If I were to...

have Alex Pettyfer's child....

It will look like this!

(came across the site when i was bloghopping)

DONT YOU THINK ITS JUST TOOO CUTE! I most prob wouldn't be able to stop staring at the child. LOL

OR... If i do have his child. I think my son will end up looking like me dont you think? LOL!

Pet Names

Surprise surprise! I found out I have a pet name amongst some. Purely by chance and maybe some mistake of nature. *rolls eyes* Yup, amongst people I don't know well enough but I guess talked about often enough to be able to be bestowed such an honour. I should be flattered.

I wonder, what else am I classified as?

oh well. I should just concentrate on trying to finish my Politics assignment which was due today, but I cant finish it yesterday due to the last minute spirit council meeting in which i was asked to attend.

Sooo toodles, before i live up to my pet name's reputation.

Ramadhan

Its already the 5th day. Hmmm now that I think about it.. its kinda fast. 24 more days to go..

So what did I eat tonight?

Stir fried chicken, egg and rice.

My pantry is running out of essential cooking ingredients. hmph! i lazy lor wanna go grocery shopping. haiz.

I need garlic, chilli, rice, fishball, tauhu, chicken ham, nutella..

shit. i just remembered i've ignored my bread in the fridge. DIE LIAO! confirm green already! haiz. Now I have to add bread to the list. bleargh~

then my light soy sauce, oyster sauce and sesame oil also finishing. -.-" Which means I have to go to the city one of these days...

I need to buy spring onions too.

Wheat flour for my chwee kueh. haiz. this is not gonna be cheap. WAAAAAAA!!! I shall just postpone this in 2 weeks time la when my allowance come in. bleargh!

Of Boyfriends and Birthdays...

Me and my friends... I know too well just how much they will do anything for people who matters. Coz, I do the exact same thing. I guess birds of a feather really do flock together.

You know, when either of us is/are/were attached, we cherish our partners so much that even a slap from a parent doesnt matter. Disapprovals are just countered with challenged biased opinions of our partners even though deep down inside we all know, our parents might just be right. But we ignore that nagging thought and the parental department keep their opinions to themselves after awhile after seeing that maybe their daughter(s) might just be right... But us girls, we never voice out such things. We keep it to ourselves.

I really hate it when I see my friends quarrel about birthday celebrations with their partners about petty issues such as wearing the inappropriate outfit either too revealing or too short.

Truthfully, I find it heartbreaking. Don't you have any idea how much a girlfriend would put into planning a birthday celebration for you?

We plan for months. We survey locations, call up restaurants to see if we can request any change in the menu becoz our partners don't eat it, allergic to it, etc.

We look for presents, locally and internationally. We survey shops after shops. And for presents such as gadgets or things that we are not familiar with, we go to forums after forums and sometimes research too much about it to the point that it appears in our dreams. Coz at the end of the day, what you like matters most.

And some, even save money for months coz where the boyfriend is concerned, there is no such thing as a budget.

We spend hundreds and maybe thousands of dollars to make that one day that happen annually perfect and special.

We search for weeks for the perfect outfit. On the day, we take extra time to look nice, be pretty, smell good and doll up more then usual just coz it is after all his special day and you are his special girl. And you want to see that smile that he feels lucky to be yours... and vice versa.

And how do you think we would feel that after all that, when you see us, you turn temperamental just coz you think our outfit no matter how much you like it is just too revealing and what would pple say...

And even after all that, we still swallow our pride and still smile to salvage watever it is that we can to try and make that day perfect even though inside, we can hear our hearts shattering in disappointment.

and trying hard to keep a smile instead of tears, our thoughts louder then your words. Unappreciated.

You know, we don't even have to hear thank you but a beaming smiling face or a pleasant attitude just on that day would be enough to tell us that it was all worth it.

in 20 minutes time...

I will be breaking fast for the first time by myself away from home.

heh.

If you all wanna know, i'll be eating my nasi lemak and sambal ikan bilis and telor which I made yesterday evening... =)

My attempt at...

Sesame Dumpling with the recipe I found online.. yippee! she's my new cooking idol. Its really damn easy. I was quite surprised myself! I felt cheated for paying all that money to Banquet or any other coffeeshop! HMPH!

check it out! I'm so proud of myself!

And my attempt at making this korean snack Ddeokggochi, its like skewered fried rice cakes la is somewhat a failure. I tried it with Deena when we were going to go karaoke with the girls... So happy lor when we were eating it! I have to remember that next time I shall put it on satay sticks and pan fry it instead of deep frying it. lalalallalala...

Truly Melaka

So yesterday was the cooking spree that i was blogging about rite? So end up we didnt go marketing in the morning, I went to the city for marketing in the afternoon and then waited for mel to pick me up. Yup. HE WAS LATE! but nehmind nehmind, Adelaide peak hours 415pm onwards. -.-" SO I WAITED CAN! haiz. so long lor. he only arrived at 5 i think!!!!

Yesterday, as Mel puts it, was the happy-fying meal. I didnt buy black glutinous rice so we didnt make bubor pulut hitam. I think chendol would have completed yesterday's meal like with a huge big round and smiling full stop. lol!

Reached my place and... wah lau.. we both cook for ourselves like macam party you know.

Lemak Chilli Padi

Tauhu Goreng

Beef Rendang

Udang Assam

after that... we both sat at my living room mcm babi lor.

Anywayz, here's the pics from yesterday... Yesterday is really cook until tired that kind. but not bad la quite fast despite my blur sotongness from being sick and seem to be throwing every other ingredient into the dustbin.

2 down.. 2 more to go!

check out my kitchen!

The chefs of Cashel and Bailey St

Meal ready! I have no idea why the blog is uploading this side ways.

Mel just have a problem with this thing. That thing is btw, my tissue box cover. since I'm having flu, lady bird had to grace the dinner table. He thinks that my lady bird is smiling smugly at him. -.-"

Fruit Tart (Recipe requested by S.C.)

Ingredients

CRUST

22g (8 oz) unsalted butter
150g ( 5 1/3 oz) castor sugar
3 eggs
500g ( 1lb 1 1/2 oz) bread flour

PASTRY CREAM
2 cups ( 500ml / 16 fl oz) fresh milk
1 tsp vanilla essence
4 egg yolks
125 g (4 1/2 oz) castor sugar
50 g (1 2/3 oz) corn flour (cornstarch)
100 g (3 1/2 oz) butter

FILLING
some melted chocolate
fruit of your choice
apricot jam, warmed and mixed with a little water to glaze

*beans

METHOD

1. Prepare crust. Cream butter and sugar until smooth. Add eggs one at a time followed by flour. Roll dough into balls and cover with plastic wrap. Leave to chill in the refrigerator for 2 hours before rolling out thinly to line tartlet tins OR the huge tart pan.
   
2. Bake blind, covered with aluminium foil and filled with beans (you can use nuts - almonds or hazelnuts, for a more aromatic flavour to your crust) in an oven oreheated to 175 degrees celsius fir about 10 mins until crust is golden and base dry. Discard foil and beans. leave crust to cool.
   
3. Prepare pastry cream. In a saucepan, bring milk and vanilla essence to a simmer. In a bowl beat egg yolks, sugar and corn flour into a smooth custard. Slowly add hot milk. Pour custard back into saucepan and continue cooking over low heat until thick and bubbly. Add butter and turn off the heat. Leave to cool slightly before refrigerating to chill.
   
4. Start assembling tarts when pastry cream is sufficiently chilled. Brush melted chocolate over the base of pastry shells. This keeps the pastry from becoming soggy when the pastry cream is added. Pipe in pastry cream and decorate with fruit.
   
5. Brush tarts with warm, melted apricot jam heated with a little water to keep the fruit fresh.

the end. Happy trying SC!

Cooking Spree

I'm going on a cooking spree tmr! With Mel!

Yup yup!

so much so that we're going marketing at 9am before school.

yes you read that right! I. AM. WAKING. UP. EARLY. TO. GO. MARKETING.

to go pasar you know!

totally wth. i know. totally domesticated. cb.

Anywayz, here's the pics of the last time I was too free and made Chocolate Macadamia Cheesecake and some other things. I have a full frontal pic but i'm not gonna upload it, coz I kinda destroyed my perfect round cheesecake when i was trying to get it out of the pan, coz my choc was a little too sticky.

The cheesecake isn't as smooth la.. but wth, this is my first try anywayz. Its yummy tho. Trust me, I don't eat cheesecake. Heh. And Surprisingly easy. =D

My grandmother's Lemak Chilli Padi, but of course, in Australia, the Chillis are temperamental. So normal chilli would suffice. LOL.

my CHOCOLATE CHIP MACAROONS! Yum Yum. I made this while watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle on my lappie! LOL! it's that easy!

will update today's escapade with pictures soon!

Anywayz, SC, i owe you my tart recipe rite? Will be up in the entry after! Will post it at a more godly time of the day!

love ya'll many many!

I'm back...

Truthfully, I'm dead tired. But what can I do rite? I'm back rite smack in the middle of an ongoing semester.

Singapore was definitely memorable.

And I've just been gone 6months.

I came back totally random without informing anyone including my mom coz I was still deciding about 10hours before my flight if I really did want to go back. Only 5 people back in Singapore knew I was coming back. Mom only found out about me coming home 20 minutes before i boarded my flight. heh.

I was somewhat at peace.

Truthfully, I thought that I won't be caught up in a back to back meet ups every other day till the day I fly off. I feel the pinch of the lack of salary. haiz.

I haven't been online much for the 2 weeks that I was back. The irony of it all. I came home to unlimited internet only not to use it at all! sheesh.

Singapore was alot of things.

Dramatic was one of it.

Yup boring old Singapore, dramatic. Weird isn't it?

Reminded me why I ran away sometimes. Yup, I ran away.

I've decided, until I put up the 3 things I wanted to put up, till then I'll be part of it. After that, no more. (Dont bother asking me what this is about, only one person know what these 3 things are.)

I'm somewhat happy to be back here to settle into my quiet somewhat boring life of a student all over again.

200 more words to go. 3 and half hours to deadline. Smart me fell asleep this morning.


Oh and Kay, I do not avoid you in front of my friends. If you're thinking why I replied other pple and not you, that's coz they usually txt me to check my tagboard.

And Shah: yup it was definitely memorable. See you end of the year. hopefully.

My cousins drove in over the weekend in hopes of seeing my face before I fly off.

Mawar is doing well. The new job is treating her well I see. Vice President! LOL! happening yo.

The siblings are doing well after all the hoo haa that happened last month and they have kept me updated everyday via Yahoo Messenger. They're growing up. They're good people. yup.

Mawar's gonna get engaged next year. 25. I guess that's a not bad age of getting engaged and 26, married. But then again, marriage isn't the age. Its about whether you're ready or not rite? If a person is ready at 19 then by all means, go and get married lor...

I will be busy driving in and out of Malaysia end of the yr I guess... yup yup... Since she trusts me in deco and even her outfit.. =)

Mom has a new fear. She is now convinced that I will never get married due to certain reasons. She told me about it after she talked to my cousins and then they were telling her about their dream wedding. Yeah. Even the guy knows what he's gonna wear on his wedding day. heh. cuteness.com.

I? I just zoned out and played with my pet on pet society. When they left the room, my mom stared at me. My instant reaction, "what? Am I next in line for the interview? If you have to know, I never thought about how my wedding will be like." And she just laughed. She said, "No... As for you, I'm just worried you'll never get married.."

And the marriage topic has finally set itself out in the open on me.

I hate growing older.

There are many times where I didnt wanna come back here.

Today I was proven right.

Truthfully, Adelaide would be perfect if all of my friends are there with me and my family visited me occasionally.

My mom trusts me more. Why can't everyone else do the same?

Its just been a week and I've started quarreling and crying. I dont wanna think about when I have to stay here for 3 months.

I'm 23 not 5.

The way you talked about things that have happened, lovingly. You know what I call it? Hypocrite.

I came home not to stare at the walls. I can do it in Adelaide. Oh wait, I've been doing it for the past 6 months.

I left the one place I've called home my whole life, ran away from all familiarities because of so many things. Then I realised maybe this was one of those many things.

Kau jangan keluar malam malam. Asal asyik nak keluar dengan kawan kau. Macam perempuan kabaret. Keturunan aku tak der pun perempuan kabaret. Mungkin keluarga kau yang banyak perempuan kabaret. Kau makin duduk jauh makin pandai menjawab makin kurang ajar.

Ye lah nek, agaknye keluarga dee memang byk pun perempuan kabaret. Keluarga nenek kan semuanya alim alim. Ustaz, Imam... Tapi yang nenek takut sangat aper orang fikir pasal dee dee tu kenaper? Nenek ingat dee dee kisah sangat aper orang nak cakap? Orang nak ngumpat, ngumpat la.. sendiri yang dosa.

Of course my friends will be more important to me then you. They dont judge me, they never have. I'm beginning to think that my friends know me better then my own grandmother. Ya well. If all she can see from my face is whatever she has concluded then too bad for her. Here I thought that 6 months would have changed a lot of things. It changed everyone. Except her.

When coming home suddenly felt anything but right.

Hello Home

Its been a difficult time adjusting.

I havent been sleeping much. I just can't sleep.

Its too warm. Its too bright. Its too noisy in the middle of the night. And I stay awake, waiting for the night to get darker as it progresses. I waited and waited. And soon I realise, the sounds of engines being turned on gets more frequent, people starts sneezing, coughing, toilets flushing, water running through the pipes. Yup, people are waking up to go to work already. And I am still awake.

Haiz.

And yes, I am currently in Singapore. Its just one of those random moments of mine which I am so famous for but people have agreed that this is by far the random-est of it all. I've had enough. Had enough of boredom and void of human contact. So i've decided to just fly back here.

My aunt (my mom's sister in Malaysia) thinks and is convinced that I am homesick. But I'm not. Seriously.

I was too bored and I've had enough of staring at the wall and later on the ceiling of the house with no one to talk too or hang with for the entire day OR DAYS. Yup. Some form of random activities and human contact would be good. but oh well.

Its funny how when I was in Adelaide, despite the boredom, I did not miss home and now that I am home, I am somewhat missing Adelaide. The quietness, the peacefulness, the tranquillity. And you know what's worst? When I landed at Changi Airport on Monday, strangely enough, I didn't get the feeling of "i'm home" the way I usually get when I return to Singapore from somewhere. Bleargh!

And you know what else is funny? I can no longer understand the Singapore Accent. I'm so used to the Aussie pronunciation even though I do not have their accent. It has reached to a point where I have constantly turned to Deena and ask "how much did he say?" Yup. Its annoying that I can't seem to catch the totals of the bubble teas or Macs which I'm suppose to be paying for. And therefore, I have now officially given up in trying to decipher the amount and have resorted to passing a large note to pay for the stuff resulting in me having more then enough change! -.-" ya.

Truthfully, somehow I suddenly feel out of place here. And its ONLY been 6 months since I left. I feel like a bloody alien in my own country, simply by not being able to catch what others are saying! bleargh~

APOLOGIES~

I know that i havent been blogging much since the last I blogged about me moving remember?

Ya well.. let's see alot of things have somewhat happened i suppose... lol! Hols ends this week or rather tomorrow and guess what have i been doing? NOTHING. great isnt it? yup.

I'm so grumpy angry frustrated at the fact that I've been bored with nothing to do. Yup. I do get annoyed when i have nothing to do no one to go out with. its the same kind of feeling i get when my grandmother decides to shut down on me back home and I cant go out.

I'm the kinda person who gets restless easily and boredom doesnt really sit well with me. I feel kinda useless.

Anywayz, i went into some house trouble but now i've been moved. followed my housemate and moved with her. SO its all good at least for now. My room is spacious enough but its kinda far from the toilet and with the sprained ankle, that's not really a good thing especially when its already uber urgent. HMPH!

Soooo.. how did i sprain my ankle?

Remember the fencing comp that i was blogging abt last week or so? yup. I had fencing comp 2 fridays ago and I sprained my ankle in the first bout of the Foil comp. And yes, I know I fenced Sabre but I was supposed to fence all 3 weapons in the competition. The last I did that was in Sec School. -.-

SO I sprained my ankle rite? I pulled out of foil and epee and continued fencing sabre in which we won. HAHAHAHAH! Sprained ankles and all. It was quite hilarious how we won the sabre comp coz I can barely move! lol! One of the reason why I still wanted to fence despite the sprain was coz I stayed in Adelaide during sch hols instead of flying back to Singapore was for this comp. so ya.

But ya my teammate have proudly announced that Flinders have a candidate for Paralympics! annoying rite!!??

The first 3 days of the sprain was a nightmare. I couldnt move and it hurt so bad. All i wanted to do was cry. HMPH! Whooops!~ i shouldnt have admit it here. lol! But Mel helped feed me over the weekend. he send dinner over!! yay!! so nice rite my best friend? *smiles*

SO what have i been doing? I've been doing movie marathons and drama series marathons coz I stole it from my housemate. Yup she gave me her entire external hard drive for me to take whatever i wanted. LOL! so i've been having marathons of

Wildchild
X Men Origins
Dragonball Evolution
Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging
Marley and Me
Click
Transporter 1, 2, and 3
Fast & Furious
Bolt
City of Ember
Bedtime Stories
Yes Man
Changeling
Slumdog Millionaire
Space Buddies
Horsemen
Moulin ROuge

YUP. Thats alot of movies but i've watched it all and some more than once! LOL! its only been 3 or 4 days. Watched Desperate Housewives too..

But i've been tired from the moving and the energy drained from trying to control the pain from my ankle that i've just been lying unconscious on the bed half the time and it doesnt help that the weather here has been unpredictable and therefore cutting the internet connection off half the time.

Really pisses me off.

Hmmm.. you know.. Mom asked me to go home the other day. But I was half hearted. I don't know why. There were times that I was thinking that I should have just went home, if i didnt sprain my ankle or with the sprain ankle. but at the same time, i keep on thinking that staying here seems like the best idea.

I've adjusted here enough. If I were to go home, it'll be like going back to a craving no? And then coming back here I will have to readjust all over again.

The thing with me is that I don't even know how I feel sometimes. I'm so used to dealing with things sometimes that I have no idea how i really feel. Whether I miss home or I don't? It doesnt help that I'm someone who have never vocalise my thoughts or feelings.... much.

My cousins have been wanting to go for an end of the year get a way. Hope I can join them... I havent been on a holiday in a really long while. =)

Halimah wants to go KL end of the year and she intends to drag me along as well. LOL!

I need to readjust my body clock. bleargh!

School starts next week and I dont wanna goooooooooooo~!!! LOL

LADY GAGA

I think one can agree with me that its not easy to appreciate the kind of music by Lady Gaga, the techno mix and the overly computerized voice can get alittle annoying when you're not in the right mood for it. But.. I actually like this acoustic version!!! LOL!

So mel! Once your internet is fine again, please download k? i'll post up the list of songs i want toooo~!

FINALLY

Someone out of the ordinary for National Day Theme Song!

CLEAN ROOM

I realised one thing today and yesterday.

Its different living by yourself and living with total strangers.

I'm a clean freak.

one of the reasons why i have yet to put my necessary stuff in public areas is coz i have not clean those public areas yet and i am somewhat... errmmm..

well let's just put it.. i wouldnt put it there...

at least not yet.

I would disinfect the entire house if i could. heh.

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Next week's the comp... I might actually most probably hopefully get a medal. khekhekhekhekhe...

But then i have yet to fenced everyone...

so i cannot be over confident.. yup yup

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how's the new house?

haiz. have yet to find out.

its just strange having to own everything... like as if i dont have enough stuff of my own already...

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you know there's always this sinking feeling.

i dont even know what it is anymore...

or maybe its better not knowing...

Baking Spree

I'm thinking if I should bake this week.

I was thinking of Nutella Rolls.

And also try remaking the kosui which came up as somewhat a failure the last time round. hmmm~

This was the fruit tart I made the last time round. I miss my pie dish from home. Baking in ceramic dish seems to have a different turnout. I think I need to re do it and see what's wrong.. or worst come to worst. just get myself my own aluminium spriing form pie dish...

This was the second time I did this fruit tart.. the first time i did it was about 3yrs back for mother's day. the topping was strawberry though instead of orange.. =)

Truthfully, baking is at times an expensive affair. LOL~!

Ignorantly Random.

I wished I was ignorant about things.

And the naivety and ignorance of my face matches the depth of my knowledge. Then I would constantly be bouncing on a cloud of happy.

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Eh Deena,

You know wat? I read your blog. And I saw the Let It Rock vid.

There's 5 things I missed about Sydney besides the food:-

Right Round. *both taking over dance floor in the R&B room*
Live My Life. *wolf whistle*
Day & Night. *remembers certain idiot I had to dance off with*
Soulja Boy. *Winks and burst out laughing*

and of course Timmy Trumpet. LOL! Only he managed to make trance to die for. LOL! <- That's alot coming out of me since I really hate trance. heh.

I am... Sasha Fierce. *crumps*

Beyonce should give me a VIP pass for her end yr tour!! *pouts*

Yes I'm just itching to party rite now. I'm that stressed. *Wriggles about while sitting*
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And yes, I am worried about my paper tomorrow. Very worried to the point that I'm shivering when I'm not even cold. -.-"

Father's Day

I didn't realise it was Father's day today till I received a txt from someone reminding me that. Why? Coz I remembered in my entire life, there was only one father's day where I was present, he was present.

During that point of time, I was always excited of having days like this. You behave, you bathe early and smell good and dress nice waiting for your parents / dad to come home and then you can give present, smile for the picture and receive the kisses and tickles that come along with it and then you think to yourself, you have to be the luckiest girl in the world. It happened once when I can remember. Its like christmas morning or the morning of your birthday.

But every year I behaved, every year I fell asleep waiting. And then, I grew up and decide not to look forward to such childish fantasies anymore. And soon, I start forgetting.

I just hope that who knows eventually hopefully maybe one day I do get married and eventually hopefully maybe one day I may have children. For him to show them how much he loves them, even if it is more then he loves me.

And I hope that every year they will always have smiles plastered on their faces by their father; at least once a year.

Happy Father's Day.

ha.

Things that make me burst out laughing PART 2~!

on why, we're so shy when we see each other face to face....


°· her royal freshness ·° says:
eh yah hor. why we so shy?!-

::Nadira Putri::- Turn the lights low says:
you la!

°· her royal freshness ·° says:
wahaahah

-::Nadira Putri::- Turn the lights low says:
smile smile at me
then i smile smile back lor
lol!

°· her royal freshness ·° says:
or so now I'm like a retarded old woman lah!

Its times like this...

THAT I BURST OUT LAUGHING IN THE LIBRARY!

-::Nadira Putri::- Turn the lights low says:
you sound good too..lol!! why so happy today?

°· her royal freshness ·° says:
ah....what a shame
haha
am tryin to act extra happy, hoping my brain'll catch it too
it's a pretty dull day lah
how's the weather there!

-::Nadira Putri::- Turn the lights low says:
hmmm
the weather?
pre-menstrual!
cant seem to decide to be cold or hot

°· her royal freshness ·° says:
ooo
maybe you shld talk to it and offer coffee
okay that's lame
haha

-::Nadira Putri::- Turn the lights low says:
i am speechless!!!!
WAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA

°· her royal freshness ·° says:
I wld be too if I were you!
wahahah

E.M.P.T.I.N.E.S.S.

Its silent and deafening isn't it?

Or maybe its just me staying alone on the hills is silent and deafening? hmmz...

one thing i will miss once i move down from Eden Hills will be this scenario:

You walking along the dark streets with the street lamps approximately 250m away from the other, the cold wind hitting your face like a pack of ice, humming away to make some noise in the totally loud silence. You can feel your nose ice cold and can imagine yourself looking like rudolf, then you will unconsciously grin to yourself.

Then you will take in a deep breathe. The refreshing smell of trees, the coolness of the night and also a certain comfort. You inhale again, and you smell the faint scent of burnt wood. The air cool with a mix of slightly warmer air as you past each house and see the chimney busily smoking away.

You allow yourself to imagine of snuggling up in front of the fire place with hot tea or hot chocolate with a blanket around you and a book in hand or having a really interesting conversation with someone close. And after a long day? it seemed perfect.

Its the smell of comfort of a cosy kitchen on a cold night.

and you stand in the middle of the streets and look up and you see the stars like a blanket of diamonds in the sky. You just stand there for the next 15 minutes and observe the wonders of god and 10 degrees on your right, you'll see the moon. Equally magnificent.

Both looking larger then what i've seen back home... its like as though you could pluck the wonders of the sky and keep it in your pocket for your own personal treasure.

Its small wonders like these that seemed etched in your mind.

Then I realise, i cherish all the smaller things non existent things like this more then anything else.

Personal treasures. Simple pleasures. Perfect memories.

Blushworthy

This has to be one of the cutest videos i've seen! LOL!!



Me, plus you. (Im'a tell you one time)
Me, plus you(One time, Im'a tell you one time)
Me, plus you(One time, Im'a tell you one time)
(one time) one time, (One TIme) one time

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach wont stop stop
and even thought it's a struggle love is all we got
so we gonna keep keep climbin till the mountain top

your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
my breath is your breath
And your heart and now I've got my

Chorus
One love, My one heart, My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time(girl I love, girl I love you)
Im'a tell you one time(girl I love, girl I love you)and I'll be your one guy
You'll be my number one girl
Always making time for you
Im'a tell you one time(girl I love, girl I love you)
Im'a tell you one time(girl I love, girl I love you)

You look so deep
You no that it humbles me
You by my side and troubles them dont trouble me
Many have called but the chosen is you
Whatevery you want shawty I'll give it to you

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I dunno why i keep on smiling seeing the video! lol!

*SCREAMS*

Time Check: 7:30am.

I've been up for days but i haven't been doing much. no its not coz i didnt know how to do this like my previous essay...

This time round, its just procrastination. yup.

Procrastination is every student's best friend. I should be finished with my essay by now lor! haiz. Its not even that hard to begin with.. but noooo i did EVERYTHING ELSE then to do this essay. haiyo.

So for now, I'm half done. -.-"



*Applauds* I've always had this version in my MP3 but i wasn't aware that it was all him. LOL!

This pic made me burst out laughing!

She has now proceeded to put the both of us in a relationship on fb!

Of Warm Fuzzies & Sharpened Knives.

See the irony in the title? ha.

Anywayz, my cousins drove into Singapore on thursday night. Did I tell you that my aunt from Netherlands is in Singapore as well? Yup. She'll be there for a year which means when I come back here she'll still be there... *shudders*

SO. I was talking about my cousins ya? One of the many things they miss now in my absence is my credit card... -.-" Such love rite?! idiots.

They found me online when I was about to get ready to leave the house to go central market! LOL!!

(YA! I JUST FINISHED BATHING WHEN SHE CAUGHT ME!)

They obviously just woke up.

And they proceeded in watching me get ready! i have pervs for cousins.

(Salam Sayang dari Australia! khekhekeh)

They showed me kinky!!! Kinky's so fat now. haiz. MISS THEM! I MISS TIGER MORE! But i was staring at tiger's face too much to actually remember taking her pic when my cousins presented her on the webcam. heh.

Ya. They're always done the most retarded stuff. Especially baby.

This pic was apparently for angah to share with australia his morning breath which his sisters were screaming about at the point of time of this picture.

Soulja boy inspired... eh angah? lol!

Its interesting how pple get closer despite the oceans. We've never been this close before. Suddenly me and baby are talking everyday when we've never done that before. Doesn't help that Baby is the furthest from the siblings since she's in Uni in KL rite now.

Mawar isn't in the pic coz she's in putrajaya, she got posted there for work now. So much for wanting to die die stay in Melaka. LOL! but ya.. They've been buzzing me online on a daily basis.

I appreciate it. Alot.

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Hypocrisy pisses me off. I shouldnt still be pissed. But, I am. It still pisses me off everytime it crosses my mind. I swear I'm not gonna be in a good mood during fencing next week.

Some double headed snake. Fuck you. seriously. Fuck you.

What wrong have I ever done to you? I've always had my suspicions of you. Pple tell me that you'll always be like that. And I thought that we grew up. People change. That's the reason why I talked when you prompt me online.

Seems like I'm the only one that grew up huh? I should have known better. But you know wat? I really dont have the energy for this shit anymore. I really don't.

I really should stop giving people second chances. People, they've never appreciated me have they? They've always have been taking advantage of my kindness huh? fuck off. seriously.

Stop acting so angelic. Look in the fucking mirror and you'll see what you truly are. You say things just because. Pple have told me I'm worth more than this than to waste my time about people like fucking you. Ya. I should have listen.

I'm worth more than this.

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I think I'm falling sick. I constantly have the urge of wanting to vomit.

I don't know whether is it becoz i'm stressed, tired or wat...

Hear The Whispers of My Heart...

I was grateful for company yesterday. I've been tired and way out of it. I was craving for company... I want someone to be around, talk to, laugh with or just be there even when I sleep. I got that yesterday.

Being here alone, i miss human contact. I miss receiving hugs just because. I miss being hugged when i'm sleeping, I miss being hugged when I'm cold, I miss being hugged just to give me a certain warmth... I miss having someone I can tell that I have stomachache and they would rub my tummy till i fall aslp...

I've been having dreams. Nightmares. Some woke me up gasping for air and in tears, some woke me up in shock and some woke me up and i just smile sadly to the ceiling.

Letoya-Torn- Watch more Videos at Vodpod.

I'm disappointed in myself, for still...

I'm disappointed in myself, for not being able to move as fast as...

I'm disappointed in myself, for taking this long and still not being able to.

I should be angry with myself rite? yeah... maybe i should be.

Coz who knows, I was nothing before... nothing at all?

Of lies and deceptions. I have been the biggest fool in this entire situation have I not?

But even after all this, I still do... How's that? There must be something really wrong with my head, my heart, with me.

Mary: You know it wouldn't hurt so much if I didn't love him. I wished there was a pill I could take to make love go away...

Mother: Why would you wanna make it go away? Its difficult to come by in the first place.

Quote from Movie: The Women

Bbbut.. I've never found you wrong despite knowing the things that you did not think I knew. After all the things we've put each other through... some honesty would be good tho.

To take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly, or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen
And we find the reasons why
One step at a time

So even a song suggests, time? ha.

To you: I'm sorry I rejected you about 4mths back.... i guessed we should have just gave it a shot since at least I knew you cared more about me then I ever will for you. That should be it ritE?

But we didn't and I hurt you instead.. So i'm sorry.

so for now...

i'm

Single, Unavailable and looking (if you'll consider.)

Btw, just bare in mind what you're getting yourself into. This girl, doesnt believe in love.

Oh and if you want my heart? I gave it to a certain someone and its still there for safekeeping. You want it? Please call him to arrange for an interview appointment. This interview will determine if you're even worth my time. I'm sorry to say that decision is left solely to the interviewer's discretion.

No matter how much they've tried pulling me away...

somehow...

it seems that...

i cant.

haiz. dear god, is this wrong? it is, isnt it?

This is the longest i've been trying to finish a damn essay. I've been at this stupid thing since last wednesday and I have now asked my tutor for an extension in which he gave me an extra 24hours. Like thanks rite? the least he could do was to give me a more comfortable timing rite? like 48hours or wat.

I think he hates me. Yup. My classmate got a week. hmph~!

So I am still up typing this thing.. finishing soon... and deena is online. Finally i've managed to talk to her online since she's back in singapore and recovered from fever!

and i like this portion of the conversation.


deen: SUPERWOMAN says:
u doin ur essay ah?

-::Countess Dee::- [Rising from the ashes] says:
no la.. i plucking flowers

and i like how she just ignore the sarcasm and continued talking as if i wasnt doing my essay... LOL!

In the midst of pulling my hair,

Don't worry. I'm not bald yet... My hair is too thick for it to go bald within one assignment.

I managed to smile thanks to 2 different people tonight. One was about 6hrs ago and the other was 1min ago.

Thanks so much! for keeping me sane~

Loves~

I'm really on the verge of screaming rite now.

I have essays to do and yet my mind has it own things its pondering about! My body is functioning on a 22hour clock. That is what it was as of today / yesterday.

Deena can you call me later or something? Thanks!

Maybelline Gel Liner / Eyestudio

Yup this is the thing as I was referring too in my previous post and as Hally requested, this is a review.

I've been using this thing close to a year and I'm still at the same pot that I bought close to a year ago. There's a reason why this product became no. 1 product in Japan when it was first launched.

What are my thoughts on this product?

1. APPLICATION - The brush is soft (therefore the bristles do not hurt your eyes upon application) and the gel is smooth... Therefore, its easy to apply.

2. MOISTURE - Like I say its been with me for the past yr and it has not dried up the way other brands have dried up on my friends... In particular, Deena's Bobbi Brown gel eyeliner.. In the period of my one pot (which is still not finished) Deena already replaced hers twice coz it dried up... lol!

3. PRICE - Its Maybelline... How expensive can it get? Its about time pple reach out to the masses yo!

4. COLOURS - It comes in 4 colours... But I'm not sure whether Singapore has all the colours the other countries have... When I bought it 2 days after it was launched, Singapore only had black and brown. The colours of this thing is rich! The black is jet black, the brown is alittle darker than a milk chocolate brown, the purple is plum and the blue or was it green? watever it is.. its rich..

5. CONVENIENCE - The pot is small and the brush is slim, its able to fit into a standard size make-up bag.

6. UPKEEPING - The gel comes off easily with just a wipe of a normal facial wipe or any make up remover. You dont have to use an oil-based make-up remover. So... That's what you do with the brush... Wipe it with your facial wipe or any of your make up remover to maintain the bristles, preferably after every use... If you dont then your bristles will harden and it'll be like poking your eye with a needle! lol.. but that doesnt mean it cant be removed once its harden.. it still can... quite easily actually.

7. VERSATILITY - Since application is with a brush, you control the thickness of your application if you intend to apply it to your upper lid and you could also smudge it for your classic smoky look... It works fine on your waterline as well..

Conclusion:

I dont really have much complains about this product. I guess some who have never tried a moisture rich eyeliner will fine it alittle sticky after applying it... but you'll get used to it after awhile... I find it quite long lasting even though it is not waterproof. I suspect retouching would be after 6 -10hours depending on individual's skin type.

Basically, i think this is a worthy investment and a great addition to anyone's make up kit. =)

Hally, I hope this review is sufficient.. lol! Anything else you want me to comment on? LOL!

I think...

I'm PMSING~

I cant seem to start and finish my readings for my essays.. sheesh..

Its 2 weeks before the exams and then its school hols.. hols will be coming slightly early for me i think.. well at least.. i hope!

I can't believe I've missed episodes of Merlin! Its sunday 6.30pm Nad!

My Maybelline gel eyeliner is finishing! actually it lasts quite long.. lol! I bought it the day it was launched in Singapore coz well.. I've been eyeing it since the day they launched it in Canada! WAHAHHAHAHA~! yes yes, I'm one of those idiots...

ANYWAYZ, it stays moist till now! unlike Deena's Bobbi Brown eyeliner which dries up! Such a waste of money lor that one... hahahaha.. so Deena, lesson learnt.. Not everything expensive means good ok?! WAHHAHHAHAHAHA. BUT. I have yet to see it in Australia...

There's a few things which I'm eyeing as well but due to the lack of internet connection here... I am unable to track it the way I could in Singapore.. BLEARGH~

Winter begins...

On Monday as I was told.. yeah well its getting colder here.. that's for sure.. I have a love hate relationship for things here...

When i turn on the heater in my room, it gets soooo stuffy that I cant breathe and I'll get a headache and when i turn it off I'll be curling underneath my comforter! bleargh~

What happened to central heating rite? well, you go and tell my calculative landlord that la... She loves to live in the dark and the cold. I swear she was a mole in her previous life.

I woke up at 1pm today thinking to myself I think I need to replenish my groceries and then I thought what the hell for? sheesh.

I would rather stay on my bed and under the covers rite now.. even finishing my readings for my essays is becoming a chore. lol!

ON OTHER NEWS.

I got my own broadband on friday. However, thanks to the fact that I'm living on the hills, my broadband signal is low and therefore makes my internet connection freaking slow and half the time I can't sign into MSN.

SO... lesson to self? Don't take things for granted here.. Half of the things are not like Singapore! WE DONT HAVE HILLS BACK HOME!

Now I'm still having to stick to the wireless in the house. haiz. i got nothing to say la..

I was tempted to get a phone as well on friday... Why? Coz I was somewhat upset. bleargh~

But I'll just think about it first.. LOL

Woes Be Me~~

You have no idea where i'm typing from rite now.

Yup.

DRAMA LECTURE!!!!

me and rochana is dying of boredom. and rochana is hungry. and I'm not coz i went to eat instead of going to class just now. hahahahaha~~~

ya ya.. i so have my priorities rite.. lol!

I know the topic of the lecture alrite! its not as if i'm not paying attention. it... ermm.. WEDEKIND! ha!

and also whether spring awakening is an expressionistic play!

hehehehe.. tell me i'm smart!

but that's also coz the slide just flashed in front of me as i'm typing this out! MUAHAHAHAHHA~!! (shhhh... I'm trying to be smart here!)

ANYWAYZ, a really good morning on a really grey thursday to all my faithful readers all the way here from down under.

sidetrack: my fingers are gonna drop off one day from the cold. hmmm~

p.s: i think this is a really blonde entry. -.-"

I had a dream

I had a dream last night
What a lovely dream it was
I dreamed we all were alright
Happy in a land of oz
Why did everybody laugh when I told them my dream?
I guess they all were so far from that kind of that scene
Feelin real mean

I heard a song last night
What a lovely song it was
I thought I'd hum it all night
Unforgettable because..
All of the players were playing together
And all of the happies were as light as a feather
See, your love remember is a freeing of soul
But as I recall, the rest will just follow

I had a dream last night
What a lovely dream it was
I dreamed we all were alright
Happy in a land of oz
What a lovely dream it was
What a lovely dream it was

What a lovely dream it was

- Joss Stone

Well, lucky for me the dream woke me up this morning and I finally ended up in Visual Arts.. well after awhile that is... lol!

I think I need to resubmit some of my artwork. I am not satisfied with the marks I'm getting for this subject. How can I be screwing up art to begin with? FUCKING INSULTING CAN? Screwing art is not suppose to exist in my dictionary.. bleargh~

DRAMA ESSAY IS DUE IN 2 WEEKS. I REALISED IT YESTERDAY WHEN I WAS STARING AT THE CALENDAR! bleargh. research somewhat done but i have yet to decide on which question to do. hahahhaa.. smart rite? lol! HAIZ!

Reminder to self: Don't forget to hand in politics if not you'll end up having to sit for exams! (something i'm not intending to do!

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I made fruit tart yest and kuih ko sui! HAHAHHAHAHA~!!!

yes yessss.. i can be housewife already.

You should see how i peeled those bloody oranges! i had to peel off the transparent skin as welllll!! i stood there peeling oranges in the middle of the night. lol!

yeah i know... strawberries would have been better (and faster since i just have to cut it in half)... but mel doesnt eat fruits and he only eats watermelon and oranges. oh and apples when he is trying to be polite not to offend others. LOL!

so unless i could dry up watermelons, i'll have to stick to oranges.. cant finish the entire tart myself wattt~ have to share if not it will take ages to finish!

Actually come to think of it, i can use watermelons. i'll just have to make little balls of it! but hor! bad enough i was peeling oranges. I dont need to scoop watermelons to make me feel more of a housewife. waaaa~~~

TMR i will bring more ko sui to school while we're gonna camwhore after class!! ok mel? sounds good? HAHHAHAHAHA!!!

XOXO

How is the final episode of Gossip Girl be the last one of the entire thing? LOL! the last episode just have tooo many things that is enough to open the next season! lol!!!

but I like how this season ends though. Its about time Chuck and Blair ends up together and did you realise how Blair was holding on to the presents as if her life depended on it while she was kissing Chuck? Most scenarios would already have the girls dropping the presents and literally melting into the guy's embrace. LOL!!

So basically, i cant wait to see what next season brings especially when the guy Dan met at the cafe is Dan's half brother!!!

Funny really, how everyone is suddenly going to NYU.

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I watched Hana Yori Dango (is that how its spelt?) again. season 1 when Deena was here and Season 2 over the weekend. And i cried like a baby still. even more now actually as compared to before.

Totally reminded me why I no longer watch Japanese dramas / animes and rarely Korean dramas nowadays. yup.

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Exams in a month and i have essays to do which I'm not moving my ass in starting it!!! bleargh~ I'm so not in the mooooddd~!

God help me.

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And Ma, don't worry about things too much. We always come to a solution, regardless of how long it'll take. =) I'm fine here. I'm contented with my way of living here. As of now, you don't need to have the need to feel as though you have to give me more...

So far its enough. I'm sorry for making everyone go through this.

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Suki, I still do.

Haiz. I realised it recently.

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Every continent seems to have their pop princess, R&B diva, etc.

Seems like Agnes Monica is SEA's Britney Spears. lol! I mean she has always idolize the lady. that's no secret.. but her songs nowadays are beginning to sound like toxic, pieces of me, circus and things like that... her music videos tooo~~

But 3 of her songs are definitely catchy.. lol!

When i go back...

Most probably nothing will be familiar back home anymore.

I AM GOING TO...

send Deena to a household chore class! bleargh~

I havent called or talked to my mom in awhile. I'm just so damn tired! I hope she wont mind.. much. gosh~

And I'm really feeling poor rite now... bleargh~ *Eats grass* I really do hope I get the job that I went for the interview for on tuesday. I really cannot survive not earning. I get really paranoid. ESPECIALLY now.

Can I have a turn at being pampered toooo?!! *falls into bed*

Living my life (oh!) Ay ay ay~!!

Went to Sydney over the weekend. Ya ya.. it was unexpected... LOL! Tickets was EX PLS! BLEARGH~! *Eats grass*

Now Sydney was interesting... and EXPENSIVE. DAMMIT. transport was like - daylight robbery! LOL! Surprisingly, I actually prefer this practically kampung western version of melaka comparing to it. LOL! When I was there, I actually missed the setup of Adelaide. No idea why. Don't ask. LOL!

Its quite disturbing how racist pple can get there. Not towards me though. But ya. Nevertheless, witnessing it gives me the urge to smack that person's face left right centre.

One thing that is obviously better off there as compared to here is the DJs in the club. Of course. their remixes arent as bad as some of it here... LOL!

Made new friends. Left an impression as I have here. Had a dance off just to save a particular someone. sheesh. Not once, Not twice... THREE EFFING TIMES.

At strike 3, he gave up. thank god. I wouldnt know what else to do lor if he didnt... haiz..

"Wow. She can dance. Fierce~!"

You know. I never thought of myself being able to do that despite loving to dance. LOL! ballroom and hip hop are worlds apart pls!

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I enjoy dance. I enjoy dancing to my favourite genre. LOL~

An impression was something I never expect that I could leave behind.

yes yes. I may not hold a black belt in taekwando. I definitely hold one on the dance floor.

The past week...

The past week has been... hmmm.. fun? I dont even know if that was the right word. From last friday till now, my mood has been positively happy. HAHAHAHAHA~!!

For the first time since I've arrived I'm actually thinking that this wasn't wrong at all. For once I forgot my misery. lol! interesting don't you think?

Oh well I hope the feeling lasts. it will suck if it doesnt!

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Law pub crawl was fun. Definitely interesting. LOL! It was something I will never forget that's for sure. for obvious reasons or not.

I like it. I like that. ;P

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Deena will be arriving here tomorrow. Now, that is something to look forward too~ lol!! She's staying here for a week... This weekend is something to look forward to I suppose since I might just be doing an inter-state.

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I'll be going fencing at Adelaide Uni one of these days. I think after Deena leaves? I dunno yet. I'll have to think about it. lol!

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I've applied for part time jobs. I think I'm settled enough to add a new routine into my schedule. YUP YUP!

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I have yet to move from the hills. Truthfully, I kinda like it here. But i have a goddamn love hate relationship with the bloody bus. And the dark. And as of now, my landlord! cb rite?

The only thing about looking for house, apart from comfort. I'm actually looking for a double or queen size bed coz I have the tendency of falling off the bed at night. especially if its a single bed. It happens in hotels, it happened in my aunts room. Sooo... ya. LOL!

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Nathaniel (Nat) one of the sabrist I've known and gotten along with in school has found my face innnocent looking and therefore has taken to pinching my cheeks. He needs to die. He's 17 btw. BLEARGH~! idiot.

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I'm becoming a hit in Politics class. WAHAHAHAHAHHAHA~!! My tutor can be such an idiot sometimes. lol!

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It was memorable. that's for sure.

If only you knew...

Cleland Wildlife Park

The day I saw Koalas, Koala, more Koalas, kangaroos and wallabes. Due to the persistence of my landlord in wanting to show me how a Koala look like, I was asked if I wanted to go to the Wildlife Park during school holidays. I thought that I should just shut her up and went for it. Since she's been asking me many times over, EVERYTIME I'M BACK FROM SCHOOL, if I have seen a Koala on my way home. bleargh~

You have no idea how many koalas i've seen by the end of the outing! I was actually more interested in the Dingoes, Bilbys and tasmanian devil then the stupid koalas and kangaroos.

Anywayz, the hand feeding the wallabe in the later picture is mine.

I had fun but if it were with other peeps, i would most probably had even more fun.

And guess what? My favourite animal is below! WOMBAT! ITS SO CUTE AND FLUFFLY I WANTED TO STEAL IT AND MAKE A SOFT TOY OR A FOOT STOOL OUT OF IT!! but yeah.. Cleland wildlife park being the peak of Adelaide hills. It was definitely scenic!!