The One of A Kind

Today is my free day.

Im supposed to go to school and get my Student ID. But ah well, i'll just do it tmr. I'm too lazy to do anything today...

My butt's aching from all the climbing of hill i did the past few days.

I'm going to cook later, waiting for my potatoes to cool down before cutting it up. I hate cooking. Its not that I can't. Its just that I'm lazy to do it. ESPECIALLY the cleaning up afterwards.

haix. To tell you the truth, i would rather not eat. bleargh. I have no idea why the pots and pans here have to be extra heavy either.

I'm still tired from everything or rather, events that occured before I reach here. Its been close to a week that I'm here.

I bury myself in all forms of mundane activities so that I wouldnt have to think about anything else. I washed the toilet yesterday! yes people. record it down. go get 4D!

Do I miss home? I'm actually not sure. Am I homesick? Actually i don't think so. I can survive here perfectly well on my own.

Missing everyone? hmm yeah i suppose.. alittle bit.

The one thing i don't really like about staying with a family is.. I dunno. maybe they see the need to try and be nice to me?

Everytime they see me, they asked, how's my day? how's everything?

The one thing i can think off in my mind is.. Boring. I can't possibly answer that out of all purpose of politeness. I'm not used to people asking me how was my day and what i did. I actually find all these conversations painful

I'm not the kind to open up willingly. I'm not the kind who likes talking about my day and my activities. How interesting can a conversation that's answered with , "It was fine.. i had fun." "it was ok... nothing much really." and "its was great.. rather interesting." be?

Honestly, i think i might actually be happier being left alone without any forced conversation to deal with. I take every opportunity available to escape.

I miss people who i can actually talk to. About anything.

Its actually surreal that this journey has begun. I still cant believe it. Even though, its been what I've wanted to do since sec sch. Study overseas. My degree...

Its been rather distant and awkward and I can't seem to pinpoint what it is actually. Not on earth half the time. Maybe he misses home? I don't know.

Its only been a fortnight and so much has changed. oh well. People move on fast. People change.

Its about time I do. I'm tired.

I wonder what will 5yrs do to those i've left behind at home? haix.