Study Break

A time of from school.. to do wat?? Study for exams... But wat am i doing??

I literally took the meaning.. Study break equates to a break FROM studying... Nice huh?? hehehe...

Staying at home for this week... is really shytie! Argh... I think i'm stressed.. about wat?? that i don't know.. I guess its just that there's lots of things going on at the moment... haiz.. *Nad!! Focus!! Certain things are not meant for YOU to worry about!!

Ok one of the reasons why staying at home is shytie is that... I do everything BUT study... Really!! I open the book.. And off i go to dreamland... I wake up... Take the book... And growl growl goes the stomach... and of i go in search of food... Haiz.. I wouldn't be surprised if couldn't fit into my jeans to go to sch next week...

I've been munching and munching and chewing and chewing... All dayyyyy & all niteeee.. that's bad.. rite??

Ok enough! I need to go study!! NAD!! STUDY NOW!!! *Slaps self*

Ahhhh... i hear something.... "Open me... gain knowledge... its for your own good... Nooo... Don't be afraid.. its just me.. Your Contract notes..." *faints*

Went to watch the korean horror movie today...

THE GHOST
*what kinda title is that??? So.. cheesy?? you put that title for a horror movie?? Wat an irony sia*

Let's see this is the... erm.. i can't remember...

Recently went to watch 'Face', before that was?? well i cant remember wat was before 'Face' but wat i remebered was that this month is like a horror movie marathon or something.. Must be the 7th month... wahahha

Anywayz, let's talk about ghost..

Supposed to be studying in school... and then wat happens?? Mel.. happily calls Azi and later MY MOM!!! to ask them whether or not they wanna watch movie.. and then kabby.. so ya.. its a 5 person conference call when i'm opposite mel.. seriously wondering why both of us are wasting phone bill when he could have used his speaker phone thingy...

If you guys are attracted to the trailer you see on TV MOBILE.. You guys are fooled!!! Its not exactly the greatest horror movie ever made... sheesh.. I personally think that it sucked... i mean its not coz, i hate horror movies.. but it just suck.. whahaha

The storyline is gone.. its really haywire... there is really no logic in there... no link from one scene to the next... and the ending is really gone... its spoilt.. and i wonder why new paper rates it 4 out of 5... *mel.. are you sure that's wat you see?? 4 out of 5??*

And my mom concluded that it might be something only the Koreans are able to understand... lol!!!

And the best part is that... i was cowering most of the time behind my mom's arm... and then? what was i doing?? i was the one explaining to my mom about the story and mel was clarifying some of his doubts with me...

It's either that i have x-ray eyes, able to see through my mom's arm OR that i understand Korean... to be able to understand the story without having to watch the whole thing and later explain to pple what the story is really about...

This is the first time

THAT

i've logged into my yahoo account everyday and so MANY times in a day

Well.. Its because.. my dearest Azizah introduced me to Yahoo! pool..

*nice time ah?? Study break you know!! Influence me into all this online gaming.. tsk tsk tsk.. Ok ok fine.. its my fault tooo.. I could have ignored.. hahahaha but.. i tend to give in to temptations.. lol*

Oh ya... where was i?? Hmmzzzz....

Oh yes yes.. what did i do today?? NUFFING!! NUFFING AT ALL!! i'm suppose to study!! but that's the word.. SUPPOSE TO.. but am i doing it?? NOooooo... *Nags at self but in vain*

OH YA!! DID YOU WATCH AMERICA'S TOP MODEL 2?!?!? Fuyooo!!! HOoOoTtt!! Mercedes and camille.. wooohooo!!! wahahahhaa....

ok i think that's all for now.. hehehe...

Oh ya.. NEWSFLASH... My first semester of this 'GLORIOUS' yr 2 have ended... it ended on firday lah.. like duh rite..

And next week is study break.. and the week after that is exams.. and after that.. i have rehearsals.. and more rehearsals.. and then i predict one or some of the rehearsals i'll be coming in my hari raya clothes.. ya...

Went to Little India today..

wheeee!!! i'm gonna go back there again next week.. coz i forgot to buy my anklets!! sheesh.. My mother la.. Rush me.. Well.. actually for my own good also la.. since i was fasting today...

My purpose of going there was to buy accessories to match my kebayas and most prob hunt for some stuff la... then instead of buying anything for hari raya... I got a pair of earrings which i'm currently in love with!!! wahahhaa.. ITS SOOOO NICEEE!!! ok ok.. nad.. stop!!!

Then.. got some food home for a stall which we always buy it from.. Ohhh SOOOO CUTEEE!! whahahaha...

Anywayz, later at night.. received a phonecall... ARGH!! So scary!! sheesh.. i dun even know who he is and he ask me to meet him and go out with him?!?! sheesssh!!! never sia!! the best part was that after he said hello... he was like.. do you have a boyfriend??

I mean... what kinda qn is that?? even better.. to start a conversation?!?!?! i think ah.. if he took LCOMM.. he sure will fail his ice breaker sia..

Meet some buggers online while playing pool... who called me racist due to my username... i mean.. WTH!??!?!!? sheesh.. human beings!!!

and kay.. you really wanna know the conversation during our dinner ah?? but ah.. its either you will chop of our heads.. or you'll die.. or you'd chop off our heads and THEN die...

Ok.. Actually, today i'm in such a good mood.. wahahhaa...

Let's see what happened today?? Well, it started off with my mom not allowing me to go to school.. coz, SHE WAS ON LEAVE.. That's my mom... hahahha... Well, its really difficult to get a mom stopping you from going to school coz she wants you at home to spend time with her.. Yes yes... my mom.. at times, when she is too free... i think she is the perfect example...

Well, obviously thanks to certain parties... i entered accounts tutorial 20minutes later than usual time..

Anywayz, had a LCOMM consultation just now.. yes.. The very same one that i was worried about yesterday! And guess wat?? I got a shock of my life... Well.. i think my whole group got a shock of their life.. Really.. no kidding...

The expression on our faces was just PRICELESS!! lol.. really, truly priceless... hehehehe... It was just UNBELIEVEABLE!!

Anywayz, i got my very first warning letter in my poly education... From Accounts... How thoughtful of the tutor huh?? And the best part was that... i didn't get scolding from my mom... instead it was an educational and informative "lecture"... Guess what she was going on and on about??

Trying to make me understand when 'BCC:' applies... Caring huh?? wahahaha...

Oh ya.. had my French Speaking test just now... Oh man.. I seriously dunno how i'll fair.. Its just damn hilarious... And then guess wat?? Went to meet my mom coz she was complaining on how I'M BEGINNING TO NEGLECT HER...

But anywayz, met her... and we went to watch movie... The Great Challenge. Its a new movie i think. Its all action-pack la... And none of the stunts were special effects... The fighting was just POWER TO DA MAX!! wahahaha....

And the main language in the show is... *Jeng Jeng Jeng....* If you guessed FRENCH, you just hit the jackpot baby.. whahahaha... English was at it's minimal... French was main.. Then there was a sprinkle of Thai somewhere.. and some American-sounding Mandarin.. *Their mandarin really sucks!* as well as Japanese... What a mix man.. lol!!

And to think of it... I understand the French part quite well... wahahhaa.. without having to read the subtitles... I'm so proud of myself.. Wahahahaha

I've been wondering when was the last time i met my group members and why its been such a long time since i last saw them..

Then i remembered the reason why.. LOL!! All my projects are over... Muahahahha...

And i can't believe i'm saying this... But is the very first time that i missed my groupmates.. Can you imagine that?? Ok pple.. Raise your hands if you miss your project groupmates.. I'm sure that all of you cant wait to get rid of them... Well surprise surprise.. I miss their company...

That is what happen.. Ladies and gentleman.. when you're in my course and you got so many projects to the extent that your group members are all you see... So when project finish, you tend to wonder why you're so free and why suddenly your group members are no longer hanging around in your face.. muahahaha

so ya...

Who are my group members?

*Drum Rolls*

Let me present to you:
Lili, Wahidah, Fiza and Nuraini

*Speaking of which.. tmr got lcomm consultation.. i'm scared!!!*

Anywayz, ya.. My group members.. To tell you the truth i never thought i would actually get along with them... hehehe... sorry.. but just stating the truth la.. But now.. Wahahah... I just wanna say that.... YOU GUYS ROX!

Gonna miss you guys.. That's a definite.. :P hehhee.. ok ok.. enough of this.. hehehhe

Ok.. i'm currently reading the Devdas script..

And

Ohhh Myyy Godd!!

Some parts of it.. I think the actors can just record their voice and play it over and over again..

For example:
*p: you can. one can do anything one wants.

d: can you elope with me tonight?

p: what are you saying?

d: can you elope with me?

p: you've no one to look after you.

d: can you elope with me? *

No offence kay... You know i'm just playing around.. *Gives my most CHARMING smile*

i'm bored and i'm sleepy and i have no idea why in the world i'm in school...

Haiz...

Came to school just for a one hour lecture.. Heloooo... How hard working can i get rite??

the answer is: VERY.. muahahaha...

Maybe i should just go home now..

Oh ya.. i forgot the reason why i'm still in school.. I'm waiting for the other two.. Just hope that they won't forget me.. muahahhaa... i'll just strangle their necks and flush them down the toilet... MUahahha... *evil grinz*

I think its time i meet him

Its time i swallow my pride

and not allow my ego get in the way

I think its about time i seek for help

From the one and only person i despise......

He is afterall the answer to most of my prayers...

i think......

I'm in school...

I'm sleepy...

I'm bored..

I'm dying..

And i'm a pig...

Why?? Coz, currently i'm hungry...

Anywayz, i dunno whether or not i'm late handing up the assignment today... Haiz... Havent slp.. and i need to go home soon to change into formal for tonight's Law Investiture.. Why did i even leave my things at home you tell me??

Should have brought it to school and changed later.... Sheesh...

At times i'm just amazed at my own stupidity...

I wonder when is it all gonna end?
I wonder is there really light at the end of the tunnel??
Or maybe a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow....

I wonder when will things change for the better...
I no longer wanna witness this anymore...
Its enough...

Maybe its about time it SHOULD end...
If only i could be in control... of everything.... or at least something...

Yesterday was fine.. Rather interesting i might say.. Wahaha.. Managed to make a few people stressed~~!! Wahaha.. Stressed?? By me?? LOL!! Can't believe it though.. I mean who am i compared to all those that were around rite??

It was fun in a very interesting way... Finally showed my mum my sufferings.. Wahahaha.. Finally she understood.. wahaha..

Hmmzzz...
Off to do my contract soon i think... After i managed to pester my mum to go eat dinner.. Yes yes.. DINNER!!

Tralalalala... I'm bored!! HELP!!!

I'm dying.. Can someone materialise to get me out of this sleepiness and boredom...

Oh wait.. I forgot.. I left Daphnie at the TV area.. Muahahaha.. here i come!! lol...

Oh shyte.. I havent practice my monologue.. I'm so gonna kill myself soon.. Sheesh... NAD.. GET AN ORGANIZER!!

Hmmzzz.. i think even if i got one.. don't think i'll be using it also.. Unnecessary weight added to the stupid bag of mine.. Speaking of bag.. i need to pay Azi $25... Hmmzzzz.... this is bad.. very bad...

YAWNZ!!

Hmmzzz.. *wondering where's the other 3...*

Oh ya.. I remembered what i've been wanting to post all this while...

SHEESH!!

To my 'DEAREST AND MOST BELOVED FRIENDS'... DEENA AND HIDAYAH!

YES.. My dearests.. I thought we were suppose to meet up on Saturday after planning for it on Friday nite.. Rite??

And i was happily looking forward to it when Saturday morning came and my phone beeped with a sms *I'm sure all of you know wat is SMS and i dont need to further explained.. For those of you who is still clueless.. I would really appreciate it if you could do all of us a favour and shoot yourself in the head*.... DEENA: "Sorrie Nad. Today's Plan cancel."

My darlings... dearests of dearests... sugar-coated.. pumpkin pies... the apple of my eye......

WHAT IN THE WORLD HAPPEN SIA?? I AM WAITING FOR AN EXPLAINATION HERE AND I WILL DEFINITELY BE EXPECTING IT SOON!!

And the explaination better be one good one or else.. you guys will be hanging from the ceiling fan i tell ya.. And it better not be a decision made solely by someone who is so famous and reputated to cancel outings last minute.. Do you hear me?? I'm WAITING!!

MUahahhahaa.... Ok. I sound mean.. and I feel mean... Sheesh... But these people ah... Grrr... *Chews on a banana*

REMEMBER: Explaination is much appreciated... OR RATHER I'M WAITING...

Went to Pasir Ris just now.. To 'chill' as Azi puts it... Met azi.. *Duh~!* Met tania, Marcus and partner, Julianna and partner....

Ya.. Took Photos.. and i realised something.. The camera can never be in Mel's hands.. Sheesh!! He takes ugly photographs~!! Muahahhahaha... And AZI~~!! Next time take photos ah.. pls inform first can... Aiyoh...

I'm so stressed rite now!!! ARGH!!! My face!! ARGH!!! Time for some facial and some... ARGH!!!!! I'm stressed!!!! OH SO STRESS!!

OH ya.. Some funny happened today... On our way home.. We were crossing the field towards Pasir Ris Interchange today when suddenly Julianna... "EEE... So scary wait got Anaconda" oh ya.. and there was Tania... "Go eat grass! when azi was complaining that she was hungry.. lol!!

Hellooooooooooo WORLD!! Muahahhaa...

My comp is back... My blog is fine.. Everything is fine again.. Muahahhaa...

Yes yes yes.... Muahahaha.. now i can type at the comfort of my home and not fear that my entry will not come out the way it suppose too... whahahaha~~!!!

Well. wat did i do during the weekends?

You would never have guessed!!! I went SHOPPING!! Muahaha... YA! I ACTUALLY WENT SHOPPING... Muahhaaa... i'm more girl than i actually realise.. But nvm..

I bought t-shirts and jeans.. and i need to go on other trip again since i'm somehow clearing my closet.. So ya... But i need MONEY!! This is so unfair!!

But nevermind.. I shall wait till the exams are over and done with.. And then i shall somehow think how i shall get the needed money to spend here.. hmzzzzz....

whee.. like finally i can blog... I realised something... My blog works perfectly fine when my comp is infected with virus.. How cool is that??

Anywayz, the uncool part is that the comp might hang and an entire long entry would vanish in an instant... WOOSSH!! and its gone.. whahahaa... so ya.. what did i wanna blog abt again??

Time check: 215am

Oh ya.. i need to list certain things down so that i wouldnt forget them.. since i keep reminding people of their stuff.. later i forgot all abt my chores.. LOL~!!

Things i need to do by the end of Monday:
1)Hand in LCOMM assignment w/o having to collide into the tutor
2)Settle my MC
3)See a certain lecturer
4)Call evaluators
5)Do my programme sheet soon
6)Prepare my Monologue
7)Do & Prepare for the Area Humourous Speech and Evaluation Contest
8)Do & Prepare a possible speech i might be doing this Fri
9)Do a draft of the Contract Assignment ASAP!!

Hmmm... what else are there?? Oh ya...
10)Study for upcoming exams
11)Try to stay sane in the process

Things i need to do over next period of 3-6mths?
12)Try to loose weight *Yes yes.. I know.. I'll try to do it this time round.. Or Deena will kill me.. Coz, 'Project NPF' will never be executed*
13)I need to buy clothes
14)Need money to do point 13
15)To be able to do all the abovementioned w/o neglecting my friends and my mom.

Yess yess.. I think that's about it... Hehehe.. 15points only.. I think can lah ah.. :P

So ya.. what was i suppose to blog today?? Actually i've typed a freaking long entry yesterday when the stupid comp decided to hang.. Yes! IT HANGED! sheesh.. Waste my time.. But let me try to recall what did i write or type or whatever...

Oh ya.. Just wanna ask... Have you ever felt alone when in real you're surrounded by people you know? Why is it that everything seems so perfect when you're around friends and seemed the total opposite the moment you space out? Why is it that all the wrong things that one could ever imagine fall on you the moment you're alone?

Why is it that nothing seems rite when you're walking alone? To the extent that you don't even realise that your friend is actually calling you.. Coz, it sound so distant... So far away.. As if it was brought along by the passing wind... And when you actually realise that someone is actually calling you... You also realised that your cheeks are wet...

Tralalala.. and seriously.. I think i need to sleep.. YAWNZ YAWNZ!!!

Failure

What exactly is failure?

Not having the capabality needed to complete a task? Not having the standards that you expect of yourself? Being the disappointment to yourself and others?

So once again i ask... what exactly is failure?

The inability to function or perform satisfactorily.


So if you are a disappoinment to yourself... Does it mean that you're a disappointment to others as well?? Are the standards you set for yourself equivalent to standards others would set for you??

Or maybe you feel like that just because you expect more from yourself?? But why do we set such high standards for ourselves?? Or maybe it varies from an individual to the next??

Hmmm... Nvm

I'm just OH-SO-CLEVER..

Haiz, what can i do?? Nothing i do seems to be right nowadays...

But nevermind... What's done is done.... There's nothing one can do about it...

ARGH!!!!!!

THAT'S IT... I'M SO PISSED!!! I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY I TAKE THIS KINDA SHIT FROM PEOPLE...

How many of you believe me if i told you that my comp is infected with virus and it restarts itself every 5-10mins the day before and today... it hangs itself every 5-10mins?? Well... OBVIOUSLY certain parties think i am creating the story up...

TELL ME WHY ON EARTH WOULD I CREATE SUCH A STORY?? FOR FUN PEACE AND LAUGHTER??? JUST TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF?? YOU THINK I WAT?? TOOO DAMN FREAKING FREE ISSIT??

Why on earth would I do that when i cant do my tutorial... cant meet my deadlines.... cant do anything... and feel totally helpless when that is one thing that i hate feeling... HELPLESSNESS... Sheesshhh...

Seriously, I'm not dumb! I know when you don't believe what i say. I know the reasons for the questions you ask. I know when you doubt me. I know when you don't really have faith in me.

You told me to pass it to you this morning. I said ok.... but is it my fault when i cant do it coz i have tutorials to attend?!?! is it my fault that my timetable is like that?? Oh wait.. I forgot.. you think that i make that up to rite?? Maybe i should just e-mail my timetable to you?? Would that please you?? Would that be rite?? Would that be THE ONLY WAY FOR YOU TO KNOW THAT I'M HAVING CLASS AND ACTUALLY BELIEVE ME??

This is turning out to be WORST than a lifetime imprisonment.... Its ending soon.. but that last bit... I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!!!!!

I was told by someone else... I was asked by that particular someone... Abt the thing i'm suppose to pass to you... He told me that you need it urgently... You're worried abt it... DO YOU THINK I'M DUMB? I DON'T KNOW ITS IMPORTANCE? Oh wait... i forgot.. i'm too young for you too actually trust rite?? For you to acutally believe that i'll do it?? Or maybe you just think that i'm just plain incapable??

Messaged me later online... A message filled with exclamation marks... abt me not submitting the thing... Thank God it was my mom that was online... And she told you what actually is wrong... then you believe?? Then you know that i wasn't making up stories??

Oh ya.. Received a phonecall.. On the verge of being questioned and screamed at... When i shut her off by simply saying that i've sent it 7hours ago... So now its my fault too that your mailbox is full and you cant receive mails??

wat a great way to start the day...

Having a MSN conversation with my most hated person!! the most irritating!! The one and only....

I shall not mention names here...

Hmmmzzzz.... SHOOOO!!!!

wahahahahaha...

How nice... Talking to the most irritating person god could ever create and talking about the most boring subject ever discussing about something that i already made up my mind on and having a pointless argument with me...

He can dream on if he thinks of having things his way...

Its peaceful again in the house....

Coz, my cousins left yesterday.... And i can't hear screamings of any sort or talking at the top of the voice.

Just peace.

Quiet.

Silence.

All i heard was the birds chirpping, the fan, the cat snoring and the constant beep on my MSN.. Muahahahaha...

Its not that i hate my cousins. I love them to bits. Enjoy my time with them. But i've been the only child for the past 17 years of my life. And obviously, i spend most of my time alone and none of my friends talk at the top of their voice or constantly talk. So ya, at times i'm not used for not having peace for a long period of time. That's all.

And to have them do that while i'm trying to do my work is worst!!! Argh!! Sheesh.. Hinting me to off the light which i ignored. And having my grandmother siding them does not help at all... I mean its like she knows i had a test on the stupid saturday and i was trying to study as well as do my work... she can happily ask me to off the light just because my cousins are here.

I mean... HELLO!!! Life has to go on you know...

And they were hinting to me that they're sleepy by giving me BIG OBVIOUS YAWNS and talking abt if somebody were to do that at the hostel, they would start quarrelling. Its not like they told me that they were going to materialise at 230am. If i knew that, i wouldnt be doing my work then would i???

And what irritates me the most was that i was using my DISCMAN at vol.7 and i could hear their conversations about their relationships and friends and my grandmother asking me to off the light... 230am!! my discman is playing at VOL.7!! and i can hear conversations perfectly well!!!

Hmmmm... I think me being the only child is turning me into an inconsiderate bitch... muahahaha... Haiz... I mean its not my fault that i DONT HAVE HOLS AND MY EXAMS ARE AROUND THE CORNER AND I HAVE ASSIGNMENTS TO COMPLETE, DEADLINES TO MEET!! AND THAT MY COUSINS AND I ARE LIVING IN 2 DIFFERENT COUNTRIES DOING 2 DIFFERENT THINGS HAVING DIFFERENT SITUATIONS TO FACE!!!!

Anywayz, enough of me complaining... wahahhahaa....

I'm so clever... Oh so clever... ARGH!!!

Come in 30mins late to hand in a stupid assignment... class work don't wanna hand in late.. Must wait until assignment then hand in late rite??? Clever..... Sooo Clever....

Now i'm in school.. And you know wat?? I don't have contract later... Nice rite?? Sheesh... come to school only to hand in an assignment... and better still lcan't even come early...

GRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

Nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm....

yoooohhhhhoooo0~!

I'mmmm Bbbbaaacccckkkk!!! again...

Oh ya... did you know?

I've been going on a movie spree!!! weeeheee..

only problem is that.. none of the movies are of my choice...

i shall continue later.. i have one idiot beside me like a loud hailer... going on and on abt something that goes in my right ear and out the othe/r8816.. (Now she's babbling aimlessly AGAIN)

and the other that wants to go and eat. SO ya.. brb.. After mugging for tmr's acocunts test..

I'm so studious.. *Trying to believe it*

Ok.. I'm in school now.. muahahaha..

Back in school.. doing the same old thing.. trlalalala...

and i'm dying OOOOO dying OOO dying... tralalallaa....

Oh ya.. Met my couz, Omar, the other day... Had a long chat with him in the bus... in the bus you know.. how long can a chat be in the bus rite?? But anywayz, he missed 3 bus stops thanks to me...

Talking about wat he would do after O levels... Haiz.. Poor guy.. he's so confused and the mom doesn't even care... he doesn't talk to me when he meets me at my relative's house coz he's afraid that his sis would scold.. And the only time he talks to me is when we happen to bump into each other...

And his mom happily allows him to go America next yr.. Sheesh... There goes another cousin of mine.. Just because he is American citizen doesnt mean he can happily go there... And the mom still can say that you wanna go next yr also can... go go.. Isnt it like shooing him away??

Tsk tsk tsk tsk... Idiots... And i'm hoping to bump into him again... Fancy having a cousing that you're "close" with and you dont even have his hp number...

Truly amazing, Ain't it???

LOL!! in LCOMM lab rite now. Tutor going through the marking scheme for the opinion letter.. and i am so drowsy rite now.. My nose is turning into a full time tap.. And i think if Nuraini falls sick soon.. it'll be my fault.. wahaha.. coz, she's sitting beside me now... heheheeee...

And guess wat... I got scolding from the tutor not bcoz i didnt do my work. But its for something that is totally not related to the subject... And that is...

JENG JENG JENG..

My...

ASSERTIVENESS

Muahahhahaha... At that point of time i didnt know whether or not to smile.. grin or laugh.. whahahha... It was bad.. LOL!!

She said something which i'm having difficulties remembering at the moment due to valid reasons. Anywayz, she was saying something about me having problems with my assertiveness which leads to me not being a good leader because of it.. So ya.. heheheeee...

and also something about having control over things and that i have to exercise the power that is given to me at certain point of time.. Muahahahhaa...

So ya..

Basically, i'm a lenient class rep...

Heeeee... No wonder my class just LOVES me... *Trying to console myself* lol.. Rite...

So ya..

Basically, thats all for now...

tralallalala :P