2+4 = 24. Old? Nah...

1 year have passed and its that time of the year again; 2 days ago. Something happened on my bday that i'm not sure if i was being too unreasonable about it... hmmm.. do i feel guilty for being angry? yes.

Sometimes, i'm just so torn between what is right, what is wrong and what is it that i still have the right to do... confused?

yeah well. let me give you a scenario...

My birthday fell on a Monday this year. I was brought out 2 days before that Monday. The Saturday. Had dinner. Open presents. Went out. Party. Take photos... And then Monday came along and nobody called. and i didnt expect that somebody would assume other things.. maybe he was being concerned. Aiyah. i also dunno..

but the bottomline was that: was i wrong to be pissed/angry/sad/whatever when we already celebrated my bday 2 days before my actual day? should i have just let it go?

but we already agreed on going out on monday... AIYAH I ALSO DUNNO LA!

MOVING ON.

I actually enjoyed my really random birthday presents and the whole of saturday. Food could have been better but then again this is Adelaide, that's the nicest i've tasted so far *contented grins*

Didnt do anything on Monday coz nobody called... till afterwards when I kinda/sortof exploded via SMS. Went to pancake kitchen and ate everything i felt like eating.. it was a hell lot of food. =D

heh heh.

i'll blog again soon about the extend of my birthday.... coz i dont think it will end anytime soon.. =D

Confusion

Someone added me on twitter... yes. For all you pple out there, i have twitter! Hahahaha...

So thi girl found me on twitter and she's studying in my uni, she's malay, she's in second yr, she's from singapore and i actually enjoy replying her tweets.. we're now connected on fb now...

So she was excited after finding me... lol! And she was tweeting me rite somewhere along the lines of.. "AND YAYYYYYY! You're malayyyyyyyyyy"

And guess whats the next line? "You are malay.... right?"

I read that and i burst out laughing in the bus. Its damn fast and extremely amusing how she was certain of what i was only to question immediately... Lol!

Looking forward to the friendship.. and i find her blog enjoyable to read too..

And she looks damn familiar... maybe i've bumped into her at clubs before... adelaide is afterall... that small. =)

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OF CONVERSATIONS AND WORDS

Someone said to me the other day, "When I first met you, i thought you were arrogant."

The entire line never fail to smack me in the face even though its been flung my way ever so often. I know I am the kind that never have the friendly face if I do not smile. I know that for a fact. I blame that to the genetics. Sometimes, I'm fine with it. Coz, the face on its own is able to cut down the number of people who will approach me and talk to me.

So finally, when someone finally talks to me, stupid or not (that's another story altogether), i think they're quite brave. LOL

My friends always say i'm a social butterfly. But truthfully? I beg to differ. I don't really talk much. I don't make the move to make new friends sometimes. I tend to keep to myself. I don't like any form of attention from large groups of people. Oh, and I don't really care what other pple think and just speak my mind. Is that the makings of a social butterfly? I, personally, think not.

so on top of the face and the things that come out of my mouth sometimes where people wouldnt know how to react coz strangers wouldn't be able to decipher if its just sarcasm and laugh it off or that i meant whatever i was saying. Ok maybe i do mean whatever I say whether sarcasm or not.. but you know what i mean.

Do people have the right to be arrogant? I dunno. Personally, I don't think so. Whenever i heck care, pple step all over me, regardless of strangers, sales assistants and sometimes acquaintances. When I do give them my stupid face, i kena arrogant.

Its a "can never win" situation. LOL!

Oh well.

There are some situations that i refuse to let myself down a level. People may think I'm stuck up on my high horses. But seriously, only very few people know what I'm capable off and that few people don't think that I'm out of line or unreasonable for being the way I am with certain things.

I'm always told that God created us for a reason. And based on personal circumstances, I would like to think that the reason of my existence is to break the barrier of any form of biasness and prejudice.

From young, i've always had a dream in mind. That by the time I die, I must have already touch people's lives. Coz, being famous and powerful doesnt mean anything. Loyalty and care for others, now that's another thing altogether. Easy to say.. but seriously, not the easiest to hold on too.

but of course, before i can make that mark (which i dont think i have already), and also to take over the world, I will first need to finish all my overdue essays or else i wouldn't be able to graduate and begin my journey of world domination! MUAHAHAHAHHA *cues thunder and lightning*

So take care all and here i am gonna get ready at 9.05am on a tuesday morning to head to uni and hide in the library.

Beijing in approximately 1 and half months. Oh god help me. What was i thinking when i applied for that internship! I'm excited and at the same time scared.

Calm down nad, you should know yourself better.

P.s: I ACTUALLY FORGOT THAT THIS COMING MONDAY IS MY BIRTHDAY AND ONLY GOT REMINDED WHEN I ARRIVED BACK IN ADELAIDE COZ MEL TOLD ME MY BIRTHDAY THEME! hahahaahaha~!

Now you see it, now you don't.

I have a talent for disappearing. I wasn't aware I was capable of it since recently. No form of communication, news whatsoever. Its close to a month since my last entry and what have i been up to?

I went back to singapore. for abt 2 weeks i think? I wouldnt say that it was a bad thing, i would say that it was a bad time. seriously. Eversince i came back here to australia, all i did was sleep. I'm beyond tired its not even funny, and the worst part is that i have so many things i have yet to complete. And i think i will have to beg my lecturers for a few things now... haiz. terrible me.

my aim is to pass this semester. I'm not putting high hopes like aiming for credits or distinctions coz i know its way out of the picture rite now. yes, i've been screwing things up. *shrugs*

I'm not sure if i'm falling sick or not coz i'm having the worst headache ever! haiz. All i wanna do is sleep.

panic-striken. Yes, i was panic-striken when i reach singapore.

How's life back home? I dunno. I guess, it could have been better. Coming home this time round, to the new house, haiz, it felt as if my adelaide room was even more cosy. I understand why mom was upset. the house is so distant, no personal touch of any sort. it didn't feel like home.

I like the fact that there's more people in the house now though. but then again, i was still the only one making the most noise at home. Hmmmm. Can't people behave normally? *scratches head* then again, maybe thats their normal..

Sometimes, its sad seeing what's back home. Its easier coming back to what i left behind in Australia. At least no one puts on their double faced mask here. Its always simpler without them, knowing that i dont have to please anyone other than myself, know that there is no standards for me to behave when i look into their eyes, no obligations that i have to fulfill.

Do i really have no respect for them? Do i really think that little of them? but they're suppose to be my family. the family my children will have to know (if i ever have any).

If only they all behave like them, it will be a happier time for all of us...