The trip was interesting. I think I will be going back there again one day soon before I fly off to australia!! YIPPPPEEEE~~~!!!

I kinda got my way with it. Or so I think.

Anyways, I like it there.

Hate the pollution tho. I still wonder how people survive there. I think they're born with bionic lungs or something. The air is constantly foggy and the sun is practically red there. And it looks as if the sun is looking in on the country, the light had the tunnel effect.

Macau was beautiful. The casinos and all...

Zhu Hai was fashionable. Guangzhou was windy and cheap!

Ok. practically everywhere in China would be cheap for us.

On the highway from Zhu Hai to Guangzhou, all you see is fog and a faint silhoutte of tall furnace towers. And the surrounding is grey. It is just like in those industrial movies! and if you dare to wind down the windows, like I did, you'll smell nothing but burnt plastic! LOL!!

China is a health hazard for someone like me. Asthmatic. Why?

ON TOP OF THE AIR POLLUTION, everyone in Zhu Hai smokes. In the toilet, in the restaurant, in the shopping centre, in the cab, in the hotel room. Its like the entire state smells of cigarette.

everyone stares at me in hopes to strike a conversation asking me if i understand mandarin... my answer was: Yi tian tian (alittle bit) and they stare at me in awe. me: -.-"

then they asked me why is it that i'm from singapore and i dont know how to speak mandarin...

and my answer was... malay-ren, pu tong man-yun. ing-yun only! (Malay, dunno how to speak mandarin. English only)

WAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!

so they are in the opinion that I am beautiful, pretty, good looking, and my eyes are mei ren... which i found out meant amazing. coz i was staring at the sales girl in confusion when this guy came up to me and translated it to me. by the time he finished translating, I was red. By the time he agreed with everything the sales girl said... I could no longer maintain eye contact. LOL!

And yes, I had the moses effect when I was there. I parted the red sea when I enter a shop and it grew quiet and then I will be the only customer with various sales assistant literally standing in my face staring at me. It is actually quite unsettling.

But hey, their compliment actually made me feel good about myself. and seriously, to be complimented by those girls, i was honoured can... They're so good looking. I can't help admiring them lor!

So who am i to complain rite? just grateful and embarrassed.

I bought a panda soft toy... and called it... Post. In memory of a particular cute, grin worthy incident i had in Guangzhou.

If you guys were wondering, Yes, i did try the casinos... and yes, with my mom's permission.

Everytime I'm with them...

I don't need to prove anything.

I never feel shit.

I never been treated like shit.

We talk about everything under the sun. Politics. Travel. Clothes. Porn. Restaurants. Alcohols. Family. Relationships. Movies. Songs. Dance Moves.

They know my moods. But I guess, that's not coz of due to the years of friendship. That's due to the fact that we've been put in a situation together.

With them, I've always been treated right. I've always been taken care off. I've always been bullied but its still different.

With them, they treat me as their equal but still respect me as a girl.

With them, I always feel that there's hope still for the world. LOL.

They're not my cousins. They're not related. But they're like the brothers I never had. They're one of those that I've missed in Australia.

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Fencing competition was shit. I didn't realise that the body wire was spoilt till Matt kept on asking me to test it after each point and then finally he told me to change it. The point was 11 - 2.

Yes. Mine was 2. In a 15 points bout. I wanted to cry by then! I wanted the individual medal so bad! And losing that badly to the opponent i was fencing against, it was... well. an insult.

Guess wat happened immediately after I changed the body wire? The bout ended 30 seconds after I changed my body wire.

I still lost. But guess wat was my points?

yup. the bout was 15-12.

Conclusion: I should have changed my body wire sooner.

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my ankle is beginning to act up again. hmmm...

Turn Around

You know how worried i've been the whole year rite? Because of the pending transfer. Well I received the approval of transfer via email last week! I was shock since my results were not out yet, but i was thrill nevertheless.

My dream is like an arm's length away! Yayness!

Eversince that day, I've been the luckiest idiot around. Apart from small minute things such as dinner reservations or cab bookings, i won a $200 jewelery voucher! lol.. it was so random that voucher!

I have a reason to celebrate the end of this yr! I have yet to do it!

heh.

But i'm beyond happy tho.

i'm just really grateful to everyone who have supported me

and really, thank god.

It was an interesting flight home.

Its been a rather interesting week.

But truthfully, i'm bored.

I was bored 48hrs after reaching home. haiz. I dunno. Sometimes, I don't know what to expect from homecoming.

Sometimes, I don't know how to feel being the only rare one who is not working when everyone already is.

Sometimes, I don't know how to feel being the rare one without a partner when everyone is having a serious one.

I always think to myself that it doesn't matter if I can fend for myself. But sometimes, I can't help thinking that it will be nice to have someone taking care of me 20yrs down the road.

I had my secondary school class gathering. While I know some envy my life, I envy theirs even more. At the end of the day, I'm a girl. I wanna be carefree sometimes. To not worry how my life will turn out to be. I wanna feel as though I can own the world and hop about merrily.

I think I'm allowed to dream, even if its just for that split second.

And then, reality hits and realise that I will not allow anyone to have that power over me. I will have that power over myself.

I am no one's but my own.

And that dream of that girl gets pushed aside into the deepest corners of my mind and heart till it resurface again when events trigger it too.

So, till then. *shrugs*

STARING

staring blankly out the glass walls of Adelaide airport waiting for the Qantas plane to come parking itself in the designated berth.

I'm so damn hungry! When is the plane gonna arrive?!?! I can't wait for my lunch liao! I'm currently regretting the fact that i brought my fencing stuff home coz i can't check it in so i have to put it in the overhead compartment.

Fencing. I miss fencing. A HELL LOT! so maybe i cant regret that much since its not that applicable if you miss it rite? lol

hmmmm....

I can't remember my unit number. which is fantastic.

oh. McSpicy! I'm coming! LOL!

that one is like my closet husband.

OH LOOK! QANTAS PLANE HAVE ARRIVED. THANK GOD. I have no idea what to do already. dying of boredom already pls!

guess what my aunt's cooking today? RENDANG AND KETUPAT! MUAHAHAHHAHAHHA!!

shit. i'm so gonna grow fat. and then after that cannot fit into my kebaya and corset for my cousin's engagement. then i'll be in tshirt and shorts. the most tak glam outfit ever created for mankind. bleargh! and then it will be remembered for my whole life, my cousins' whole life and her fiance's whole life and my future nieces and nephews' whole life!

i'm gonna die.

WAHAHAHAHAHHAHA~

Bottom line: i'm not dramatic. I'm just hungry!

so yes pple, i'm heading home today.

See you guys soon, in a country where the grass is literally greener!