Can you believe it?

in less than 24hrs its gonna be 01.01.07.

HAIZ!

I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY!

i can't wait to leave 06.. but somehow i dont wanna enter 07.

why? Coz, growing up is not easy. lol!

So let's see.. what exactly did i do in 06??

1. Sins @ NP. - That was.. hmmm.. No comments. But as casts, we did have fun in the end aite? especially the camwhoring! lol!

2. BSB Concert. - That was awesome! I know i've never actually fulfilled my promise of blogging about it.. hahaha!!

3. Incanto '06, Senior Prom.

4. Singapore Fashion Week, Missoni Runway 06. - That was an eye opener.

5. Got employed, first full time job

6. Resigned my first full time job

7. Dreamscape 3.0 - Now who can ever forget that? that moment to dream and make it as a form of escape from reality was definitely worth it. I love my casts, my crew, my directors (kin and don- thank you once again, my friends (azi, deen, hid- thanks once again), my driving forces - my mom, hally (for hearing me cry early in the morning when i received don's msg.. LOL! that was something) and mel(thanks once again).

thanks to you guys even a dream is reality. hahaha..

That entire period was one of my most schizo eras. I was pushed down to the very depths of the earth and pulled back up by those i've mentioned here. Thank you. I am already missing you guys. And working with you guys.

8. Fencing. - I picked up the sword again.

9. Sketches, A story of hope (a yellow ribbon project by YCP). - I know la the grandmother very lemau.. SHE WAS DYING AFTERALL!! *smacks hally*

10. Saving Loukaitis @ Substation. - That was something. I'm grateful to be chosen.

11. Magic Fundoshi (FOH), Wildrice. - I've never been exposed to FOH till that day and the casts of Magic Fundoshi was hilarious. And getting a job offer in the process was priceless.

12. Natural @ Victoria Theatre. - The kids opened my eyes that there was more to life than just what i saw. Everything can be simple if we just let it be.

13. I got my 2nd full time job a mth after the first one

14. I resigned from my 2nd full time job 3mths after.

WHY? i'll go back to a law firm only as a lawyer. Period.

15. I taught my niece for PSLE. - She definitely made me proud. Real proud.

16. Fights. - i dont even know whether i should catergorize it as that. But what's done is done.

17. I've found another addiction and it's difficult to back out of it.

18. Various b-day celebrations.
a) Hid's bowling, chocz, prata and MP3 player outing
b) Mel's Fish & co, TCC Rendezvous Hotel & Fossil Watch outing
c) Hally's Fish & Co. with iggie outing
d) Azi's bbq and Mr. Bear.
e) My cousins' various b-day outings, earrings, guess watch and bear.

I totally love b-days! Coz, i get to buy stuff!! lol! each present has a different outing. and each present hunting outing was hilarious. I've always enjoyed myself doing that.

19. I turned 20 this yr. LOL! *Boo Hoo Hoo!!*

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ok i cant think of anymore stuff to make it to 20. So i'll just leave it till 19. oh wait.. i found 20..

20. I'M STILL SINGLE! WAHAHAHAHAHAH.. *rolls on floor laughing*

So many things have happened this yr. Some say that i've had a really eventful year.. some would even say controversial.. LOL! but whatever it is.. what's done is done and i dont intend to dwell on the past.

I've enjoyed my December tremendously! This yr's December is definitely one that i will never forget. Alot of things happened this December. Positive things.

I hope the positivity will spill over to 07.

What will i be doing later? I might be allowed out later. So most prob i'm going to catch the fireworks at Marina Bay tmr.

With who? no one.. wahaha. wat else is new? I'm spending new yr alone with no one special.. hehehe..

So for now,

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL...

and the muslims,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!

and to those who wanna eat ketupat and rendang, feel free to buzz me and come over to my house! lol!

Like every hari raya, my house cooks a full blown hari raya cuisine during Aidilfitri as well as Aidiladha.. LOL!

till we meet again ya'll.

And hopefully, in 2007.

Hmmmm...

Things been odd lately..

anywayz, i have no idea how to switch from this blog to the google one.. everything's in squares and i have no idea how to revert everything back to english and read the instructions..

What will i be doing this week?

I'll be having training, i'll be going out with my nieces...

I wanna go sentosa...

Anyone up to accompany me?

lol.

Its 440am..

The morning of 25.12.2006.

Yup. Christmas here everyone!

Merry Christmas to all...

I've been watching christmasy shows all day..

I look out the window and i half expected the roads to be covered in snow. Smooth, silky and white.

Oh well. I guess i'm thinking about other countries too often to actually believe something like that would happen here in sunny singapore.

Hey, if this well-drained country of ours can still flood in certain areas... i wouldnt be surprised if we have "snow" in christmas.. May it be some pranks from mischievious young boys spreading cotton wools all over the place.

Now, that i've gotta see..

LOL!

So what will i be doing this fine day?

Yeah. I'll be spending christmas the traditional way. Spending it with family.

Since my uncle's overseas.. I'll be meeting my cousin later to pass her the Christmas present, have lunch, sit outside and crap...

Its been a long while since i last saw her..

Hari Raya to be exact. the 2nd day if i'm not mistaken. That's like 2 mths ago...

yeah.. exactly 2mths. 2nd day of hari raya was 25.10.2006. today's 25.12.2006.

Now, i remember! today's one of my friends b-day.. i better go and wish her before i forget..

But anywayz, i digress...

I guess both of us are occupied with lots of things this past 2 mths.. she with school, wake boarding and aikido.

while i was working (at that time), production rehearsals (at that time) and fencing.

well, we're both hoping to be on the singapore team.. so i guess commitment and the lack of social life is the only answer to that... But of course, my social life is not exactly dead.

hehehehe...

cant wait for the sun to rise and for me to wake up from sleep (which i will go to sleep after this) and get out of the house so that i can spend some quality time with my cousin.

haiz.

Sometimes, i do wish for siblings. hahaha.. then i wouldnt be looking forward to go out of the house much..

i think.

LOL!

Its been a tiring week..

with training for the past 4 days... from morning to evening..

Blue blacks all over my arms and legs...

I better be losing weight! if not ah, *faints* besides, i want to be the new GUESS ambassador anyway.. and there's lots of zara and forever 21 dresses that i've been eyeing eversince my recent retail therapy...

Which is totally unhealthy. I tell you.. very the wrong leh... and i'm like happily making pple buy stuff as well..

today's trip to vivo city after training was eventful. WAHAHAHAHAH!! totally eventful!

*dies laughing at the thought of trip*

but its fun.. wahaha.. i shall terrorize more pple..

*rubs hands in glee*

hahaha.. theatre skills in full swing.. besides, its not that difficult you know..

*stares at particular someone and rolls eyes*

ANYWAYZ,

I've finally fulfilled promises of meeting up..

I'm sorry if i had to turn down some offers of going out.. coz, those that i go out with this week are those that have asked me during my production week last week..

hehehe..

I've been going out... and i'm the new vivo city girl. LOL! well.. most prob coz, its one straight train from home.. its the easiest to reach!! hehehe..

tralalalala...

there's so many photos that i wanna upload!

and yes, since i'm more free now, yup.. i can even dream of wat to wear to go out..

rite hally?

hahahhaah..

Hally: "Nad arent you from fencing?"

Me: "Ya. Why?"

Hally: "Wah you go fencing until so vogue ah?"

Me: *Stares at Hally to register what she was saying.. and then died laughing*

But ah.. Guess what i realise.. I DONT HAVE ENOUGH CLOTHES..

oh well.. i lazy to shop.. later cannot fit how?

But i seriously dont have enough clothes..

HOW?

HOW HOW HOW?

I just reach home not too long ago...

time check:

its 1230am

and i swear i'm on the verge of tears.

Why cant you just leave me alone? Why cant you just trust me enough? Why do you always have to fucking compare me with some other idiots that even i have no idea of their existence?

Its not everyday that i meet people. Its not everyday that i can forget that there's no one for me to talk to at home in the day. Its not everyday that i can have fun and forget everything.

I'm tired. I'm tired of you getting on my nerves. I'm tired of you saying hurtful things to me.

Do you know that? its not just now, its THE WHOLE DAY! do you know that? I guess you wont know that...

I was on the verge of tears from morning. Thanks to you. I bet you didnt know that as well..

How come you never fail to make me feel as though i'm the stupidest around? How come you never fail to make me feel as though i'm the ugliest being on earth? How come you never fail to make me feel as though i'm the worst creature ever created?

I've always tried and go way out of my way to please you. I no longer question you. I no longer answer back the way i used to. I no longer quarrel with you as though war has broken out in the house.

i've resorted to silence.

But tears still do flow. Just like now as i'm typing this.

Even though i'm used to it. Even though i act as if i dont care.

It still hurts.

Maybe, there are unshed tears behind those smiles. Maybe. Just maybe.

Christmas' here on MONDAY!

i swear i'm in major retail therapy!!!

I'm on a full blown shopping spree..

and my current target?

no.. not esprit...

not zara...

not topshop...

its... jeng jeng jeng...

GUESS

Upgrade already!!!

Its effing cheap la!!!

Trust me.. i'm not done!

i've bought 2 belts and a handbag and no, i've not spent 200 bucks there.

i've spent so much lesser than that, you guys wont believe it.

I nearly bought a pair of heels... but but but.. its like.. damn high.. i think its 3inch... and i've never actually worn a 3inch heel before.. and now, i keep thinking about it..

Maybe i shall go and get it this saturday..

i tell you.. soon, head to toe... is GUESS..

Like wat deena says, i'm the new Guess ambassador..

Paris Hilton in the making...

*faints*

I was actally dragging my mom to Guess the other day.. and i was like.. OMG MA!! You think i should get it?

and she was like... "Some things just never change huh? From young until big you've always been in love with Guess"

The best part?

I dont really remember having major retail therapy at Guess when i was younger, but i know had major retail therapy at Esprit when i was younger.

So i dunno. Maybe i did. *shrugs*

But that's not important.

The important thing here is that... i'm currently still thinking about that pair of heels..

and another GUESS watch... it has a heart on the face as well.. only diff from my current one is that, the face is square instead of round.. And the shape of the heart is different also la.. duh...

Oh ya.. and a pair of GUESS shades. I actually do like it la.. i've been eyeing it for a week already.. but when i show deena just now.. she thought i was crazy for wanting that pair of shades.

Maybe i am crazy for wanting that.. but maybe, i am not. I shall get another opinion of it either tmr of saturday.. hehehe..

*Cues thunder and lightning*

And i have yet to get that pair of earrings i saw 2 mths ago at perlinis. I cant seem to see it anywhere anymore . It better still be around. I need it for my cousin's christmas present..

If not, confirm.. die.. I dunno what to get her!!!

hmmm.. should i get coach christmas present? *ponders*

Aiyah, i shall not think about that now..

I shall go and stat dreaming about that pair of GUESS shoes.. if i'm still thinking about it tmr.. maybe i'll get it..

or maybe...

I shall ask people to buy it for me..

Can or not Deena?!?!

You guys still owe me presents and treat and watever rite? That shoe i'm sure is only 1/3 the budget for birthday celebrations... rite rite rite??

hehehehe

*Angelic smiles*

FINALLY!!

I'm no longer busy!

I'm no longer rushing for time!!

I'm no longer having my time fit around a rehearsal schedule!!

WHY?

Coz, my most recent production's done!

hehehhee..

i dunno what the reviews are... but Natural sure hit home that day...

My first ever production outside of school. Ok fine.. not first one out of school.. but you know wat i mean.. a big scale one.. one with a proper stage venue..

Man, i'm so gonna miss Victoria Theatre man.. lol

I'm sure gonna miss the actors, the kids, the directors, the stage, the backstage crew, the parents, the volunteers, the caregivers, the not-so-rush rush...

And i'm definitely gonna miss Maggie.

The person who ever so patiently cared for Danny. The person who joked, scolded, got irritated, have fun and understood him.

I've never actually found Maggie during my 2 months rehearsal period. Maggie came at a time when i was at a point of giving up and just wanting to go through with it and get it done and over with. Maggie came at a point when i finally understood them and when i finally was comfortable with them.

Maggie came when i was going to leave but i didnt want to...

The final scene as something that i didnt know i would be able to do... I've been worrying about it for months.. Its easy to do it with another actor.. but with on of the kids was more of a challenge.

We need to be comfortable with each other.

They said i made pple cry that night.

I dunno whether its true.

But wat i know was that, the final full dress, i did tell shikin that the scene is getting more and more difficult to do..

and on that day, the final scene, i was on the verge of tears.

To see it coming to an end, i was definitely sad. hahaha.. yes, i did cry by the end of the night.. lol!! totally embarassing...

And thanks for those who came. And for those whom i met during natural, thank you for being able to wok with you guys and get to know ya'll along the way.

OOoo...

Rehearsals are like.. OH MAN!

hahaha.. i swear i need to go out more often to not feel tired over rehearsals.

Anywayz, caught Eragon and Nativity Story today.

Yup yup. Movie Marathon of the year i tell you.

Eragon.

Its nice actually. I dunno why pple not interested in it leh.. if you can tahan LOTR, then confirm can watch eragon. The dragon very cute leh!! if you cant fall in love with the lead actor or actresses, you'll definitely fall in love with the dragon.

Nativity Story.

1. This totally reminds me of school. As in the daily prayers during morning assembly. But that's besides the point.

The point here is that, the story very the heartwarming leh.. warm your heart until cannot warm anymore.. (i swear i'm beginning to sound like an ah lian as time pass)

Yes. I'm hooked to the movie. People, ignore the bad reviews and just go and watch it... Its sweet. Seriously. I was tearing back there in the theatre. Because of various reasons.

One thing for sure, i'm gonna find someone like joseph for a husband... hehehe.. then he'll be a great father! At least my kids wont go thru wat i went thru.. *grins*

But then again, i can totally dream on man.. A man like joseph only appears once on earth.

the most ah, all i get is being a student of St Josephs Convent.

*faints*

MID DECEMBER HAS ARRIVED.

It's about time.

really.

2006 has been a toooo long a year.

i've been complaining when on earth 2006 will come to a closure since September.. can you believe it?

In September, i've already felt the dragginess of this yr.

too many things have happened. just too many.

Horoscopes have said that 2006 will not be a year that i'll forget easily. Trust me. I don't think i will forget a thing about this yr.

Change has taken place. Tons of it.

Haiz.. there's still 2 weeks before December ends. I'll make full use of this 2 weeks.

Wonder what i have on the week of christmas? hmmm i foresee a few parties to attend..

oh yes.. i'll make my cousin stay at my house just like last christmas.. hehehe..

and we'll roam the streets of orchard till past midnight..

What have i been doing this month?

Hmmm.. rehearsals and rehearsals. Yup. only rehearsals and fencing.

What happened to work? hahaha.. i've resigned. Again.

See what i mean by 2006 being long? i've resigned from 2 jobs for gods sake.

Had fencing competition last sunday at my coach's training place. I tell you, i cant remember the last time i fought so hard.

My coach was laughing at me by the end of it... "Mak cik, its been long since you last participated in competitions huh?"

*rolls eyes* Abit the duh rite? if 3 yrs is not long, i dunno what to say. Last time got stamina to last from 11am to 9pm.. thats the normal duration of a competition.

Now? lasting 3 straight bouts is a miracle in itself.

Lol.

What i wanna see in 2007? i shall blog about it when the time is right.

For now, i shall go to sleep so that i can wake up early to be able to be punctual for my tech run at victoria theatre.

the show's this saturday... time do fly when you're not thinking about it.
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The more i think about it
The more i'm afraid.

I'm so in love with the following~!!!

I hate the rzr.. but the krzr? now, that's different... the blue one? EVEN BETTER!!! so sleek so sophisticated!!! wahahaha.. azi mel! we should all get the krzr!!! wahahahaha...

I have a new phone candy.. and that's the new Sony Ericsson Z610i!! Its soooo cute rite?? I'm totally in love with it.. I tell you.. i wouldnt be surprised if i end up getting this for myself once i get my next job with a higher pay...


I'm even more in love with the blue one!! i mean look at it!!! hahahhahaa.. so smooth rite!!! i dunno why la but i'm like totally into blue this past 2 mths.. hahahaha... and if i get the blue one, it'll match with my mp3 player!!!!

Hmmm... since i still have yet to receive b-day presents from some... maybe can consider getting me one of the above? hahaha

hehehehee...

Oh how i wish i print money. haiz. lol.

I've cut my hair!!

WAHAHHAHAHA

oh ya.. i wanted to upload something..

No.. not my new haircut.. not just yet..

SO cute rite? Presenting to you... AZI AND MR. BEAR!

wahahha... i know its kinda late.. but still hahaha.. cannot help it if i upload my pics late.. wahaha...

we'll go out soon!!

I'm done watching the 24 episodes worth of Princess Hours.. Took me long enough..

That show ah..

wahahaha...

simply sweet. Period.

Yup, i'm much more in love with the Crown Prince now!! wahahaha

But anywayz, in one of the episodes, all the Crown Princess wanted was for the Prince to say it out to her that he cared. That's all she wanted to hear and that was enough for her.

And i wondered, is that really true?

With all my complains and opinions and remarks about love, feelings and words... i definitely could not say much on this after whatever that happened this afternoon.

I asked a friend of mine who got me utterly irritated over something, "why on earth do you always have to ask me such things every time we bump into each other?"

And he answered, "Because i care"

A simple 3-word answer that will just stop you from walking or turn your head in his direction in surprise.

and guess what i did? Nothing.

I just stared at him speechless before i could think of a response and all i could say was, "sorry".

Maybe sometimes, that's what a girl needs. To hear some sort of concern from someone.

Its easy for a girl to say that she cares to anyone and also to her other girl friends. But for her to hear it out of someone of the opposite sex. Its obviously something that doesnt happen often.

And for it to happen today. I was totally caught of guard. And the fact that someone do care.

Its just the same like how a person can tell you that they miss you, a simple, "I miss you" can seriously make your day.

Its the same thing.

The only difference?

It didnt come from someone who i truly wanted to hear it from. ha.

With whatever my friends have always said about me not giving pple a chance, i guess i am a girl afterall.

A romantic one at that.

Maybe, thats the reason why i'm afraid to give that chance.