I'm currently typing from a place that one would never expect me to be in anyway.... Especially right now and seriously of all places!

I'm at the office of 2 jobs ago typing away on a blog entry. khekhekhekhe... I'm on leave today... Well, not exactly on leave... but yeah.. Nevertheless, On leave. LOL! am i confusing anyone? LOL! nvm then..

I am definitely not gonna consider whatever it is that I was supposed to do this morning. Annoying. I was damn annoyed lor that one. Seriously unbelievable. I will definitely tell him off the next time he calls.

So right now, here I am at the law firm (my ex-boss is traveling btw.. PHEW~~), typing away on a blog entry while waiting for my ex-colleagues to be done with work and proceed to lunch...

Now now now... What shall I have for lunch? bleargh~ They're dragging me to Nasi Padang place next door... butttttt... I'm on a diet leh.. .How? *pulls hair*

Fear Grips

Thoughts swirling in her mind. Fear grips her heart. What a time to be pondering about her past? But she did. In the most inappropriate place and time. She brought herself back to 2years ago. Just as she finished school. She remembered complaining how long that particular year was. She couldn't wait for it to end only to be awarded with a year of ups and downs with it ending in the most unforgettable way she could ever imagine. The last she expected was that.

She hopes once again for a better new year. A blank page with thousand possibilities. A clean slate, unrefined, waiting to be polished. It started of with a huge dent on her slate, she spent the beginning polishing the dent... To make it disappear. Maybe it did. Its not as visible as before.

Now, she likes her current situation. She doesn't want it to end. Desperately hoping that time would freeze and allowing her to dabble in it for a longer period of time. But she knew this year would pass sooner or later.

Then? What'll happens next? The possibilities and uncertainties filled her mind. Worry paced her heart. Fear saunters in.

Now, she can only hope for the best. And she talks, to him in her heart and prayed.

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Like a lost soul taken by the wind.. She went in search of the Northern Star as guide to take her home.

Out Of Bounds

Yes.. I am out of bounds to you people. Seriously. ARGH! Annoying.

You wanna know what's corny? THIS is corny! *Points to below*

"Heaven must be missing an angel. coz i can see one right now , and i hope we can be friends"

O C'mon. Try again mister. Do I look blonde to you to be falling to sucha crappy line? BLEARGH!

Next time if unsure, just stick to the first line and try not to make yourself look dumb by continuing it.. *faints*

I'm at work and its MONDAY! I'm having Monday Blues~!!

Since Azi thinks that i'm gonna be bored enough at work to want to do 10 random things starting with T, so i was the only one tagged on her blog. Bleargh~

But i'm not bored at work.. Actually not yet. But i'm gonna do it anywayz. So here goes.

1. Trimmings, fittings & everything nice

I can't say that every girl has their dream wedding. Coz, I'm a girl and I've never had a dream wedding floating in the corners of my mind. In fact, I've never envisioned my own wedding before.

If someone ask me, how it'll be... My answer would be: "It will really depends on my fiance." Many have said that I'm a true romantic. But I can't help it. My wedding will be something planned with my fiance... If I already have a vision of how it'll be in my mind... I can assure you.. It is really far from the whole thing. It is just half of a full circle no?

Most probably, I'll be one of those really rare brides that will freak out the night before the wedding when it finally hit me that I'm getting married the following day and most probably disturb my equally freaked out fiance and freak out together! WAHAHAHAHAH!! That is, of course, if I do get married.

And the reason why I'm having a wedding as part of a topic is coz... I'm a wedding planner in the making. LOL!

2. Temper

I have quite a temper actually even though not many has witnessed it. The last time I blew my top was at a particular meeting during dreamscape. A figment of my temper. LOL! Yeah not the full blown temper explosion, just a sneak peak of a possible volcanic eruption.

But the good thing is that, i'm not as short tempered as before! Don't believe me? Ask Deena. She shld know how much my patience has increased! lol! Not that I blew at her... I just blew at someone else or a group of other people in front of her. That's all.. *innocent grins*

I didn't do that much damage though.. Only that a few cried after that and some others started bowing and greeting me everytime they met me at the corridor... (-,-)" It did feel kinda weird. bleargh~ Did try to stop them though, but in vain. Oh well. that's one of the funniest memories in sec sch. LOL!


3. Telephone


I'm finally stating here which phone I got. I got myself the Motorola V9. *wiggles eyebrows*


4. Talent

This is the same as azi's catergory. I do wish I was more talented. Like, I can sing really well or something. Play the piano! (I can play the guitar, mommy taught me when I was really young.. can't really remember that much anymore).

My entire family can sing... and it sucks that I cant. Well, at least I don't think I can. ARGH! so annoying.

But one thing i know i can do really well... Is drawing, painting, colouring... khekhekhe.... I'm not boasting but i'm just taking solace in that fact. That's all. WAHAHAHHA! It was fun when I was young especially when 1/3 of the art exhibition was your work. LOL!!

Two of my favourite art pieces was my chinese calligraphy and of coz, my 'O' levels practical. Never underestimate the works of Picasso.. Cubism was a bitch but a great satisfaction.

But of course, due to certain events that took place, I've never picked up my brush since.

5. Thespian

Its been awhile since I took the stage. I miss acting with my fellow casts. A certain group of 5. I'm not exactly a great actress. But I try my best. *smiles* It wasn't something planned... It was something I stumbled upon.

6. Theatre

Its a place where magic takes place. I'm serious.

7. Trainings

Its been a while since I last trained! BLEARGH! I MISS THEM! I can't believe I'm stating that here... The only reason why I've lasted in this particular sport for so long is coz, its the one thing that doesnt bore the shit outta me.

I'm someone with really short attention span. When I mean short, i mean SHORT! I get bored really easily, this getting bored also applies in alot of other aspects of my life.. like when I'm watching movie, never catch my attention, that's it lor! I'll start fiddling. There are times that when I go out and suddenly say that I'm bored! out of the blue.

There was once I was on the threadmill with Deena beside me... We were running for awhile already... and Deena was gonna die... and me? I just turned to Deena and said: This is boring. Can we change machine now?

That's the reason why i hate to run. I find it stupid. And that applies to a sport that I can summarize the entire game into a sentence. I.e: Rugby. The team was great, I just find it boring.

Anywayz, my new motto will be: I may be good today, I'll be better tomorrow and you'll be worst next yr. khekhekhe..

8. Timbaland, T-pain, etc.

I wanna go clubbing~! Initally thought of going on Wednesday... But then, now i think there's no one to accompany me. SOOOOOooooo.. I wanna go on Saturday instead. Khekhekhekhe. I think its a much better day.

9. Tresses

My hair's long already. I can change hairstyle soon! khekhekhekhe... Soooo can't wait!

10. Transition

There's alot of transition taking place. Would I just be passing through a certain place only to end up somewhere else? Sometimes you wonder, if it's really you.

If sleep is a space between life & death? Is there really a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? Is the grass greener at the other side? Is confusion part of a solution? Are desires a form of motivation?

Do dreams really come true?

I AM IN LOVE


With...

MY NEW RED ELECTRONIC WEIGHING MACHINE!

I am NOT sick. I am just paranoid!


On a small sidenote....

I changed my phone. The reason why this is classified as a small sidenote is coz I have not told bie what exactly my new baby is! heee...

And I miss him lor. I hate the fact that he is in there and i'm out here. ARGH~ nvm. it's gonna end... soon.

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Rinduuuuuuu... Serindu rindu nyaaaaaaaaa

Veil of Images

I think I should start painting or drawing all over again. My hand itches so bad to reach out for that brush, that colour, that crayon, that charcoal...

And yet I stopped myself. Its been too long.

There's just some things going on.
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My sleeps haunted with dreams.

Dreams of everyone and everything. Found answers in some dreams. Found truth in some dreams. I'm beginning to wonder. Was I really dreaming? The conversations, the situations, the scenarios... seemed all toooo real.

People intertwined with each other. Do they know each other in reality?

There is this one person that I met in my dream. Someone who didn't manage to accept me willingly at first.

Why am I having my own Dreamscape 3.0?
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Right now, all I wanna do is fly to Thailand to slap some people's face and bring her back with me.

Guys. They really need a tight slap.

Just becoz girls give in so easily, girls are emotionally attached to some things... You take advantage of the situation? You really think its fun to get your heart torn out and shredded in pieces and thrown back to your face?

#1
Just becoz you have problems with your fucking girlfriend you turn to someone else for attention, to that one person you know have a crush on you. You know wat i call that? I call that... WEAKNESS!

#2
Just becoz that one person that you had that moment is not around for the past few mths, the person who has been constantly thinking about you (to my annoyance) returned only to find you hugging and holding hands with another girl and when that other girl is not around... you hold her?!

You dont elevate a girl up to the highest of high and then plummate her down to the lowest of lows only to confess your undying love for her later on. You think us girls dont feel?

Fuck.

Right now, its all I can do not to say, I told you so. She better make this trip her last.

I am beyond pissed. Its just ridiculous.

Annoyance.

I am annoyed at myself for not being able to stay true to my diet. I am pissed with myself. I am depressed. I am beyond paranoid. I am just stressed. I mean I better not gain watever that i've lost.. It was a chore to lose it to begin with!

CB!!!!!!!!!!!

I am just very upset rite now. I shall go in search of an electronic weighing machine!

*wails*

Look me in the eyes...



Nick Jonas is so cute! lol! with the curly hair covering the face and all!! I am such a teeny-booper. Bleargh~! But don't you think this is the modern age backstreet boys? lol~


To you:
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

the hardest thing to do is say... bye bye

IT IS STATED IN THE DAMN BILL THAT ITS WIRE TRANSFER!!

YOU TELL ME WHICH IDIOT INVOICE SOMEONE WITHOUT THE NECESSARY DETAILS IN THE INVOICE. OBVIOUSLY NO ONE WAT!!!!

DON'T MAKE ME PISSED JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE PISSED. YOU'VE IRRITATED THE FUCK OUT OF ME FOR THE PAST 2 DAYS AND I DONT NEED IT RITE NOW. I SWEAR. I'M ON THE VERGE OF FALLING SICK AND I DON'T NEED ANY FORM OF IRRITATION RITE NOW.

AND I AM THIS CLOSE TO BLOWING MY TOP.

YOU ARE PISSED OFF WITH PEOPLE WHO CANT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND YOU. YOU ARE FRUSTRATED OVER WORK BUT I SWEAR PEOPLE DON'T DO STUPID THINGS. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO CONSTANTLY ASK FOR THAT THING TO BE SUBMITTED TO FINANCE? WHEN IT DOESNT EVEN STATE THE REQUIRED INFORMATION WHEN IT WAS ALREADY STATED IN THE THING THAT I HAVE ALREADY HANDED IT TO THEM.

YOU STOP GETTING IMPATIENT WITH ME AND THROWING A TANTRUM IN MY FACE COZ I'M SERIOUSLY SICK OF IT. READ MY LIPS: SICK OF IT!

YOUR FUCKING PARANOIA IS PISSING ME OFF. I SWEAR.

AND ITS JUST 10.50AM.

Back At One

One - you're like a dream come true

I am currently just oh so bored. I've been doing filing and clearing of some things on my table. bleargh~ My boss has gone missing... He better appear before my Grp MD looks for him again.. lol~ Seriously, sometimes, he annoys me more than any lawyer has ever did while i was working in a law firm. BLEARGH~!


Two - Just wanna be with you




Myspace Zodiac Comments




Graphics for Zodiac Comments



I was looking through those glitter graphics... Don't worry la.. me choosing this 2 particular zodiacs... don't think it means anything... lol! i mean i know i know... its like mine and his but I was just looking through and was wondering...

What if 2 zodiac signs were to combine and make one whole new person... wouldn't the person be living in extremes? Well take his and mine for example... We're like the direct opposites of each other as stated above .. no?


Three - Cause, it's plain to see, that you're the only one for me

I was wondering... At the rate prices are going up, things are beginning to be so damn expensive! BUT... It seems as though everyone's driving a Mini Cooper. Everywhere i turn there will be a Mini Cooper driving past. Even in my own neighbourhood estate, at least 5 of my neighbours are driving a Mini Cooper. The public carpark downstairs' beginning to look like a car showroom. REALLY!

Maybe i'm staying in a well-off estate. i have no idea. But with everything going up and everyone is still living luxuriously... so is it me? or is Singapore progressing toward Japan's living standard? BLEARGH~

And four - repeat steps one through three

Definitely, Maybe - the movie... Yes. Nice script. Witty dialogues. but its too draggy! I think its the most disappointing romance flick this year so far. Compared to Definitely, Maybe... 27 Dresses was a much better movie within a period of this 6 mths so far.. I can't comment on P.S I Love You coz i didn't watch it.. But from what i hear i Don't think its that bad...

So yeah, I really don't recommend Definitely, Maybe. Unless of course, you're too rich and have too much to spare and well.. don't really mind draggy romance movies.. (I don't even know whether romance is the right catergory for it... Its like.. not very romantic also lor! lol!!) then yeah.. by all means..

its annoying how it goes one BIG circle so that it can fit into a 2hrs slot and be catergorized as a Movie. Even Horton will be a much better choice then Definitely, Maybe... any day.

five - Make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one.

Will someone really believe that their work is done and starts back at one and make you fall in love with him all over again? :)

Itchy Mouth

I should control my urge and itch. I swear. I've been going against my dieting plans. REALLY! Must have more willpower~~

Even though my new clothes are loser than when I tried them on at time of purchase... I cannot take certain things for granted and should not be lenient to myself.

*constantly reminds self of the abovementioned*

I have yet to reach the desired weight and I better continue and stay stressed by obsessing about my weight. lol!!

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I'm embarrassingly broke. Its annoying, And I'm so tired. Things have been weird on my side. Weird... Really weird... Its playing with my mind...

I'm trying so hard to break free from the clutches. I'm so stressed. Really. Stressed, confused, depressed and feeling quite inferior at the moment. I'm feeling very useless as well.

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Work has been bleargh~~ I don't know what else to say... I'm just surprised at how long i've managed to last here. That's for sure. Very very shocked...

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This is a mindless blog entry since my head isn't functioning very well and my mind is floating waiting for 6pm to arrive! Its 5.05pm and there's 55mins to go.

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Today marks the beginning of a new month for us. Its been... *counts fingers* I'm not telling! *chuckles*

I don't acknowledge the passing of months that when I do acknowledge it, I surprise myself. Interesting no? Its been one amazing journey... On my part and hopefully, on his as well. The image of him still wonders so freely in and out of my mind as though it was something that happened recently.

I constantly underestimate how much I feel for him or vice versa that I'm constantly left speechless everytime I'm proven wrong. I smile at even the slightest memory and I'd know his silhoutte even at a glance. He means so much to me that even words fail to quantify or describe how much... If I could shout out to the world how much he means to me. I would. :) But now, all i could tell you is... I'm really glad you're mine. Actually, Glad just doesnt begin to describe it. *winks*

I love you dear. :P *sticks out tongue* Bluek!

The 12 quotes reflected on my Calendar...

1. Life takes on meaning when you become motivated, set goals and charge after them in an unstoppable manner - Les Brown
   
   
2. One way to keep momentum going is to constantly have greater goals - Michael Korda
   
   
3. Any man who selects a goal in life which can be fully achieved has already defined his own limitations - Cavett Robert
   
   
4. The path to success is to take massive determine action. - Anthony Robbins
   
   
5. Your goals are the road maps that guide you and show you what is possible for your life. - Les Brown
   
   
6. Life is full of beauty. Notice the Bumble Bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and firght for your dreams. - Ashley Smith
   
   
7. The wise man bridges the gap by laying out the path by means of which he can get from where he wants to go. - John Pierpoint Morgan
   
   
8. Life leaps like a geyser for those who drill through the rock of inerta - Alexis Carrel
   
   
9. You, too, can determine what you want. You can decide on your major objectives, targets, aims and destinations. - W. Clement Stone
   
   
10. All you have to do is know where you're going. The answers will come to you on their own accord. - Earl Nightingale
    
    
11. This one step - choosing a goal and sticking to it - changes everything. - Scott Reed
    
    
12. We keep moving forward, opening new doors, doing new things, because we're curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths. - Walt Disney

Repeat it should not...

My stalker era better not repeat itself or i'm gonna scream myself silly. I'm serious! The last time it happened I was ready to bring a knife everywhere I go... I mean, it gets freaky when a guy msges or calles you outta blue telling you that he knows where you are and what you're wearing... And I don't even know who he is...

My "friends" got hell from me. And I did not tell my mom this until much much later on when things did get alittle out of hand.

And today I received a missed call and a msg from an anonymous person who claims to know me. Weird msges.

Rite now, I'm just hoping that its some April fool prank that someone has decided to play on me.