The One of A Kind

you know wat?

There's an itch... yup, itch as in mengatal (thats malay for having the itch to look for guys)..

yup yup yup... i have no idea why... i guess most probably is due to the fact that currently i'm very very very very free and constantly wondering wat to do...

Then i begin to ponder on my ongoing lovelife or rather the lack of it...

I begin to wonder... Why on earth wasnt i attached before?

Ok i'm not trying to be thick-skin or wat la.. but you know... people always will have a match of their own wat.. and its not as if i dont...

i've dated a few... hmmm i shouldnt state dated.. maybe.. hmmm.. more of, hmm got acquainted and welll... i dunno how shall i put it...

but they were guys of various racial backgrounds, social groups (is that the term for breakdancers, satanic, punk and whatknots?)

They were nice people.. really really nice guys... but when they popped the question... i refused without thinking twice... and usually that decision was made long before the question was asked...

There were reasons, all kinda reasons actually... And most of them was the fact I'm too busy with school and that i dont have the time for commitment... Now, i begin to wonder... is that really the reason or was i just afraid of being in a relationship.. Could it be?

i dunno...

hrmm.. maybe rite now.. i am really too free or something that i'm beginning to wonder why on earth am i not attach or maybe i should give relationship a try?

hmmmmm....