Australia Tourism Commission. I'm thinking if I do well in this particular critical analysis can I apply to the Tourism Commission for a job and get it even though i'm not Australian? Tsk. Sometimes, being an international  student pisses me off. Especially when as an outsider you see how the locals deal with everything. You see how the locals are not taking the full advantage of the benefits that the government is providing for its citizens. Its such a protectionist country that I as an outsider envy the insiders and yet I wish how the government could extend a hand of opportunity to a foreigner like me into certain government organizations and have some benefits the way other developed countries are providing for their foreigners.

I'm constantly wanting a better life. Chasing after something. I know what I want in life. I know what I need to get what I want. But the thing about me is that i'm impatient. I've always been impatient. Therefore I'm really impatient and totally hating this reroute. How is that? Everyone says there's always something good that will come out of this. But i'm constantly thinking what have I done wrong in life to deserve this? Maybe I should have been a little more appreciative of my life. Haiz.

In other news, the dress maker is coming tmr. At 1145am. hurhur. I better be awake!!

And also my driving instructor is pissing me off.

Monday, October 10, 2011

October Rain

Its Monday. The second Monday of October. I' in the city for Uni but the thing is now i'm in the city and there is no class today. WIN.

But the good thing that came out of today is that i managed to spend the morning catching up with Sar-Bear. Sometimes you don't realise the changes within yourself till you look around and see how you react with the situation that has been laid out in front of you. Sometimes you don't realise you've start caring for someone till you feel how hurt they are when they break down in front of you and you feel like hugging them till their tears subside. Sometimes, you don't realise the deepening bond of friendship you've created until you sit in a car and you're trying to comfort the other while she pours her heart out to you in the car on a buzzing Monday traffic.

And then it hit you. You're starting to care for these individuals. These individuals who were once strangers are now your friends. Then I smile thinking how rare it is for me to get one here. A friend. =)

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Things to do today:

1. Head to spotlight since i'm already in the city.
2. head down to uni and leave a note for my lecturer under his door
3. Work on my SATC presentation
4. Annoy mel.

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

Back in the Library.

I'm back.

In that favourite place in the library. The cave.

I should be starting on my Public Policy Assignment by now but i'm still trying to finish the American Studies one!!! Omg. Truthfully, the last lap is always the hardest they say. Especially when you don't exactly enjoy whatever it is you're doing. hrmph. oh god.

I constantly wanna do something after to keep my mind off things but its never successful no matter how hard i tried. Its like there's always someone who's not willing to do it with me. And half the time i'm that picky i usually ask the same person over and over again. hmmmm

For the first time in weeks i've crashed sleep yesterday and still sleepy. goodness. I woke up or rather jumped up today at 2pm!!!! 2PM!!!!!! and i'm sleepy tired now.. downing my ultra bitter mocha is seriously not feeling much... REALLY!

There's so many things i wanna do, its also about a month till i'm heading back to singapore for the wedding.

1. Meet my dressmaker once she's back from the hols to pass the other set of cloth.
2. my hair. Seriously i wanna keep it long than what i have at the moment but i'm not really sure if i have the patience for the weight. I kind like my hair right now.. its actually behaving really well.. i most prob just have to rebond my fringe.. sekali who knows, i end up curling it. HURHUR
3. My face is STILL peeling in this spring weather. driving me crazy. it makes me look like a snake. I HATE IT!
4. I'm turning a quarter century old in exactly 20days. omg i hate this. I dont mind growing old. But I hate growing old with nothing to put my name too. really. I feel so bleargh. its like i'm underachieving.
5. to call my driving instructor for a lesson.

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Of Blogs and Updates

I think my blog looks ugly now. Really! I have mixed feelings about the banner i've put up. but I'm kinda liking the new blog interface. Its simple and bright! I love it! 

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Sesekali ku lihat kembali kenangan lama dan ku tertanya tanya... apakah salah ku? Setiap kali aku rasa ringan bagaikan burung berterbangan tinggi; bersuka ria ada saja yang akan menamatkan keriangan itu. Kekadang ku rasa seperti orang luar melihat kedalam kehidupan ku sendiri. Kawan. Apakah makna sebenar Kawan? sentiasa tersisir, diketepikan, dimasukkan ke dalam kotak yang tiada pintu kelar. adakah ia suatu cara untuk menjaga hati? -.- terima kasih sahajalah ye. 

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Chad still checks up on me from time to time. I guess i'm somewhat appreciative of that? hmmm *shrugs* R still hasn't left me alone in my dismay. Instead, he has turned stalkerish. Greg ended before anything could start. HAHA! Maybe it was my fault but wth la really... no one should piss me off that badly. Dammit. I sound like a player.. but.. i'm not.. really not. I'm just really not interested in people that much and I lose interest in people too easily.. especially if they don't try to keep me interested and petty arguments just pisses me off. I know I've never said or talked about any guys here before on my blog especially not since 3years ago. But there have been a few people who has walked in and out, sometimes 6 during the same time period. HAHA! oh wells. i'm really not taking them seriously. I have so many things to bother about. So I suppose the problem really do lie with me? I just don't exactly care about most or any of them. -.-

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Term break's ending. Uni's starting next week. hurmmpphh... 

Saturday, October 01, 2011

Cats eat Birds. That's just the way it is.

Reached home to a Sar-Bear screeching in happiness.

Today's the footy finals. Geelong Vs Collingwood. My roomies are all Cats fans of course! I, on the other hand, do not watch footy. I just can't seem to grasp the game!! And to think I was on a touch team once before... -.- Shame on me! third year in Australia and I have yet to catch a whole footy game!

Joined them in the living room just to bask in the atmosphere. Reminded me of home. Of that comfortable time with my cousins and the cats as we watch our favourite teams battle it out on the field. Or that one memory at the casino watching the World Cup and I didn't realised I got so caught up in the game that i actually cursed out loud and scolded the australian team. Thankfully, i'm a girl. Do you know what could happen in a place where you're the only one that doesn't support the aussie team and outrightly scolds them about it? LOL! Mel just stared at me in horror when i just started cursing and swearing at that point of time and looking around the room apologetically at the other patrons. *.*

Saz's partner is here. Mac. Apparently, they're going on well together now. LOL! Who would have thought hey? The paranoia in the beginnings and all. lol! she calls him "the other half" as she was telling me about the pending arrival.

As i sat myself on the lazy couch, with sar-bear warning me that it could get violent coz its the last quarter of the match and my reply was "seems that I reached home at the right time!!!" Ahhh was I just in time to be kept amusingly entertained for the last 45mins or so. LOL! As Mac's face changes into a pout and a sulk with Sar-Bear screeching in happiness and singing the Geelong anthem! LOL! the only male in this house and apparently the only one not supporting Geelong. I swear he has no idea what he's gotten himself into as he openly supports the other team. LOL! He obviously took it out on Sar-Bear, messing her hair and smacking her with the dish towel as beer spilled over the carpet by the time it was official that the cats have won! I just peeled over in laughter! Best scenario i've seen in a long long while! LOL!

Geelong Cats Vs Collingwood Magpies. Of coz the cats will win. Its fate. Its destiny. That's just the way the food chain works. LOL!

Of Coffee and frustrations..

Been out the whole night yesterday. Not the best decision ever since I really wanted to finish my essay but hey when a friend needs your company you can't really say no can you? I mean you wouldn't want someone to say no to you when you really in need of some company? I'm sure not.

Sheesha-ed our problems away. Sitting at Sheesha Lounge sometimes it feels like a family reunion as all the middle eastern fellas and ladies stare at you in recognition. LOL! And after awhile you're allowed to use the staff toilet and they keep your bag with the family's belongings is just epic. I couldn't stop giggling to myself.. but hey hey. LOL!

So here I am sitting at Gloria Jeans on Hindley St on a springy saturday afternoon in adelaide with my laptop and typing out the finishing touches to my essay which should be ending soon. At least I hope it will. Sipping away on my favourite White Chocolate Mocha, its just making my Saturday even more heavenly even though in reality i'm actually lacking in sleep and staring at my assignment. But somehow, i'm not complaining. I'm not even having a care in the world. I'm calm. I suppose the outing yesterday was what I needed. I needed to stay away too. Destress of some sort I suppose. Didn't realised that I needed it. hmmm oh wells. 

People watching is also a way to de-stress. I love it. So the inner city girl that i've been trying to hide over and over again speaks out.. =)