in around 1 and 1/2 hrs.. its gonna be 12.00mn..
and tomorrow is 1 Jan 2005
How nice.. its like.. now is 2004 and at 12... it will be 2005... it never fails to amaze me each yr... how 2 yrs can be right beside each other.. and still it seemed as if its forever to be that upcoming yr...
i just hope that this new yr will bring positive opportunities and changes into my life... hope that things will really turn out for the better this time round...
DEVDAS IS OVER!! muahahahha...
*jumps around in delight*
Hmmm... 2 days of devdas.. it seemed as if forever to reach that 2 nights... and it seemed as if within seconds... both nights are over!!
So many things have happened from the moment rehearsals started and even right up to the end.... All those dramas, all kinda rumours, all kinda outbursts, all the silent tears, all the frustrations, all the tantrums, all the trying to run aways...
It has come to an end...
To all those that came.. THANKS FOR SUPPORTING US!! i hope you guys enjoyed it...
Now.. i have to get back to the road.. where i'm a student trying to complete all my assignments...
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Today was a close call....
Nearly lost my phone... for the second time in a year...
BUt well, the keyword here is NEARLY.. which obviously meant that i found it again... long story, wont get into that...
But phew.. it was lucky man...
I dont need me to lose my phone at a time like this and just add more mess in the already messy enough life of mine...
The previous time was around 3mths? before i got a new phone? If now.. Well, i can just dream on about getting a phone if i lose it...
its just tooo disastrous to even think about it...
Guess, i'm just very lucky today...
Thank you so so so much!!!
Oh ya...
Last Minute News Telecast
DEVDAS
29th and 30th December... Which is THIS wednesday and thursday... not next week... not last week.. its just simple and plain THIS week...
tickets can be bought at One Stop Centre for $5... *Expensive? Don't even think about complaining.. its cheaper than a movie ticket... -glares threateningly-*
Showtime: 7pm
Venue: Temasek Polytechnic's Auditorium 2
Nearly lost my phone... for the second time in a year...
BUt well, the keyword here is NEARLY.. which obviously meant that i found it again... long story, wont get into that...
But phew.. it was lucky man...
I dont need me to lose my phone at a time like this and just add more mess in the already messy enough life of mine...
The previous time was around 3mths? before i got a new phone? If now.. Well, i can just dream on about getting a phone if i lose it...
its just tooo disastrous to even think about it...
Guess, i'm just very lucky today...
Thank you so so so much!!!
Oh ya...
Last Minute News Telecast
DEVDAS
29th and 30th December... Which is THIS wednesday and thursday... not next week... not last week.. its just simple and plain THIS week...
tickets can be bought at One Stop Centre for $5... *Expensive? Don't even think about complaining.. its cheaper than a movie ticket... -glares threateningly-*
Showtime: 7pm
Venue: Temasek Polytechnic's Auditorium 2
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
You console someone else.. someone else cries...
You listen to someone else... someone else's heart tore...
Words can be misleading.. i've realised that... Its even sharper than the sharpest swords at times... Coz, its able to pierce into a heart... A heart that may already be steeled to void any emotional contact...
But words can just melt the steel and damage the heart...
I understand the situation.. I understand the frustration... I understand where everything is coming from even if it is from various perspectives... I see each and every sides... I saw all the different circumstances... I saw it.. I knew it... At times, i even feel it..
Am I wrong to feel some things? Am i wrong to feel bad? Am i wrong to feel guilty?? Am i wrong to get hurt??
Countless times, i've lost track of my emotions... Coz, i was so afraid to be feeling the wrong thing at the wrong time... So.. as many would have seen.. they tend to see me in one particular emotion throughout the day, throughout the week, throughout the month and throughout the year...
MOM. Friends. i dunno where to start.
Time. Break. I definitely need some.
Solace. Comfort. Peace. I'm still looking.
Bored. Restless. I need to get a hobby.
Daughter. Me. I'm trying to be.
You listen to someone else... someone else's heart tore...
Words can be misleading.. i've realised that... Its even sharper than the sharpest swords at times... Coz, its able to pierce into a heart... A heart that may already be steeled to void any emotional contact...
But words can just melt the steel and damage the heart...
I understand the situation.. I understand the frustration... I understand where everything is coming from even if it is from various perspectives... I see each and every sides... I saw all the different circumstances... I saw it.. I knew it... At times, i even feel it..
Am I wrong to feel some things? Am i wrong to feel bad? Am i wrong to feel guilty?? Am i wrong to get hurt??
Countless times, i've lost track of my emotions... Coz, i was so afraid to be feeling the wrong thing at the wrong time... So.. as many would have seen.. they tend to see me in one particular emotion throughout the day, throughout the week, throughout the month and throughout the year...
MOM. Friends. i dunno where to start.
Time. Break. I definitely need some.
Solace. Comfort. Peace. I'm still looking.
Bored. Restless. I need to get a hobby.
Daughter. Me. I'm trying to be.
Monday, December 20, 2004
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Had lots of fun just now.. the gift exchange was funny.. and the games.. LOL!! i think most of the time pple was laughing at me... but nvm.. lol.. it was fun to a certain extent...
That was before i feel so embarrassed and left.. but thats another story for another day.. not something that i would state here... Too much frustration in one day is no good.. no no.. bad for health! hahaha...
oh ya...
Happy birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to kabby
Happy Birthday to you!!!
Heard about wat happen during rehearsals today.. lol.. interesting.. not bad man.. whahahaa...
wat else ah??
oh ya... hmm.. oh wait.. i have no idea what i'm gonna say.. lalalala... nvm.. forget it...
That was before i feel so embarrassed and left.. but thats another story for another day.. not something that i would state here... Too much frustration in one day is no good.. no no.. bad for health! hahaha...
oh ya...
Happy birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to kabby
Happy Birthday to you!!!
Heard about wat happen during rehearsals today.. lol.. interesting.. not bad man.. whahahaa...
wat else ah??
oh ya... hmm.. oh wait.. i have no idea what i'm gonna say.. lalalala... nvm.. forget it...
Hmmm... I'm preparing some stuff for later...
Having a combined meeting with 5 other clubs and i'm the game master.. ya... interesting job huh? SHT MAN!! The meeting havent started and here i am HIGHLY IRRITATED WITH SOME PEOPLE!!! FARK!!!
Sometimes ah... I forget why i'm soo angry and pissed with them... until each time i do something for them and then i'm highly irritated with whoever that is helping (or suppose to help but not helping) me... ARGH!!!
Well, i'm suppose to be grateful that somebody is helping me rite?? But why should i be grateful when the person was doubtful of my job in the first place and later on forgot all the things that was discussed?!?!!?!!
FARK YOU! i dont have time to entertain such stuff!!!!
I'm supposed to be having drama rehearsals today.. but due to some things... those not involved in the dance do not need to turn up for rehearsals.. lucky me rite?
Coz, if not i have to not go for this combined meeting... yes.. i've already arranged for such circumstances... thats the reason why i have a assistant game master... when in actual fact.. the games have to be done by me alone and no one else.. So much for me being irresponsible huh?
Assistant Game Master
Job Scope: To replace me in any event that i might be late or not be able to make it for this particular meeting and to assist me in the planning as well as the organizing of the games during the meeting.
(exactly the words used to inform my president and changi simei's VPE)
Simple task aint it??
Maybe i'm just asking TOOO FREAKING MUCH... You know, me asking kay whether or not i can not come for the rehearsals was just testing my luck... if she said no.. i would have come for rehearsals instead of going for the meeting.. and at that point of time.. the assistant game master will have to take over everything.. am i rite??
BUt no... I've found out today.. THIS MORNING... that if she were to take over.. i can totally foresee something that the farking slot will not fulfill its goal...
You know why??
Coz, when i asked her whether or not she already gotten any of the materials for that slot.. and is there anything else i need to get? she replied me, asking me am i missing some thing?? what materials are you talking about??
*WHAT THE FUCK?!??! you ask me that after we've discussed everything within 20 minutes of your freaking break on freaking THURSDAY???*
When i told her balloons and mahjong paper.. guess wat she replied me?? What are they for? we can always use paper... *YAY! That will really make things extra interesting wouldnt it??*
I have to waste my stupid sms to explain to her all over again wat it is for... Coz, i couldnt risk me calling her.. All hell will just break lose... I WOULD JUST HAVE SCREAMED that is if i called her la!!!! Sometimes ah... pple just have to thank their lucky stars...
But no.. instead of telling me ok.. i'll buy it.. and a fullstop... she replied me saying that she thought all the things needed we already have... *Like from where?? Fall from heaven one ah?? God postal service is it???*
Then she asked me where to get mahjong papers!! FARK MAN!! i feel like telling her to take a tree trunk.. and scrap off the bark and soak the farking trunk in water till it become a pulp... put it in a tray and hope that by 2pm it'll dry!!!!
sht man... Just imagine if i told her i wouldnt be able to make it for today's meeting?? SHT SHT SHT!!!! ARGH!!! Some things are.. are just meant to be completed by me and ONLY me...
and yet they still say i'm irresponsible, neglecting my duties and the list just goes on... and somehow these people are better than me how?? wat they dont realise is that... all this while i've been doing everything as well as cleaning up their shit...
Having a combined meeting with 5 other clubs and i'm the game master.. ya... interesting job huh? SHT MAN!! The meeting havent started and here i am HIGHLY IRRITATED WITH SOME PEOPLE!!! FARK!!!
Sometimes ah... I forget why i'm soo angry and pissed with them... until each time i do something for them and then i'm highly irritated with whoever that is helping (or suppose to help but not helping) me... ARGH!!!
Well, i'm suppose to be grateful that somebody is helping me rite?? But why should i be grateful when the person was doubtful of my job in the first place and later on forgot all the things that was discussed?!?!!?!!
FARK YOU! i dont have time to entertain such stuff!!!!
I'm supposed to be having drama rehearsals today.. but due to some things... those not involved in the dance do not need to turn up for rehearsals.. lucky me rite?
Coz, if not i have to not go for this combined meeting... yes.. i've already arranged for such circumstances... thats the reason why i have a assistant game master... when in actual fact.. the games have to be done by me alone and no one else.. So much for me being irresponsible huh?
Assistant Game Master
Job Scope: To replace me in any event that i might be late or not be able to make it for this particular meeting and to assist me in the planning as well as the organizing of the games during the meeting.
(exactly the words used to inform my president and changi simei's VPE)
Simple task aint it??
Maybe i'm just asking TOOO FREAKING MUCH... You know, me asking kay whether or not i can not come for the rehearsals was just testing my luck... if she said no.. i would have come for rehearsals instead of going for the meeting.. and at that point of time.. the assistant game master will have to take over everything.. am i rite??
BUt no... I've found out today.. THIS MORNING... that if she were to take over.. i can totally foresee something that the farking slot will not fulfill its goal...
You know why??
Coz, when i asked her whether or not she already gotten any of the materials for that slot.. and is there anything else i need to get? she replied me, asking me am i missing some thing?? what materials are you talking about??
*WHAT THE FUCK?!??! you ask me that after we've discussed everything within 20 minutes of your freaking break on freaking THURSDAY???*
When i told her balloons and mahjong paper.. guess wat she replied me?? What are they for? we can always use paper... *YAY! That will really make things extra interesting wouldnt it??*
I have to waste my stupid sms to explain to her all over again wat it is for... Coz, i couldnt risk me calling her.. All hell will just break lose... I WOULD JUST HAVE SCREAMED that is if i called her la!!!! Sometimes ah... pple just have to thank their lucky stars...
But no.. instead of telling me ok.. i'll buy it.. and a fullstop... she replied me saying that she thought all the things needed we already have... *Like from where?? Fall from heaven one ah?? God postal service is it???*
Then she asked me where to get mahjong papers!! FARK MAN!! i feel like telling her to take a tree trunk.. and scrap off the bark and soak the farking trunk in water till it become a pulp... put it in a tray and hope that by 2pm it'll dry!!!!
sht man... Just imagine if i told her i wouldnt be able to make it for today's meeting?? SHT SHT SHT!!!! ARGH!!! Some things are.. are just meant to be completed by me and ONLY me...
and yet they still say i'm irresponsible, neglecting my duties and the list just goes on... and somehow these people are better than me how?? wat they dont realise is that... all this while i've been doing everything as well as cleaning up their shit...
Thursday, December 16, 2004
2nd week of school...
2nd week also ending already.. haiz...
Let's see.. what about school that is so nice? hmmm.. nothing much really.. everything seems extremely boring to me at the moment.. lalallaa... really!! i'm serious.. i'm bored to death in school..
Oh ya.. did i say that i'm sick.. ya i am.. wahhahaa.. my voice power!! lol!! cannot laugh.. it sounds.. erm.. wrong?? wahhahaa...
My classmates? hmm nothing much about them.. no comments about them actually.. coz, nobody i dont like in the class, so ya.. but ah.. the class ah.. aiyoh.. damn quiet during lessons ah.. nothing to entertain me... hmm.. wahidah's in the same class as me again... and erm.. who else?? oh ya.. awi's in my class.. and there's fiza and nazurah... who else ah?? hmmm.... oh ya.. i'm in the same class as mel..
wat else wat else?? see wat i mean... i'm totally bored in school.. there's really like nothing happening that is happening in class...
and what am i doing up so late? wahhahaa.. i'm attempting to do my tutorials.. yes.. you heard it rite.. i'm doing my tutorials.. wahaahhaa...
and besides me being bored, i'm highly irritated.. but thats another story altogether...
i should just go to slp and dream of something nice... and wake up in time to go for class that is at 9 later.. lalalala...
2nd week also ending already.. haiz...
Let's see.. what about school that is so nice? hmmm.. nothing much really.. everything seems extremely boring to me at the moment.. lalallaa... really!! i'm serious.. i'm bored to death in school..
Oh ya.. did i say that i'm sick.. ya i am.. wahhahaa.. my voice power!! lol!! cannot laugh.. it sounds.. erm.. wrong?? wahhahaa...
My classmates? hmm nothing much about them.. no comments about them actually.. coz, nobody i dont like in the class, so ya.. but ah.. the class ah.. aiyoh.. damn quiet during lessons ah.. nothing to entertain me... hmm.. wahidah's in the same class as me again... and erm.. who else?? oh ya.. awi's in my class.. and there's fiza and nazurah... who else ah?? hmmm.... oh ya.. i'm in the same class as mel..
wat else wat else?? see wat i mean... i'm totally bored in school.. there's really like nothing happening that is happening in class...
and what am i doing up so late? wahhahaa.. i'm attempting to do my tutorials.. yes.. you heard it rite.. i'm doing my tutorials.. wahaahhaa...
and besides me being bored, i'm highly irritated.. but thats another story altogether...
i should just go to slp and dream of something nice... and wake up in time to go for class that is at 9 later.. lalalala...
Monday, December 13, 2004
I came early to school in hopes of being able to print my notes...
But surprise surprise... None of the labs of are free.... And the only lab that is free.. the printer is faulty.. Like thanks.. i really needed that...
And i'm so gonna die today... I'm having sore throat and some hints of flu.. and my eyes are watery.. and i'm having a slight headache... sheesh.. Dont tell me i'm going to fall sick.... I dont need to fall sick.. esp not now... ARGH!!!! *Pulls out hair*
I'm floating to dreamland... *Slaps self* wake up nad... you cant be falling asleep... you have lecture at 3!!! *dies*
I will survive.. lalallala.. i will survive!!!!!!!!
Oh ya... did anyone watch s'pore idol? hmmm i only watched the finals on Saturday... Woohooo... Taufik really nailed it with "Me & Mrs. Jones"... and sly.. oh god... how can he make an english song sound so chinese? *Amazed*
THINGS TO REMEMBER!! IMPORTANT..
Remember to bring suk ching's things...
And i'm really gone for today.... lalallalalallaaa... *Trails away*
But surprise surprise... None of the labs of are free.... And the only lab that is free.. the printer is faulty.. Like thanks.. i really needed that...
And i'm so gonna die today... I'm having sore throat and some hints of flu.. and my eyes are watery.. and i'm having a slight headache... sheesh.. Dont tell me i'm going to fall sick.... I dont need to fall sick.. esp not now... ARGH!!!! *Pulls out hair*
I'm floating to dreamland... *Slaps self* wake up nad... you cant be falling asleep... you have lecture at 3!!! *dies*
I will survive.. lalallala.. i will survive!!!!!!!!
Oh ya... did anyone watch s'pore idol? hmmm i only watched the finals on Saturday... Woohooo... Taufik really nailed it with "Me & Mrs. Jones"... and sly.. oh god... how can he make an english song sound so chinese? *Amazed*
THINGS TO REMEMBER!! IMPORTANT..
Remember to bring suk ching's things...
And i'm really gone for today.... lalallalalallaaa... *Trails away*
Went to my uncle's house for an open house today...
Wahahaha... Its SO NICE!! I get to see lots of people.. And i didnt know MPs were THAT LAME!! whahahaha... Aiyoyoyoyoyoooo... And they're friendly too...
well.. i was happilly pinching my nieces? no wait.. they're my cousins.. ya.. omg.. there's this oone.. SOOO CUTE!!! Ahhh.. i seriously need to get my very own digicam!!! then i can take pics of all this cute little peeps.. whahahahha...
And i was also desperately trying to figure out who is my uncle's children.. and who belongs to who.. its was hilarious.. well.. cant really blame them... sometimes.. during hari raya also never get to see.. they're either overseas to study.. or posted somewhere around the world for work... or they're just out hanging with their friends... lol..
So ya.. they didnt know who i belonged too.. and when they actually remembered... They were like.. since when have you grown?!?! The last time i remembered your height is around my waist... Hmmm.. helloo.. i'm 18.. i cant possibly still be standing at your waist.. well.. ya.. i think they remembered me when i was in pri. 1? or is it pri. 2? hmmm... ya... now i'm in poly yr. 2... so ya..
But i was busy peeling oranges for various people... lol.. and this kids asked me to play catching... play catching??? wahahahahahhaa... maybe next time ah.. when i meet them in jeans and t-shirt... hahaha...
Ahhhh.. Still cant stand it... SOOO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then i went to my cousins house.. ahhhh... met my nieces and nephews! Just wat i need to end my day... my nephew and niece... ahhh.. DROOLZ!!!
Wahahaha... Its SO NICE!! I get to see lots of people.. And i didnt know MPs were THAT LAME!! whahahaha... Aiyoyoyoyoyoooo... And they're friendly too...
well.. i was happilly pinching my nieces? no wait.. they're my cousins.. ya.. omg.. there's this oone.. SOOO CUTE!!! Ahhh.. i seriously need to get my very own digicam!!! then i can take pics of all this cute little peeps.. whahahahha...
And i was also desperately trying to figure out who is my uncle's children.. and who belongs to who.. its was hilarious.. well.. cant really blame them... sometimes.. during hari raya also never get to see.. they're either overseas to study.. or posted somewhere around the world for work... or they're just out hanging with their friends... lol..
So ya.. they didnt know who i belonged too.. and when they actually remembered... They were like.. since when have you grown?!?! The last time i remembered your height is around my waist... Hmmm.. helloo.. i'm 18.. i cant possibly still be standing at your waist.. well.. ya.. i think they remembered me when i was in pri. 1? or is it pri. 2? hmmm... ya... now i'm in poly yr. 2... so ya..
But i was busy peeling oranges for various people... lol.. and this kids asked me to play catching... play catching??? wahahahahahhaa... maybe next time ah.. when i meet them in jeans and t-shirt... hahaha...
Ahhhh.. Still cant stand it... SOOO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then i went to my cousins house.. ahhhh... met my nieces and nephews! Just wat i need to end my day... my nephew and niece... ahhh.. DROOLZ!!!
Sunday, December 12, 2004
I KNOW HOW TO UPLOAD PICS HERE!! Muahahahah!!! So i shall not type a new post.. muahahaha...
FINALLY we went out jln raya.. muahahhaa...
First House - HIDAYAH'S
Second House - MINE!!!
Last House - MADEENA (The one that ALWAYS comes late)
ok ok.. lemme introduce who is who...
First up.. we have NUR HIDAYAH... The nonsensical beauty
Next in line... Ladies and gents.. Pls give a round of applause for MADEENA... The Beautifully PERASAN...
Last but not least... there's me.. NUR NADIRA.. The outrageously gorgeous and foreverly cute.. muahahhaa
Yes.. I just came back at about.. hmmm... 1240am?
ya... luckilly my grandmother never scold... well.. i dont think she realise that i came back already... she was peacefully asleep...
And deena... SERVES YOU RIGHT.. muahahaha.. there la.. wanna hurry the outing rite? when you come late rite?? muahahaha.. serves you right we end late and you cant go for Taufik's birthday bash.. muahahahha... *evil Laughs*
Anywayz, dont fret.. there's always next yr...
We took so many photos today.. near 100?? lol!!! yes yes.. i'll upload them when i figure out how to do certain things... muahahhahaa... i cant believe we took near to a hundred photos.. I never took that many photos in a single day in my entire life before...
and i think 3/4 of was crappy.... thanks to me.. being me... muahahhaa...
i was being the resident pain in the ass... taking photos w/o warning.. muahahhaa...
and towards the end... hidayah kinda caught my disease too.. muahahahha
Coz... FROM THIS kinda sweet and nice photos..
TO THIS
And we even took photos of the food we ate... to make advertisement out of it.. or to put in our "FUTURE" recipe book... that will be published in 30yrs time? ya.. most prob.. lol..
Jelly
TOP VIEW
SIDE VIEW
FOOD.. snacks.. watever you call it..
Chips Advert
So how? The pics?? tempting?? not bad rite?? of course la.. i take one wat.. well.. not all la... just the jelly and i gave instructions for the snacks.. muahahahhaha
yup... i will definitely upload the pictures here.. muahahahha...
Hmmm got a gallery for this particular outing.. YIPPEE!!! HariRaya04~Senoritas
FINALLY we went out jln raya.. muahahhaa...
First House - HIDAYAH'S
Second House - MINE!!!
Last House - MADEENA (The one that ALWAYS comes late)
ok ok.. lemme introduce who is who...
First up.. we have NUR HIDAYAH... The nonsensical beauty
Next in line... Ladies and gents.. Pls give a round of applause for MADEENA... The Beautifully PERASAN...
Last but not least... there's me.. NUR NADIRA.. The outrageously gorgeous and foreverly cute.. muahahhaa
Yes.. I just came back at about.. hmmm... 1240am?
ya... luckilly my grandmother never scold... well.. i dont think she realise that i came back already... she was peacefully asleep...
And deena... SERVES YOU RIGHT.. muahahaha.. there la.. wanna hurry the outing rite? when you come late rite?? muahahaha.. serves you right we end late and you cant go for Taufik's birthday bash.. muahahahha... *evil Laughs*
Anywayz, dont fret.. there's always next yr...
We took so many photos today.. near 100?? lol!!! yes yes.. i'll upload them when i figure out how to do certain things... muahahhahaa... i cant believe we took near to a hundred photos.. I never took that many photos in a single day in my entire life before...
and i think 3/4 of was crappy.... thanks to me.. being me... muahahhaa...
i was being the resident pain in the ass... taking photos w/o warning.. muahahhaa...
and towards the end... hidayah kinda caught my disease too.. muahahahha
Coz... FROM THIS kinda sweet and nice photos..
TO THIS
And we even took photos of the food we ate... to make advertisement out of it.. or to put in our "FUTURE" recipe book... that will be published in 30yrs time? ya.. most prob.. lol..
Jelly
TOP VIEW
SIDE VIEW
FOOD.. snacks.. watever you call it..
Chips Advert
So how? The pics?? tempting?? not bad rite?? of course la.. i take one wat.. well.. not all la... just the jelly and i gave instructions for the snacks.. muahahahhaha
yup... i will definitely upload the pictures here.. muahahahha...
Hmmm got a gallery for this particular outing.. YIPPEE!!! HariRaya04~Senoritas
Friday, December 10, 2004
I'm praying that tomorrow the 3 of us WILL DEFINITELY go out.. if not ah.. i will behead whoever that cancelled the outing tomorrow...
NO MORE CANCELLATIONS... OR ELSE... *eyes staring at those who might cancel, dangerously*
SO wat was i suppose to be blogging about...
oh yes...
I think the time of the year has come again where i need to be grounded... no.. i havent been doing anything extremely bad that my mom needs to ground me.. i just need to ground myself...
Coz, for various reasons... i feel that i've not been good.. really.. i'm so guilty inside.. i just dun know wat to do... keeping things from her when i know i should have told her... why am i so afraid???
I just dont understand myself at times... its not as if i've been creating problems... its not as if i've been doing a crime.. but somehow.. i know that something is wrong...
there is just some disbelief of some sort in her voice... I wanna please her... But in the process of doing so, i think i've done even more damage by keeping things away from her and that at times telling her PART of the truth... i dunno why its bothering me so much.. but it is...
Its not helping when your grandmother is... ARGH!!! but nvm... i shall not say anything.. i understand where she is coming from.. she's old and she's conservative and she cares about me and my well-being... so i guess... i cant blame her...
and me? well.. i'm seeking for a place of comfort... *immerse self in a book*
NO MORE CANCELLATIONS... OR ELSE... *eyes staring at those who might cancel, dangerously*
SO wat was i suppose to be blogging about...
oh yes...
I think the time of the year has come again where i need to be grounded... no.. i havent been doing anything extremely bad that my mom needs to ground me.. i just need to ground myself...
Coz, for various reasons... i feel that i've not been good.. really.. i'm so guilty inside.. i just dun know wat to do... keeping things from her when i know i should have told her... why am i so afraid???
I just dont understand myself at times... its not as if i've been creating problems... its not as if i've been doing a crime.. but somehow.. i know that something is wrong...
there is just some disbelief of some sort in her voice... I wanna please her... But in the process of doing so, i think i've done even more damage by keeping things away from her and that at times telling her PART of the truth... i dunno why its bothering me so much.. but it is...
Its not helping when your grandmother is... ARGH!!! but nvm... i shall not say anything.. i understand where she is coming from.. she's old and she's conservative and she cares about me and my well-being... so i guess... i cant blame her...
and me? well.. i'm seeking for a place of comfort... *immerse self in a book*
Monday, December 06, 2004
Didnt go jln raya in the end... for reasons that has not been explained to me yet... Something that hidayah is still currently very pissed with... hmmm... Its unreasonable.. but then again, some things just cant be avoided i guess...
So what did i do in the end? I went to my relative's house.. yes yes.. i havent finish visiting.. but half way thru.. my aunt from malaysia decided that we should go for a weekend getaway...
YES.. I WENT TO JOHOR OR DESARU OR WHEREVER IT WAS AT 930PM FROM SINGAPORE STILL IN MY BAJU KURUNG.. LIke thanks.. Yes i arrived at the resort or watever its called at 1130pm in my white baju kurung... well.. actually not only me, the whole car was in traditional costumes.. whahahaa
And the place... OH MAN.. where do i begin?? ITs like.. yucks! But luckilly the beach was nice.. it was soooo peaceful.. and sooo nice.. and soo windy... and the waves are huge! its really beauuutifulll...
OH ya.. for all those who intends to watch Puteri Gunung Ledang.. You guys should!! Its good in an epic sort of way... Catch it man.. its worth your money if you're the kind that loves LOTR + Devdas all in one.. hehehe... The first ever malaysian movie to be nominated in the academy or issit grammy? ah watever it is.. its an award show..
lalalallaa.. and now, i'm off to bed.. TMR GOT SCHOOL!! YAY YAY!! YAY YAY!! lol.. i'm mad..
So what did i do in the end? I went to my relative's house.. yes yes.. i havent finish visiting.. but half way thru.. my aunt from malaysia decided that we should go for a weekend getaway...
YES.. I WENT TO JOHOR OR DESARU OR WHEREVER IT WAS AT 930PM FROM SINGAPORE STILL IN MY BAJU KURUNG.. LIke thanks.. Yes i arrived at the resort or watever its called at 1130pm in my white baju kurung... well.. actually not only me, the whole car was in traditional costumes.. whahahaa
And the place... OH MAN.. where do i begin?? ITs like.. yucks! But luckilly the beach was nice.. it was soooo peaceful.. and sooo nice.. and soo windy... and the waves are huge! its really beauuutifulll...
OH ya.. for all those who intends to watch Puteri Gunung Ledang.. You guys should!! Its good in an epic sort of way... Catch it man.. its worth your money if you're the kind that loves LOTR + Devdas all in one.. hehehe... The first ever malaysian movie to be nominated in the academy or issit grammy? ah watever it is.. its an award show..
lalalallaa.. and now, i'm off to bed.. TMR GOT SCHOOL!! YAY YAY!! YAY YAY!! lol.. i'm mad..
Friday, December 03, 2004
I've finally concluded..
My cousins are a pain in the ass...
They are seriously getting on my nerves at this time of the night... but nevermind.. i shall keep my cool...
But seriously, i feel like strangling someone.. aiyo.. i got nothing to say man...
DAMN irritating... eeeeeeeee... like irritating pest and buggers you know...
NO COMMENTS MAN..
aiyoh... GO AND SLP LA..
wat are you doing up man?? eeeeeee.....
Ok.. no use nagging here also.. its not as if they see it..
My cousins are a pain in the ass...
They are seriously getting on my nerves at this time of the night... but nevermind.. i shall keep my cool...
But seriously, i feel like strangling someone.. aiyo.. i got nothing to say man...
DAMN irritating... eeeeeeeee... like irritating pest and buggers you know...
NO COMMENTS MAN..
aiyoh... GO AND SLP LA..
wat are you doing up man?? eeeeeee.....
Ok.. no use nagging here also.. its not as if they see it..
Thursday, December 02, 2004
lalalalala...
Sch is starting this monday.. Ta-da!!
So fast!! Omg.. whahahaha.. i dunno whether or not i'm looking forward to this upcoming semester... SO SCARY!! i dunno la.. i very the kan-cheong..
Well, actually, i've been very kan cheong about alot of things... lallala.. so i gues.. kancheong-ing is going to stay around for quite some time..:P
oh ya...
This saturday's hari raya outing is on! ok?? Anyone who happen to be reading my blog and wants to come along.. just tell me.. okiez?
Oh ya.. For all those that has been living underneath a rock... yesh.. timetable is out!!! i already printed mine... wahahahah... i feel like a nerd.. print my timetable sooo early.. wahhahaha...
oh ya... wahahhaha... guess wat... wahahhaha.. omg... i just dunno where to start... but for those who knows what i'm talking about then very the good la... whahahaha.... if they think that i'm going to guide him?? they can dream on!!! lol..
He really have lots to prove to me sia.. *rolls eyes* think its so farking easy?? think again... you cant even fulfill a simple task.. wat makes you think you can do this?? But then again.. who am i to judge people till like that rite?? i might be wrong.. he might be able to shine even more with this role... *Shrugs* then good for him...
As for me? WHy am i still hanging around at something i dont feel belong in?? Coz, i have certain responsibilities to fulfill.. even after all that has happen?? hmm.. i'm really amazed at myself at times... and yet they still can call me irresponsible.. IDIOTS!!! once thats over i might be gone... HA!
sometimes, i'm just wasting my times on things thats not worth it... GRRRR~~!! they really have lots of things to prove me wrong sia... LOTS OF THINGS!!
Lalalalala.. i'm going to sleep soon.. have to be in school early tmr.. lalallalaa
Sch is starting this monday.. Ta-da!!
So fast!! Omg.. whahahaha.. i dunno whether or not i'm looking forward to this upcoming semester... SO SCARY!! i dunno la.. i very the kan-cheong..
Well, actually, i've been very kan cheong about alot of things... lallala.. so i gues.. kancheong-ing is going to stay around for quite some time..:P
oh ya...
This saturday's hari raya outing is on! ok?? Anyone who happen to be reading my blog and wants to come along.. just tell me.. okiez?
Oh ya.. For all those that has been living underneath a rock... yesh.. timetable is out!!! i already printed mine... wahahahah... i feel like a nerd.. print my timetable sooo early.. wahhahaha...
oh ya... wahahhaha... guess wat... wahahhaha.. omg... i just dunno where to start... but for those who knows what i'm talking about then very the good la... whahahaha.... if they think that i'm going to guide him?? they can dream on!!! lol..
He really have lots to prove to me sia.. *rolls eyes* think its so farking easy?? think again... you cant even fulfill a simple task.. wat makes you think you can do this?? But then again.. who am i to judge people till like that rite?? i might be wrong.. he might be able to shine even more with this role... *Shrugs* then good for him...
As for me? WHy am i still hanging around at something i dont feel belong in?? Coz, i have certain responsibilities to fulfill.. even after all that has happen?? hmm.. i'm really amazed at myself at times... and yet they still can call me irresponsible.. IDIOTS!!! once thats over i might be gone... HA!
sometimes, i'm just wasting my times on things thats not worth it... GRRRR~~!! they really have lots of things to prove me wrong sia... LOTS OF THINGS!!
Lalalalala.. i'm going to sleep soon.. have to be in school early tmr.. lalallalaa
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