The One of A Kind

Yes.

Prom's over. Like watever.

Am i happy with it? well.. could have been better...

one thing that i'm kinda sad, pissed or watever is the fact that the video clip wasnt played during prom...

we (me and azi) made it with a reason. We made it so that those who attended the prom could remininse together... share that memory together... it would have been a great meaning for us all..

it would mean alot to me especially.. and to azi as well..

now, it would be just THAT other stupid video clip that happens to be given out at prom as door gifts.

Yup. its just a freaking door gift and nothing else.

it wont hold as much meaning as something else. it will not even have THAT meaning you know..

the kind that something that everyone knows, when it was played.. all their friends were there to watch it.. an when you play it again at home you will remember the memories when you watch it as a group and the memories of those days..

but now?

its just another CD with that video clip. just that video clip containing photos of us. people.

maybe i'm over reacting.. i dunno.

but i know that it will definitely hold a different meaning if it was played there. Prom.

Coz, i remembered during my sec sch prom, the one thing that I really remembered was a particular video clip that was played of us.. the seniors.. everyone watched it. remembered it. cried with it. and realised that those are the people that they will miss when they graduated.

And i remembered seeing the room differently. suddenly all the grudges that were around disappeared for that moment. They understood. They appreciated.

And that is something i wanted to happen yesterday.. to have something from an event where everyone will just be there and remembered you know. i just want that magical moment again.

ARGH~!

I cant believe i'm actually tearing because of it...

i guess i'm really over reacting i suppose... but then again.. i think i should be entitled to it...

since me and azi spent our weekends putting the photos, making sure the songs flow, getting photos from others and places, finding photos of events that occurred when we first stepped into poly and me sleeping at 4am for the past week trying to make the envelopes look nice and dragging it around so that azi could write down the event name and then trying to make sure the stickers stick well.. and staying up till 7am of the day of prom to burn the CDs and falling asleep to wake up realising that i've not finish it and that prom would be happening later on that evening and also checking 3/4 of the CDs to see whether or not its burned properly..

Well, maybe i'm to be blamed for that... coz, i rejected the help from marcus coz, i wanted it to be confidential so that it would come as a surprise.

i guess it my fault as well.. if i really wanted that particular thing to go smoothly as well.. i should have personally made sure that there was backup... i.e: made sure there was another computer.

ARGH!

I should just shut up. It's afterall over. no use of me complaining also.. nothing can be done now.

*scolds self... NAD~! You shouldn't be over reacting~!..
NAD: OH SHUT UP*