Let's see how was my weekends.

I was annoyed on Friday night. I was beyond annoyed. I was pissed.

Teasing me is one thing. Putting me on the spot is also one thing. I seriously never realised my tolerance level to these things till recently. But to do it not only to me, is ok fine if you really want to have fun.

Going over board while doing it is A whole different story altogether.

Saturday was ok. Had fencing training, i came late and i was sooooo lethargic la.. i practically havent wake up when i reached there. Coach, " Dear, why are you so sian?" My answer? I just stared at him blankly. WAHAHAHAHA..

trashed people, talked on the phone, met azi, hung out at my house, went out, came back late.

Sunday came. i had fencing training again. Maybe something was really bothering me. My coach complained that i was distracted during my training. What can i say? I don't even know why i was so distracted.

Had sparring session. Fenced with Morgan. I was leading 10 - 5. When i broke my blade. SHEESH! It broke cleanly off my guard. I literally scream when that happen la. Haiyo. They were like, "Wah! Nad you damn violent you know!" and Morgan was like... "you're seriously trying to kill me aren't you?"

I nearly died laughing at that sia. That was after i recovered from my shock of staring at my guard with no blade and the blade was at the other corner of the training centre where it landed after it broke.

I blame the violence on pms.

Met hidayah after fencing for dinner coz my mom was at Chinatown and she didnt allow me to meet her coz it was crowded and that i'll have to lug my equipments around and it would be hassle. Since there's no food at home, i decided to meet Hidayah.

Well i got a scolding after that.

What else is new?

All in all, despite the little perks, my weekend sucked.

I had such a great monday. yeah rite. emotionally unstable is much better phrase.
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Wheee...

Hip Hop class was fun just now... Totally fun and crappy!

I've made up my mind. i'm gonna take that up plus a few other things.

This week has been tiring. i've been caught up with publication datelines and memberships and everything else and the latest bidding event. Definitely a change. Proof reading an article until i think i was close to becoming cross eyed! lol!

So ya, for now one of it is settled till April and i have 3 other publication datelines for other magazines to chase pple for their article(s), especially when its a short month and CNY holidays are around the corner. LOL!

I've found my inspiration working here. I know there was once i was wondering whether i would really wanna pursue for my law degree. Well, now i do. i definitely will pursue that. For more than one reason.

Even though i'm not doing legal stuff now. I've definitely found my inspiration and yes, i definitely know now that i want that degree.

Working here is definitely different. That's for sure. Doing things i've never dreamt of doing.

So far, everything's ok. and i hope it will stay fine for quite some time.

OMG! I have fencing tomorrow and i'm actually feeling quite lazy to go.. i might not be going for my Malaysia Open due to some unforeseen setbacks and my coach is definitely unhappy about it.

Well, i hope that i still can go since its rescheduled and that's what made my coach pissed off to begin with.

haiyo. I feeling very lazy to drag myself out of bed for training. wahahaha.. i'm gonna get strangled by coach if he sees this.

What shall i do tmr after training?

Hmmmm.. we'll see who's free to go out tmr.. and other than that i have a feeling i do need to go out.. i need to buy some stuff... February is not a good month. There's just too many celebrations!

Its the 2nd of February 2007 and its a FRIDAY!!!

SO HAPPY CAN!

Not for reasons that i'm going out tomorrow ok.. i'm not! *pouts and stomps around* lol.

Its just the fact that its Friday la that i'm so excited and i'm not working tomorrow... and guess what? i'm kick boxing later! WAHAHAHAHHA!!! The music is HIP HOP today!! *wiggles eyebrows and boogies abt*

and everyone is like.. "we are so going to see Nadira's true colours today!"

Totally NOT can!

i'm going to maintain my polite and "demure" reputation that everyone thinks i am. WAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!

Anywayz before i forget,

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY HALLY THE MERLIMAH!

Its not that i havent wished her.. i wished her past midnight ok! lol! dont play play!

Anywayz, stay happy girl, even though i know you missing your darling alot alot rite? tsk tsk tsk.. until no appetite to eat rite? tsk tsk tsk.. so poor thing.. *evil grins* and because of that you start picking on me rite? *smacks hally and stuffs hally in a bin*

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My entire body is aching for the past week la! HAIZ!!!! and i'm currently dizzy (and no! i'm not finding excuses to get out of kick boxing).. i've been nauseous the past week. not say i'm not eating properly and its not as if i havent been sleeping late or anything..

there was once i was walking in the office and it started spinning can! haiyo. Maybe... ok i shall not start thinking of anything bad.

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Oh and one thing i dont like about my job is that i have to inform candidates if their interview was unsuccessful and all that... and also going through resumes and having familiar names there and people asking me about those resumes and there's nothing i can do but just give the most neutral answer i can give.

and no i'm not going to state here where i'm working and what position i'm holding.

at least not yet. LOL!

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Met up with my ex-colleague (Rohaidah) yest.

I have yet to meet up with the rest. I think they're going to kill me coz, i was supposed to watch My Fair Lady the Musical with one of the them 2 weeks ago.. but i was too broke. LOL!

So anywayz, met her at Bugis for dinner and crapping session as well as to search for a dress for her one yr anniversary thats taking place this saturday. How sweet rite? *smacks Rohaidah*

Now why would i do that? Coz, she was giving me a hard time yest. No, not the put on the spot thing.

Just that she wanted me to help her pick out a dress.. BUT, everything also don't want.... too bright, too simple, too plain, too flowery, too vogue, too over, too flamboyant...

I was short of asking her to go and buy cloth and sew it herself!

Why do i have a feeling that she's reading this and i'm gonna get killed later? OH WELL. I know you still love me rite rohaidah? lol!!!!

And she still can ask me to go and accompany her THROUGHOUT this entire week until she gets a dress or whichever is sooner...

*strangles Rohaidah and throws her in a bin*

She says i have great taste (which is of course a compliment to me), but she rejects dresses without even trying it on!

Seriously people, things might not look great on the hanger but do you look like a hanger? NO RITE.

Sometimes, you might be surprised at how it turns out on you...

But other than that, it was a fun outing la.. Damn funny can!
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It seriously is funny how you can make me smile so early in the morning. It seriously is nice to know that you're around. It seriously is sweet to see what you have to say.
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Note to self: I have to stop chewing on sweets in the office, its unhealthy.

Wheee~!!

I have to stop eating!! REALLY!!

the other day i met Azizah for dinner.. and even end up eating her rice coz, she doesnt seem to have any sort of appetite.. that wat happens when a person is tooo tired...

So ya.. i had my noodles, her rice and later on ice cream! totally wtf rite? I'm not the one here that needs to eat. AZI IS IN THE POSITION TO EAT MORE! But.. noooo.. i end up eating like free...

And azi's reason for me eating soo much is? I'M TOO HAPPY! like wat theee...

But that was fine since the next day i was having such bad stomache and went to the toilet ever 30mins or so.

So wat happens the next day?

I went to work as usual and reached home at 7plus... lazed around when i received a phonecall from the senoritas wanting to meet up.

Yes you will think i passed the invitation, since its late and all and since my grandmother is like.. you know you know.. lol! but no i ended up meeting them at Serangoon.

We went for prata supper.. but i was somewhat full already so i ended up sharing pratas with Deena..

That girl ah.. Complain that she's getting fat... BUT!

she orders 3 of the most sinful prata that the shop has.. Cheese, Egg and Bomb (that's like sugar and butter inside)

I was like.. WAT THE!?!?!

And that outing was fun la.. its been so long since i last met them and well.. again i was put on the spot.

What's new these days rite? I've been put on the spot so often and become the topic of conversation.. rite? you all enjoying it rite?

nvm.. the time will come... *evil grins*

not that i'm complaining. oh well, i'm sure you know wat i mean...

So ya, its been like a food spree

and saturday came.. and well, wahaha.. as you all know i was working wat... and happily chewing THROUGHOUT the half day and met Mel later on..

And walked around the entire Raffles City, i swear i've never had such "eventful" outing at Raffles City like Saturday.. *smacks Mel*

So ya walked around all over the place.. and ate!

then after that i met my mom for dinner...

SEE.. THIS ENTRY IN ITSELF SHOWS HOW MUCH I'M EATING! ARGH!!!

*screams in agony*

and it doesnt help that i'm totally in love with this particular dress i saw... its like totally nice and sweet and... waaaa... I WANT IT!

I'm gonna kill Deena for showing it to me!
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i'm going for a wake. haiz. 14 years old. only daughter. only child.

GOOD MORNING SINGAPORE!!

RISE AND SHINE!!

I'm Nad and i'll be the host for today.

Its the perfect weather to sleep in, cuddle up in your blankets, catch up on desired sleep, hug people and dream of the most romantic scenarios.

Timecheck: 9.09am

What is Nad doing up you might ask?

Since its well known that i'm not a morning person and well.. i definitely wont waste an opportunity to sleep in especially when the weather is this great and besides its Saturday afterall.

So you might think that:

1. She has gone mad
2. She has insomnia
3. She has nothing better to do
4. Its just one of those days where people would go and buy 4D.

Well, its simple.

i'm at work

*cues audience to gasps in horror*

Nah. i'm not THAT hard working. But i'm required to work one Saturday a month and i'm scheduled to work on the 4th Saturday of the month.

Since this is the 4th Saturday, so here i am!

Bright and early.

And surprisingly, AWAKE despite the fact that i slept at 1+am. LOL!

And i'm already at work for nearly an hour already since its gonna be 930am soon. LOL!

Anywayz, stop being so shock and stare at this entry ok. I do wake up extremely early on Saturdays ok.. No matter how the weather is..

Ok i can so see you guys go.. YEAH RITE NAD WATEVER!

but its true!

If i didn't work today, and its raining and i would so love to cuddle up to my bolster and elmo and snuggle under the blankets, i would still have to wake up.

Why?

Coz, i have fencing training today. Like most of those Saturdays in December. I swear my coach loves to have trainings in mornings where all you want to do is sleep and not wake up till afternoon.

But of course i cant go and my coach is gonna kill me tmr when he sees me since i havent been having training for the past 2 weeks.

but then again, not my fault wat! His schedule was full! but nevertheless, i know i'm gonna get some kind of a nagging tomorrow.

Anywayz, where was i?

Oh nvm, i shall just look for more things to do before i actually huddle/curl up in my cubicle and sleep.

Things have to stop slipping into my mind like this.

People look at me and they will think i'm mad if i continue this.

To think that its only morning and it has been lingering on my mind for the past few hours.

Its not as though i dont welcome it. But a distraction is a distraction nevertheless, right?

Its like i'm in a floating state. Half of my mind is here with me for everyone to see and the other half is somewhere else in another place, in another situation.

Or maybe i'm just not occupied enough for me to welcome such a distraction.

*Buries self in a hole*

Caught Pan's Labyrinth today.

A very sweet story that was set in difficult times. You guys should catch it~! its really cool la.. The storyline, the effects, and the scenes transistions.

Its a definite must watch!! lol!

So how was my saturday?

My Saturday was memorable. WAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!

I'd have put it as farnie, awkward and sweet. but i think memorable is a much better word. LOL!

I swear there are just some things that will definitely make me as bright as a tomato for awhile and then i'll just continue talking as if i'm talking to myself and look everywhere else except at the subject.

Things that parents warn you when you were kids *winks*:
Lesson #1: Do not stand anywhere near a stranger or make any verbal contact where ever you maybe; i.e: traffic light.

Lesson #2: Stand 1m away from a stranger and do not make any contact of any sort to the person in question.

I know that this entry would not make sense to most people... But then again, most blog entries dont. WAHAHAHA!!

But other than that, GO WATCH PAN'S LABYRINTH!

You might just end up loving spain, its language and the men. WAHAHHA!! *dodges abuses*

Read me a Fairytale...

ITS FRIDAY! ITS FRIDAY!!

*Hops about*

I seriously can't wait for it to end!! YAY!!

Seriously, IT 415PM!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! WAHAHAHHAHAHA...

why am i so happy again? i have no idea why on earth am i this happy that Friday is here?

i was nearly late la today!! totally wth! i came in with my most sleepy and disoriented look, that made everyone worried whether or not i was ok.. LOL~!! *evil grins*

but watever it is...

Friday is ending. Period.

And and and...

I'm not going for Kickboxing later!

Kwang kwang kwang *rolls on the floor laughing*

OMG.

I only realised that its Thursday today when i was checking the clock on my computer. Totally wth rite?

Here i am thinking that i've only reached mid-week and wondering how on earth am i gonna survive another 3 FULL DAYS.

its been only 4 days into the job without typing daily faxes and i can no longer remember the date. Brilliant. Absolutely, utterly brilliant.
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On another note,

The Sex Shop from across the road has been a topic for everyone for the past 2 days. I know, i know.. you guys would go like.. WTF?!

but believe it! its true.

Yest, they were discussing who's going there and wondering what the shop sells. And today? they were asking whether did anyone actually go the shop and what's there and whether or not they got buy anything.

I, on the other hand, was interested to find out but couldn't bring myself to thickened my face and listen... and at that time, my boss came out of her office to pass me some things.

And the office fell silent. I've never felt so relieved and grateful to anyone ever man.

There's kick boxing tmr in the office, outside our boardroom. My boss' personal instructor is coming down. I have yet to give my answer whether or not i'm going. *shrugs* My boss ah.. ONE FIT WOMAN SIA!

yest, she left the office to jog at Botanical Gardens and she says, "Can i go now? If anyone needs me, find me at Botanical Gardens. I'm going for a jog"

I've never been so stressed in my entire life till 5pm yest.

Right in front of me was a woman that has already lived for more than half a century, about to go jogging around at a garden. And here i am, lest than half her age, DONT EVEN LIKE TO RUN!

Speaking of which, i have a feeling, kick boxing is gonna be one activity that's gonna be permanent. Coz, she told us to find 20 exercise mats and gloves for it. *faints*

i have no idea what else to talk about. So for now, i think i shall go to the toilet and shit.

I can't wait for the weekends, for more than one reason. *evil grins*

New place. New job.

Today's my second day of work here and its been ok... The bulk of my work is not in yet... Basically, i'm just asked to familiarize myself with the admin stuff... A tad boring, but then again, there's nothing i can do about it rite? it comes with the job... lol!

Its definitely not the typical law firm where calls come in like free and writs are issued nearly everyday and Defences are due every 14 or 21 days, whichever is later. Not the kind where interviews are conducted every tuesday and thursday or whenever there's no CDR. Its definitely a change.

And my job scope? i have yet to find out the whole of it. LOL!

The people are nice, well, that's what i see so far... and i'm like, literally, the youngest in every sense of the word.

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Anywayz, remember a few weeks ago (OK fine some time last yr) i said that i'll upload the lyrics to the BSB song since its been going on and on in loops? well.. i finally got around to doing it. so here it is then:

Remember when we never needed each other
The best of friends
Like sister and brother
We understood, we'll never be alone

Those days have passed now I want you so much
The night is young and I need your touch
Don't know what to say never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say? What did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice and I start to tremble
Brings back the child I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say? What did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Oooh.. I wanna say this right and it has to be tonight
I just want you to know
I don't wanna leave this life, I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend the rest of my life

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say? What did you do?
How did I fall in love you?

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
Everything's changed remember you
How did I fall in love with you?
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Speaking of songs, my earphones' spoilt! AGAIN! argh. Anyone has a spare one that i can borrow till i get a new one??

*faints*

ok i shall go now and look for things to do.

2nd post of the day... lol!

Time check: its 950 and i've been awake since 830 just now.. wat time did i sleep? 4am. why?

Coz, Today seemed like a very nice day to go out. I'm so excited just by looking out of the window.

Seriously, its not raining and the sun is shining. It is!!

So what have i been doing for the entire of last week? I've been cooped up at home like a cat! Even cats get to wonder free. i was imprisoned. Literally.

Grandmother was being a pain in not allowing me to go out for the entire week for god knows what reasons and getting scolding for no reason is not very fun either. And she uses the rain to make it more difficult to go out of the house. Even going out with my mom has been a chore coz i had an interrogation session from my grandmother.

Its not raining today and i wanna go out... i'm so itchy to get out of the house that i just wanna go out!!! *screams and pulls hair* But now i have another problem instead, i dont have anyone to go out with...

I, seriously, dont have a victim to drag out for today.. ok, i swear i sound pathetic. But still, ok fine, not that i dont have anyone to drag out today... i HAD someone to drag out today but then that person's busy today so i've decided not to try pestering the poor person even though i'm like totally deprived. lol... hmmmm.. haiz...

I wanna cry already la!!! waaaaaaa.. *sob sob*

Maybe i should just go out by myself... waaaaa!!!!!!!!

Ok...

i got meself employed as of 11.01.2007. LOL!

Yup.

2007 has been kind to me...

it started off on an extremely good note.. really!

Work.
so now i've gone from selling grapes to having a job, again. My future job scope's quite interesting. so let's hope for the best.

Love life.
Love life? what's happening in my love life? hahaha.. boyfriend? hmmmm... my love life very non-existent wat.. hehehe.. *ponders, thinks and gets a little blur sotong-ish* Even if there is anything going on also, i'm dense. isn't that rite? hehehe.. Seriously, inexperienced what. wahaha...

Education.
I'll be applying for unis soon. I'm just hoping for the best to come out of my applications. Locally and... overseas, i guess.

So ya, so far 2007 has been kind. but hey! its only January.

And i'm bored and i really feel like going out later... but.. haiz..

oh and i have yet to post the pics from shaiful's 21st b-day.. that will be coming
rite up soon..


I'm fat and i'm stressed! *runs ard in circles screaming*

I'm in shock.

I'm speechless and i'm surprised.

*looks around*

Yup. I'm still in Singapore, in the comfort of my home, everything looks the same.

And i don't think i'm dreaming coz, i'm still awake.

So i think i'm only able to know whether or not i'm dreaming tmr.. rite?

LOL!

I've had the weirdest dreams the past two days.

Both left me in quite a shock, i woke up startled.

The first dream, involved a phone call, a message, a bus ride, a very familiar neighbourhood (even though i cant seem to recall where) and an extreme heartbreak on my part.

The second, involve the same people, an ant (yes a talking one), a cockroach (that one didnt talk), a farm, a fair, but no heartbreak.

Seriously, i have no idea how one could dream of same issues on different days with direct opposite outcomes.
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Had my sec sch class gathering last thurs (28/12) at Seoul Garden Taka. Well, only 10 of us were present out of the 24 or was it 26 in the class? yup small class... so i guess 10 is quite a big turnout.

Presenting to you my class, Sec. 4 Endurance (4E).

There! me pigging out with 1/3 of my sec 4 clique. the other 4 didnt come that day. From left to right (Clockwise): Me!!!, Shi Ya (she's gonna be sent to China for soccer training after CNY! How effing cool is that? i remembered the both of us rushing to my house after sch to watch world cup and pig out! lol) and there's my sec. bestest best friend, Sin Ni! (She lost so much weight la. I'm jealous!)

There's the other 3 of my class, (Left to right) Xiang Ling, Genevieveve and Marilyn

There's (front to back) Yumin, Shirlyn and Pui San.

There's Yumin and Liang Yi. Now, Liang Yi's been my partner in crime thru out sec 4. with our all famous pranks with the whistle sweet. And well, she's been complaining how i've neglected her thru out TP time.. *faints (literally)*

Mean Joke of the day by Dear Liang Yi

Liang Yi: Guess why, we never really remember Pui San?

Rest of us: *shrugs* dunno?

Liang Yi: MUST GUESS! it's mean, but true!

Rest of us: Coz, she's quiet?

Liang Yi: No. Coz, she stands in front.

Rest of us: *starts throwing things at her*

(and that, however, didn't end there...)

We took a class photo as Liang Yi requested, right outside Seoul Garden, must see the Seoul Garden she says.. so that everyone will know where we meet.. *faints again*

Gen with her ever-so-classic pose.

And me with Sin Ni!! I swear i miss her loads. Its been a long long time rite girl? the last time we met was in poly yr1 can you believe it?! haiz.

I feel totally ancient.

And no. i dont have cataracts. I was wearing Gray lenses that day.

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Last friday (29/12), hally, shah and me crashed coregroup. Ok. hmmm.. not really crashed.. but you know.. LOL! After that, 3 of us with hidayah, pika and mas headed to town coz shahdon wanted to buy a beanie. Seriously, it takes 5 girls to choose a beanie for him.

Anywayz, thats not the reason for this post. The reason for this post is....

TO SHOW YOU REC SHAHDON (NNENNA the 3rd)

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On Saturday last week (30/12), the fencers had a bowling tournament at Marina Square. I didn't wanna go initially but was dragged there after my training.

So we had a team competition. And it was hilarious! We started stealing bowling balls from the other team and started making weird sounds as each bowler of the other team was bowling.

Introducing to you my teammates...

From left to right: Jieshe, Benison, Me, Matt Lopez & Ignatius.

and and and.. guess wat?

WE WON! hehehehehe.. *does the kallang wave*

I'm going out today!!

I'm finally going out today!!

wahaha..

i'm watching movie with my mom!!

first movie of the year! wahahaha..

i think i'm going to go find a part time job or i'm gonna start tutoring...

full time job? I'm putting that on hold first.

We'll see how it looks when feb comes.. if i'm still tight by then, i might still go or not at all.

Happy New Year!

2007 has arrived.

I hope i can do tons of things this yr! I hope tons of things happen this yr!

wahahaha...

Hope ya'll have a great and wonderful 07! take care!

Can you believe it?

in less than 24hrs its gonna be 01.01.07.

HAIZ!

I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY!

i can't wait to leave 06.. but somehow i dont wanna enter 07.

why? Coz, growing up is not easy. lol!

So let's see.. what exactly did i do in 06??

1. Sins @ NP. - That was.. hmmm.. No comments. But as casts, we did have fun in the end aite? especially the camwhoring! lol!

2. BSB Concert. - That was awesome! I know i've never actually fulfilled my promise of blogging about it.. hahaha!!

3. Incanto '06, Senior Prom.

4. Singapore Fashion Week, Missoni Runway 06. - That was an eye opener.

5. Got employed, first full time job

6. Resigned my first full time job

7. Dreamscape 3.0 - Now who can ever forget that? that moment to dream and make it as a form of escape from reality was definitely worth it. I love my casts, my crew, my directors (kin and don- thank you once again, my friends (azi, deen, hid- thanks once again), my driving forces - my mom, hally (for hearing me cry early in the morning when i received don's msg.. LOL! that was something) and mel(thanks once again).

thanks to you guys even a dream is reality. hahaha..

That entire period was one of my most schizo eras. I was pushed down to the very depths of the earth and pulled back up by those i've mentioned here. Thank you. I am already missing you guys. And working with you guys.

8. Fencing. - I picked up the sword again.

9. Sketches, A story of hope (a yellow ribbon project by YCP). - I know la the grandmother very lemau.. SHE WAS DYING AFTERALL!! *smacks hally*

10. Saving Loukaitis @ Substation. - That was something. I'm grateful to be chosen.

11. Magic Fundoshi (FOH), Wildrice. - I've never been exposed to FOH till that day and the casts of Magic Fundoshi was hilarious. And getting a job offer in the process was priceless.

12. Natural @ Victoria Theatre. - The kids opened my eyes that there was more to life than just what i saw. Everything can be simple if we just let it be.

13. I got my 2nd full time job a mth after the first one

14. I resigned from my 2nd full time job 3mths after.

WHY? i'll go back to a law firm only as a lawyer. Period.

15. I taught my niece for PSLE. - She definitely made me proud. Real proud.

16. Fights. - i dont even know whether i should catergorize it as that. But what's done is done.

17. I've found another addiction and it's difficult to back out of it.

18. Various b-day celebrations.
a) Hid's bowling, chocz, prata and MP3 player outing
b) Mel's Fish & co, TCC Rendezvous Hotel & Fossil Watch outing
c) Hally's Fish & Co. with iggie outing
d) Azi's bbq and Mr. Bear.
e) My cousins' various b-day outings, earrings, guess watch and bear.

I totally love b-days! Coz, i get to buy stuff!! lol! each present has a different outing. and each present hunting outing was hilarious. I've always enjoyed myself doing that.

19. I turned 20 this yr. LOL! *Boo Hoo Hoo!!*

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ok i cant think of anymore stuff to make it to 20. So i'll just leave it till 19. oh wait.. i found 20..

20. I'M STILL SINGLE! WAHAHAHAHAHAH.. *rolls on floor laughing*

So many things have happened this yr. Some say that i've had a really eventful year.. some would even say controversial.. LOL! but whatever it is.. what's done is done and i dont intend to dwell on the past.

I've enjoyed my December tremendously! This yr's December is definitely one that i will never forget. Alot of things happened this December. Positive things.

I hope the positivity will spill over to 07.

What will i be doing later? I might be allowed out later. So most prob i'm going to catch the fireworks at Marina Bay tmr.

With who? no one.. wahaha. wat else is new? I'm spending new yr alone with no one special.. hehehe..

So for now,

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL...

and the muslims,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!

and to those who wanna eat ketupat and rendang, feel free to buzz me and come over to my house! lol!

Like every hari raya, my house cooks a full blown hari raya cuisine during Aidilfitri as well as Aidiladha.. LOL!

till we meet again ya'll.

And hopefully, in 2007.

Hmmmm...

Things been odd lately..

anywayz, i have no idea how to switch from this blog to the google one.. everything's in squares and i have no idea how to revert everything back to english and read the instructions..

What will i be doing this week?

I'll be having training, i'll be going out with my nieces...

I wanna go sentosa...

Anyone up to accompany me?

lol.

Its 440am..

The morning of 25.12.2006.

Yup. Christmas here everyone!

Merry Christmas to all...

I've been watching christmasy shows all day..

I look out the window and i half expected the roads to be covered in snow. Smooth, silky and white.

Oh well. I guess i'm thinking about other countries too often to actually believe something like that would happen here in sunny singapore.

Hey, if this well-drained country of ours can still flood in certain areas... i wouldnt be surprised if we have "snow" in christmas.. May it be some pranks from mischievious young boys spreading cotton wools all over the place.

Now, that i've gotta see..

LOL!

So what will i be doing this fine day?

Yeah. I'll be spending christmas the traditional way. Spending it with family.

Since my uncle's overseas.. I'll be meeting my cousin later to pass her the Christmas present, have lunch, sit outside and crap...

Its been a long while since i last saw her..

Hari Raya to be exact. the 2nd day if i'm not mistaken. That's like 2 mths ago...

yeah.. exactly 2mths. 2nd day of hari raya was 25.10.2006. today's 25.12.2006.

Now, i remember! today's one of my friends b-day.. i better go and wish her before i forget..

But anywayz, i digress...

I guess both of us are occupied with lots of things this past 2 mths.. she with school, wake boarding and aikido.

while i was working (at that time), production rehearsals (at that time) and fencing.

well, we're both hoping to be on the singapore team.. so i guess commitment and the lack of social life is the only answer to that... But of course, my social life is not exactly dead.

hehehehe...

cant wait for the sun to rise and for me to wake up from sleep (which i will go to sleep after this) and get out of the house so that i can spend some quality time with my cousin.

haiz.

Sometimes, i do wish for siblings. hahaha.. then i wouldnt be looking forward to go out of the house much..

i think.

LOL!

Its been a tiring week..

with training for the past 4 days... from morning to evening..

Blue blacks all over my arms and legs...

I better be losing weight! if not ah, *faints* besides, i want to be the new GUESS ambassador anyway.. and there's lots of zara and forever 21 dresses that i've been eyeing eversince my recent retail therapy...

Which is totally unhealthy. I tell you.. very the wrong leh... and i'm like happily making pple buy stuff as well..

today's trip to vivo city after training was eventful. WAHAHAHAHAH!! totally eventful!

*dies laughing at the thought of trip*

but its fun.. wahaha.. i shall terrorize more pple..

*rubs hands in glee*

hahaha.. theatre skills in full swing.. besides, its not that difficult you know..

*stares at particular someone and rolls eyes*

ANYWAYZ,

I've finally fulfilled promises of meeting up..

I'm sorry if i had to turn down some offers of going out.. coz, those that i go out with this week are those that have asked me during my production week last week..

hehehe..

I've been going out... and i'm the new vivo city girl. LOL! well.. most prob coz, its one straight train from home.. its the easiest to reach!! hehehe..

tralalalala...

there's so many photos that i wanna upload!

and yes, since i'm more free now, yup.. i can even dream of wat to wear to go out..

rite hally?

hahahhaah..

Hally: "Nad arent you from fencing?"

Me: "Ya. Why?"

Hally: "Wah you go fencing until so vogue ah?"

Me: *Stares at Hally to register what she was saying.. and then died laughing*

But ah.. Guess what i realise.. I DONT HAVE ENOUGH CLOTHES..

oh well.. i lazy to shop.. later cannot fit how?

But i seriously dont have enough clothes..

HOW?

HOW HOW HOW?

I just reach home not too long ago...

time check:

its 1230am

and i swear i'm on the verge of tears.

Why cant you just leave me alone? Why cant you just trust me enough? Why do you always have to fucking compare me with some other idiots that even i have no idea of their existence?

Its not everyday that i meet people. Its not everyday that i can forget that there's no one for me to talk to at home in the day. Its not everyday that i can have fun and forget everything.

I'm tired. I'm tired of you getting on my nerves. I'm tired of you saying hurtful things to me.

Do you know that? its not just now, its THE WHOLE DAY! do you know that? I guess you wont know that...

I was on the verge of tears from morning. Thanks to you. I bet you didnt know that as well..

How come you never fail to make me feel as though i'm the stupidest around? How come you never fail to make me feel as though i'm the ugliest being on earth? How come you never fail to make me feel as though i'm the worst creature ever created?

I've always tried and go way out of my way to please you. I no longer question you. I no longer answer back the way i used to. I no longer quarrel with you as though war has broken out in the house.

i've resorted to silence.

But tears still do flow. Just like now as i'm typing this.

Even though i'm used to it. Even though i act as if i dont care.

It still hurts.

Maybe, there are unshed tears behind those smiles. Maybe. Just maybe.

Christmas' here on MONDAY!

i swear i'm in major retail therapy!!!

I'm on a full blown shopping spree..

and my current target?

no.. not esprit...

not zara...

not topshop...

its... jeng jeng jeng...

GUESS

Upgrade already!!!

Its effing cheap la!!!

Trust me.. i'm not done!

i've bought 2 belts and a handbag and no, i've not spent 200 bucks there.

i've spent so much lesser than that, you guys wont believe it.

I nearly bought a pair of heels... but but but.. its like.. damn high.. i think its 3inch... and i've never actually worn a 3inch heel before.. and now, i keep thinking about it..

Maybe i shall go and get it this saturday..

i tell you.. soon, head to toe... is GUESS..

Like wat deena says, i'm the new Guess ambassador..

Paris Hilton in the making...

*faints*

I was actally dragging my mom to Guess the other day.. and i was like.. OMG MA!! You think i should get it?

and she was like... "Some things just never change huh? From young until big you've always been in love with Guess"

The best part?

I dont really remember having major retail therapy at Guess when i was younger, but i know had major retail therapy at Esprit when i was younger.

So i dunno. Maybe i did. *shrugs*

But that's not important.

The important thing here is that... i'm currently still thinking about that pair of heels..

and another GUESS watch... it has a heart on the face as well.. only diff from my current one is that, the face is square instead of round.. And the shape of the heart is different also la.. duh...

Oh ya.. and a pair of GUESS shades. I actually do like it la.. i've been eyeing it for a week already.. but when i show deena just now.. she thought i was crazy for wanting that pair of shades.

Maybe i am crazy for wanting that.. but maybe, i am not. I shall get another opinion of it either tmr of saturday.. hehehe..

*Cues thunder and lightning*

And i have yet to get that pair of earrings i saw 2 mths ago at perlinis. I cant seem to see it anywhere anymore . It better still be around. I need it for my cousin's christmas present..

If not, confirm.. die.. I dunno what to get her!!!

hmmm.. should i get coach christmas present? *ponders*

Aiyah, i shall not think about that now..

I shall go and stat dreaming about that pair of GUESS shoes.. if i'm still thinking about it tmr.. maybe i'll get it..

or maybe...

I shall ask people to buy it for me..

Can or not Deena?!?!

You guys still owe me presents and treat and watever rite? That shoe i'm sure is only 1/3 the budget for birthday celebrations... rite rite rite??

hehehehe

*Angelic smiles*

FINALLY!!

I'm no longer busy!

I'm no longer rushing for time!!

I'm no longer having my time fit around a rehearsal schedule!!

WHY?

Coz, my most recent production's done!

hehehhee..

i dunno what the reviews are... but Natural sure hit home that day...

My first ever production outside of school. Ok fine.. not first one out of school.. but you know wat i mean.. a big scale one.. one with a proper stage venue..

Man, i'm so gonna miss Victoria Theatre man.. lol

I'm sure gonna miss the actors, the kids, the directors, the stage, the backstage crew, the parents, the volunteers, the caregivers, the not-so-rush rush...

And i'm definitely gonna miss Maggie.

The person who ever so patiently cared for Danny. The person who joked, scolded, got irritated, have fun and understood him.

I've never actually found Maggie during my 2 months rehearsal period. Maggie came at a time when i was at a point of giving up and just wanting to go through with it and get it done and over with. Maggie came at a point when i finally understood them and when i finally was comfortable with them.

Maggie came when i was going to leave but i didnt want to...

The final scene as something that i didnt know i would be able to do... I've been worrying about it for months.. Its easy to do it with another actor.. but with on of the kids was more of a challenge.

We need to be comfortable with each other.

They said i made pple cry that night.

I dunno whether its true.

But wat i know was that, the final full dress, i did tell shikin that the scene is getting more and more difficult to do..

and on that day, the final scene, i was on the verge of tears.

To see it coming to an end, i was definitely sad. hahaha.. yes, i did cry by the end of the night.. lol!! totally embarassing...

And thanks for those who came. And for those whom i met during natural, thank you for being able to wok with you guys and get to know ya'll along the way.

OOoo...

Rehearsals are like.. OH MAN!

hahaha.. i swear i need to go out more often to not feel tired over rehearsals.

Anywayz, caught Eragon and Nativity Story today.

Yup yup. Movie Marathon of the year i tell you.

Eragon.

Its nice actually. I dunno why pple not interested in it leh.. if you can tahan LOTR, then confirm can watch eragon. The dragon very cute leh!! if you cant fall in love with the lead actor or actresses, you'll definitely fall in love with the dragon.

Nativity Story.

1. This totally reminds me of school. As in the daily prayers during morning assembly. But that's besides the point.

The point here is that, the story very the heartwarming leh.. warm your heart until cannot warm anymore.. (i swear i'm beginning to sound like an ah lian as time pass)

Yes. I'm hooked to the movie. People, ignore the bad reviews and just go and watch it... Its sweet. Seriously. I was tearing back there in the theatre. Because of various reasons.

One thing for sure, i'm gonna find someone like joseph for a husband... hehehe.. then he'll be a great father! At least my kids wont go thru wat i went thru.. *grins*

But then again, i can totally dream on man.. A man like joseph only appears once on earth.

the most ah, all i get is being a student of St Josephs Convent.

*faints*

MID DECEMBER HAS ARRIVED.

It's about time.

really.

2006 has been a toooo long a year.

i've been complaining when on earth 2006 will come to a closure since September.. can you believe it?

In September, i've already felt the dragginess of this yr.

too many things have happened. just too many.

Horoscopes have said that 2006 will not be a year that i'll forget easily. Trust me. I don't think i will forget a thing about this yr.

Change has taken place. Tons of it.

Haiz.. there's still 2 weeks before December ends. I'll make full use of this 2 weeks.

Wonder what i have on the week of christmas? hmmm i foresee a few parties to attend..

oh yes.. i'll make my cousin stay at my house just like last christmas.. hehehe..

and we'll roam the streets of orchard till past midnight..

What have i been doing this month?

Hmmm.. rehearsals and rehearsals. Yup. only rehearsals and fencing.

What happened to work? hahaha.. i've resigned. Again.

See what i mean by 2006 being long? i've resigned from 2 jobs for gods sake.

Had fencing competition last sunday at my coach's training place. I tell you, i cant remember the last time i fought so hard.

My coach was laughing at me by the end of it... "Mak cik, its been long since you last participated in competitions huh?"

*rolls eyes* Abit the duh rite? if 3 yrs is not long, i dunno what to say. Last time got stamina to last from 11am to 9pm.. thats the normal duration of a competition.

Now? lasting 3 straight bouts is a miracle in itself.

Lol.

What i wanna see in 2007? i shall blog about it when the time is right.

For now, i shall go to sleep so that i can wake up early to be able to be punctual for my tech run at victoria theatre.

the show's this saturday... time do fly when you're not thinking about it.
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The more i think about it
The more i'm afraid.

I'm so in love with the following~!!!

I hate the rzr.. but the krzr? now, that's different... the blue one? EVEN BETTER!!! so sleek so sophisticated!!! wahahaha.. azi mel! we should all get the krzr!!! wahahahaha...

I have a new phone candy.. and that's the new Sony Ericsson Z610i!! Its soooo cute rite?? I'm totally in love with it.. I tell you.. i wouldnt be surprised if i end up getting this for myself once i get my next job with a higher pay...


I'm even more in love with the blue one!! i mean look at it!!! hahahhahaa.. so smooth rite!!! i dunno why la but i'm like totally into blue this past 2 mths.. hahahaha... and if i get the blue one, it'll match with my mp3 player!!!!

Hmmm... since i still have yet to receive b-day presents from some... maybe can consider getting me one of the above? hahaha

hehehehee...

Oh how i wish i print money. haiz. lol.

I've cut my hair!!

WAHAHHAHAHA

oh ya.. i wanted to upload something..

No.. not my new haircut.. not just yet..

SO cute rite? Presenting to you... AZI AND MR. BEAR!

wahahha... i know its kinda late.. but still hahaha.. cannot help it if i upload my pics late.. wahaha...

we'll go out soon!!

I'm done watching the 24 episodes worth of Princess Hours.. Took me long enough..

That show ah..

wahahaha...

simply sweet. Period.

Yup, i'm much more in love with the Crown Prince now!! wahahaha

But anywayz, in one of the episodes, all the Crown Princess wanted was for the Prince to say it out to her that he cared. That's all she wanted to hear and that was enough for her.

And i wondered, is that really true?

With all my complains and opinions and remarks about love, feelings and words... i definitely could not say much on this after whatever that happened this afternoon.

I asked a friend of mine who got me utterly irritated over something, "why on earth do you always have to ask me such things every time we bump into each other?"

And he answered, "Because i care"

A simple 3-word answer that will just stop you from walking or turn your head in his direction in surprise.

and guess what i did? Nothing.

I just stared at him speechless before i could think of a response and all i could say was, "sorry".

Maybe sometimes, that's what a girl needs. To hear some sort of concern from someone.

Its easy for a girl to say that she cares to anyone and also to her other girl friends. But for her to hear it out of someone of the opposite sex. Its obviously something that doesnt happen often.

And for it to happen today. I was totally caught of guard. And the fact that someone do care.

Its just the same like how a person can tell you that they miss you, a simple, "I miss you" can seriously make your day.

Its the same thing.

The only difference?

It didnt come from someone who i truly wanted to hear it from. ha.

With whatever my friends have always said about me not giving pple a chance, i guess i am a girl afterall.

A romantic one at that.

Maybe, thats the reason why i'm afraid to give that chance.

Princess Hours fever has finally hit me.

I know, Azi's been asking me to watch it.. but i've never gotten the time to spare to actually watch it on Channel U or on youtube. So far, i've always loved Japanese drama but always have found Korean ones tooo sad or emo or watever.

But then again, i forgot that i've always loved to watch these princessy stories.

So.

During Hari Raya, i went to my cousin's house and my niece has the DVD. So that was when i started watching it. First it was more of the fact that my niece wanted me to watch it with her.. So i did it out of pleasing people.


And well, i dont like to watch things half way wat... especially when i know that there's a continuation... And as i happen to go to my niece house twice during Hari Raya, i've only managed to watch up to episode 3. Which is quite a big achievement considering the fact that it is Hari Raya and well.. there's relatives who wishes to catch up on your lives.

But anywayz, i digress.

The thing is... not only has the Princess Hour fever hit me, i've bought myself DVD of Season 1. Which is a shocker even to myself, i mean.. hallooo.. i've always wanted to get myself the Charmed seasons but never got it coz i find it kinda waste of money..

but look at what i'm doing? I just bought a Korean Drama Series. *faints*

And the worst part?

I'm currently having problems with keeping my eyes away from Korean men! I mean look at the pics below.. The first picture is this guy acting as Prince Yool, the crown prince's cousin.

So CUTE RITE???? Totally droolable especially when you see him act as the ultra adorable Prince Yool... But ah.. nothing beats the Crown Prince himself. He's not say very good looking on screen.. but nevertheless, he takes great photos. And i totally fall in love with the Crown Prince character. And i sooooo cannot take my eyes off him...

Seriously.

See See SEE!!! Totally cannot take my eyes off him. SO CUTE RITE????

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa.. Wat the hell is wrong with me?!?! *Pulls hair*

But seriously, i'm currently having a very odd group of eye candies. Its been around for quite awhile already.

Sheesh.

Its like all these Korean, japanese and people who are fair but not white (non-caucasians. duh!) are catching my eyes~!

And have you guys seen the this month's style magazine?! Where they interviewed Jonathan Leong? And there's like a 5pg spread of him in that clean cut look, shirt and jeans or formal looking pants.

OMG! SO CUTE SIA!!

Well i have this thing with guys wearing collared shirt and jeans.. Its like sooo nice to the eyes dont you think? Totally cant take your eyes away from them. Its like.. boyish, guyish but still kinda manly kinda thing rite?? I KNOW MAN! Cuteness V.7.8 sia.

But i digress. Again.

Where was i?

Oh yes, Style mag and jonathan leong's spread. he totally look like those mafia... like soo cute and mysterious.. WAHAHAHA!!!

Sheesh.. I better end this post, its like my bimbotic-ness running out of control. LOL!!

This is gonna be a post of sorts.

Let's start off with PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG~!!

The story of a legendary love.

I'm one of the first few people that owned the VCD of PGL the movie and watched it a thousand times that i've memories lines from the scenes.. but guess wat?!?!

I DIDNT MANAGE TO CATCH PUTERI GUNUNG LEDANG THE MUSICAL!

Thanks to the overwhelming response and the fact that the malaysian artistes all came to singapore to watch it again! GRRRR...

I tell you, when they gonna do it again in KL, i'll be there sia... ARGH! So angry. *stomps around*

But anywayz, the upcoming PHANTOM OF THE OPERA~!!

I WANNA WATCH!! And there's a show on 29.03.2006!! So most prob, i'll buy it as a b-day present for my mommy!!! wheeeeeeee... i better get it soon i suppose..

And this poster very cute rite? I know i've never really talked about my upcoming production with the Down Syndrome Association. But the poster above? That's my Down Syndrome Association show lor... So here's my update. LOL!

Tickets are out on Sistic at $25 & $35 and it'll be on the 16th December at Victoria Theatre. wahahaa..

and the girl in the picture? SO CUTE RITE? That's the Arassi i was talking about. heheheee.. Thats all for now for this post..

next post coming rite up!

PSLE results are out pple!

And my niece did quite well... wahahahha!!! all thanks to the brilliant tuition teacher... A.K.A ME! MUAHAHAHAHAHHA~!!!

Now where shall i go and treat her? oh wait.. she should treat me! Hurmph! But nvm, let's see when i shall bring her out... *ponders* wahahaha.. dont you just love having an aunt like me?? *grins angelically*

LOL!

I'm still at work! Yayness.

GUESS WHAT?

I'm sick AGAIN! That's like the umpteenth time i'm sick. ARGH! I'm so angry seh...

But then, my doc thinks that my work place is dirty and she hopes that i dont stay there for long or else i would have other kinda sickness coming my way especially its bad enough that i'm asthmethic.

But little does she know, and the rest for that matter...

I've tendered. hahahaha..

I HAVE YET TO POST PICS! lol..

ok ok.. lemme just post the pics from shaiful's open house.

Yellow Chair's 2006 Class Photo.

A Class photo that has to be taken after the Maths Teacher announced that everyone failed.

The class photo with the world's favorite teacher. LOL!

And of course, a class photo is never complete without a fun pic rite? wahahaha.. and of course we had fun eating and taking pics with yazid being the resident toyol appearing in nearly every photos..

But of course, THE PHOTO OF THE DAY AWARDS GOES TOOOOO.... *Drum Rolls*

HALIMAH OMAR!! FOR HAVING ONE OF THE MOST ORIGINAL EXPRESSIONS... kwang kwang kwang... LOL!!!

And mel fulfilled his itchiness of wearing a baju melayu and i seriously think we look like a bougainvilla plant in purple and green.. WAHAHHAHA

Went to meet azi after the open house and we went to city hall for some Ben & Jerrys~! YUM YUM! Yes! don't give that shock look... we go to town in traditional costumes.. cool aper.. lol.. rite rite rite? become centre of attraction.. very the happening yo! the outing i mean... lol! Went to marina square and ended up at the Airport... And so, the journey of the 3 royal best friends begins.

One fine day, the 3 royal best friends decide to meet up after a long while of not meeting up. 2 of them decided to drag the other one out after a national event. So off they went to meet at the royal carriage stop to ponder on their next destination.

They then decide to pamper themselves with some sugary sweet, mouth watering creamy ice cream from the well-known ice-cream maker named Ben & Jerrys in the City of Hall.

They then travelled down to the City of Suntec and went to Marina Square to greet the people as they usually do... They looked around for things to buy but sadly, nothing is befitting of their status and they proceed sadly to their carriage stop where they have decided to bully the royal friend who failed to attend the national event, Princess Az.

But of course, they do still love her.

Off they went to the country's airport to have a royal supper. Of course, it is not also prim and proper with these young prince and princesses. They do kick each other's butt in their free time...

But of course, such a picture will never miss the country's papparazzi rite? So the palace have no other choice other than to do some damage control again. As usual, they'll always give their angelic smiles and that will win the heart of the people again. How can the people ever resist such angels to rule over them one day rite?

Once they're full and the sky is getting darker... they took their final group picture. the young princesses and prince then went home to their respective castles and live happily ever after...

I'm so full of shit sia.. confirm too free.. other pics coming up after this post.

I could have never been more pissed than just now in the afternoon.

Seriously, i cant remember when was the last time i was THAT mad! argh.

I'm so tired... I've been leaving office at 8pm or maybe even later this entire week for various reasons...

TIRED LEH!! dont wanna go work on monday!!

Everyone who has bumped into me during lunch hour this week told me how tired and stressed i look sia.. i'm like.. WTF. STOP IT ALREADY!

very depressing leh pple.. you think i like issit? pple tell me i look tired? Smack you all then you know ah.. lol!~

Its finally friday.. and yes, i'm still awake. despite the fact that i'm already half asleep typing this!!! I cant believe this.. its like friday and i'm on my way to dreamland when the night is still young!!

but its ok.. i shall look on the bright side... i hope i look much much much better when tmr comes...

And my new look is coming soon! i totally cant wait for the new month! LOL~!

oh and another sidetrack, i think i've gained weight!

I'm depressed.

Period.

heee...

I'm surprisingly awake for someone's who's like damn tired man.

My eyes are like WIDE AWAKE! never before happen in history, esp considering what i did yesterday.

Reached home at 1am sia yesterday.

I dont understand..

why is it that i can go home at 1am when i'm out jalan raya with my friends but i cant go clubbing with my friends because i'll go home at the same time??

I still dont get it. Anyone who gets it, pls enlighten me.

but anywayz, i was out the WHOLE DAY YESTERDAY! Doesn't happen very often in the history of my life... i'm such an angel rite? hehehe

so where was i?

Oh yes.. out.

I went for fencing, duelling session, on sunday after being MIA as everybody puts it for a month... I still dunno why they make such a big fuss out of it...

but anywayz, there i was being forced to fence with like nearly everyone, 15pts each.. just as i thought that i could go home already, my dearest coach decided to start the friendlies then... i literally got a shock of my life..

Who wouldnt be sia, my t-shirt was already soaked!

*rolls eyes*

so yes.. i stayed till like 420pm like that despite getting slaughtered by countless pple.. before i told everyone that i really need to go off since i'm going for hari raya visiting.. i literally dumped my sandals, mask, suit, electric jacket and glove (did i dump my glove in there? i shall check later) in my bag and ran out of the place to the main road and flag a cab to go home to get ready for my jalan raya with the senoritas and its honorary members...

Reached home, bathe, made myself pretty and i was ready for deena to pick me up by 5pm.. talk about fast man.. i even made myself up within such a short time. By that i meant.. i actually put on make up and i was ready by 5.. wahahaha!! record time.

For those of you who didnt know or suspected but was never too sure. I was from a convent even though i know some pple say i dont look it.. but still i'm a convent girl. Ha. And yes, i do have some characteristics of them even though i've only been there through out my sec sch life.

But i digress.

Being in a convent, i dont have many malay friends. Madeena and Hidayah are my 2 closest of the closest malay friends.

So, what happened to the rest of my malay class you may ask?

WHAT MALAY CLASS? wahahaha..

during my 'o' level yr, the sec 4 & 5's were combined into one malay class.. and guess how many people were in there?

it came up to a WHOOPING 17 girls..

LOL~!!

out of which, only 7 were malays that were not so malays but nevertheless malay.

and the rest? my eurasian friends of course... Eurasian of every mix you can think of.. wahahhaha..

So ya, now you know how pathetic my sec sch jalan raya is rite? 3 of us.. but this yr, there's my 2 honorary members, Hally and Azi... hahahaha..

i'll definitely post up the pics soon..

5 doesn't mean its a quiet outing.. its soooo KECOH!!!

We went to each other's house and even one of my cousin's house who happened to have a open house where we met my uber cute nephew.. wahahhaa..

but of course 2 of the guys that were invited were not there.. like SHAHDON for example.

wahahahahahhaa...

The first 2 weeks of Hari Raya is over.

This yr's hari raya has been kind of a rush. It came without warning, a lot of pple aren't prepared for it and the next thing i know, around 2 weeks of it has passed.

I have yet to take pictures with my first day's baju raya...

But anywayz, lemme post up some pics with my cousins from malaysia..

We've all grown up. Each with their own distinct style. Each with their own trademark. Each with their own characteristic. Each with their own behaviour. But one thing's for sure, the bond we have with each other has and will never change.

I may not look like them, but they have always treated me as part of them, one of their sisters that happened to be here. We no longer fight the way siblings will. They never fail to make me laugh, they never fail to update me with their life.

Sometimes, a weekend is never enough. I'll upload some of the other informal pics that we've taken another time.

Another outing i've had within this hari raya month that was picture filled, was the open house at shaiful's house.

And since Blogger is not really co-operatin with me on this, i shall post that outing in another entry soon.

What can i do to make you mine?
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did i say? What did you do?
How did i fall in love with you?

What can i do to make you mine?
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's change, remember new
How did i fall in love with you?

Seriously, i have no idea why this song's been on loops on my comp, mp3 and in my head.

Beside the fact that its a BSB song.. but still. How did i fall in love with this song?

Hrmph!

Anywayz, i have like a million photos to upload here. I have so many things to update on here...

Its already wednesday, i'm already into my 2nd day of leave! argh. that was fast. its 4.20am.. its ok i shall not upload the photos here... i shall continue later when i'm awake.. HEHE!

i'm going fencing later. finally.

And because of the abovementioned, i have to go and sleep if not, confirm i will feel like vomitting during training. HEHEHE!

bye world. i shall upload pics later! i will even post the entire song up also.. WAHAHAHAHA

My weekend wa great!

Its monday already and i have yet ot get to bed.

Thanks for making my weekend great pple. I really truly appreciate it!

ITS SATURDAY!

I've never been more grateful in my life. WAHAHAH!

I think its a good thing that no one has seen me during the weekdays. Especially this week.

The first thing my mom said when she saw me after work at PS was this, "What happened to you? I cant remember the last time i see you this disoriented, like cannot take care of yourself."

I must have been amess. LOL!

But weekends are here!!!! i'm going out today...

I'm so happy.. sha la la.. it so nice to be happy... sha la la..

heheheeee

*Sings out loud*

I AM STRONGER THAN YESTERDAY! NOTHING'S GONNA GET IN MY WAY! MY LONELINESS AIN'T KILLING ME NO MORE!!!

I.... AM... STRONGER!!!!!!!!


Muahahahhahaa!!!!

Stupid shit has to say that he's tired.

Now, i'm guilty to give it.

Bloody fark. Later he heart attack down there, i'm the one difficult wat.

Menyusahkan orang ah. (Make pple difficult)

Serve me right for being toooo nice.

Its cold here at work.

Or maybe, its just me.

and i didnt bring my inhaler.

shit. This is gonna be one long day.

People always say that when you work, you wont think of the stupidest things in your lives. You wouldn't be wasting your life away and at least you're doing something worthwhile instead.

How many of you agree with the abovementioned statement? Please raise your hands.

*Looks around*

hmmm Seems like not many agree to it. Or maybe, its because of the fact that most of my readers are youngsters.

It sounds like something a parent would say isnt it? Something that i know my mom once said.

But when you're working, you'll know what it feels like seriously.

And people like me, would dread it.

Don't you get it?

I can give you thousands of reasons why i hate (Ok fine, hate is toooo strong a word) dread work... but i'll just give you 10 for now... LOL!

1. When you're at work you keep doing the same things over and over again you'll wonder when it'll end

2. When you're at work you'll wonder how long you'll be staying here

3. When you're at work you realise that the already cleared table is not cleared again

4. When the superior just pisses you off because of stupid things

5. When you're at work.. you work till late by the time its time to leave you'll just go straight home and the cycle repeats itself the next day

6. Your social circle grows smaller especially with no.5 in place.

7. You're too tired to think about your future coz, you've been thinking the whole day by the time you leave you'll just switch off.

8. Because of No. 7, you realise that 5 yrs might have passed and you'll still be at the exact same spot you were 5 yrs ago.

9. You end up doing things alone after work, coz it gets done faster when you go by yourself and then you rush home to sleep

10. When you work, you're out every single day, you get pissed with things sometimes and there are times you wanna just die of boredom and when weekends arrive you prefer to lock yourself in your room and bundle yourself up in the blankets and sleep till late afternoon.

11. When you actually have an outside activity you do after work, you'll just do it and then you go home and the cycle repeats itself on the same day every week.

Ooops. I've overshot. lol.

Its not that i will reject going out.. but you know.. these are the things you do nearly everyday in your life. Its not as if everyday you'll go out rite?

Lol.

Sadded.

I've made up my mind. Just get me outta here.

If it could rain so heavily today,

so could the tears.

WHAT IS EFFING WRONG WITH ME?!?!

Why does the tears come ever so easily?
Why is it that when i need a ear you've disappeared?
Why on earth do i worry so much? Over everything?
Why on earth can't i feel things when i'm asked to.. but when i'm alone everything else tumbles around me?
Why is it that when i need a hug you're not around?
Why isn't everything easy?
Why can't everything disappear when i reopen my eyes?
Why are there so many choices to be made?
and finally, i'm asking this... Why am i burying myself in solitude?

WHY WHY WHY?!

Maybe leaving my life would be the best idea. But would i be able to endure it by myself is another different story altogether.

I hate being ignored. Like everyone, i'll definitely feel unwanted.

Maybe feeling what i'm feeling is not worth it. Maybe, i'm just wasting my time.

Sidetrack: My internet's back! i'm over the moon...Do you know i feel deprived without it? its like.. the weekend, and i cant even talk to the people i haven't spoken to or meet in ages. I miss them and i definitely need an outlet.

Sadded.

Its there for the past week.

The pain is literally making me tired.

For someone who seemed fine on the outside, everything else seems wrong.

Blockage, nauseous, stuffy. I feel shitty.

Counting the days, i've realised that i've been sick for more than 2 months already.

Now, instead of not being able to remember when was the last time i'm sick.. I cant remember when was the last time i'm well.

When you stand, you feel like falling. When you walk, you feel like throwing up. When you breathe, you'll feel needles poking thru your heart.

*prays*
Please don't let whatever happened before happened again. I can't bear to see her worrying all over again.

My home internet connection is screwy.

I cant blog or chat in the comfort of my own home.

How sad.

Aiyah. I'm sick of this la.

2 decades of living.

and nothing interesting has yet to happen other than the fact that my colleagues are being very sweet coz, they have decided to have a mini celebration for me during lunch.

Pizza has just arrived.

*faints*

Special thanks to those who wished me.

In order, my thanks goes to...

1. Nur - My cute niece who msged me last night.. wahahaha

2. Azi - Who messaged me somewhere at midnight.. wahahaha..

3. Mel - Thanks for the 530am birthday message ah.. *rolls eyes* Luckilly i was sleeping like a log.. if not i would have strangled him already. WAHAHAH!! but anywayz, the msg was greatly appreciated.

4. Suk Ching - Where have you been!? I havent seen you in the longest time yo!

5. Mawar - My cousin who's in Malaysia who is like exactly a year older than me. Yup her b-day's today too!!


MAWAR!! HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!


Ok i forgot whether i gave her my blog address or not... wahahha.. i was just about to ask her what she wants since she's coming this friday.. WAHAHAH..


Marini a.k.a Baby - My other cousin who's coming this friday. Her b-day's on Saturday..

So to this 6 pple.. Thank you very much..

And of course to my aunt who gave me like 2 times more raya collection. WAHAHAHHA!!

Sidetrack: I think i'm having stomachache and I'm hungry.

tsk tsk tsk..

Oh and have i mentioned?!

I'm sooo tired!

WAHAHAHAHAHA

And the rest who wished me after i've posted this post. THANKS!!

Its 4.11am and it marks the 1st day of Hari Raya.

And yes, i'm still awake.

I've been trying to connect to the net from midnight just now but my connection's been failing me.

You know, for the past 4 yrs, i fell sick on the first day of Hari Raya.

This year is no difference. Only that I fell sick yesterday.

You know, in a span of 2 mths i've fallen sick THREE TIMES!

shit man.

Maybe i'm dying? Ok i foresee afew people saying,"Stop Talking Rubbish Nad!" lol.

You know how guilty i feel? not being able to help my mom in the preparation and cleaning of the house and whatnots. And this is like the first time since i can remember that at 4am of hari raya, my mom is awake and we've just finished arranging flowers.

My cousins driving in from Malaysia this coming Friday. I'm looking forward to that.

Coz,
1. Its a friday. Duh! Who doesn't look forward to that?

2. I've not seen one of my cousins in the longest time.

I wonder who's coming tmr. Its the first day of hari raya and i don't think i have any plans for the day. Maybe i shall ask Siok Lan whether she wanna come over and eat since she's been hinting that to me for the past year.

Anyone else wanna come over tmr? LOL.

My Baju Kurung this yr is Turqoise.

I wonder whether this yr's hari raya will be any different. I'm turning 20 soon and I wonder will there be any change in my life for that as well.

I'm curious.

Oh and I've not gone for fencing for 2 trainings, my sir is confirm gonna nag and make noise if he thinks that i've gained weight. Which I HOPEFULLY don't think so. I'll definitely strangle myself if that happened.

I don't wanna be fat anymore!! *Rolls on the floor laughing*

I'm sucha contradiction. LOL!

My internet connection's screwing up again! ARGH! I shall try again tmr i suppose.

Oh and since its hari raya and all, before my internet connection goes haywire again..

I will take this opportunity to wish all muslims out there SELAMAT HARI RAYA.

And to all of my friends, regardless of race and religion, I'd like to ask for forgiveness for anything wrong that i might have done to you guys, be it on purpose or otherwise... OK? wahahhaa.. and since this is such a great month, being Hari Raya and all.. better forgive me ok?? WAHAHAHA..

And anything i might do after this, just continously forgive me till end of this month.. and anything that continues after that... just bring forward to next yr la ok!? wahahahha...

Love you all and i miss you guys. To all, Come my house ok?! And and and.. Jalan raya anyone?

"Why is it that everytime i close my eyes and all i see is you? Its only been a short while since we last met. Or maybe its just been too long for me?"

My rehearsals with DSA has taught me alot of things!

I've met a girl the past few rehearsals.

What we lack in, they definitely have excess of it.

I swear she's an angel.

An angel who's always aware if my day is down. An angel who could literally make my day just by a hug. An angel that can make me smile just by a kiss even though i come from a really tiring day.

Once i reach rehearsal, i'll have a girl running to me and giving me a bear hug before planting a kiss on my cheek or rather showering me with kisses. LOL.

Arassi's her name.

Today she came to me and sat on my lap, hugged me like a koala and kissed my cheeks. She started showering me with little kisses last week. I was definitely shock at first, but after awhile i got used to it.

She's sweet, cute and angelic. Her hugs & kisses literally made my saturday evenings unforgettable.

But i digress.

She came to me today and sit in my lap and hugged me and kissed my cheek and kissed my ear which send me into fits of giggles and making her stop doing that was obviously in vain. She has definitely found one of my ticklish spots. *faints*

I finally got her to stop after i kissed her cheek. In return, i got the sweetest of smiles from her. My heart literally melted.

She continued sitting in my lap hugging me until i told her that i have to go for my rehearsal. She refused to let me go until i promised her that i will hug her after she finished her rehearsals and i've finished mine.

Then she just looked at me with the cutest of eyes and her chubby little hands caressed my cheek and she whispered in my ear, "I love you. You know that? Please don't forget that i love you" and she kissed my cheek again before hopping away for her rehearsals.

And once again my heart melted for that little girl.

I'll take a picture with her soon and post it up here.

I'm in one of my worst friday moods ever.

Seriously!

Its friday. Its the festive season and/or weekend.

And i'm at work.

How great is that? very.

So ya. I'm currently in my friday moods only you multiply that by 1000.

That'll be my friday mood today!

wahahahhahahahaha.

I'm feeling much better today. My 5-day long headache is gone!!!! YAY!!!

*sings* HAPPY! SHA LA LA! ITS SO NICE TO BE HAPPY! SHA LA LA!

The only downside is that the superior is still around.

BOO HOO HOO!

I'M PISSED.

Period.

Welcome to my world and my job.

Maggie: "Remember what i always tell you? Somedays are sunshine and somedays are rainy, but we must always try to be...."

Danny: "Happy everyday"

Somehow, i've been forcing myself to repeat that line over and over again in my head today and my script seemed to have more meaning than my life these past few days.

My ear's in pain, i have no idea why.

And i shall refrain myself from cursing. Period.

*chants to self* I shall not be in a foul mood today. I shall not be in a foul mood today. I shall not be in a foul mood today. I shall not be in a foul mood today. I shall not be in a foul mood today. I shall not be in a foul mood today. I shall not be in a foul mood today... *fades away*

I'm bloody tired.

I swear i'm freaking PMS-ing today.. or rather this whole week..

I'm so impatient with every tom dick and harry that crosses my path... I couldnt really be bothered who i'm talking to really.

Seriously, i need a break.

From the following of course:-

1. my routined life.
2. my hectic lifestyle.
3. everything else that bugs me.

basically, just my life i suppose.

I swear i've made up my mind. I'm actually feeling a little happier.

Suddenly the air seemed so fresh despite the haze, my mind seemed so clear despite the splitting headache i'm suffering from yesterday.

Maybe coz, freedom is looming near?

Do i really dread it that much?

Do i?

Maybe its just that i want so much more than this. Definitely much more.

OH GOD!

I'm at work now with a splitting headache.

ARGH!

How i wish i can just curl up in my chair and sleep till its time to leave. I've never been so worn out in the longest time.

I WANNA GO HOME!! *screams*

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On a brighter note,

There's so many things i wanna watch!

1. Cheek - Sounds interesting. For those in DT they should know her. Jean Ng, the drama instructor from last yr's coregroup and my current director will be acting in this show. Will be staged at the Drama Centre Black Box on 26th October. Ticket prices are reasonable.

2. Notre Dame De Paris - Now, THAT ONE! i really wanna watch!!! Its like the set seemed soooo IMPRESSIVE!! and i'm curious what its gonna be like in Indoor Stadium and all.. but the ticket prices are like.. *faints* Standard - S$298, S$198, S$158, S$118, S$68.. NOooo!!

3. Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical - THIS ONE ALSO I WANNA WATCH!! It'll be at Esplanade Theatre and the ticket prices are:

Standard - S$95, S$65, S$45, S$35
VIP Box - S$95

*wiggles eyebrow* This one confirm watch one.. WAHAHHAHA!!!

4. Legend Alive Online: Mama Looking For Her Cat - Now, this play is like the most interesting thing that could ever happen. Wahahha.. its like a combination between stage and cyber space.. and the cast? its from singapore, vienna and austria! The director is like.. DAMN NICE la.. Now, how did i know so much about this? Coz, i would have gotten a role in it if... if... if... I COULD SING! *pulls hair* i don't care.. i'm gonna go and get myself a vocal trainer. HRMPH! But i still dunno why they need me to sing... its not as if its a musical.. or maybe.. they just dont like me! *stomps around* The tickets are affordable at Esplanade Theatre Studio and it sounds interesting enough for me to check it out.. so ya.. we'll see..

5. The Phantom of The Opera - now this one can KIV. Since, its in March next yr. WAHAHAHA!!

Ok i better get back to my work.

Will blog again later.

"Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone."

Haiz.

Hari Raya's coming pple! my house is painted! well, most of it anywayz.

Oh ya. Went for Magus Luna on Saturday. The 2nd Magus Luna in the history of DramaTec. Well, i hope Magus Luna will always be around. hahaha..

Now, Magus Luna brought fond memories to me. I mean don't you get it? I remembered when we did Magus Luna I. It was definitely an experience. Like a dream you can never forget.

Fairytales.

That's the theme for Magus Luna this yr.

Let's see... I dunno what to say about it really.. hahaha..

Anywayz, to the girls of 3 wishes. Well done! It actually came as a surprise for me that you guys stayed to the roles that were given during your "audition". But you guys were good. Don't doubt that. You stayed true to the essence of your role.

There were colourful costumes, colourful characters.

oh ya, there was a particular cat and unicorn that i saw during the Magus Luna even though they didnt particularly looked like a unicorn or a cat. I would rather not say what they looked like.. wahahha.. but i've heard that there were people who mistook the cat for a monkey and the unicorn as... hmmm.. that one.. i dunno.. hahaha~!!

The both of them was cute la... too bad we didn't get to have supper yest eh? Maybe next time?!

I dunno what else to say about Magus Luna II. Hmmmm..

Anywayz, it was great seeing the juniors again and some others. I do hope to see you guys again soon. LOL!

Something someone said to me on that faithful saturday night about us, i will never forget. Rite Hally?
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On other topics, I didn't go to work today. THAT WAS LIKE YAY! wahahhaa... well, i had slight asthma today.. but i could still go to work if i really wanted to.. but then my mom saw how tired i was and she forced me to go to the doctor and get an MC for myself. Which i did. Gladly. hahahhaa..

Anywayz, my idea has solidified. My decision has been made. I'm not gonna stay long and that's that.

I think i'd be happier without it. Period.
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You know, I have this feeling that i'm currently unstable. I'm not gonna make any other decisions after this.

I'm young. I'm gonna live it my way.
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I need to iron my clothes for work tmr.

And pack my stuff.

I have a photoshoot tmr after work.

Shit.

Its definitely gonna be one long night.

Haiz.

HARI RAYA'S COMING!

My house is gonna look like a grape! really! don't believe me later Hari Raya come over la.. hahahaha..

I have yet to paint my murals...

Tmr's gonna be a pack day! I'm actually looking forward to it.

I'm meeting my partner at Bencoolen St... NAFA tmr at 12.

Have to be at Bishan at 230

Meeting my designers at 445

Watching Magus Luna II at 730

yerp. Tmr's gonna be a packed day.

But i cant wait though. I havent seen some pple in the longest time and tmr's the time i'll see most of them. hahahaa..

Will blog more once i'm more awake.

*boogies ard*


Why are tears always at the edge threatening to fall?

I need help badly and soon.

Seriously.

I've never been so confused and guilty before.

haiz.

*Somebody saveeee meeeeee*

I can't get you outta my head...

I keep thinking about it.. its giving me sleepless nights.

I have to stop it... But i can't seem to put it away...

I shouldn't have acknowledged it that much...

Now, its me who's stuck with it...

How i wish the impossible is possible. How i wish things are not what it seemed. How i wish i did not stumble upon it.

There's only so much the heart can take.

And there's only so much the heart can hide.

What if it spills? What if it revealed itself?

Without my consent.



Mungkinkah?

Inilah citra cahaya cinta.

i wanna blog..

there's so many things to say...

but...

i'm blank rite now...

haiz...

anywayz, why do i get worried over things that i shouldn't be worried over?

maybe i should not blog for now..

THE HAZE IS A BITCH!

Thank god for the NEL line that i take everyday to work that i'm spared from the haze outside half the time.. I don't even know what's the condition like outside till the time that i go home and i need to cross the overhead bridge to the train station.

But that also like 5mins only.

Wednesday, when i had training, that wasn't bad.. coz, my mom's partner picked me up from training and send me home.. so i was sparred of the pollution in the air. AGAIN.

But i wasn't about to get lucky the second time round. Friday came. I met Hally & Shahdon. We went shopping. And then ran into Shaiful coz Don & Shai was going to watch a movie.

Walked outside. And then the Haze got to me. I started coughing. And coughing and coughing.

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And i shall stop for now coz i'm pissed with my grandmother..

I'm bloody pissed. I'm going out of the house... before i'm going to quarrel with her big time.

i'll be back later.