BOREDOM TAKES OVER AGAIN!!! QUIZ TIME!! HAHAHHAHAHA... The results are seriously.. urm.. weird at times... ('',)


You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.


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You feel happy, and loved. Nothing could be any
better for you....you may even have a love one
in your life....go you. (Please Vote)


What Emotion Dominates you?
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My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


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You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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BEWARE!! I'm out to suck your blood!! Hahahahhaa... yippee!! I'm a Vampyr!!


You are an Angel of hope. You are a prayer itself.
You may not realize it, but when you are around
people that are having bad luck, you ussually
give them good luck at the cost of your own
sometimes. If you have wondered about why you
you always have bad luck yourself then you dont
know much about your fate. Ironically, when you
have bad luck, others have good. Keep
praying...


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I'm wat?!?!?! Angel of hope?? WAHAHAHHAHA!!!
Anywayz, ya... going mad.. better sign off now.. hahaha

Well.. Today O'Levels results came out...

Alot of disappointments... tears... confusion... And obviously there were those that were happy, delighted, and practically jumping for joy... Some had to cancel their plans or change from PLAN A to PLAN B... Plans... Essential thing to your life??

Talking about something that is essential to your life.... Today during Toastmasters, the table topic for today is LIFE ESSENTIALS.. I have no idea what makes the president put that as the topic for today's table topic... His only reason was that... He saw it printed on one of the FUNAN IT MALL shopping bags and it caught his eyes...

A pretty simple yet reflective topic.. rite?? LIFE ESSENTIALS... I guess it varies from individual to individual... Someone might think that having a hp is essential to leading a normal daily life... but for some... esp those living in africa, a source of food and water is the most essential thing to survive.. to me?? there's a long list to list... but someone today said that "L=Listen, I=Interest, F=Family/Friends, E= Effective use of what we have... But then again... it varies from one person to the nex...

~I shall update again some other time.. YAWNZ!! SO Sleepy!!~

So i'll end today's entry with a question:
What are your LIFE ESSENTIALS?

Ok... what shall i write abt?? Hmmzzz...

Omg.. I think i'm having a brain block or something... when O when is this flu and cough gonna disappear?!?!? I can't take this torture anymore... hahahhaa.. I'm having difficulties breathing (nose block is not fun!!!) and talking (My voice is going haywire.. one min its there... one min its gone.. or its either too high.. I think you get the idea huh... ) Thank god for the miracles of technology!!! At least i still get to tok online and sms pple... wahahhaa...

Ya... People became frenz because they accept the person as who they are... what that person really is.. That's one of the best reasons why a person show their true self... be who they are... and not hide it... rite?? Coz if they show a different side at first and when they get frenz, and later show a different side, the frenz might not like it... Coz they befriended that person becoz of what they see that very first time...

Frenz that a person gets after showing their true self.. is usually a friendship that will last and never break... But when certain things rises... and causes situations to be awkward... I guess it will be back to normal soon... rite?? Coz, people will soon realise that they made frenz with that person knowing the person as who they are... and accepted them as who they are...

So why prolong the awkwardness?? Coz if that person decided to change... wouldn't it be the same as not knowing the person at all.. and isn't it equivalent to losing a fren that you've made and known all this while?? Hmmzz.. and now i wonder whether or not pple understands what i'm trying to say...

Yippee... Today really had a great time of my life... Went out with Hidayah (Hidz) and Madeena (Mad)... OMG!!

When was the last time that we actually met and had a chill out session?? hmmzzz... 2 Mths ago rite?? OMG!! Do we have lots to catch up on... hahahhaa.... Spent the entire day toking and toking and more toking.. wonder how i even manage it when i'm having a soar throat... tsk tsk.. hahahhaha.. and it was so obvious that we truly miss each other.. hahahah...

Started the day meeting mad... suppose to meet her at 1230pm.. and i reached at 115pm and surprise surprise!!! I was early!! Wahahahhaa... I knew it.. hahahaha.. Then wat did we do ah?? Oh ya... went to have lunch... Then me and Mad update each other with each other's life.... me abt school and everything lah... and she abt the torture of boredom while waiting for results... and getting into trouble.. wahahhaha...

Mad Mad... You should have known better... next time.. call me when you're facing this kinda thing... you know perfectly well that I (no matter what) would not push you away... hahahhaha... Then we were exchanging views on each other's life.... and obviously learnt alot from each other abt each other...

Then at around 4.. called hidz.. (Apologies really... next time we wouldnt be dragging you str from school with you draggin your art stuff along and all that... Nex time we allow you to go home and make yourself pretty pretty before coming back to meet us ok?? (",) ) Met her at centrepoint macs... not to eat lah... just to have a place to sit... Then obviously we took turns updating her on our lifes.. and she updated us on hers....

Seriously, I think it's the month of love... FEBRUARY... Is it?? But i think it is... Both of them have a special someone now!!! hahhaa... I'm like soo happy for them... And it all started this month!! But Mad..you ah.. Normal already... HIDZ!! OMG!! You finally have one!!! I mean your first.. wahahhaa... we were like that lah just now... waahahaha... Truly a girl's outing... :P

And hidz was blushing madly... And Mad goes on this sappy love story mode... keeps telling us over and over again how sweet he is.. hahhaha and Hidz was like the same lah... Then they realised that... I was near decomposing.. whaahhaha... and they started attacking me on whether or not i have any crushes... and stuff like that... (",)

Then met my mom for dinner... and obviously there was another updating session with my mom... hahaah.. and finally we went home at around 8.30 or so...

Then inside the train, Hidz was taking a walk down memory lane... she was like.. can you imagine... we knew each other when we are 13 and now.. we are gonna turn 18... And i was thinking.. it IS kinda sweet... I mean what we see of each other today.. was not how we were like when we were in sec1...

and now... we're even here as a group to witness hidz getting her first!!! hahhahaha... It was like so cool.. and we were like wondering how are we like 5 yrs down the road... I know HIDz is gonna be a jewellery designer... Mad... not sure yet... Mad.. if you're readin this... remember to call us when results is out... and me... wonder what i'll be????

Hahaha... I broke my holiday record today.. i neva woke up this early... ya... NEVER!!! Today i woke up at 845am.. hmmzzz... and its a holiday... with no grp meetings to rush too and also not meeting my fren this early... Coz that fren of mine , definitely havent wake up yet.. Well.. if you pple keep complaining that I'm ALWAYS late... well... in sec sch... even though i'm still late... I'll be one of the earliest peeps in the group.. wahahahah... Not bad ah... always escape from having to belanja pple drinks or ice cream or watever... but now ah... haiz... i'm the ONLY one who is ALWAYS late in my poly group.. haiz.. so sad.. wahahaha.. now not bad already... can come on time...:P

And now... i'm rotting.. and rotting... and i'm decomposing.. ooops.. i see my finger falling out.. wahahahaha... The boredom of sch hols.. tsk tsk... when its not hols.. you want a holiday.. but when you're having a holiday.. you wonder when is all this torture gonna end?? Tsk tsk tsk.. Human Beings... Tsk tsk tsk... :P

Well... i'm going out later... YIPPEE!!! Out of the house.. finally... wahahaha... anywayz, when is the 4 of us gonna go out??? that is if any of you is free lah... if not free then its fine with me... coz i'll still be seeing you guys when sch reopens.. wahahhaha.. omg.. i'm mad... and i'm bored... maybe i shall go back to bed.. wahahhahaah... Or maybe not... maybe i shall go and disturb my fren... go and call her.. wahahaha... *Evil Laughs*

Lalallalalala i'm bored..bored.. bored bored... quiz time... Wonder why i do it... esp when most of it doesnt make sense... wahahhahahahahahaha.. trying to pass my time.. allalalala....


You're Element is Flame. You have a strong,
independant, fiery personality and you
obviously don't ley other's puch you around.
You like being in charge and don't care what
other people think. In fact, you like to stand
out and be yourself. You're probably shy when
people first meet you but your a ball of energy
that could explode at any given moment. You
like to laugh and whether you admit it or not,
you like to fight. You're peronality that is
wild and untamable. You're beauty is physically
fit and a little sexy and you have a very
pretty face.


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You are the Figher Femme


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Well well well, the old fashioned 17th century
vampire, one of my faves. You look for the good
things in life, you posses a lot of classical
class, and follow that of the original
vampires, you have no shame in what you are,
infact you embrace it, you love it and wouldn't
have it any other way. Your wealth is
unspeakable and your way of luring people with
your mystical ways and looks is amazing, and
most people would often call you The
Seductress.


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Ok.... Now.. I'm confused... Hmmzz.. wait.. why should i be confused?? OMG!!

Sometimes i just wish that i have all the answers in the world.. and that any question that is thrown at me.. I can just answer it without thinking... coz the answer is at my fingertips... Hmmzzz.. Is anyone blessed with that kinda powers?? Or maybe if s/he knows all the answers in the world... that person is no longer considered blessed... rite?? I mean.. he is seeing the naked truth... Seeing everything without the walls... without the protective veil... without a barrier.. just seeing the world as it is... no secrets.. no lies.. just the truth.. rite?? Haiz...

I'm throwing questions at pple... the kinda question that even i know is difficult to answer... the kinda question that forces a person to face certain things in order to answer it.. But when i ask myself.. Am i able to do the same if that kinda question is thrown at me?? Part of me says yes... but the other half... Nothing... I'm faced with nothing... No definite answers... Just a deafening, piercing silence...

I seriously salute our parents... Coz each time we ask a question, we demand an answer... Unexpected questions.. which i'm sure caught them off guard... but they can give answers that sound so right... is it the correct answers?? or is it the answers that we wanna hear?? But then.. when we think it over... we realize that their answers are rite... and then we wonder how our parents got to be so wise... does it come with age?? experience??

If it does come with age and experience... then.. i dun wanna grow up... I dun wanna see what the world has in store for me.. Maybe i'm just too used too being protected and seeing the world through our parents' eyes... the view that has already been beautified and filtered before showing it to us... Soo that we only see the beautiful rainbows, the innocent angels, the colourful birds, the peaceful meadows and everything that is nice... and having to discover the darker side by ourselves??

Ok.. When i look back at all my blog entries, i think my entries are kinda shallow... no emotions... nothing.. just a blank piece... a blank wall with words written to it.. nothing else... no personal touch to it... why?? maybe coz its a public thing?? well.. maybe...

But then again, why would i write everything abt myself here... showing my true self.. and left nothing for pple to discover abt me when they know me outside rite??? hehehhe...

The Recipe of LIFE?
Life= Lots of Love + A Pinch of Hope + Bucketful of Happiness + A touch of Sadness + Sprinkles of Anger + Fear for taste + Tons of risk-taking ???

This is gonna be an extremely long entry.. :P So.. Let's not waste time and start.. (",)

Lots Of Love
Love? Wat actually is love? A feeling of warmth and fuzzy all over?? Or is it the feeling you get when you know someone is there for you.. supporting you all the way in whatever you do?? Or maybe its just a feeling that is so intense that it's indescribable?? So as usual.. love is a mystery.. ain't it?

Love.. To me is everything.. it helps you along your journey.. coz no matter how much some people hate you... you know that there is also someone who will be there for you no matter wat... supporting you all the way.. sometimes, it is an intense feeling... that when you just go in a room.. you can just feel it.. THE Overwhelming Love.. :P These pple are usually your family, your frenz or your relationships..

Love from your family, it is the kinda love that you know is alwayz there.. even though they are against your decisions at times... Not wanting to side you.. or just disagree with you soo much that you feel that you're no longer loved by them... But.. at the end of the day, you know deep down that they are there..
Love from your frenz, the kinda love that will always stand by you no matter wat.. the bonds that starts without even you realizing it..
Love coming from a relationship, this is one thing that i can't say anything on it.. coz it is something that i have not experience before.. To me, it is something that one have to experience it for themselves...

A Pinch Of Hope
Hope.. i guess it is something that you need to continue pursuing a dream, ambition or a goal... and to achieve it.. i guess one has to have hope??

Bucketful Of Happiness
Happiness... an emotion that will see you through most of the incidents in life... An emotion that tends to rescue you from your deepest, darkest and most depressed days... and lifts you up.. allows you to float, fly and soar around... It is also an emotion that is not easily diminished... A crucial thing you need to survive??

A touch Of Sadness
Sadness.. what does it do to a person? 1) Spoils their day.. 2)Make their eyes blotchy.. 3)Makes then worry more... This are just some of it.. rite?? If i were to list it all.. my entry will never end.. :P If it does this to a person, why is Sadness still a major factor in someone's life?? I guess it just shows that we have a heart and the need to sympathize others or ourselves??

Sprinkles Of Anger
Hmmzz.. Anger... It tends to make a person crazy... driving his or her mind to the edge and back... testing someone's patience, ignorance from others or simple tiredness can cause frustration.. Frustration isn't harmful...But it will in the end turn to anger especiall when all the confusions, and frustrations and impatience and helplessness is added up... and things get over-the-limit...

Fear for Taste
Fear!! It is frightening, scary and a mix of everything bad... Fear can be classified in so many categories... Fear of the Dead... Fear of the Unknown.. and also fear of the Undead...
Fear of the Dead.. i think this is self-explainatory... fear in ghosts and supernatural stuff like that...
Fear of the Unknown... Most pple tend to be afraid of this... even me.. as at times i'm afraid of not knowing of what is coming next.. knowing that i am not in control.. Having a fear of what is gonna happen in the nex second, nex minute, nex hour, nex day, nex month and even nex yr... Why?? Its b'coz we have no idea of what is gonna happen and who is controlling it... The fear is even greater when you know that you are not in control.. But then again.. isn't that the thrill??
Fear of The Undead.. Fear of the undead?? obviously, undead=alive... Therefore, fear of those who are alive.. why? Becoz pple tend to worry too much of wat others think of them.. wat is other pple's impression of them... Thus the fear...

Tons of Risk Takings
Risk Takings... It seems like we have to take so much risks in life to determine the nex route we are gonna take.. and at the same time, hoping beyond your wildest dreamz that it is not the wrong choice...Risks is also a major factor in life... coz sometimes its because of these risks that you are taking leads to the other factors of life... For example; taking a risk could mean that you make a choice on something that you are not too good on... If this risk goes wrong, you tend to blame yourself, wondering why... which will in the end lead to the other factors.. such as anger.. :P
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And when you add all of these life.. leads to life?? Even though this are just some of the points... but still... i guess that these are one of the major ones.. huh?? Ok i better go now.. so darn sleepy!! *YAWNZ!!* And finally, i have no idea why i did this entry... hmmzzz

Wat happened today??

Well.. it was bad to good.. It started sucky lah.. with econz paper... argh!! i think if i did get the formulas and graphs rite, i might be giving the wrong explaination... if not, it will be vice versa... Argh!!! Ok.. i have no idea how i'll do for my econz test.. hmmzz.. ZERO confidence man!! ARGH!!!

Anywayz, things got better after the paper... obviously!! I won't allow econz to ruin my day for long.. I mean.. Com'on.. today was my last test paper.. and the beginning of my "hols"... hahahha... After that... wat did we do?? hmmzz.. ya...

we went to TM to celebrate's mel's birthday... had lunch at Seoul Garden.. and surprised him there... hahaha.. mel.. how can you not expect to get a b-dae cake from us?? wahahaha... yeah... then we went to watch movie.. OMG!! I actually watched GOTHIKA!!! ARGH!!! Wat's wrong with me?? To those who know me.. i think you guys know why... Oh ya..

Obviously it is NOT a surprise when i did not agree to the movie.. but obviously... mel had to go and buy the tickets without actually discussing with the rest or listening to anyone's pleadings or opinions.. hhhmmzzz.. (But then again.. i was the only one who didn't wanna watch it.. so ya!!)During the show, ha! i wasn't the only one cowering behind my bag... Mel did too!! hahahha...

But before the show... we chill out.. at... none other than the arcade!! hahaha.. i think it's gonna be the group's destressing outlet.. haahaha.. Oh ya.. mel.. I have not raised my white flag yet... therefore i have not given up!! But rite now, i'm kinda sick of daytona.. hahaha.. gonna switch to some other games.. haha.. and this is NOT an excuse.. wahaha... (",)

Conclusion: Today started sucky!! But by the end of the day.. I am proud to say that.. as usual.. i have enjoyed myself.. :P

You know what i give up!!

Well, to me, i've felt that i've tried my best to amend things.. to make it the way it used to be.. but then again.. why even bother... rite?? I've had enuff... all i try to do was...urm... showing my concern?? showing you that i care?? that no matter wat i'm still here?? But obviously, you dun need it.. or rather dun want it...

Haiz... Now, i will exclusively be giving my time to pple who deserves it... to pple who matters... to pple who actually appreciates my company... :P yeah well.. wat have i got to lose anyway... rite?

oh ya... i shall not waste this since its kinda... nice??... so better put this in too..

Enough is Enough.
All that could be done has be done.
Yet, is it enough?
Concern and care.
They are spurned.
Showing that I care.
It is spurned.
That I'll be here no matter what.
It is spurned.
The past is never coming back.

Done by: A fren (",)

Today... MBS paper.. isnt as bad as i thought it would be... i think i'm back to the studying mode or something... but then ah... when at home.. wanna go near the books is soo traumatising.. but when get it to it.. dun wanna stop... wahahhahaa....

Anywayz, today... went to the arcade AGAIN!! OMG!! I'm seriously wasting money.. hahaha... and ya mel... the reason you won today is just that: I wasn't really in the mood... :P.. But then again it was a great stress relieve thing to do.. I mean... you are just letting the child in you loose and experimenting with everything.. well most of it at least... only if we were not that stuck to daytona.. hhahaha.. Then end the day as usual.. eating ice cream at macs.. hahahha..

But tmr will definitely be a different day.. hahahahahhaha!!!!

Sneakers- funny, laid-back, and goofy, you love to
make people laugh and have a good time. You
enjoy comfort and don't care to much about what
people think of you. You like to hang out with
your buddies and just have a good time. [please
vote! thank you! :)]


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Oh ya.. mel.. this is not a copy cat thingy.. hahahhaha

OMG!!! I can't believe this... It's 850 am.. and instead of being at home.. I'm already in school... Wat the helll.. I have to stop this kan cheong thingy now... My paper starts at 11am and at 850am.. I am in sch??? Wanna know why?? Coz i tot that my paper is at 9... and when i reached.. had to check the room number.. then and only then did i realise that it was at 11am!!!! argh!!! i am this lateness queen but then.. when come early... i come too early... haiz...

Ok i can imagine mel rolling on the floor laughing at me when he reads this blog.. hmmzz..

But then again, to think on the bright side, at least i'm already up.. and i can revise my MBS again... and i wont be late for test.. hahahah... OMG.. its only 855am.. i could still be at home sleeping.. (",)... Well at least i'm no longer sleeping.. hahaha.. omg.. i sound like i have a spilt personality or something... hahhahaha... What shall i do now?? hmmzz.. did i hear the mbs book calling my name?? hmmzz.. i must be hallucinating... (",)

Tort paper today... Hmmzz.. rather unexpected.. coz, i think that i can pass it... but pass it well or not... it depends actually...

Besides tort paper, i think today was rather "interesting"... trying to figure out what to do before we actually went home... and ya.. I better stop stuffing myself with things to eat.. coz, i realize that i've been chewing and chewing and chewing since yesterday... ARGH!! (Nad, this is not a way to kill stress!!) Omg.. did i just talk to myself.. hahaha.. I'm going nutz.. I mean its not as if i already am.. but then again.. hahahah.. Ok i better stop this... So.. Where was i?? Oh ya.. figuring out of things to do..

What did we do today? Ah.. yes.. We went to the arcade... MEL!! I'm not done.. i'll never be satisfied with a draw... Someone has to lose... wahahah!!! *Evil Laughs* But going to the arcade was great.. we should do more of this... It's stress reliving, fun, enjoyable and everything nice... Whee.. I'm Loving it!!! wahahaha...

Ok i better end today's entry coz i see no purpose in it.. Today's entry sounds CRAZY!!! Anywayz, kay, love your tribute entry.. It's sooo sweeeet!!! AWWW!!!!! I think i should do a tribute too.. but not now... maybe i shall do a tribute during the hols or something.. keeps me occupied.. hahaha.. Anywayz, Time to drag myself to hit the books.. MBS O MBS... Wherefore art thou MBS??

Sometimes I wonder.. and wonder and wonder... But obviously, when you wonder too much, nothing seems to move... things gets stagnant...

But now i ask myself, why am i so freaking lazy rite now?? ARGH!! Seriously, i dunno wat went wrong.. Now i only have to study for 2 subjects only and I wonder whether or not i can pass... and it makes me think.. how on earth did i manage to go thru o'levels and survive... Maybe it's because whatever drives me to do it previously is no longer there...

The anger has subsided... The frustration is seeping out... All those hatred that I used as a tool of motivation has mellowed down alittle.. Maybe what i need now is all those insults from those people that i've been proving myself too... I'm so used to having to prove myself.. that rite now, even though i still do have to prove myself to certain parties... The anger and determination is not really there anymore.. why? why? why?

Ok this is wat happens when one is bored.. do quizzes.. hahahaaha~~





Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.


You are a Queen!
Beautiful, Wise, Strong
Righteous, Commanding, Humble


You are the beautiful and compassionate Queen. You are the epitomy of what every woman should be. You are confident, bold, aggressive, smart, womanly and feminine. You know the right thing to do and do it. You command respect and earn praise. You are moral and loving. In times of trouble, you draw strength from within, and are a source of strength for others.



Queen?? Me?? hahahaha...
Ok let's see wat the nex quiz brings... *drum Rolls*




Which Woman of Beauty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.


You are a World Beauty!
You are a woman of the world
Encompassing all aspects of
Nature's elements, lands, and waters
No one aspect describes you perfectly,
You are beautiful in all!

Hmmzz... Wat the... okiez... none of this quizzes is making sense...

Haiz...

Today the open house finally finished... And damn!! next week is mid sem test and obviously something that my mom isn't away off... Anywayz, back to the Topic:Open House Three days of open house... Thurs, Fri and Sat(today).. It has been an exhausting term for me.. after mid sem is the term break.. and then a new term will start.. Everything has been happening so fast... School, homeworks, friends, projects and nex up are tests and following that is the term break..

Open House
Thursday [First Day] (12th Feb 2004)
First day of Open House, it was pathetic with the capital P... The law show.. Trial of the murderer didnt go as well as expected.. It was triple B.. Boring, Bland and Banal And ya.. it was a MAJOR drag... To the extent that even the actors no longer wanna do anymore and they cancelled the last law show of the day...

Friday [Second Day] (13th Feb 2004)
Second day of open house was somewhat different.. There was a drastic change to the law show.. The cuckooest of trial was presented and then a group of pple had to sing "if i ain't got you".. and one of the singers didnt remember her lines and how the song went... :P but other than that it was hilarious, enjoyable and a day no one would ever forget... for us at least... Conclusion:It was a mix of everything good

Saturday [Last Day] (14th Feb 2004) {It's V-day too!!!}
Third day or rather the last day of open house.. The law show continued with the same show that was showcased the previous day... and we ended it with a BANG!! Wanna know why?? Coz kay had to sing solo.. then obviously... Mel sang too later... hahahaa.... The future idols of singapore.. :P Whee~~ Ya.. back to open house... and finally... it ended today... Then had no other plans thanks to my friends who ditched me last minute... Thx alot guyz!! and i had nothing to do the entire day... but obviously.. kay and i had sharing sessions instead.. Its was so farnie... and it was crappy and lame.. really did enjoy myself.. Thx kay!! hahahaa...

So from next week onwards, its freedom!!! (besides tests that is...) But then again, i shall not speak too soon, coz the last time i said i had freedom, i had to go for murder game 2 rehearsal... soo... yeah... got nothing to say now... so darn sleepy, i think i shall not study now... go and sleep better... hahahahhaa but then again.. if i keep postponing it.. it will never get done... rite?

What's the diff with the old and new Nad? (sec Vs. poly)

1)The new Nad have more patience... (seriously, never lasted this long on something.. hahaaha)

2)The old Nad doesn't do anything that she knows will not be a success.. therefore not worth investing her time in... however, the new Nad? Well.. not so sure...

3) The new Nad.. Talks alot.. hahaha... Maybe its coz of the pple i hang with... If i dun talk.. I'll be near to invisible.. hahahaa

4)The old nad... gives up on self-pitying pple who feels that the whole world revolves ard them... but the new Nad? guess not..

5)The old Nad doesn't get frustrated easily... Maybe its coz I had fencing at that pt of time.. SO frustration building up, go for training, whack the hell up of others... hahaha... since now there's no other means of letting out frustration, it will naturally explain the new Nad rite?

6)The old Nad speaks her mind.. frank, str. forward to the extent that most of the time she is considered bitchy... but the new Nad.. tones down a little.. or is it alot? (it was easier in an all girls environment... i mean this is what you need to survive then.. hahaha)

Hmmzz... What else?? Can't think of anything else rite now.. I came into poly unprepared of what to expect... Not knowing who i'll meet... Not knowing what kinda pple i'll see and get to know.. Once upon a time, I would kinda ignore pple who thinks the world revolve ard them... and those who needs help but doesn't need it.. if you know what i mean? I would choose to ignore all these pple.. with the thinking that they are not worth my time... So i ignore them, they ignore me.. coz they think that i'm too full of myself and do not have feelings to what others think and wonder why i even had friends... and we lived happily ever after...

But now, pple change.. and so do i... i guess it explains what i'm doing.. why i'm still there for her.. or maybe it's coz i'll feel guilty if i didnt care coz she's a fren that i've made... and naturally, i shouldn't be giving up on frenz.. rite?? I dunno... Maybe i'll feel bad and as a result i have to go on a long guilt trip... With the reason: I have betrayed a person i've called fren... but the thing is.. i have been caring but only that its not needed.. rite???

Ok.. I'm now in the lab during MBS tutorial... I'm seriously decomposing here... And having my access files betraying me.. doesnt help either.. Looking around in hopes of distraction of some kind.. This is the time where I'd really love it when someone burn the lab down or something.. and the class for today.. has ended... muahahahha...

The song "Trouble with love" and "Natural Woman" is playing over and over again in my head.. in loops.. thanx to a certain party.. who have been singing it over and over again... hahahaha...

Its 2.30 am in the morning.. and i betta go to bed soon.. before my grandma wakes up and gives me the shock of my life like the other day... just wanna ask a qn.. how do you feel when a person tends to question their friendship with you?

Today was just... GREAT!! I didn't go for MG just now coz i feel that it's time for me to spend time with my mom... so we chilled out. (az... Heard you were there all alone with vit today.. Soo sorrie...) hehehe... Kinda told her everything... What's been happening... School, projects and Friends... Confusion, frustration and a little of anger... seeps in and out through the entire consultation session with my mom... :) There was disappointment too.. somewhere out there in the blur pool of questions...

I told her all the things... my unanswered questions... Asking her to help me figure out my frustration.. or whether i should or should not feel anger, frustration and disappointment to that certain someone... Or was it betrayal?? I was so confused... But my mom, patiently (I wonder where she got all her patience.. really..) listened me out... asking me questions that really helped me out... Helped me to figure out wat's wrong... to figure out my emotions... feelings.. that i was so unsure abt... Even though, i've told her some of the stuff b4, i havent told her everything... So, today... i told her everything on wat i've kept to myself for the past 8 mths or so... Obviously nothing on those missing lectures... :P.. I'm not going to risk my life on that.. hahaha...

There were many times since the beginning of poly life... That i wanted to stop.. That I wanted to give up... That i've made really bad decisions.. That i was sooo unsure of myself... I tot i wouldnt even manage to last till now... The questions were rising.. the doubts were "nearly" getting out of hand... I've believe in myself so little that I thought that I can neva do this... And i've neva thought like that ever b4.. and I dunno why... NOW... in this new chapter of my life that I'm thinking like this... There was even a point where I kinda feel that I've made a huge mistake in choosing this path... Even though.. One of my principles is: Never to regret what you've done coz, it will always pull you down... But obviously that was the beginning... Now that doubtfulness is gone.. only to be replaced by some other issues...

I dunno why... Maybe its coz, its been a long time since i've had a session with my mom... Therefore, none of my questions are answered.. And today... I've realized lots of things too... That for one thing.. the exact same frustration i'm feeling for the person rite now, is the exact same frustration that I have each time I met my dad... At least with this person, i can let my frustration out... but with my dad.. I have to keep my silence... and at the end of the day.. when I reached home... The day will end with me... facing the pillow crying in frustration till i fall asleep.. in hopes that no one will hear... hehehee...

well.. now i can practically hop ard again.. hahaha.. and bounce ard... but there's something else.. a new feeling.. not frustration.. not disappointment... not anger... just eagerness... about something... i dunno wat....

Getting tired of a person?? Is it an excuse or a valid reason??

At first I thought it was an excuse... Now i have no idea already... But sometimes, you just cant help it... you tried so hard to help.. but in the end... it doesnt even seem that your help is even seeping in... Or maybe did it get worst??

Today, went for parliament... then got law goes to the movies...

Featuring.. *Drum Rolls*... Peter Pan.. It was kinda nice actually... the effects of the sun coming out and stuff like that... but it was kinda cartoonish at certain scense esp when the transission of the computer graphics to the real life scenes... hahaha... But besides that, it was so very the crappy.. went there with mel, azi and kay... So naturally, many would know why it turns out to be crappy...

A real interesting grp we make... Its kinda a whole new bunch of frenz that i'm hanging around wif.. even though we know each other since last sem... but i think it was murder game... it is murder game i tell ya... the dunno how many months of rehearsals that brought along countless of late nights dinners and getting to know sessions... So i guess Murder Game did have its positive side as well... hahahaha

The topic for today is:
Friends
What do i think of them? They are god's greatest gifts and world's most precious treasure... Or rather my most precious treasure... hehehe.. I guess they are the next closest things to siblings.. or sometimes even relatives or cousins... esp the once who tends to do dissappearing acts... :P Sometimes it amazes me how your relative can dissappear.. when they are your flesh and blood but a friend doesn't. A friend stands by you when things are down, they stays by you thru stormy weathers, monsoon seasons, iraqi wars, explosion of bombs and nuclear weapons that occurs in your life....

I treasure my friends to the extent that i would kinda do anything for them.. if you know what I mean... For example: I would try to be there when they are down... Sometimes, I would even stop pursuing a guy or rather stop liking a guy when I found out that one of my closest friends have a crush on them.. Again dun ask me why.... Coz.. again.. I have no answer to that... Many have tried to talk me out of doing such things... but hey... there are other guys that you can like... but your friends are irreplacable.. rite?

Oh ya I actually forgot... MURDER GAME HAS OFFICIALLY ENDED!!! YAY!! YIPPEE!!! But then.... what the hell am i gonna do now?? hahaha... But there is a sequel... Murder game2.. Launched during open house which is in one week's time if i'm not mistaken.. and guess wat... so is mid-sem test.. project datelines... and i have no idea what else...

My mom is not too happy with me.. I think she kinda feel that I am neglecting my work... Have no idea how she got that picture drawn in her head... I think i've been slacking a little... but neglecting my work i dun think so... But the thing is I'm tired and worn out.. and staying up late nights to finish stuff... is tiring as well as making me look like a panda... But.. i guess i should not be complaining... Everyone else is tired too...

And I better proof to my mom that i will pass my mid-sem test.. After all, that was my promise to myself.. Never to ever disappoint my mom... One disappointment in her life is enough... Another part of me revealed... hahaha... I guess now you know why i dun go home late huh... I try not to get on my mom's nerves... And this is truly amazing... 2nd entry in a period of one hour...

Abt me... That is something that I never really touched... A topic that I tend to avoid... Why? Coz it's difficult for me to open up... Yeah... well... this entry might not sound like the nad everyone knows... But that's me... It's difficult for me to open up even though the people I'm telling too are those that I trust... Rite now i can only think of 4 pple including my mom that knows me inside out.. Not many have known.. or unveil me.. hahaha... The other 3 is my sec sch best buddies that I hang around with..

I tend to avoid a topic.. when pple ask me "So, Nad tell me abt yourself? Your sec sch or watever" and i'll go like... "well.. That's another story for another day.." Sounds familiar? I've been using this phrase since god knows when... The only phrase i'll use b4 i changed the topic or either packed up coz its time to go home... I dun know why.. Maybe I just dun know what to say... So in the end... even if i did tell.. I'll summarise my life so short... that i can cover 4 years of secondary school life from the walk halfway from the playground to the bus stop... which is like 5-7 minutes... and hope that it sounds utterly boring so that the topic might change... Like what i did today.. hahahah..

Have you ever wondered whether are you being yourself all this while or it was just an act?? Sometimes, you did not realize whether or not you're being yourself. Sometimes it's just difficult to show it. And have you ever wondered whether or not you tell to much to the wrong person... and too little to the ones you've trusted? And why is it sometimes so easy to offend those whom you know extremely well and not those that you actually really do hate?