Monday, May 31, 2004

So.. finally the SI judges are revealed... woohhoo.. I think the singapore idol is gonna take an interesting and unexpected twist...

Anywayz, what did i do today?? I had a rather interesting day... Something that i would not do unless i'm forced too.. so ya.. this is one of those forced times.. Went to textile centre with my aunt.. To find embroidery threads... hmmzz.. believe it or not.. i'm gonna drag my mom there again.. i wanna buy the leather strips.. ahahaha.. time to make some things.. hehehe..

Then after that followed her to katong complex.. to pay her sewing machine installments... then she went to buy some tudungs... then that was when i saw it.. The thing i've been looking for.. all this while.. and finally! i've found it.. AT LAST! the search is over.. hahhaa.. actually its nothing lah.. only saw the colour for my this yr baju kurung or kebaya... its plum coloured... for those who is like deena.. who thinks.. that plum is red.. it is actually reddish-purple... so ya.. really have lotsa place to drag my mum too.. hahaha...

Sunday, May 30, 2004

The urge to strangle someone is there... Seriously, i would chop and bite them up if they are close.. but then, its just an urge.. *smiles sweetly*
What's the hesitation for? What's up with the doubts?? Why the second thoughts? When you don't even know what is it about... Just give it a try... and don't come up with a conclusion or a decision just because you're afraid...

That's the thing.. you're afraid... You're too contented being where you are... You're beginning to be complacent... Where has that drive gone? What happen to all those dreams you had? Gone just because you're afraid to embark on a new road that you've never taken before?

You say, it's far... You say, it's difficult... You say, You won't like it... You say, it's not good... How would you know all these when you have not even tried any? or maybe you think that only idiots are sent there?? You're too afraid that your reputation will drop?? Well, i think.. doing this... most prob.. your reputation will drop... who in the world reject something that is totally difficult to get??

You say, it's difficult to come back in the midst of an emergency.... You say, you would miss them.. You say, they need you... But since when are you THIS concern?? Basically, Isn't it just excuses that you conjour up so that you don't need to go?

You worry that you won't be of much help... You worry that it will be a burden... But you staying and changing things wouldn't it break your parents' heart more? You say that it will be a financial burden.. you say that you wanna help... Hello!! They are parents... There are certain responsibilities that are meant for them and only for them... But by you doing something but not due to a stupid reason and in the end gives you a brighter future... isn't it helping in the end??

Everybody's afraid when it comes to something totally new.. You worry.. but the thing is.. everyone starts at a same level as you... You wanna do something you think it is easier... but.. let me ask you... wouldn't it be a burden to you when you're doing something that is totally not your field... Something that you know nuts about.. why toture yourself?? So that you can stay close to home??

Never judge something before you actually see it... Never allow friends to influence you.. coz you know yourself better than them... Never give up before even trying... And Never say NO before considering.. Opportunities come once in a lifetime... It's only up to you to recognize and realise that opportunity and not allow it to float by unnnoticed...

Saturday, May 29, 2004

The hols just get better aye?

MUahahahhah!! Can't believe my eyes... Had to checked it twice... WAaaaa.... Passed.. that's the magic word... Passed... Such a beautiful word... that gives such a relief to a person allowing them heave a deeppp long sigh... FINAALLLYY!! And then i wonder why i couldn't do it before.. but who cares... its over.. i got what i wanted... and yippeee
Yest was sooo much fun... wahahha!!

Met them at Orchard with SC.. hahaha.. So let's see what was the actual plan... We were suppose to watch movie.. then hang... and hang... and chill.. and chill.. hahaha.. And in the end we just hang, hang and chill.. whahahahaha.. Didn't even watched movie coz, we were complaining that we were broke... and will only watch it if deena paid for our movie tix... LOL!! But obviously, she was like... "Cont. dreaming eh.." wahahaa...

BEfore we went for lunch... the both of them arrived in cab.. coz deena was late.. as usual.. and decided to pick hidayah on the way... and the best part was.. they took a cab.. but didnt have enough money to pay for it.. so they were frantically calling me asking me whether or not i've arrived.. Then when Deena called me... Hidayah made sure that Deena didn't mention that she was with her.. so that at least only Deena will get scolding from me for being dumb.. and Hidayah will still look good.. whahahha.. nonsense rite??

So ya... went for lunch at Far East.. that's where the story begins... or rather the bitchin' starts.. hehhehe... Deena.. (as usual) was toking abt or complaining.. i dunno which lah... abt the girl who was determined to destroy her relationship, before moving on to my "date" with Syaz... Really story of the year man that one...

That Deena can still act so concern... To be exact this is what she says,"Why in the world did you go out with her? Why? What happen?" Grrrrr.... I was like.. I don't have other choice do i? Especially when somebody was sleeping like a rock and only wakes up at 6pm and refuses to pick up any of my calls.. what excuse do i have? You dun expect me to wait and only go swimming at 6... rite? hehhehee...

Then obviously, there was more laughter from the 4 of us before we left Far East... So, we were wondering what to do.. and i think we practically walked the entire of orchard... but luckilly this time round, Deena did not drag us from orchard to heeren to Ps.. to city hall and back to ps because forgot to buy something... then back to orchard before convincing us to take the train from dhobby ghaut.. so ya... this time was not like that.. Thank god..

But obviously they practically went into every shop available... argh!! you're right they went window shopping... Why o why did i agree to not watching movie?? ARGH!!! But nevermind... saw something that i wanna buy.. i'm gonna drag my mom there soon.. wahahaha... and i want colorful polka dots shoes... where the hell am i gonna find that??

And then like other outings... we managed to make Deena buy at least one accessory which cost a little unreasonable lah.. but who cares.. she's the one paying.. wahahhaa.. like how she paid for our snacking.. and our drinks.. and everything else.. i think.. lol~!! So after that we met my mom at bugis for dinner... but then suk ching have to leave already... meeting her guy...

So ya.. during dinner was a whole lot more noisy.. One would think they would get tired after all that walking.. but obviously... it only got more noisy.. wahaha.. and esp.. with my mom to add to it.. lol!! then obviously deena didnt go home with us... her guy came... Oh ya.. i think her guy looks like the 'EYE FOR A GUY' the poly lecturer... Or maybe all the CLEO's 50 eligible bachelor guys all look the same... hmmzz.. that must be it.. i think they have a common look or something..

But obviously, the 3 of us left (hid, my mom and me) didn't go str. home... My mom suggested to have coffee.. so ya.. we went for coffee at city link there... and crapped even more... then my mom was like.. i think soon all your friends will think that i don't have friends of my own.. coz everytime meet with yours.. hahahaha... but anywayz, that was when the both of them start saying that they want a holiday... and soon started planning it... must go snorkelling lah.. must go here lah.. there lah... must take lots of pics lah...

But i dunno whether is it really really real... but it seems real enough.. coz my mom asked me to ask any of my friends whether or not wanna go hols.. So ya... Holidays anyone?

Friday, May 28, 2004

Ok.. So i'm still not over BEP.. whahaha..

So.. what did i do today... hmmzz... woke up at around 5.30pm.. yeah you read it rite... its.. 5.30pm.. wahahha.. when some of you might already have done so much.. i just woke up... so now is 1235AM... so.. since you cant do anything much in 7hours.. i did nothing at all.. other than rotted the 7hours... before i'm going back to bed.. wahhahaa... nice life huh??

Can't wait for tmr.. meeting up with the 2 minachis... Hidayah and Madeena... Only that i'm currently damn pissed with Deena... but other than that.. i'm looking forward to tmr... ARGH!! This Deena here... Grrr.. i'm going to scrap her off my appointment list real soon if she doesn't start putting in effort to meet up with us...

First confirm like anything.. so enthu like shit.. making sure that everybody is damn free the entire day and not making plans with anyone else... then suddenly.. you phone will beep again... and you will receive another sms from her... stating that she got something on.. and she has to leave us earlier the next day... and before that what the hell was she doing?? she was making sure the other 2 is not making any other plans besides going for the outing.. ARGH!!!

At least... now she tells us in advance that she's gonna dump us half way thru the outing... last time.. she used to tell us during the outing that she has something on and have to leave real soon.. and second of all.. she is not entirely the most punctual person... Sometimes.. we planned to meet at 2.. Dun ever come on time.. i and hidayah will reach at 230pm and still ends up waiting for her till ard 3pm.. and then at 430 or 5... she has to go.. and sometimes.. the outing.. it was her who arranged it!! ARGH!!!

And then she always makes noise if any of us can't make for most of the dates that were suggested... then when we actually have a day that the 3 of us are free the entire day.. she has to do that.. ARGH!!! Sometimes, its fine.. i mean we understand if its something really impt.. but sometimes... it's just.. nvm...

Thursday, May 27, 2004

POST-BEP-FEVER

Did i tell you that Fergie can really shake that ass??? Oh oh.. did i tell you that she can dance like whoa!!??... ohh ohhh yeah.. did i tell you that her abs can be seen even at the back of the indoor stadium...????

Ahhh~!!! *DRROOOLLLZZ* NVM... (Get a grip Nad)

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Hmmzzz.. Do i think i can do this?? Planning meetings that is soo interesting that will make future members stay in the CCA and not run away?? In the end contribute to the membership rate of the CCA?? Can i organize workshops that will draw people?? and give them something they will never forget??

What's wrong with the CCA in the first place?? Maybe its coz you have to pay membership in the first place... As usual.. that tends to draw people away... and you left with nothing but those who are really interested... its good to be left with those who are really interested... but is it enough to make the CCA last?? and not be closed down??
Or maybe its because the CCA.. Is too formal?? that it gets kinda predictable after awhile? But it all depends on how the meeting was planned... But why do I bother... One might ask... Coz, now it is my job to do that...

I was there once... In the same situation... A CCA that was supposed to be shut down because of its lack of members... and now.. i'm here again.. in the same situation.. but at a different place and time and also a different CCA altogether... A CCA that is at the risk of being closed down because of lack of members...

Well.. I did it once and succeeded... but can i do it again?
MY VERY 1ST CONCERT!!

I'm tired and sleepy... and to top it all of i'm HIGH!!! wahahaha.... Wooohhoooo... the concert rawks... i had tons of fun... HAA~!! WHeee.. Since i'm like so high at the moment and my mom is already asleep before i even got started on telling her how it was... Hmmzz.. that's my punishment for keeping her awake till 4am the day before coz i was excited about today.. muahahaha...

Anywayz, let's not waste time and space and let me get started with today...

Meet them at 445pm.. and had coffee at spinelli.. wahhaa.. nvm.. i shall not say what happens.. and later dinner at KFC before going to Indoor Stadium.. argh.. forget it.. i'll just fast forward to the interesting part.. THE CONCERT~!!!!

Ya.. so there were 3 local groups doing the opening... (SUPPORT LOCAL TALENTS!!!! When they're good.. they're good.. when they're not.. well..) the first one was V something... second was TRIPLE NATION and last was the WICKED AURA BATUCADA or batacuda.. or something like that lah... The First group.. wooooo!!... The guy who sang the song.. wow.. he was like.. soulful to the max.. is that an exaggeration?? hmm but i think he is Smmoooothh!! Wahahhaah.. *See Told ya i'm high!*

The second one... TRIPLE NATION.. the girl... powerful voice.. but irritating.. whahah.. in a sense that i don't think i'd last listening to the whole album... wahahaha... The group's opening had this guy starting off dancing alone... First look at his dance moves and the person that came to my mind was Soffie.. hahaha.. It is a compliment to Soffie though.. but i think an insult to the guy... coz he dances like a girl.. or maybe.. a compliment since he is that flexible? hmmzzz.. -,-"

So ya.. the last one.. WICKED AURA BATUCADA.. the most awaited group with the largest number of fans out of the 3 that were present.. But seriously, i wonder why... hahhaa.. Coz, the drum beats were like the same after awhile... attention span no longer there sia.. and to add to it the lyrics... wahaha.. the first song has something abt "I'm a sex machine" going in loops... and the last song was something like.. "I wanna ride it, But I can't find it, had to rely on the drum beats." I mean.. the entire song was that... one would go wtf... rite? hahahha..

So.. now the interesting part.. THE BLACK EYED PEAS CONCERT!!!
Woohooo... It started with the Elephunk intro.. and then.. *LA LA LA LA.. HEY MAMA!!* and there was Fergie doing her thang.. Wooohhoo... and the crowd goes wild! hehehe.. Then there was a mixture of most of their songs.. Oh ya.. And Fergie did a Solo.. hmmm.. how shall I put it? She has an interesting kinda voice... :P Then there was this Bounce (Party) song that made everybody stand... and BOY! the whole stadium did bounce!!

Then there's a song for all the laydees out there... what else.. BUT *Shut up, Just Shut Up Shut Up (3X). Shut it up, Just shut up shut up.* wooo.. That really made everyone even more hyped then they already are... wooohooo... *Girl, Our love is dyin'.. Why do you keep tryin'.. I've never been the quita... but i do deserve betta.. lalallalaa... That was a different thing.. It was the same damn thing.. Same ass excuses.. Boy you're useless.. WHooooaaaa!!* And that part brought the whole house down... wahahha...

Then the shut up song was so call the "last song".. Then they came back again.. the boogie song and latin girls.. brought the energy right back up... They did a fantastic ending with what else... *What's wrong with the world Mama.. They act like they ain't got no Mamas* Yuppidie yup yup.. It's WHERE IS THE LOVE!!! AHH!!!! hahaha.. the entire stadium was singing along to the chorus... woohooo.. POWER!! hahahhahaa...

Then the concert ended... You'll think.. *huh? so little songs?* But it started at 830pm or so.. and it ended at ard 1130pm... So ya.. and then.. it was water fight between me and who else... Can't be Azi rite?? Obviously it was Mel.. Grr.. but nvm... we're even... both got wet twice by each other.. so ya.. hahhaha..

Oh ya... NEWSFLASH!! Mel lost his voice.. screaming.. wahahhaha... Chances of practicing songs for Singapore Idol? Seems to be very unpredictable.. MUAHAHHA!!

Conclusion: I had tons of fun.. hahaha.. more concerts to come?? HOPEFULLY!!!

Oh ya.. Law Welcome concert... what theme?? RnB?? Hip Hop?? Soul?? Sure fun to see our very own Beyonce', Sean Paul, Usher, Ashanti, Jay-Z... hahhahahha..

ok ok.. BEP getting to me.. Anywayz, Time to sleep.. PEACE!! and OUTZ!! lalalalla... *Pple killin', pple dyin', children hurtin' and women cryin'.... (Fades away)*

Monday, May 24, 2004

Ok let's see.. Didn't go swimming today... Why? Coz i have a feeling that my friend just woke up ard 2 hrs ago... and i've been calling her and she didnt pick up... What's new? Forever one... I'm going to do the same to her soon i tell you... So ya.. Didnt go anywhere near the pool...

So what did I do in the end? I met Syazana... Yes yes.. Hidayah.. don't get shock.. she's not that horrible you know.. irritating yes.. but horrible.. erm no i think... wahaha... but thankz to the prev. makcik who was still sleeping left me no other choice but to go out with Syaz... *Hidayah.. remember to breathe when you're in fits of laughter* Since Syaz has been calling me to go out with her... so ya.. met up with her today.. not that far lah.. At Compass Point only... hahaha... ended up sitting at starbucks... for.. let's see... 1... 2... yeah 2 hours... Hidayah... Don't worry.. its not a romantic date... and pls... stop rolling on the floor* Catching up on each others life... Sch life hasn't been that good to her.. esp. frenz wise... *HIDAYAH.. wipe that evil grin off* Wonder what's wrong with us? Having frenz probs... tsk tsk tsk..

Come to think of it... i've been turning down outings.. hahaha.. why? no reason... only that it tends to clash with my other outings.. hahaha.. made one of my fren MAD when i didnt go for one of my groups' gathering.. hahhaa.. must make it up... one day.. some time... soon?

So.. ya... Can't wait for TMR!!! hahahha... so sorry hid... Tickets not mine.. I'm only following... next time lah ah... okiez?? Don't angry ah... hehehe.. Muacks.. LOve ya.. hahaha...
Yeah.. So my mom allowed me to go.. hahaha.. First time.. hahaha.. must go and buy 4D already.. loL~! Maybe coz i'm going crazy over them.. wahhaha..

So what am i doing tmr? Going Swimming.. why? coz, deena finally answered my smses.. or maybe she just miss me lah.. ahhaa... thick skinned rite? I know.. lol!! Then got scolding from her becoz my bike is spoilt... then cannot go cycling... nonsense rite? She pass 6 mths dun wanna go and exercise.. now then wanna go... why? Coz, she finally made the decision that she gonna join the New Paper New Face.. hehehe.. ahh!! FINALLY!! I've been waiting for ages for that particular agreement.. But the condition that she's not joining alone still stands... So she's dragging Hidayah.. can't wait for the battle btwn both of them... coz, hidayah practically freaked out when i let her in to that little secret.. hahha

Argh! need to speak in a nicer tone to my grandmother.. coz pple thinks that i'm being a meanie and disrespectful in the way i talk to her.. wth.. been talking to her like that since i can talk.. maybe that's the reason why my grandma is always angry with me.. mistook the way i talk to her.. argh!! what do you want me to do? go for voice implant and request for a voice that is sweeter and more polite? Maybe i should ask for siti nurhaliza's voice?

Saturday, May 22, 2004

Didnt go to get coffee yest... Met my mom for dinner instead... And boy was she late.. I missed a bus coz i fell asleep while waiting for it.. and ended up taking a cab and she was still late... I nearly rotted at the bus stop while waiting for her... and even better.. she arrived in the cab...

The first thing she said when she saw me was not hi or what time did you arrive? It was "OMG! You look terrible and ugly!! Told you not to sleep late... but never listen rite..." GRrr... thx alot... But slept rite after watching nip/tuck... oh wait.. i met Suk Ching online first... to play GB.. hahaha.. so ya.. ended up sleeping late... ya.. well wat's new..

So.. I wannna go to the BLACK EYED PEAS CONCERT!!!! ARGH!!! Have to persuade her into letting me go... coz she's worrying how the hell am i gonna go home after it... Since it will be late after it ends and there will no longer be bus.. and she dunno how frequent the cab will be... so ya.. ARGH!! I wanna go!! Maybe i should start whining.. think that will help?? hahahha...

Friday, May 21, 2004

Hahaha.. well its done.. finally.. Didn't know that 2hrs flew by ever so quickly.. Who would have guessed rite?? So ya.. I'm relieved... and CONFIDENT!! HEll no... hhahaha... So one just continue wondering and guessing what will happen this time round i guess... I mean.. argh.. nvm... Now still in school with nothing to do.. I should go home shouldn't i?? But what the hell am i doing here??

Hahaha.. what else... too loyal and miss school too much lah i guess.. first time hols never really come back to school man.. whahaha... Ok.. i'm going crazy.. But what can i do? the stress is getting to me.. HELP!! Nooooo.... AAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!! So what shall i do now?? Hmmzz feel like drinking coffee.. Ya.. maybe that's what i'll do.. Buy coffee and rot at either coffee bean or starbucks... maybe i should get myself a story book or a mag to accompany me as well.. Or maybe i should just go home and cont. rotting..

ARGH!!! JUST SHUT UP NAD AND MAKE A DAMN DECISION ITS NOT THAT DIFFICULT TO BEGIN WITH!!! GRR!! Ok so now.. its not stress.. its boredom... really great huh? how i babble on and on when i seriously have nothing to and still make a long enough entry.. *A thunderous round of applause can be heard and NAD takes her bow!* LOL!!
Ok.. I'm in school now.. 23 more mins to go till it is 2pm... and i'm having butterflies in my stomach.. DAMN!! it never happened before... Why today? Why now?? I'm like so damn nervous right now that i'm kinda sure that whatever i've been stuffing in my head yest... and today... and last sat is kinda gone rite now...

ARGH!! I CAN DO THIS!! I WILL SURVIVE.. LALLALALA... I WIIL SURVIVE... BREATHE... BREATHE IN AND OUT.. IN AND OUT... SLOWLY... hmmm.. am i calmer now?? Hmmm.. Yes i think i am.. It is all in the mind... nothing to fear... YEs... NOTHING to fear.. IT GONNA BE FINE... IT WILL BE OK!! yes.. it will be... argh... gotta go now...
Ok. Tmr is the big day... or rather today is.. since its already 215 am now.. haiz.. and i'm on the verge of panicking.... Coz i'm like.. wat the hell.. i dun wanna go and sleep... i dun even want tmr or later to come.. I dont' wanna go!!!! NO!!! WHY?!?!

Current condition:
Eyes:Warm and watery...
Nose:Can soon replace my bathroom tap
Throat:I think its Sore.. but i think only lah..
Voice:Rather hollow.. I think i'm hearing echoes... ARGH!!

But this might due to me being stressed due to fright.. so ya..

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

Suppose to go meeting yesterday.. but didn't turned up for it... Coz 1) I was late.. Like what's new? Rite? Anywayz, I reached tamp at 2pm.. One of the reason why i didn't turn up is because i think that the meeting will end anytime soon... So met Mel instead since the 3 of us planned to go out...

Both of us had ard 2 hrs to fill before Azi materialised.. :P SO.. let's see what did we do... Hmmzz.. Walked around TM like 10 times? before entering the arcade? Then played the dumb bumper car game... Before Mel complained that he was hungry.. or was it that he felt like eating?? Hmmzz.. but then.. what new rite?? hahaha... Anywayz, went to Century Sq.. ended up at the arcade as well.. I seriously think that Tamp has run out of places.. Coz, it seems as if we're always at an arcade... yeah.. anywayz, finally WON Mel at the Daytona Race.. Wooohhhhoooo!! It's abt time... Maybe i'll start winning from now on... LOL!!

Then after that Azi messaged him that she would meet us at 430... Since it was 330 at that pt of time... Ended up spending a bomb coz we went to Haagen Daz... Coz somebody was complaining that he feels like eating.. Who else rite?? Anywayz, met Azi... And she was in a bad mood and i thought that she was angry me for not coming for the meeting.. but it seems that it was some other thing...

SO we went away from the east.. my mom called on the train ride.. and ended up meeting my mom.. hahhaa.. had dinner at Swensens'... Ya.. that's all i think.. hahaha.. Oh ya.. That was the first time Mel was THAT quiet... wahahhaha.. even though he did talk later.. hahhaa.. Anywayz, there will be another outing on the 9 or 10???

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

So. The SUN continued shining today. Stayed at home. Rotted the entire day. Didn't go out. Outing was cancelled. Coz everyone was busy. Hmmmz. How come i'm so free ah?. No idea. But better enjoy it. While it last. LOL!.

Anywayz. Let's see what my friends are up to.

KAY. Singing to the dawn. Coming soon. Right?. Four Winds. Murder Game 2. If people were to pay her. She'd be a millionaire by now. Productions are not short term directing jobs. They're kinda long. Just imagine rite?. Then Law Farewell. Our DIVA is singing. So ya. She's kept comfortably busy.

AZI. Here's another one. Who would make it big if she's paid to do what she's doing. LOL!. She's like working 24/7. I think if she own business. And working at the rate she is now. Her business would have prospered by now. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. hehehhe. Don't angry ah. So. Let's see what she's doing. Law Farewell?. That i'm not sure. Law Welcome. What else ah?. I think there is a long list. (",).

MEL. No idea what this one is doing. Most prob he's rotting as well. But on the other hand. He might be training himself. For Singapore Idol. Or singing Unforgettable. In loops. Or most prob. He has some other activities up his sleeve.

And me?. Hmmmzz. Nothing much. :P
So. As usual. Rotted at home. Today gonna sleep early. Looking like a panda. And its the hols. Imagine that. Another reason is that. Tomorrow got meeting. 11am. outside libray.

Monday, May 17, 2004

The sky is RUMBLING!! Nooooo!!!

Why?
Only shows one thing:
THAT MOST PROB OR A VERY HIGH CHANCE THE ROLLER BLADING / CYCLING OUTING WILL BE CANCELLED!!!

Coz there WAS a very high chance that I might be out of this house and enjoying myself but now... there IS a very high chance that i'll be rotting at home AGAIN!!!

But then again, the Sun is still shining ever so brightly... What would this mean? Is there still a chance of escape from the coop??
So my mom finally know my results.. And i had to think of all kinda means and ways to start a conversation appropriate enough to suit the particular topic.. Well, my mom finally relief me of the agony when she asked me whether or not i've gotten back my results while i was eating.. well at least that stopped me from cont. eating when i had to answer her meekly that i've gotten it back...

Then she left the table and i quietly finish my meal.. and then i was cornered by my mom at the study room when she asked me exactly what did i get... Ya.. when i told her.. i couldn't even look in her eye... Totally got the message that she was not just disappointed.. but she was EXTREMELY disappointed.. she was saying its fine if its a test or sem1 yr1 is still excusable... not when you're already in the sem2 of your coz.. Then she was like.. its time for you to quit playing around and get down to work.. so ya.. haiz.. i knew this was coming..

Anywayz, went to ART FRIEND with my mom to buy some art materials... coz i think i'm going to start painting every available planting pot in the house.. hahahah... bought some charcoal sticks to start my sketching again.. hahaha.. was like touching all the paints.. my mom practically had to pull me out of the shop... hahhaa.. Then on the way to Raffles Place Shopping Centre.. My mom was like.. "I seriously dunno why you didn't choose art"... then I had to painfully remind her that i failed my art.. wishing that she would change the subject...

Then she was like.. "I dun think its just because of that.. i think you gave up is more to the fact that you hated what your art teacher did and it also happens that you choose the wrong thing and the o's results just added to it and that was went you put away ALL your art stuff"... I just kept quiet.. I mean what can i say right?

Its not because i suddenly lost interest.. I mean art was everything to me.. practically my life.. The failure made my world came crashing down and shattered my hopes and dreams.. Firstly, i did not take art elective in sec 3 & 4 to fail during the O's and Secondly, I did it eversince i can remember... Went for art classes since I was in nursery.. got into Yamaha's advance art course in pri. 3.. the youngest pupil in the class... and had to endure all kinda teasings since my artwork was the most childish of all.. well.. i was the youngest to begin with, esp in a class that is filled with pri.6, sec 1&2 students... And that was when i learnt and loved chinese calligraphy.. but i didnt stay long.. coz i was sick of those classmates of mine...

Told my mom all that... also said that there is a reason why i chose literature over geography.. there is also a reason why i studied to make sure that i wont qualify into the pure sci. stream or rather prayed that it wont happen.. and at that point of time there were only 2 choices after sec sch.. JC or Art Sch (fine arts or performing arts).. and me failing art during o's, the disappontment was greater for art than the other sub. that i've failed.. Coz i know i wouldn't be able to go into any of the 2 options that i've set myself for.. And i didn't know what else i'd choose..

Never in my wildest dreams did i expect myself to be here.. doing what i'm doing now.. and when mom asked why i didnt go for the interview at La Salle.. well i told her that 1)I know my results would already give me a slim chance.. 2)I feel that I wouldn't have the portfolio required.. coz i do not do art for fun.. i did it for a purpose.. 3)I took my results as a sign that its time for me to open my eyes and explore other things.. And the reasons why i didnt go for the performing arts interview was because i didn't have any singing/dance/theatre background.. and my mom was thanking her lucky stars on the performing arts part.. hehhee

Now my mom is trying to physcho me into picking it up again.. And i never regret doing what i'm doing now.. coz, it was my choice and no one's else.. And i think the hols is getting more and more boring to make me write such an entry...

Sunday, May 16, 2004

5 1/2 (close to 6) chapters already done.. 6 more to go... hahahha... first time sia.. did it in 2 solid hours w/o me being distracted or whatever sht.. hahaha.. Wooohhhooo.. this is an accomplishment.. lol!! ok ok.. i better stop this.. i think lack of sleep will do this to a person.. and the best part is that i have plenty of time to read it over and over.. but for now.. i'm going to end my studying and cont. on mon since its already so late and i think i better get some sleep..

Anywayz, tok to my fren for a while.. i think it was ard 10mins online.. as she update me with her life and vice versa.. Seriously, I truly admire her strength... Truly salute her man.. 2004 has not been good to her.. disappointments came successively without giving a chance to breathe... She's been worrying about things since the beginning of the year...

I still remember talking to her and she tells me how worried she was about her o's and all.. Then when the results came.. it was truly a disappointment for her.. esp when she has been studying extremely hard for it.. and still she has to retake... I talked to her the night of the results consoling her that everything will be fine and that it is not the end but only a short detour...

Then suddenly, during JAE she found out that her boyfriend sorta cheated on her and that was the end of a relationship that she has put so much devotion into and one that she has fought to prove to her parents that he was not as what they thought he would be.. I remembered SMSing her asking her on her decision as to whether or not she is re-taking or going ITE... then a reply came with her in a state of helplessness... Crying..

She had a difficult time trying to get over him.. Then she managed to find someone new.. Someone that she had known for years.. they went into a relationship.. First.. i really admire her since it was a long distance relationship.. that guy is australian.. and both of them could really make it work.. Then now.. while asking her how's life.. she told me that she was worried about her boyfriend.. when i asked why.. she said that just now she went to the hospital and found out that her boyfriend is at the last stages of leukimia.. and she could not go to him as only close family were allowed in.. and all she could do was look at him through the window.. staring from afar... praying and hoping against all odds that he will be fine..

Currently, she is someone that i truly admire... I mean she's went through alot in short period and she still have the strength to give the encouragement to those who needed as well as comfort herself and still go on with life normally...
Ok.. can't seem to start studying... maybe coz its the subject... GRR.. boring man.. hahhaa... Only can study when mom is not around.. hahaha.. coz, she doesn't know yet.. hehehe... haven't found the rite time to tell her.. so ya... Maybe tomorrow then i tell her.. if i can find the suitable time.. :P

Anywayz, haven't been doing much this hols.. Hope that i'll be going out more often.. hahhaa.. Only on the 21st cannot.. That is my deciding day.. hahhaa. 2-4pm.. haiz.. ANywayz, let's see what have been happening.. My mom farted at me yest.. and more farting from her.. hahaha.. tsk tsk tsk.. Tried to decorate something and turn it into a jewellery box.. Burnt my finger in the process... Tried to study... watched VCDs the entire day... hahaa... VCD marathon.. let's see what did i watch today.. 1)Pirates Of Carribean (No idea why i keep watching it..) 2)Tomb Raider 3)Parent's Trap 4)Princess Diaries 5)Mulan.. Basically, that's all.. (",)

I think i wanna signed up for a few classes.. hahhaa.. Seriously this hols is getting too free man... erm.. wat else?? Oh ya.. Was talking to my mom the other day abt things you've done that you would be proud of... And i realised something... I've not done anything in this 17 yrs of my life close to 18 actually.. that i would actually be extremely prooud of or go WOW at the thought of it.. if you know what i mean.. It's like.. you've done it.. YAY!! that kinda thing.. And i couldn't think of any.. NOTHING at all..

I mean its like... Some have climbed Mt. Ophir(4X) or maybe even Mt. Everest at 17... Some have even represented their countries in the Olympics or SEA GAMES at 17.. Some might already be the Miss Universe at 18... Or already win lots of things.. Or achieve so much.. Basically done alot in a short period of time... Then i tried to think of somethings that I would go YAY I'VE DONE IT.. and again.. i came up with nothing..

Then my mom tried to list the things that i've done.. but to me... it is not what i'm looking for.. then she says.. maybe the time haven't come yet and she is sure that the time will come where when you do something and you just go YAY.. that kinda thing.. Coz, she feels that everyone will have that certain thing that they've accomplished and extremely proud off.. so ya.. Wonder what mine will be.. :P

Saturday, May 15, 2004

VAN HELSING... I guessed we won't be watching this particular movie as a group rite?? Since OBI WAN KENOBI watched it already without telling the rest of the clan.. so ya.. I watched it with my mom today...

The show rocks man.. hahhaa... It was totally like WOW!! Made me wanna be a dracula slayer.. so cool rite?? hahhaa.. my imagination seriously ran wild.. hahhaa.. being a werewolf.. or a beautiful vampire.. LOL~~!! or better still the last princess that died in the end.. hahhaha.. this kinda show.. it seems as if that everybody tends to die.. but the evil will ALWAYS be vanquished... hahaha.. as the old saying always say GOOD WILL TRIUMPH OVER EVIL!! YAY!! hahaha... But it was cool.. :P

Then had dinner at swensen's since my mom wanna eat the apple crumble... but didn't enjoy the apple crumble this time round and Suk Ching wasn't around... Since the last outing we had fun eating apple crumble... my mom came to the conclusion that next time if eat apple crumble must drag Suk Ching along since it was more enjoyable... ahahahha.. so ya.. SUK CHING.. remember.. there WILL be a next apple crumble outing.. MUAHAHHA!!!

And i think i'm falling sick... HOPE NOT...

Friday, May 14, 2004

Ok.. it has been an extremely long time since i took quizzes... So, let's begin.. hahhaa..

Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The
Pure.

"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."


The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.

As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla

My rose doesn't have a pic... grr.. hahahha... hmmzz.. so is it true??

Thursday, May 13, 2004

Talking about relationships with Suk Ching...

How do you forget your past and continue with the present to dream about the future?? Is it normal for you to compare the past and present?? I guess it is.. But do you think it's fair if the present knows that you're comparing?? I guess not... this is an assumption.. but what is you are still in love with the past.. when you're still in love with the past, how are you going to go on with the present??

COMPARISON OF THE PAST AND PRESENT..
Tell me, is it possible?? I guess it is if you don't go crazy in the process... :P But that's not the point... Maybe you tend to remember if the past is the first love... you try to find things to distract yourself and not allowing yourself to wonder back.. to flip the pages of memories.. and each time you get close.. you pull away.. reprimanding yourself... but the thing is.. the past and present will all give memories.. memories that cannot be erased.. memories that will always be with you...

SO... i guess... there is no point for a person trying to forget it or trying to find something to replace it coz it wont do any good...
Didnt go out anywhere yest... kinda slept the entire day actually... even though that wasn't my original plan... How not to sleep you tell me.. now its 415am and i'm not on my bed but at the comp.. blogging away... If i'm not online.. i'll be watching vcds.. Have no idea why i'm not watching them when the sun is up.. but start doing everything when its at night.. seriously, turning into an owl.. tsk tsk tsk...

Been watching PIRATES OF CARRIBEAN and LAST SAMURAI... hmmzz.. both movies are nice.. pirates of carribean.. i have no idea whether or not its a comedy but i find it hilarious anywayz.. hahaha and last samurai is heart warming.. hahha.. However, there are great similarities about this 2 movies and that is how someone would do anything for the person or things that they love.. Hmmzzz.. come to think of it.. nearly all movies have that concept.. that someone will be the hero or something like that lah...

To me.. i have no idea whether or not i'll do anything for a person or things that i love.. but most probably there is a high chance that i will do anything.. But the reason for doing it is at times another story.. coz its either because you love that person THAT much or you just plainly wanna prove yourself.. so ya.. the reason varies.. And i remember there was one time that i was busy trying to prove myself for something that i wouldn't get into the details at the moment... that my friends just said to me that no matter what i do those pple are never going to be satisfied and will still stick to their perception of me.. so just forget abt proving myself and do things that i truly enjoyed doing... Well my friends did make sense and i was tired of proving myself too at that point of time.. But most prob i will do it again when a certain situation rises again... :P

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

YAWN.. today woke up early for camp sunshine meeting at 10am.. The meeting was for the main comm and the fund raising comm... But i'm late for it... as usual.. hahaha... Today's meeting was to discuss about the possible fund raising for camp sunshine... Hmmzz.. there were various possible ideas that were brought up... Well i guess it is possible to get $2k to fund the camp from the fund-raising itself... Wasn't involve much or rather at all in the discussion.. became azi's secretary and busy myself writing down the things that were discussed and the relevant dates.. hehehe...

Somehow, have no idea how... Was dragged to Murder Game 2's meeting by azi... Actually azi was just saying to check it out and see what is it about... So ya... so i followed to the Murder Game meeting... During the meeting we were told what kinda concept it will be and something about ensuring us that it will not be the same as the first murder game... hahaha... But I don't think i'll be joining lah... had domainofdeathphobic.. LOL! I guess the first murder game is the first time that i'll be acting in a production as well as the last.. (",) It's not that i don't enjoy it... I did.. but... hhmmmzzz...

So ya... i think i'd better keep my hands off this kinda thing for awhile even though i know i'll be itching to sign up... and thinks that i'll be too free.. but nvm.. i shall live with it.. hahaha... so ya...

Sunday, May 09, 2004

Mother's Day 2004

Mom brought my grandmother out today and obviously i tagged along... It was not a one to one outing.. but sort off a family outing.. my aunt was around too.. Went to Seoul Garden to celebrate mother's day... Hehehe.. Put everything on my grandmother's plate and in the end she was extremely full and i was comfortably full i might say.. hahahhaa..

This year didn't get anything for my mom... in an extremely tight budget and felt kinda guilty not getting her anything at all... but luckilly the day before was baking day.. Siok Lan came over to bake something for mother's day... And i took the opportunity to bake a huge strawberry tart for my mom and something that i had to hide it from siok lan as she tried to steal the strawberries.. hahhaa.. Baked it all by myself.. and kinda proud abt it actually that it turned out well...

Well.. today.. it was fun... but somehow it wasn't really there.. hmmzz.. i have no idea what is missing though.. but it just felt that something is not complete... i dunno what it is... At the end of the day... It was a really fun outing... if only she knows what i've been keeping from her... haiz..

MOM
She's done so much... She's there to comfort me when i'm down... There to stand by me when i needed the support... Even though, at times she is extremely busy she never fail to spent time with me and asking me to update her on what's been happening with my life... Secrets we've shared, Gossips were exchanged... Those are just priceless... And to think that I was not really close to you once upon a time...

But why is it that I'm so close to you but i'm so afraid to tell you the minor things... Why am I so afraid to tell you what my results when i've told you everything... Everything from my pranks, my friends, my thoughts, school, love, life... Practically everything... But why not results... Is it the fear of disappointing you especially when you're always there for me through anything... And i can't even give you something so easy and simple such as good grades or rather just acceptable ones... hmmzz... maybe that's it...

I Turn To You

When I'm lost
In the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared
Losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around

And when I'm down
Your there
Pushing me to the top
Your always there giving me all you got

CHORUS
For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For the love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you

When I lose
The will to win
I just reach for you
And I can reach the sky again
I can do
Anything
Cause your love is so amazing
That your love inspires me

And when i need a friend
Your always on my side
Giving me faith
And taking me through the night

CHORUS

For the arms to be my shelter through all
The rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart i can rely on through anything
(you can rely on me)
For the world to
I can feel to...oh yeah
I turn to you

CHORUS

For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you

Friday, May 07, 2004

Results are out today...

Haiz... some are ok... one is just killing me at the moment.. have no idea what to do rite now... and the best part... whatever it is.. its not helping at the moment.. you think i dun know any of that?? Haiz.. anywayz, have no idea what to tell my mom though.. confirm she damn disappointed lah... i seriously dunno what to do.. dunno what to tell her.. dunno how to tell her....

Tell her promises that i'm not able to fulfill? Tell her that i'll try to do better the next time round?? Well that excuse have been around since ice age... I dun think she believe it anymore each time i tell her that.. coz i never do any better the next time round... Tell her that i'm sorry?? For not being able to get what i'm suppose to get?? Still have no idea what to tell her coz i dunno whether or not these are just excuses or something that i will be able to prove...

Anywayz, the words are not helping me at all.. seriously, its not making me feel any better.. its making me feel worst... much much worst... Yes those words are logical... Well.. its easier said than done rite?? Everyone can talk.. but can everyone fulfill it?? Haiz...

I'm so damn worried and scared rite now.. Coz i have the possibility of retaking the farking subject if i dun do it well the next time round.. Who in the world would wanna retake that freaking subject?? I think it will be equivalent to torture in hell... Shit lah.. Seriously hope that i will do better the next time.. Shit shit shit... Currently damn angry with myself, how could i even allow this to happen?? Well.. One thing for sure is serve me right!!

Current state of mind: Angry, Confused and on the verge of tears
Hmmz in the end i didn't go anywhere yesterday...

Didn't go and look for job... and i didnt even go out.. Stayed at home.. WHY?? Coz my beautiful grandmother scolded me for frequently going out.. and the frequently is that i shouldn't go out for 3 days in a row.. so that is one of the reason why i seldom go out.. have so many pple to please.. have so many pple to ask permission from.. better stay at home and rot rite?? at least i won't get into trouble while asking..

She say she no longer trust kids nowadays... why?? Coz she spend 3 weeks in malaysia witnessing my cousin going home late... and she thinks that it applies to me?? HAIz... Sometimes, i wonder.. what should i do... do whatever i like?? or should i do things to please pple... I seriously wonder why she scolds me when she keeps thinking that i've got no friends coz i always rot at home and never go out.. And when i do go out.. She thinks that i'm making too many friends and allowing them to be a bad influence on me.. What you want me to do you tell me??

Obviously, ended up quarrelling with her... haiz.. i never like quarrelling with her or anyone... i never do.. i'll feel so guilty later... i have no idea what to do to make things rite after quarrels... and she thinks that me going for job interviews are just excuses to go out.. coz i go home late and the best part is that i go home late is because i met my mom for dinner or to go out... and she thinks that it is also an excuse coz currently i'm not working... How you want me to work you tell me?? I go home late kena scolding... I go out everyday also kena scolding.. I go for job interviews dun believe... How not to quarrel??? haiz....

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Anywayz, let me update you what have i been doing since tuesday...

Hmzzz i've been going job hunting.. yeah that's right.. job hunting.. whahaha... need financial backing man... but some how i just get the feeling that i won't be working anywhere.. but i hope that i'd get the dental clinic job since its so near and all...

but obviously i wouldn't state what happen.. coz it will be an identical entry to suk ching's.. so ya. if you wanna know just read suk ching's blog... that is if you can read and she has remove her marquee code.. wahahaha....

But it was fun though making fun of some of the places with suk ching after we left each building.. hahahha... anywayz, suk ching.. thanks for allowing me to go with you to go and find job... really appreciate it... THX a million.. :P Coz if i were alone, i dun think i'll even go.. wahahaha..

Anywayz, what am i going to do today?? Suppose to go job hunting with suk ching.. but i dunno whether or not i'll be going.. coz suppose to go cycling today.. and nobody msg me anything abt it today.. so ya... if nothing.. then most prob i shall meet suk ching at bugis for our job interview...
Hmmzzz... ok.. since suk ching ask me to update.. i shall update then...

The topic for this entry is: First time I went on the ice... (",)
On mon... Met azi and mel to go ice skating at kallang for 3hrs-$8.. i think its not bad ah... wahahhaa... its seriously hilarious... wahhaha.. it was difficult from the start esp when you have never ice skate before... hehehe... So.. the first time i stand on the ice.. i keep having the thinking that i'm going to fall off anytime soon... going to topple off.. that was how unstable it was.. maybe coz its slippery or wat i dunno... then it was like.. only skating at the sides so that can hold the wall (Is that it?) in case i fall or something...

So, was skating at the sides for a while to get use to it and I can actually skate not that smoothly after 45mins or so.. not bad.. whahaha.. soo much for no confidence.. :P then i already saw mel and azi trying to skate across the rinkbut obviously i still did not dare to do it at that point of time.. yeah yeah.. chicken.. i know...

Then i dunno how or why.. i started skating across the rink and guess what i found out??? That skating in the middle is so much more easy than skating at the sides.. coz the middle is much more smooth while at the sides the ice was uneven coz people tend to brake once they reached the side and the ice chipping the ice.. so ya.. skating in the middle is easier..

Then at around 730pm both azi and mel wasnt skating already coz the blister were killing them.. hehehe.. Since i only had one blister... and it wasnt killing me.. i continued skating untill mel had to threaten me to get off the ice by saying that they are going off now and leaving me alone here.. wahahha.. and i had to go home alone.. so ya.. that made me get off the ice.. obviously..

Went to PP to have dinner and all the way mel was limping away... its not like he broke his leg or sprained his ankle during ice skating.. but it was that he gotten blisters.. MUAHAHHAH!!!

Anywayz, later at night.. i kept my mom awake till around 3am telling her about my ice skating session over and over again.. pestering her went are we going again.. wahhahaa... then each time she close her eyes... i was like poking her all the way telling her not to sleep untill i finish toking wahahhaa... so it was like non-stop toking from me.. muahahaha.. and the next day.. she was late for work.. wahahah...

Sunday, May 02, 2004

Finally went out today... hahaha... actually my day began at around 2 or 3pm or so.. Went to escape theme park with my cousins.. the initial picnic plan that i was telling about in the end... was intended strictly for the parents... so the children was shooed away as my mom queued to pay for admission into the theme park as a way for us to be out of their way the entire day.. heee....

So went on nearly all the rides with my cousins... and go-cart racing... woohooo... Was kinda speeding all the way... came in 2nd out of 5... not bad rite?? the first was the guy cousin of mine... i got headache after a few rides... as well as got drenched in one of the rides.. the big splash thing or something like that lah... but then.. sadly.. i only had the chance of being drenched on one slide... coz they had to stop the entire ride coz somebody's child was tooo afraid to continue on... Grr.. but that was another good thing too as i had no change of clothes.. wahahhaa...

So i was drenched and i didnt had the time to go home and change before meeting the rest of them at newton for dinner.. which my initial plan was not to go at all... wonder what changed my mind though... hmmzzz.. Anywayz, took 518 to newton... thanks to SOMEONE's advice, i had an around 1-hour and 15 minutes bus ride to newton... and during that bus ride.. i had the privelege of hearing my cousin lecturing her brother.. and boy! I never wanna be her daughter or son.. wahahahah... was on the brother's side... haha.. and had a "human rights" so-called argument (or was it debate?) with her in the bus

Then it made me realise... sometimes, i just don't know why some people can't accept that everyone's different and each of them have their own strengths.. Her brother is going to sit for a national exam... something like 'O' Levels this year.. and during the car ride to downtown east just now... we passed a penthouse i think... then my aunt was like... "you see, if you study hard.. you get good job.. and you can afford luxurious things.. it's for your own good also"

They've been going on and on about it since this morning actually... and that car ride... just got me pissed.. i mean i cant take it anymore... I just went,'If i were him, i think i'd committed suicide a long time ago.. its a wonder that he is still alive now... coz its damn stressful having someone going on and on just because you can't get the desired results that is comparable to your sis and therefore a future-to-be-labelled-as-failure...." thank god it was my mom who was sitting beside me at least she understands what i was trying to say.. and i think if someone else was sitting beside me.. hahaa.. i would be beheaded...

Why? I mean everyone has a different learning pace.. ACCEPT IT!! Everyone has different strengths... ACCEPT IT!! Everyone has different interests.. ACCEPT THAT AS WELL!!! i was updated about how he keeps coming home late everyday and it is his examz year and all and how he keeps going to his friends house or out jamming... Well.. i think i would be joining him as well if you keep having people nagging at you all day long about how stupid you are... i mean.. would you sit at home to listen to this?? Hell no!! I would be out with my friends to have a good time at least they appreciate me as who i am.. rite??

People has been telling me this.. Everyone has limits.. well it is true.. There is a limit as well to how much you can nag a day and how much a person can take nagging in that particular day as well.. I mean the least you could do if you can't help is support him.. encourage him that he will succeed even though it is not as good as the sis.. i mean.. which 2 kid will be same rite?? each child is unique in their own way... just because s/he only gets 70/100 for maths for term test... doesn't mean that he is stupid just because the elder one had gotten 90/100 when s/he was going to sit for her 'O's.. Welll the limit part was part of my arguement in the bus with her.. haiz..

And the defence given was that i wouldn't understand since i'm not staying there to witness things that are going on everyday... Somehow, the wouldnt understand part was damn familiar.. hehhee.. so.. i just kept my mouth shut and no more comments was heard from me anymore.. coz i know.. if i dun keep quiet and my cousin is in that state.. we might as well not continue our journey and went home.. coz confirm sure got quarrel one.. wahhaha.. so ya.. Put 2 scorpions together... and you get the most horrible battle ever seen... lol!!

The best part was that even my mom was shock when he answered back my uncle.. something that he has never done before... it was somethign like... "Dad.. that's all you can say right?? that i'm stupid.. but do you ever encourage or support me in any way??" That was when my mom realise that he is actually damn stress only that being a guy and like most guys are... they tend not to show any feelings to the world... and my uncle.. haiz.. i dunno why.. but i think ever since sec sch.. i think i've been disrespectful to him as well.. but nvm that...

Its sad lah.. it's just sad... I mean he is not dumb lah.. he is just not within the expectations.. hmmzz... I just hope that i won't be that kinda parent one day.. if i ever become one that is... and now.. let's get back to the things...

Reached newton after a long bus ride all thirsty and stuff... Well.. introduced them to those who were present... and they are.. JENG JENG JENG!! hahaha.... Azi, Mel, Sc and her beloved, Siok Lan and Apri.. well.. my cousins were uncomfortable at first.. to the extent that i kinda felt guilty that i dragged them along.. i mean if they were uncomfortable and not enjoying themselves.. i was my fault for bringing them rite?? well.. anywayz, its over.. wahaha.. and towards the end.. they finally got use to it and i'm glad to announce that they enjoyed themselves.. hehehe...

Then we had ice cream somewhere along raffles... walked to the merlion for i dunno what reason... and than reached home at around 1240 i think.. thank god my mom was not awake... hahhaa.. if not sure kena interrogation session.. and the best part.. my cousins have already set up an excuse scenario.. wahhaha.. the beauty of having cousins that you're close to... they will do anything not to get you into trouble.. :P and i think all the scenarios before worked... coz i never get into trouble when ever they're around and when ever I come home late with them.. hahaha... maybe, it might not be the scenarios, i think my mom just thinks that i need time alone with my cousins.. hehehehe... and now its time tooo sleep....

Saturday, May 01, 2004

Lalalallalalala... here i am wide awake on a saturday noon... wahahaha... Well actually i was practically pushed off the bed by my DARLING mother... grrr... at around 940am saying that everyone is ready and its time to go out and if i'm not ready i'll be left all alone at home with no one and nothing to eat...

Well.. here i am happilly blogging away and its around 1230 already... and NOBODY is ready to go out and i'm the only one all ready to go out.. hahahha... mothers... they do the most interesting thing to wake their children up... wonder where we're going today... heard my mom was mentioning about going to the beach or something..

Well.. since my mom is already planted on the sofa watching TV... there is also an extremely high chance that we won't be going out too.. Grrr... i could have woken up only NOW~~~ Nvm... i shall make good use of this time at my hands and terrorie everyone into going out today... No way am i going to stay at home once i'm all nice and ready to go out... especially when i woke up early because of it... MUAhahhahaa!!!
YAWNZ!! Its 455am and i'm not asleep.. wanna know why?? Too busy playing online games that I didn't realise the time pass so quickly...

My cousins from Malaysia came just now... at around 2am.. they arrived.. and they're asleep.. and here i am still awake... well.. its time to sleep now.. coz got alot of things going on tomorrow.. its either i'm meeting them tmr for dinner or going out with my cousins.. still dunno yet.. lalallaa...

And seeing the situation now... i don't think i'll be getting much sleep coz they'll be awake quite early.. and soon they'll be trying to wake me up in the different means and ways possible some of which you can't even think off.. whahahaa... such creativity.. lol!!! Anywayz, ya... its time to meet my bed for the date that i'm kinda late for.. whahaha