14/07/07

We met up with the rest of the group for Tania's Bday after our Movie at PS. Yup yup! Only then did we start camwhoring! LOL!!!!!!!

Mel was being the resident toyol cozzzz... we were trying to exclude him from our pics! WAHAHAH!!! This one no so bad you know.. you guys should see all the other toyol pics. lol!

I have gorgeous friends! LOL! We have great style, We're undeniably gorgeous, we take gorgeous photos and we're a group!! Wahahaha.. We're definitely Gorgeousness.com.

Sorry Senoritas, i have to use the gorgeousness.com for azi, mel and i instead. LOL! Since we have to many nicks for ourselves.

We took group photos after dinner... I can't really remember where is it... China Square? Or is it Far East Square?

The guys took a group photo and pple just look at their pose; their hands and the way they sit! LOL!! its ALL THE SAME! the wonders of army huh?? lol!

Here's the girls.. soo pretty hor we all?!?! And i like Tania's Mickey Tee... I should really got o M Industries one day to indulge myself! *Boogies about*

Here's the whole group.... Really like one class outing rite? LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So we walked around raffles place after that allowing dinner to digest and we ended up at esplanade... lol! I didn't stay that late.. left at about 1130pm... Too sleepy... lol!! the rest were still together till about 6am!

And the final picture of this entry goes to.........................

Me and mel of course... heee...

Don't we just look good? WAHAHAHAA

I had a really really long Saturday...

YCP. Movie. Harry Potter. Raffles Place. Law. Birthday. Esplanade. Conversations. Train Rides. Walking around. Camera. Pictures. Flashes. Sitting around. Sleeping.

Saturday seemed to fly pass in a blur... wahahhaa.. basically, that's the summary of my Saturday...

Rehearsals went well... I, however, freaked out when i saw the pictures of the stage. Hmmm... will have to revamp it soon... We'll finalise the revamping after 21st July, ok?

Rushed to PS after that to catch Harry Potter. Wheeee... I expected prolonged fight scenes can!!! But ok la... the movie not bad... I think Luna Lovegood is cute! wahahahah.. I like her character and her acting... Oh and she's pretty... lol!

Met the rest at Raffles Place for Tania's bday... We ate a Warung Lele... I was so hungry by then cannot think straight lor... After that i got high on lime juice... LOL! Mel witnessed it! I think he got high on lime juice too!!

We ended up being tourist guides to each other with no sense of directions...

WAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Took lots of pics... and the group ended up at Esplanade of which i was already sleepy by then...

I've not met them in the longest time...
And I met my darling that day after 2 weeks... lol!

My apologies to Azi... I know most of the time, the both of us like in a world of our own... And when we weren't, i was too sleepy... I was like dozing off at esplanade main hall area there when the guys are talking! LOL!

So when are the 3 of us going out again? My Chanel shades with you!!!!!!!

So dear, Saturday was the occassion? heee. And it was the first time i actually told you that face to face wasnt it? *Grins*

Met up with Kin and Don yesterday to watch Asian Boys Vol. 3; Happy Endings.

The script's real good... Damn witty.

Highly disturbing but its good nevertheless.

It was definitely real...

And Lim Kay Siu's voice is... FUYOH! lol!

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I don't know wat else to write about... I might be meeting Azi later... Will be meeting Hally in the evening... Hopefully get to meet my cousin in the process...

Its been so long since i last met Hally!!

and I miss my mel!!!

My cousin is FINALLY back only to be leaving again in about 2 -3 weeks time!!!

I have yet to get Rohaidah's b-day present!!! Which reminds me... i need to go out with her some time next week before her birthday... Since i'm her image consultant she says...

*faints*

I really should consider making a career out of this. lol!

"I wanna heal

I wanna feel

What I thought was never real..."

I wonder how's azi's surviving in her new job... lol! I hope she's having fun... *prays hard for azi*

This screen has been on since 12.43pm just now.. and it is now 3.41pm.


LOL!!!


Its now 5.12pm and I am still on my 4th line! This is pathetic. Seriously.


I was reading through my archives today and I realised a lot of things happened eversince i started this blog huh? LOL!


Poly was definitely eventful.

"Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
you know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn"

The girls told me that they were reading my past entries some time last month and they're just amazed at the things we do... Wahahaha.. yes... we do read each others' past entries and other people's past entries... its just funny sometimes seeing the person grow right in front of you.

"We're in our world
Our very own
Sharing a love that only
Few have ever known"

I don't like my star sign. I'm a scorpio. What's sooo good about being scorpios? The only thing nice enough to hear about Scorpios are that they're loyal. The worst? They're a jealous bunch. Lol! I used to be those fiercely jealous kind... But i guess i grew up... Even though you know... There will always be some form of jealousy within me for various things, things that happened before or just other general stuff... Hey, its only human nature to be jealous.

Sometimes, only when you're jealous then you realise how much some thing means to you... correct?

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mindIf you give me the chance
I will never make you cry, c'mon let's try

I shouldn't look back some times... i should just look what the future has in store for me... Sometimes, looking back brings unnecessary emotions... But I can't help it sometimes... Comparisons are inevitable and you sometimes wonder about it unconsciously...

If you had my love and I gave you all my trust would you comfort me
Tell me baby
And if somehow you knew that your love would be untrue would you lie to me
And call me baby

Deena feels that project NPF might take place some time next year seeing how things might go with me... She seems more optimistic about it than i do.. yes yes, i hope it happens alrite? We've postponed it for 6 years already rite? LOL!!

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?
What I got to go to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

2.5 years of poly life flew past and i didn't realise it... Some things just never change huh? through out those years in poly... I knew something began and did not change... lol!

I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
I'm standing here all along

To the senoritas, BE STRONG. Don't let whatever conversation that took place yesterday between you and your partners bring you down. Stay strong gurlies... I'll be here for you guys ok?! Don't worry... i can handle both of you one! lol...

Minding my business, I was doing my thing
Got my attention, so I gave him a chance (Wait a minute)
Did I mention he was buying a bar?
Gave him my number, he was trying so hard (Wait a minute)
Bought me some things I didn't want, didn't need
Dropped down his jeans like
I'm supposed to drop to my knees (Wait a minute)
He been blowing up my phone like he know me
Been leaving messages "You know what you owe me" (Wait a minute)

and these are the songs taken from past entries... Something that definitely contributes to this entry without me having to write it all out... If you're clever enough... you'll know! lol!!

Dancin bears,
painted wings,
things i almost remember,
and a song someone sings,
Once upon a december

Memories are forever huh? *Grins*

Something's really wrong with my home ie. I can go to Blogger's website... but i can't seem to log in... Like wat the rite??

So the past few days i was frust with something cannot let out lor! Win already....

Point 1:

Somehow, no matter how hard i try not to be involved. I will be pulled in one way or another.

Point 2:

Things seem to be looking up.

Point 3:

I don't know what's holding me back. Maybe Suk Ching knows. What you think?

Point 4:

I need a hand massage, the blue black on the back of my hand is painful!

Point 5:

I'm famous. Really! Or rather... we're famous. I never knew my life had an audience. Well ok, i know of some... but the rest? Totally unexpected.

Point 6:

This is very random but i can't seem to find my IC.

Point 7:

My table is the messiest it has ever been and i intend to leave it like that when i leave unless of course i dump some stuff on my boss' table. It is 6.51 now. hmmmm....

Point 8:

I'm on my way to being a Paralegal in this firm... not complaining but wth. Time to demand i suppose.

Point 9:

I have yet to book the Adelaide Hotels... Reminder to self: Better book it tomorrow before she asks me about it again.

Point 10:

I need a break. Anyonecan spend it with me? Please tell me... I wanna take a whole day off and the person will have to spend it with me the WHOLE day...

The journey of 7 began on 07/07/07...

Woke up to the beeping of my message tone... Thanks for the message, if not, i wouldn't be awake for fencing since it was soooo dark and raining...

Was sitting on my bed trying to gain my bearings, when i realised what the date was today... it was 070707.

I've always been fascinated with such dates you know... Only that this year, not only was i fascinated, i noticed that there was a coincidence to it. A significance which someone was a little dense to realise in the morning when i sent out a message. lol!

When realisation hits, its kinda surreal. Its quite hard to believe that i'm actually laughing to myself thinking about it..

I'm having a major headache.

Azi thinks i look haggard. THANKS EH!

i'm damn tired!!!

I'm gaining my stamina slowly.... bit by bit... I hope i'm able to do it... *prays hard*

I WANNA WATCH TRANSFORMERS AGAIN!

Ok.. i just wanna watch movie... lol!

I WANNA GO PICNIC!!!!

I need a break la... haiz.

I've been promoted!!

To the coffee girl (-,-)"~~!!!

Our clients from Japan and US's here... So yeah, yesterday, me and my colleague was washing all the necessary stuff (i forgot what's the word for it had it in my head a few minutes ago), tea cups, glasses, top up the mineral water, plates, small plates and all that...

So i came to work today (was late btw even though mel gave me a wake up call this morning - thanks for that dear!) in formal attire WITH my fencing equipments, rushed to my cubicle dump my stuff, switched my comp on and rushed to the pantry where i found Maswati.

She's the other colleague who was washing the stuff with me yesterday...

So i found her in the pantry, filling in the flask with hot water and then attempting to make coffee...

I tell you, her coffee, SO DILUTED!! SO i made her put more and more and more and so our pantry was filled with the aroma of freshly brewed brazillian coffee (Actually, it was just Nescafe). lol!

We then proceed to bring everything upstairs into the Boardroom and put everything there.

Anyone who has worked with me before will realise that i am quite particular with certain things, arrangment of some stuff and things like...

We arranged the cookies on the plate, it was as though Hari Raya came early or wat la...

I was upgraded again as well as hinting for pay raise... LOL!!

From PA to Coffee Girl and now? I'm F&B Manager as well as in charge of Catering Services...

2 promotions in one day! Who can beat that you tell me?

Oh well.. I guess that's expected of the PA isn't it? To make sure the outcome of things is like... up to her expectations... if not confirm will get into trouble rite? LOL!

So yeah... I'm actually quite proud of my Coffee Making Skills!

I shall put that into my resume in case change job and you know, work in Coffee Bean instead. At least i already have experience in that field... *rolls eyes*

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Anywayz Mel, Hope everything's gonna be fine! *hugs*

I can't believe this.

The internet connection chose 6.15pm to give me problems!

I AM PISSED!!!

I'm still in the office and its 7.05pm... typing emails which I CANT SEND OUT~!!!!!!

This is so frustrating... and i have a dinner appointment at 7! like fark ah...

First, people give me work only at 6pm...

I guess age is a huge factor. *rolls eyes*

Secondly, THIS?!

I did something yesterday...

Not THAT shocking, but shocking nevertheless for anyone who thinks that its the last thing i'll do... Truthfully, i've been thinking about it for the longest time ever... So what better opportunity than yesterday?

Its about time, yest was a little too soon but hey, it came through my door. Yes, it definitely is the right time. I was alittle worried after it but i needed it before it reaches a crucial stage in various areas of my life. so yeah! =)

Fell asleep yesterday still worrying, woke up today and i knew i did the right thing.

Even though i'm broke much much earlier in the month than May 2007, its ok... there's really nothing i can do about it other than enjoy it... lol! No, I did not get my phone. It will have to wait for another mth or two...

So what exactly did i spend my money on?

That... is my little secret for now.

*angelic grins*

Went on a movie marathon with my girlfriend on Saturday. Don't mind watching it again though!! Totally lurvin' it. lol!!


Went out of the country to go to a fruit farm in Johor on Sunday. Didn't go for Fencing that day. waaa!!!

Pine-apper... Olange... Soursoap... Soogacane... Dulian...

Oh, the wonders of Singlish and talking to aunties and uncles. My mom told me to behave myself... Coz, i started teasing everyone, speaking the way they do... and they're obviously oblivious to it!

*faints*

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There's so many things that i feel like saying but i can't seem to put things out right.

I don't know where to start.

My mind's been a mess this past few days... And i keep remembering and repeating so many things.

Things that make me smile endlessly, there's also the ones that just make me stare out in space in fear and there's always the bitter sweet moments.

Money's not everything in this life. Money's not the thing to make my world go round. Its a necessity but is it a form of happiness?

There's still some stuff, like this other person i know, that i'm uncomfortable. I would like to show or say out the things i feel. But why am i hesitating? The fear of being teased later on? Maybe. We each take our time opening up to people, I'm sure this is the same. Well at least i think it is for me.

When the feeling is intense, i wonder where did it come from? I'm both loving it as well as afraid of it. Its scary for me to feel it. Maybe you know the answer? Care to enlighten me?

How did i learn to love you so much?

There's many ways one can reprimand a person. Getting screamed at in the middle of the night is one way. However, its definitely not highly recommended. Why bother answering and explaining yourself when one has made up their mind on the entire situation rite?

The sea was calm and therapeutic today.

TGIF!

Its friday, its friday... La la.. La la...

BUT, I'M WORKING TOMORROW!!!

Argh. But its ok.. tmr's the 5th Saturday of the month! Which means, we'll have company activity... So tmr's activity is Bowling! Confirm got competition one tmr.... WAhahhaha...

Sidetrack: I should be going bowling with my mom more often to fully utilised my ball...

Hmmmm.. My dearest boyfriend has been refusing countless times everytime i suggested to go bowling! Nvm nvm... i shall find other means of making him go bowling with me... *Evil laughs*

Confirm fun! I've always had very fun bowling outings with my friends, the senoritas as well as the fencers. Not everyone knows how to bowl also... heeeeeeee... So can ah can ah can ah??

The 3 of us should go bowling one of these days just to have fun... heeeee... Confirm got alot of blackmail worthy pictures one... lol!!

PWEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

And i'm very sure he knows I wanna take the ferris wheel once its up and running... which i will make him come along with me... hehehhehee...

Anywayz, i'll be catching a movie with deena after work and I don't know whether am i still meeting azi and nuraini for dinner...

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Its friday and its just 10.01 am! Lol... eh the timing like very nice ah..

10.01 -> look like some face like that...

And i can't wait for it to end. HAHAHHA! 8 hours more to go before i'm outta here!!! wahahaha...

But then again, not say i'm going home also... i'll be meeting Shahdon at the Esplanade library later... And i think i'm gonna come down with a sore throat...

Sadded.

Dreaming with eyes wide open~!

I'm so tired i could just fall asleep anywhere.

Gosh.

I'm a walking zombie. I wanna take leave to stay at home and sleep. But cannot leh, my leaves so limited, i have to keep it for other emergencies such as:

1. Fencing Competitions
2. Productions
3. Holiday / Trip with friends (now, that has yet to materialise)

My brain is not really registering stuff... I'm quite stoned.

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Yest, had a conversation with Mama. The topic of my grandmother materialised. Mama just made a comment of how it seemed that she (grandma) seemed to be more old fashioned now than before.

And that obviously kicked off the topic of conversation. As i've suspected all along, it was my grandmother that has been putting the pressure on my mom whenever i come back late.

It seemed that Mama's fine with me going back late as long as informed her and also as long as i know my limits (i.e. not doing it too often).

Grandmother has concluded that i needed a father figure in my life to drill in the disciplinary stuff into me.

What my dear grandmother doesn't realise is that, what if i do get a father figure and if this person in question happens to trust me alot and believe that i am responsible enough to take care of myself and then gives me the permission to come home at 3am... Then wat?

She can't say anything to that now can she? Since she thinks that only a man can exercise disciplinary actions into my life and that's the only way for me to come back early. Once the exact opposite happens? I don't think i'd want to imagine what would happen...

Lol. Even though I think it is quite hilarious just thinking about it.

I shall stop visualizing her expression if that kinda situation do arise. LOL!

Stop being mean nad stop it! and stop entertaining evil thoughts! LOL!!!!

I'm at work trying to adjust my letterhead.

And as a sidetrack: I'd like to tell all you people that... MY PHONE CANNOT SCROLL DOWN! So irritating i tell you!

Random Moment: Ooooohhh, i just found post its in my blazer pocket... i wonder what is it doing there?! *wonders for awhile*

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My blue black that i got from Q.Y on sunday, it has turned an ugly dark dark purple!

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Had training yesterday. I was angry with myself. Very angry. I was disappointed with my performance during training. I couldn't take the strain yesterday... I couldn't even hold on that long.

My stamina has gone down the drain and i was very pissed off. By the end of training, i was ready to cry. My stamina has disappeared. The stamina which I got back from fencing nearly every single day last year, has disappeared.

I thought to myself, what happened? Last year, i was working too... then i realised, i was working somewhere else.

Yes, maybe i was being too hard for myself. But i can't help it. Your coach is there knowing how much more you're capable of and there you are not being able to match up to it. He's motivating you all the way and you can't seem to push yourself any further. Deep down inside, you know, you could have done it.

Maybe i shouldn't have reduced my trainings. I should just go back to 3 - 4 times of fencing in a week. But I'm so worried i can't commit to it due to work schedule. Everyone knows how shitty my schedule is.

I was de-moralised. I can't believe i performed as i did yesterday. I need to gain back my stamina and i need to get it back soon. I could not get my instant recover to chase my opponent. I WAS SO FRUSTRATED!

Coach reminded me to start re-doing my shuttle run. I need the short bursts of energy. That's the only way my body could withstand training. Long distance training is fine, but the speed and short bursts training are more crucial.

Right now, my long distance is fine. In other words, i could endure the long hours of training, the arm training, the movements... But, I CANT HANDLE MY SPEED TRAINING! My anerobics is like shit. argh!

Seeing my performance yesterday, i didn't even dare ask my coach whether i should join the Fencing Singapore International. Matt will definitely kill me if he finds out I might actually be backing out of my decision of joining FSI taking place in the mid of July.

ARGH.

Then I realised something else, SEA Games is at the end of this year. Out of the many reasons that i have for putting my studies on hold, Fencing was and still is one of it, coz i've let it go because of school once, i'm not going to let it go again.

I've realised that deep down, competitive fencing is something that i wont want to let go.

ARGH.

Yes yes, i know, my priorities are kinda screwed up rite now. lol! Its time to take things back in your control and get serious all over again Nad!

This entry will be a post filled with very random points.

I totally enjoyed my Saturday.

I nearly died of shock in the movie theatre.

I still have not gotten a satisfactory answer... I'm waiting... lol.

I enjoyed dinner at Swensens.

I had fencing on Sunday.

I won a total of 4 bouts out of 7 and 2 of the winning bouts, i won 5 - 0.

I turned violent in my direct elimination round thanks to my opponent.

He took Chambarra (the japanese martial arts / sword play) and you know how Japanese kill rite? You slash across the body and come back in to slash the legs off.

Basically, he whacked my thigh. I wasn't wearing my breeches. I was only in my normal shorts. My instant reaction was to scream. Who wouldn't? You just got whipped by a metal rod and mind you, guys strength are not exactly very gentle you know.

No matter how hard a girl whack, its definitely not as bad as a guy lor. Guess what i said next? wahahaha... "You're so gonna regret that... or rather, i'm gonna make you regret that"

The guys was like... "He's dead" WAHAHAHHAH!!! Yes. I was pissed. You should have heard the whipping sounds from my blade. My blade's really light and its very easy to flick, swing and kill. So ya. I even thought to myself, i wouldn't mind breaking my blade as long as he got enough souvenirs from me.

Yes. I taught him a lesson. And he's conclusion? I'm violent.

Please lor. I only turn violent when provoked. That was definitely a grave and sudden provocation. Even the law will be on my side. lol!!! Other than that i'm usually a perfect angel. LOL!

I have a huge blue black right across my thigh right now and i can't go swimming anytime soon.

I can't wear wide necks too! Coz, Matt gave me a blue black on my shoulder blade. He whacked me on my zip and the impact got transferred in.

Ouch.

I can count my short sleeves shirts or t-shirts out of the picture for now as well.

I have training today.

I met my girlfriend yesterday.

I'm totally in love with my boyfriend.

The last 2 lines sound so scandalous rite? *boogies about*

ITS FRIDAY!!!

Thank god and finally. i'm so sleepy rite now, i blame it on the freezing aircon... i'm quite comfortable here and i'm currently clearing my table to dump alot of the HR stuff on William's table. Talk about sweet... LOL!!!

Which i can bet with ya'll that he will dump it back on my table tomorrow since i presume he will be in and i will hope to clear my table and dump it back on his.

Hahahaha..

Revenge is sweet.

In his absence, what have i learnt?

HR stuff mainly coz the accounting things are all with Suk Ching. Thank god for that... Coz i remembered the last time he was on leave and when Suk Ching just started, my work was never ending... i nearly died with all the office stuff, clients stuff, HR stuff and also my work. LOL~!!

And i've learnt that some things are more tolerable. LOL!!!

and ya... i'm bored.... actually not really that bored la.. but you know.. lol!!!!

wheeeeeee.... i'm waiting for this Japanese girl that's suppose to come to collect her MOM letter from me and she hasn't appeared. I wonder why... hmmmmmm....

I'm in the mood for some serious work... argh.

Its gonna be a really really long day!

My boss's in the Indo office but my table cannot be seen!

I left work late yesterday hoping that i would be able to clear my table since today i have to do back to back interviews...

Now, that's nervewrecking... lol! Thank god Mas will be there... lol!

But hey! Both of us are like swimming with work piled rite up here! *points to neck*

My table so messy i cannot stand it lor! Thank god William's last day of reservist is tomorrow! Which means, he's back on Monday!!!! I've never actually looked forward for someone to come back until like that la... Then my table will be clean again! oh wait, maybe not...

And I've

But i'm coping well... for now. hahahhah!!!

Random thoughts: I so need to lose weight... ok fine, i'm on the way to losing it again... but its so frustrating especially the fact that i don't seem to have time to do it any faster... like go for trainings more often. I wanna lose weight by October. That was my initial plan. But from the looks of it? *pulls hair*

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I just interviewed Mato. Now that was farnie. Oh yes, my back to back interviews are for the TP Law Interns. That's the reason why i wouldn't do it alone. heeee...

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Aiyah... So many things to do... lol! I cannot leave late today... i'm meeting my nieces to tution them Maths. Now, that's another thing that i can go on and on about.

Some educators just pisses me off. Its like they teach for the sake of a job and not for the sake of seeing their students excel. THAT IN ITSELF PISSES ME OFF!

I mean if i can teach my niece who was failing maths to getting As after a month... Then why on earth she still need to go her to school, pay for school fees to people who doesn't even care whether she do well or not, whether she understands or not...

Argh.

And maths isn't the only subject i'm teaching her... ARGH. at this rate, i should just open a school.

I'm quite annoyed with some teachers. I know that not all teachers are like that... but thats only the minority group you know...

Yeah.. and soon i'll have people to tell me to go into teaching. My answer is a straight no... not coz i hate teaching... but i hate whiny and screaming children who loves to suck up!

LOL!

Yes, i do find kids at a certain age annoying, but there's really nothing i can do about it... My mom thinks that the only reason why i feel like that is coz i'm not exposed to young children often and that i dont have my own kids...

But hey.. that doesn't mean i hate my nieces and nephews.... Please lor i adore them to bits just as they adore me!

*angelic smiles*

Since some people have been saying that my blog very mushy... Not only Azi...

HELOOOOO... not say my blog very mushy lor... Where got mushy? Its not as if i'm proclaiming my undying love here lor... *faints*

I'm just saying i miss my boyfriend... just like how i state it here i miss my friends... that one call mushy meh?

You people purposely rite?? wanna make me turn red and hide myself in a sack rite? *smacks*

nvm nvm nvm...

Next time, i will go like: i'm having sleepless nights, thinking of him day and night... (Now, did that just rhyme? Lol.)

If i were to dedicate that kinda entry to my blog... i think i will just get smacked by people when i see them... HRMPH!! Heee...

So I will proceed to write on something that happened at Fencing yesterday...

Not all the guys was present yesterday since there was the National Trials happening at Clementi... But the group was definitely bigger than the one on Saturday, when i had my morning training...

I was supposed to go for training at 2pm... But of course, me being me, loved my Sunday tooooo much to actually drag myself out of the house... in other words, i forfeited my training since i arrived at 3pm instead.

The guys were obviously betting with each other how late i'll be. Idiots.

So those that were present was Josh, Morgan, QY (i can't really remember his full name, he's this new guy), Hendrik and James... And of course there's eve and me.

So we had our round robin where my first bout was with QY. That's not so bad la... i was trailing behind 4-0... Is it me or do people get over confident too easily?

Since i havent warmed up... I didn't realised i was playing around... Until of course i decided to kill and did a straight 5 points... lol!

I was shocked at myself.

My next opponent right after QY was Josh. JOSH DESERVES TO BE SHOT! I think i have turned him into some sadistic guy. I will elaborate on that later.

Josh was HAPPILY walking on the piste... And he said something along the lines of, "This is gonna be interesting... Its war..."

His first point, he whacked me right on my head and flicked my mask clip right off and obviously it flew away to the next piste... I tell you if he spoils my electric jacket... he's gonna die lor...

And my reaction?

"OI! YOU MISS FENCING WITH ME ISSIT?! YOU ARE SO GONNA DIE"


Which of course he did later on, and his excuse? I'm not out to win, but i'm out to kill...

ARGH!

But then again, he lost to nearly everyone... since yesterday's Motto was "KILL JOSH!"

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We'll now have a list of Classic Moments @ Fencing

Classic Moment 1

James and Hendrik was fencing each other in the finals (We had our mini competition).

James is this totally unbeatable fencer. He's 60+ and his speed is WHOA! So far not even the pros can beat him la... However, in this finals, Hendrik was leading James by 10 - 7... When the following conversation took place...

Morgan: I'll cut off my balls if Hendrik beats James

(At this point, both fencers were getting ready to fence again... when...)

Josh: Halt. GUYS! Hendrik! You better win ok? Morgan will cut off his balls when you do..

(Morgan than proceeds to strangle Josh)

Morgan: I did not say that... you totally made that up...
Josh: Look!! Hendrik is leading big time..
Morgan: Shit...
Josh: For all you know, James may be losing on purpose to see you cut off your balls.
Morgan: Shut up!!!

(Hendrik won James, 15 -11, And all of us were shrieking in laughter by then)

Josh: Hey Morgan, I'll allow you to borrow my sword to cut off your balls..
Morgan: *Fumes*
Eve: At this rate, Morgan will turn into a girl...

Classic Moment 2

I was quarrelling with Josh about the bruises he was giving me when we were fencing...

Josh: You're really violent!
Me: AM NOT!
Josh: Are too!
Me: Am Not!

(That went on for quite awhile)

Me: Its not my fault if you bruise easily or if you don't know how to retreat fast enough...
Josh: But its ok... Its good for the image... I get loads of girls thanks to you..
Me: You get girls' attention?
Josh: Yeah, I just show them the bruises and tell them that i got it from a girl...
Me: You get girls by showing off your bruises that you get from another girl?!?!?!
Josh: YEAH! I just tell them.. Look... I got these bruises from a girl this big... (there was obviously some actions involved)

Me: *Starts throwing shoes, gloves and other miscellaneous items in Josh's direction*
Josh: HEY! At least, i didn't mention your name!!!!
Morgan: If you did, i think you would already be lying in that corner in a pool of blood...

Classic Moment 3

Josh was trying to hide the fact that he wasn't doing to well this week...

Josh: Can we please erase the scoreboard?
Eve: For what?
Josh: So that people won't know i lost to Nadira...
Me: Please lor... I think if they see also, they'll be like.. Oh, that's nothing new...
Josh: *starts laughing*
Morgan: Did you realise what Nadira just said and do to you?
Josh: Oh.... shit.

Classic Moment 4

Josh and me were arguing yet again on each others' violence.

Josh: Eh, I'm not coming next week ah... I'm having exams..
Me: Ok
Josh: Eh you very violent you know, everytime get loads of bruises...
Me: Deal with it!
Josh: But good also la.. quite shiok...
Me: ............
Josh: Eh 2 Sundays later, you must come down ok, i'll be back so we fence again and make sure you give me loads of bruises...
Me: Why? You going on a date a tomorrow?
Josh: Huh? No la.. i have NS Medical check up the following monday
Me: Ooookies... and you need the bruises for?
Josh: To show off to the sergeants and make sure you'll get enlisted...
Me: Bloody hell...
Josh: Trust me... I'm gonna come back with a form just for you
Me: *Proceeds to show middle finger*
Morgan: You really want her to get enlisted ah? She become your drill sergeant... That's the end of you...

MUAHAHAHA... so that's some of the conversations that i can remember for now...

Its been a really long weekend... I kinda lost track of my days and timing within fri nite, sat, and sun.

I loved Friday. I finally met up with him . Its been 3 weeks... lol! yup yup... 3 WHOLE WEEKS! lol! i'm surprised i haven't made so much noise you know.. well ok i do have my moments... but still... i know some of my friends have seen my agony. hahahahah...

Hey i can't help rite? NS's shitty and you cant bring yourself to pester your boyfriend to meet you often when you know they're tired... even though you want to meet them so badly... you'll just have to deal with the agony of not meeting them ever so often in various other ways...

Like complaining to yourself, your diary and just show certain hints of your agony to your friends... WAHAHAHAA!!!

but oh well. there's really nothing much i can do about it....

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My weekends was packed with fencing and ycp and other stuff on saturday and fencing on sunday...

Josh deserves to be shot. Josh is one of the fencers i hang with or rather constantly train with... I shall tell you guys more about the things he did to me on sunday!!!

ARGH!!! HE IS SO DEAD~!

I did not go for National Trials yesterday... Due to various reasons, especially after coming back from KL the other time and i'm suprised my coach still ask me whether or not i'm going...

He sure has faith.

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I was reading Suk Ching's blog just now and her take on romantic love songs. Yup, romantic love songs do give you all those lovey dovey feelings...

and yes i do agree with her scenario...

Yes SC, It would really be something having that someone sing that particular song that depicts their feelings for you to you... It would be something to have "your song" kinda thing huh? lol! Exclusive to the both of you and something that totally means something to the both of you...

To be kissed on the forehead, to be hugged and just enjoy the company of each other...

How romantic is that?

I think every girl has their own scenarios... i have mine too... and i wouldn't be surprised if there are similarities... lol!

and now i should go and sleep already... haiz... Tomorrow i'm working.. i really am not looking forward to that.

*YAWNZ*

I'm missing him already...

Hmmm... so irritated lor... Its 1.30am and guess what i'm doing...

Edit stupid photos. Not even my face lor. Bloody shit.

HRMPH!

Haiz. I should start charging at this rate man. ARGH!

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My darling just got himself a new phone! SO JEALOUS CAN! and the best part? He got the phone that i'm totally in love with apart from the LG and Samsung one that i've been eyeing...

Grrr...

Anywayz, not that i'm trying to be mushy here or wat la... But i'm gonna announce publicly...

I MISS HIM LO! Haven't seem him for ages.. and i miss talking and crapping around with him...

Haiz.

Seriously, i can like go on and on and on in conversation with him... ok fine, i do that with other people too... but hey, the conversation topics we have are priceless... Now when i think about it, i tend to wonder how did both of us came up with some of the things we talk about... LOL!

But ya. I miss him!!!!

*smacks self* Ok ok fine... i shall not go on and on... ahahahaha.. but still!! ok ok ok.. *dodges rotten tomatoes* I can so foresee people throwing that at me... but haloooo... cannot help it can. My darling lor.. you jealous issit?

WAHAHAHHAH!!

Ok i'm full of shit.

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And my cousin's in Thailand AGAIN! and she was begging me to meet her there. I mean, i would if i'm not working and have all the money in the world.

Ok.. maybe not all the money in the world... maybe just if i'm not working.. then i'll have all the time... and then i can try my hands on wakeboarding too!!

Ya... and if i have all the time and i start wakeboarding and do it more often then Fencing, then my coach will just kill me when he finds out! LOL!

anywayz, i can't believe i just rant mindlessly over things like this. Its amazing how editting photos can lead you to such desperation. ha.

And i better go to sleep soon.

I thank god for my friends (old and new) and him.
I LOVE YA'LL!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE~!!!

I am in a much better mood today.

I think the word vomit i did yesterday really did help.

And i'm sorry to the person i vomitted to yesterday in case i was being annoying, irritating or any other descriptive word that falls in the catergory.

All I want to do is run into the safety of your arms, the comfort I find in your warmth and the security i feel everytime I'm with you...

Work's a bitch and there's nothing i can do about it.

Didn't have Fencing today. How sad rite? Lol! I'll be having trainings one of these days next week i think. I'm looking forward to it. At least, there's still something that is still there for me.

I hope i can have it. Trainings I mean. I foresee next week to be hell. I wouldn't be surprised if I'll be affected next week. If you know what i mean.

These 2 weeks have been hell for me. It took me nearly everything within to go through these 2 weeks and I thought at least today I could have a time spent with anyone to at least distract me and give me some kind of energy for the next 2 weeks, at least.

I'm surprised that no one has actually noticed even how sucky I've been feeling. No one, not even... nevermind.

The one day I needed someone, no one was there.

How appropriate.

How does it feel really when one says one thing, and the exact opposite happens? I'm too used to getting disappointed. I hold on to words, believing in them. I don't know. Maybe its the things I say as well. Maybe I'm asking for the unattainable?

Just please don't say things you don't mean. Don't say things just because it seemed rite. Don't say things just because... it needs to be said.

Am I asking for too much? Am I asking for the moon? Or maybe the problem is that I'm just giving in most of the time?

Or maybe being understanding isn't everything afterall huh?

I guess everything that's been happening is just getting to me huh?
i suppose.

I tend to brush things aside huh?
I suppose.

I tend to smile too much huh?
I suppose.

Maybe, I'm just a little (ok, maybe alittle is an understatement) unstable at the moment.
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Every girl needs that something.

Please just tell me that this are all nightmares that I am wondering, when will it end.

I have this terrible feeling inside that this is not going to end anytime soon. Its not going to end when next week comes along. I don't think i can handle this very well.

I'm making myself mentally prepared to get the scolding of my life on Monday. I'm making myself mentally prepared to be scolded for things that are the doing of others but myself. I'm making myself mentally prepared to accept the blame.

Nope. I'm not being noble.

But somehow, seeing the circumstances, I wouldn't be surprised.

Its true that the superiors are not around, but that doesn't mean that everyone can do as they please.

I suppose nobody realises that in every action, there will be a reaction.

I'm actually beginning to feel quite afraid just thinking of what will happen on Monday.

*prays to God real hard*

I hope my skin on Monday will be its thickest ever.

All I want to do right now is just run into your arms and cry...

I'm sick of this.

This is the umpteenth time that i wanna cry over my stupid, farked up job.

I'm beginning to look around. The desire for a change is so high that i'm not even caring anymore. I'm so pissed that even right now when i think about things, i could feel tears burning my eyes.

I cant believe it. I'm beginning to not care about my timeline. I don't think i can put up with anymore shit.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!

Can someone tell me? Can someone just assure me? please...

*shuffles to a corner and cry*

I HAVE A FARKED UP JOB AND A FARKED UP SUPERIOR.

CB.

Today is 07.06.07... HEEEE!

Anywayz,

I saw the LG Shine yesterday.... its sooo cute!

I wanna get it.

ha.

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Went to watch Pirates of Carribean yesterday with Mama, Aunt and Nadia. It was farnie la... I am still keeping to my stand that CHOW YUN FATT IS HOTTT!!

wahahahha...

Why do hot men always die so early in the show? damn wasted lor! I totally adore his make up.

However, Nadia thinks that the only reason why i think Chow Yun Fatt is hott is coz, he's chinese.

Confused? Go figure.

I seriously don't think so lor. I think he's just plain charming. wahahahahah!!!

But the movie is not bad la... kinda fun actually if only the theatre wasn't freezing cold!

Orlando Bloom looks good only in the last scene! wahahha!! He only looks desirable with either a bandanna or elongated ears (think Legolas). LOL!

Oh and Nadia was playing with my hair! totally wat the hell lor! I was sitting beside her and concentrating on the movie

ME: "eh, what you doing?"
Her: "nothing ah why?"
SILENCE
Me: "Nadia, can you stop playing with my hair and leave it alone?"
Her: "I'm not playing with your hair, i'm playing with mine"
Me: *Grabs the hair she was holding* "You do realise that this is connected to my head right?"
Her: *stares and burst out laughing*
Me: "This is so not romantic"

And the both of us died laughing in the middle of a really serious scene.

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I have a Zara Voucher to spend... Hmmmmm.... What shall i buy?

I've been wanting to get a phone in the longest time.


Looking at my current phone, no matter how much i love it and get defensive whenever someone pointed out the condition of the phone, i have somewhat agree with the rest of the population (whoever that has seen my phone) that i need to change it.


Soon.

So I'm in desperate need of a phone. I think the phone appears higher on the priority list than a camera at the moment.

It sucks having to buy everything yourself now. *buries self* Boo hoo hoo!!!


I've been looking around. Yes i have. I nearly changed it last month.

But Mama together with the Singtel person managed to convince me that its not worth it to change it now since i will have to pay the full price of the phone and they kinda tell me, why not wait till my contract reaches 1 full year before changing it, since it will be a little cheaper. Ok. I hope it arrives soon!!


I just need a new phone.


Like a boyfriend, my phones also have to meet up to certain criterias. LOL!


1. The width has to be small! I have short fingers man. Ok la, not that short... But still!!! I don't need to overwork my entire hand to just hold my phone.


2. The phone as a whole must not huge. Like i say, i have short fingers and i don't really like to bring a bag when i go out so it has to fit where ever i need it to fit. WAHAHAHAH!!


3. If it comes in various colours, that's a plus point. I don't like having the same things as others. heee.... Unless of course its my mom, my boyfriend or any of my closer friends. But then again, they don't really like my taste in phones as they like "bigger phones" as how Azi puts it since she always threatens to throw my phone against the wall. Lol!


So basically, these are the phones i've surveyed, seen and touched.


Samsung





This one is a possibility, i like the green one...



This one is touch screen, a bit wide but kinda fits nicely in your hand you know... so its kind of tempting... but the price is kind of on the high side. ok maybe its not that high for the rest of you but for someone like me... who spends 160 bucks to get my current phone and still cant believe such amount was spent just to get it will think that its high. LOL!


Motorola




I still like the krzr. Most prob is coz of the colour. SO TEMPTING RITE THE COLOUR? I cant help but get attracted to everything shiny. lol! I'm sucha kid sometimes. lol!!!



This is also another possibility. Its slim, it comes in other colours and i'm quite comfortable with a slide phone. So ya. i'm keeping an open mind. LOL!


LG



I actually kinda like this phone. lol! Its really nice looking. And the design is cool la... its shiny too! hmmm... i might actually consider this you know... Since LG has been treating me well this past year (i'm talking about my current phone of course).



Now, this one look uber interesting. I saw it somewhere before but i've not actually touched it. lol! So i can't really remember whether is it huge or otherwise. Hmmmmmmmmmmm


So rite now, the possibilities are either the Motorola, LG V8600 or the touch screen Samsung. Ok the last one might be out since its like... a little on the high side.


And I'm still looking around. Since my 1-year has yet to arrive. That is I am able to wait until then. Ha.

Wheee...

I went on a half day today...

Coz,

1. I was too tired...
2. I had asthma attack since i was too tired.

Serves me right for meeting up with my cousin rite after work on a monday in which i was just back the day before...

Tsk tsk tsk...

But seriously, I have to catch hold of her before she flies off to Bangkok AGAIN. Stupid woman. Always leave me here.

HRMPH! But then again, there's nothing i can do also... since i'm like working!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAaaa....

Gone were the days where life was easier.

But anywayz, I'm looking through sistic website rite now...

Wahahaha.. Most prob, coz i was depressed since yesterday, i went topshop with my cousin and suk ching to make suk ching try out stuff...

So i was looking for my top shop dresses and realise that ITS NO LONGER THERE!!! i felt like strangling someone.

I guess that's the problem with Singapore.... Everyone can afford stuff with or without a sale... So clothes really do disappear unlike other countries where people actually do wait for a sale before they start buying.

Anywayz, let me just go back to my topic of looking through Sistic website.

1. ROMEO & JULIET

Waaaa!! I feel like watching it... its not like those ancient times R&J... More of a modern day R&J. Hmmmm.... 5th to 6th June 2007. OH WAIT! That's like today and tomorrow!!! HOW?!?!?!?! Tickets are prices at $20 to $60 bucks. ARGH!

2. Christina Aguilera Concert

30th June 2007. Ok maybe that's like something i would not watch. whaahhahahaha... I'm just stating it here to remind me of my sec sch days. lol!

3. Dim Sum Dollies In The History of Singapore

5th July to 15th July 2007. So cute rite? I feel like catching it... hmmmm...

4. The King & I

6th August - 26th August 2007. OMG OMG OMG!! I WANNA WATCH THIS! Can someone watch this with me?? pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... *Angelic smiles*

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Hmmmm apart from my sucky performance at OCM's Sports Arena (Olympic Council Malaysia) the other day, i kinda enjoyed myself in KL.

I went around everywhere like some expert. LOL! I took the monorail from Bukit Bintang to KLCC!!! Cool rite?! MUAHAHAHHA!! I mean HALO! its not like it was one straight train ride, i had to switch lines. LOL!!!!

After all that, Mama has allowed me to go KL by myself the next time round!! *boogies about*

But seriously, i don't know why pple love KLCC so much. there's really nothing much there. But, the camwhoring opportunities there are endless. Too bad. I dont have a camera and the right company to just go crazy. lol!

So out of the KL trip, i got myself a wallet, new heels, tons of shades, some clothes (those long shirt dresses kind that i've been wearing) and i can't remember what else i got myself. So i spend a total of MYR 300 - 400.

So thats like... SGD 180. That's not too bad i suppose if you see the amount of things i got. LOL!

i'm currently quite in love with my LIME GREEN glossy heels. lol!

I'm back from KL.

I'm sooo tired...

So how was my competition?

To put it simply, I SCREWED UP.

Yup i did. I did the stupidest of mistakes, somehow i didn't concentrate, I didn't react as well as i usually do.

I fenced like an amateur. My mistake. My disastrous mistake. Thank god the guys were not there to witness it. I swear they would have just beat me up there and then or something.

My coach even said that i fenced so much better on the weekends at FM than i did there that day.

That remark actually hurt. Its like a wake up call for me.

But he consoled me later on saying that i matched the guys' speed but not the girls. So my timing was off that day.

But seriously, I did so much better in Malaysia Open... But in Selangor Open i performed like that? It was afterall a smaller scale competition.

Realization hits. My priorities have gone wrong. I shouldn't have put work before fencing. I should have put fencing before work.

And then they asked, Am I going Hong Kong in July.... Am i?

*shrugs*

I don't even know if i'm competing this weekend. What more flying to Hong Kong?

ARGH!

This sucks. I really feel like killing myself already.

Maybe... Just Maybe.

THIS IS SO FARKED UP. If i could throw a string of vulgarities... i will just do it.

I am pissed.

I'M JUST SO TIRED OF THIS.

I'm hating my job sooo much rite now,

i can just break down and cry.

If any of you have seen me irritated... just multiply that by 10.

Then, you'll get to imagine me in the situation that i am in rite now.

I still have not recovered from being pissed off. I can't be bothered la really.

I'm irritated. I'm annoyed.

I'm not in the best of moods today.

Just don't believe everything that a person says.

I've had enough.

I HATE MY JOB.

period.

Its been a while since i last updated my beloved bloggie!!!

Lol.

Rite... Its only been 4 days.

Muahahahaha.... its 2 days from pay day and i'm uber broke!!! so embarassing lor. And the GSS is on and i'm itching to get myself something... but no i shall behave.

Behave i shall.

MUAHAHAHAHAH!!

Yes yes i have yet to update on my camwhoring session with Sin Ni... lol. She has labelled me as the camwhoring queen of Buangkok.

Well, my dear best friend, ex-partner in crime... Thank you for the honour and how does it feel to be acquainted with me (now "royalty")?

Reading her blog is hilarious. It seriously never fails to tickle me.

We have come to a conclusion. Both of our blogs = BIMBOTIC!

Eh Sin Ni, I TELL YOU ONE SECRET!

*Whispers* I sprained my ankle 2 days ago... Lol... i think you miss my presence so you sent your sprain to come visit me issit?!?!

*smacks Sin Ni*

I think its because i tortured you on the last outing, walking around Vivocity from one end to the other several times. *evil laughter*

anywayz, I am sad.

Due to unforeseen circumstance, I am only getting my pay on Tuesday instead of the expected Monday.

So much for wanting to go shopping! but oh well, we'll talk about shopping after i've cleared several debts. I feel poor just by thinking about it already... WAHAHAHHA!!!

And then I'm going KL. NOooooooooo.... I will refrain from spending too much there... i just need to get several heels and some goodies for certain people. lol! Yup yup.. you know why? Coz, Guess is on sale and i am itching to see how good is the sale and i refuse to go into the boutiques rite now due to the fact that i cant buy anything!

There's a list of people that's been missed. Dunno whether they miss me or not lor! *grumbles*

1. Deena

This girl here has disappeared from my life for the past 3weeks? or is it longer? Eversince you came back from Indo, never call me, never talk to me, never online, never go out, never message. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!? and don't even think of nagging at me for going KL ah... *rolls eyes* And i sound like a possesive boyfriend. Oh well, she does the exact same thing to me too!! Everytime i'm going out of the country.

2. Hid

ok this one... i don't miss so much la.. i talk to her weekly leh.. i just met up with her also.. LOL! besides, she's busy with projects... but she's free enough of our monthly routine of going to the 24-hr prata shop that we usually chill at.

3. Azi

I realised that its been... hmmmm... 2weeks? or is it longer? since the last time we met? i think its 3 weeks.

4. Mel

Its been a week lor! wahahhaa... ok ok fine... i shall not complain... hahahha.. azi will kill me when she sees that its been a week and i'm already complaining. Or maybe, she will kill you too! for the 3 of us not meeting up... MUAHAHAHAHAH!!!

5. Sin Ni

Eh girl, my pay coming soon. LOL! so when's our next camwhoring session to wipe out both our memory cards and battery?

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I am so sick of my schedule la... I'm compromising so many things. ARGH. That is not suppose to happen. Sheesh.

I swear i tell you there are times that i'm more stressed up over a stupid schedule than i'll ever be while interviewing a driver or anyone to do his affidavit.

Yes. I'm beginning to miss my legal work.

The irony of everything.

I was ready to kill somebody just now.

She's bimbotic, She's dumb, She got on my damn nerves, I was so patient with her and she still dare to snap at me?! FARK! I was ready to dig her eyes out man! Thank god she's across the causeway and i'm here... If not i swear i will just throw something in her face.

She wanna be bitchy to me... Fine. Let's play this game then.
Just don't mess with me. Bitch.

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Went for the bday party the other day with Sin Ni. wahahaha.. It was hilarious. We went camwhoring at Gardens and obviously reached home late. Grandmother wasn't too pleased with me. Oh well. What else is new?

My Sec Sch classmates are definitely one that you can never forget. And guess wat? Nearly everyone's driving their own car.. *rolls eyes*

I tell you if i told my mom that... she will just go "I Told you so..."

Aiyah... Cannot blame me for having rich asses as classmates what... but of course, if any of my close friends were to be driving... that would definitely be blissful for me when we go out... lol!!!

I will definitely upload the photos later.

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PMSing i am not! My gums hurt so bad i can't talk at all... Stooopid wisdom tooth. One wonders, If this excruciating pain is what you have to go through to get "wiser" i will definitely PASS the chance of getting wise if i had the choice.

I cant even eat.

If i were to have this for a whole month. A considerable weight loss can be seen.. Who knows... rite? *shrugs*

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Is age gap showing itself? Are the older ones and the younger ones not meant to be able to talk when they reach a certain age?

Are we supposed to speak only when spoken too, sit when asked, sleep when told, answer when questioned?

What happened to the days where thoughts were vocalised freely, fears were raised, worries put to rest?

What happened to the days where my words were heard, my thoughts were considered and my speech was not cut off?

What happened to the days where silence is not what you'll get out of me?

What happened to the days where scoldings were given for the right situation?

What happened to the days where accusations practically doesn't exist?

What happened to the days where your words don't hurt?

What happened to the days where my tears dont fall unconsciously as i reflect what has happened that day?

What happened to those days?

Am i growing up too fast? Am i growing up too suddenly? Am i breaking out of my shell too much?

Maybe its time to let go and accept that, i will have to lead my own life one day and allow me to explore and make mistakes now.

Running in search of tranquility, i found darkness instead.
In that darkness, i found comfort in you.
Thank you for your presence, your care, your understanding, your love.
I know you're there even when you're not right by my side.
And I appreciate and love you for that.
I really do.

. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press Play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie

Opening Credits:
Temperature - Sean Paul

Waking Up:
Pon De Replay - Rihanna

First Day of School:
Love Song – Missez feat Pimp C & Paul Wall

Falling in Love:
Torn – Latoya Luckett

Getting it on:
Ghetto Girl – Lil’ Bow Wow

Fight Song:
Unbelievable – Craig David (How that song is a fighting song I have no idea! Lol! Its more like a patching up song! WAHAHA)

Breaking Up:
Pretty Boy – M2M (this is the most classic song ever)

Prom:
Masquerade – Phantom of the Opera Soundtrack (How appropriate… LOL!)

Life:
Lady Marmalade – Christina Aguilera, Pink, Mya, Lil Kim (Wat the…)

Mental Breakdown:
Down Boy – Holly Valance

Driving:
The Call – Backstreet Boys

Flashback:
Through the Wire – Kanye West

Wedding:
Winding Road – Boa & Dabo (don’t ask about the singers ah…)

Birth of child:
No – Shakira (WAHAHHAHA)

Final Battle:
Naughty Girl – Beyonce (Double LOL!)

Death Scene:
fergilicious – Fergie (WAHAHAHAH!!)

Funeral Song:
Scandalous – Misteeq (My songs are getting more and more inappropriate)

WHEN BOREDOM TAKES OVER!



I'm currently at Mommy's office...

Location: No. 3 Kallang Way 5.

Why am i here? Well, i came by to pass her handphone which she left at home and of course i went to Golden Mile Tower to collect my bus tickets to KL.

So it seems that i am going for the competition afterall even though i have not gone for training due to various miscellaneous reasons. Let's hope that i dont screw up tooo badly or else, my coach will never let me hear the end of it.

So since i'm here, my mom asked me to take pictures of some of her lightings to put up on her website. I was supposed to do up her website some time last year which of course i have yet to bring my lazy ass to log in and insert all the necessary html codes. However, i did warn her i can only do the most basic of websites since i'm no exactly very pro.

So here i am! At my mom's office while she's in her warehouse doing some lighting with her partner and i'm in her office typing happily away on her computer.

HAVE I TOLD YOU I LIKE HER NEW PC? haiz. THE SCREEN SO BIG! I look at stuff on website also like very happy lor!!!!

Coz so big and clear and... WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! I love her 19" screen or issit 24".. i dunno la...

SEEE!! Told you its big... I think its 24" coz my comp screen at work is 19".

This is the ultra meesy office but its really cosy!!! I tend to come here to sleep... wahahaha...

And this is the showroom which my mom has yet to set up... wahahahah!! even though they've moved here for quite a while already!! tsk tsk tsk... And those are the lights which i have to photograph!!

And this is the pen that I forced my mom to get so that she can show it to her partner everytime they argue to prove her point. LOL!!!

Oh shit. Its 437pm. I have to meet Sin Ni at 7pm at Kovan for Shirlyn's b-day party and i need to go home and change.

OOOOPS! Oh well, i doubt she wanna go so early also.

And i'm currently having a headache. LOL!

That's all folks! MUACKS!!

Lurve ya!

When B-day parties have themes...

When one reaches 21, many of them decide to have parties. Pretty invitations were sent out with a follow up phonecall for you to rsvp. lol!

One of the main reason is for them to invite those friends that they have not seen for the past few years.. catch up on each others life or basically just wanna know what the other is doing and trust me, there are times that it gets stressful. LOL!

Its not necessary for a party to have a theme... However, there's currently a trend to have themed parties with dress codes that guests will have to adhere to... Well, not everyone will bother to dress accordingly...

But hey, its not everyday you can walk around like some queen of the world, dressed ready for the red carpet... (even though i tend to succumb to such temptation when i go out with some people)

So why not take the opportunity rite?

I was invited to one my sec sch friend's bday party last sat and the theme was...

"A DRESSY AFFAIR"

So one wonders, what will Nad wear? A dress, of course! Yup, i've worn this dress before so, Deena... don't think that i never go out like dressed like below before ok!?

A white dress, Pink Hair, Green Eyes, Heels and Hoop Earrings... i was ready to star in my very own music video... WAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!

And i totally dig the pink hair! Would do with blue hair soon! LOL!

So you guys would wanna know how's the party rite? Well, the music's good, the food's great and the company's awesome... By company, i meant hidayah.

SHE OPENED THE DANCE FLOOR YO!

LOL!!! We boogied all night... (well not all night la, till it ends i mean) WAHAHAHAA!

And for those who have been pestering me to do MY 21ST BDAY PARTY....

I have one question for you...

Do i look like i will have a party?!?!?!?!

*faints*

PHANTOM OF THE OPERAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Went to watch it yesterday. IT WAS UBER COOL!

It was...

Awesomelicious, beautiful, magnificently enchanting.

I AM SO HOOKED TO IT!

I'm so in love with the set. It gave a whole new perspective on set. I've never seen how a set can be manipulated as such! I was amazed and speechless.

There's really nothing that could describe what i saw.

The technical aspects of the show was great!!!!

The phantom's voice was simply... enchanting. He sings so effortlessly you know... and his vocal range was like.. WOAH!!! Makes you inspired to sing as well.

A person cries because of the show, by the end of it, i wanted to cry... not because of how sad i was... but how awed i was of everything.

I miss acting. That's a definite.

And the guys' voice... Raoul and Phantom... TO DIE FOR!!! wahahaa... actually, more of the phantom's voice la... i'm still not over it..

I'm definitely head over heels with singing men. lol!

I'm having post-phantom fever. It's so HawT!

"You must be determined. Nothing is impossible." She says.

Was dragged out to lunch again today. LOL! My boss just loves to bully me. But she's really supportive at times. That's one thing i salute her for.

She's fair.
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However that's not the thing i wanted to blog about...

I went out with my cousin yesterday and we just hung at Vivo. When i said hung, we literally hung la... wahaha.. we hung our legs into the pool. WAHAHHAHA!!

So romantic rite?

but its with my cousin lor. So spoil the moment~!!! lol...

Since i havent seen her in like a REALLY REALLY REALLY long time (actually 2 weeks only)... We caught up with each others life.

*evil grins* I hope she's reading this.

I AM ONE INNOCENT SHITE OF A COUSIN EVEN THOUGH I'M THE ONE WHO ALWAYS GETS US INTO TROUBLE...

If you know what i mean.. *Winks winks*

WAHAHAHAHAHAH..

yes, i'm gonna rub it in even more! lol!

My innocence is shining through revealing the angel within!

And she still can say that i'm not gonna be so innocent in the near future, just wait and see. I tell you, those are just excuses!!! Muahahaha...

How can i not be innocent in the near future? I'm such an angel here... rite? lol! *smacks nana* We'll just wait and see my dear... WAHAHHAHHHAHAH!!!

I'm actually managing quite well with the lack of sleep and everything. lol!

I'm actually not sleepy at all... even though everyone else says that i looked shagged. LOL!

ARGH.

Something's calling out to me. I need to spice up my life. Really. General energy of where i'm at is not healthy for the mind, body and soul. I'm seriously thinking i need a better paying job.

But like what i told suk ching. I need to lose weight in order to get that.

Seriously.

*rub hands gleefully*
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I have a new colleague tmr...

We call her, Paro.

hehehhe...

Oh... Such Deja Vu...

have i mentioned to you that i miss acting?

Some people here just don't take me seriously. Maybe thats the reason why i feel like killing someone half the time.
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I've never felt the way i did before.

The sudden sharp pain, the sudden sense of lost, the sudden emotional tug.

And then, i knew how much i cared.

Its gonna be 2am soon and i'm still wide awake. No. I'm not on leave tmr... i'm working tmr... but i've been catching up on sleep so much this weekend... I can't seem to stay awake for long actually. LOL!

until of course if i wake up at about midnight or earlier... then i'll still be awake now... lol! My sleeping habits are kinda screwed up!

ARGH! I haven't been going fencing since beginning of May... That's hmmm... 15 DAYS!! I'm so dead!

Thanks to me being sick for the past 2 weeks! and i have a competition in exactly 2 weeks! I AM SO SCREWED!

What if i got no stamina anymore? I am so gonna suck! ARGH!!!!!

I will need to go swimming nearly everyday already. I havent gone training for 2 weeks. That in itself is disastrous.

And i've been gaining weight. seriously.

I'm in deep shit. So yes. I'm gonna be much stricter to myself rite now. I'm not gonna listen to anyone anymore.

I have my wants. I have my needs. I have my goals. I have my dreams.

So i really hope that some won't try to talk me out of it. I'm sick and tired of it.

Sometimes people tell you other wise, only to make direct opposite remarks and comments later on.

I've had enough.

Went to watch Spiderman 3 yesterday.

Seriously pple, ONLY THE TRAILERS LOOK GOOD. Therefore, please do not be deceived by highly captivating trailers as the movie might not be equally captivating. LOL!

Seriously la... It was never ending! 2 and a half hours on a comic book movie?? its practically like watching an epic la. There's too many stories told, too many characters introduced, and its draggy for an action movie. Some of the scenes were not as impactful as you expect it to be. Some of the shock factor from the scenes were expected.

Its actually quite disappointing.

Spiderman 1 & 2 is definitely much better.

I tell you ah, in that movie rite... one thing that Spiderman truly deserved was a tight slap from MJ which he definitely did not get.

Seriously, how could someone be so dense as to not see how affected a girl truly is by his actions?

How can someone not realised how badly he has hurt her?

How can someone not notice that he has neglected the person he loved?

How can someone think that in a relationship between the both of you, its only about one party, ever wondered what the other party is there for?

How can someone who used to go to high school together, best friends, practically know each other inside out and yet as 2 people in a relationship they can't seem to know that one is hurting the other?

Aren't such relationships suppose to be easier? Aren't you naturally comfortable to tell the other what's bothering you even if it is the other person? Wouldn't such a relationship be a more mature relationship in a sense that you can tell the other anything and you know that even if its about the other party, he will definitely understand?

Or is it because of the fact that they're a pair now that they can't seem to tell each other what's truly on their mind or what's really bothering them?

hmmmmzz.... I wonder...

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You'll never be able to get out of a relationship with Spiderman coz he is the one person who truly sticks around.

Somehow i agree to that statement.
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Is Spiderman & MJ really facing the thing i've last stated?

OMG! I'm sooooo sleeeppyyy!!

My nose is still on the 2.4km running track. ARGH!

My boss is back! *Sobs sobs*

And she noticed that i'm sick! MUAHAHAHAHAH!! Which means she's not gonna give me a hard time. I think. LOL!

I need to shit.

I'm lazy to move.

ARGH. I think i shall go to the toilet first! LOL!!!!

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Ok i'm back. lol! I really dont have to blog all that down... but oh well... wahahha... i should try documenting my entire day down. I swear it'd be effing boring. WAHAHAHAHA.

Shit. I forgot what i wanted to blog!!!

this is strictly a shopping spree entry... so beware for those non-shopaholics... you guys might just find me damn bimbotic. LOL~!

I swear i have this urge to buy ALOT of things.

Yest i was at Taka and i tried on this pair of purplish - pink DIOR shades... OMG! FUCKING NICE! argh. its only 199! NO.

I SHALL NOT GO TO TAKA TO GET IT. I SHALL NOT GO TO TAKA TO GET IT. *chants at self*

Omg Nad. *smacks self* You're not earning 4k or something you know! argh. but itsss sooo nice... i love the entire look of it. The last time i saw the shades i love was at Guess, but seriously, nothing beats this one!

Cannot cannot... Last month i bought myself at CK watch coz i fell in love with it at first sight. This month a pair of DIOR shades? What in the world am i doing?

I've concluded.

WORKING IS UNHEALTHY ON VARIOUS LEVELS.

*faints*

so ya. I shall not go and get it. BUTTTTTTTTT.....

*smacks self again* Get a grip nad!

I shall just put it on my wishlist instead. ha.

Did i mention that i manage to get my mom to get for herself the Gucci: Envy Me perfume? MUAHAHAHAH... that also means... ITS MINE!!! MUAHAHAH!!

i shall go strike that off my wishlist. muahahahahaha...

I got myself this particular topshop tee which some of you might have seen it. I'M LOVIN' IT! lol.

I tell you.... i'm growing up alittle too late.. but its aite... at least i'm making myself broke now instead of making my mom broke if i were to grow up a little earlier. WAAHAHHAHAAH!!!

There's this topshop dress that i want as well... its like a colourful pinafore. LOL! its cute ah... And there's a tee that i intend to get, even though i can't really remember wat's written on it. I think its something bimbotic. LOL! and there's this other tee which is like black with pink words "back from nineteen 80's" its damn cute also la... and also a purple dress top thing. LOL!! oh ya. and leggings.

So that makes it 5 items from topshop.

Then there's this really cute tee from MNG. the wordings "Nothing's gonna stop me now" MUAHAHAHAHA!!!

i tell you. I'm becoming sucha girl i should just kill myself.

Random point: Apples are gonna be my new best friend.

I am farking sleepy rite now... i know.. i'm turning vulgar, i should give myself a rule... Every single vulgar word come out of my mouth, put 50 cents into myc oin box.. lol.

Then i will have money to buy clothes! MUAHAHAHAH *cues thunder and lightning*

i cant really remember what else i wanna but. Oh yes. A hat from Forever 21 & Roxy. WAAHAHAH!! i think that's all ah. i can't really remember anything much rite now.

I'm just damn sleepy. SO tired. i'm gonna kill my cousin for dragging me out on Sunday, shopping with her and her friend the WHOLE DAY!

Reached home damn late, had dinner, went through the things we bought - realised that i bought 6pairs of earrings. LOL! and also i got myself a belt from marina sq, and i had to cut her hair. By the time i slept, it was 3am.

LOL!

yup. i do cut people's hair. there are times i cut my own hair. Cannot help it la... ask the hairdressers to do it for us, come out some other thing. SO we do it ourselves. LOL!!!!

Yup yup.... i cut her hair... inspired by Rihanna's hairdo in her latest music video-Umbrella. Yup yup... Now my cousin has the exact same hair as Rihanna all thanks to me!!! MUAHAHAHAA...

OH YA. SIDETRACK: I have a new hairstyle. lol! now more rocker than before yo!

I went out the whole day on Saturday too... it was damn fun la... Met up with Kin and Don again after Yellow Chair. Its so fun! I MISS THEM! The 4 of us catch up on each others' life...

*blushes* And i've never been soooo embarrassed about some things in my life before lor. and i didn't realise how much i was blushing till i saw the pictures... MY CHEEKS WERE SOOO PINK!!!! wahahhaa... they on the other hand was definitely enjoying it. *rolls eyes* they've been waiting for the chance since our techno outing 2 weeks ago lor...

*smacks kin and don* oh well.. you guys know i still adore ya'll rite? LOL!

So when are we crapping again? This time all of us have to be there, including The Merlimah! *glares at a particular endangered species*

Yup. I totally adore my weekends and i still can't stop smiling everytime i think about it. lol.

I'm still sick but of course i'm definitely feeling so much better than yesterday.

I'm more alert as compared to yesterday. Yesterday, i was a mess. I couldn't even form a sentence for a one line letter. Talk about pathetic man.

So i was asked to go home an hour after i reached the office (i was on morning half day since i only have 1 day MC)

I tell you, THE COMPANY DOCTOR HAS SOMETHING AGAINST ME!

The first time i went there also the doctor show me one kind of attitude down there. So that day, i walked into the room and he asked me, "What's wrong with you?"

I just stared at him.

Dont you just hate it when docs ask you such questions? I mean if you know you wouldnt go and see them wat!!!! *faints*

So i just rant the following to him at high speed.

"I have sore throat and i'm coughing. i have dry cough, runny nose, i have really bad headache so i have no idea whether or not i'm having fever... and oh ya, before i forget i need an MC for today."

Don't doctors just love patients like me? I make their job easier. They don't have to check also got full diagnosis.

CB.

I really think company doctors have something against me.
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Some things just remain. Its like, i don't know how and where to begin you know.

I don't know whether anyone get what i've been trying to say this past few days. I don't know whether my message was put across to the person it really meant for.

There are just times that i'm both confused and frustrated and i have no idea how to get it out.

OMG. My headache is back. I shall continue again later. I might have to go Bugis.

I guess some promises are meant to be broken huh? I guess.
I guess some things are just supposed to be left alone? I guess.

I don't know. I'm confused. I'm just... blank out... must be the medicine i suppose.

I've fallen sick.

So much for my darling nagging at me to sleep and rest well so that i wont fall sick... and few days later... here i am in this condition.

Serve me right for not listening to him.

but seriously i'm sick!

My head's spinning, my throat's sore and my nose is running away.

My cousins from malaysia came... Wahlau... they made me sit in front of them, like in front of a panel of interviewees, this morning at abt 2am... and ya... wahaha.... the interview lasted for 2 hours.

Bloody hell. I never even do such things to them lor!!! grrr... You should have seen their evil grins. I was sniffling as they were questioning away.

OH GOD! MY HEAD IS PAINFUL LOR!

What would i really love rite now?

To be hugged to sleep or while i sleep, to be served porridge when i wake up...

WAHAHHAHA... i can so continue dreaming!

flu bug has bitten me!!! and its getting to my head and i have no cure for it! i'm just gonna eat panadol and see what happens tmr.

I still have to drag myself to work.

*faints*