Wordless Wednesday

Today's Wordless Wednesday will be dedicated to....

Adelaide, July 2010.

Let the tranquility of the photo soothes you as it is not a reflection of my mind today.

And no, you cannot take this picture without my permission.

Things that I can't accept & Sometimes makes me burst out laughing...

1. The reason behind why some people delete me from their facebook accounts. Seriously, I really can't help it if you actually think i'm genetically blessed.
   



2. The reason behind why people gossip about my tweets and blog posts. Seriously, I must have done something right for you to actually remember the things i've typed and discuss it behind my back and in your delight put me in a negative light.
   



3. Outrightly comment about my physical attributes openly and in public. I mean, Come on, do i look like such things will affect me? Yes, I'm fat. Yes, I do not wear S or XS. But so what? Unlike you who can't seem to love yourself, I actually love myself. I'm fine with myself and I know damn well what i'm capable off.
   



4. Things that goes against the law of nature. Yes, I'll have difficulty grasping htat. Seriously, how can you accept a pig flyinf about in your backyard? Maybe I can. As long as its not my pig. -.-

So yeah. Enough rants. For now.

Musings and Questions.

From then, till now. I'm not reall sure what you want from me. So what is it that you want from me?

Once upon a time, I believed that I'm a princess. But has anyone ever realised that there's so many types of princesses in the world?

I've always known life is hard. But has anyone ever received any warnings about its unexpected slaps and abuses?

I want to own my own empire. Build it from scratch. Layers of mortar after bricks till a great wall appears. What if I will return and continue a legacy instead?

Fear comes in many forms. But my greatest fear comes in the form of losing you, you and you. Makes me wonder, what's your fear then?

You know. people always say its best to be frank about your thoughts, candid with your words and let the other see you inside. Have anyone ever realised that its a much more dangerous situation than camping out by a nuclear reactor?

Sometimes, you care too much in life. Too much that you realise the other still puts up that wall. Flippant remarks that stabs you rheart. Its been said that a pen is sharper than a sword. Oh hell no. Words. Now, that's another story, no?

I'm Cooooooooooooool...

I'm as cool as a cucumber. As I lie on my bed, keeping my head averted to the ceiling awaiting the cool sensation to take me away. I've decide I shall pass the time by typing out this latest entry confessing my greatest love for the latest addition to my toiletries stash one can find either in my quaint little room or in the toilet. HAHA!

I'm still lying down by the way. Still attempting to keep my head toward the ceiling. I've contemplated on installing a screen up in the ceiling so that i can always be connected even while i'm doing my beauty regimen! How convienient?!?! and i can always dream on! HAHA

So this thing i'm gonna be in love with is FREEMAN PEEL-OFF CUCUMBER MASK. Retailing here in Adelaide at AUD9.99 in supermarket, its my newfound love.

It reminds me of the St. Ives peel-off mask that I used to love as a young teen and could no longer find it now.

Upon first application, its cooling, its gooey, and it has a slight toner feel when you first apply it. As though its filling and tightening your pores. And if you wanna follow the directions on the back of the tube, apply thinly if you're just willing to wait for 5 to 10mins. if you accidentally apply a thicker layer, its definitely gonna take a longer time to dry up.

How would you know if its all dried? just pat your fingers lightly all around your face to feel if the mask is dry, if its not, its semi-sticky and it'll be like UHU glue to your fingers (I'm not saying its equivalent, i'm saying the texture is similar to that)

you'll feel it tightening as it dries up. Its better for you to stay in one position usually, lying down as all mask regimen would advise. so do not follow me and proceed to type out a blog entry, i just cant sit still for a while, unless i'm sleeping of course.

What's the feeling after taking it off? You'll immediately be able to feel a difference. Your skin is smooth and cool and you'll definitely feel refreshed. Especially after close inspection to your peel-off, you'd notice that there's particles from your face stuck to it! YAY-NESS! Which means your face is clean and smooth.

Ratings? I would give it 5 out of 5 stars. Its easy to use, not messy, a clean peel-off and it doesnt crumble on your fingers as you try to take it off. =D Great consistency and it smells refreshing. And as everyone knows, cucumbers are always good for thy face!

And this review is not sponsored. I'm just doing it coz i want to.

APOLOGIES!!

Apologies for the lack of updates. The lack of internet in this new house has left without a choice. So here i am updating from my motorola dext for this most probably ultra short entry!

Yesterday marks the end of my term break but im still behind in my uni work! Sheesh! I swear im turning lazy especially after the china internship! I seriously cant wait for these assignments to be done and over with for me to start on new ones so that i wouldnt be trying to catch up!

*breathless*

So yeah. Im waiting for the day internet gets installed into this house. So yeah. Thats all!

P.s: oh. I might be getting a new phone. Heh. XP

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Here's a sneak preview of my current house.

Truthfully? I LOVE IT. HAHAHAHAH!! I love the layout of the house and its the best thing ever. Its comfy, its clean, its new, i have access to everything and I do not have to tiptoe around the house in disgust! HA!

so to everyone out there who's been asking me how's my new house? Here's the living room.

Now back to my attempt to completing both my essay.

PSSSTTTTTTT...

I know i'm kinda late and most probably totally outdated. But here's the thing, I've always heard of this product from the beauty gurus on Youtube and even the make up reviews online and I have always wanted to get my hands on this product..

So let me show you something!

When makeup gurus tell you that this thing work, oh hell yeah it does! I have tried everything from L'oreal, Garnier, Biotherm, Clean and Clear, Clearasil, you name it, i've most probably tried it. Why did I venture out to so many brands when, first of all its definitely not advisable?

Well, you see i'm an eyeliner person. I can go out of the house without any makeup on as long as my eyes are lined. It is rarely (near to 0) that one will catch me out of the house without my eyeliner on.

I'm sure many of you who wears eyeliner, either liquid, pencil or gel often have this problem where the kohl isn't fully removed. This applies to removal of mascara as well.

The PONDS cold cream comes in a tub about the size of the large size nutella spread. But the beauty of it is that, you don't even have to use a hell lot of it to get your make up off. and one layer of application (even though thin) is more than sufficient to fully remove your make up. On top of that, it has a moisturizer after effect and therefore allowing you to have a choice of applying your own moisturizer or not.

I've been using the PONDS cold cream for a month now and I have not had any pimple breakouts from it. The smell is rather pleasant, it has the smell of the NIVEA hand lotion + a more cucumber-ish smell. So its actually a rather soothing scent, if i may say so. On top of that, i have not really created a huge dent in the pot and I go out on weekends to clubs with full make up on. So that speaks alot.

But to any of you who still prefer a liquid form of make up remover/ deep cleanser, the makeup remover from SASA is a must to get then.

This thing comes in a few flavours/scent: Chamomile, Rose and Green Tea.

However, comparing the price of the SASA make up remover and the PONDS cold cream, i would say that the PONDS cold cream is definitely more cost friendly. Besides, its not easy for everyone to get hold of the SASA make up remover anyways. Especially if you're in a non-asian country.

And looking at how little you need it per application, the PONDS Cold Cream will definitely outlast SASA Makeup remover anytime!

So, if you're ever looking for a deep cleanser cum make up remover and you're at a shelf with the PONDS Cold Cream staring out at you, I would say..

Do not hesitate, just get it! It'll be a buy that's totally worth it!! =D

LOOKING BACK AT EAST ASIA

I was looking back at my entries.. I realise I didnt even post up photos from Beijing. Sad isn't it? The 2months that literally changed my life and I didn't have a pictorial post on it! DAMMIT!

10 days in Singapore was such a rush before having to fly back to Adelaide for Uni. SAD SAD! I swear its the uploading of all that albums on facebook that took up approximately 8hours left me tired. It feels as though i've been to war sorting out pictures. LOL!

But I think I should post up an entry! for old times sake. For memories. For friendship.

So i'll just end this entry with one pic first. I promise.. there will be more to come!

I should stop procrastinating and finish up my essays. Its somewhat overdue and I need to pack my room to move out this sunday! YAY NESS and hello geekdom since uni will literally be at my doorstep! YIKES!

Don't tell anyone pple! I'm a closet nerd and that's that! =D

Oh, and I have this itch to change my blogskin. Its been what? 7years with the same skin? Or maybe lesser. Bottom line, Its been too long.

PRODUCTION NIGHT

Another wedding to plan for.

Its just like another production. Lights. Camera. Action.

How I miss that adrenaline rush! As the lights come on, and you focus everything on your co-actor, you look out into the audience and you see nothing but a black mass. But you know its a full house out there. It always is.

You hear the random gasps as slaps were exchanged before you.

You hear the occasional sobs reminding you that you're not crying for yourself anymore. You're not crying alone.

You feel yourself drifting away from whatever that defines you and you feel an image of yourself looking at you from the sidelines.

You could be anything, anyone you allow yourself to be. You could allow your deepest secrets to be revealed but no one will take it seriously. The beauty of that.

Or maybe its the busy-ness that I miss. Crafting of sets, costumes and props hunting, lighting meetings, stage managers briefing, make up decisions. The auditions, the casting, the rehearsals, the emotions.

Or maybe its the creativity that I miss. The stage blocking. The vision you have in your mind as you type furiously onto your computer or scribble unto your notepad as a 6page scene unfolds before you. The smile carved on your face after you saved the final approx. 50page script knowing that you're gonna send it for printing the following day to be distributed at cast meeting.

Or maybe.. its just plainly the people that we miss. The good old people who stand by your side. Who supported you through thick and thin. Who had those late night post rehearsals suppers and early morning pre directorial meeting breakfasts with you. The people you meet while you're completing a project. The characters you'll have to deal it.

Its like a distant memory. Especially now, when you've left it all behind and appear to be so far away. So distant sometimes you question yourself of its authentication.

See. A wedding prepartion is just like that. A production. Only with drama of a different kind. *smiles at bride-to-be*

The Conversation.

Mom: I've reached a point in my life.

Me: What point?

Mom: You know.. that point where everyone i know is either sick or dying?

Me: In that case, I have reached a point in my life too..

Mom: What point?

Me: That point where nearly everyone i know is either attached, engaged, married, expecting or is already a parent.

Mom: *sighs* Time really flies.

When I'm here, i dont feel it. Heck. Sometimes I even forget I'm turning 25 this year. Nobody here cares about your age. Nobody here cares that you're waddling slowly to get to your destination. Maybe some people will not think that I'm waddling coz I have work experience under my belt. But, in Singapore's context, I'm definitely waddling. I think waddling would be considered fast. I think i'm like slugging behind. yeah. Slugging.

Then I turn on facebook and I see all these engagement photos my friends are posting up, their wedding preparations shoutouts, their expecting bellies updates and pictures of their kids. I really do feel as though I'm in a different world altogether. I'm no longer in that world. You know, that world where everyone is setting up their life.

Truthfully, I love my life right now and there's nothing I will do to change it. I love my social life. I'm beginning to love where I am. As shocking as it may sound to some. I'm loving it here. Which as a result makes me scared about what's gonna happen next year. The fact that I may get it and I may not. but hey. I know myself better than that. I should therefore give myself a little more credit.

But I really do feel as thought I'm slipping away from what I use to consider as familiar. Its only been 2 FULL years going on to 3 and I already feel like the outsider looking in. Amazing. I'm not going to complain, I can't complain. For, I have made this choice.

I should really start on my assignment before its all overdue. Seriously. Especially since I'm hoping to move house next week, i wouldnt wanna drag all these reference books all over the place. I should just finish it all and not procrastinate since my major essays have a higher word count than whatever i'm doing right now.

Peace out.

People watching.

People watching has currently been added to my list of favourite past times. Eating alone no longer meant that I had to eat quickly and run off. It now meant that I could eat slowly and watch the antics of the people in my current surrounding.

People on dates and in love that I can practically see hearts floating abouve their head.

People on dates but not in love. Now, that's another story. ha.

Kids. Self-explanatory. I classify rowdy teenagers as kids too.. -.-

The ringing laughter of toddlers and their toothless grins that never fail to melt hearts.

What does one think about? What is running though their heads? Here I am watching from the other side. From a perspective that they will never see. The outsider. Amazing, really.

A man walks by with strides that allows the gentle breeze to flow through his hair. Long flowing hair. Sometimes, I wonder. How do men have better looking long hair than us girls? Most probably they don't put as many styling products as an average girl? heh.

Currently munching on Oporto fries. I love Oporto so much better better than Macs me thinks. No idea when I'm gonna finish the fries though. bleargh~

Safe... I hope.

Initially, I thought I didn't care. When the news of the earthquake and tsunami plastered the papers around the world, I still didn't call to check how you were. Maybe circumstances made me this way. *shrugs* I've been hurt too much in 2010 that I don't wanna care about anyone anymore.

Mom called me to ask me if i've heard from you coz nobody could reach you not even your mom. My reply was laced with annoyance, "If no one can reach her, what makes you think i can? Its not as if we have special walkie-talkies. I'll still have to text her." When Deena asked about you and I told her.. i really didn't care.

After much persuasion, I texted you wondering how you were especially now with the nuclear plants explosion and I received an immediate reply from you telling me that things are bad but you're all well. I told you to come home, I'm sure your dad did too...

I wanted to tell you that Aikido School isn't all that worth it. I wanted to tell you just leave Japan for the time being and come home to the family that's worried about you. But what can we do if all flights out of Japan are cancelled and the transportation system within Japan isn't functioning. Besides, I wouldn't be there for you when you need me, since i'm 7000miles away from home.

At the end of the day, you're my cousin. Even though I act as if I don't care, deep down I still do. So here's to me hoping that you're safe and well and of course, very much alive.

What's Next?

Yes ladies and gentlemen, Wicked has FINALLY arrived in Adelaide! I've waited 2 years for them to release the dates for the Adelaide show and they finally have! The tickets are alittle pricey though. Well, quite pricey as compared to alot of musicals that was staged here in Adelaide.

But, hopefully (keeping my fingers crossed), i will not miss it. It'll be opening in April till end of May. So yeah, i'm hoping i'll have enough cash for it! I wouldn't wanna miss Defyinggg Gravityyyy.. =D Love love love that song!

The Last Girl On Earth Tour - Rihanna (Adelaide 2011)

Yup I went for the rihanna concert in Adelaide yo! awesome possum! so happy! so excited! it eliminates all annoyance i had. heh.

The video above, is the portion of the dance move that i intend to memorise! HAHAHA!

I ended up going with Rochana... And it was one helluva of an outing. LOL! Rochana was excited since the afternoon when I called her to ask her if she wanna accompany me to the Rihanna concert. And after much persuasion, she finally agreed. And she's been grinning from ear to ear from the moment she saw the tickets. HAHAHAHAH!

The opening acts was Far East Movement and Calvin Harris... and boy! Did they bring the house down! The energy from Far East Movement was WOOOHOOO! It made me feel so fly like a G6! Hahahaha~!

Calvin Harris' spins was epic! It was groove-worthy and definitely siccckkkk~! LOL!

The pictures below are from the Rihanna Concert and I really sincerely hope that no one out there would steal them pictures... okiez? you guys are kind hearted souls arent ya? heee.

The concert was separated into 4 acts of a dream where the storyline was that how it will be if she was the last girl on earth.

She opened the show with Only Girl with that flower dress which I personally thought was both cute and horrendous. Maybe she thought that too.. since it only appeared in that song! HAHAHAH! before she changed into the next glittery and uber pretty (yes, i'm bias w/ glittery things) costume when she did So Hard, S & M, Disturbia...

It was a visually pleasing performance. That's a definite! The dancers were not overpowering as compared to some artists. It was mostly about her and that's the way a concert should be.

I swear she has the sweetest smile ever! its so pretty and cute! her smile i mean. There's no way i could describe the rest of her as pretty and cute. HAHAHA! That's just an understatement! LOL!

Rockstar was awesomely done and the guitar was the cherry on top. Hahaha! I most probably am bias again. But I don't care! I love that song... even though the ones in the crowd were confuse at the beginning of the song what she was about to sing. Seriously people? Seriously?! Oh wells.

Please don't stop the music was another visually pleasing performance. My favourite costume of the night tooo~ Sexy but not slutty. Hate how much I love you was another crowd favourite. together with unfaithful, rude boy and well practically every other top 10 hits. But seriously, hate how much i love you was a really sincere performance by her. It was different. Different in a good way.

Act 4 started off with the wait is over, followed by Live your live, Run this town and take a bow. Take a bow being her final song.

It was definitely one of those concerts to remember and for those of you who have the opportunity to go for this concert. I would say that, JUST GO FOR IT! Its awesome possum. 5 possums out of 5!! Those in Australia, your last opportunity to catch her would be in Perth, for everyone else... This is the beginning of her world tour this yr, i heard she's heading into Europe after Australia am i right?

Oh and seriously people, if you're her fans, dance to her music then during the concert! I hope not everyone wasn't like the crowd in Adelaide who stared at me and Rochana as though we were crazy jumping, singing and dancing to her every song. LOL! Maybe the concert crowd differs from state to state, country to country... but please do yourselves a favour and let lose!

I definitely went home grinning that night. heh heh~!

The Wedding I'll have to go back for end of the year..

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SLEEP DEPRIVED

I've been sleeping in so much the whole week. I mean not that I have issues with it coz its only week 1. which means no tutorials only lectures and its only introductory lecture.

I felt as though i've been sleeping to make up for all the lost sleep i've missed over the last 3 months. Both in Beijing and Singapore. But who am I to complain rite? I should start planning my trips back a week before school starts just so i could sleep like a pig.

now i'm hungry and having stomachache coz i've stuffed myself with a kit kat bar... Not a good alternative to food with an empty stomach. toodles.~

My entries are scarce recently... But I can't help it. I seem to be having to catch up with time. I seem to be constantly trailing behind and later on checking the time only to realise its late.

I cant sleep... Again. But this time, there's really something on my mind.

Have you ever wondered why some people refuse to tell people their past? Their backgrounds? Or maybe feel the need to hide a fraction of their ancestral identity?

Coz you can't trust people. People talk... sometimes too much. People see.. sometimes unnecessarily. People remember... sometimes too vividly. As a result? You just get disappointed with people. Especially those you never thought were capable of it.

To me, a promise is sacred. In my life, I take promises seriously. Due to circumstances in life, promises are never broken and therefore my attitude towards it gets extended to friends.

Sometimes you would think you know someone a little better, but more often than not, you're mistaken. When I make a promise with someone, I don't dismiss it easily once its broken. I am not one who gladly takes a leap of faith. When I take a leap of faith, it means the initial seeds of trust have been sowed.

At such a stage, its fragile and therefore it can be eliminated...

Just. Like. That.

Now I know why you were unaware of certain things. You were not from this life, you will not understand. Instead, you will think these are trivial matters of no importance whatsoever while they see the gravity of the matter.

BEIJING; AN EXPERIENCE OF A LIFETIME

2 Months have passed and so much have happened. The last 3 days of snow was memorable!!

its been more than 2 months since my last update here on blog. ANYONE MISSED ME? *stares at screen and hear crickets instead* lol!!

2 months hiatus and where did i go? Beijing. There's a helluva things memorable about Beijing. THE GOOD, THE BAD AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN. I've made a lot of friends that I know I'll never forget. That I know that will cross the oceans to meet up and catch up on our lives. The effort that they are willing to put in sometimes blows me away. Some of my long time friends don't even do that... Hell. Some of my cousins don't even bother either.

And here, perfect strangers that i've met and gotten close to within a span of 2 months are planning the next time they're gonna see me and making sure if i will be in Australia or Singapore when that happens. People that lived on the other side of the world. People that see day when I see night. It amazes me still.

As anti-social as I am, I've made friends. Friends that have been there through the thickest of times in Beijing. Friends that became my temporary family in the absence of my real ones especially with the sucky internet connection and the lack of social network sites literally cut me off from the world and life I had back home. In return? I created a life in Beijing.

I had a life. I have people that I come home too. I have group dinners that I go for with the same people after work. Random activities that we do to pass the time like manicures, massages, or just shivering in the cold waiting for our Beijing pancakes to be ready and standing there bouncing up and down eating those street food.

Even as I'm typing this, I can't believe that it has all come to an end. There were days that I feel odd that those people that I used to see every single day isn't around anymore to come to my room to harrass me out for dinner or to get ready and go out in the middle of the night. Memories. heh.

Work was good. I lived the expat life and I had an amazing internship supervisor who was extremely concern with my well-being and if i were accustom to the extreme weather changes and that I start work at 10am and ended at 430pm to beat the peak hour rush. I had an insight into China Laws and I was doing foreign and international investments into China.

Money money money. Investments investments investments. Corporate corporate corporate.

Just the thing I like to do. So yeah, I definitely did enjoy my internship.

I lived the high life in Beijing. Work and play all within the same day, everyday. I liked it. It was busy but at the same time resourceful. I even played sparklers and fireworks during the Chinese New Year period...

There were some memories that I can't forget and it wasn't necessarily good. The day he fell sick in Beijing, fear rose within me; almost suffocating. How could it be a Deja Vu? How could one nightmare i've been having all year that never fail to wake me up in the middle of the night breathless and scared be replaying in front of me only in reality? When I saw him like that, I excused myself from his room to take my lappie and I remembered thinking if I was dreaming only to realise that I was tearing all the way back to my room praying silently that nothing worse will happen.

I didn't go to work that day becoz of it. How could I? Leave him there and expect him to call me if it gets worst? In Beijing, how long will it take me to get home from work considering Beijing and its traffic? What if something happen and I didn't get home in time? I will never be able to forgive myself.

It was as if my deepest fear came true. It wasn't a sight I would wanna remember, but it was definitely something I can ever forget either. Everyone saw the after effect of that day on me. After he left and despite knowing he's better, I wasn't relieved. People politely left me by myself; often checking up on me after.

Beijing was harsh in so many ways. Like the weather, my experiences were equally on each extreme ends. I've had that. I've had my brand new 1865RMB (SGD 373) Follie Folli watch stolen from right under my nose while I was busy checking out of City Hotel to transfer to Swissotel. I've had my wallet pick pocketed in the subway 1week after i end my 2mth internship.

But if I were to be given the another opportunity in Beijing, I wouldn't mind doing it all over again. There are some things in life that can't be learned or read about, but experienced and earned instead.

Beijing drove me insane with frustration sometimes, but truthfully, it was worth it. Coz not everything was bad. I've been blessed to be able to meet the people I've met on this internship. That was nothing, but amazing. =)