Saturday, December 04, 2010

JOURNEYS

Steps. Decisions.

What else are there to think about? Apparently. Tons. One thing i hate about life is that the future is so hazy!

I had a conversation with a friend the other day. She asked me who am i gonna get married to? When am i gonna get married.

I asked myself; have i did everything i've wanted to do? Partially yes. But it is still a long list to be completely fulfilled.

Did anyone watch the latest episode of Grey's Anatomy? Season 7 Episode 10? In that search of love, she made a decision out of the kindness of her own heart. She sat there saying that she'll marry him coz she would be able to help him. Then my tears fell. Someone else would think its stupid of her, but truthfully... i thought it was the sweetest thing ever.
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A Month Later~

I didn't realise its been a month. And today marks exactly one month since I last updated my blog! And i only realised that when someone posted it on my facebook wall. LOL!

School's out. Exams done. Essays Finished.

I'm just currently waiting for my results! oh hell yeah! LOL! I hope i cleared all my modules this sem despite the glitches along the way. I mean I know i'm smart but I dare not give myself that kinda credit you know? LOL!

I'm currently packing. Packing to leave adelaide for Beijing. Many of you would know of this Beijing internship but I think many of you didn't think that I'm going as well. But fortunately or unfortunately (no idea how other pple would see it), i got the internship too!

I didn't say anything initially coz I didn't think I will get it, coz its a highly coveted internship for students all over the world. When I got it, I scream in excitement for awhile but didn't think anything more of it coz it was still a good 6months away. Then I got caught up and was whisked away by assignments, exams and flying in and out of Singapore. When that was all done, its 2 weeks away from going to Beijing.

I'm excited, scared, nervous but at the same time looking forward. This time next week, I'll be spending the first weekend of my 2 months in Beijing.

Just be happy for me people! And pray for me too in hopes that nothing bad will happen there! =)

I'll be back in singapore 3rd February till 25th February. SO pls, if you wanna meet me, its really a first come first serve basis as of now. I mean I'm not trying to make it as though i'm so popular but 3 weeks is not a long time and I still do have to spend time with my family too.. So yeah, i'll have to apologize beforehand if once again, i didn't get to meet up with you guys... =(

So that's what I'm packing for; 2 months in Beijing. On top of that, my housemates are moving out of here next year and they are moving somewhere in mid Jan or Feb when I'm not around so I have to pack all my things coz they decided that they would help me carry all my things to the next house! =)

Despite the dog, I actually like my housemates. They're kind people. They're nice too.

There's really nothing much about me that I can update and I know that i keep on saying i will put up a birthday post but I really forgot about it. I think i will soon. =) and I wanted to do a pictorial post but I left my cammie in Singapore with deena and pics are in Mel's cam. I will do it soon. Maybe when I'm in Beijing and I could walk over to his room and ask for pics. LOL!

By the way, ITS 36DEGREES TODAY AT 4PM! HOW RIDICULOUS IS THAT RITE?!?!?!?!

I'm sitting in the dark in my room typing away with the fan on full blast and thinking to myself that i'm gonna evaporate into nothingness.

Love Life: Still can't be bothered. Maybe there were a few but kinda grew bored. When someone interesting comes along, i'm either busy or he is busy. SO YEAH. And again, maybe I can't be bothered to make the effort too. I dunno. To me, if a person like me, I'll know other coz he'll be the one being persistent.. Persistent and stalkerish is 2 different things HOKAY! just to be clear. I already have my fair share of stalkers in my short stint here so far. other than that, don't waste my time. HAHAHAHAH!!

Friends: Made a few more. But sometimes, I would prefer to not have. I don't know. Sometimes, they require answers that I don't usually think about myself. I don't really care you know? Sometimes, you wanna get as far away as possible from the things you leave behind so that you can play by your rules and be successful on your own terms. Make your own life. My friends, my friends are different. Coz they know me that well. Other people, other people judge, comment, dislike and then they demand answers. Seriously? After all that? Who are you for me to explain myself to?

Maybe that's the reason why its hard for me to make friends. But I am anti-social I know that for a fact. Friendship is suppose to be simple. Why does everyone make it so damn complicated? Like all other relationships, its all about honesty. Is that even so hard for me to ask? tsk.

Looks: On to different News, despite growing older. I still look the same. Some still think i'm 18. But no people. I'M 24 AND I'M PROUD OF IT! LOL! seriously, i don't get it why people lie about their age... I don't get it.

Its the same as how some pple think i'm eastern european (french to be the most far-fetched guess of all but i think its coz of the green contacts i was wearing that day) but no people, I'M ASIAN AND I'M PROUD OF IT! hahahaha! I'm proud of my conservativeness in some areas (but seriously, not all asians are conservative ok. Get that out of your head. Have you seen some of them japanese, vietnamese, or thai girls? Tsk.), I'm proud of my highly complicated ancestral line, I'm also proud of the diverse group of friends i have <- that. that you can achieve easily being asian. Coz we love pple that much! HAHAHAHA!

Birthdays: Everyone I know and close with have finally turned a yr older! Its about time too.. its DECEMBER PPLE!

THE MONTH OF WHITE, GLITTERS, SNOW, LOVE, PRESENTS AND EVERYTHING FESTIVELY AWESOME!!

Time to end the year with a big bang ya'll! Age is after all just a number isn't it? You're lying if you tell me that you wake up on the day you turn a year older feeling all wise and shit. -.-" You just turned a year older pls. Not like descend into some kind of enlightenment and got reincarnated on your birthday.

Ok I should stop now before my entries get a little more ermm.. angsty? HAHAHA!

I will write again soon after I'm done packing my things! I need to resume folding my clothes. Just did my laundry! heh. TOODLES! LOVE LOVE!