The One of A Kind

Its been close to 3 months since i've returned. My life has changed but at the same time it is pretty much the same. It is mostly aimless routine going around as boredom takes over me. What am i doing really? I'm comfortable here but at the same time i'm unfamiliar. It is an odd feeling that's constantly swirling about inside. 

I don't know when life will change again. Do I miss it? Yes, i do. But its hard isn't it to admit it out loud without sounding like an ungrateful lil shit... I don't want my family to think that I prefer living out there over being at home. But I don't know... Oh well. 

Do I miss a whole other life that I used to have? yes. Do I miss the people there? Yes. Everytime you think you're gonna be fine... you're really not. You're hiding a huge part of yourself coz you feel bad admitting it out loud. 

There was an unexpected turn of events from the individual from there and i find myself surprised and somewhat intrigued. At the same time, i also find myself wondering about it and thinking about it. but it is what it is for now and all i'm doing is enjoying the texts.