Is it worth it?

I dont need you to be the strong one. I dont need you to be everything that you think you should be. I dont need you to be anything more than what you already are.

I have no idea why are the people in my life are constantly doing this? trying to be the strong one, putting a strong front. At the end of the day, we're all normal human beings. Nobody expects you to be perfect.

Or am i the only one with such a mindset?

News - Ai Nante

My new Favourite song + My favourite Anime = YAYNESS!

Have you ever taken a shower with another person?
khekhekhe.. yup yup.

Are you happy?
Yuppedie yup yup

What were you doing 1 hour ago?
In the toilet

Is there something you wanna let go of?
Fears and insecurities abt myself, my life...

Are you any good at math?
hehehe... you think? of course la, I give tuition leh!

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Nope, but I would want to.. hahaha..

When was the last time you showered?
This morning la, can't be last year or wat rite?

How do you learn to forget?
Can you really really forget?

Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
yup yup.. everyone tends to unconsciously do that. LOL!

Plans for Friday?
hmmm... can't really remember wat i have at the moment. LOL!

How many brothers/sisters do you have?
0

Do you have a secret crush?
Used to... But well, now... i'm with my secret (or not so secret) crush

Do you keep in touch with your exes?
I have yet to find out....

Something you are excited about?
losing weight? WAHAHAHAHHA

What is your favorite flavor of shake?
Chocolate!

When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group?
When I said my thank yous to my casts after World Aids Day

Can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue?
YUP! don't believe me? Hally and shahdon witness it before! See, this girl with the short tongue has skills! WAHAHHAHAHAHA

Do you go to church?
no

What did you eat yesterday?
Chicken Rice for lunch, and then had ice cream with mel at night.

What's the last compliment you received and when was it?
From Mel, yest! Surprisingly! WAHAHAHAHA~! oh wait.. the most recent? this morning, from the cab driver. LOL!

Do you wear contacts or glasses?
None. Perfect eyesight. And I like my brown eyes, unless of coz i feeling turkish or wat... that's where all the other colours come in.

What's the last movie you watched?
27 dresses

What's your favorite thing to do?
Read, Shop, hang out, watch movie, sleep... actually i like to do alot of things... WAHAHAH

What are you doing tonight?
Meeting my cousin i think. LOL!

Who annoys you?
Idiots? Superficial & shallow beings. Hypocrites too!

What were you doing before this survey?
Doing an agreement

Is there something you regret and wish you could take back?
nope. None at the moment! =)

First thing you do when you wakeup?
check the time.

Do you have anything "bad" on your phone?
Nope... I'm an angel. *grins*

When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
Depends on how tired I am.

What is your favourite ice cream flavour?
Cookie Dough

Do you like the beach?
VERY MUCH!

Does your friendster song have any significance?
I dont have any

GO FIGURE!

Confidence is a must
Happiness is a plus
Edginess is a rush
Edges (I like ‘em rough)
A man with a Midas touch
Intoxicate on the rush
Stop you’re making me blush
People are looking at us

I don’t think you know

I’m checking it so hot
I Wonder if he knows he's on my radar
And if I notice you I know it’s you.
Choose you don’t wanna lose you’re on my radar

And listen baby don’t try to debate it.. try to make you understand you’re on my radar
you’re on my radar

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We can turn the heat up if you wanna
Turn the lights down low if you wanna
Let me break the ice
Allow me to get you right
But you warm up to me
Baby I can make you feel

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*winks* Britney's songs are getting more and more addictive pls. LOL~! *boogies about*


Courage is not the absence of fear. It is the presence of something more than fear. The brave do not live forever, but the frightened do not live at all.

CAFE DEL MAR - 26 JANUARY 2008

Some pics from Cafe Del Mar... Just to show our faces and not the rest. lol!

Aren't the girls just UBER GORGEOUS~? *rubs hands gleefully* And Rebekah's bitchiness? I LIKE!

Next? *wiggles eyebrows* Its like that ya'll! *grins mischieviously*

Night of Fun, Joy & Laughter
and yet...

There is something missing.

Got back home at about 4am this morning. LOL! We were as quiet as a mouse that nobody realised the actual time we reached home. It was quite funny how we went about the house, changing, getting our sleep area ready, eating, bitching, talking and giggling before we promptly fell asleep.

So how was it?

Caught a movie before proceeding to Cafe Del Mar. And.. OMG! Cafe Del Mar is a HUGE disappointment pls. The place was quite empty, the crowd was totally unexpected and the music is questionable. Somebody should write a complain about the music! One of the highly talked about night spots to go too is just like a major disappointment.

The only thing nice about it was the sea breeze. Its really a nice place to chillout. But the music combination makes it uber BLEARGH~!

I dont think we'll ever go back there again. Even if there is a possibility of having a different music the next time. Maybe I'll go back there when my friends have a private party. I trust their music taste more than the resident DJ's.

We should have just went to St. James but noooo.. somebody decided to come in board shorts and flip flops! IT WAS SUPER FUNNY!!! Me and her were super annoyed. We should have taken his suggestion and went in without him. But hey, we're nice and we'll never do that to him. We're angels. Don't you know? LOL!

Actually, we wouldnt be surprised if we get to go in. Knowing us and knowing the people we hang with and knowing the people we might probably know. WAHAHAHHAHAAH~!! And pls eh, yesterday was a huge miscommunication, didn't know what each other was thinking and the worst part, we're all having the same thoughts.

We could have gone to other places like dlb O, O bar, most prob, arena or try our luck with MOS. But nooo... LOL! But I guess, one of the main reasons why he appeared in board shorts was coz, we were alittle tight on cash. So there's no point in wanting to club hop.. all over the place.

But of course, there were the unforgettable moments. lol! Definitely unforgettable. *winks*

I guess, Mama is expecting this. Planning on a club sprees sometime. Spend alot one shot... and getting in free the following times we're out. Been done before, and they wanna show me how its done. LOL!

But currently, on the top of the list is St. James. CNY maybe? WAHAHHAHAHA!!

Then? What About Me?

Its difficult isnt it? Having to please everyone. It seems as though there's so many people to please and yet, there's only one of you doing it.

Yes, maybe I did pull away. Yes, maybe I am beginning to find comfort within me. Yes, maybe I am finding my own reasons.

Sometimes I wonder, am i really not worth the while? Am i really so difficult to talk to? Am I?

I don't know what to do anymore. I can't seem to open up anymore. If you state that you have lost touch with me. Then I am so so so sorry. I don't know what else to do. I did not even realise that it has happened.

I don't think its the situation that has changed, but i think its just that I have avoided vocalising some stuff.

I dont deny that. I've avoid alot of things to not show my vulnerability coz I know your take on it. I need to regain alot of things before facing a whole load of things again.

There are times where I just wanna leave. There are times where I just wanna run away. There are times where I just wanna turn my back on everyone. There are times I am just sick in being me.

There. I've stated it. I'm sick and tired. I've hinted but never wholly admit it in a blog entry.

You know why? I'm sick and tired of having to please pple, of having to do the right things, of having that image of me...

And yet, after all that... I still don't get what I want. I still don't get what I wish for. I still don't get what I desire.

If everyone thinks that being the only child is the most delightful thing in the world, then think again.

愛なんて
Ai Nante

Like treasure to an explorer
Like the moon to the howling wolf
Like bees to flowers
Like birds to worms
Like a teddy to a girl

That's perfection. And I found mine in you.

愛なんて　君なしじゃ　意味ないよ　生きられない
Ai nante Kimi nashi ja Imi nai yo Ikirarenai

When you've found things so perfect, you'll suddenly realise that everything else isn't. Then you wonder why fate has to be so cruel? A match made for you and yet...

Why doesnt the wheel ever reach the peak of its cycle? Does it really take that long to complete its circle? Will it ever reach peak? What happens at the peak, are things as fine as they say it will be?

And I pray like I've never prayed before. For strength. For hope. For a promise.

未来なんて　君なしじゃ　見えないよ　いらないよ
Mirai nante Kimi nashi ja Mienai yo Iranai yo

For faith, I always have. For believe, I know I do. For you, I'll always stay. And I hope that we'll always go through our thick and thins, together. :) That also applies when the thick, gets really really thick.

泣かないで　離さないよ　全てを投捨てても
Nakanaide Hanasanai yo Subete wo nagesute temo

Tickle Me More

I still can't get over the fact that people have difficulty recognizing me. Even those who have worked closely with me before. I seriously don't believe that i've changed much. Looks wise or i dunno..

Maybe grown fatter? Yes. Grown taller? Yes, alittle bit more. Grown prettier? Hmmm... Maybe my face is more defined now then before... Prettier? I doubt it.

But having people asking... HAVE WE MET BEFORE? never fail to make me laugh.

I mean hello? I used to be the one that you see every single day 3 yrs ago... and i have incidences where i will stand right in front of the person in question now and they are oblivious of my existence. And when I actually call out to them, they will just stare at me... wondering who the hell am i.

Only when i give them my mischievious smile.. then they'll be like... NAD? as in Nad, fencing captain Nad? SJC Nad?

*rolls eyes* C'mon pple. Give me a break. I'm not used to pple doing this to me, I will think that i have grown feelers and turn green or something.

And the irony is that, there were not even alot of malay girls in school. Even then cannot remember me. Sadded lor.

When, yes, i do terrorize pple in school. LOL! Ok not exactly terrorize. Let's just put it that.. pple notice if i'm on MC?

WAHAHAHHAH~

But yeah... Do i really look that different now?

LIFE OF VANESSA

The End.

I'll put up the pics soon!

Looking back on a year
we spent together
How it’s been, what
we went through
Although we’ve had our
little ups and downs
We’ve still pulled through

I took my time to put
my trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that I
spend with you
You make me believe I
have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew
that you would be mine

You know that what I feel
has to be true
Cause you’re my, my sweet love

My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
on passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy.

I think i'm being too hard on myself.

I think i'm being too concern about everything else rather than being concern about the things that really do need my attention.

I think, as they say, I get affected by things.

I think I miss my friends.

I think I'm detached from my world and I see everyone in front of me but I seem to be looking at them from somewhere else.. far away.. like an audience to a show.

I think I'm lonely.

*As the wall begins to take form, my thoughts and feelings are beginning to stay within the wall*

Squeeze it dry and I'll gasp for air.

My chest hurt so bad. By the end of it, i succumbed to my frustration. Something i've been controlling the whole day.

Walked away in a pace where only my feet were aware off, my eyes blurred. There were too many people, didn't realised that I was actually bumping into them. Waiting for the lights to change, I was still trying to supress my tears. I started hyperventilating.

A sinking feeling overcame me. A lot of things went wrong today. Before i left, I even irritated my boyfriend.

I made my way across the road as the tears made its way down my cheeks. I was still unconscious of my tears, my direction and my surrounding. Walked a few more steps aimlessly, before I actually broke down and started sobbing.

I stood there, covering my face, giving in to the tears and started shaking. I looked up into the sky as rain touches the ground. The rain was washing my tears away. Yet, I wasn't able to stop myself. My phone rang, and i ignored a friend.

Standing there in the rain, I look around. My eyes searching for the familiar silhouette. He couldn't be seen. At that point, i've never felt so alone. I pissed him off and I didn't have the chance to apologize. I actually went in search of him when I was told that he has already left.

Guilt struck me hard. My heart, heavy from everything and I just sat there, numb. They left and I just sat there.

Dialed his number and erased it, before re-dialing just to erase it again. I shouldn't have allowed my frustration to spill out of me and accidentally took it on others.

Finally pressing the green button, I started walking around. Tears came all over again. Worry, Frustration, Guilt.

By the end of it, I was drenched, soaked to the bones and shivering. But I couldn't feel... I was just plain numb. I wouldn't be surprised if I fall sick and die.

To both of you, I'm sorry for worrying you guys.
To Mel, I'm sorry for irritating you today and I'm sorry for everything else. I thank you for trying to be patient even when I wasnt perfect.

Even though I want to say so much. From now on, I'm just gonna keep things to myself. No more telling anything, no more showing my frustration. No more. To no one. No more. It'll be better off for everyone like that. I'm sure of it.

I'm rebuilding my wall. Layer by layer, brick by brick.

ORGASMIC INDULGENCE

I have decided that I need to add more shades to my existing collection. I've found 2 new POSSIBLE favourite brands...

PRADA & ROBERTO CAVALLI!

Which is, of course, a must add to my collection! WHEE~!

Since Chanel is with my dearest boyfriend, I've decided my collection is not enough. Therefore, I might just buy new ones~~ TIDAKK~! must control must control.

I've kinda already grew out of Chanel designs. lol! OMG! i should listen to myself talk! But of course, having a chanel is quite essential for a different kinda mood you know! I don't deny that! If anyone wanna get green lens shades, go for Chanel! they have gorgeous green lens! They don't produce Green lens often also. So yeah... Melvyn dearest, now you know rite. Please take care of my Chanel hor!!!

But anywayz, let me introduce you to the new pair of shades that caught my eye while i was at work and surfing ebay trying to rest from my Resolutions production.

This, dear readers, is... PRADA!

You guys have to admit that the colour is gorgeous! *Winks* DROOLS~~

Dior is another normal brand, but pls tell me that the frames are beautifully bimbotic!! LOL! Dior, i only like their pink, red and purple lens. Those colours are nicer from them then from other brands like, Gucci and Chanel. Trust me, i've tried them! LOL!

For a classy and more sophiscated look, I suggest and vote for BVLGARI! As you can see below, that is a pair of BVLGARI shades.

Now now now... let me show you...

ROBERTO CAVALLI!!!

You have to agree that the combination of the colours for the shades below is UBER SWEET!!!

And this is the Roberto Cavalli shades that has caught my eye for months already... suddenly, it seems oh-so-affordable at the moment.. OMG NAD~! STOP IT~!!! but really... you guys have to at least agree with me this is..

SUPER DUPER UTTERLY OH MY GOD ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY

GORGEOUS~!

If you guys are wondering why the shape of my shades are all nearly the same its coz, i can only pull off a certain shape. So pple, pls take note of wat suits me k... You wouldn't know when you guys will feel generous enough to get me a pair of shades.. you know you know.. LOL!

For now,

"OH MUMMY..... Do you need a massage? Or carry your bag? Anyway, remember the Roberto Cavalli shades i tried last year in June or something??..."

*voice trails off and fades*

ITS BEEN 6 YRS SINCE SEC SCH!

I never thought the day will come any sooner where i will actually say that! ARGH! I feel damn old thinking about it.

Remember how we use to snigger when pple say that its been 10years since their Sec Sch days... We will have our turn in 4yrs! 4yrs appears damn fast! and in 4yrs.. i'm gonna say that its been 10 years since secondary school!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

The reason why i suddenly am making such a big fuss about it was coz, this morning i was late. So i took a cab to Seng Kang MRT. And the cabbie happens to be the exact same cabbie that used to drive me to school nearly everyday!

Yes, i used to take a cab often to school! especially when my school hasn't shifted to Seng Kang and was still at Kovan. When it was at Seng Kang, i took cabs when i have fencing trainings. It came to a pt where it was nearly everyday. Just shows how busy i was..

Fencing equipments and pure art don't really go together in a bus very well! HAHAHAH! sometimes i wonder how on earth i manage to get home with my duffel bag, sword, art materials, art toolbox, 5 (1m by 60cm) mounting boards. *faints* ON TOP OF MY SCHOOL BOOKS THAT I DIDN'T LEAVE IN THE LOCKER COZ I HAD TO DO HW! A-MATHS TXTBK WAS A CHORE TO BRING HOME! (small and thick has never been a good combination in my opinion.)

thank god for my locker, if not, i swear... i'd be like.. OMG PLS! HELP! I WANNA DRIVE TO SCHOOL!

Now, when i look back, i'm quite amazed at myself. LOL! I think hid used to have the same problem.. only that she always come to school damn early so there's no morning crowd.

She, with her extra sport shoes, netball ball, art materials and sticks.. HAHAHAHAH~!!

Speaking of lockers, the person with the worst locker was DEENA! hahaha, you open her locker and everything tumbles out! It doesnt help that her locker is rite at the bottom. lol! Her locker has everything! including clothes sometimes! lol!!!

Oh god, i have to stop reminiscing~!! Its making me feel even more old! ARGHHHH!! i just turned 21!!

Hmmm...

Got the thing below off friendster bulletin... Hahaha~ I'm NOT too free... anywayz, ya, my friends have been debating that the guy below, doesn't exist. I actually beg to differ. LOL!

Pink will be my thoughts. HEEE~!

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I'm the guy who will text you every single morning and tell you goodmorning, and every single night to tell you sweet dreams. I'm sure boyfriends do that. Mornings are quite questionable, i will not say that morning messages are non-existent. But the night thing, confirm have rite? maybe only once or twice he doesnt do it.. lol

I'm the guy who will hold you when you're crying and wipe away your tears. I'm very sure they do that lor. Even if they're your boyfriend or not rite? If they care for you in that way, they'll usually naturally do it.

I'm the guy who still thinks you're beautiful with no make-up on, wearing your most torn up jeans and a plain tee-shirt. Hahaha.. this is quite cute. Most girls will think that guys say it just bcoz you're the girlfriend no? lol! But on the guys' part, i really wont know. HAHAHAH! But its nevertheless sweet to hear that rite? WAHAHAH!

I'm the guy who won't pressure you to do things that you don't want to do. This one also confirm got one wat. He cares enough to know lor. rite?

I'm the guy who kisses you on the forehead; it doesn't always have to be on the mouth. I actually do think that being kissed on the forehead is really sweet. lol!

I'm the guy who doesn't kiss and tell. hmmm... this one... i'm quite blur.

I'm the guy who actually listens to you when you talk. Hmmm... don't tell me this one also questionable? lol!

I'm the guy who's waited all day because I'm looking forward to our date that night. HA! this is the one that i think don't happen one la! Usually its the girl that ALWAYS looks forward to meeting up, dates or anything lor... I've never seen a guy who can't wait for the day to end juz coz he's meeting his girlfriend later. CORRECT? hee~

I'm the guy who is content to just be able to hold you and wants nothing more. hmmm... not every guy wants everything. Sometimes, its the simplest things that means the most no?

I'm the guy who can't help but smile when you walk into the room. hmmm... this one i really wouldn't know. lol! Coz most of the time i tend to be oblivious to my surroundings. But usually, when i am not, i tend to catch that small smile. HAHAHAH~!

I'm the guy who's perfectly content with staying in and watching movies and cuddling. I actually do think that this is sweet and throw in the guy cooking for the girl dinner will make it perfect! HAHAHA! that, however, is quite hard to find. LOL!!!

I'm the guy who won't lie to you about where he's going or where he's been, or who he's been with. yup yup. They usually tell the truth no? I mean if don't and if the girlfriends find out from someone else. They are usually in deep shit. LOL.

I'm the guy who gets butterflies when he hears your name. HAHAH! This one cannot comment one! I've never been in the guys' stomach to see the butterflies fluttering when the girls' name is called. lol. This one i have to ask a guy. LOL~

I'm the guy who's not afraid to tell his friends he loves you. hmmm... this one i dunno easy to find or not. lol! Most of my guy friends don't do that. I only know of 1 who does it so far. whee~

I'm the guy who doesn't mess with other girls when I have you; you're the only one that I need. I think if the guy knows what is good for him, i think he would be clever enough not to do that. HAHAHA~!

I'm the guy who doesn't care about your imperfections, and loves you more for them; who wants a perfect girl? that's just boring. Hmmm Really? I thought all guys are always looking out for that PERFECT girl?

I'm the guy who will hold you while we watch the sunset. Aiyah, this one everyone also do rite? i mean i wouldnt know that la.. But still, its natural to do that while watching sunset rite? Dunno leh~ *shrugs*

I'M THE GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE YOU THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD. hmmmm.... Define Happy! LOL! how would one know that the level of happiness achieved beat everyone else's in the entire world? WAHAHAH~! i am such an idiot.

But seriously, a guy like the abovementioned is not that difficult to find rite? Its quite findable ......no? Hmmmm....

Rants. Complaints. Grumble.

I swear I'm on the verge of screaming. I have no comments la seriously. I mean com'on! Your documents are not the only one confidential! SO IS MINE! I'm doing corporate stuff. Things that not many are allowed to see!

If you're printing something confidential that happens to come after mine... seriously, just take the top 2 pieces (especially when you know how many pages your documents are) instead of snatching the entire damn stack out of my hand, when i was about to take your aforesaid document out of my pile!

I really don't care wat confidential stuff there are. I also don't care if its even payroll. I'm too busy to take a peak pls! Besides, everyone here is either regional executive, regional manager, manager, directors and you really think i'm curious enough to know the wages around here? haiyo. It doesnt take an idiot to estimate how much.

And instead of looking thru the most recent printout, You went through the entire stack at the same time glancing through my stuff. I mean hello! you think i go to the printer for fun issit? Obviously i got print something out wat!

I have no idea why people are annoying me nearly every single day the moment i start here! I tell you, the moment i get confirmed (if my patience level is that long to last for the next 3 months), i'm gonna be the bitchiest Legal Secretary ever.

Its not that i'm looking forward to that, i just find people are losing basic courtesy. Just at least be nice or request nicely to your colleague. ARGH!

Someone else.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THE DOCUMENTS WITH YOU ARE CONSTANTLY NOT THE LATEST!? EVERYTIME YOU ASK ME TO CHANGE SOMETHING, I OPEN MY DOCUMENT, I REALISED THAT MY DOCUMENTS THAT IS IN MY FOLDER IS IN THE WAY YOU WANTED ME TO CHANGE IT! AND I'VE DONE IT BEFORE YOU ASKING ME TO EDIT ANYTHING... SO CURRENTLY, THIS IS VERY WTF!!!

JOURNEY OF A THOUSAND MILES BEGINS WITH THE FIRST STEP

It would be New Year in my world today. Tmr will be the beginning of a new year. I'm looking forward to wat this New Year in my world would bring. Would we realise the mistakes we made and amend it? Would we be more mature to handle things now?

As a common thing that happens every New Year, there will be resolutions, there will be questions. None of which will be stated here of course. :)

You,
You're the one who always makes things rite for me when it goes wrong.
You're the one who always wipe my frowns away
You're the one who knows me well enough to be able to talk without speaking, to see without looking, to feel without touching, to understand without explaining, to sympathize without complaining, to scold without anger...
I hope you'll always love me... :)

I love you Melvyn!

We've never done those monthiversaries. Hahah~! but i'm not gonna let you get away with annivesary so easily.

KWANG KWANG KWANG~!

WORLD AIDS DAY @ TAMPINES CHANGKAT CC.

Below's the flyer for this particular upcoming production that i'm in. So, if anyone wanna watch it, please call or sms me k? the tickets are priced at $8.

There's no complimentary tickets even for myself... so ya. Don't ask me if got free or not. WAHAHHAA!!

I'm directing "LIFE OF VANESSA".

I'm just an ametuer director. So please eh, don't expect so much... WAHAHAHHA!! *twiddles fingers out of nerves*

Anywayz, if anyone wanna know who's acting. There's me! isn't that enough? WAHAHHA~!! ok ok.. there's also the long lost cast who most of you have last seen at Dreamscape 3.0 in June 2006.

Yerp, if you're thinking Mel & Hally, you're rite! They're also part of my cast! wheee~~!! And its also a Debut role for a new member of YCP, Fadhuli!

So.. msg me k? THANKS!

Second day of work. Everything's good but I can't help be bored at times. I'm serious! It keeps me reminded why I always end up dozing off in Mr. Pok's class. WAHAHHAHAH!!



My eye is in pain. I swear. I just wanna close my eyes and have a nap rite now. very very very pain lor!



So how's work here? Its ok la.. so far so good... only thing is that i've always never fail to sleep in Company Law class... i can't possibly do that here. so yeah.. WAHAHHA!!

*faints*

In-house work, there's obviously a difference. It's no doubt a change.

Looking Back on Twenty-Oh-Seven.

2007 has been a year of many Ups and Downs for me.. Alot of things happened. That, i'm very sure of. lol!! So let's see...

1. Last yr, last on the list was the fact that I was still single. In 07, that was one of the first things that happened. I got attached to Melvyn. =) And still am happily attached to him.

2. Got employed to my 3rd full time job.

3. Became a PA cum paralegal for the very first time in my life and organizing one's life is entertaining to a certain extent. lol!

4. Went for overseas Fencing Competition.

5. Quarrelled with my ex-employer over leaves...

6. Had to handle too much politics for my own liking.

7. Had other problems. But i guess there were many things that needed getting used too... I hope we'll get over it soon.

8. Threaded my brows for the very first time in my life. MEL FORCED ME TO DO IT!

9. Became Set Designer for the very first time. Did YCP's Chronicles of Maria.

10. Cried in front of someone. EMBARRASING!

11. Cried becoz of work. A few times within my course of employment.

12. Left my 3rd Full time job

13. Did part time with Azi. Events. It was an interesting experience. Especially working with the guys and my cousin... i tell you i could have died of annoyance at one point thanks to them teasing me CONTINOUSLY.

14. For the very first time, i felt immensely jealous. Then i realised how much i actually love him. But i think he didnt know that i was jealous. LOL!

15. Had my moments of confusion due to certain incidences.

16. Decided to postpone something again.

17. I became closer to my cousins.

18. Had my various 21st birthday parties to attend. Themed or otherwise. It was definitely a great experience dressing up for such things lol!

19. Mommy got me a cammie for my 21st b-day. I am gonna pimp cammie up soon. lol! And i resumed my camwhoring all over again. Only this time at more crazy level than before. lol!

20. Had my clubs experience. Even though it was short but i had tons of fun... I am definitely going again!! WAHAHAHAH!!

21. Got myself employed on the last day of the year thru phone. Doing legal, this time in-house. And that's how i'm typing this entry.. from my laptop at work.

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2008 has begun and hopefully, it'll be good! I started off with a new job at a place that seems good so far. I've talked and cleared some things before the year ended... and hopefully, everything in every aspect will be good. =)

i'm going for lunch now