Without pain, there is no love
Without love, there is no pain.
-12 Lotus

What's that suppose to mean? When you love, you'll hurt and when you hurt only then you know that you have loved?

hmmm... If that is the case, i would be willing to go through the rest of my life without love, then, there will be no pain.


You're my needle; I'm your thread.

Things I need to get/do:

1. Laptop (IT Fair this weekend, shall ask mommy)
2. A room
3. Send payment
4. CID license
5. Cancel school and get pvt.
6. Get my corset frm tailor. (this has nothing to do with sch stuff, this is hari raya stuff, I realised that I have one hot pink corset there.)
7. Get the necessary stuff for nxt yr in the nxt 5mths. (sobs!)

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Btw, thanks for telling me all that the other day. It helped. Alot. Maybe it was my mistake for thinking like that. But i suppose its only natural no? There are times where I just don't know what to do. Thanks for being patient. For always being patient.

Told you you'll eventually find things out from me, the way you always have.

Thanks for having faith in me the way I've always have in you. I will come around. I promise. I've not broken any promises so far, have I? I've taken a step the other day, no? And its not away from you.

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Deena, cheer up ok? There's all the stuff toys i've bought for you to accompany you! I don't know whether the decision you made yesterday will stay that way or not la. But you know what I mean.

And Deena, I need help! to get certain idiots of my back! ARGH~!

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I'm bored and I'm currently at work after my 2 days mc. My fever's gone (thank god!), my voice suck and I'm currently trying to mentally tell and distract myself not to throw up. BLEARGH~!

Now, I shall go disturb my lawyer. hahaha.. She missed me. LOL!

Let's see... Its been close to 10 days since i blogged! A definite shocker, even to me! lol!

First up, I actually like it here... Now, i'm even playing hide and seek with a certain department when I arrived work not according to the dress code as stated in their books. LOL!

The thing is, I've never found anything wrong with it, even my dept thinks that there's nothing wrong with it... Maybe one day I shall wear whatever I was wearing and sashay over to the avoided department and later on see whether is there a mass email being circulated 15mins later. kwang kwang kwang~!

I haven't met anyone for the past 2 weeks or so. Basically, eversince I started here. Not that I come home late or anything. Its easier sometimes, living life like this. Going through life as though i'm a different person and have no association to what I was.

Its been difficult not talking to you. Its been difficult not having anyone for me to tell my nonsensical moments or even at times just having someone to keep me company, among other things. Its been difficult avoiding questions as though I'm hiding things. Sometimes, I don't know what privellege I have anymore and therefore not wanting to be a bother.

I've not disclosed anything to anyone coz nothing is concrete. :)

ANYWAYZ, a decision have been made. I might actually be rejecting top 21 of the world just coz of what I have to do initially. Stupidity? Or just basic survival skills? Hmmm... Many would wanna be in there... but suffering for a year?! lol!

I'll be sending my fees over, can't wait for top 11 of the world to reply me since they've already sent out their offers for this year's intake last Christmas. Christmas this year will be a little too late for me to hold on to any offers without accepting.

So yeah, I'm leaving all sort of familiarity behind rite now.

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My own hopes and dreams are my current driving force and strongest motivation.

Told you If was never in my dictionary. When. Now, that's a better word.

Alot of people are asking me this.

So now i'm telling.

I'll be leaving either mid January or mid February.

Yup yup.

I better not forget to go to CID to apply for my license. bleargh~!

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Omg Deena, Sandy's getting married! Why is everyone getting married? 22 only leh! 22!!!!

Olympics Mania

I've always been one of those who have always caught the Olympics. I have a strange fascination for it.

But hor, apologies to those people who is gonna be outrage by my comment. But seriously, this is the most kayu olympics i've watched so far lor! Annoying. Scared kena murder issit down there?

And and and... I'm in love with gymnastics! Especially, Fabian Hambuechen from team Germany! YIPPEE!!

And you know wat's the best part? We're both born on October 25th! khekhekehe...

Of course there's the other eye candies like.. Michael Phelps! lol!!

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I was watching Fencing yest. lol! There's a reason why I didn't do Foil. I fell asleep watching it... Even though it was the world's no. 1.

And and and... i think my refereeing skills have improved. But have to watch Men's Sabre later... Confirm cannot see a thing one. They're fast. They're like beyond fast. Sometimes I wonder why they dont do 100m sprints instead. khekhekhekhe~!

WHAT IS SO DIFFICULT ABOUT MAKING A CHOICE?!

Sheesh. Nad. Stop it eh. Virus.

I just have to make a choice and I better make sure its not a choice that is the right thing to do.

My days and nights varies just like the sun and moon.

The days so carefree, so easy... The smile as bright as the sun. Its a mask so easy to put on.

The nights are another story altogether. The mask falls as the moon rises.

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olympic has begun!

Its been a week. Things have been hilarious here. I'm serious.

ZH caught my eye. He is awkwardly funny can! bleargh~! I wonder... when i become lawyer, would i have secretaries eying me like I have at times eyed my lawyers. lol~ But i guess i have to hire male secretaries first i suppose. Muahahaha~!

ZH is the lawyer that became a lawyer coz he has no other choice. His qualifications did not allow him to choose other career line and he has the worst tendency to do a direct translation from Mandarin to English! I'm serious. His english, you can really die laughing lor sometimes. So, in the department he is the one person that wants to be a fisherman or be a rockstar.

LJ. LJ is my lawyer. She and me... hmmm we have a ONE OF A KIND relationship. She is the kan-cheong queen of the century. I'm serious. She made me change things like crazy when she is kan-cheong. She says she's been like this since school. BAGOS! Everything also wrong lor. Until I will take the thing from her and arrange it myself. That is paranoid at its best. I tell her don't paranoid anymore or I wont be coming to work already~ WAHAHHAHA~!

We spot check what each other had for lunch. She has concluded that I am mischievious. Oh well. lol.

MZ is my other lawyer. I shall call him shy old bear. LOL!

Everyone's nice... for now. lol!

There are times that I can't wait to start my career. lol~~ Things are just getting alittle confusing... Bleargh~!

Cuteness.com

I'm gonna be a lawyer tooo! So that I can be classified under cuteness.com... WAHAHAHAH..

The people I've been oogling at here... but nevertheless the lawyers here are nice. The nicest i've met so far in my short period of employment. Most prob coz they're a bunch of really young lawyers. *wiggles eyebrows*

They've been treating me well. Yup yup. But then again... I may be speaking too soon.

They're goodlookers. I wanna be a goodlooker too! I swear it comes with the career. WAHAHAHAH~!

My time could have been billable... nvm nvm. we'll see what happens next. khekhekhekhe~!

Its been a long and tiring week. Yup yup. VERY long and tiring.

Service was good. I felt like I was a princess. Felt as though I was important. Felt as though I owned the world; well, technically, i did. LOL!

Praises was given. For the first time, my looks was the talk of town. lol! It did boost my confidence somewhat. heee...

I wouldnt mind being transferred there. Yes, maybe i am running away. Despite the pollution, the corruption, the language barrier and the people whom i've called mini toons due to their size... I wouldn't mind living there actually.

And the funniest part was when my driver was driving me to the airport, Joss Stone - Leaving on a jet plane was on the radio. LOL! i suddenly burst out apart from the fact that i was caught in a 1 and half hour traffic jam and had to drive through a fire to get to the airport.... Talk about dramatic. ha.

Time always seem to pass so slowly everywhere else other then singapore aye? lol.

I finally know the reason why I had to go there...

Status: Business deal - Completed.
Next Stop: China.

I think next year holds a thousand possibilities. Yup.

My messages come from the heart.