CHRISTMAS 07

A BEAR-Y AFFAIR

Met the boyfriend in town on Friday. We went to catch I. AM. LEGEND. at Lido. Seriously, i seriously dislike such suspense movies but at the same time it was fun coz i ended up laughing at my own silliness.

I was squealing in the cinema and pulling on Mel's scarf and hands and covering my ears. Well, Mel was no better. HAHAHAHA!!

I was supposed to give Mel his X'mas present but i have yet to get it.. Due to Deena's superstitious-ness... I seriously have no ideo what got that girl into thinking that but thanks to her i have yet to get it even though i've been going to the counter for like 6 times already...

So I told him that I have something in mind but Deena thinks its not a good idea. So i told him that i would get him a shirt or a shoe or watever la.. So we went walking ard town heading for Zara where we saw this super nice pair of shoes but its not his size and other sizes was sold out.

Topman proved to be not much of help and Calvin Klein was quite disappointing as well.

Walked around somemore before he actually asked me what was it that i wanted to get him. Told him that I initially wanted to get him the Tommy 10 perfume... but Deena thinks that its not a good idea becoz of her pantang.

I told him that i've not heard of such thing and apparently... he hasn't as well. SO DEENA! YOU AH! I shouldn't have listened to you! lol!

Therefore, after much deliberation, I decided to just go ahead with my intial plan. See, my intial decisions always end up to be the one that i end up doing!

This is me adjusting his scarf for him coz we wanted to camwhore!!! LOL!!

This is not Mel trying to kiss me coz he was too happy with what i got him! This is actually his trying to be sexy pose! lol!!!!!

We started camwhoring when.....

Mel couldn't stop smiling over the fact that I got him the Tommy 10 for Christmas. He has put my X'mas present rite at the top list of the most awesome and favourite presents he has received... Talk about sweetttt!!!!

Then Melvyn bear came into the picture. Melvyn bear is an unexpected free gift that came with the Tommy Hilfiger purchase. The sales person was too kind or maybe, the both of us was just too entertaining for them that they decided to give us something.

It was decided that Melvyn bear will be in my possession coz I told him that I will take and use this bear to perform voodoo on him and I will plunge the bear head first into the toilet bowl everytime i'm angry with him and if anyone were to catch me doing that and asked me why, i will say that the bear's name is Melvyn. LOL!!!

But of course, I started giving Melvyn bear more attention than my boyfriend. I hugged it and refused to let it go. So as you can see from the picture below, Mel was jealous! WAHAHAH!

And he got even more angry when he saw this...

Me kissing Melvyn bear! LOL!!!

So I decided to take a pic with him without Melvyn bear's presence... but Mel was still pouting away... lol!

Wheee~!! It was fun and funny though. And he ended up sending me home! Promptly fell asleep in the cab.

I want my present toooo~!! Am i getting one? lol!

SLEEPLESS NIGHT.

Tears fall as she look out the window into the morning sky. The eyes only shut at about 815am. The sunken feeling as though her heart has been ripped out of her chest, stabbed over and over again and left bleeding in the open.

She lay there.

Her mind, a blank canvas waiting for colours to be poured on.
Her eyes refuse to shut.
Her heart, beating wildly. She thought her chest was about to explode.

As darkness engulfs, she fell into a bottomless pit. Neverending. A piercing scream rang into the darkness. But no one, no one was around to reach out and grab. And then it stopped. A bed of soft thick something covered the floor. She lay there not moving. Comfortable, she thought. Seconds later, she starts sinking as it reaches out and wrapped her fully.

Panic takes over. Strugging to break free, but in vain. She looked out into the darkness as peace took over. She closed her eyes as it claims her face only to have the situation being replayed in her mind.

Her eyes flutters open. She looked at her phone. 6 hours have passed. She lay back and as her mind starts to float again, her phone rang. Her eyes flutters open, grumbling slightly she grabbed her phone. Noticed a familiar international call, she picked up and grunted into the phone only to have tears trickling down her cheeks.

BLONDE RAMBLINGS

I AM FEELING....

1. Fat.
2. Ugly.
3. Chubby cheeks.
4. Poor.
5. The need to shop.
6. The urge to cut off my hair.
7. The urge to do something to my hair.
8. To have an eye transplant and make my eyes green instead.
9. Maybe i should consider making myself fairer in the process?
10. And removing my pimple scar...

I am just feeling quite ugly at the moment and its rather depressing. seriously!

CHRISTMAS 2007

Its the morning of Christmas and i take this opportunity to wish everyone

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

This year's christmas is definitely not like last year. Last year i seem to have alot of things happening and places that i needed to be.

This year? No one's around. Yup. ALL MY FRIENDS ARE AWAY AND MY COUSINS BACK IN THAILAND.

Used to do alot of things on Christmas for the past few years. This year is, quiet.

Someone once told me that Christmas is a time where you spend with the ones you love. I seem to recall that from a show i watched as well.. lol!

I know that this already have shocked you few days ago when you asked me of my plans today and that you asked me to get back to you in case something comes up.

But nothing came up, so i guess if nothing else comes up later for either of us, i'll be spending Christmas with you as you've suggested.

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Yes pple, i know i sound a bit down. Alot of things have been happening the past few days and the year's ending. Its ending a little fast for my liking. And this is the first time that its coming to an end and its actually affecting me quite bad.

I just don't know wat to do. Maybe i'm having one of those mood swings that mel's having as well.
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I just stare at you speechless. Your words amaze me really. So flippant. So ignorant. Carelessly thrown in my direction.

BELIEVE

Thats one thing I find hard to do. Believe.

My patience is running thin and my tolerance seems to have reached its peak. Trust me, its not the best listening to all that. Ever put yourselves in my shoes? I guess not. If you have, I wouldn't be here typing this out. There's always something to say isn't there? sheesh. Seriously, be considerate for once. I am human too. And humans generally have feelings.


Oh god, help me overcome this. Its time for action and some change isn't it? This time it must not be just talk.

Hey one and all.. its 3.36am and i'm reporting live from...

HOME.

Let's see... how long has it been since i last blogged? Hmmmz. a week? About there i guess..

Well.. let's see.. i forgot to wish my muslim friends Selamat Aidl Adha.. Sorry ya'll. Was busy eating up the ketupats at home! *winks*

AND THE YEAR IS ENDING! omg omg omg ~! I. AM. GROWING. OLD!

My cousins from Malaysia's here at my house and we went out to town just now... To.. Look look, see see? lol! Camwhored at town and got teased by them... *faints*

Oh well. I should just put it to the fact that... they don't see me often!

They obviously do not let me grinning get away.

Everytime they catch me touching my phone unconsciously. The moments where they noticed me flipping it open and closing it again as though waiting for the most important earth breaking news. And of course, the times where i smile into my phone while reading my msgs and replying to it grinning away.

I mean they've been at it for years actually... only eversince this year... they will never let me off that easily... lol!

But then again, nothing wrong with me smiling all day rite? lol! I mean life's good and everything's ok. And what more? i found someone i actually do love.

Tralalalalla..

Went to ACS(I) this morning. I've never been awake so early on a saturday for years already. I was up by 6, out of my house by 645, met my Coach at 7plus and i was at ACS(I) at 8.

The best part? I was half asleep only at 4 and i think only fell into a proper deep slp at 545am and mel gave me a wake up call at 6. LOL!

Fenced with the guys... The sabrists, Wesley especially, was fast! hahaha.. i was kinda... OMG~! moment there but hey... I WON! so ultimately ~ no complains! kwang kwang kwang~!

Then there was the epeeist, Alex, John and someone... lol! They're a funny bunch.

Alex is this caucasian guy i met during the last competition at Coach's place and he has been going on and on about how the schmates will find out about those who have lost to me. LOL! It was hilarious.

Maybe its the girl thing, they tend to underestimate? i dunno. I mean i train with guys. They know that perfectly well... *shrugs*

It even went to a point where Coach actually told them... "Don't take her as a female, she is just your target".

lol!

Speaking of trainings, my one on one training with Coach on friday SUCKED BIG TIME! argh. This is so annoying. I can't last again. OMG i told you i nearly died, worse than the previous time i had stamina problems... Maybe i should blame it on the lack of sleep i had the prev day?

ARGH NAD! Stop it! Thou Shalt Not Buy Insurance For Thyself!

Let me just end my entry with a pic!

I think we have managed to look alike and pose alike! WAHAHAHHA~!
This is what i would call... KAWAII~!!

Other pics will be posted up soon!

Love lifts us up where we belong...

Mel passed me Lovely Complex the other day and I just finished watching it off my PSP coz my comp's soundcard is spoilt...

There's some things about the show that actually made me stare at it in disbelief and actually rewind the entire thing to watch it from the beginning again before i actually settle down to watch it fully.

One would be surprised at how much the show actually affected me.

There were too many similarities that exists in that shows that actually mirrors reality. At least, my reality.

As the lead girl's says, "Pulling at my heartstrings". That is exactly how the show made me feel.

There were too many times where the lead girl's wanting to give up believing that the guy do not like her. Due to various differences and circumstances. Her reactions to situations. Her friends at times not knowing wat to tell her. Her lack of confidence. Her wish to be like the girl he has always liked. Crying over the things that made them different from each other, things that people believe wont bring them together.

I stared into the episodes. Speechless and in disbelief. How can something fictional mirrors reality so much?

She chased not wanting to give up even after she said she will.

But its normal isn't it? I mean, when a girl falls for someone, SHE REALLY FALLS! When she thought she will never fall any deeper, she's constantly proven wrong.

Then she realises. She can no longer deny to herself what her feelings are. How can a girl give up once she has accepted the fact that she has feelings for the guy? Even if she did say she will, unconsciously, she wouldn't. Even if she knows that she doesn't exist in his eyes.

Love.. Its about give & take isn't it? How you'd still smile at the thought of the other despite of any argument.. and you'd wonder how is that still possible?

I guess that's one of the many wonders of being in love and that's wat makes it so complicated... I mean if love was so easy to sort out and easy to define then no one wouldn't find joy in loving someone if its so straightforward... rite?

By the end of the show, I was smiling at the things it triggers. Its like a bittersweet memory isn't it?

Pictures speaks a thousand words and captions says it all...

I love one of the facebook's applications. Bumper Sticker. I send it to my friends to tell them how i feel. Everytime i browse thru it. It never fails to make me smile.

yeah maybe i should get that into my thick skull instead of allowing what others say to affect me so badly.

I should have more faith in myself. I should believe in me more. At the end of the day, its me that i will have to depend on. No wonder they say that you are your own enemy.

I dare you to.

When i do get bitchy. I REALLY am bitchy. I surprise myself sometimes as well. LOL!

Yes. Its mine. Its mine to live. I shouldn't allow others to dictate my life. But at the same time, my world is filled with alot of other people that will be affected by my decisions. So is my world really mine?

Pple always ask me to dream big. But i have to remember to wake up to realise the dream! So that the dream will one day be reality.

If there were such a meal, MacDonald's will be more successful than it already is.

Can i say this the next time i regret cursing someone? WAHAHAHAH!!

It still amazes me when i find out that there are people who are still afraid of me. Seriously, i don't bite unless otherwise stated. *winks*

This is one those bumper stickers that never fails to carve a smile on my face.

This, i couldn't agree more.

Girls love bags and clothes. I LOVE SHOES! if i were to own a collection as colourful as the above, i'll be a happy goober everytime i stare at them! When you see me smile and i'm holding a paper bag, one should guess that i just got myself a pair of shoes!

Someone should bring me to On Pedder and treat me... that will seriously be something that will make my day! WAHAHAH!!

I AM NOT SHALLOW~! really.

Ok. I didn't realise that until i saw this bumper sticker! Now it makes perfect sense i would look for ice cream every time i 'm stressed! Sheesh. That is one blonde moment! *gasps* Are my roots showing? *Covers head and runs into hiding*

Why? Coz, we're EXOTIC! and exotic doesn't come by very often!

So i've realised. LOL!

YEAH! So that i will have a better time camwhoring pleaseee!!!

Its so true! no?

Yeah. Only true friends don't mind. And so far, i think i've been saying what i feel. =)

Trust me, i do have random pple being jealous of the things i do with my friends. lol!

I'm serious. If you wanna know why I always smile, shakes my head and looks away?... That's why. *points to the Bumper Sticker*

talk about sweeetttt.. i also want!!!

Yup yup! Apart from the list of other things that i want... such as the FCUK perfume, games, phone, money, clothes, shoes and time to spend with him or my friends!

WHEE!!

It happens to everyone doesn't it? Sometimes, you cant answer the how question even if you know the answer. =)

Really? hmmm... i didn't know that.. well of course la.. i'm a girl wat! omg nad! stop it eh!

Yup and when you look into his eyes to see so much care and its telling you that everything's gonna be alright.

That's one of the things that appear in my mind. heee...

yup i do!

Things are always less complicated when i'm around you. Everything seems easy when i'm with you. A smile will always be carved on my lips by the end of the day even when i'm troubled.

Yes. I suppose everyone is born to make a difference. I don't think i'm any different.

I WILL RULE!!

*bounces about*

SHOPPING SPREE? NOT.

Tuesday, 041207, at ZOUK.

Met Mel on Tuesday last week coz we needed to go hunt for something and later on followed him to Zouk for Twang @ Zouk organized by Kit.

And no people. I dont have marbles for eyeballs.

And this, ladies & gents, is my very first pic in Zouk! WAHAHHA!

And i'm accompanied by the 2 things that i totally adore. Mel and my new watch. Talk about great company! WAHAHAH!! and i sound blonde at the moment. Pardon me aye?

Met Mel's friends... and this is the one person that i happen to take pic with.. Winfield. He is farnie! lol! And quite bitchy, if i may add. LOL!

Had tons of fun there!

Friday. 071207, at ARENA, The Cannery.

Went to Arena last friday, to support Omar in the Female top 50 Gorgeous people. And i shall introduce the group to thee.

From left to right (clockwise): Me, My aunt, I forgot the girl's name (Bianca's friend) and Bianca (Omar's girlfriend).

There you have us again. I'm beginning to think that i have Cat Eyes. But anywayz, enough about me and my eyeballs. Bianca seems to think that we'll be more famous than Omar after this coz, we seem to have alot of our pics taken by the event photographers. lol!

But seriously, the last thing i wanna see is my face published in Female magazine no matter how small the picture may be. WAHAHAHHA! so malufied lor!

Yes yes. I can see you pple rolling your eyes.. Malufied my ass rite? WAHAH! oh well. We'll just wait and see? LOL!

This is Candis Stauch. Contestant F1. She is actually one of my favs. Quite disappointed that she didn't get into Top 10. She's good looking. But very very very. PETITE.

This is my Cousin. Contestant M3. Omar Litz. We (me and bianca) felt like throwing our shoes at him at how cramp his face was (out of stress and nerves) on stage.

This is Contestant F4. Angela Leow Gray. I suppose she is just photogenic? lol! She definitely dont look like the photoshoot spread. But she looks very bubbly though. And she is also the winner of Top 50 Gorgeous People - Female.

This is Contestant F35. Rachel Eliza Doss. She's my sec schmate. She's a year older than me. She's in the same batch as Tania. Yes. She's tall and yes, she's modelling everywhere. lol!

This is the Top 10 finalist for Top 50 Gorgeous People. and also M24 - Mark Tay. And the winner for Top 50 Gorgeous People - Male is M2 Allan Something.

Yes, he is the really short guy that is in the picture, standing beside Angela Leow Gray. lol!

And they have a question and answer session for the Top 10.

Omar's Question.

Max: If you see a really hot girl in a club, how would you seduce her? If the girl is as hot as Jaime.

Omar: I don't seduce girls. I'm shy.

Jamie Yeo: Ok... Looking at you, I don't think you would need to seduce anyone. But if you're in a club and you happen to see a hot girl, what would you do?

Omar: I will stand in a corner and look cool.
(Me and Bianca proceeds to faints in the audience)

Jamie Yeo: hahaha.. ok. But if you have to go up to her, what would you say?

Omar: Hi. How old are you?
(Me nearly died while Bianca smacks her forehead and grumbles to me: "He should have just stick to the look cool and shut up after that" I died laughing by then)

Jamie Yeo: Ok i think its valid if you ask a younger hot girl that question. But generally, i dont think that will usually work.
(Bianca turns to me: Your cousin. I turn to her: Your boyfriend. And i couldn't stop laughing after that.)