Its saturday...

And it feels weird...

Coz, its the first saturday that i'm actually lazing at home... *faints*

In front of the comp... with nothing to do... with time on my hands... and looking at my phone every so often to see whether anyone will beep or call to ask me out..

Just feels alittle odd.. Oh well.. if it happens often.. i'll get used to it.. LOL!

ahahhahaa...

For the first timeeee... When i loook into your eyes... For the first timeeeeeeee... iiii know who you areeeee...

Wahahaha.. ok i'm being crappy.. that's Rod Stewart btw. LOL~!

I'm leaving the house soon for a short rehearsal.. i wonder if i have any plans later.. if not i shall head home and be the good girl that i am..

And i'm itching to change my blogskin again.. lOL!

Ish. Nad is toooo free.. Oh well. maybe its just today!! hehehee..

I'M SICK AND TIRED OF DOING WHAT I'M DOING!!

I wanna cry already la like this..

Rubbish...

This goes on and on and on.. and it doesnt seem to end..

Seriously, i would rather get locked up in a room with books to read and that would still be more interesting than now. Or maybe even get locked up in a room with nothing but a window is also much more interesting la.

Haiz..

I should just stop complaining... Coz, thats what i'm good at wat... getting into things that i don't really like doing...

YOU KNOW WHY?!?!?!

Coz, i never seem to get what i want. NEVER EVER.

Well, so it seems.

Ok.. I think i'm in one of my moods today...

*buries self*

Ok ok.. I have to think happy stuff.. i'm going out later.. cannot be wet blanket.. cannot cannot..

And as i scroll up to read this entry again..

I realise that this is one of my most schizo entries ever..

*jumps off edge into pool*

Everytime i hear this song.. And when the chorus comes along..

This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

I tend to remember alot of things... And then grin to myself.. wahahah.. i dunno whether or not some people would have the same thoughts crossing their mind when this pass thru their head...

Tmr's friday.. and i'm totally looking forward to it!!! I mean halo!!! ITS BLOODY FRIDAY LA!!

Oh and guess wat? I fell yest during training and i have sucessfully twisted my ankle. But its not hurting.. so i'm fine.. its jut a little sore..

I'm meeting Hally tomorrow! Dinner reservation is made. Phew! I've learnt my lesson every time I go out and there never seem to be any place vacant for pple to break fast... it sucks. BIG TIME!

i'm gonna spend Hally's money tomorrow!! *grins*

Speaking of spending money, i'm gonna strangle mel if he makes me buy something this weekend! That is if i happen to meet him... *rolls eyes*

Oh and and and.. NEWSFLASH!!!

HARI RAYA'S COMING! IN 2 WEEKS TIME!! YAY!! wahahaha.. BUT, i still have yet to search for my Baju Kurung.. This again.. Sucks. BIG TIME! I simply don't have the time to go anywhere man.. Grrr..

Oh and the watch on my blog... Where i put as my latest indulgence.. just to clarify to some people..

like hally...

I OWN THAT WATCH NOW!! wahahaha..

Just something my mom force me to buy to remind me of what i got myself for my first pay... I didn't really like it at first.. but now.. i'm falling in love with it.. lol.. Its hard not to.. doncha agree??

Anywayz, that's all for now.. i'll update again soon...

This...

My faithful readers...

Is my latest indulgence..

what you guys think of it?

And yes, i've been shopping.. LOL! and i should stop soon.. LOL!!! wahahaha

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo!!!

Its Monday already!!! I wanna cry!!

wahahahha..

and i'm still awake.. i should just go to sleep now.. seriously!!

But first.. i shall put up some pics..

The Casts & Director/Playwright for SAVING LOUKAITIS.

We went to substation for our reading the other.. i totally enjoyed abusing mel~! WAHAHAHAHA...

From left to right: (TOP) Danny, Mas, Me, Yana (playwright cum director) (BOTTOM) Mat Noor, Mel & Idil

And the best part? We're all hardcore camwhores! WAHAHAHAHHA!!! Idil poses nearly everywhere he can pose...

Hmmmm.. *looks at clock* Shit.. its so late already.. i'm gonna kill deena..

anywayz, i gotta go.. we'll see what i shall update on some other time.. I cant seem to remember wat to type!! haiz.. sadded.. so i shall floats off to bed i suppose.. wahahha.. bye bye!!

When was the last time you went out with your pri school fren? Esp, one that you havent seen in 3yrs?

Well, i did! today (friday)!!! It was a totally impromptu meeting.. We chatting online on the fateful thursday when we started complaining why we cant seem to meet up with each other and well, the next thing we know...

We're meeting the next day! AHAHAHAHAHA

We talked and talked and talked. Well, she said some things just never change like how i could go on and on and on... We reminisce over the good o'l days... And how we were like back then and now.. and how i came back in the beginning of pri 6 with the shortest hair ever that shocked nearly everyone around.. LOL!!! yes yes.. those were the days.

We also realised that someone is just plain punctual. WAHAHAHA... literally on the dot, even i myself didnt realise it till she pointed it out to me just now.. lol!!

I'm happy over alot of things! wahaha!

Anywayz, i'm just gonna post up some pics of us just now.. ENJOY!

Me (Nutcaze) & Huda (Hudchub).

That's us at Starbucks Paragon!! The collar of my shirt and her tudung same same hor? hahahah

And then there's the pic on the escalator....

Its always thrilling to pose while waiting for the traffic light to turn green.. *grinz*

I'm not gonna post all of it up la.. so thats all for now folks! hahahaha

Dear Sirs,

We refer to the above matter.

As promised, we will now update you on the status of the case through out the week.

We apologized for not being able to give a daily report on this matter.

Regarding last Saturday, our counsels Ms. Nad and Mr. Mel, went to esplanade rooftop for a rehearsal. A copy of their picture is enclosed so as you would know who we sent for the meeting.

However, we regret to inform you that it is just a reading for this coming saturday at Substation, therefore big group of audience will be denied entry. (yeah rite).

Based on the research done, we found that it is based on a true story and the client's version was undoubtedly correct. We feel that it would be a 100% claim in their favour. Please give us your instructions regarding this as soon as possible.

It was an impromptu gathering. We enclose photographs of the said reunion.

With a very talented team on board, we would like to inform you that this would be a very long and difficult trial coming up. Please be prepared for any surprises that might come along the way as we are not able to predict anything yet at this stage.

We enclose 1 original picture of the said team.

Following the Rooftop rehearsal, our counsel, Ms. Nad herself, had to rush down for another rehearsal to be performed at Victoria Theatre on the 16th December 2006. We met the other party's counsel and rehearsals or discussions ran as smooth as smooth can ever be.

We are pleased to inform you that we might be able to reach a reasonable settlement.

Sunday might be off-days for all, but we at this firm worked full time for the benefit and well-being of all our clients despite the fact that it was Ramadhan. Therefore, please do not complain if we happen to charge a higher fee than other firms.

We went for a sparring session at or about 2pm. The Defendant has underestimated our counsel and it resulted in us winning the bout. The Defendant was however not able to grasp the fact that he lost and therefore has given inane excuses not worth to be told or taken note of.

Mondays being blue for all, was not so blue for all of us. On behalf of our clients and through the contacts of our counsel, we were given tickets for the Singapore Idol Result Show. A rather insightful and DEAFENING experience and definitely more to come. Our counsel will keep you informed of further developments and invitations.

Tuesday being a slow day, our counsel did not have the opportunity to reach any settlement on that day due to the Defendant's insured being confused half the time. Therefore, our counsel had no other choice but to look forward to what in store after working hours.

It was not exactly the best of meetings but tutoring mathematics on a tuesday might give great satisfaction to some.

We would like to inform you that PSLE starts next week 4th October 2006. Please be punctual for the hearing.

Wednesday came and our counsel had to rush for the training of the mind. Afraid that she'll be late, our counsel did not manage to break fast before training and also for the fact that training starts at 7pm sharp.

Therefore, if in any circumstances that our counsel has to be warded for a few days, please take note that you will have to bear the costs.

She was not able to excuse herself right after training as the instructor decided that she has to spar with a few of the male species present that day to prove that she has improved. Our counsel only managed to eat at 10pm when she reached her residence.

Kindly note that these expenses will be catergorized as disbursements.

We will do a follow-up on this report towards the end of the week.

Please let us have your instructions within the next 48 hours, failing which, we will stick with your previous instructions where we will commence legal proceedings without further reference.

Please let us hear from you.

Yours Faithfully,
Countess

I went for Singapore Idol result show yest..

wahahahha!!

Don't believe me??

LOL!

i shall blog all about it once i reach home... LOL!!

You know the feeling of making others eat back their words?

Its definitely SWEET!

Never underestimate your opponent.

Never underestimate me.

*grins mischieviously*

I rushed from one rehearsal to another. Rehearsals was fun today.. wahahahaha...

I met people.

One that i haven't seen in the longest time. Ok fine, maybe i'm exaggerating...

but seriously, you dont know how much you miss a person till you've seen them again.

*faints*

My saturday was great. Period.

I met Hally yest. Will be meeting her again soon i think.. wahaha..

Will update again soon. I'm currently so thirsty!!

Tomorrow's the start of fasting mth! happy fasting everyone! I have fencing tmr.. wahahaha!!

And i cant fast. like thanks alot.

*grumbles away*

You know, sometimes we look for the big things in life for signs, for hints. Most of the time, its the little things that means more.

They write that in stories as well.

And i'm beginning to believe in that more and just get contented.

I've recovered.. but i'm still coughing like free!!

Ok.. I'm famous for doing this, But i'm literally afraid of clients.. It takes me awhile to get use to them and the fact that i have to call them and everything..

So today, i have to call the files that are literally put on hold due to my fear... wahahhaa.. and well, they're not so bad after all! wahahaha...

I think i will be suitably busy today.. wahahaha...

hmmm.. i might just like my clients....

ANYWAYZ,

Yellow Chair's show, Sketches: A story of hope is done. The show was last weekend. Seriously, 3 shows in one day is one kinda of an experience man.

When i reached home, i was so tired i just sat at the sofa staring into space. My mom thought i was sick. WAHAHAH!! And i couldnt move at all... damn tired sia.. like as though i did the 2.4km run 3times in a row!

Hally said i was very lemau on the last show.. wahahaha.. lemau eh... sorry la! haiz.. you think being old very easy issit? wahaha... i know la you very experienced grandmother... so far my grandmother roles needs the aging potion. i am one confused grandmother... wahahhaa..

but anywayz, it was a good show.. i definitely enjoyed my weekend eventhough it was tiring... hahahah.. it was definitely priceless..

the fashion shows, the pictures, the jokes and laughter. Definitely worth remembering.

In every production, you'll meet new people. I definitely have made new friends.

So for now i'm done with rehearsals.

Like i said.

For now.

Next event, 30th Sept, Substation.

Wahaha..

When you wanna make up your mind, you need time, peace & quiet.

She just doesnt understand that i need that. She doesnt know what i'm trying to tell.
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Got offered another role. Heavier than what was offered before. HAhaha... For somebody who's not taking it serious, i sure as hell know how to get caught up with it.
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I thought the promise was broken. But then, i thought wrong. Thank you for making my day.
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today, its the 13th September 2006.

An acquaintance just flew off to further his studies.

Everyone's furthering their studies. One's off to the US, the other is in Australia, one's off to the UK at the end of the month, and some already got their places and going off in the really near future.

I'm still here.

Am i lagging? *ponders*
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If i was given a day to treat you any different, i wouldn't know whether i'll accept it. Coz, i'm afraid that i'll get greedy and decide that one day's not enough coz, i've dreamt of forever.

And i think my flu is getting to my head!

hahahahahaha...

And i've still not recovered. Here's the kick, i'm fine out of the office (or maybe not so fine) but once i step in, my nose is running at a faster pace than before.

*faints*

See ya around lovely pple!

I had a dream yesterday...

For someone's who's sick and having troubled sleep.. I had a dream, a rather insightful one actually.

Sometimes, i've wondered whether the choices i've made in my life were made because i'm expected to do it coz, its the most natural path to take or to make it because everyone expect me to make it.

There are times that i wonder whether am i making it because i want to do it or is it because of the fact that there's some sort of an expectation to live up to.

This break from school is the right decision for now.

From young till poly, all decisions were made by myself. Fast-paced. Expected (or not). Did i have time to thing about it? maybe not, well, you cant really blame it... especially when you're in Singapore's education system.

You're done with your 'O' Levels... You have to make the next decision of JC or POLY.

IF JC,
Which JC? Why there? why not this one?

IF POLY,
WHich poly? what course? What if i get bored of it half way thru?

But then.. you have to think all about this.. then you realise.. JAE is in a mth.. or something like that...

hahahaha..

Now, that i'm out of the education system for the time being, i'm gonna plan my life the way i want it to be.

Yes, maybe this job is just temporary.

Coz, after this, i'm going on a soul searching trip.

First BKK, to fulfill a promise.

Second to Bali, maybe with friends and cousins.

Then, i'll go visit my family in Nederlands.

Maybe some greens, sheeps and mountainous air would help make the mind at peace.

But of course all these have to take place after i've gone for the Fencing Competition in Selangor. I'm really looking forward for that.

HAHAHAHA!!

And dont get distracted with this entry, coz if you do.. scroll down and read my publicity entry!! wahaha.. the show's happening this coming weekend!

Ooo look.. I'm at work now..

And its already 5.45pm. Mom's asking me whether i wanna go to the doctor or not...

*ponders*

I wonder.. how on earth did i survive today with my runny nose, and cough...

And i refrain from answering any calls and end up with people looking for me.. So much for me not wanting to go near the phone today...

Wahahaha..

And yes, this is my first entry from work. You know why? Coz, i finally have my own desktop. Like yay.

I made so many stupid mistakes today.. like putting the wrong vehicle number on the demand letter.. and now i have to change everything! I made the exact same mistake on every single demand letter that i made today! ARGH!

And my boss have left for the day.

Oh bother.

Some of you would have already known of my weekends activities... and Some of you are aware that i've been having drama rehearsals... Am i rite?

Well, i've been invited to act with Yellow Chair Productions for an upcoming play... It's called...

Sketches: A Story of Hope

Since i've have yet to do my publicity..

HERE IT IS!!!

Its inconjunction with the Yellow Ribbon Project!

You know how the Yellow Ribbon Project is to create awareness for the public to help unlock the 2nd prison rite? Basically, the play is about that.

An ex-convict looking for his place again in society with nearly no one to support him in his journey. Like every dream, you need faith and hope for it to materialise. Like every step, you'll need strength and support. Like every person, there's always a story behind them.

So Don't miss it!

The details are as follows:

Dates:

16th September (Sat)
17th September (Sun)

Times:

SATURDAY: 2pm, 5pm and 8pm
SUNDAY:2pm and 5pm

Venue:
Tampines Central Community Centre (it will be set in a blackbox not on those wooden platforms you call stage.. hehehehe)

Tix price:
S$4 each
(DON'T EVEN COMPLAIN ABOUT THE FACT ITS EXPENSIVE! IF YOU CAN AFFORD TO WATCH A MOVIE, THEN YOU CAN DEFINITELY AFFORD TO WATCH THIS!)

To book tickets, you can either book it thru either of the yellow chair members if you know them.. if you dont.. feel free to book it thru me..

1. just sms me.
2. leave a tag on my tagboard together with your name and how many you want.. i wont book for those who calls themselves anon or anonymous or watever it is.
3. Just email me
4. approach me on MSN.

There you have it.. All the possible ways of getting me via the computer and internet for all you tech savvy people out there. WAHAHHAHA...

Oooo man..

Tmr i'm working... Is that good or bad??

WAHAHHAA...

I cant be bothered to dress formal in office wear tmr.. I swear i'm just gonna drap myself in jeans. REALLY.

I'm still having slight fever. I didnt go to the doctor, therefore my fever pills that i've finished on friday is not replenished. And and and.. My nose is still running away... My body's aching.. and i have no idea how am i suppose to survive tomorrow!!!

*sings out loud: "I will survive.. I will survive.. allalalalal"

Ok i should go and sleep now...

Oh wait.. after the next blog entry.. i'll go and sleep...

I should have known.

My prediction was right.

See... where am i now?

I'm at home, with fever, flu, headache and everything else. And i haven't go to the doctor... I'm wondering whether is it needed for a MC. I still have my fever & flu tablets...

*faints*

Its definitely gonna be a loooonnnggg weekend.

Haiz... And i'm hungry.. I should call mom for dinner...

Ok, i'm logging off now! I feel like vomitting.

BYE BYE!

Oh before i forget..

I'm gonna miss you mel!!!

Wahahaha..

rememeber your promise!!! If not i'm gonna murder you sia. 2weeks you know! bloody hell.

*angelic grinz*

Take care and don't forget the pple here on main land.. wahahha... oh oh.. there's always the paddle idea that azi was talking about the last time we met... wahaha..

Anywayz, take care, have fun.. and don't worry.. you look fine bald.

*grins* WAHAHAHA..

See ya when you book out!!

Ps: I already hear the satay ayam goreng calling out to me!! Hehehehe...

Watery eyes, dry throat and most prob a temp that's going up...

Fucking pissed

Fucking tired.

Its been a fucking long day.

Yes, i'm pissed today. Bloody Pissed.

Bloody Fucking Pissed.

Well, i wasn't pissed before even though i was deteoriating slowly at work... i was pissed later on. Like watever la. Seriously, i've been keeping it for awhile.. what's another week rite? Bloody hell..

I shouldn't have ignored my signals previously. Some things in my life brings along nothing but troubles and irritation. I should have known better.

But nooooooooooo, i've decided to be nice, i've decided to be soft hearted, i've decided to give in. I shouldn't have but i did.

Whatever la..

Argh... I dunno wat i'm typing anymore, the screen's a blur. haiz. Sekali tmr i cannot go work eh, that'll be hilarious shit.

Speaking of work, How's work? some's asking.

Work's fine. I don't know what else to type. There's a certain expectation to live up to. I have no idea why is it there though.

*ponders*

Advice in letters, instructions and i'm not even stepping into the bulk of my work yet. HAIYO!

Not that i'm busy, i finish my stuff exactly at 530 irregardless of how busy i am.. by 530 my table will be neat again, BUT, i finish work at 615... Which means, my 530 clean table doesnt stay clean for long.. unless of course the boss leaves early.

Haiya. Maybe i'm tensed with work. I dunno la.

Hahaha.. people's just wondering how long i'll last here... I, myself, am wondering. Its a nice place with a nice boss... but i know there's a better place somewhere else.. Coz, i've felt that better place before.

Sometimes, you just know, no matter how nice everything is, that place is just not for you rite? Yup. Its the kinda place that i know i wont be there for long. But at least its not like the prev. firm where there are times that i dread going to work. LOL!

So ya, Hally, i'm definitely gonna last more than a month...

hahaha..

aiyah.. i'm so tired already.. my eyes are damn hot. I should log off soon

Bye all.

Haiz.

I have no idea what to blog about!!!

Oh ya..

i had rehearsals on sunday rite? and well, we played the werewolf game after that.. it was the most embarrassing werewolf game...

I swear i'm so bimbotic! ARGH!

but it was fun and funny at the same time.. hehehhe..

rite now, i'm bored again.

*dies*

1. work's not too bad
2. i'm missing something
3. i cant believe i didnt see you yesterday! argh.
4. i'm gonna weekday night trainings... Now, i have no idea how am i gonna survive! Lol! but then, you wont know till you try rite? so ya..
5. i dunno wat to type already
6. love you pple.. muahaha
7. i'm happy for you senorita!

BYE! Thats all for now.

I just woke up an hour ago...

*Looks at the time now*

Its 3pm... Which means, i woke up at 2pm.

And rite now, i'm groggy and nauseous as though i was up drinking the whole night... Which obviously i didnt. I dont do such thing la... So waste money... wahahaha..

I'm currently nauseous! And i have training in an hour. Which also equates to me gonna be slaughtered and my sir gonna nag about me being lethargic. I'm so dead.

I swear, no more late nights for me~!!!

Ya i say only, sekali later tonight sleep late again..

EH.. cannot cannot..

Tmr's my first day of work... wahahahhaaha

i dunno whether is that good or bad. LOL!

Medical Negligence.

What constitutes to Medical Megligence?

Scenario:
A guy has stomachache for the past yr. He has been going to the hospital and was given some pills and the reason for his sickness was high cholestrol even after various scans. This guy is skinny by the way. Then recently he admitted himself into the hospital due to the unbearable pain (that is, after a yr of tolerating it and he is still fine).

The doctor then told him that he has a small lump in his colon. So, he was given an injection. When he came back for a check-up, doctor discovered that there's another small lumps. Operation is needed to remove it. He went for it. Hospitalised for 11days. He was discharged 11 days later, even though his wife suspects that he has not fully recovered, coz, his leg was swollen. But the doctor insist that he has recovered.

When they reached home, she found his stomach area wet so, she decided to change his clothes for him. When she changed him, she found water gushing out of the operation scar as though someone is peeing. She called the doctor at the hospital to tell him that she is re admitting her husband but the doctor said that it is just a common side effect and that they were supposed to go to the nearest GP to get help. She looked at the time, it was 11pm.

They waited till the next morning and went for check up at the nearest GP. Some medication was rubbed on the wound and it healed. At least, it looked as though it healed on the outside. GP told them to come back a week later for a check-up. They were told by the doctor from the hospital that any GP would be able to remove the operation clips for them. So the GP did it for them a week later, when they came back for the check-up and GP found that the scar had healed.

On their way home, the patient coughed and he cringed in pain holding his stomach area. His wife checked on him and when she lifted up his shirt, she saw his intestines and stomach coming out of the operation scar. Panicking, she called the ambulance and called went to the hospital again.

Upon reaching the hospital, the patient was not given immediate attention. With his insides out in the open, and just becoz he wasnt cringing in pain (he was so much in pain that cringing wouldn't help anymore) they were told to wait until 2 more patients before them are checked. The patient's brother-in-law started screaming and threatening the nurses before they took immediate action.

Later on, the same doctor, came and suddenly said to the wife that her husband has cancer that has spread to his lungs and liver. When she asked what are her husband chances, he said that he will be fine only that she needs to call their relatives.

Her husband died the next day.
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Would you believe when a doctor told you that someone has cancer at a terminal stage and later on he died on the same day? When he went for an operation and the doctor did not mention anything about cancer? when he wasnt suffering a yr before all of this. He was even working as per normal.

A cancer patient normally deteriorate over a period of time and not die just within a few hours.

What if i tell you that this story is not one that i've found over the net or not the kinda scenarios given by my law lecturers for projects?

What if i tell you that this is a real story? What if i tell you that the patient died a few days ago?

WHEE~!!

Grandmother's not home...

And there's only one other problem other than the fact that i rot at home alone with nothing to do is that....

There's nothing to eat as well...

Gosh.

I've been munching on nearly everything i could fine in the kitchen..

Basically, i need food!!

Argh.

I should stay out of the house the coming days...

sadded.

Let's see.. what do i have tomorrow??

OH YES!

muahahaha..

training!

muahahahhaha...

I'M BACK BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!

Anyone miss me??

I cant believe i just miss some people many many!!

ARGH!

Just one day there, stripped off all forms of technology other than a humble TV and radio and my cell... I felt lost. Bored. and DEFINITELY deprived.

Seriously,

One would not realise how much technology plays a part in their life, till it comes to a point of time where its not available for your own exploitation.

I dunno, maybe its just me.

But i think it'll hit any teenager in singapore. Teenagers who have a comp in front of them, in the comfort of their home, chatting away on MSN and typing inane blog entries to amuse themselves and to irritate the shit out of, maybe, some blog-passer-by-ers.

And i wondered how on earth my cousins SURVIVE without such technology around at night to actually occupy themselves with SOMETHING to do.

i'm amazed.

But anywayz, like most blog entries, its either for bitching, jest, complaints, sarcasm, fun, ramblings or whatnots, i shall therefore indulge myself in either one of those stated above.

I shall start on telling you beautiful pple out there of my journey back to Melaka, Malaysia.

*cues theme song: MALAYSIA TRULY ASIAAA!!!*

Well, as i was out the night before with my beautiful friends, mel and azi, whom i've missed terribly within a short weekend overseas (or rather across the bridge), just coz, i'm deprived of talking to them online.

Ok fine, i still have my phone. But one person did not reply my sms.

So ya.

But then again, i digress.

Mel predicted that my mom would be waking me up at 630am to bathe and whatnots. Especially when, i was out late, came back and was online till late, and i still have NO IDEA what time is my bus back to Melaka.

BRILLIANT.

And true enough, as mel predicted. My mom woke me up at 630am. I rolled around, burst out laughing remembering a certain similarity to a prediction and reality, in the morning. Only to find out that, my bus is at 8am!!!

Ok fine, I was sulking after that:

1. for not being able to take my time
2. for informing of such "vital" information at such a late stage
3. i'm just not a morning person (90% of the time anywayz)

So off i went to bathe and make myself prettier than i already am, throw some necessities into the backpack and i'm ready to go.

Made my way to Lavender St. That's where all those Singapore - Malaysia Express Svcs are situated.

Guess what i found out?

MY MOM BOUGHT TICKETS TO SINGAPORE-MALACCA EXPRESS BUS INSTEAD OF TICKETS TO THE DELIMA EXPRESS BUS!!!

My "beak" was longer than donald's by then.

One wonders, why is Nad making such a big fuss, esp when i'm usually a fuss-free person. Am i rite?

Well here's why:

1. I've never had a great experience on the Singapore-Malacca Express
1(a). There's always cockroaches
1(b). There's such to have some sort of defects with the air-con (its either to cold or the air con is non-existent)
1(c). The bus is either OLD or UGLY or BOTH!

Mom did try to make me happier by telling me that there's new buses under the company and its really great.

So when i reached the berth, there's 3 Singapore-Malacca express bus all departing at 8am.

3 buses.
3 different looks.
3 different conditions. (Oldest. New. Newest.)

Well, then.

Guess which one i've got?

If you guess............


OLDEST.


Then here's 100 virtual kisses for you!

*Virtually kisses winner 100 times*

Yup. I've got the oldest, ugliest bus. The air-con was effing NON-EXISTENT! Some of the seats were falling apart, but thank god there wasn't any cockroaches.

And also the fact that the journey wasn't that long. So i didnt have to tolerate it for more than 5hrs or something you know. But then again, more than an hour should be torture already.

Thank god!

So once i've reached.

I've not eaten so much in the longest time. Pigged out at Kenny Rogers, sweets, Satay, all kinda things!

And later on in the evening was went i was bored to death.

I couldnt post my horrendous bus ride. At least, if i could post that, it would have taken like, an hour of my time? LOL! then i could take the opportunity of going online.

But then, my aunt's house doesnt have an internet connection.

SADDED.

so when night falls and everyone grew sleepy, i looked at the clock, thinking that it might be midnight.. and suprise surprise... ITS 9PM!!

so i was draggin myself around the house, wondering what to do and started messaging pple. 2 of my cousins was busy trying to complete their schoolwork coz, school's reopening on monday (later) and the other has disappeared to go watch a hip hop gig and i'm pretty sure he came back only early in the morning.

Guess what i did?

I ended up playing with their new kitten. Her name is Pussy. Seriously, what kinda name is that? i just find it VERY WRONG. wahahahaha...

And later on, i ended up watching VCDs with my cousins when my aunt, uncle, mom decided to send my grandmother to the village coz, somebody passed away.

I slept end up sleeping late, coz, we were waiting for the parents to bring home satay to pig out in front of the TV.

In the midst of all that distraction, i know one'll tend to wonder, HOW ON EARTH DID NAD MANAGE TO MISS PPLE?

There's such thing as time before going to sleep you know. I've never slept early in the recent yrs, and having to toss and turn before going to sleep and me end up staring into the dark makes my mind wonder you know.

But thank god for handphones! Built-in camera are just so useful sometimes. I missed my cats too!

i shall post up the pics of their kitten soon.

For now, i shall go to sleep.

ARGH!

My internet connection sucked. Its been giving me shithead connection problems from yesterday. And i'm definitely not pleased. DUH!

Let's see... I wanted to blog about something yesterday...

*scratches head*

Oh well, I cant really remember wat it is now...

*Ponders some more before giving up*

SHIT! NOW MY MSN REFUSE TO CONNECT ITSELF! ARGH!

I shall be back in 15-30mins time..

*Roll sleeves*

Ok i'm back.. I hope my internet connection wont fail me now! It seriously irritates the shit out of me la..

Anywayz,

I went out with them just now. Both azi AND mel. LIKE FINALLY! hahahaha... YAY! I'm so happy!!! hehehehhee...

Its like.. hehehhe... fun, funny, i dunno.. enjoyed myself i suppose.. wahahhaa.. we have such weird and entertaining antics...

Ok before mel's head inflates any further... i shall stop...

Will be going Melaka later, I still have yet to find out what time i'm leaving singapore..

And i've not packed.. But then again, i'm only there for awhile.. I dont think there's a need to pack.. other than the following:

1. Extra Phone Batt (fully charged)
2. MP3 (fully charged)
3. Camera
4. Coming home top
5. Sleeping outfit
6. Lingerie

MUAHAHAHHA..

Now, that's really nothing. And i'm currently itching to take some chocolate from the goodie bag that's suppose to sustain me throughout the bus ride tmr! ARGH!

So unhealthy!!

Did i just say that? Oh god. *Smacks self*

But then again, i'm currently watching wat i eat wat... Cannot help it. To achieve something, you must sacrifice some things... Am i rite?? HAHAHHA.

RUBBISH! NAD SO RUBBISH!

Sidetrack: Do i sound schizo in this post or wat?

wahahahhaha!!

Anywayz, to those that's been worried about my employment status.

I'm just stating it here that... After 6 interviews, 3 offers and finally one that i've accepted.

I've gotten myself employed.

Thats all for now folks, i just cant seem to remember what to blog about... hahaha...

so before i type more nonsenscial stuff here.. I shall bid all ofyou goodnyte and sweet dreams!

Ok

Look at the video below.

Can someone point out the familiarity?? HEHEHEHE!!!



Hint hint: *Sings out loud, I GIVE MY ALLLLLLLLL!!!*

I'm currently in love with the Medley.

OK.

I went to SMU just now for some part time roadshow work. NOW, i might actually considering going there..

shit.

the people there are bloody nice. Haiyo!

Oh and guys in Unis are bloody flirtatious... I could smack one rite in the face.. but cannot help it la.. he quite good looking.. wahaha.. i happily play along lor.

Aiyah. I sound so bimbotic i feel like burying myself.

But seriously, *drools*!!! Aiyah. I'm such a deprived child. (I wish.)

But ah... i think i would definitely enjoy university life. Locally or overseas. Hehehehe.. *Devilish Grins*

So watch out Uni People... I might be coming soon. So look out for me!

Anywayz, i met Siok Lan in the end for an evening swim. I swear i have nothing better to do.

Fencing, go out, stay home, swim, fencing, swim, fencing, go out, stay home.

But anywayz, its been sucha a LONG time since the both of us crapped like that. She obviously was late.

Now, that girl ah. Gold Medal Bimbo.

Oh siok lan, if you're reading this, you still know that i love you rite?!?! hehehhee...

So, she asked me to update her with my life.. and well, i did. LOL! talked and talked and talked. We swam for awhile. Well, at least i did and she kept hinting dinner so we went to bathe. Then we ended up at the stadium looking at a bunch of Under-18 mats training soccer for the Singapore Team and talked about everything.

She said that i looked at peace with myself. Yes. I finally am. hahahah. Glad to realise that.

Talk some more when her mom called to ask her to go home.. so she made me promise her that i'll wait for her at Causeway Point for half an hour before she comes back for dinner. So, i took my time waiting for the bus and well, i didnt have to wait that long in the end.

Thanks to the ultra long bus ride i decided to take.

We pig out like free. She found caps and she couldnt make up her mind so we were at the shop for nearly an hour before she decided that she's not gonna buy anything. I nearly died by the end of it.

And and and, guess what happened next?

She took 161 all the way to Hougang with me and stopped at my bus stop.. Cross the road to take 161 all the way back to woodlands. Seriously, i've never had anyone do that to me before! WAHAHAHAHHAAH!!!

So by the end of it, I reached home at 1130pm. *faints*
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OH! AND I CANT BELIEVE HIDAYAH STARTED DRAGONBOAT WITHOUT ME! CITOT! So much for her wanting to go together-gether!! ARGH!

And yes pple, i dont mind adding another sport into the list that currently has a weekly routine of Swimming and Fencing. I have a few others in mind. But oh well, we'll see... It might appear on the list sooner than expected. Who knoes! *shrugs*

But i'm still gonna strangle Hidayah.

Today's training was rather interesting.

Yes.

With me getting blue blacks and everything else...

Epecially one of my wrist that i think is gonna be totally nice there. I swear pple would mistake it for a wristband.. lol!

And the best part? I'm meeting Siok Lan in the evening for a swim.. I will either look abused or clumsy. LOL!
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Went for my pri sch's best friend's b-day celebration on saturday.

Its amazing how much we've changed. We havent meet up in the longest time and the only other photo that she hold on too and remembered us with was taken 3yrs ago, when everyone was in yr1.

Boy, was i thinner or wat? LOL!

I was the only pri sch mate that was there. Well, one of the reasons why i went was due to the fact that her mom requested my presence. Yes, i know her family and well, they know me and my mom...

The moment i reached, her mom hug me so tight i thought i'm never ever able to breathe again.

Her 3rd brother is still as irritating as ever, her nieces are sooo cute and well-mannered. And her friends, the guys were hilarious. Well, i wasnt really comfortable.. they're.. well... way out of my league.

We talked so much as though the years never separated us.

Maybe we'll go out soon. Maybe.
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I have something on tmr... i should just go to sleep already... and i cant believe i'm meeting Siok Lan later. Now, that is another one that i've not met in the longest time!

There's lots of things to look forward too..

I wonder.. whether is friday still happening?

OoOoOoOo.

LOOK! I'm blogging!

wahahaha.. ok ok.. i'm suppose to have training... but i'm told to come down at 3pm.. so that leaves me around 20 minutes or something before i convieniently will have to rush out of the house.

Shit.

I forgot what i wanna blog about again!

Oh ya.. here it is..

I've been blog hopping... And i realised that nearly everyone i blogging about how Mathilda has been voted out of Singapore Idol.

As well as, Siti Nurhaliza's solemnization yesterday.

LOL!

Now about Mathilda, its kinda expected dont you think that she'll get voted out one of these days?

Its about time people have to stop being so shocked about who gets voted out. Well, Joakim and Jasmine has stayed in there longer than anyone expected. But then again, it can't be helped can it?

Being an idol, you have to have that really really stroong fan base. I mean thats what an idol is, You have the looks, the personality or whatever they call the X-factor, the screaming fans and sometimes, people always have this thinking that voice can be trained.

That's the reason why certain pple go out before others.

Maybe they just dont have the looks desired by all the fans here... Maybe they dont have the personality of what people think an idol should have.

Well, i've no longer really followed Singapore Idol as religiously as before.. esp after Jay got voted out. Well, at least Jonathan is still in.

Hmm.. i think i must have something with "J"s... hahahhaa..

But anywayz, even though its a singing competition... it is still an idol-thing.

Across the causeway, Pop-diva Siti Nurhaliza finally tied the knots yesterday with the one and only Datok K.

One news that hit the media world like wild fire.

But seriously, it is shocking for the diva to get married to a divorcee with 4 kids. But they always say love is blind. If she's happy.. everyone's happy. LOL! And i cant stop laughing when i read someone's blog stating that she can't believe that Siti is gonna give her FIRST EVERYTHING to him...

Well, she knows what she's getting herself into. Even though it creates controversial news. its her life. Nobody cares if a normal person gets married to someone 20yrs older than them... so why bother if its her that got married to a man 20yrs older than her.

Ok fine. So its Siti we're talking about here. The demure lady. The lady who rejected all the offers of royalty and yet still ends up marrying Datok K. Oh well. She's married already.

At least Datok K, unlike most men, is rich enough to maintain her, his children and his ex-wife. I mean seriously pple, if not the wedding expenses wont be RM 12 million.

So pple have to stop making a mockery out of the wedding. They're just a couple, like any other couple in love wanting to get married and live happily ever after.

Live with it.

Ok.. my create-blog-post-window has been here since 5hrs ago.

I JUST WANT TO BLOG BUT I HAVE NO EFFING IDEA WAT TO BLOG ABOUT!!

hmmmmmmm....

To tell you the truth,

I'm sick and tired of a certain something... Its just so weird. Sometimes, i just feel as though i'm wasting my time with it.. Seriously, it gets on my nerves sometimes. And the weird part? I'm not even in it for very long.. Haiya.. I guess i should just get use to it, since i might be gone after its done.

Anywayz, i was reading Syima's Blog. Her chinese lectures seemed fun! It was totally hilarious reading it... I hope she doesnt mind me quoting it here..

"Chi. Lecturer: 'Ren' is man. What would you call 'Ren Ren'? Anyone?
This German guy behind me: Twins?"

Hahahhaha.. that was seriously a classic one la.. wahahahha...
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I have a truckload of pics to post up here.. but somehow, blogger isn't co-operating with me! ISH! Its really irritating! I mean i really have really really really long overdue pics! And i really wanna share it with the world! lol. And make me and whoever in the picture with me equally famous. LOL!!

But shit. I dont think it'll be happening anytime soon i suppose.

Sadded.
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I'm so easily irritated nowadays that its even making myself scared of myself! How weird is that?

REALLY! I can get irritated with someone, something, sounds, objects, existence.. its scary! I'm even irritated with a song sometimes. haiyo!

i better learn to control my irritation before it gets out of control and i get into trouble in the process.

*Smacks self!*
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I'm having training tmr. Now, that is another thing that is scaring me out of my wits. I look forward to it as though its my tank of oxygen. Its really scary! Coz, after one session ends and once i've gotten to know when's my next session, i'll be looking forward to it as though its some drug that i cant live without!

Its seriously seemed like an addiction. Like smoking or heroin or sleeping pills or weed or maybe alcohol? I dont know! and i have no idea what's making me look forward to it like that!

Like how i get itchy to swim when i havent swim for a week? Only you multiply that by 100 and thats my itchiness towards fencing after each session ends! ARGH!

Its like as though other days doesnt seem to exist. I look forward to things and all those other days that exist in between disappears into thin air. Its really unhealthy. But i seriously cant help it.

How?

*Snap out of it Nad!!*

Maybe there's more to the addiction then i've realised? Maybe.
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I'm getting out of the country this coming weekend coz, i have to send my grandmother back to the Kampong. HAIZ!

I have yet to inform Taufik.

Seriously, i thought my mom would not make me go esp when she said that she can go by herself if i dont wanna go..

and in the end? SHE BOUGHT A TICKET FOR ME AS WELL!!

Ok.. seriously, there's a few things that made me give that kinda reaction..

1. I have no idea whether or not i'll get into trouble for not being able to attend rehearsal

2. I can't attend Sunday's duelling! Ah.. SHIT! (See.. i told you its an addiction..)

3. I swear i wont have any form of internet, computer or technology there other than my phone!! And i cant seem to be able to blog thru my phone. I've been trying.. but its not working! And and and.. I wont have MSN! haiz...

Ok fine.. maybe i'm exaggerating.. its not as if i'm there for a week.. i'm only there for a day..

*Smacks Self*
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Hmmm... let's see what else i wanna blog about?

I think that's all for now.

Peace out!

I had the most interesting weekends ever...

One of the things i look forward for during the weekends is Fencing.

This particular weekend? I had it on both days (Sat & Sun).

It was one of those things that kept me rooted i suppose...

Well.. as i was saying that i was looking forward for Sunday's duelling... Well... I did look forward and end up having a hell lot of fun if not for my aching left leg joints that didnt really make me feel as though i did my best.

But my points were a surprise to a lot of pple and maybe not to all...

Got my body wire, lamee (Pronounced as la-meh), new jacket...

I'm so dead..

ahahahhaa..

anywayz, i think some people are nice.. as in really nice.. he seriously made my day by being nice.. WAHAHAHA!

they should have more like him in the world... The world would definitely be a much better place to live in. WAHAHHAHAHAHAA~!

I guess i'll be looking forward to tuesday then.. hahahhaa.. *grins*

and shit.. i think i'll have to disappear from singapore this coming weekend.. my mom ah... haiz.

I'm so tired...

I wanna go to the beach and play with the sand and build sand castles!!!

I wanna swim in the sea with the dolphins!!!

I wanna fly high up there with the eagles!!!

OK... i must be sleep-typing..

*YAWNS YAWNS!*

I have my normal weekend routine tomorrow... Only prob is later on in the day for Saturday... haiya!! I shall just go to sleep and make my decision later...

Oh and have i mentioned it? I love the colour of my blogskin!

OoOoOoOo.

I'm so sleepy...

I've forgotten wat i wanna blog about..

Hmmm.. oh ya! i remembered.

The other day i went swimming with azi and we end up having dinner at Techno... I was about to cross the road towards 291 bus stop when azi ask me to wait for her.. she was still at the table.

Guess what she was doing?

She was switching her sandals... coz, when she stood up to catch up with me.. she realised she was wearing the left sandal on her right foot and vice versa!! HAHAHAHAH!!!

Ok nvm.. i need to sleep now...

*Yawns again*

I was taking the bus back home today.. when i remembered the first year of my poly life...

Wahahaha..

I couldnt believe it...

Maybe coz, the song in my mp3 and the nothingness of the night sky made my mind wonder... Or maybe it was the places that the bus was passing through...

But yeah.. i remembered the beginning of my year 1...

I remembered who i first shared the news of what course i'm in with...

Haiz...

How i wish that i could turn back time and do certain things differently. We were not suppose to end up like this... Silence.

God, gave both of us a second chance. Yeah, i believe that was it. A second chance. But we both threw it away and took different paths...

I'm sorry.

But how i wish things were not like this. If only you'd be reading this. If only.

Before i stop remembering of what we shared... I will take this opportunity to just type it here before i'll close the chapter.. and hope that it will not resurface again... or maybe, you wont resurface again?

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Here it is:

I've known you for the longest time. We took different paths and i apologize for not trying when you were reaching out. I apologize for not staying by when i know you wanted me to. I know certain things happened that made you uncomfortable in public esp with me. However, I apologize for not being there even out of peers sight when you were in trouble. I miss your nonsensical chatter. I miss your illogical yet logical philosophy.

Its amazing how i was not there for you, but you were for me. I've only realised it now when i was looking back. You were there. Everytime. When i look out in the crowd, you were there, smiling back at me and when i turn to look back... you were gone.

But knowing you were there was enough for me. You knew that. You have always been. Even though we did not talk. I thank you for that.

Basically, I've missed you. And i hope we'll converse again one day.
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I know it was partly my fault and i acknowledge the fact that i didn't try hard enough. I'm sorry.

Let's hope its the end of me thinking of this.

I shall close this chapter.

I wish you well.

OK. I love the song that i'm posting below... Its been playing in loops on my media player... The song is just sooo.. errr.. KIND? yup.. i guess kind's the word. LOL! Its an all stars song. There's Mariah Carey, Celine Dion, N'Sync, Aaron Carter, Nick Carter, etc...

Those never hear of the song before can just ask it from me.. wahahaha

Lyrics: What More Can I Give?

written & composed by Michael Jackson

(Aaah, yeah, yeah, oh, no, no...)

How many people will have to die

before we will take a stand?

How many children will have to cry,

before we do all we can?

If sending your love is all you can give

To help one live

How many times can we turn our heads

and pretend we cannot see

healing the wounds of our broken earth

we are one global family

just sending your prayers

is something you'll feel

helping one heal

[Chorus]

What have I got that I can give?

(What have I got that I can give? Tell me)

What have I got that I can give?

(Yeah, yeah, uh, uh)

to love and to teach you

to hold and to need you

What more can I give?

Now let's rather lay down our fears

and reach out and make a pact

show him the love that is in our hearts

let us bring salvation back

just sending your love has the power to heal

so let's all give

[Chorus]

What have I got that I can give?

(Is not allowed to give just a little bit)

What have I got that I can give?

(Everyone should be a part of it)

to love and to teach you

to hold and to need you

What more can I give?

Say the words

I'll lay me down for you

just call my name I am your friend

See, then why do they keep teaching us

such hate and cruelty?

We should give over and over again

What have I got that I can give?

(We should give over and over again!)

What have I got that I can give?

(Oh my god, oh my God)

See, to love and to teach you

to hold and to need you

What more can I give?

What have I got that I can give?

What have I got that I can give?

(give you, give to you)

See, to love and to teach you

to hold and to need you

What more can I give?

What have I got that I can give?

(What More Can I give?)

What have I got that I can give?

(I wanna give to you, give it to you)

See, to love and to teach you

to hold and to need you

What more can I give

(they think I'm crazy but I'm not!)

[2nd Chorus]

What have I got that I can give?

(to give it to you, we wanna give to you!)

What have I got that I can give?

to hold and conceal you

(Oh, no, yeah, yeah, yeah)

to love and to heal you

What more can I give?

(Give me, give me one time more)

What have I got that I can give?

(What I got, what have I got)

(Say your prayers)

What have I got that I can give?

(Show the world how much you really care)

to love and to teach you

(To love you, teach you)

to hold and to need you

(to hold you, to need you)

(What more?)

What more can I give?

What have I got that I can give?

(What can I give? Tell me what can I give you)

What have I got that I can give?

To hold and conceal you

to love and to heal you

What more can I give?

[2nd Chorus until end]

Had training yesterday (Tuesday).

It was one of the most interesting trainings i've had.

Seriously, it was fun! wahahahahaa...

I'm on my road to winning again!

*Boogies ard*

I even have my own victory dance now... lol!! its dumb.. but i'm having fun.. wahaha. i'm so noisy during trainings that its hard for others NOT to join me... wahahhaa.. i should try singing out loud one day and i'll see who would be singing along... Wahahahah!!

Made new friends. Brian and Edward. They're really funny guys.

I cant wait for sunday's duelling, i hope they'll come.

*looking forward to coming sunday*

Ok now i shall blog properly.

Saturday

Hmmm. I have drama rehearsals. hmmm that one i shall not comment much about it la...

OoOoOoOoOo.

I cant believe i missed Team France's fireworks just because my cousin's solemnization was that day as well in the evening. I really feel like wanting to skip her wedding and watch the fireworks.

Then i remembered. I cancelled my Bangkok Trip becoz of the wedding. If i went for the fireworks display, i should have went to Bangkok as well. So ya.

let me just post some pics up then..

*rolls up sleeves*

The Wedding Cake. (Hanim's my cousin)

The Niece & The Aunt

The Void Deck - So cute rite the Dais? Got crown!

The only uncle that accepted the challenge to sing. I dunno wat's so difficult all the brothers could sing. ish ish ish.

The Dais in the house


Things in the Bride's Room

The Potpurri or otherwise known as the bunga rampai. Ok i'm the bunga rampai girl! I was helping to fill in the sachet and i even went home smelling like one.


One of the best things about weddings is that for you to take over the Dais and start camwhoring. Well, you can only do that at your relatives wedding not those that you dont know la.. so thats why i did.. and this is my final picture for this entry.

Good nyte all!

I'm at a stand still.

I've had the most interesting of conversations for the past few days.

To tell you the truth, i'm confused.

Over alot of things.

I'm afraid of something that will happen again.

Opportunity came again. But i'm so afraid. Afraid of it.

I wanted to go back to all that familiarity.

To go back to the things that i know i'm able to do so well or rather competently.

Am i to accept it?

I'm actually afraid to start.

There. I've said it.

For reasons that some might have suspect.

There's so many things i could say.

I hate the fact that i cant be independent at the moment.

I hate the possibility of that i'm not able to give when asked.

Is that the only reason for me to accept it?

So that i'm able to provide? for myself and whoever that might ask?

It hurts. The pain, the sorrow, the disappointment, the fear.

I long for warmth.

Its been such a long time since i hide in a corner and just allow the tears to fall.

Its been just too long.

Alot of things have happened.

And i asked myself again, why am i still here?

A glimpse into my Weekend.

SATURDAY

Drama Rehearsal at "10am"
Cousin's Solemnization at night... And i reached home at 1+ if i'm not mistaken

SUNDAY

Cousin's wedding.. suppose to go there early.. but thanks to my grandma.. we ended up reaching there at 120pm like that

Went for fencing training at 3pm to 5pm when i was suppose to be there at 1. *strangles grandmother*

Went for drama rehearsals at 6pm - 10pm.

I shall blog more about it later... but now i'm meeting my mom for dinner. good bye all!

Actually, i'm itching to blog..

But rite now... i'm so dead beat...

i have a really long day tmr.. i shall save my entry to when i have more energy to type it all out..

whee..

*faints and cont. sleeping*

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The above might be considered for my new blog skin...

Below are some of the entertaining and interesting websites i've found with my late nights... tralalalalallaa..

For those who's addicted to everything cute. here's the perfect website. lol
http://www.thecuteproject.com/

I've never seen a bunch of most Perasan bulldogs in my life. But i've seen it here.. seriously.
http://perso.orange.fr/
fashionvictimbulldogs/pages/luce.htm

Disaster bride wear.. well some of them are not that bad.. but this lady's comments are hilarious. lol!!
http://www.visi.com/~dheaton/
bride/the_bride_wore.html

OMG!

I ATE SO MUCH!

*faints*

Ish. I have to go do something healthy tomorrow!

Gosh. I cant believe i just witness myself typing that.

*faints some more*

I wanna get meself a perfume.

i'm going out tmr. wheeee..

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The next person who points that little fact out will just be smacked by me. seriously. if you're constantly busy, do you expect me to have an outing with you?

Yes. this might be PMS me talking. but i'm just stating facts.

If you cant be bothered to just do simple things. Then don't expect me to do it. I'm done giving but not expecting anything. Coz, it has always brought me nothing but disappointment. Nothing but trouble. So goodbye to me just giving. I'll only give when i see some effort being put in. other than that.

Dream on.

If you wanna avoid. fine by me. but dont complain later on about how your life is so utterly lonely and the fact that no one seemed to be caring about your existance. Only that someone did care but you were to blind to notice that.


yes. i have lots of things that i can go on and on about.


So dont get me started. you'll just regret it.


Again, i repeat.


This might be my alter-ego that comes out when i'm PMS-ing. But this doesnt mean i dont mean what i say.

Remember the guy who constantly annoys me? ARGH! this is the 2nd time in the week that i bumped into him. I literally ran away. WAHAHAHAH
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You know..

I really thought that my computer speakers failed on me again. Till i realise that the main speaker volume was on the lowest.

OMG. *Faints*
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Anywayz, went to watch click just now.

well, its a good show. But i dont like it. wahahahhaha

I dont really like things with really nice dads in movies.

Ok. i might be odd or weird or watever but seriously.

Nice dads are just like those really romantic love stories.

They only exist in films.

Are there really nice dads who truly honestly care? Are there dads who really realise their mistake and try to make amends? Are there dads who would put their family before everything else? Are there dads who really go out of their way to make everyone happy?

Are there husbands who really truly love their wives? Are there husbands who truly understands? Are there husbands who allow their family to be the pivot of their life?

Are there real people who's like the above? Real men? Men that doesnt exist only in films and tv series. Men that are not fictional. Men that are not mere characters to be watched.

Real men with real problems with real responsibilities with real feelings with real issues who still fall under the catergory of nice dads and devoted husband and that they really realise their mistake.

Such men. Do they exist?

Are there really dads who's on the verge of death chasing after their son in the pouring rain just to remind him not to repeat the mistakes he had done? are there? Dads whose last words to his family is that "Family Comes First"? Husbands whose last words to his wife is, "would you still love me in the morning?"?? Dad's who actually regret the fact if he missed a big portion of their child's life?

I dont really like such shows.

Its heartwarming. yes.

But it makes me wonder whether do such people exist.

It makes me envious. Unfortunately.

Why cant i ever feel such love and devotion?

Even if its just once. I would be satisfied.

I'm beginning to believe that i dont think i will expect much of my future husband (that is if i ever get married), just the fact that he stayed and cared.

maybe, just maybe, that would be enough.

Maybe i no longer hope much.

Hopes, dreams.

It is afterall the things that only exist on screen. arent they?

I read in a book once and this is wat i'll quote,

"Men get mad, while women? women get even."
- Faceless by Martina Cole

See the scary truth in that?

*Shudders*

If you wonder what's softer than jelly? There's a few choices... 1. tofu... 2. my legs after training.

And now? my body's aching like a bitch.

Yup. i cant walk and thats not really the best thing to happen.

Even typing is a chore. But its ok... I shall get over this.

ANYWAYZ, i really think that the dog is dead! Coz, yest, (Wed), i went for a last min scheduled training and the dog is not there as well!! SO... i think its a good sign for me.

(Argh! this is a sidetrack. But i'm hungry!!!)

So what did i do yest?

Oh ya.. Went to a job interview.. with me trying to balance on my heels.

One note for girls, if your legs are aching due to too much running or something along those lines, just dont bother wearing heels. Seriously, you will just have this feeling that you're gonna fall off everywhere.

Met azi later on coz she wanted to collect something from CLEO. So she was telling me that she won a few things.. but when i read the letter.. i pointed out to her that she mis read the letter. Coz, it stated that she won a CLEO key chain.

So in other words, if she didnt intend to meet me, she would have travelled all the way to Raffles Place just to collect a keychain that has taken up the form of an orange flower with the word CLEO printed on the back.. WAHAHAHHAH!!

i still dont see why they just didnt mail it to her.

Went home with azi to collect my stuff.

I swear alot of stupid things happen whenever i go out with azi. I either turn utterly bimbotic or stupidly clumsy or just plain (dunno what to describe me as).

Well, my main reason to go home with her was that we could have dinner once i've collected my stuff from home. So, we decided to have dinner at Inspirasi at Bedok Interchange there.

So we were on the bus, and guess what? by the time we reached Bedok Interchange i realised that if i were to have dinner, i'll be late for training.

Basically, i reached Bedok Interchange to go down the bus and take the other bus back to Ubi. So ya.

Talk about being too free.

Met Mato on the bus after my training. Ok i so didnt recognize him without his hair gelled back! and also the fact that i was tired and my MP3 was on near to full blast. wahahahaha.. The guy's really funny. thats for sure. always have been.

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One thing for sure, i dont like being in the centre of attention. All those eyes staring at me and when the room grows quiet when people start eavesdropping esp when the topic of conversation is me or when you turn you realise that someone will stop talking and resume talking when they think that you're not focusing on them.

Yup. That kinda attention. I hate it.

There's always some kinda expectation to live up to and disappointment is definitely something that no one would wanna see.

Having someone believing in me is one thing but isnt it a little too soon?

i dunno. maybe i just dont believe in myself that much.
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If only you knew how much i'm missing you.
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"Why can't you just let me, Do the things I wanna do, I just wanna be me, I don't understand why, Would you wanna bring me down"

"i'm tired of rumours starting, i'm sick of being followed, I'm tired of people lying, Saying what they want about me, Why can't they back up off me, Why can't they let me live"

Ps: I know i've quoted this song in one of my prev entries.
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Suddenly, there's alot of things waiting for me. things that i thought wasnt possible before seemed possible to me in the near future. Yerp. I would try and do it. Who knows. *shrugs* Nope. i would not state what it is here. I would not bring it up in conversations either.

I've told it to someone before. But i think no one remembered. so we'll see whether or not it'll happen. I mean no use for me telling it to the world and end up not doing it rite? LOL!
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I'm utterly broke. Tmr's might be going for Law Goes To The Movies. 1. let's hope i'm able to go down the stairs... 2. that i get money from my mom.
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I shall go to sleep now. It's been a long entry.

Good night world and i'll see you again when the sun has risen.

Wahahahha...

I ended up going for it. And the best part? The dog wasn't around! I hope its dead. seriously, i hate the damn dog. it used to "chase" me out of the compound and i can never reach my destination.

Anywayz, my legs and arms are soft. I've definitely forgot how streneous it was. And obviously resulted in my darling of a coach laughing at me!

Seriously, my legs were wobbly... and i was trying to walk steadily to my bag to get my water bottle and retrieve my mask and guess what my coach thought? he thought i was sashaying around.

Me: *Trying to walk*
Him: "Wah, you gelek gelek only ah"

Bloody hell. Some things just never change i guess. I just shot him a death stare. And of course he laugh at me AGAIN!

Then later on, after training.. i just sat there... unable to move with my coach constantly reminding me to stretch to cool down so that i wont have cramps tomorrow. so i actually end up stretching while sitting there.

Then i wanna go home already rite, i sling my orange nike bag on me and tried to stand up which obviously ends up with me trying to stand up unceremoniously and my coach sure was having fun watching my antics.

Me: *tries to stand up*
Him: "Cannot stand ah? This is what i call a returning athlete" *Bursts into fits of laughter*
Me: *Ignores comment* "Bye SIR! See you on Tuesday!"
Him: "no no, you're coming on saturday and sunday i'll re confirm the tuesday's timing with you later."

Yup. So basically that's the gist of my training.

That plus some sort of bitching plus some sarcasm plus some expectations that were not erased plus lots of fun.

Its flattering to have your coach remember your antics from secondary school. Esp when you've disappeared for 3 (2.5) yrs.

I guess, he's one of those who believed.

ARGH!

OK i shall go for it.

ARGH!

nvm nvm.. i shall bathe, pack and go for it..

but i hate the dog! how am i going to go thru when the dog will be there???

nvm nvm.. i'll think of something.. i shall go now... n

There's always a first time for everything.

Like how its the first time (or at least that's what we think) that we're (me & azi) spent the entire day together purely on the basis of hanging out and not over the fact that we met for things regarding school.

Which was utter coolness.

let's see what we did today?

hrmmm..

1. Swimming.
2. Eat
3. Come my house. (coz, i needed to change)
4. Go TP to clear locker. (yes mel, you dont have to clear it anymore all your stuff with me)
5. Go Azi's house to dump stuff.
6. watch movie.
7. eat dinner.
8. look at books.

Seriously, its one of those jam packed day... only that you do it with one person for the entire day.. wahahahhaha...

and of course if any of you have went to azi's blog, you would have read my stupid moment quoted there. talk about hilarious.

Lots of stupid things happen today... wahahhaa.. like... err... alot of things la.. i cant really remember at the moment.. wahahhaa.. that's how blank i am at the moment.

And its the first time (well, at the moment since i cant remember anything) that a stranger is ultra nice to me.

Well, some of you might know how Carrefour's having those dicounts thingy rite?

well, i was stuck at the storybook area looking around and talking at high speed to azi while obviously eyeing for something interesting.

This was also went i spotted some books, so that azi could read the summary on the cover and resummary it for me. WAHAHAHAH!

And when azi wonders why on earth is she doing it? i just told her coz, she's being a nice friend and i'm being lazy. wahahhaa.. and also various other excuses like how i dont read while standing coz, i'll get seasick. I know, totally no link rite? LOL~

Then i was going on and on about how i wanna try reading other books by other authors but of the same concept as David Eddings, you know those kinda fantasy, sci-fi kinda things...

and i was blabbering about how i have this thing about if i own one book from a series, i would have the urge to buy the entire series so as to make it complete.

And also i was requesting for azi to buy for me the entire David Eddings collection for my birthday and how nice it will look on my book shelf even though i've read some of the books thrice.

And also how i was going on and on about how i should ask the guys about the other books like that.. coz, i'm too curious about it since it is nice to begin with..

And also how i'm only going to buy one book coz, i dont have enough cash with me.. so i'm gonna choose carefully.

Me and azi was also bickering over books coz, she found all the diet books or the cooking books or the dalai lama books and showed it to me.. *FAINTS!*

In other words, i was doing my random nonsensical blabbering to azi while my hand reaching out for books.

The irony of it all was that i automatically picked out murder mysteries or mysteries or things along those lines.

when this caucasian guy standing beside me took a book out of his stack and show it to me and said, "This is Sci-Fi, you can have it if you wanna try reading it. the author's really good"

I was shocked that i actually stopped at mid sentence of my blabbering and looked from the book to him and back to the book and back at him. LOL!

then he continued saying,"But its a series though, if you really wanna try it, you can have the entire series." And he proceeds to take out the remaining 2 books from his stack.

That was went i actually decide to reply him (Cannot help it wat, i was shocked),"It's good? It's ok. You can have it, i'm only intending to buy one today." *smiles*

He: You sure?
Me: Very sure
He: Ok then, i've never seen a girl interested in these kinda books... *at this pt, his mom called him and he had to stop looking for more books and had to pay for it, so he just smiled and left*

See wat i mean by a stranger being extra nice?

I mean, he was standing beside me for the longest time looking thru the stacks of books and he actually offered to pass the books to me (the ones that he's been looking thru the stacks for) coz, he overheard the fact that i wanna try something new and from a different author.

Its really nice to have someone who dont know you at all being nice to you.

And then you realise, the world's not so bad afterall. LOL!

Ok. I'm still up at 415am... and i'm meeting azi later at 10am for swimming~!

I should just go to sleep now...

but no... i've decided to do something else before i forget all about it.. LOL!

first let me show you something...

No! I didn't behead anyone in the wee hours of the morning la goons! that's my mask! the reason why i'm still awake is coz of this the following:

Yup. I was polishing my sword. Being kept away for 3yrs obviously made it a little rusty... so ya, thats the thing that kept me up for awhile other than the fact that i was talking to mel and azi and also playing dead man's chest with azi.. wahahahhaa..

That is like 1/2 of my fencing equipments.. there's still the pants, plastron, electric jacket and of course my knee length socks and shoes.. wahahaha.. things like that.. And of course, it beats the sauna, with the high collared suit. *faints*

That is my glove turned pink coz, my grandmother attempted to wash it when it was dirty. Now, the glove is an irriversable pink. Thanks to my grandmother, my glove is the one and only pink one in the fencing community. And now, its an ugly pink and there's nothing i can do about it! ARGH!

And yes, if you still haven't realise it at the end of this entry.

I'm a fencer.

Specialising in Sabre' but of course i fence the other 2 sword types (Epee' and Foil) as well for reasons i would not put on this blog. wahahahaha...

And i've not retired. lol!

And now after entertaining myself with yet another pointless entry.. i shall go to sleep to meet azi in less than 5hrs and also to find an inspiration so that i could help hidayah with something.

I CANT BELIEVE I MISSED CABARET!

argh.

*goes to a corner to cry*

anywayz, if any of you go to shahdon's blog.. it shows this yr's ms singapore's evening gown at the miss universe pageant..

and the comments made?

"Miss Singapore's outift does not look like an evening gown it might be great for a fahion show but it is not appropriate for this competition. Instead of setting a trend we hope that this dress will forever be banished never to be seen on the pageant stage again."

How embarrassing is that? seriously.

and i've yet to blog about the NDP sneak preview that i went for yest... will upload the pics soon.

my body is aching! i shall go swimming tmr.

1. CABARET (22July - 30th July)
OOOOO!! i wanna watch CABARET!!

ARGH! i shall pester my mom!

2. Westlife - Face to Face
And guess wat? Wahahha.. Westlife's having a concert in singapore on 8th Sept... Again. I wonder, whether azi will be going? ahahahha...

3. Forbidden City - Potrait of an Empress
Forbidden city? That one. I dunno whether i wanna catch or not. I'm not really a fan of the story to begin with.. so ya.. hmmmm.. *Sings ala yazid: Starting with the eyes.. lalallallala*

4. Robbie Williams - Close Encounters (18th November)
Hmmm.. i know azi is definitely considering to go for this one.. I've never actually listen to him before.. only those older songs you know.. But the ticket price's one of a kind man.. LOL!

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Let's see what else i wanna watch? hmmmm...

cant think of any at the moment.

And i wanna watch so many movies tooo..

1. Lake House

2. Singapore Dream

3. Happy Feet

and i cant remember my list at the moment! argh. like thanks. hrmph! i shall have my movie list up soon..

let's see..

i've caught Mistress of Spice the day it opened with my cousin and mel... Hmmmm.. the movie was ok lar.. nothing much...

Watched Just My Luck with Azi on Tuesday. That was stupid yet funny. I actually enjoyed the movie.

AND AND AND.. I've caught Pirates of Caribbean with mel and azi today!!! FINALLY! Wahahaha.. shall blog about it later...

Things i wanna buy...

1. HAMTARO SOFT TOY!! Its on sale.. $15.
2. this really nice pair of shades... $16.90

And a few other things... but i'm broke rite now.. so shopping is definitely out of question. HRMPH!

Writing in malay was weird yet satisfying.

If you're wondering what is it? oh well, dont bother la.. i mean i only write malay for those who understands. If it sounds rather angsty to those who understand, sorry for the sore eye. Its meant for someone who understands the language and whatever in there is directed to the exact same someone. lol.

But of course, i will translate it to those who ask out of curiousity. lol.

Wahahahaha...

Anywayz,

Its reminds me of my malay public speaking competition that i did back in sec. sch. lol! Coz, i'll always start with a poem. Thats like a trademark of mine. lol! self-written poem. Now, i'm only capable of one that i'm really proud of if its written in malay.

The irony of it all.

I dont even speak malay well.

My written malay still have to be further improved upon. Sadded.

Sekiranya tuan puteri menunggu ketibaan si putera,
Tunggulah sehingga rembulan mengambang.
Sekiranya ada hasrat di hati yang tertera,
Harap janganlah ada yang menentang.

Jikalau reaksi yang ingin dilihatnya, tak akan ku berikan apa-apa untuk menjadi tumpuan semata-mata. Aku adalah manusia. Mempunyai daya fikiran. Mempunyai perasan. Bukanlah boneka yang boleh didapati di mana saja. Boneka yang tiada akal fikiran, perasan ataupun tutur bicara. Suatu boneka yang telah diberi hanya semata-mata untuk dipermainkan.

Begitu cetek kah pemikiran mu? Adakah itu yang kau anggapkan dari diriku? Kalau betul lah sangkaan ku, begitu kecilkah, murahkah aku di mata kau? Tidak ku sangka bahawa akan tiba masanya dimana aku melihat gerak laku sedemikian.

Ataupun, kau hanya ingin memberi pandangan yang amat berbeza? Begitu takutkah kau dengan anggapan masyarakat diatas diri kau? Penghormatan diberi kepada setiap individu. Tetapi, adakah penghormatan diri kau masih lagi berharga? Ataupun ia sudah tiada ertinya, sama seperti boneka-boneka yang telah lama kau humban ke tepi kerana tidak bermutu lagi di mata kau dan disisi masyarakat?

Orang dahulu kala sering meingatkan kita, pelbagai nasihat yang akan diberi. Tetapi akhir kata ku, senang difahami. Ini lah suatu peringatan dari ku di bungkus rapi buat diri mu. "Setinggi-tinggi tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua"

Akan ku tunggu untuk melihat saat kegemilangan itu.

Its funny.

Some things are just priceless. Like jewels, precious stones, gems, knowledge.

Whoops~! Did i just type that there? hahahaha.. i guess it falls in the same catergory. Knowledge of various things are priceless isnt it? Yup. yup. Definitely priceless. *nods to further emphasize*

They always say that the best things are done unknowingly to the world. There's so many people that i know that contribute in that way. Secretly. Coolness is what i call it. lol! Seriously, what satisfaction would you get if you actually announce it to the world?

No one would care. The most, a small column in the news or a 5minutes of tabloid fame. Weird. There's so many people that i know that would be contented with that as well. As in getting known even though its just that small. Whatever amount of fame given to them, they accept it. They yearn about it too much that i wouldn't be surprised if they dream about it. Seriously.

These people, guess what they need? A LIFE! ahahahaha..

Went swimming today. It was fun. Will definitely do it again. Next time with the complete amount aite?

Its been a long time since i swim my frustrations out. Today i did it. ahahahaha.. and i sure get dark fast.

I'm going for the NDP Preview this Sat! YAYNESS! i'm actually looking forward to it. I mean, its just so fun to have the entire stadium singing along to everything.

ITS THE SINGAPORE SPIRIT I TELL YOU!

Kallang wave! I'm coming!!!

I have truck load of pics to put here... I shall do it soon.

Coach will be back soon, i better polish my stuff.

Some thing better get done by the end of next month.

If i dont get started on something by next month, i'm gonna apply for something more fulfilling in a way... ahahahhahahaa...

I swear everything here doesnt make sense. Its just random thoughts. But not every form of knowledge makes sense rite? Sometimes, it takes awhile for it to make sense. Maybe this will take awhile to be made some sense of.

till then, i'm going off.. i have something on tmr afterall. lol!

Oh look...

its 5.15am again....

I've been looking thru photos and all...

As usual.. you know when one is too free... wahahaha..

anywayz, i've realised alot of things have happened. 3 yrs is such a long time dont you think? ahahahhaa...

i have this thing about changing certain things once expiry date arrived knocking at my door.

i mean... time do get shorter and shorter as you pass thru each educational level. dont you think so?

ahahahaha...

6 yrs of pri sch. 4yrs of sec sch. 3yrs of poly.

I'm in the midst of changing alot of things.

Expiry dates have arrived afterall. 13yrs. No joke.

Its about time for changes. And i'm already making some to the things that are closest to me.

I'M SO PISSED RITE NOW!!

HOW CAN SHE JUST CANCEL OUT ON ME LIKE THAT?!?!?

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

LATER SHE WILL ASK ME," EH GIRL, MIA AH?"

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and when i ask her why? she say, DUNNO.

TELL ME LADIES AND GENTS, HOW IS THAT A VALID EXCUSE!?

I'm so pissed. I put down the phone without saying bye. I shall apologize for that some other time... for now, i'm pissed and irritated.

i should have just stick to my decision of going by myself! argh!

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Ooooooooooo.. Now i'm meeting azi instead to watch a stupid show...

wahahhaa.. I'm not so irritated anymore, i'm surprised instead. waahahaa...