Still life drawing is proving to be so much harder than my other subjects. Not that I can't draw... I realise that I'm 5 drawings behind in Visual Arts. I give up la. Really give up.

On to other subjects, I've finished all of my essays. Just need to do 3 movie reviews and I should be done with Politics altogether~ like for the rest of the semester. MUAHAHAHHAHA!

Its been raining the past few days... Gloomy Gloomy and coldddddd. It gets dark really fast toooo~~

I'M HUNGRY!!

I went to cleland wildlife park last sunday. I'll post up the pics soon~

Hey hey.

I don't know how you've been but I saw the message. Hope exams good so far!

You've been missed as well.. and everytime that happens...

I tend to watch this. http://www.supernovatube.com/play.php?viewkey=3394ffd25739e05c2eb5

The resemblance between them and us is uncanny don't you think? Everytime I watch this, it reminds me of that conversation we had exactly a week before I fly off at the airport. It was a week wasn't it?

My heart ached that night knowing that my departure is nearing and you're one of those that i'm not willing to leave behind.

There's 3 people in this world who can read me like a book and you're one of them.

I'll see you... soon enough. In the meantime, take care and I miss you as well.

As many have requested for this, i'm uploading a photo entry!

This was my trip to Bakehouse Theatre when I went to catch Mediocrity for my drama assignment. Yes yes. I know abit slow. I even got back my assignment already. LOL! But i like the theatre tho. very very cosy.

I went to Glenelg last week's sunday? coz I was bored and I wanted to be out and I've had enough of staring at my wall. So I asked latha whether she wanna go out or not. Since I am craving for pizza. MUAHAHAHHAHA~!!

I went over to Mel's place last Tuesday coz I wanted to check out a house at Melrose Park and I can only go there after 5 and I finished school at 1. So I ended up at his house and crawled on his bed to sleep coz I was suffering from a flu symptom headache.. But but. i'm all fine now.

So after seeing the house. I was hungry. He was hungry. SO we went grocery shopping and I helped him cook~

Check out the damage! Its like a damn war zone. And our plates are like SUPER CLEAN!!! lol!!! WE EVEN ATE BREAD AFTER THE RICE. TALK ABOUT BABIFIED RITE? LOL!!

HAHAHAH!! CONTENTED FACES YO!

So I cooked Wanton the previous day and he cooked satay ayam the next and wednesday, he suppose to feed me during lunch anywayz and we both have tooooo many things left overs so we told latha to join us for lunch! and we had like a... 4 course meal?!?!

WAHAHAHHA!! If this 4 course meal is often. I will never succeed in losing the weight i need to lose.

So Sunday was Easter Sunday and I received eggs! This one is from my landlord and from my favourite chocolate shop!! HAIGHS!!

I've finished it on the day itself while watching tv. so. anywayz, that was the beginning of my term break!!!!

Now. I'm hungry! i'm currently thinking what I should cook! hmmmmmm.... And I have yet to finish my assignments. PROCRASTINATION IS A BAD THING!

"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason. ... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire ; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything"

- NEW MOON [Chapt 23, pg 514]

My breath caught as I continued reading the paragraph that seems to be screaming out at me, vocalizing the thoughts that i've kept hidden...
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Don't ask me to move away from the one thing that means the world to me. Don't ask me to stop seeing the one thing that makes me smile from the heart. Don't ask me to stay away from the one thing that makes me calm.


Because I can't accept it. I can live in denial. But not for it to be stripped away from me.


A promise is a promise. I'm keeping it. Whether the other keeps it or not is another story. But I keep my word.


So don't ask me to do any of the above.


I won't. I can't.


I have my reasons.

Yes I'm irritated. with you.

I've been having dreams.

Nightmares? I dunno.

Is this a sign? Was it a hint?

Stop making me remember. Just stop it. I'm trying to survive here. I can deal with it later. When I'm older. More mature.

why? why?

why do i have such constant recurring dream? Are you going to leave me again?

I did not realise this until i was looking at my politics tutorial in an attempt to do last minute preparation for class. that i am into week 6 of my education here! sheesh~

Talk about fast. I am even more stressed out now. I feel alittle left behind. But then again, I may just be paranoid. LOL!

Yes. I was irritated.

Sometimes, I wonder what wrong have I done to get certain tones and flippant remarks being thrown at me.

So is that my fault? god. there are times that i wanna kick something and that was one of it. Usually, a person will go like, "you should go there.. or we should go there some time." Or something like that... I mean is it really wrong to give an invitation? Am I some stranger?

No. its not your fault. No. I don't blame you. Have I ever blame you for anything that ever happened? No. Have I ever found fault with you? No. Have I ever retaliated towards any form of unfairness? No.

Seriously, what was that for?

What's up with the arrogance nowadays anywayz? What's up with the defenses?

BLEARGH~

So term break's next week. At least I know what I'm gonna do on the saturday. LOL! Been trying to finish ALLLLL my essays before term break so I dont have to wonder whether I've done things or not during break... Know what I mean? That will just be sucha turnoff!

So you'll wonder.. Why is Nad so hardworking rite? MY ESSAYS ARE DUE DURING TERM BREAK! BODOH OR WAT! I WANNA SLEEP IN AND HOORAY HOORAY FOR 2 WEEKS LEI! I don't wanna come back to the library and do research. I shall do it all now! even though its making me super busy and havent been sleeping much at all. But its ok. Term break is coming. I can sleep all i want then.

I just realised that my International Relations essay is 1ooo words instead of 1500 words that I thought it was. THANK GOD!

My bruise from Fencing have yet to disappear. It has yet to turn purple either. Its still red! IDIOT LA ALL THESE PEOPLE. If I am gonna be a victim of brutality I would rather train by myself. But then again, its ok. It comes with the sport. First years are always like!! ARGH! they'll definitely get yellow cards during competition. bleargh~

I remembered when I got my yellow cards. I collected 23 yellow cards and 2 red in one competition. Not my fault. My opponent was down with fever - so anything I do, he felt the impact more then usual and he told the referee that I was too brutal. Bloody idiot shouldn't join the competition to begin with. Referee actually told me to not so be so brutal coz my opponent is sick. I'M LIKE WTF!?

So i got yellow cards throughout my 15points bout and for arguing with the referee telling him that this is unfair. And by the time 10 points arrived, imagine you tired and constantly being stopped coz your opponent keep on complaining, i lost my cool and swore on piste. I received my very first red card.

By 14 points. I got another red card as well. coz that bugger said i was brutal. and I answered the referee this. "Why the fuck did he even bother? Its not as if he is winning either. I'm winning by fucking 8 points even with all the penalties he's getting, the yellow cards i'm receiving. If he is so damn sick that he is gonna die anytime soon. He can just end this rite now. Since I AM winning anywayz. Disqualify himself and stop wasting my time."

So my second red card was because I was rude. Ya. Referees always have all kinda reasons to give you colourful cards. The give you cards based on conduct when half the time their conduct is questionable. That was my very first mix (men+women) nationals competition. I hated the guy and the referee up till now.

So how has Fencing been here? I have nothing much to comment lor. Teammates and all. Everytime I think of fencing the guys back home. I can only think of Matt and how bored Matt will be fencing the guys here. LOL! I don't think I'm good. But I think I put up a good enough fight with Matt. I do get points. LOL!

But the coach here is pushing my fitness level back to before. When I mean back to before - my trainings are nearly the same as when I was in Secondary School. Not the fencing portion. But the physical portion. So ya. If you pple wanna see me slim down. You might just have gotten your wish. Since I'm training twice a week. ISH.

OH AND I NEED TO CAMWHORE SOON! MY CAMERA IS GETTING DUSTY AT THE RATE I'M IGNORING IT.

I need to go to the market and then go home to do laundry and prepare for next week's tutorials and seminar papers since I'm doing my drama presentation next week. I HOPE I DO IT RITE AND IT WONT BE BORING! worried sia~

And I need to do my drawings too~! Are you guys free sometime today or over the weekend?!

And finish my essays, for real this time.. since I don't think I'm free tomorrow.

I was suppose to go Sydney for Easter Break. But sorry ah babe, the flight tickets are incredible la. I cannot afford at the moment. I was thinking of going Melbourne... That is still pending i suppose~ Not sure if i would really wanna go there or not. hmmmmm~~~!!! I have to plan my finances coz of end June.

Its funny really. How one can behave one way in front of you, appear totally different somewhere else and do something else altogether.

Sometimes I wonder, how do one keep track of such things? lies? manipulations? deceptions?

ha. Its funny. really funny. how things has a funny way of blowing up in my face whether you know it or not.

Maybe I'm the only one around that is still honest. That appreciates honesty, in every form.