The One of A Kind

GIRL TALK

you know, being a girl, there will always be situations where there will be someone attempting to get to know you.. correct?

but you know wat's worst?

the fact that they got to know you, then the attempt to break up with you when there's nothing going on to begin with.

I dunno why, but i've always had more guy friends in certain portions/aspects of my life.. i'm not complaining, coz i enjoy their company... gives me a break from the normal things that some girls talk about. clothes, make up, shopping and boys.

BOYS. sometimes i really wonder, what's so great abt such a topic? I dunno.

Anyways, as i was saying...

while i appreciate their company, there are times that some just can't seem to stay just as friends. I think many of you who already know me, knows that the issue of boyfriend has always been a very non-talked abt topic. Even from when i was really young.

one thing is coz, i'm choosy. i'm really choosy. i know that and it doesnt help that countless people have pointed that out to me as well.. but yeah... I do things my way.

While i appreciate and feel flattered at the expression of interests at such an early stage of acquaintance, i actually find it ridiculous.

How can you be THAT interested in me rite?

While i keep an open mind about accepting friendships (at times, against my better judgement), i have no idea why some people just cant accept the fact that... we're friends.

why can't we just be friends?

do you really have to work to start something? rite from the start?

but i'm not like that. i've never been like that.

But one thing for sure, in any friendship - you have to get to know each other. so in the process of getting to know each other, you will find out certain things about the other party...

but.

guys, they don't exactly listen do they? even if they tell you that they do. So they listen to whatever they wanna listen and come to whatever conclusion they wanna come too.

that pisses me off the most. you misunderstand the words i say just coz you don't read or listen properly, how is that my fault? and why is it that i have to clarify things that you misunderstand? shouldn't it be the other way round?

so one thing, i would say here. if you wanna get to know me, you'll have to accept everything about me. my past, my present and my principles in life.

Why do i always have to defend myself about me?

Coz i seriously cant be bothered to explain why certain things happen the way they do in my life. Havent you realised?

I HATE TO REPEAT MYSELF.

So, stop asking me why am i living my life the way i am. Coz thankfully enough to both god and my mom, i have to luxury to do so. Stop asking me more about my love life when you start getting all suspicious right from the start. I don't have a love life. Stop asking me about my past when you're jumping to your own conclusions from the beginning. My past is part of me. Deal with it.

So i dont know why, i have to be selective about which side of me i have to showcase coz i don't believe in that bullshit.

you wanna know me, accept me as i am.

And deal with that.