I'M SORRY

lalalallalalalala....

Got a belated b-day prezzie from my mom today... i have no idea why she still bought for me b-day prezzie.. i mean she already gave me the chocolates... *which mel took and never return*

Then she bought me earrings.. which is totally cool... its feathers.. i feel like a native american.. so pretty rite?? lol.. fine fine fine fine.. stop rolling your eye.. i love it.. but it tickles my ears.. oops.. i meant neck.. lol..

and today.. omg!!! i cant believe what i got... its soo cool!! its soo nice!! all i could do was stare at it speechless and screeched for the whole house to hear... the only thing i dont like about it is that its pink.. but then again.. it looks alittle purplish.. so ya.. its fine.. muahahahahha... i love it!!

Its so slim.. like my phone!!! but obviously its not a phone la.. DUH~! i mean how many phone do i want man.. tsk tsk tsk... i'm in love~~~ with it~~~!!!!!!

7 yrs!! 7yrs!! after 7yrs.. wat happened??

it leaked...

it didnt cracked, it didnt break.. it just leaked...

yes.. thats all that happened... it leaked.. and nothing else..

why?? coz, she managed to control it...

yes.. all that happened just now.. was still in control...

she thought she was going to die.. *LOL* coz, her life was flashing pass her... she was back to where it happened, when it happened, how it happened...

the wall that she created.. leaked.. the wall that was built.. that managed for her own mother to call her heartless.. yes.. that wall.. leaked.. with the tiniest hairline crack...

7 yrs she kept that wall up... but how was it.. that within minutes... it managed to leak?? is it because she never thought about it before... everything was just stored behind something... things that made her what she is...

GRANDMOTHERS!!

where do i begin??

haiz.. you either love them to bits.. or you hate them to the core...

my grandmother... can either be a pain in the neck.. or the sweetest angel you ever seen...

today she was a pain in the neck... thats one of the reason why i didnt go out today...

she was being.. a toootttt!!! *nvm.. i shall not say any harmful things here that anyone below 18 cannot read.. muahahhahaha*

Grandma grandma.. you're soooo naive at times!!! argh!! Is that all you can ever think off?? is that all???? ARGH!!!!! Sometimes.. just sometimes.. how i wish you can be like those grandmothers that love their grandchildren to bits... but nvm.. such days are over... it will never return..

*ok.. shut up nad.. shut up...*

let's see..

There was rehearsal yesterday...

well.. we did the scene where devdas' mother chased him out of the house for the very first time...

surprise surprise...

I cried.. whahaahhahaha

shit man... lol... it was really.. erm.. i have no idea what to describe it as.. lol

SO ya... you know wat.. i have to slap people.. argh!! i hate this!! i feel so guilty.. coz, its like a little unreasonable rite for a mother to do such a thing over something so trivial?

Ya ya.. trivial for you but not for me.. might be the mother's answer...

aiyaiaiaiaiaia...

yes i cried.. y? no not because i was guilty slapping innocent pple... yes i was guilty but i wouldnt cry over it.. i mean.. c'mon i have to do it anyway...

but its just that... i was thinking if i'm a mother doing this... i mean how stupid can i get doing such a thing?? i mean so much for you doting on your son... and suddenly over small shit.. you chase him out of the house and give him a slap before that...

i mean what has he done to even deserve it rite?? and you do it because you listened to your daughter in law... let me repeat this.. DAUGHTER IN LAW!! you listen to an outsider but not to your son?? not to your own flesh and blood??

oh god.. such a mother i have yet to see...

no wonder he hates you...

i have to stop this... ok nad.. think of happy thoughts... lalallalalal

let's see.. i just havent been blogging faithfully this past few days...

Just extremely tired.. *YAWNZ!*

So what was i going to do??

Oh yes... i'm gonna update about the so called sleep over that took place not too long ago...

Yes.. MONDAY...

There was a sleep over...

WHere? at my house la.. very the duh rite?

so ya.. was up talking to mel and gb-ing and arguing with him when the other 2 was peacefully sleeping away...

Purpose of this sleepover was to celebrate azi's b-day... but i guess azi was sick.. kay was falling sick.. and all of us were tired.. so nothing happening happened at the sleep over...

we were supposed to be baking a b-day cake.. but rehearsal ended too late for us to run to any supermarket to buy any ingredients of any sort... well.. we wouldnt wanna add inedible stuff and force her to stuff it down her throat or something rite??

so where was i?

yes... MELVYN LEE!! You need to learn how to wash your face properly.. seriously, i think thats the first time his face is ever SO CLEAN.. Alll thanks to who?? the great me of course.. muahahahah....

I mean its like.. I got a shock of my life watching him wash his face... that i was just itching to do it for him... so ya.. in the end, i got my way and washed his face.. whahahahaah... damn funny...

so we were playing gb and talking till around 730am... if i'm not mistaken at that point of time.. i was waiting for him to come out of the toilet... and the next thing i know.. i was asleep...

Seriously, the reason i wasnt sleeping from the night before was that i was afraid that i'd snore.. whahahaha.. stupid thing to be afraid off.. since, it never happened unless i just came back from camp.. but ya.. its still a scary thought that your friends might be witnessing you snore... LOL!!

But in the end, sleep took over...

I slept for 3hours... and i ihave no idea how i woke up... did i wake up on my own?? or did mel woke me up?? hmmm.. that one i forget already...

One thing that i know very well, is that....

they all come my house to catch up on their sleep one..

So much for mel stating in his blog that he doesnt wanna sleep in fear that he wouldnt wake up... well.. guess wat? he slept rite after breakfast... nonsense rite??
And thats all he did... slp, watch tv.. and wake up to complain that he was hungry before he actually fell asleep again.. LOL!

thats all they ever did i tell you.. the only person who was awake all the time besides the 3hours that she fell asleep was.. None other than ME! ya....

we were lazing around the WHOLE day... yes.. thats basically wat we did...

Nothing interesting came up besides the fact that my mom's room door was locked from the inside and there's no way i can bring anything interesting out from the room... coz, thats where i have most of my stuff.. coz, on normal days i sleep with my mom...

so ya... thats the only sad part... cannot experiment with things.. lol..

Then when we woke up on the tuesday.. we were supposed to be going jalan raya with the law peeps.. well, obviously we backed out of the outing at the last minute due to lack of sleep...

SO SORRY NAZ... We'll definitely try to go next yr... was looking forward to it actually... but nvm... we were falling asleep everywhere in the first place.. so its advisable not to go anywhere.. whahahahaha...

*To Mel:For your 411, you didnt snore.. k? dunno why you so worried abt it also.. whahahaha

Finally...

All the guests have left..

YAWN YAWN YAWN!!!

Time to do some stuff...

oh wait... need to get the dishes done..

tralallalala...

i so enjoy being a maid.. i think thats all i've been doing since this morning...

-------- wash dishes, serve drinks, refill drinks, wash dishes---------

and the cycle repeats itself...

today was fun...

had a rather traumatising experience in the toilet...

I shall keep it to myself for the time being.. coz, i can sooo imagine hidayah's eyebrows falling out of her face when she reads what happened... whahahaha...

today was different...

today was surprising...

today was unpredictable...

today was an experience...

*TO AZI: Thanks for the b-day prezzie, really appreciate it.. and its cute!! mauahahaa.. i'm gonna sleep with it...

TO KAY: Don't worry your b-day present is also on my bed... wahahaha...

My bed is just getting much much much more crowded each day... Soon, i'll be the one sleeping on the floor and everything else on the bed...*

ARGH!! i seriously need to recover... The coughing is killing me... coz, its killing my breathing...

Aiyaiyaiyaiyaiyai...

Have you ever felt like dying?? Try having asthma.. Its an immediate effect on you.. You feel like a fish out of water... and the best part is that.. no one knows that you're suffering if you're having mild asthma...

coz, you look perfectly fine.. but you talk soooo fast coz, you wanna finish watever you wanna say so that you can breathe at the end.. but it never seems to end... and you feel like giving up half way...

and its really bothering you each time you cough... so if you no longer cough.. you no longer have asthma till the next attack which will be.. erm... in 2-3mths time?? or maybe 6mths to a yr??

And its frustrating.. esp for me.. so impatient rite?? Tell myself breathe properly also can get impatient... wahhahhahaha... lets just face it.. i'm weird in a way.. muahahaha...

If you're having asthma attack.. the full force one, my mom refers to it as the violin playing lead in an orchestra... Hmmm.. Just forget about controlling and hail a cab to the nearest 24hours clinic if you kena at 2or3am.. Coz, you cant even think, breathe or walk properly...

*Now this post sounds like something out of a pharmaceutical magazine*

Anywayz, where was i? Hmmm... yes.. if you feel like dying.. wahaha.. coz, everything from your lung to your heart seemed tooo big for your rib cage.... it just feels like bursting... but you're controlling it... and then...

you'll begin to wonder when will all of these end.... coz, you really do feel like a fish out of water... its really sucky.. YUCKS!! and soo.. eeee... wahahhaha

Its BACK!! ITS BACK!!
Guess wat it is?? My Devdas' rehearsals... wahaha.. had rehearsal just now.. i'm just oh-so HIGH!!! muahaha... yest's 7-up ICE still have not left my system...

TA-DA!!

I'm so scared... wahahhaa.. of something.. wehehehhee... Which obviously something that i'm not telling.. muahahahhaha.. *Don't mind me.. i'm just mad.. as usual..*

Tmr's there's rehearsals.. I'm gonna pray hard that tmr ends a little early... Coz, most probably my cousin, Nadia, is coming over... Finally, After 4yrs? Don't ask why.. i just have a weird family.. That's all.. nothing much.. Or rather that is to cut a long story short.. hehehehe...

Tralalalla... now now now... let's see.. the time is 3.33am.. wahaha.. so nice ah? LOL!!

Its the morning of the 3rd day of hari raya... Tsk tsk tsk .. so fast ah?? tsk tsk tsk.. Aiyaiyaiyaiyai... This yr like never take photo like that.. so sad... i love my red baju kurung already... then sekali no film.. wahahha.. that was farnie..

Anywayz, the first day,

It was a rather interesting day... Siok Lan came over.. *you're coming over again rite??* Anywayz, where was i? oh ya.. first day of hari raya.. Went to meet my grandfather...

Tralallalala... I was like.. smiling and talking away.. I have no idea why on earth am i in such a great mood when i only slept at 430am that morning... and then.. i realised.. since when i talk soooo much?? lol!!!

Met all my uncles at my cousin's place... *well.. my visiting list just gets longer.. buahahaha.. more green packets!!!* chit chat with my longest-time-no-see cousin... and we only left the house at 130am...

Then.. reached home... i was happily chatting away with my mom.. obviously not allowing her to sleep... then at 330am my cousins from malaysia arrived... why 330am?? Coz, they were stuck in a traffic jam on the causeway for 3hours!! There lah.. ask to take secondlink dont wanna listen...

Then talked to my other cousin, Baby. She was updating me about her relationship and obviously i got surprise of the month.. wahahhaa.. but thats another story...

So ya.. we were talking talking talking... when suddenly my grandmother is already awake.. walking around the house.. waiting for the morning prayers.. then we scrambled into the rooms like mice hoping that my grandma didnt notice...

at that point of time it was 605am..

then.. we went to sleep la.. guess wat time all of us was pushed out of our beds? around 11am... aiyo.. can die ah.. obviously we ignored all the pinchings and pushings only wake up at 1pm.. whahaha!! typical me.. i know.. :P

then obviously went out.. Today not so bad.. got take photos!!!! whee!! wahahaha.. so nice... *i feel so bright this hari raya.. i wore my lime green kebaya just now.. wahahhaa...*

Yes yes.. let's not digress... and ya.. not its 349am... i've finished typing this blog... and i'm still not sleeping yet... and tomorrow will be another long day..

TA-DA!

*Oh ya.. i'm still sick.. thats the best part... my voice... minah rocker!!! wahahaha*

Dammit! I didnt have the time to let it all out yesterday coz, i only reach home at around 130am.. but that doesnt mean i forgot all about it!!! ARGH!! you are one fucking self centered biatch!!! I dont care whether or not it applies to your gender.. BUt yeah!! I DONT CARE!!!

Dammit dammit dammit!! Shit shit shit shit!!! That's it.. That's definitely it! All i ask was for some consideration... But what did i receive?? Freakingly irritating smses from you!!! idiot!!

Demand demand demand!! Is that all you guys ever know?!?!? IDIOT!!! One day.. just one day.. i'm definitely gonna do the same thing to you... JUST WAIT!!!

Confusion?!?!?! WHo's the one confusing things here?? WHo's the one who is making a short story short?? Who's the one who is freaking beating around the bush?!?!?!?

IDIOT!! Don't talk about confusion to me when you yourself don't know your stuff...

Stop wasting my time if you dont know wat you're suppose to do... Don't ask me for my things.. when you haven't done yours... Dont try to change the fucking subject to avoid my questions!!!

Don't try to remind me of things when you yourself have difficulties meeting YOUR OWN FUCKING DATELINES!!! and don't you even dare to give me datelines.. especially when you yourself cant do it!!!

spoil my mood and you get a screaming phonecall from me...

followed my mom to the market just now... we went to Little India..

Wheee... And bought everything including coconut leaves to make ketupats..

Talking about coconut leaves... Grrrr...

Guess how much it cost to buy the freaking coconut leaves?? $6 for 100 pcs.. Its madness at its most critical stage i tell ya!!!!

GRRR!!! luckilly my mom friend was there.. if not... i would have created so much noise there... I mean who in the world sell coconut leaves for that kinda price?!?!?!

SIAO! PIECE OF SHIT... Its like 4 times profit la!!! Idiot!! Wanna cut throat.. also cut reasonably la..

Oh ya..

How nice... Sunday's hari raya... and today i'm sick.. no actually not today.. it started since yesterday... got a sore throat and and and and... a... oh ya.. runny nose... grrr!! i better recover by monday latest.. or else...

I'm gonna miss out on a lot of nice nice interesting looking delicacies.. wahahhaha...

Squeaky squeak squeak...

Thats the sound of my house... Its definitely Squeaky clean... I can even see my own reflection on the floor..

well. obviously, i havent been contributing to the cleaning of the house much... I only cleaned my study room and its windows and hang the curtains in my mom's room.. That's all...

Finally my study room.. Is CLEARED!! wahaha.. mission accomplished!! my table is CLEAR.. My cupboard is somewhat cleared.. but the thing is that... it looks presentable again...

And hari raya is this sunday... Sooooooo exciting!! I have no idea why i'm looking forward to is also... Wahahahaaa...

Wheee.... I'm mad!! Yay!!!

Hi hi hi hi..

Muahahhahaha...

I'm bored.. you know wat?!? I still havent clean the windows... I shall do it.. One day!! No no no.. Not one day.. I'll do it tmr.. Latest on wednesday.. if not thursday.. wahahaha...

I'm such a pig.. Well, cant help it if i'm like soo lazy to do anything at the moment.. BUt but but, i'll do it.. CONFIRM! or else... There goes my head.. my mom will hang it at the door to welcome the guests..

My house like soo Hari Raya... Wahaha.. actually come to think of it.. Its actually more of the just-move-in look.. Coz, my study room looks like a junkyard! No wonder my mom keeps asking me to clean it...

My aunt is in the room modifying curtains.. and embroidering someones' baju kurung... I have to clean the study room and sequined my baby cousin's baju kurung... which i managed to finish it.. but not the cleaning part... and my mom is doing something to the sofa..

SO ya.. Thats about the state of my house for today...

Tralallalalaa...

Let's see.. what else?!?!?1

OH YA!! LOOK OUT PEEPS... DEVDAS IS ON THE WAY!!
Its gonna be around the corner before you know it!! lol..

It'll be on the 29th and 30th december...

Ta-da!

Finally mom doesnt say anything.. coz, i'm at home now.. helping her to clean the house and stuff like that... *I'm such a lazy pig.. i've yet to clean the windows...*

And we've been going out.. Coz, i need to buy my baju kurung and my shoes and some things...

And just now... Oh man.. Haiz... ARGH!!!!! why in the world does have to say that?? coz, yesterday or whenever she fell down.. then she was like... why am i always falling down?? i just stared at her.. and the next thing that came out of her was that.. Maybe i'm dying...

I was like.. WHAT?!?!?!??!? and obviously it followed by a screeched or screamed or watever it was there and then...

I cant even believe we had that conversation... ARGH!!!

AAAARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, DEVDAS is cancelled... Or rather, its been postponed to the next semester break..

So ya, Deena and Hidayah... You guys no need to quarrel with me and threaten me with stuff to get tickets.. I'm sorry.. BUt ya.. Maybe some other time you guys will be able to see me act.. muahahhaa.. And i know you guys already planned on coming on 2nd Dec... Coz, its Deena's birthday... So ya.. I'm very sure we'll have a plan B rite?

And to some others who i've informed abt this production... I'm sorry, but dont worry... you guys will get to watch it next semester break.. that's a definite! okies?

Actually, i really wanted mom to see... the very first time for her to watch me act... but nvm.. there's always some other time...

All thanks to someone who has created a mess and forgot to clean it up... SO ya..
I'm not suspecting anyone... i prefer to remain on neutral grounds...

Thanks alot.. i really appreciate it! i really do... Maybe you should do it more often and destroy more of people's hard work and the dreams of all those that's actually looking forward for this to happen..

Yesterday, i baked cake lapis...

It was the first time i baked it.. and it was DISASTROUS.. lol!!

I think i measured the sugar and flour wrongly... so it the cake turned out to be damn sweet...

Then, you know.. have to bake layer by layer rite? then, after each layer.. you have to sort of press it lightly... i think i pressed to too hard... so in the end.. my cake was stunted..

it was damn hilarious.. after an hour of baking or so.. and everything is done...

I took out the cake from the tray.. and it was half the height on the normal cake my aunt bakes.. and its as hard as rock!!! wahahahahahhaa....

if i were to throw it against the wall.. it will definitely create a crater~..

I officially wash my hands off any future cake lapis bakings of any sort...

but surprise surprise.. today, my aunt ask me to try again... and guess wat?!?!?1

I SUCCEEDED!!! muahahahah.... it tasted the same.. its nice.. the layer is fine.. and i'm proud of myself.. wahahahahhaa... and its soft!!

this time if i were to throw it towards the wall.. its the cake that will break not the wall.. so ya..

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!