Happy & Sad

that's like a contradiction isn't it? those 2 emotions. How can one be happy and sad? Oh wells.

Happy. Yes, I was really happy yesterday even though rochana wanna kill me for it. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA. kinda thought that I will get it, and i did. SO THAT'S GOOOODD!! I couldn't stop grinning all day.

got into trouble with mom for overspending last mth. i cant remember what i spent on either besides school books and food coz i lost my atm card rite the other day.. I'm sorry.

times like this, i wish i'm working. I wish that i wasn't a full time student. But there's really no point wishing is there? I've already quit my job and I am here in Adelaide doing my second year!

YUP! that. speaking of which. I'm scared for my essays due in approximately 14 days time. its like.. I'm just scared for it.

the other day, i went to admissions office and asked about postgrad. Yeah, I did asked about it. Postgraduate Law in Flinders. the requirements aren't bad but at the same time, after last december's rejection i'm a little... well. put off. And uni in UK do not offer postgraduate. i'll have to do the normal LLB but that's fine coz its the same. 3 years.

I'm jealous. Oh hell yes i am. of friends in law degrees, of friends who just graduated from paris with a fashion design degrees, of friends who's already ending this journey.

Its funny really, when back then, i was that girl who designed. People had visions of me being someone.

This year, i reacquainted with lots of my secondary school friends online. we're chatting online now. they're all graduating this yr. and I can't help but be sad. I don't know what's gonna happen in my future.

Will I be that lawyer that i've been dreaming my whole life?

I wanna be successful, I wanna touch people, I wanna be famous. Sounds like a Pussycat Dolls song.

I had a plan when i was young. When I was 13 I had a plan. I am still on the plan just alittle rerouted. Some things were never meant to be on that plan. but it did. regret? I don't know. it has happened anyways and there's nothing i can do about it.

And my sec sch friends have assured me to be patient. Coz it will all be worth it. The future will work out for me. Will it? Really? I'm just... scared?

I want to change my life. I will. That's a promise to myself and one i've told my myself to do for my mom.

And on other saddening issues, you. its funny really. just really funny the extend you go to. Sometimes, I don't know what is it that you want from me or out of me. I really don't. You confuse the hell out of me sometimes and there are times that i choose to ignore it.

I'm just frustrated sometimes. yes, with you. But i don't show it. as always. and you, you've chosen to ignore it sometimes, as always. why can't things be easy? why?

PUTTING EVERYTHING ASIDE,

i'm like half way thru semester 1. which means that soon it will be over. and half year is gone! and one more year and i will be out of the bachelor of Arts and doing law. hopefully. and finally.

I'll just concentrate on that coz, I guess, nothing else matters.

Omg. i'm so annoyed rite now. gosh. its like as though i'm really gonna kill someone rite now. its 10.39am rite now.. and quess where i am? yes i'm in school.

what time is my damn class? its at 1pm. hooray. fuck. i really feel like as thought i'm about to murder someone. goddamit.

the person is so gonna die. maybe not today but he will die. think can be so easily let off meh?! kns.

well if i were to look on the bright side at least i have time to finish my tutorial prep. bleargh.

whatever it is. i'm annoyed. i could have woken up much later instead of having my alarm starting to ring since 7am. i'm currently waiting for rochana to finish her tutorial coz i can't function on anything rite now. so yeah. prepare for wat tutorial rite?!

argh. so angry. so annoyed. so frustrated can.

yes. i didnt sleep much yesterday. or rather this morning. i only fell asleep at 620am adelaide time.

15 more mins till rochana appears to save me.

btw, i was reading xiaxue's blog yesterday... and she finally blogged about her wedding. i think its really pretty the mafia theme and all.. lol. =)

All first tutorials are done and I am currently quite happy to be where I am. YEAR 2. heh. people should be proud of me i think.

Despite the fact that I have a ton of stuff due in approximately 3 weeks time. As all of you would most probably already know. 3 weeks is NOTHING! gosh.

But year 2 is different. I can see the change and I can feel it too. Amongst familiar faces which I have bumped into over the past year. Everyone's alittle more sane me thinks. And I? I am still the same. =)

I found out that the guys are in Malaysia for the Malaysia Open. Somehow, I don't know why, I was kinda down after finding that out. Even tho they tell me still about their trip, but I just feel bleargh. hmmm its the 2nd year since i came back into fencing that i've missed Malaysia Open.

I don't know. I miss fencing. A hell lot. I should be turning up for training at the uni. But its just not the same. I don't have anyone to fence with. The guys don't talk to me for god knows what reasons and its been a year since I had a proper training.

Being in the only girl in the team is not a new experience for me. I have always been the only girl in the team and I've never been isolated before. *shrugs*

Truthfully, going there and being treated the way i'm treated is the only thing that makes training a chore. 2 days in a week. 2hours a day. Doing one of the things I really love, alone (practically alone k, i do my own drills, i run on my own, so yeah).

But yes, if i have to admit. I miss fencing. Doesn't help that I didn't do much training when I was back the other day.

Its like an unsatisfied craving.

OF TOPIC GUIDES AND TUTORIAL PREPS.

I am currently turning suicidal after reading my Third World Politics Topic Guide. Oh god. Help.

Yes, I think i'm going to kill myself with a root of the tree outside my room. I'm serious. Doesn't help that my topic convenor is bitchy as fuck. Its like she's constantly not satisfied with the attention her husband is giving her (now, that i really wouldn't know).

I was suppose to go for my Australian Government and Public Policy lecture... its a 2hr lecture in which i fell aslp and arrived in school for the second hour. but how can i forget that public policy lectures are held in Social Science North Lecture Theatre 3. Yup. I had the same lecture theatre last sem when I was doing Government, Business, Society (its like a year 1 subject of politics and public policy).

So coz of that, and the supposed break that was suppose to happen in the middle of the lecture didnt happen, i ended up NOT going for the lecture.

Coz, the lecture theatre is THAT SQUEAKY. its like a bloody dinosaur entered the lt even when nobody is walking on it but just shifting from one seat to the other. So can you imagine if I actually came late for the lecture and me dressed the way I am. I'm ONE HUGE AND COLOURFUL DINOSAUR pls. bleargh. so can you imagine the sound it'll make?! it'll be like a bloody earthquake.

argh. but yes, rite now, i'm just panicking at the fact that i think my semester is gonna be hell. SO MUCH FOR 3 BLOODY SUBJECTS AND 3 BLOODY DAYS IN SCHOOL! ITS ALL LIES I TELL YOU! LIESSSS!!!

I will have to print my topic guides out at the end of the day later. haiz. Coz, I emailed my Third World Politics topic convenor rite if i could get a copy of the topic guide and i got a curt and short reply from her asking me to collect the topic guide from her tmr. BUT i sense the underlying sarcasm in the email. let me show you wat the reply was...

"Dear Nur

Most people attending the lectures would have received one. You may pick it up from my office Tomorrow. Room (insert room number)

Regards
(insert name)"

Its like... WHAT THE HELL DID I DO WRONG SIA?!

so I didn't attend the past 2 lectures. Pls la. my lectures and class are back to back you really want me to wait for the bus until the birds migrate for a bus ride that is 5mins and turn up for a 50mins lecture when classes are cancelled? NO RITE.

anyways, i think my third world politics lectures are compulsory.

Oh wells. I should go and find the textbook for tutorial later since i can't find it in the bookshop~!

Australian Government and Public Policy ftw! *rolls eyes and dies*

Dear John

watched it the other day with rochana...

How was it? I would say that its your typical romantic movie. The hot macho soldier who is clumsy and sensitive at the same time falls in love with the sweet, good uber good looking girl (i've never seen amanda seyfried look that good in my life before) which he helped at the beach.

Some of the scenes are so expected that I could just roll my eyes. But the script was good nonetheless, many would say that the book is so much better than the movie but i really wouldnt know coz i've never read the book before. Besides, its just an adaptation. And channing tatum is my all time fav. so that's another plus point! lol!

I would rate the tear jerker, heart wrenching moments 4 out 5. YERP! its that cry worthy! Please don't tell me you won't cry if you see someone as macho as channing tatum break down? LOL!

but anyways,

as expected as it would be, i think the girls would watch it just because of channing tatum and the guys amanda seyfried and some guys, channing tatum as well =)

how can you not wanna stare at him for a whole hour? simply yummilicious!

Alice in Wonderland

Finally caught it the other day with mel... And truthfully I have no idea what to describe it yet. After awhile in the movie theatre, I was more conscious of my sweater making me comfortable and that my eyes were getting drooopy!

Well the mad hatter cant seem to make up his mind whether to be captain jack sparrow, willy wonka or what. The one thing I like about the mad hatter is his make up and costume.

The chesire cat was cute. lol! but he's a cat that's afraid to get in involved with politics sooo... what else can he do rite to influence the story?

The things that I find worth watching was the two queens. They're just plain entertaining. The red queen coz of her tantrum and the white coz of the trying to uphold her demure-ness.

Alice was expressionless. I don't know if she is suppose to be expressionless but she doesn't even look confused even tho her script suggested that she was confused. LOL! am i making you all confused yet? HAHHAHAHAHAHA

But the script was not bad tho, even tho the near-to-monotonous tone taken on by Alice is quite grating.

So Alice in Wonderland? I think you guys buy the DVD better or watch it when you really have nothing else to watch. LOL!

SNOOZE...

Yesterday I accidentally slpt late and thanks to that I woke up damn late resulting in me still being awake rite now.

time check: 5.37am Adelaide time.

I'm tired but I can't fall asleep so here I am, wide awake and blogging.

I have to wake up early later coz I'm meeting Mel to watch Alice In Wonderland and he ends class at 1pm! god help!

But I will definitely tell you guys about it.. cant wait to see the much discussed movie amongst critics!

and i definitely can't wait to see my favourite cat!

I'm just sad that the cat is not in its traditional magenta and baby pink! Its white with blue stripes. But whatever it is. It looks cuter than the traditional chesire cat. The one in the story books just look smack-worthy. Yup. It actually looked annoying. HAHAHAHHAA...

And rite now, I am feeling narcissistic. So I will upload a few pics of myself! =)

Pretty not? Pretty not?!?!?!

Dont anyone think i look slim in this pic? So reminder to self: Pout more often while taking photos!

Ok a decent picture before the end!

GOOD NIGHT WORLD!

And yes, I like my hair now despite what deena and mommy says! btw, i think my hair is long already. tsk. see.. told ya my hair grow like grass no matter how short i cut. LOL!

But hair. I LOVE YOU!! SO DONT BE SENSITIVE AND STOP GROWING K? JUST CONT GROWING THE WAY YOU HAVE! love love~

Of mystical creatures and imaginations...

Does normality exist? Cant they exist in storybooks?

Science fiction allows the imagination to run free. Allows me to embrace the world that I can never have. Allows me to feel the wind of a faraway land in my hair and smile to mystical creatures that reality could never comprehend. But even then, can't certain things just be normal.

Abnormality is so common in reality but do story books have to embrace it as well? Does the only escape i have from reality can no longer be what I can regard as an escape? Its all too familiar. Stupidity of the female character, blinded by infatuation and dreams of what can never be - drive the plot to unfolding the adventures of various characters. Dragons, mystical beings, adventures of the sea, high society.

Story books used to be about what is rare in this world. What used to be rare is now common. So can't story books just write the stuff that used to be common. stuff that allows your heart to flutter with imagination and smiles to be carved just as your imagination run with each word and phrase you read off the book and embrace the colours it brings to the deepest corners of your mind?

Of Joys and Children

I may outrightly state that i dislike children. Most likely coz I don't have the patience to tolerate them. Yes, I salute mothers. For having the patience I, obviously, lack.

But I do not deny that children make me smile. Their antics so clueless of everything, their laughter rang with so much innocence - its refreshing.

I care for my godchildren more than I would allow myself to admit and receiving pics like this in my mailbox coz i'm so far away and its her first day of school just makes me smile even more.

Day #2

Its my 2nd full day back in Australia and a calming effect has taken over. I'm back to being able to sleep soundly at night and have dreams.

Dreams.

They're the words of the unconscious mind are they not? They're the words of what have beens, would haves and wat will not. If only they don't exist anymore. Could I survive without it?

I've changed it seemed. I think I'm more bitter about certain aspects of my life now more than ever. Career. Yup. That's the one thing that's making me bitter that even bile seemed sweet.

I want it so much I'm beginning to wonder if I will ever get it. *smiles sadly*

I've been disappointed too many times in this lifetime that I'm afraid to hope anymore. But I'm still so young. I'm only 23 going on 24. I have a whole stretch of events waiting to unfold. OH WELLS.

Fear. The one thing that makes me aware that I'm alive. I'm good at hiding it though... rite?

Secrets. Words hidden, feelings kept, facade displayed like a scene ripped off a play.

and when does it unfold then?

Yeah. When the lights go out, and diamonds appear upon the velvet backdrop.

Then it'll be back to square 1 wont it? Dreams.

Backstreet back alrite!!

Love!!

You can have whatever you like~ eyyyyy.

Remember I told you that I was out with my cousin last tuesday coz she needed to get her fiance a valentine's day present? Actually this valentine's day present was also like some sort of an engagement ring. Coz he said that since she have engagement ring. he also want!

Tsk. Men nowadays. *shakes head*

Hopefully, she have given Kunyit the present or else this entry will Kantoi lor seriously. But I don't think Kunyit reads my blog. So its fine... rite? LOL!

We went to various places even topshop became a target. She picked a particular ring from topman and i walked out of the shop leaving her behind. SERIOUSLY, it was hideous.

So we headed back to Calvin Klein (the worst part? she knows her fiance was eyeing rings from CK)

We ended up getting the ring below but the clear crystals instead of black. I think its damn sweet la. Looks expensive for that kinda price. I would think that... Its a well bought present! The rings from the Calvin Klein Accessories this time round is quite eye catching!

After that, she realised that she hasn't bought for me my birthday present for when I turn 23 last october! So she asked me to pick anything i liked in the accessories collection. But truthfully, I hate it when someone will ask me to do that. Coz I will feel so damn guilty~!

I like this ring I saw on Calvin Klein website but I cant seem to find it in the shops tho!

I actually thought the ring below was nice... don't you think? but my cousin didn't like it... she said it looks fake! KNS. So we put it back after trying it on...

I thought this was nice tooo.. but my cousin didn't like it as well she said that it didn't look feminine enough. Thinking back, I kinda agree now coz I think Mel's rings are mostly like this... LOL!

Then we both came to an agreement that this Calvin Klein double stacked crystal ring is nice!!!

But it didnt have my size! It was out of stock! So I ended up getting a dog soft toy for my bday instead... Which I didn't really mind... But now when I was surfing online.. this particular ring can't seem to get out of my head.

I might just get it myself one day! BLEARGH~~

We Are The World

I'm beginning to think that this kinda songs will appear on a yearly basis...

Anyways,

Love the actual collaboration...

But...

I love this one too! The YouTube Edition.. =)

Dolce... And... Gabbana..

Fendi... and...

This is my new D&G Shades.

Only diff is that its black frames instead of silver!

hotness??

One Week, 7 Days, 168 Hours...

Yerp. That was how long its been since my last post on valentine's day. LOL

WARNING. LONG POST AHEAD.

And its been awhile since I slept properly. After my last entry about Super Junior: M, I stayed awake the whole night unable to fall asleep. What else is new rite? I should enrol myself into insomnia anonymous or something.

Is there even such a thing? hmmmm... *ponders*

But anyways, my cousins drove in from Malaysia on Sunday afternoon. Basically, its for them to see me for the last time this yr before I fly back to Australia.

So I was bought rite? Guess wat I did? Especially after being bored at home and pissed off with my grandmother about comiing home late.

I MADE... HAZELNUT CHOCOLATE CHEESECAKE.

Yup the same one that I made when I was in Australia. But this time round, it was PERFECTION. not bad for something made in the wee hours of the morning while being in a bad mood. LOL!

So my cousins came on sunday (14/2) and once again I had difficulty falling asleep! By then, my cheesecake is gone and buried in various people's stomach... And I ended up baking Chocolate Paradise. Its a chocolate cake and its fudgy and extremely rich that it was gone in approximately 8hrs upon completion. LOL!

Monday (15/2) came along.

And once again there was nothing to do. I mean, seriously, CHINESE NEW YEAR IN SINGAPORE? what on earth is open rite? So my cousin, Mawar, came with the intention to shop but to her dismay, I told her nothing's opened.

Me and the rest ended up at Kallang Leisure Park to ice skate. BUT. they rink was temporarily closed coz they wanted to re-iced it so while waiting we ended up in the arcade playing stupid games and creating a crowd. I'm SERIOUS! so we were so caught up in our Para - para dance moves that we didn't realise that an hour has passed and we needed to head to simpang to meet the rest of the family for dinner. BLEARGH~!

and again, we didn't get to ice skate.

Baby and Angah wanted to club but WHAT IS OPEN ON A MONDAY RITE? well if there is something open, please tell me so that I can keep it in mind for future reference. LOL.

So by the time al of us headed home it was about 1230am and we were all munching and watching King Arthur on Channel 5 when someone (i cant remember who) asked if the theatre's open!

Went online, checked and BOOOM! those who were asleep woke up and was ready in 5mins. that's a record breaker pls especially if you all see how leceh they can be each time we wanna go out.

So we head out to Grand Cathay for the 255am showing of Percy Jackson and the lightning thief.

How was it?

It was interesting la... Not bad story line, good looking casts, very harry potter-ish, you know the kind that goes like... GOOD WILL TRIUMPH OVER EVIL *cues inspiring music and lightning bolts* LOL!

Movie ended at about 530-ish and we headed to Kallang Macs for breakfast before heading home at 630am.

Woke up at about 10am on Tuesday, 16/2 coz Mawar still wanted to go shopping for valentine's day rite... Tsk. People now got fiance wat. V-day also cannot miss one. Even tho the poor cousin was dragged out. HMPH!

And we headed home at 3pm and met the family at Pastamania for lunch and they left for Melaka shortly after that.

And surprise, I left with them. It was an impromptu outing la. Very unexpeced.

SO when we reached Melaka about 8pm, headed out for dinner at Dataran Pahlawan at Old Town White Coffee, where Mawar bought me a soft toy!!!! thank you thank you!

and then proceeded to hang out with angah and baby and friends and then the siblings stayed up watching soccer - AC MILAN VS. MAN U. I surrendered at 4am and went to bed. Soccer ended at about 6am for them.

by 10am on Wednesday, 17/2, I was awake coz i wanted to go and do my hair. Since mawar needed to go back to KL on that day, Baby woke up early to drive and accompany me at the salon.

But first we ended up at a new shopping centre, AEON for lunch at Papa John's Pizza. Its not bad la... quite Ok the food. and ended up getting myself a D&G shades which cost about RM1.3k on 30% discount.

So in an attempt to pacify myself, I shall continuously tell myself that I practically made money on the shades. hmmmmmm...

Reached the salon only at about 3pm. and by the time i finished doing my hair it was about 7pm and then I made nano cut her fringe after that we headed to Dataran Pahlawan again to meet up with Angah coz he needed help to choose v-day present for his gf and then I got another soft toy present... FROM ANGAH!! WAHAHAHAHAH... so sweet! i never thought the day would come lor seriously. LOL

Met my aunt and uncle for dinner, headed home at about midnight and headed out to Pure Bar where Angah have already made plans with his friends to club. We reached there at about 130am. Club closes at 230am. Went for supper/breakfast at Hang Tuah Mall. Headed home about 430am and Angah and friends was at home watching soccer!

So I fell asleep with Baby and woke up at 9am on Thursday, 18/2 coz my bus back to singapore was at 11am. Baby decided to come back with me to singapore again with her friend, Hadi coz they wanted to get a bicycle frame. They claimed that Singapore is cheaper. I have no idea. If they say so, then maybe it is! *shrugs*

My uncle was unwell so Angah had to send him back to the hospital at 9am, came home and then send me and baby to Melaka Sentral at 1030 am together with Nano coz she needed to go for tuition and then he headed to his uni library at 12 to do his research for his FYP.

power not? LOL!

the story have yet to end.

So Baby, Hadi and I reached singapore at about 430pm on Thursday. Went to Hadi's relatives house for late lunch, came back to our house and fell aslp. Woke up at 7 or 8pm and headed downstairs for dinner, came home about 10pm and changed and headed out to Zirca. Met Mel there and the 4 of us was having the most interesting clubbing experience... ever.

We left the club at 4am, Friday 19/2, and headed to macs at Liang Court for supper/breakfast and then headed home at about 5-ish...

Woke up at 9am and bathe and woke my cousin up and her friend to get ready and called the bicycle shop. Went to bicycle shop at 1045, got the bicycle frame, called mel at 11am to wake him up coz he needed to meet his friends and then we went home, rest awhile

2pm - left the house to send my cousin to lavendar street coz their bus is at 230pm from Singapore to Melaka. Headed to Sim Lim after that to change my keyboard.

Met Tuti at 430pm at Bugis and passed her some shoes of mine as promised, did a manicure and chit chat, headed to ION after that with her and met Deena at about 7pm. Then three of us went to Far East Plaza for dinner till about 10pm.

Haizad picked me and deena up. Tuti's husband picked her up. Reached home at 1030pm, lay down on my bed and the next thing I knew it was Saturday, 20/2...

I was like... OH SHIT! WTF!

why such a reaction? coz i was supposed to call Mel at midnight to wish him HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

sheesh~ so here goes:

SORRY MEL!

BUT ITS BETTER LATE THAN NEVER!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! You're 24. Therefore, you're old. HEH! Thursday at Zirca was just pre-bday k? We'll celebrate again once we're both back in OZ!

Your birthday pressie you wait awhile la hor? LOL!!

take care! dont scrutinize your wrinkles and fine lines! you still look fine. if everything else fails, there's still Dr. Rohan! LOL!!!

Don't hate me! LOVE YA! MUACKS! WAHAHHAHAHAHA

-Dee

As the clock strikes Midnight...

And it reflected the dawn of Valentine's day...

I chanced upon something and fell madly and hopelessly IN LOVE!!

Can you see the hearts floating above my head?

Guess wat I fell in love with?

Yup. this... *points below*

They're a Korean boyband (sub group) SUPER JUNIOR-M that was created specifically for the Chinese market and all their members are of chinese and korean descent.

If I were to have boyfriends like these guys... Want to dress up and go on date also so damn shiok. LOL!

WOOT WOOT~!

Btw,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALL!

Eyes are used for staring

Its been an interesting night.. and this is the first time i'm blogging from my phone. Yes i'm currently using the new motorola dext mb200..

I'm still at the chinese new year dinner and i've been introduced as my mom's daughter.. Obviously. And the constant reaction?

"WAH! Your daughter so big already ah? U sure this is the same one as last time? The one that always run ard with the pigtails ah?"

Me: -.-"

Haiz.. i have no idea what time this is gonna end.. i"m talking to mommy and blogging at the same time..

Nine

Nine:

Dinner tmr which I'm not exactly looking forward for. But I know, I'm the only hope left. The only source of normality he will ever have. The only one who will not be a disappointment.

Eight:

Material things are important to a certain extent i suppose. But I dont really bother about them much.

Seven:

When warmth have its own place and time and sometimes you just hide it away oh so well.

Six:

You wonder if you're in the right frame of mind to still be able to think and feel that way. Many wonder the exact same thing that crosses your mind... Who am I kidding anyways?

Five:

Its really time to change the keyboard... its pissing me off quite badly...

Four:

Something just crossed my mind the other day. Apart was something that have never happened to us before. What if one day it will happen? How will that be? Wouldnt that be the same as losing a limb? Or maybe, it might not be felt at all? Shadows do fade one day too rite?

Three:

Pity? Is that all i've been feeling all these while? Maybe guilt. Or maybe a sense of unconscious loyalty. There have always been something that i've always seen in my head but at the same time i've always known that it will never happen even if i wished otherwise.

Two:

When things in life don't go your way. You just turn oh-so-impatient. you'll turn scared of something that you don't even know anymore. Your faith tend to waiver. Your hope alittle bleak. But you keep on going as tho there is some unknown force pushing you on.

One:

Love comes in many forms. Disappointment comes from love. Only when you love then you'd be able to be disappointed. When you get disappointed, can you give another chance? Another chance at life. Another chance of you being there. Another chance of strength.

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Do cats really have nine lives? If yes, I hope you have the lives of a cat. You're part of my tiger. I just pray that your nine lives have yet to be used up.

I want something different for you. I want a change for everyone. I want you to start over even if it means you'll have to go somewhere else. I want you to live the life that you were supposed to live. I want you to at least have a glimpse of the perfection. Yes, the perfection that this imperfect family can give.

I just hope you'll manage to get out of this one. And I want you to promise me when I see you that this will be the end. This will be the last. This will be just part of your past and a memory you would not want to revisit anymore. I want you to promise me that you'd give the world to the little ones and never let whatever that happened repeat itself in them.

Please.

Just hear the wishes of my heart and make me this promise from a brother to his sister.

Stomach Flu

As many would know from my facebook status updates I was in Jakarta over the weekend. Yes its one of the many random things I've done eversince i cam back from Aussieland. LOL!

If only I could travel for free, you know like... fully sponsored! yippe yum yum. LOL. Yes, no harm rite. A girl can always dream.

Sidetrack: I have a pimple on my nose. Fucking painful.

So I came back on sunday-monday at midnight. And then on tuesday I felt as though I was going to die of stomach pains. It felt like menses cramps only that its all over the tummy instead. So for all you girls out there you can imagine my pain. HMPH!

My doctor was gleeful at the sight of me simply commenting that I should just take this as a FREE DETOXIFICATION.

Free Detoxification? Kns.

Basically, not eating keeps me feeling perfectly fine. the moment i consume something remotely solid and would need digestion, the pain is.. yes. EXCRUCIATING. HMPH!

And its always at times like this that... you tend to have the weirdest cravings. And I am currently craving for MACDONALDS. can you believe it?

bloody hell.

Anyways, I have no photos from Jakarta. Just followed my aunt coz she needed to get some things for her spa. And I bought cheap ass MAC products at the cosmetic centre. Now I'm wondering if I were to sell these make up, think got people will buy?

One MAC blusher at $15. hmmm *ponders*

2010

realised how I didn't exactly welcome the new year in?

1st january was a friday. People always talk about how peaceful and holy fridays can get. Yes, maybe it was the perfect day to welcome the new year.

Many things have changed. If some things will not be changing, I will be a Year 2 student this coming academic year. If some things don't change, I will still be there.

2009 was eventful.

I left for Australia in such a haste that sometimes, I still can't believe I did it. Looking back, the feeling's surreal.

The freedom that came along with living on my own. It was exhilarating. As much as I hate to say it. I love it.

2009 was also a year of many mistakes. Maybe I was in that much of a haste to leave. But I've always been taught to never live in regret. So, I didn't regret it. Coz I learnt so much about myself in the past year.

I grew up. To be a more patient girl then what I was a year back. I'm the same girl that left singapore in early 09, just some enhancement in personality and character have occured.

2010 was welcomed with joy and always something good to remember. The fact that my cousin got engaged. She's lucky. especially to get someone like him. He's a nice man. And he's lucky too... to get someone as fiercely loyal as her.

Some have asked me when's my turn. I don't know actually. There's still so many things to achieve and to look forward to in my life and I think marriage won't be in the list for at list another 7years.

But who am I to say if fate gives me a different direction rite? Marriage is after all god's will. At least I know that as of rite now, i've yet to be match made or found out that I've been betrothed to someone since birth. lol Now that's paparazzi worthy. heh.

With certain glitches aside, 2010 have been somewhat kind so far.

To all my friends who have recently gotten married, CONGRATS!

To everyone else, may this year bring wonderful memories.

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"The trick is to recognize that a goodbye can be a good thing. where it can be a chance to start again."

- Ugly Betty, Season 4 Episode 11