Tralalalallalalalaa.... ITS SUNDAY NIGHT!! WHAHAHA.. ok i'm mad..

Argued with my mom over the silliest things in the entire world!! guess wat?

Thumb Drive & Floppy disks...

Went to Sim Lim Sq today..

purpose was that my mom was getting herself an external hard disk...

So she asked me whether or not i have to get anything.. and i was like.. Ya, i need floppy disks... then she was like why on earth are you still using floppies? why never get yourself a thumb drive??? Then i was like.. i dont see the purpose in it..

Then she goes into a long lecture... about how she got me a thumb drive in the beginning of poly.. and that i returned it back to her.. coz, i lazy to bend down to find the usb port.. and that i was afraid that i might lose it.. *Headache*

I mean... excuse me, i was doing her a favour lor.. first of all 2 yrs ago, thumb drives are expensive.. and she got me a 512MB one.. i mean hello... i dont carry expensive gadgets around besides my handphone... That gave me enough heart attack.. Fear of misplacing it..

Anywayz, she was saying.. when i give you thumb drive you dont want.. when i not getting you one.. you need it... Then i was like.. MA!!! i never ask for thumb drive can!!! I asked for floppy disks... I dont need expensive thumb drives, just plain old conventional floppy disks... SHEESSH! *rolls eyes*

so ya.. that was how i spend my trip to sim lim today..

Hmmm...

This is an extremely boring saturday i'm going through here... AIYO.. But i should be studying for convey instead of doing god knows wat...

Hmmm... Saw my cousin on the stanfield college commercial... hahaha.. maybe he's in there rite now.. or maybe.. he's one of those picked off the streets to do a favour kinda thing.. lol! i shall ask his sis one of these days.. lol..

And once again i'm bored... to death... and i cant do much... having muscle cramps due to yesterday's swimming trip... and today's trip make it worse... and the new cat is a pest.. have i mentioned that before?

Oh well.. I'll gladly say it again..

THE NEW CAT'S A PEST! so ya.. There you go.. lol..

hmmm..

oh ya.. i had accounts today.. LOL!! Well the results are out.. Yes, the A' Levels results are out.. But i'm talking about the accounts class test.. whahahaha.. How anti-climax rite? i know! But watever...

so i shall proceed on talking about that particular results.. it was the most unexpected thing that ever happened to me! lol... may accounts might not be that bad after all..

And been suffering the headache again... throughout the day.. dunno wats wrong also.. went swimming after that.. swam and swam and lost count of how many laps... just to drive the headache away.. its bad...

Met my mom later on.. seriously think that she needs a break.. or i'm gonna have a word with her colleague/ex-boss/partner.. seriously. If he doesnt stop calling her slow and lowering her self- esteem, i would rather have her jobless than for her to have a daily dose of verbaly abuse.. yes, i'd definitely count that as verbal and mental abuse..

I gave her a tip though.. the next time he irritates her.. i told her to show him her middle finger or make violent hand gestures.. seriously think her middle finger is under utilised... so YA!

and after that i got a surprise of my life...

THERE'S A NEW CAT IN DA HOUSE...

aiyo.. i thought crystal will be last.. i guess not then.. its Orange & White... Me and mom have decided to call it PATCHES.. yup.. it has an orange spot on its nose.. lol..

And now i'm walking around the house with tissue and sneezing all the way..

Coz,

1) My allergic reaction to animal fur...

&

2) the cat's in love with me and follows me everywhere and expects me to pat it constantly...

And to BeCkY! Congrats on the results ya? :P

Had my Psychology Presentation today...

hmmmmmmm

It was.. fine and not so fine?

I have no idea how to describe this... i think it was perfectly fine.. but obviously one of my group members was stressed out... She was TOO stressed out i tell you.. And over psychology.. OF ALL THINGS.. but ya..

Too the extent that she find fault with nearly everything and obviously one of the guys became the victim.. whahahaa.. poor thing..

besides that, well.. i guess not to bad since, the so called nerd in the class didn't ask us anything about our presentation.. Call it our luck.. or maybe.. he was just plain nervous since his presentation was immediately after us...

HMMMM.. It was crappy.. but i have no comments.. the crappy part is commmenting on the class today generally, not to any particular thing, person, or group in particular...

GOSH! my headache is back... been suffering the entire of psychology class... i seriously think that there's something wrong... but watever...

i'm getting songs from one of my psycho classmates... BUT i'm having a slight problem in transferring it into my MP3...

HAIZ.. Technology... SO LECEH!

I'm rotting here in ILaw with nothing much to do, nothing much to think and obviously nothing much to talk about...

Hmmm.. you know.. its the very first time that i have lots of time at hand and obviously that there's nothing to blog about...

let me think of something interesting...

Which is obviously a little difficult as i'm constantly distracted by conversations on how pple wanna watch Spongebob Squarepants the movie.. yes.. you hear the strangest things in ILaw Chambers...

Well... I've finally found something to do for myself.. *DUH~! who else if not me rite?*

And that mission is...

Mission: IRRITATING AZI OUT OF HER WITS

Which obviously i'm succeeding very well and she thinks that i desperately need mental health immediately... Its just so fun to keep on pressing the back space button when someone is trying to view the website dont you think?

And when the irritation level raises a notch, all you have to do is run away... and comes back when the time is right... which is anytime just about now? well.. i have to irritate her before she actually goes for lesson... so ya.. *Angelic Smiles*

OOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooo Azizahhh! *crepts up to azi's come..*

ARGH!! I'm having a VERY VERY BAD HEADACHE AT THE MOMENT!!

*pulls hair desperately*

the feeling is like... ARGH!! Like as though i'm gonna die!!!

i think i'm gonna puke soon! Sheesh!

Oh ya... and to those that i talk to online and thinks that i was grumpy or something.. my apologies.. just that at the moment i cant be patient and keep repeating stuff that i've said previously... so ya..

I need to prepare for my psychology.. hmmm.. but never mind.. i'm even having difficulty typing this out...

Ah.. shit.. this is bad.. i think my head is breaking.. i think i'm gonna die.. AIYO! so pain!

I knew i had something just now... hmmm... My mind was like.. go to school.. go to school.. but i was obviously doing some other thing.. and was like.. but i have nothing in school...

Aiyo!

Watever la nad... you already missed it.. You ocan just continue doing watever you're doing.. and just leave the house soon..

(Ok.. That was my mind bickering with each other.. LOL!)

ok i'm awake now... LOL!

I practically slept through a meeting and a lecture...

Well, i'll meet them tmr or something.. AIYO! and get today's lecture notes from some kind soul... *Gives Kay or Azi puppy dog eyes*

and i'm hungry again...

I better go find something to eat, bathe and then go to school for psychology lecture...

Good day all! Muahahaha.. Its a good day! Its a great day! Maybe its just that i just woke up! muahahaha... And its raining! My nose's runny! muahahhaha

Thank you and good bye! *orbs to the kitchen*

Ok.. I'm feeling slightly better now... 3rd entry in a night.. not bad.. wahhaha..

Amazing wat hunger can do!

LOL!

Just raided my fridge and gobbled down the most unhealthy food you can come across at 1.11am... (Namely 3pcs of Strawberry cake and 3 strawfuls of my grandmother's coke.. Hope she doesn't notice it depreciating.. =P)

Hmmm...

Lemme post another pointless entry before i head for my date...

the topic rite now is Ryan Cabrera...

LOL~! I always have this picture that Mr. Cabrera here is OLD with graying blonde hair wears patterened denim shirts, a cowboy hat, pointed boots and tight leather pants making music videos with cactii in the background....

Well... Obviously, i just realised how wrong i was.. lOL!

He's young.. With boyish looking face and TOO long hair to be spiked up, but is still spiked up.. I'm starting to think that he's short or something.. and the hair is an illusion of additional height... LOL!

OK.. I think this entry here is pointless enough for my liking.. therefore, i shall end... and go for a date that i'm late for.. if not confirm cannot wake up tomorrow...

I'm hungry!!!

At this time of the night??!?!1

The urge to raid my fridge is damn great!! ARGH!!! IDIOTS!!

But no no.. i shall stay away.. its unhealthy!! haiz.. So i shall type a pointless blog entry.. let's see what the hunger can do.. LOL!

Did i tell you that exams in around 2 weeks time? Hmmm.. Ya, only have 3 papers.. but its still exams...

but i'm more concentrating on the hols... i need a job.. desperately... To the extent that i dont even mind working during the school term... She asked me to call and ask...

Call it pride... call it ego... but who doesnt feel guilty when each time you call is to ask for something? It's a responsibility.. i should not be the one begging for it as though i'm in great need of it..

Yes i am in need of it... but no way am i gonna ask someone of something that they know is a must to give... I would rather work than to remind them of their duties...

Yes, PRIDE. that i cant deny.

Another thing; Fear.

Dissapointment? yes. that's another thing... Coz, i cant be bothered to be hopeful because of a promise that is never kept...

if only i could tell you, i no longer believed and hoped for anything you say or even promised... the pictures of great dreams, the colourful hopes, the fantastic fantasies. I've lost faith in that kinda love. To me its just mere fairy tales for kids. I've long outgrown your words.

Yes, its sad. But you've lost my trust time and time again. One thing i've learned painfully, even though i've always been reminded, is never to hope too much of anything from anyone...

She advised. I refused to listen even though deep within i knew.

But i've opened my eyes now.

You taught me that.

Painfully.

I shouldnt have allowed my curiousity to take over.. Now i have a series of books to finish reading... ARGH!! Always you know nad.. Always the wrong timing!!

Hmmm .. Damn tired.. I'll be having group meeting tomorrow at 9.. not bad la my psycho members quite on.. in other words, we're trying to outdo the nerd's group.. damn irritating! wahhaha.. i wouldnt be surprised if they memorised the entire psychology text or something.. LOL! But nvm, i'll definitely find ways to shut him up from questioning.. hmmm... *Devilish grins*

Its been a long day, even though i have no idea what i did...

so ya...

Too many things on my mind i guess...

Oh ya before i forget.. please take care... good night.. sweet dreams everyone.. i'm off to my date with the prince charming of the night, MY BED.

Had a very interesting conversation with hidayah yesterday... or was it this morning? hmmm..

Besides the conversation being lame and retarded! it was interesting in a way...

she was commenting on how she thinks that my current blog is not me.. because this are her exact words...

"Grey is just NOT you! You're a red or mysterious purple"

Well, having an art student as one of your best friends, i guess its inevitable.. whahaha.. i think she sees the world in a rainbow of colours...

But she managed to give me a reason for her choice of colours on me...

Red, is coz she finds me, Loud, bold and strong... her explaination was somewhere along the lines of me being decisive and independant...

and Mysterious Purple is due to the fact that she feels there's a mysterious aura about me.. lOL! she just feels that even though i'm cheery and nonsensical.. i still do keep things hidden... as in you know me but you dont know me kinda thing.. hmmm..

NOT BAD AH THIS MAKCIK?!

When she asked me the same question, i needed the toilet badly... which obviously i didnt answer it.. and NO, i was not dodging it.. LOL!

hmmm... to answer your qn...

I think that you're a yellow and pale peach...

Yellow is coz, you have always been chirpy, fun, loud.. I always thought that you have always suited being in St. Elizabeth.. hahaha.. that house is so you! lol!

and the pale peach? well, beside all that, there's a sensitive and caring side towards you that many have not realised.... you're sensitive in a way that nobody realises it... Your care is often masked by the cheerfulness... So ya.. Pale peach is the colour.. Soft yet Vibrant.. :P

OK! Got maself a new template..

I have no idea whether or not i like it... But watever.. i'll stick with this till i get bored of it.. have a more colourful template.. but.. hmm.. dunno why this attracts me also...

Hmmm.. and i cant seem to change the colour of the fonts automatically.. too tired at the moment.. shall work on this later on..

Its 225am...

It a sunday morning..

And i'm bored...

Hahahhaa.. what did i do today?

Well... helped hidayah with her magazine project.. yes.. there was a photoshoot.. yes.. i was the "Model"..

And it WAS RETARDEDDD!! LOL!!

just hope i didnt destroy the pictures.. whahahaha..

She concluded that i have a Baby-ish face... WHATEVER *Rolls eyes*

I'll look mature when i grow older... hahahhaa.. Rite now, i'll be contented with the babyish face as she puts it... at least, i still look young rite?? whahahaha..

so ya.. hahahha.. damn funny though.. i just wanna see her magz after all this.. whahaha..

Had fun doing it though.. wahhahaa...

I think i just loved accounts.. LOL!

Abit too late.. but wat the hell...

went for CCA just now... Have no idea wat happened and ended up joining the table topics contest.. and got 3rd place.. whahahhahaa... Not bad ah? *winks*

weekends are here again...

AND

I think i'm thirsty.. so ya.. Good bye!

This is seriously fucked up!!

First, i nearly screwed up OB group by coming late... not 5 mins, not 10mins.. but 45 FREAKING MINUTES!!

Second, i didnt bring my exploration report to be finshed after OB class today that is suppose to be handed up during psychology...

and now i have to type it all out again!!!

I'm seriously going to cry!!

Fuck. Fucked. Fucked up.

MELVYN LEE!!

Stop posting blog entries and start typing your letters!!!!!

Later you complain haven't finish la.. still need to do pscyho project later la.. this laa.. then laa.. then in the end complain that you're hungry....

So ya...

And can you stop being so stressed!!!!

*pours buckets and pails of water*

I lasted thru fam ok.. you confirm can last thru one project can...

tralalalal

This is so fun!! conveyancing is just soooooo fun!! hehehehee

Yes.. i think i've gotten over fam law...

now.. "looking" forward to OB tomorrow, handing in of Psych Exploration report tomorrow as well as the group report as well as finishing my my psycho pppt slides...

Oh and some body need to need to suggest to this lecturers to go for a writing on whiteoard classes... I can go blind at this rate..

Go blind and die young!

*pulls hair out! Covers face! Dies!~*

Can't believe i screwed up the fam law presentation... Thanks to me, the group lost marks.. BRILLIANT!!!

I'm so sorry man... Really..

I have no idea how i can make such a stupid mistake... argh!!! must be thinking of something else when i was looking for it...

Now its like a few grades lower thanks to me..
HAIZ~!

*runs off and hides*

This is the LONGEST wait ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm hungry...

and its also traumatising....

Family law is done!! Family Law is Done!! lalalallala!!!

YAY~ YAY~ YAY~ YAY~!!!!!

Ahaahhahahahaha....

*goes on the merry-go-round*

lalalallalalalallalalalala~~!!!!

Just started continuing the fam law slides now...

So tired! My eyes wanna close already, but i shall not complain for i have slept for a total of 4hrs i think.. lol.. from 1045pm to around 230am

hmmmm.. so scary you know.. i have no idea wat's gonna happen tomorrow during the presentation.. i'm currently quite blur on the first question and have no idea whether or not i've done it correctly... hmmmmzzz....

Ahhhh... I'm so worried....

I think at the rate i'm going, i might just die young... really..

On a brighter note, oh wait.. wat's the brighter note?

Hmmm.. oh ya.. met my cousin just now... well, had to console her... aiyo... she ah.. so very the anti-climax one... eeee! i dont like! make me worried for nothing.. coz, she gave me like 2 miss calls, and a scolding the moment she picked up the phone..

i thought my grandfather sick or in hospital or something... sekali.. you know wat?!?!

she quarrelled with her boyfriend... *faints*

At the rate this people are treating their girfriends... i just feel like sending someone to assasinate (is that the rite spelling?) them...

Ok that's not the bright note.. lol! i've finallly remembered the brighter note..

I LOVE MY NEW SHOES!!! *Jumps around in it*

but obviously my mom had to be a wet blanket saying that at the rate i'm going to wear it, and the fact that its on me.. and me being me... the shoes will definitely NOT last long.. so ya..

Nearly had a heart attack in class..

why?

coz, dearest darling mel...

put the family law ppt slides in the recycle bin instead of sending it to me!!!

GOSH!

Tomorrow there's school!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH....

why is the weekend so short oone?? i felt that i've barely been at home and then next day schooling already..

was happily complaining away to my mom when she said that most prob its coz i was in school on saturday.. that's why cannot feel the weekend.. but i went swimming today.. hehehhe..

yesterday had open house..

And guess wat? I was dressed out in 80's style.. well, dont ask me how or why? ended up taking part in the DT open house performance.. it was fun though.. but watever it is..

i still cant get over the fact that:

I wore a red skirt with a white top and a pink scarf on my head and pink and white earrings.. (Obviously i didnt wear that to school.. i changed in school)

and that i bumped into some of those juniors of mine.. *Rolls eyes* and i thought i was forgotten... Saw them.. or rather they saw me first.. they were like..

"eh isn't that Nadira? and so cute... she's wearing a..."
*me cuts in*
"HI! BYE!!"
*starts running*
"AND Don't even think of continuing ah.. you pple ah..."
*trails off... runs up the stairs and out of sight*

and then had jam & hop... stayed for part of it.. it was... ERRRR... NO COMMENTS... stayed for part of it.. and left... embarrasing myself on the way out... *shakes head at the memory*

and now?

Doing my fam law.. ayaiaiiaiaa.. i can do this.. this is fun. yes it is.. it realy is!!

AND

MELVYN..

Happy birthday!! hehehe... and start stocking up on your hair dyes.. hahaha.. you're old.. you're 19!! lol lol lol.. You're reaching the BIG 2 Soon!!

Anywayz, have fun.. stay happy... smile more often.. and even though you're older.. dont turn serious.. whahahahaha..

i'm sorry for the outburst in the previous entry..

so so sorry...

its just that...

i forgot how to be a brick wall...

ARGH!!! *Screams even more*

Nothing i do seemed right to you since the past week...
I've been trying so hard...
So damn hard!!!!!!!!
But obviously nothing pleases you nowadays...
nothing at all!!
Saying that i've been doing certain thing...
Not caring of the circumstances...
not caring of anything..
Do you seriously know how much it hurts??

Oh ya, i forgot..

i'm the insensitive heartless daughter...

ARGH!! If this the internet connection is going to fail on me again..

I'LL DEFINITELY SCREAM FOR THE WHOLE HOUSE TO HEAR AND WAKE MY MUM UP AND MAKE HER DO SOMETHING TILL ITS FINE AGAIN.. AND I CAN USE IT IN PEACE AGAIN..

Obviously its an exaggeration, i'm not THAT mean to force my mom to do something in the wee hours of the morning... but the screaming part.. NO.. that definitely is not an exaggeration.

So what exactly am i doing?

Hmmm.. the psychology report is done, so is my psychology powerpoint slides.. I'm quite proud of myself.. managed to proof read some atrocious english and now my eyes hurt real bad!! but my report looks nicer though.. lol!

so now i'm trying to bullshit through OB... seriously hope the teacher buys the crap though.. hmmmm..

but wat i know is that, some parts will definitely be contradicting as one member will be making us sound perfect while i will somewhat make us sound pathetic?

GOOD LUCK TO US. AMEN.

I'm bored...

Oh wait.. i shouldn't be... i have lots of things to do..

So what happened today? Hmm oh ya.. started on all the projects that's needed to be completed... well.. i hope it'll complete by friday latest..

So today is the day AFTER V-day.. LOL!!

Yesterday, was like... A flower shop WITHIN school. Its like flowers flowers flowers everywhere.. *dies*

I mean its nice to get those multi-coloured roses, huge sunflowers in those sweet-coloured papers... But its like.. Those flowers will just die by next week!! hahaha.. Dunno why they insist on flowers on V-day but not on normal days..

isnt it like cheaper? sweeter? (coz, you're the only one carrying the bouquet instead of any Mary, jane or sally that you bumped at every corner you turn) and obviously more orginal.. hahahha..

And i remembered on Sunday i was pestering my mom to buy roses for the house.. when i realise the roses cost $13 instead of the usual $6... Madness!

but still, the flowers are sold out coz, the devoted boyfriends would still buy it for the beloved, flower-hungry girlfriends.. whahaha

So what did i do yest? Hmmm. Nothing. heee. sad? Hmmm. dont think so. hahaha.. used to it.. :P

But i did catch the 47th GRAMMY AWARDS!! WOOOHHOOO!!! i love alica keys!! lol.. and usher's dance.. *Drools*

Did anyone watch MTV Asia Aid? Hmmmm.. Alicia Keys is sooooooo PWEEETTY!! *drools* I mean i know that she has always been pretty but.. watever.. heeee..

Went to Miss Lim's House on Friday!! wahahahahhaa...

Guess what?!?!!?

I learned how to play Mahjong!! LOL!! whahahaha.. *rolls on the floor*

Well, obviously at first i sucked most of the time and of coz, being the resident pain in the ass by asking what number is it every 5 seconds.. and i actually understand it better after MX came.. whaahha.. he explains mahjong in english perfectly well..

And later on, he no longer wanted to play coz i kept winning.. whahahaha.. and he was somewhat sure that i cheated or something and soon called me silent killer.. lol! so, after MX left the table, Me, Rafidah, Nurul and Azi conquered the Mahjong table..

Pls note: 4 Mly girls at a Mahjong table.. it was really quite a sight.. whahaha

Then there were word or sounds.. i'm not to sure about that.. such as pong or kong or something along that lines.. so ya.. when you're excited or something.. you'll just go.. "pong.. oh wait.. ping.. eh i meant pong.." so ya.. hehehe it was fun

Then Miss Lim joined in and soon it became a table of discussion how school was as well as playing.. wahahaha.. well, i started losing once we played with the chips.. so ya..

Note to self: I'm just not meant to gamble.. LOL~!

And towards the end, the 5 of us agreed that that Mahjong is a very ADDICTIVE GAME..

nurul and rafidah even considered on getting their own mahjong set so that they can practice and the next time they come to miss lim's house or somewhere, they'll be fully prepared with cash and skills.. LOL!!

And if they did that, they are just about to be my new best friends.. wahaaha

Then the baby is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!! AHHHH!!! And she likes me!!! ahhhh.. I'm so touched and honoured!! lol!

i'm going to pester my cousins who are not married to get married and those who are to get themselves pregnant or something.. Coz, beware! there's a willing babysitter in town!! ahhh!!

Take note on the word babysitter, it means that if i'm about to do any babysitting job anytime soon, we can always discuss the charges beforehand..
*Grins and gives angelic smiles*

and monday's V-day.. i have no idea why am i making so much noise over it.. heee

OH,

And Azi,
You might think that you're not worth it, but others might not see you the same way you see yourself. You might only see your weaknesses but others might only see your strengths and some might love you even more for your weaknesses. (",)

I know that this is a bit late..

BUT

Happy Chinese New Year to all

And to all muslims out there,

Happy New YEAR!

Today was the crappiest and the lamest day that ever happened to me eversince secondary school.. oh wait.. hmmm.. well.. i guess it is the crappiest and lamest day that occurred in a long long time..

So what did i do today?

I went to Pasir Ris Beach with:

Rebecca = She's too free and has been trying to meet up with me and the other 2..
Meng San= It's been awhile since i last hang with this cuckoo head
Farhana= She's back from Australia for holidays
Rachel= She's too free too.. All these A'level grads.. tsk tsk tsk
Hidayah= To fulfill our promise and obviously to meet up with them

And of course, there's me.. heeheh.. deena wasn't around..

that was the craziest outing ever.. really!! hahahaha.. we walked to Pasir Ris Park from the interchange and we sat on a huge rock.. while farhana, meng san and rachel attempted to storytell, me, hidayah and becky was busy taking photos and also being nostalgic.. whahaha

well.. the last time the 3 of us sat on that rock was.. after we got back our prelim results.. hahahahahaha... that was one frustrating period.. but that was last time..

then we walked to the other side of the park...

Then somewhere along... we came up with a new way of saying the F word without actually saying it.. but actually.. i think it sounds more obscene.. whahahaha.. and then there's the Hairy Horny Hairwhore.. and when we reached the interchange again.. that particular phrase was somehow inserted in the national anthem..

and it ended with hidayah coming over and watched MULAN together.. whahahaha..

Hmmm.. the study trip.. i think i've made up my decision.. i'm not going.. even though mom has given me the green light.. but, i guess, its still too much of a financial risk on my part??

oh ya.. Valentine's Day next week rite??

hahahha.. So exciting.. some pple have celebrated their one yr.. LOL!! Damn Happening! And i'm looking out for new blossoming love.. AITE AZIZAH?? heheheheheh.. *Angelic Smiles*

And i need to find my work to do.. 3 more weeks of school.. This sem has not turned out as what i expected it to be.. hmmmm.... watever... haiz

BRIDGE:
Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm going live my life (not the way you want me to)

CHORUS:
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

--------Rumours, Lindsay Lohan

Can't some people just stop being paranoid over some things... What's the use of being possessive? it equates to you loving someone more?? or are you just plainly pushing that particular person even further away..

Why trust someone else more than you trust somebody you've been annoucing your love for? Is that still call love? Then tell me, where's the trust in that so-called love? I truly dont see the purpose in a partner sending someone to so-call spy on the other and later report back...

And i dont get it why some people try to change their partners so much when who they fall in love with is the person they meet the very first time.. the time when nothing was changed..

you fall for that person, for wat you see, wat you know and wat you hear.. and care to enlighten me again, why are you restriciting their moves, clothings, actions? Why do that just because of your insecurities, your paranoia, your watevers??

Why is it that you love someone so much and yet vulgarities flow out like water each time you quarrel? Why is it that you confess your love to her and yet in your mind you're thinking something elsE?

Is this what you call love? is this wat you call a relationship?

If it is..

no wonder i'm still single...

hahaha.. i'm such a good girl this weekend that i myself cant believe it!! whahahaha..

Well, one of the reason is that i've been at home!! AAAAHHH!! *Screams in d'lite* Cant really remember when was the last time that i've been at home the entire day during the weekend..

Finally! My definition of family day is back in my dictionary again!! whahahahah.. WHooppiEEE!!! *does somersaults*

So what did i do? Wahahah.. i've been going swimming alone.. waaaa.. so refreshing!! i truly do wonder when will i get over this swimming frenzy phase though.. hahaha.. but i'm quite sure this wouldnt last that long..

But then again.. i might be wrong.. been wrong on quite alot of things for the past 1 and 1/2 yrs.. whahahhaahha

I need to do alot of things.. HA! time to be proving some shit..

sometimes, the words are just getting on my nerve! how can i be so happy and yet so pissed at the same time at that particular moment? Just because it made me smile genuinely for once.. and then it left me standing there stunned.. Totally confused.. how can something so enjoyable be depleting?

but then again.. even though its affecting me so much.. even though i wonder why... hmm.. maybe i'm.. nvm forget it...

i'm going to try my best to ignore it for now.. for i'm sure that there are reasons that time have not permit to be revealed.. just yet.

SO i went out today to meet Deena after class... coz, hidayah had photography class at 7pm and ends at 10pm..

Purpose of outing: To help her find the perfect gift *i can make a career out of this* and for me to look out for some stuff.

Yes.. i was suppose to meet her at 5 la.. Well, as usual.. she's late.. but i shouldnt be complaining.. hahaha.. since its nothing new rite?? But, the itch to complain is great... So complain i shall!! whahahaha

she went home early to get some beauty sleep, as she puts it.. and ask me to message her when i finish ma lesson... So ya.. i managed to dilly dally out of school and sashayed to the bus stop after msging her.. and then somehow.. i felt.. maybe i should give her a call...

A very wise decision on my part..

Why?

Coz, when i called her.. she just woke up.. and i'm at Tamp interchange!! so obviously she got earache and someone who witnessed got amused...

Why?

Obviously i started nagging la.. wat else?!?!

So i told her.. i dont care.. i'm not going to push back the meeting time.. we'll still meet at 5.. i mean wat the hell.. she's still gonna reach earlier than me.. serangoon to orchard is nearer than tamp to orchard.. rite?? well.. i reached there at hmmm.. 4.55pm?? i think la...

ya.. when i called her..

guess what? *DRUM ROLLS*

she just left her house and just gotten a cab... basically, she just entered the cab and on her way to meet me.. and i've reached.. and it was a 40mins journey from tamp intchange to orchard.. and still i'm early.. vely the good!!

Aiyah.. but cannot complain la ah.. i should be used to this.. *shakes head*

Besides, i had a very nice train ride to town.. haha..

*Hidayah OOOO hidayah.. if only you were there.. then can join forces and nag at her.. MUAHAHAHHA!!*

Hmm then we walked around orchard.. I meant THE ENTIRE OF ORCHARD.. really.. we walked through a few levels of Wisma then went to Taka and then walked to Paragon just to buy starbucks coffee.. (Don't ask me why we chose to buy it there when there's so many other starbucks around) hahaha.. but obviously was hmmm.. embarrassing?? ya.. lol.. oh ya..

WORD OF CAUTION!!
Don't drink the Green Tea Frappucino.. It tastes like the prawns you eat in cold dishes!! ReallY!! No kidding.. i'm still wondering why she likes it!! its like.. YUCKS! EWW!!

Walked to Heeren.. That's when we found it!! The perfect gift.. whahaha.. actually it was me that pointed it out.. LOL!! hhahaha.. *so you better start saving aite deen?*

After that walked to P.S.. walked the entire of P.S and then proceeded to City Hall.. Walked the entire Raffles City Shopping Centre with no particular purpose in mind.. Then walked through the Citylink and ended up at Suntec City... Obviously.. walked all over Suntec City.. before deciding to walk back to Raffles City and back to P.S..

Yes.. only then we decided to go home.. after all that walking.. it was 10pm.. hahahha..

*Oh ya, Deen.. If someone tells you that he feels as though i'm uncomfortable in his presence.. tell him that... its not that i have anything against him.. Coz, I wasnt prepared also.. you also another one.. dunno how to tell me where you going issit? I just follow you like some headless chicken with no sense of direction.. hehehe..*

Yes.. we need to go out again next week.. i still havent found anything!! pls inform hidayah and becky.. its about time we go out with becky!!!

hhhhmmmm.. wat else should i be updating about??

oh ya.. school.. wat else rite? whahahha.. hmmmm.. schoool.. *Shakes head* Wat i know is that i'm totally screwing this up.. but i just realised today that.. NOW.. i have some sort of motivation to do better...

And i went shopping yesterday!! WOOOHOOOO!!! whahahhaha... I'm Lovin' It~!!!

Managed to hide the things from grandma.. whahaha.. coz, she thinks that i dont need anymore clothes.. i think she doesnt notice that i'm wearing like nearly the same things to school everyday.. So.. Her finding out about my clothes = A BIG NO NO!! hahaha...

And i think this entry should end!! hahaha.. next week's CNY hols.. i cant wait!! really!! Why? Coz, 1)I'm going out.. 2)I'll be starting on my fam law! YAY! 3)My psychology grp project will be typed out!! WHEE!!

I really cant wait!! hahaha.. really!! I'm like so excited rite now.. hahaha.. can't believe i'm actually looking forward to typing out the grp report and do the slides and also start doing my other projects.. i think i might be sick.. hahaha

i should go check my temperature.. *bounces away*

Happy B-day Halimah!!

Have fun, Coz you're getting old already.. LOL! so enjoy before age catches up with you.. whahahaha.. ok.. i make it sound as if you're 91 instead of 19... yes yes... i'll get you something la ok? whahahahaa... i have a few people's present still pending.. so ya.. tunggu la sikit ye makcik?? lol
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Havent been blogging... For those who is leaving in a world of their own and refuse to come back to reality... yes.. the rumours you heard are true.. the one week term break is over! School's back! and study break before the finals is in 5 weeks time..
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Project Twinkle
Xrothia: Sentosa

It was fun... even though in the beginning i've made up my mind that i'm not gonna have any kids.. whahaha.. chasing after 3 was exhausting and it doesnt helped with them playing tricks on me.. lol... but then again... they were cute.. hahaha.. traumatising but cute!!! lol!! and the weather was terrible.. the sun was too hot.. it suddenly reminds me why its been such a long time since i went to Sentosa..

hhmmmm...
something's wrong
something's missing
you know.. i have no idea what it is.. i just feel that something is not done... wat is it?? but... what's missing?? Is something really missing? or am i missing something??
hmmmmm...

Check out my cat!!! Cute rite?!?!?! hahahaha.. i take one.. Not bad ah?!?! lol! took it from my mom's phone.. whahahaa.. so cute.. i think the angle just rite.. and it makes the perfect phone wallpaper... wahahhaha.. i'm just so proud of myself.. :P

It's been around 4 days since i last blogged... i thought i'd only make a comeback on monday when school reopens, you know.. Disappearing without a trace... keeping all quiet and pple wonder what you're up to... but maybe it'll happen...

Its tuesday... and the hols just started.. I'm bored to death and there's nothing to blog about beside the fact that i killed a HUGE grasshopper just now by accidentally stepping on the poor soul and later being called a murderer by my mom.. hahaha..

Aside from that, hmmmm....

I need to find someone who is equally TOOO FREEE and try to find something to do...

I need to find someone to go swimming with me..

oh ya.. its been a while since i fly kite.. hahaha...

and cycled..

which reminds me.. i need to repair my bike.. but maybe its good that its spoiled... at least i'm at home most of the time.. hahahaa.. remembered cycling all the way from my house to bishan once.. exploring new horizons was my excuse...

I really need to find someone to do something.. whahaha.. coz, its like.. some things are just not fun to do alone.. so ya...

I'm just too bored for my own good...

And guess wat.. Even contemplated on finding a job and then told myself that its not worth it since the hols is too short and that most prob, i couldnt handle working on the weekends once sch reopens.. so ya..

AND

I still havent manage to find myself a hobby... maybe i should just restart something that i left 1.5yrs ago... hahaha.. Elektra kinda gave me that particular inspiration...

Speaking of elektra, its kinda cool, reminds me of the training days.. LOL!

Had to watch it again with my mom and couzs the other day and i finally got my army tag chain that i've been wanting all this while... yay!

OH ya.. Love this quote i've picked up from guess wat movie?? You'd never believe it.. PRINCESS DIARIES.. Yes yes.. i've been too bored.. so i've been keeping myself occupied by watching VCDs... anywayz, here it is:

"The Brave doesn't live forever but the cautious doesn't live at all"

I just know that this week is gonna be LONG! that is if i continued not having anything to do... i think sooner or later if this continues... i'll just start doing whatever projects that's need to be done...

*Walks away looking for something to do and someone to do it with*

Guess what??

MY BLOGGIE IS ONE YEAR OLD TODAY!!!

happy birthday to bloggie!!
happy birthday to you...
Happy to you my lovely bloggieee.....
Happy birthday to youuuuuuuuuuu

Actually, i didnt expect this thing to last this long... one yr.. not bad not bad.. i remembered the reason why i started this...

1)i was too bored
2)i was too frustrated about something...
3)Had difficulties telling things to human beings.. (have always been, will always be)
4)had friends pestering me to start this thing...

ya.. that's about it.. lol!

been reading my past entries... some of it was rather hilarious and some of it... hmmmm, only when the time is right than it'll make sense? hahaha...

Anywayz, term break's next week.. and i cant wait.. lol!! its not as if i have anything planned for the week.. but i just cant wait for it.. lol!

Gosh.. i hate the stupid OB paper...

What did they say? they said that the stupid mid-term tests covers till group dynamics... then what happened today??

We have 10 questions for MCQs, 3 questions for case study... then nearly everything is about Motivation... 1 topic out of 6 topics that we're suppose to study.. waste my time burning the midnight oil.. tsk tsk tsk...

it's been a while.. LOL!


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I have to stop this sleeping late business.. Actually, i have no idea why i'm sleeping late to begin wiht.. Coz, i definitely havent been doing my work..

I mean.. my tutorials are done.. but its not as if i've been staying up late to complete my projects...

Actually, i have no idea why i'm staying up late also... hahaha.. i better start sleeping early before my mom tries her luck at nagging.. You know.. my mom is such a bad nagger.. she just cant nag.. lol!!

Coz, after awhile she'll start complaining that because of me she starts nagging and therefore feeling old..

Hmmmzz.. and the next day i look like a drowned puppy or a panda ready to die! ya.. so NO MORE LATE NIGHTS FOR ME!

And now i'm hungry.. lalalalal

OK.. I'm suppose to be doing my family law here.. Well.. Pls take note that the keyword here is SUPPOSE TO BE.. Which obviously i'm failing terribly... whahaha.. i'm not even doing anything...

Aiyo.. So lazy sia.. its like.. time for assignment only.. i digress ALL the way..

Then there's OB.. Hmm Forget it.. I'll find the articles some other day... and forget about it for now...

Ahhhhh......

haiz...

Hmmmmmmmz.....

Nice ah.. whahhaa...

Hmmm.. Sometimes, i wonder... why cant i just keep my mouth shut? Hmmmzz.. now i feel all guilty... serves me right for talking without thinking... or maybe still talking after thinking too much.. Or maybe, just for simple plain talking..

Gosh nad.. sometimes, i'm amazed at how dumb you can get...

Maybe i was too pissed (Enough is enough!!)? Just wanted to get some answers? Haiz...

Hmmm.. what have i done?!?!?! Was it rite? *pulls at hair in disappointment & confusion*

I'm threading on dangerous waters.. Stay away i shall.. hehehe.. till the right time arises again.. and till whenever the time is right for the story to unfold itself..

Hmm wat did i do today... hmmm.. went out with my mom... intention was to buy the skull earrings.. but nvm.. i shall buy that some other day.. and obviously i complained to her that i need more clothes.. and her retort was..

"Go and clean you closet.. if i see that there is space.. then i believe that you got no clothes anymore.." GRRRR...

Hmmm its 350am.. and i better go and slp.. COz,

I think i'm gonna have a wake up call from an irritating alarm clock at 10am
I have OB meeting at 12noon
Followed by Conveyancing meeting at 2pm
And it ends off with COnveyancing Roleplay at 4pm

Well.. thats about it.. Life of a L&M Student

Hmmmm Let's see what has been happening last week...

I remembered being grumpy throughout one of the days.. Oh yes.. i remember now... its the wednesday.. I seriously didn't know what got into me... ARGH!!! it was funny though.. coz, after a while i got tired for myself.. Still didn't know the reason for me being grumpy..

then the following.. was the thursday.. i was DAMN SLEEPY!! whahahaa.. what's wrong with me? one moment-grumpy... one moment-sleepy like hell..

Fell asleep while doing family law assignment in the library... woke up just in time for class.. but met azi instead.. and ended up not going for class.. whaahhaha.. terrible terrible!!!

Let's see what happened on friday

hmmm Oh yes.. went to the Budak Pantai performance after the study trip briefing.. With.. erm.. Azi, Mel, Hidayah.. then there's daphne and patrick and alvin.. then there's yimei and her guy and his & her friends..

The study trip.. i'm going to start dreaming that it'll be 100% that i can go.. and the budak pantai performance was funny.. i'll drag both mak ciks next time including my mom..

managed to drag hidayah along for that performance.. met her at Dhobby Ghaut.. WAHAHAHHAHA!! what a shock i had when i met her.. She was in specs!! whaahhahaa.. at first i was like.. eh since when she wear specs.. then.. whahaha.. i started laughing at her.. coz, she looked like a Cikgu Bedah..

OK OK.. Mak cik hidayah.. Sorry lah.. it was not hideous looking or anything la ok!! you look nice.. aiyoh.. she make so much noise that i make so much noise about her wearing specs... *Did i confuse anyone in the process? wahaha.. if i did.. too bad.. go figure it out yourself*

BUt anywayz, its nice.. only that it makes you look alittle.. ermm.. old? hmmm next time take some brighter colours or something.. whahaha.. ok ok.. i shall stop commenting about your specs..

Then while were there, the 3 of us were discussing some of the juices name.. It was just hilarious.. And obviously something that i wouldnt state here... its too R(A) and i'm sure there's readers below 18 dropping by here at times.. whahahaa...

Anywayz, hope the cafe idea turned out well.. hehehe..

Oh ya.. Hidayah, Madeena and Rebecca.. Are we still going out?? some time this yeaR???

And i need to go shopping.. ahhhhh.. *screams* can't believe i just said that..

Ok. Watever.. *looks around for something interesting to do*

Lalalala... Had family law just now.. whahahaha.. it was kinda fun.. first time i was awake throughout the entire tutorial and was not bored even though i was alone.. whahaha...

hahaha... and i realised something.. class just seemed to get smaller.. its like.. everybody's starting to miss class or something.. lol.. it's like so funny seeing it la.. whahaha..

Anywayz, class was kinda lame just now.. we were grouped to do our tutorial.. according to OUR HEIGHT!! lOL!!! it was fun..

Oh ya.. wat else ah... oh yes.. i think my life is just about to get back to normal..

And can somebody tell me whether or not i have anything on this weekend??? i cant seem to remember anything.. lol..

And guess wat?!?!?!?

MID SEM TEST IS IN 2 WEEKS TIME!! HOW GREAT IS THAT?!?!? LIKE YAY!!!

Oh oh oh.. before i forget... hmmm.. i think i've been mean to some people.. so to those who i've been mean to and reads my blog.. hmm i'm sorry..

We watched the play on tape just now...

LOL! it was like a comedy... seeing how people were cheering or laughing at scenes that was not meant to be laughed or cheered at... It was truly memorable actually..

Seeing myself act... and obviously being highly embarassed by it... LOL! then we watched till curtain call.. and i realised that something that took so long to be perfected lasted only for awhile...

Tsk tsk tsk tsk.. Devdas Devdas... Tsk tsk tsk.. I really dont know where to begin.. hahahha...

But what i know was that... I made friends.. people who knew what i was feeling at that point of time.. and totally understand whatever i had to say...

I also realise that i had a really great friend by my side all this while... To that person who witnessed my outburstS and knew whatever shit i was feeling w/o the need of me opening my mouth to explain and me being embarrassed by my own outbursts later on... I am truly grateful.. :P *Sttrrrikeeee 1.... Sttrrrikeeeee 2.... LOL!! Strike 3 wont be coming.. MUAHAHHAA...*

To those who had to cheer me up when i was feeling all down... all those phone calls or outings that you guys knew i was in a bad shape, but still managed to cheer me up... hahahha... That was just indescribable...

To whoever that gave me the opportunity to take up this journey... i thank you...

Oh yes.. To whoever i've sorta neglected.. I'm sorry... *Puppy-dog eyes*

Sometimes, you just dont realise things only till you look back on stuff... And then you realise that you're blessed with all the great people you have around you.. supporting you.. and obviously comforting you in times of need.. :P

Ok... This entry is SOOOO NOT NAD... So i shall end this thing now...

Aiyo.. i cant believe i just said all that... Alamak.. but whatever it is.. i meant it...

And you know wat? This entry sounds kinda suicidal.. as if i'm saying good bye or wat... lol... wahahaha.. watever it is.. i'm not committing suicide.. i'm just trying to do my Fam Law Tutorial.. lol..

muahahaha... 1st day of the yr...

So let's see. wat i did today?

Yes.. I went to see my first movie of the yr.. Meet the Fockers.. It was damn hilarous.. Finally get to watch a comedy... Watched it with the first friend i meet in 2005.. lol.. Halimah.. surprise surprise...

LOL!! it was unexpected la.. even kay was surprised that the mothers went out to watch movie.. lol.. But we had gr8 fun didnt we halimah? LOL!!

we were crapping all the way.. and walked from PS to Heeren to Far East after the movie... lol.. met her at 330pm and we left town at 845? i think so la..

It was hilarious.. gossiped all the way man.. hahahha..

Ok enough about the outing... Let's see...

Come to think of it... i dont have a new years resolution.. hmm.. i think i give up on it already... hahahaha.. Its like having a promise i never seem to be able to fulfill.. so ya.. no more resolutions for me..

in around 1 and 1/2 hrs.. its gonna be 12.00mn..

and tomorrow is 1 Jan 2005

How nice.. its like.. now is 2004 and at 12... it will be 2005... it never fails to amaze me each yr... how 2 yrs can be right beside each other.. and still it seemed as if its forever to be that upcoming yr...

i just hope that this new yr will bring positive opportunities and changes into my life... hope that things will really turn out for the better this time round...

DEVDAS IS OVER!! muahahahha...

*jumps around in delight*

Hmmm... 2 days of devdas.. it seemed as if forever to reach that 2 nights... and it seemed as if within seconds... both nights are over!!

So many things have happened from the moment rehearsals started and even right up to the end.... All those dramas, all kinda rumours, all kinda outbursts, all the silent tears, all the frustrations, all the tantrums, all the trying to run aways...

It has come to an end...

To all those that came.. THANKS FOR SUPPORTING US!! i hope you guys enjoyed it...

Now.. i have to get back to the road.. where i'm a student trying to complete all my assignments...

Today was a close call....

Nearly lost my phone... for the second time in a year...

BUt well, the keyword here is NEARLY.. which obviously meant that i found it again... long story, wont get into that...

But phew.. it was lucky man...

I dont need me to lose my phone at a time like this and just add more mess in the already messy enough life of mine...

The previous time was around 3mths? before i got a new phone? If now.. Well, i can just dream on about getting a phone if i lose it...

its just tooo disastrous to even think about it...

Guess, i'm just very lucky today...

Thank you so so so much!!!

Oh ya...

Last Minute News Telecast

DEVDAS
29th and 30th December... Which is THIS wednesday and thursday... not next week... not last week.. its just simple and plain THIS week...

tickets can be bought at One Stop Centre for $5... *Expensive? Don't even think about complaining.. its cheaper than a movie ticket... -glares threateningly-*

Showtime: 7pm
Venue: Temasek Polytechnic's Auditorium 2

You console someone else.. someone else cries...

You listen to someone else... someone else's heart tore...

Words can be misleading.. i've realised that... Its even sharper than the sharpest swords at times... Coz, its able to pierce into a heart... A heart that may already be steeled to void any emotional contact...

But words can just melt the steel and damage the heart...

I understand the situation.. I understand the frustration... I understand where everything is coming from even if it is from various perspectives... I see each and every sides... I saw all the different circumstances... I saw it.. I knew it... At times, i even feel it..

Am I wrong to feel some things? Am i wrong to feel bad? Am i wrong to feel guilty?? Am i wrong to get hurt??

Countless times, i've lost track of my emotions... Coz, i was so afraid to be feeling the wrong thing at the wrong time... So.. as many would have seen.. they tend to see me in one particular emotion throughout the day, throughout the week, throughout the month and throughout the year...

MOM. Friends. i dunno where to start.

Time. Break. I definitely need some.

Solace. Comfort. Peace. I'm still looking.

Bored. Restless. I need to get a hobby.

Daughter. Me. I'm trying to be.

Have i complained about conveyanciing?

Don't think so rite? hmm ya well.. guess wat?!?! I LOVE IT TO BITS... *smiles sarcastically*

and ya.. third week of school and here i am screaming out.. I NEED A VACATION!!! *begs someones*

State of mind: Unstable

Had lots of fun just now.. the gift exchange was funny.. and the games.. LOL!! i think most of the time pple was laughing at me... but nvm.. lol.. it was fun to a certain extent...

That was before i feel so embarrassed and left.. but thats another story for another day.. not something that i would state here... Too much frustration in one day is no good.. no no.. bad for health! hahaha...

oh ya...

Happy Birthday Kabetha!!
Happy birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to kabby
Happy Birthday to you!!!

Heard about wat happen during rehearsals today.. lol.. interesting.. not bad man.. whahahaa...

wat else ah??
oh ya... hmm.. oh wait.. i have no idea what i'm gonna say.. lalalala... nvm.. forget it...

Hmmm... I'm preparing some stuff for later...

Having a combined meeting with 5 other clubs and i'm the game master.. ya... interesting job huh? SHT MAN!! The meeting havent started and here i am HIGHLY IRRITATED WITH SOME PEOPLE!!! FARK!!!

Sometimes ah... I forget why i'm soo angry and pissed with them... until each time i do something for them and then i'm highly irritated with whoever that is helping (or suppose to help but not helping) me... ARGH!!!

Well, i'm suppose to be grateful that somebody is helping me rite?? But why should i be grateful when the person was doubtful of my job in the first place and later on forgot all the things that was discussed?!?!!?!!

FARK YOU! i dont have time to entertain such stuff!!!!

I'm supposed to be having drama rehearsals today.. but due to some things... those not involved in the dance do not need to turn up for rehearsals.. lucky me rite?

Coz, if not i have to not go for this combined meeting... yes.. i've already arranged for such circumstances... thats the reason why i have a assistant game master... when in actual fact.. the games have to be done by me alone and no one else.. So much for me being irresponsible huh?

Assistant Game Master
Job Scope: To replace me in any event that i might be late or not be able to make it for this particular meeting and to assist me in the planning as well as the organizing of the games during the meeting.

(exactly the words used to inform my president and changi simei's VPE)

Simple task aint it??

Maybe i'm just asking TOOO FREAKING MUCH... You know, me asking kay whether or not i can not come for the rehearsals was just testing my luck... if she said no.. i would have come for rehearsals instead of going for the meeting.. and at that point of time.. the assistant game master will have to take over everything.. am i rite??

BUt no... I've found out today.. THIS MORNING... that if she were to take over.. i can totally foresee something that the farking slot will not fulfill its goal...

You know why??

Coz, when i asked her whether or not she already gotten any of the materials for that slot.. and is there anything else i need to get? she replied me, asking me am i missing some thing?? what materials are you talking about??

*WHAT THE FUCK?!??! you ask me that after we've discussed everything within 20 minutes of your freaking break on freaking THURSDAY???*

When i told her balloons and mahjong paper.. guess wat she replied me?? What are they for? we can always use paper... *YAY! That will really make things extra interesting wouldnt it??*

I have to waste my stupid sms to explain to her all over again wat it is for... Coz, i couldnt risk me calling her.. All hell will just break lose... I WOULD JUST HAVE SCREAMED that is if i called her la!!!! Sometimes ah... pple just have to thank their lucky stars...

But no.. instead of telling me ok.. i'll buy it.. and a fullstop... she replied me saying that she thought all the things needed we already have... *Like from where?? Fall from heaven one ah?? God postal service is it???*

Then she asked me where to get mahjong papers!! FARK MAN!! i feel like telling her to take a tree trunk.. and scrap off the bark and soak the farking trunk in water till it become a pulp... put it in a tray and hope that by 2pm it'll dry!!!!

sht man... Just imagine if i told her i wouldnt be able to make it for today's meeting?? SHT SHT SHT!!!! ARGH!!! Some things are.. are just meant to be completed by me and ONLY me...

and yet they still say i'm irresponsible, neglecting my duties and the list just goes on... and somehow these people are better than me how?? wat they dont realise is that... all this while i've been doing everything as well as cleaning up their shit...

2nd week of school...

2nd week also ending already.. haiz...

Let's see.. what about school that is so nice? hmmm.. nothing much really.. everything seems extremely boring to me at the moment.. lalallaa... really!! i'm serious.. i'm bored to death in school..

Oh ya.. did i say that i'm sick.. ya i am.. wahhahaa.. my voice power!! lol!! cannot laugh.. it sounds.. erm.. wrong?? wahhahaa...

My classmates? hmm nothing much about them.. no comments about them actually.. coz, nobody i dont like in the class, so ya.. but ah.. the class ah.. aiyoh.. damn quiet during lessons ah.. nothing to entertain me... hmm.. wahidah's in the same class as me again... and erm.. who else?? oh ya.. awi's in my class.. and there's fiza and nazurah... who else ah?? hmmm.... oh ya.. i'm in the same class as mel..

wat else wat else?? see wat i mean... i'm totally bored in school.. there's really like nothing happening that is happening in class...

and what am i doing up so late? wahhahaa.. i'm attempting to do my tutorials.. yes.. you heard it rite.. i'm doing my tutorials.. wahaahhaa...

and besides me being bored, i'm highly irritated.. but thats another story altogether...

i should just go to slp and dream of something nice... and wake up in time to go for class that is at 9 later.. lalalala...

I came early to school in hopes of being able to print my notes...

But surprise surprise... None of the labs of are free.... And the only lab that is free.. the printer is faulty.. Like thanks.. i really needed that...

And i'm so gonna die today... I'm having sore throat and some hints of flu.. and my eyes are watery.. and i'm having a slight headache... sheesh.. Dont tell me i'm going to fall sick.... I dont need to fall sick.. esp not now... ARGH!!!! *Pulls out hair*

I'm floating to dreamland... *Slaps self* wake up nad... you cant be falling asleep... you have lecture at 3!!! *dies*

I will survive.. lalallala.. i will survive!!!!!!!!

Oh ya... did anyone watch s'pore idol? hmmm i only watched the finals on Saturday... Woohooo... Taufik really nailed it with "Me & Mrs. Jones"... and sly.. oh god... how can he make an english song sound so chinese? *Amazed*

THINGS TO REMEMBER!! IMPORTANT..
Remember to bring suk ching's things...

And i'm really gone for today.... lalallalalallaaa... *Trails away*

Went to my uncle's house for an open house today...

Wahahaha... Its SO NICE!! I get to see lots of people.. And i didnt know MPs were THAT LAME!! whahahaha... Aiyoyoyoyoyoooo... And they're friendly too...

well.. i was happilly pinching my nieces? no wait.. they're my cousins.. ya.. omg.. there's this oone.. SOOO CUTE!!! Ahhh.. i seriously need to get my very own digicam!!! then i can take pics of all this cute little peeps.. whahahahha...

And i was also desperately trying to figure out who is my uncle's children.. and who belongs to who.. its was hilarious.. well.. cant really blame them... sometimes.. during hari raya also never get to see.. they're either overseas to study.. or posted somewhere around the world for work... or they're just out hanging with their friends... lol..

So ya.. they didnt know who i belonged too.. and when they actually remembered... They were like.. since when have you grown?!?! The last time i remembered your height is around my waist... Hmmm.. helloo.. i'm 18.. i cant possibly still be standing at your waist.. well.. ya.. i think they remembered me when i was in pri. 1? or is it pri. 2? hmmm... ya... now i'm in poly yr. 2... so ya..

But i was busy peeling oranges for various people... lol.. and this kids asked me to play catching... play catching??? wahahahahahhaa... maybe next time ah.. when i meet them in jeans and t-shirt... hahaha...

Ahhhh.. Still cant stand it... SOOO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then i went to my cousins house.. ahhhh... met my nieces and nephews! Just wat i need to end my day... my nephew and niece... ahhh.. DROOLZ!!!

I KNOW HOW TO UPLOAD PICS HERE!! Muahahahah!!! So i shall not type a new post.. muahahaha...

FINALLY we went out jln raya.. muahahhaa...

First House - HIDAYAH'S


Second House - MINE!!!


Last House - MADEENA (The one that ALWAYS comes late)


ok ok.. lemme introduce who is who...

First up.. we have NUR HIDAYAH... The nonsensical beauty


Next in line... Ladies and gents.. Pls give a round of applause for MADEENA... The Beautifully PERASAN...


Last but not least... there's me.. NUR NADIRA.. The outrageously gorgeous and foreverly cute.. muahahhaa


Yes.. I just came back at about.. hmmm... 1240am?

ya... luckilly my grandmother never scold... well.. i dont think she realise that i came back already... she was peacefully asleep...

And deena... SERVES YOU RIGHT.. muahahaha.. there la.. wanna hurry the outing rite? when you come late rite?? muahahaha.. serves you right we end late and you cant go for Taufik's birthday bash.. muahahahha... *evil Laughs*

Anywayz, dont fret.. there's always next yr...

We took so many photos today.. near 100?? lol!!! yes yes.. i'll upload them when i figure out how to do certain things... muahahhahaa... i cant believe we took near to a hundred photos.. I never took that many photos in a single day in my entire life before...

and i think 3/4 of was crappy.... thanks to me.. being me... muahahhaa...

i was being the resident pain in the ass... taking photos w/o warning.. muahahhaa...
and towards the end... hidayah kinda caught my disease too.. muahahahha

Coz... FROM THIS kinda sweet and nice photos..


TO THIS


And we even took photos of the food we ate... to make advertisement out of it.. or to put in our "FUTURE" recipe book... that will be published in 30yrs time? ya.. most prob.. lol..

Jelly
TOP VIEW


SIDE VIEW


FOOD.. snacks.. watever you call it..


Chips Advert


So how? The pics?? tempting?? not bad rite?? of course la.. i take one wat.. well.. not all la... just the jelly and i gave instructions for the snacks.. muahahahhaha

yup... i will definitely upload the pictures here.. muahahahha...

Hmmm got a gallery for this particular outing.. YIPPEE!!! HariRaya04~Senoritas

I'm praying that tomorrow the 3 of us WILL DEFINITELY go out.. if not ah.. i will behead whoever that cancelled the outing tomorrow...

NO MORE CANCELLATIONS... OR ELSE... *eyes staring at those who might cancel, dangerously*

SO wat was i suppose to be blogging about...

oh yes...

I think the time of the year has come again where i need to be grounded... no.. i havent been doing anything extremely bad that my mom needs to ground me.. i just need to ground myself...

Coz, for various reasons... i feel that i've not been good.. really.. i'm so guilty inside.. i just dun know wat to do... keeping things from her when i know i should have told her... why am i so afraid???

I just dont understand myself at times... its not as if i've been creating problems... its not as if i've been doing a crime.. but somehow.. i know that something is wrong...

there is just some disbelief of some sort in her voice... I wanna please her... But in the process of doing so, i think i've done even more damage by keeping things away from her and that at times telling her PART of the truth... i dunno why its bothering me so much.. but it is...

Its not helping when your grandmother is... ARGH!!! but nvm... i shall not say anything.. i understand where she is coming from.. she's old and she's conservative and she cares about me and my well-being... so i guess... i cant blame her...

and me? well.. i'm seeking for a place of comfort... *immerse self in a book*

Didnt go jln raya in the end... for reasons that has not been explained to me yet... Something that hidayah is still currently very pissed with... hmmm... Its unreasonable.. but then again, some things just cant be avoided i guess...

So what did i do in the end? I went to my relative's house.. yes yes.. i havent finish visiting.. but half way thru.. my aunt from malaysia decided that we should go for a weekend getaway...

YES.. I WENT TO JOHOR OR DESARU OR WHEREVER IT WAS AT 930PM FROM SINGAPORE STILL IN MY BAJU KURUNG.. LIke thanks.. Yes i arrived at the resort or watever its called at 1130pm in my white baju kurung... well.. actually not only me, the whole car was in traditional costumes.. whahahaa

And the place... OH MAN.. where do i begin?? ITs like.. yucks! But luckilly the beach was nice.. it was soooo peaceful.. and sooo nice.. and soo windy... and the waves are huge! its really beauuutifulll...

OH ya.. for all those who intends to watch Puteri Gunung Ledang.. You guys should!! Its good in an epic sort of way... Catch it man.. its worth your money if you're the kind that loves LOTR + Devdas all in one.. hehehe... The first ever malaysian movie to be nominated in the academy or issit grammy? ah watever it is.. its an award show..

lalalallaa.. and now, i'm off to bed.. TMR GOT SCHOOL!! YAY YAY!! YAY YAY!! lol.. i'm mad..

I've finally concluded..

My cousins are a pain in the ass...
They are seriously getting on my nerves at this time of the night... but nevermind.. i shall keep my cool...

But seriously, i feel like strangling someone.. aiyo.. i got nothing to say man...

DAMN irritating... eeeeeeeee... like irritating pest and buggers you know...

NO COMMENTS MAN..

aiyoh... GO AND SLP LA..

wat are you doing up man?? eeeeeee.....

Ok.. no use nagging here also.. its not as if they see it..

lalalalala...

NEWSFLASH!

Sch is starting this monday.. Ta-da!!

So fast!! Omg.. whahahaha.. i dunno whether or not i'm looking forward to this upcoming semester... SO SCARY!! i dunno la.. i very the kan-cheong..

Well, actually, i've been very kan cheong about alot of things... lallala.. so i gues.. kancheong-ing is going to stay around for quite some time..:P

oh ya...

~ANNOUNCEMENT~
This saturday's hari raya outing is on! ok?? Anyone who happen to be reading my blog and wants to come along.. just tell me.. okiez?
~ END OF ANNOUNCEMENT~

Oh ya.. For all those that has been living underneath a rock... yesh.. timetable is out!!! i already printed mine... wahahahah... i feel like a nerd.. print my timetable sooo early.. wahhahaha...

oh ya... wahahhaha... guess wat... wahahhaha.. omg... i just dunno where to start... but for those who knows what i'm talking about then very the good la... whahahaha.... if they think that i'm going to guide him?? they can dream on!!! lol..

He really have lots to prove to me sia.. *rolls eyes* think its so farking easy?? think again... you cant even fulfill a simple task.. wat makes you think you can do this?? But then again.. who am i to judge people till like that rite?? i might be wrong.. he might be able to shine even more with this role... *Shrugs* then good for him...

As for me? WHy am i still hanging around at something i dont feel belong in?? Coz, i have certain responsibilities to fulfill.. even after all that has happen?? hmm.. i'm really amazed at myself at times... and yet they still can call me irresponsible.. IDIOTS!!! once thats over i might be gone... HA!

sometimes, i'm just wasting my times on things thats not worth it... GRRRR~~!! they really have lots of things to prove me wrong sia... LOTS OF THINGS!!

Lalalalala.. i'm going to sleep soon.. have to be in school early tmr.. lalallalaa

I'M SORRY

lalalallalalalala....

Got a belated b-day prezzie from my mom today... i have no idea why she still bought for me b-day prezzie.. i mean she already gave me the chocolates... *which mel took and never return*

Then she bought me earrings.. which is totally cool... its feathers.. i feel like a native american.. so pretty rite?? lol.. fine fine fine fine.. stop rolling your eye.. i love it.. but it tickles my ears.. oops.. i meant neck.. lol..

and today.. omg!!! i cant believe what i got... its soo cool!! its soo nice!! all i could do was stare at it speechless and screeched for the whole house to hear... the only thing i dont like about it is that its pink.. but then again.. it looks alittle purplish.. so ya.. its fine.. muahahahahha... i love it!!

Its so slim.. like my phone!!! but obviously its not a phone la.. DUH~! i mean how many phone do i want man.. tsk tsk tsk... i'm in love~~~ with it~~~!!!!!!

7 yrs!! 7yrs!! after 7yrs.. wat happened??

it leaked...

it didnt cracked, it didnt break.. it just leaked...

yes.. thats all that happened... it leaked.. and nothing else..

why?? coz, she managed to control it...

yes.. all that happened just now.. was still in control...

she thought she was going to die.. *LOL* coz, her life was flashing pass her... she was back to where it happened, when it happened, how it happened...

the wall that she created.. leaked.. the wall that was built.. that managed for her own mother to call her heartless.. yes.. that wall.. leaked.. with the tiniest hairline crack...

7 yrs she kept that wall up... but how was it.. that within minutes... it managed to leak?? is it because she never thought about it before... everything was just stored behind something... things that made her what she is...

GRANDMOTHERS!!

where do i begin??

haiz.. you either love them to bits.. or you hate them to the core...

my grandmother... can either be a pain in the neck.. or the sweetest angel you ever seen...

today she was a pain in the neck... thats one of the reason why i didnt go out today...

she was being.. a toootttt!!! *nvm.. i shall not say any harmful things here that anyone below 18 cannot read.. muahahhahaha*

Grandma grandma.. you're soooo naive at times!!! argh!! Is that all you can ever think off?? is that all???? ARGH!!!!! Sometimes.. just sometimes.. how i wish you can be like those grandmothers that love their grandchildren to bits... but nvm.. such days are over... it will never return..

*ok.. shut up nad.. shut up...*

let's see..

There was rehearsal yesterday...

well.. we did the scene where devdas' mother chased him out of the house for the very first time...

surprise surprise...

I cried.. whahaahhahaha

shit man... lol... it was really.. erm.. i have no idea what to describe it as.. lol

SO ya... you know wat.. i have to slap people.. argh!! i hate this!! i feel so guilty.. coz, its like a little unreasonable rite for a mother to do such a thing over something so trivial?

Ya ya.. trivial for you but not for me.. might be the mother's answer...

aiyaiaiaiaiaia...

yes i cried.. y? no not because i was guilty slapping innocent pple... yes i was guilty but i wouldnt cry over it.. i mean.. c'mon i have to do it anyway...

but its just that... i was thinking if i'm a mother doing this... i mean how stupid can i get doing such a thing?? i mean so much for you doting on your son... and suddenly over small shit.. you chase him out of the house and give him a slap before that...

i mean what has he done to even deserve it rite?? and you do it because you listened to your daughter in law... let me repeat this.. DAUGHTER IN LAW!! you listen to an outsider but not to your son?? not to your own flesh and blood??

oh god.. such a mother i have yet to see...

no wonder he hates you...

i have to stop this... ok nad.. think of happy thoughts... lalallalalal

let's see.. i just havent been blogging faithfully this past few days...

Just extremely tired.. *YAWNZ!*

So what was i going to do??

Oh yes... i'm gonna update about the so called sleep over that took place not too long ago...

Yes.. MONDAY...

There was a sleep over...

WHere? at my house la.. very the duh rite?

so ya.. was up talking to mel and gb-ing and arguing with him when the other 2 was peacefully sleeping away...

Purpose of this sleepover was to celebrate azi's b-day... but i guess azi was sick.. kay was falling sick.. and all of us were tired.. so nothing happening happened at the sleep over...

we were supposed to be baking a b-day cake.. but rehearsal ended too late for us to run to any supermarket to buy any ingredients of any sort... well.. we wouldnt wanna add inedible stuff and force her to stuff it down her throat or something rite??

so where was i?

yes... MELVYN LEE!! You need to learn how to wash your face properly.. seriously, i think thats the first time his face is ever SO CLEAN.. Alll thanks to who?? the great me of course.. muahahahah....

I mean its like.. I got a shock of my life watching him wash his face... that i was just itching to do it for him... so ya.. in the end, i got my way and washed his face.. whahahahaah... damn funny...

so we were playing gb and talking till around 730am... if i'm not mistaken at that point of time.. i was waiting for him to come out of the toilet... and the next thing i know.. i was asleep...

Seriously, the reason i wasnt sleeping from the night before was that i was afraid that i'd snore.. whahahaha.. stupid thing to be afraid off.. since, it never happened unless i just came back from camp.. but ya.. its still a scary thought that your friends might be witnessing you snore... LOL!!

But in the end, sleep took over...

I slept for 3hours... and i ihave no idea how i woke up... did i wake up on my own?? or did mel woke me up?? hmmm.. that one i forget already...

One thing that i know very well, is that....

they all come my house to catch up on their sleep one..

So much for mel stating in his blog that he doesnt wanna sleep in fear that he wouldnt wake up... well.. guess wat? he slept rite after breakfast... nonsense rite??
And thats all he did... slp, watch tv.. and wake up to complain that he was hungry before he actually fell asleep again.. LOL!

thats all they ever did i tell you.. the only person who was awake all the time besides the 3hours that she fell asleep was.. None other than ME! ya....

we were lazing around the WHOLE day... yes.. thats basically wat we did...

Nothing interesting came up besides the fact that my mom's room door was locked from the inside and there's no way i can bring anything interesting out from the room... coz, thats where i have most of my stuff.. coz, on normal days i sleep with my mom...

so ya... thats the only sad part... cannot experiment with things.. lol..

Then when we woke up on the tuesday.. we were supposed to be going jalan raya with the law peeps.. well, obviously we backed out of the outing at the last minute due to lack of sleep...

SO SORRY NAZ... We'll definitely try to go next yr... was looking forward to it actually... but nvm... we were falling asleep everywhere in the first place.. so its advisable not to go anywhere.. whahahahaha...

*To Mel:For your 411, you didnt snore.. k? dunno why you so worried abt it also.. whahahaha

Finally...

All the guests have left..

YAWN YAWN YAWN!!!

Time to do some stuff...

oh wait... need to get the dishes done..

tralallalala...

i so enjoy being a maid.. i think thats all i've been doing since this morning...

-------- wash dishes, serve drinks, refill drinks, wash dishes---------

and the cycle repeats itself...

today was fun...

had a rather traumatising experience in the toilet...

I shall keep it to myself for the time being.. coz, i can sooo imagine hidayah's eyebrows falling out of her face when she reads what happened... whahahaha...

today was different...

today was surprising...

today was unpredictable...

today was an experience...

*TO AZI: Thanks for the b-day prezzie, really appreciate it.. and its cute!! mauahahaa.. i'm gonna sleep with it...

TO KAY: Don't worry your b-day present is also on my bed... wahahaha...

My bed is just getting much much much more crowded each day... Soon, i'll be the one sleeping on the floor and everything else on the bed...*

ARGH!! i seriously need to recover... The coughing is killing me... coz, its killing my breathing...

Aiyaiyaiyaiyaiyai...

Have you ever felt like dying?? Try having asthma.. Its an immediate effect on you.. You feel like a fish out of water... and the best part is that.. no one knows that you're suffering if you're having mild asthma...

coz, you look perfectly fine.. but you talk soooo fast coz, you wanna finish watever you wanna say so that you can breathe at the end.. but it never seems to end... and you feel like giving up half way...

and its really bothering you each time you cough... so if you no longer cough.. you no longer have asthma till the next attack which will be.. erm... in 2-3mths time?? or maybe 6mths to a yr??

And its frustrating.. esp for me.. so impatient rite?? Tell myself breathe properly also can get impatient... wahhahhahaha... lets just face it.. i'm weird in a way.. muahahaha...

If you're having asthma attack.. the full force one, my mom refers to it as the violin playing lead in an orchestra... Hmmm.. Just forget about controlling and hail a cab to the nearest 24hours clinic if you kena at 2or3am.. Coz, you cant even think, breathe or walk properly...

*Now this post sounds like something out of a pharmaceutical magazine*

Anywayz, where was i? Hmmm... yes.. if you feel like dying.. wahaha.. coz, everything from your lung to your heart seemed tooo big for your rib cage.... it just feels like bursting... but you're controlling it... and then...

you'll begin to wonder when will all of these end.... coz, you really do feel like a fish out of water... its really sucky.. YUCKS!! and soo.. eeee... wahahhaha

Its BACK!! ITS BACK!!
Guess wat it is?? My Devdas' rehearsals... wahaha.. had rehearsal just now.. i'm just oh-so HIGH!!! muahaha... yest's 7-up ICE still have not left my system...

TA-DA!!

I'm so scared... wahahhaa.. of something.. wehehehhee... Which obviously something that i'm not telling.. muahahahhaha.. *Don't mind me.. i'm just mad.. as usual..*

Tmr's there's rehearsals.. I'm gonna pray hard that tmr ends a little early... Coz, most probably my cousin, Nadia, is coming over... Finally, After 4yrs? Don't ask why.. i just have a weird family.. That's all.. nothing much.. Or rather that is to cut a long story short.. hehehehe...

Tralalalla... now now now... let's see.. the time is 3.33am.. wahaha.. so nice ah? LOL!!

Its the morning of the 3rd day of hari raya... Tsk tsk tsk .. so fast ah?? tsk tsk tsk.. Aiyaiyaiyaiyai... This yr like never take photo like that.. so sad... i love my red baju kurung already... then sekali no film.. wahahha.. that was farnie..

Anywayz, the first day,

It was a rather interesting day... Siok Lan came over.. *you're coming over again rite??* Anywayz, where was i? oh ya.. first day of hari raya.. Went to meet my grandfather...

Tralallalala... I was like.. smiling and talking away.. I have no idea why on earth am i in such a great mood when i only slept at 430am that morning... and then.. i realised.. since when i talk soooo much?? lol!!!

Met all my uncles at my cousin's place... *well.. my visiting list just gets longer.. buahahaha.. more green packets!!!* chit chat with my longest-time-no-see cousin... and we only left the house at 130am...

Then.. reached home... i was happily chatting away with my mom.. obviously not allowing her to sleep... then at 330am my cousins from malaysia arrived... why 330am?? Coz, they were stuck in a traffic jam on the causeway for 3hours!! There lah.. ask to take secondlink dont wanna listen...

Then talked to my other cousin, Baby. She was updating me about her relationship and obviously i got surprise of the month.. wahahhaa.. but thats another story...

So ya.. we were talking talking talking... when suddenly my grandmother is already awake.. walking around the house.. waiting for the morning prayers.. then we scrambled into the rooms like mice hoping that my grandma didnt notice...

at that point of time it was 605am..

then.. we went to sleep la.. guess wat time all of us was pushed out of our beds? around 11am... aiyo.. can die ah.. obviously we ignored all the pinchings and pushings only wake up at 1pm.. whahaha!! typical me.. i know.. :P

then obviously went out.. Today not so bad.. got take photos!!!! whee!! wahahaha.. so nice... *i feel so bright this hari raya.. i wore my lime green kebaya just now.. wahahhaa...*

Yes yes.. let's not digress... and ya.. not its 349am... i've finished typing this blog... and i'm still not sleeping yet... and tomorrow will be another long day..

TA-DA!

*Oh ya.. i'm still sick.. thats the best part... my voice... minah rocker!!! wahahaha*

Dammit! I didnt have the time to let it all out yesterday coz, i only reach home at around 130am.. but that doesnt mean i forgot all about it!!! ARGH!! you are one fucking self centered biatch!!! I dont care whether or not it applies to your gender.. BUt yeah!! I DONT CARE!!!

Dammit dammit dammit!! Shit shit shit shit!!! That's it.. That's definitely it! All i ask was for some consideration... But what did i receive?? Freakingly irritating smses from you!!! idiot!!

Demand demand demand!! Is that all you guys ever know?!?!? IDIOT!!! One day.. just one day.. i'm definitely gonna do the same thing to you... JUST WAIT!!!

Confusion?!?!?! WHo's the one confusing things here?? WHo's the one who is making a short story short?? Who's the one who is freaking beating around the bush?!?!?!?

IDIOT!! Don't talk about confusion to me when you yourself don't know your stuff...

Stop wasting my time if you dont know wat you're suppose to do... Don't ask me for my things.. when you haven't done yours... Dont try to change the fucking subject to avoid my questions!!!

Don't try to remind me of things when you yourself have difficulties meeting YOUR OWN FUCKING DATELINES!!! and don't you even dare to give me datelines.. especially when you yourself cant do it!!!

spoil my mood and you get a screaming phonecall from me...

followed my mom to the market just now... we went to Little India..

Wheee... And bought everything including coconut leaves to make ketupats..

Talking about coconut leaves... Grrrr...

Guess how much it cost to buy the freaking coconut leaves?? $6 for 100 pcs.. Its madness at its most critical stage i tell ya!!!!

GRRR!!! luckilly my mom friend was there.. if not... i would have created so much noise there... I mean who in the world sell coconut leaves for that kinda price?!?!?!

SIAO! PIECE OF SHIT... Its like 4 times profit la!!! Idiot!! Wanna cut throat.. also cut reasonably la..

Oh ya..

How nice... Sunday's hari raya... and today i'm sick.. no actually not today.. it started since yesterday... got a sore throat and and and and... a... oh ya.. runny nose... grrr!! i better recover by monday latest.. or else...

I'm gonna miss out on a lot of nice nice interesting looking delicacies.. wahahhaha...

Squeaky squeak squeak...

Thats the sound of my house... Its definitely Squeaky clean... I can even see my own reflection on the floor..

well. obviously, i havent been contributing to the cleaning of the house much... I only cleaned my study room and its windows and hang the curtains in my mom's room.. That's all...

Finally my study room.. Is CLEARED!! wahaha.. mission accomplished!! my table is CLEAR.. My cupboard is somewhat cleared.. but the thing is that... it looks presentable again...

And hari raya is this sunday... Sooooooo exciting!! I have no idea why i'm looking forward to is also... Wahahahaaa...

Wheee.... I'm mad!! Yay!!!

Hi hi hi hi..

Muahahhahaha...

I'm bored.. you know wat?!? I still havent clean the windows... I shall do it.. One day!! No no no.. Not one day.. I'll do it tmr.. Latest on wednesday.. if not thursday.. wahahaha...

I'm such a pig.. Well, cant help it if i'm like soo lazy to do anything at the moment.. BUt but but, i'll do it.. CONFIRM! or else... There goes my head.. my mom will hang it at the door to welcome the guests..

My house like soo Hari Raya... Wahaha.. actually come to think of it.. Its actually more of the just-move-in look.. Coz, my study room looks like a junkyard! No wonder my mom keeps asking me to clean it...

My aunt is in the room modifying curtains.. and embroidering someones' baju kurung... I have to clean the study room and sequined my baby cousin's baju kurung... which i managed to finish it.. but not the cleaning part... and my mom is doing something to the sofa..

SO ya.. Thats about the state of my house for today...

Tralallalalaa...

Let's see.. what else?!?!?1

OH YA!! LOOK OUT PEEPS... DEVDAS IS ON THE WAY!!
Its gonna be around the corner before you know it!! lol..

It'll be on the 29th and 30th december...

Ta-da!

Finally mom doesnt say anything.. coz, i'm at home now.. helping her to clean the house and stuff like that... *I'm such a lazy pig.. i've yet to clean the windows...*

And we've been going out.. Coz, i need to buy my baju kurung and my shoes and some things...

And just now... Oh man.. Haiz... ARGH!!!!! why in the world does have to say that?? coz, yesterday or whenever she fell down.. then she was like... why am i always falling down?? i just stared at her.. and the next thing that came out of her was that.. Maybe i'm dying...

I was like.. WHAT?!?!?!??!? and obviously it followed by a screeched or screamed or watever it was there and then...

I cant even believe we had that conversation... ARGH!!!

AAAARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, DEVDAS is cancelled... Or rather, its been postponed to the next semester break..

So ya, Deena and Hidayah... You guys no need to quarrel with me and threaten me with stuff to get tickets.. I'm sorry.. BUt ya.. Maybe some other time you guys will be able to see me act.. muahahhaa.. And i know you guys already planned on coming on 2nd Dec... Coz, its Deena's birthday... So ya.. I'm very sure we'll have a plan B rite?

And to some others who i've informed abt this production... I'm sorry, but dont worry... you guys will get to watch it next semester break.. that's a definite! okies?

Actually, i really wanted mom to see... the very first time for her to watch me act... but nvm.. there's always some other time...

All thanks to someone who has created a mess and forgot to clean it up... SO ya..
I'm not suspecting anyone... i prefer to remain on neutral grounds...

Thanks alot.. i really appreciate it! i really do... Maybe you should do it more often and destroy more of people's hard work and the dreams of all those that's actually looking forward for this to happen..

Yesterday, i baked cake lapis...

It was the first time i baked it.. and it was DISASTROUS.. lol!!

I think i measured the sugar and flour wrongly... so it the cake turned out to be damn sweet...

Then, you know.. have to bake layer by layer rite? then, after each layer.. you have to sort of press it lightly... i think i pressed to too hard... so in the end.. my cake was stunted..

it was damn hilarious.. after an hour of baking or so.. and everything is done...

I took out the cake from the tray.. and it was half the height on the normal cake my aunt bakes.. and its as hard as rock!!! wahahahahahhaa....

if i were to throw it against the wall.. it will definitely create a crater~..

I officially wash my hands off any future cake lapis bakings of any sort...

but surprise surprise.. today, my aunt ask me to try again... and guess wat?!?!?1

I SUCCEEDED!!! muahahahah.... it tasted the same.. its nice.. the layer is fine.. and i'm proud of myself.. wahahahahhaa... and its soft!!

this time if i were to throw it towards the wall.. its the cake that will break not the wall.. so ya..

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!

My all time favourite song.. muahahah.. i'm such an oldie at times.. wahahah.. But the song is really really nice.. wahaha.. So lomantik.. :P


Speak Softly Love
by Al Martino

Speak softly love
And hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words
The tender trembling moments start

We're in our world
Our very own
Sharing a love that only
Few have ever known

Wine colored days, warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights, when we are one

Speak softly love
So no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make
Will live until we die

My life is yours
And all because
You came into my world with
Love so softly love

[Musical interlude]

Speak softly love
So no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make
Will live until we die

My life is yours
And all because
You came into my world with
Love so softly love