Late Night Musings

I had a conversation with her the other day telling me to resume what was. I told her, it is not up to me.

These past couple of days that I am alone again makes me wonder about everything. Past, present. future.

The question that comes to my head was: "What would I do when it comes a time where I will have to choose between you and someone else?"

My mind draws to a blank.

Sometimes. we're like the light and shadow. One could not exist without the other. But we're separate entity and yet, majority of the time we act as if it is Us Against The World. You and Me. 

I also realised that even though the years passed, the seasons have changed countless times and important people have walked out of my life... you still stood there against time. There. Whenever I turn, you're there. Whenever I pick up my phone, you're there. There. Apart from my mother, you're my only constant. My heart calms alittle in the thunderstorm knowing that.

But how do I tell my heart one day that... that is all that you are. A constant stranger.

Again, my mind draws a blank. A deafening resounding emptiness.