WHEEE~!!

you know the other day I was looking through my nuffnang statistics and i realised that many of you came across my blog through google when you search for this...

"love nad hate essays"

hahahahahha!! how cute is that? But yay! LOVE NAD!!

well, wat am i doing now? I'm in the midst of reading the books for my essay that is due tomorrow. Yeah I know i've never fallen back on essay completion this bad before. I blame it on the nervous breakdown i nearly had yesterday. LOL!

So I'm in the midst of burying myself under tons of books.

So what did i do yesterday while trying to calm myself down? I surfed facebook and I came across a contest by Catalog Magazine to win $500 worth of FCUK vouchers!

As they have this new advertorial campaign, The Man or The Woman for FCUK.

So? What else? I joined it! LOL!

Here's the link: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=5816468&id=120508340762

so for those of you who read my blog and have facebook, what else? vote for me k?

Its simple: You just click the link. Join the group - Catalog Magazine and click on 'Like' on my picture! that's all! =D

THANK YOU!

pls pls pls make my month k? by allowing me to get a chance to win the $500 FCUK stuff! *GREAT BIG SMILE*

oh.. and tell your friends abt it too...

love love!

How time flies.

Its the start of term break. yup yup. and i've partied the weekend away and will be starting on my essays on monday. yup. lol. I know a hell lot of you wont believe that I would actually do it on Monday but let me assure you that I will coz who knows, I might party again on the weekend then when on earth am I gonna do my essays rite?

Its getting colder now. But the weather have yet to make up its mind if it should be cold or cool. wind or not. yeah. its a bitch. sometimes wearing a sweater or a jacket, you cant decide whether to take it off or leave it on. *rolls eyes*

Having the time of the month and my lower back is a bitch. I feel like a pregnant OLD woman (not that the entire description would make sense. I dont think an old woman could be pregnant) but its alrite, anything to make you feel remotely fine again. =)

And nothing else is happening much on my side other than the fact that well, I've gotten my Learner's so I guess i'll be doing my driving soon.

And yes, I've finally publically announced it here. coz the reason I was keeping it a secret rite, was coz, well, i didn't intend to tell someone coz he was taking so long to ask me why on earth I was so happy or grinning away the few days after I passed my L's. annoying rite? tsk. i even reached to a point of asking him, "aren't you gonna ask me why i'm so happy?" tsk. I know la I constantly happy but I'm sure there's a difference during those few days and the norm. But I told him over the weekend... so yeah. heh heh. its all good now. HEEEEEEEEE.

I actually enjoyed my weekend. a lot. =)

Once the term break is over, the end of semester 1 would be nearing. Which means, exams will be heading my way soon i guess. BLEARGH. oh wells.

Oh and another thing. My parcel that mom sent from singapore have yet to arrived. I'm really wondering wat the hell is going on with the transportation here. it usually takes just 3 days for her courier to arrive. its been more than 10 days now.

If that parcel goes missing, that is one hell of an expensive parcel. coz, aside from the miscellaneous things that mom mailed to me, inside there is my fencing equipments and my zara jacket.

My fencing stuff already total to 1k. so if it goes missing. I will kill someone. I really will. Coz you have no idea how grudgingly i have to deduct from my salary to pay coach every month before I left for Australia.

AND,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH~!

As weird as this may sound to many. Truthfully, i hate missing classes. Due to the lack of friends i have here, i cant afford missing class in case i miss some things that was announced in class that wasn't sent out via mass emails.

Apart from me being lazy, there's one reason why i will miss class. The amazing thing called. BUS. yup. how annoying is that? Today for example, i should be in my Politics class instead of in the bloody library blogging away. its 1.36pm rite now. my class was 1pm. you thought i was late?

i've been waiting for the bus since 12.40pm. yeah. the bus came at 1.20 and i arrived to uni at 1.30. see how close i live to uni by bus? ridiculous isnt it? i'm so pissed.

And now i'm in sch not knowing wat the hell am i here for coz i'm too embarrassed to burst into class half hour late or more than that when class is 50mins only. ARGH. i mean there is pple bursting in class that late la.. like last week for example, my classmate came to class like 5 to 10 mins before class ends. -.-" like that no need to come to class la. but then again. you would need the attendance. haiz.

Thank god for the term break next week. I vow that by the time the 2 weeks end, i resume uni and attend every single class including lectures coz attendance are taken for it as well. I would like to see a D in my result slip this sem. BLEARGH.

I could have just stayed home and do my politics op for tmr.

Now, i'm tempted to go to central market and by lemongrass, dried chilli, coriander powder, chicken and go home and make lemak chilli padi. grrrrr.

DISTRACTIONS

You would think.. what the hell is that. But fret not, its nothing disgusting... i made mango pudding yesterday in the midst of my boredom...

Yeah i know it may seem as tho i havent blogged about my cooking escapades since i arrived here this yr rite? But thats the prob... i haven't cooked... much.

I'm turning lazyyyyyyy... oh wells.

I should be cooking again soon.. was thinking of making otah otah.. its been awhile since i last ate that...

The Last Song

Nicholas Sparks seems to be making alot of money this year. From Dear John and now this, The Last Song starring Miley Cyrus and Liam Hemsworth.

There are a few things i've realised about Nicholas Sparks' movies:

1. Its always romantic
2. It will somehow involve a dying family member
3. At times you will receive the full blown cliche scenarios (but you don't mind it anyways coz it is afterall in its genre. that being said, the cliche-ness is a right on its own. LOL!)
4. Always have the cliche happy endings
5. Powerful tear jerker scenes
6. And hot male leads. LOL!

You know how on the cover of nearly every romance novel you'll always have the illustration of a really hot handsome guy with an equally hot female on it? Well it seems to have transferred itself to the silver screen. LOL! Channing Tatum, now Liam Hemsworth!

Truthfully, I actually like the movie. Maybe its biased for me since i'm always a sucker for this kind of fatherly movies. lol!

You know, Bollywood was once asked why the happy, extravagant, cliche, dramatic and positive bollywood films are constantly made. And the answer received? To give the people hope that beauty still exist in this world.

So Nicholas Sparks and his happy endings? Who am I to complain rite? Its positive, its happy, everything works out in the end. It refueled the dying candle in each individual's heart. Maybe we each will have our own happy endings.

I would say, go watch it. But at the same time, I would remind you not to expect something totally extraordinary coz this has Nicholas Sparks written all over it. It is afterall his trademark.

P.s: I don't know why is everyone making a big deal about Miley Cyrus acting in this movie. I actually think she's a good actress. And as shocking as it may be to many, i actually enjoyed Hannah Montana The Movie.

P.p.s: I think Miley Cyrus is damn lucky to have such a hot boyfriend now.

P.p.p.s: I, therefore, want to be famous too.

BOUNTY HUNTER

I know many would wanna catch this movie coz its a star studded casting. But as most of you realised, this movie did not receive very good reviews from the critics and what would I say? Well, this would be the first time i'm saying it. But listen to them critics you've been surfing for online.

The movie is OK. i think that's about it I would say about bounty hunter. Its something that I don't think you would wanna go to the movies to catch it. Its the kind that you would buy or rent the dvd, watch it when you really have nothing better to do like...

1. when your girls ditch you to go out with their boyfriends (that almost always happen doesn't it? LOL)

2. you're out of money and you could only afford a cup of tea, your mom's couch and yesterday's dinner leftovers.

3. when you're not in the mood for something terrifying, sappy, action packed or murderous.

I wouldn't say that the acting was bad. the acting was good. the scripts were witty in certain scenes... Like i've said above.

It was not fantastic.

It was just OK.

Happy & Sad

that's like a contradiction isn't it? those 2 emotions. How can one be happy and sad? Oh wells.

Happy. Yes, I was really happy yesterday even though rochana wanna kill me for it. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA. kinda thought that I will get it, and i did. SO THAT'S GOOOODD!! I couldn't stop grinning all day.

got into trouble with mom for overspending last mth. i cant remember what i spent on either besides school books and food coz i lost my atm card rite the other day.. I'm sorry.

times like this, i wish i'm working. I wish that i wasn't a full time student. But there's really no point wishing is there? I've already quit my job and I am here in Adelaide doing my second year!

YUP! that. speaking of which. I'm scared for my essays due in approximately 14 days time. its like.. I'm just scared for it.

the other day, i went to admissions office and asked about postgrad. Yeah, I did asked about it. Postgraduate Law in Flinders. the requirements aren't bad but at the same time, after last december's rejection i'm a little... well. put off. And uni in UK do not offer postgraduate. i'll have to do the normal LLB but that's fine coz its the same. 3 years.

I'm jealous. Oh hell yes i am. of friends in law degrees, of friends who just graduated from paris with a fashion design degrees, of friends who's already ending this journey.

Its funny really, when back then, i was that girl who designed. People had visions of me being someone.

This year, i reacquainted with lots of my secondary school friends online. we're chatting online now. they're all graduating this yr. and I can't help but be sad. I don't know what's gonna happen in my future.

Will I be that lawyer that i've been dreaming my whole life?

I wanna be successful, I wanna touch people, I wanna be famous. Sounds like a Pussycat Dolls song.

I had a plan when i was young. When I was 13 I had a plan. I am still on the plan just alittle rerouted. Some things were never meant to be on that plan. but it did. regret? I don't know. it has happened anyways and there's nothing i can do about it.

And my sec sch friends have assured me to be patient. Coz it will all be worth it. The future will work out for me. Will it? Really? I'm just... scared?

I want to change my life. I will. That's a promise to myself and one i've told my myself to do for my mom.

And on other saddening issues, you. its funny really. just really funny the extend you go to. Sometimes, I don't know what is it that you want from me or out of me. I really don't. You confuse the hell out of me sometimes and there are times that i choose to ignore it.

I'm just frustrated sometimes. yes, with you. But i don't show it. as always. and you, you've chosen to ignore it sometimes, as always. why can't things be easy? why?

PUTTING EVERYTHING ASIDE,

i'm like half way thru semester 1. which means that soon it will be over. and half year is gone! and one more year and i will be out of the bachelor of Arts and doing law. hopefully. and finally.

I'll just concentrate on that coz, I guess, nothing else matters.

Omg. i'm so annoyed rite now. gosh. its like as though i'm really gonna kill someone rite now. its 10.39am rite now.. and quess where i am? yes i'm in school.

what time is my damn class? its at 1pm. hooray. fuck. i really feel like as thought i'm about to murder someone. goddamit.

the person is so gonna die. maybe not today but he will die. think can be so easily let off meh?! kns.

well if i were to look on the bright side at least i have time to finish my tutorial prep. bleargh.

whatever it is. i'm annoyed. i could have woken up much later instead of having my alarm starting to ring since 7am. i'm currently waiting for rochana to finish her tutorial coz i can't function on anything rite now. so yeah. prepare for wat tutorial rite?!

argh. so angry. so annoyed. so frustrated can.

yes. i didnt sleep much yesterday. or rather this morning. i only fell asleep at 620am adelaide time.

15 more mins till rochana appears to save me.

btw, i was reading xiaxue's blog yesterday... and she finally blogged about her wedding. i think its really pretty the mafia theme and all.. lol. =)

All first tutorials are done and I am currently quite happy to be where I am. YEAR 2. heh. people should be proud of me i think.

Despite the fact that I have a ton of stuff due in approximately 3 weeks time. As all of you would most probably already know. 3 weeks is NOTHING! gosh.

But year 2 is different. I can see the change and I can feel it too. Amongst familiar faces which I have bumped into over the past year. Everyone's alittle more sane me thinks. And I? I am still the same. =)

I found out that the guys are in Malaysia for the Malaysia Open. Somehow, I don't know why, I was kinda down after finding that out. Even tho they tell me still about their trip, but I just feel bleargh. hmmm its the 2nd year since i came back into fencing that i've missed Malaysia Open.

I don't know. I miss fencing. A hell lot. I should be turning up for training at the uni. But its just not the same. I don't have anyone to fence with. The guys don't talk to me for god knows what reasons and its been a year since I had a proper training.

Being in the only girl in the team is not a new experience for me. I have always been the only girl in the team and I've never been isolated before. *shrugs*

Truthfully, going there and being treated the way i'm treated is the only thing that makes training a chore. 2 days in a week. 2hours a day. Doing one of the things I really love, alone (practically alone k, i do my own drills, i run on my own, so yeah).

But yes, if i have to admit. I miss fencing. Doesn't help that I didn't do much training when I was back the other day.

Its like an unsatisfied craving.

OF TOPIC GUIDES AND TUTORIAL PREPS.

I am currently turning suicidal after reading my Third World Politics Topic Guide. Oh god. Help.

Yes, I think i'm going to kill myself with a root of the tree outside my room. I'm serious. Doesn't help that my topic convenor is bitchy as fuck. Its like she's constantly not satisfied with the attention her husband is giving her (now, that i really wouldn't know).

I was suppose to go for my Australian Government and Public Policy lecture... its a 2hr lecture in which i fell aslp and arrived in school for the second hour. but how can i forget that public policy lectures are held in Social Science North Lecture Theatre 3. Yup. I had the same lecture theatre last sem when I was doing Government, Business, Society (its like a year 1 subject of politics and public policy).

So coz of that, and the supposed break that was suppose to happen in the middle of the lecture didnt happen, i ended up NOT going for the lecture.

Coz, the lecture theatre is THAT SQUEAKY. its like a bloody dinosaur entered the lt even when nobody is walking on it but just shifting from one seat to the other. So can you imagine if I actually came late for the lecture and me dressed the way I am. I'm ONE HUGE AND COLOURFUL DINOSAUR pls. bleargh. so can you imagine the sound it'll make?! it'll be like a bloody earthquake.

argh. but yes, rite now, i'm just panicking at the fact that i think my semester is gonna be hell. SO MUCH FOR 3 BLOODY SUBJECTS AND 3 BLOODY DAYS IN SCHOOL! ITS ALL LIES I TELL YOU! LIESSSS!!!

I will have to print my topic guides out at the end of the day later. haiz. Coz, I emailed my Third World Politics topic convenor rite if i could get a copy of the topic guide and i got a curt and short reply from her asking me to collect the topic guide from her tmr. BUT i sense the underlying sarcasm in the email. let me show you wat the reply was...

"Dear Nur

Most people attending the lectures would have received one. You may pick it up from my office Tomorrow. Room (insert room number)

Regards
(insert name)"

Its like... WHAT THE HELL DID I DO WRONG SIA?!

so I didn't attend the past 2 lectures. Pls la. my lectures and class are back to back you really want me to wait for the bus until the birds migrate for a bus ride that is 5mins and turn up for a 50mins lecture when classes are cancelled? NO RITE.

anyways, i think my third world politics lectures are compulsory.

Oh wells. I should go and find the textbook for tutorial later since i can't find it in the bookshop~!

Australian Government and Public Policy ftw! *rolls eyes and dies*

Dear John

watched it the other day with rochana...

How was it? I would say that its your typical romantic movie. The hot macho soldier who is clumsy and sensitive at the same time falls in love with the sweet, good uber good looking girl (i've never seen amanda seyfried look that good in my life before) which he helped at the beach.

Some of the scenes are so expected that I could just roll my eyes. But the script was good nonetheless, many would say that the book is so much better than the movie but i really wouldnt know coz i've never read the book before. Besides, its just an adaptation. And channing tatum is my all time fav. so that's another plus point! lol!

I would rate the tear jerker, heart wrenching moments 4 out 5. YERP! its that cry worthy! Please don't tell me you won't cry if you see someone as macho as channing tatum break down? LOL!

but anyways,

as expected as it would be, i think the girls would watch it just because of channing tatum and the guys amanda seyfried and some guys, channing tatum as well =)

how can you not wanna stare at him for a whole hour? simply yummilicious!

Alice in Wonderland

Finally caught it the other day with mel... And truthfully I have no idea what to describe it yet. After awhile in the movie theatre, I was more conscious of my sweater making me comfortable and that my eyes were getting drooopy!

Well the mad hatter cant seem to make up his mind whether to be captain jack sparrow, willy wonka or what. The one thing I like about the mad hatter is his make up and costume.

The chesire cat was cute. lol! but he's a cat that's afraid to get in involved with politics sooo... what else can he do rite to influence the story?

The things that I find worth watching was the two queens. They're just plain entertaining. The red queen coz of her tantrum and the white coz of the trying to uphold her demure-ness.

Alice was expressionless. I don't know if she is suppose to be expressionless but she doesn't even look confused even tho her script suggested that she was confused. LOL! am i making you all confused yet? HAHHAHAHAHAHA

But the script was not bad tho, even tho the near-to-monotonous tone taken on by Alice is quite grating.

So Alice in Wonderland? I think you guys buy the DVD better or watch it when you really have nothing else to watch. LOL!

SNOOZE...

Yesterday I accidentally slpt late and thanks to that I woke up damn late resulting in me still being awake rite now.

time check: 5.37am Adelaide time.

I'm tired but I can't fall asleep so here I am, wide awake and blogging.

I have to wake up early later coz I'm meeting Mel to watch Alice In Wonderland and he ends class at 1pm! god help!

But I will definitely tell you guys about it.. cant wait to see the much discussed movie amongst critics!

and i definitely can't wait to see my favourite cat!

I'm just sad that the cat is not in its traditional magenta and baby pink! Its white with blue stripes. But whatever it is. It looks cuter than the traditional chesire cat. The one in the story books just look smack-worthy. Yup. It actually looked annoying. HAHAHAHHAA...

And rite now, I am feeling narcissistic. So I will upload a few pics of myself! =)

Pretty not? Pretty not?!?!?!

Dont anyone think i look slim in this pic? So reminder to self: Pout more often while taking photos!

Ok a decent picture before the end!

GOOD NIGHT WORLD!

And yes, I like my hair now despite what deena and mommy says! btw, i think my hair is long already. tsk. see.. told ya my hair grow like grass no matter how short i cut. LOL!

But hair. I LOVE YOU!! SO DONT BE SENSITIVE AND STOP GROWING K? JUST CONT GROWING THE WAY YOU HAVE! love love~

Of mystical creatures and imaginations...

Does normality exist? Cant they exist in storybooks?

Science fiction allows the imagination to run free. Allows me to embrace the world that I can never have. Allows me to feel the wind of a faraway land in my hair and smile to mystical creatures that reality could never comprehend. But even then, can't certain things just be normal.

Abnormality is so common in reality but do story books have to embrace it as well? Does the only escape i have from reality can no longer be what I can regard as an escape? Its all too familiar. Stupidity of the female character, blinded by infatuation and dreams of what can never be - drive the plot to unfolding the adventures of various characters. Dragons, mystical beings, adventures of the sea, high society.

Story books used to be about what is rare in this world. What used to be rare is now common. So can't story books just write the stuff that used to be common. stuff that allows your heart to flutter with imagination and smiles to be carved just as your imagination run with each word and phrase you read off the book and embrace the colours it brings to the deepest corners of your mind?

Of Joys and Children

I may outrightly state that i dislike children. Most likely coz I don't have the patience to tolerate them. Yes, I salute mothers. For having the patience I, obviously, lack.

But I do not deny that children make me smile. Their antics so clueless of everything, their laughter rang with so much innocence - its refreshing.

I care for my godchildren more than I would allow myself to admit and receiving pics like this in my mailbox coz i'm so far away and its her first day of school just makes me smile even more.

Day #2

Its my 2nd full day back in Australia and a calming effect has taken over. I'm back to being able to sleep soundly at night and have dreams.

Dreams.

They're the words of the unconscious mind are they not? They're the words of what have beens, would haves and wat will not. If only they don't exist anymore. Could I survive without it?

I've changed it seemed. I think I'm more bitter about certain aspects of my life now more than ever. Career. Yup. That's the one thing that's making me bitter that even bile seemed sweet.

I want it so much I'm beginning to wonder if I will ever get it. *smiles sadly*

I've been disappointed too many times in this lifetime that I'm afraid to hope anymore. But I'm still so young. I'm only 23 going on 24. I have a whole stretch of events waiting to unfold. OH WELLS.

Fear. The one thing that makes me aware that I'm alive. I'm good at hiding it though... rite?

Secrets. Words hidden, feelings kept, facade displayed like a scene ripped off a play.

and when does it unfold then?

Yeah. When the lights go out, and diamonds appear upon the velvet backdrop.

Then it'll be back to square 1 wont it? Dreams.

Backstreet back alrite!!

Love!!

You can have whatever you like~ eyyyyy.

Remember I told you that I was out with my cousin last tuesday coz she needed to get her fiance a valentine's day present? Actually this valentine's day present was also like some sort of an engagement ring. Coz he said that since she have engagement ring. he also want!

Tsk. Men nowadays. *shakes head*

Hopefully, she have given Kunyit the present or else this entry will Kantoi lor seriously. But I don't think Kunyit reads my blog. So its fine... rite? LOL!

We went to various places even topshop became a target. She picked a particular ring from topman and i walked out of the shop leaving her behind. SERIOUSLY, it was hideous.

So we headed back to Calvin Klein (the worst part? she knows her fiance was eyeing rings from CK)

We ended up getting the ring below but the clear crystals instead of black. I think its damn sweet la. Looks expensive for that kinda price. I would think that... Its a well bought present! The rings from the Calvin Klein Accessories this time round is quite eye catching!

After that, she realised that she hasn't bought for me my birthday present for when I turn 23 last october! So she asked me to pick anything i liked in the accessories collection. But truthfully, I hate it when someone will ask me to do that. Coz I will feel so damn guilty~!

I like this ring I saw on Calvin Klein website but I cant seem to find it in the shops tho!

I actually thought the ring below was nice... don't you think? but my cousin didn't like it... she said it looks fake! KNS. So we put it back after trying it on...

I thought this was nice tooo.. but my cousin didn't like it as well she said that it didn't look feminine enough. Thinking back, I kinda agree now coz I think Mel's rings are mostly like this... LOL!

Then we both came to an agreement that this Calvin Klein double stacked crystal ring is nice!!!

But it didnt have my size! It was out of stock! So I ended up getting a dog soft toy for my bday instead... Which I didn't really mind... But now when I was surfing online.. this particular ring can't seem to get out of my head.

I might just get it myself one day! BLEARGH~~

We Are The World

I'm beginning to think that this kinda songs will appear on a yearly basis...

Anyways,

Love the actual collaboration...

But...

I love this one too! The YouTube Edition.. =)

Dolce... And... Gabbana..

Fendi... and...

This is my new D&G Shades.

Only diff is that its black frames instead of silver!

hotness??