The One of A Kind

Hello Home

Its been a difficult time adjusting.

I havent been sleeping much. I just can't sleep.

Its too warm. Its too bright. Its too noisy in the middle of the night. And I stay awake, waiting for the night to get darker as it progresses. I waited and waited. And soon I realise, the sounds of engines being turned on gets more frequent, people starts sneezing, coughing, toilets flushing, water running through the pipes. Yup, people are waking up to go to work already. And I am still awake.

Haiz.

And yes, I am currently in Singapore. Its just one of those random moments of mine which I am so famous for but people have agreed that this is by far the random-est of it all. I've had enough. Had enough of boredom and void of human contact. So i've decided to just fly back here.

My aunt (my mom's sister in Malaysia) thinks and is convinced that I am homesick. But I'm not. Seriously.

I was too bored and I've had enough of staring at the wall and later on the ceiling of the house with no one to talk too or hang with for the entire day OR DAYS. Yup. Some form of random activities and human contact would be good. but oh well.

Its funny how when I was in Adelaide, despite the boredom, I did not miss home and now that I am home, I am somewhat missing Adelaide. The quietness, the peacefulness, the tranquillity. And you know what's worst? When I landed at Changi Airport on Monday, strangely enough, I didn't get the feeling of "i'm home" the way I usually get when I return to Singapore from somewhere. Bleargh!

And you know what else is funny? I can no longer understand the Singapore Accent. I'm so used to the Aussie pronunciation even though I do not have their accent. It has reached to a point where I have constantly turned to Deena and ask "how much did he say?" Yup. Its annoying that I can't seem to catch the totals of the bubble teas or Macs which I'm suppose to be paying for. And therefore, I have now officially given up in trying to decipher the amount and have resorted to passing a large note to pay for the stuff resulting in me having more then enough change! -.-" ya.

Truthfully, somehow I suddenly feel out of place here. And its ONLY been 6 months since I left. I feel like a bloody alien in my own country, simply by not being able to catch what others are saying! bleargh~