Ruffle my feathers,
and prepare to die.

I'm sorry if your inadequate ability to hear properly limits your level of understanding. However if it inadvertently insults my intelligence level, then save it missy. If i were blatantly showing off my lazy bone to the world, an MC is the lamest piece of crap that I'd use.

Especially when my explaination that you caught and heard right was that I have informed my superior of my whereabouts this morning in advance. If it slips out of his head, then, apologies for any inconvenience caused. There might be a communication breakdown on both our part. If today slipped out of your head, trust me, a repeat of it will definitely have an outcome worst than today.

And yet, you sarcastically replied "how can you foresee in advance that you were going to take MC?" That my dear, was the insult I was referring to. Do you think I was that stupid to have such a cheapass excuse? The least you could do was ask me again where did i say i went. Not assume that you heard it right the first time round.

Assumption. A dangerous thing to do, ain't it? If this happens again, she would receive more than just a death stare that i've learnt and mastered from him.

Now now, Let's see... There is someone else that really need to be taught a lesson. If working here changes a person into the majority I've seen here. Then its really sad. I thought you were more than that. Much much more.

Dont you know what you are? Or suddenly that is the norm now? Especially when you're in the environment, surrounded by all these? Expecting everyone to be nicer, more polite, helpful. And yet, you are turning into the exact same people that you've been complaining to me abt daily. Wow. Then you try to make things fine again by stating that you've had a long week.

Hello? So did i. My grandmother is not getting any better. But do you see negative vibes spilling out of me?

Suddenly, its all about you now isn't it? Careful now. You might just regret that. Curt and polite replies are what you're getting today. But tomorrow? It might not stay the same. I love a variation in my days. Hope you'll be able to like it too.

XOXO
Countess Dee

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Just when I just changed my mind and told myself... to just give this job another chance.

THANKS AZI!
Coz, i read her blog and realise that i'm one of those that she tagged for her 10 random things post.

1. I just got back from tournament in KL over the weekend. How'd i do? I did good actually. I was suppose to bring back a medal... But hey.... there's others superior powers beyond my control. Like how the referee sees things and award the points. I was leading goddamit. BY A WHOLE LOAD OF POINTS. Even though, there was no way the other girl could have won me. I was quite certain of it. I was pissed and disappointed. I WANTED A MEDAL!

2. I've been shopping. ALOT. I blame it on stress and my sudden urge to get more stuff to wear to work. I blame it on a few factors. lol! I've overspend this month and by the beginning of this coming month i'll be broke. LOL! really! I've contributed a whole load to my mom maybank points just within the first mth of receiving the Visa Platinum. She better not confiscate it. lol! I'm gonna be a Debt collector once my credit card bill comes. Ard 300bucks on the card isn't mine. lol! yup yup.

3. I got scolding by various people for going to KL. Reason? They missed me. *faints*

4. The guys were great. They calmed me down alot after the competition. Morgan didn't even dare to come near me the moment i ended my bout. I literally plastered on a smile to show my sportsmanship and shook hands with my opponent when in actual fact I couldn't even smile anymore. I was tooo disappointed. Too pissed and just very down.

5. A year has passed and suddenly things hit home for me. Funny ain't it? Is this how its suppose to be? Not complaining but its funny nevertheless. It hit home at the weirdest of times and place. It still feels as though it just started. Amazing. Really amazing. Is it normal?

6. I went to UAE Embassy just now only to find out that I needed to go to Academy of Law first. So off i went and made my way to City Hall. Braving the humidity and the traffic of that area I finally reached Supreme Court. I was literally melting. The best part, the weather's cloudy! annoying. But I decided to drop by my previous workplace after my ex-colleagues decided to bug and beg me to drop by. lol! So i went up. amazing really. But i refused to go in... due to certain reasons of course. so they were hugging me out there, when Denise stepped out of the lift. And the following conversation took place:

Denise: HEY!
Me: *smiles* Hi!
Denise: Did you pass by Sup Court just now?
Me: Yeah. I was from SAL. Why?
Denise: OH OK! it was you then! I saw someone walking pass and i was thinking to myself that... Oh wow, this girl look like Alicia Keys with the hair and the outfit and all... And now I realised.. It's you!
Me: Ohh.. hahaha.. thanks. *peace sign*

I swear that made my day. lol!

7. Tmr will be a long day. Will be going to SAL after lunch to collect the stuff and run off to MFA to get more things done. Then after that I need to go to Somerset for something. Might reach earlier than my appointment. lol! And then I'll be seeing my dearest darling honey sweetie pumpkin baby pie! OK I think alot of pple will not allow me to forget that entire sentence! LOL! i didn't know i could even put that in the same sentence. lol!!!

8. I'm not gonna be able to watch P.S I LOVE YOU! SO SAD! Nvm... I shall go and buy the DVD and will force pple to come over to my house and watch it with me! =) We shall have a DVD spree k?? heeee...

9. I was nagged at for not loosing enough weight. ANNOYING! So from now onwards, they have decided that I will have to write down every single thing i eat and they will review it every 3 days! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shall think positive thoughts. But seriously! Its hard. It reminds me of school all over again! haiz.

10. I look at my lifestyle and there are times that I get worried that I will not be able to take care of myself in the future. The way I'm living rite now. I'm not some rich spoilt brat. But i've been pampered. That I don't deny. Some of the things I do or own will be considered as extras to others... But its been that way for very long. Its just been my way of life. Deena has a worst problem then i do. LOL! And then I want that degree even more. Argh!

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If i were to have to pick 10 people to do this 10 random point posts.. it'll have to be...

Halimah, Suk Ching, Shahdon, Shikin, Mastura, Mel, Syazana, Huda, Becky and whoever who wanna do it. LOL!

FISH OUT OF WATER

That is currently the state of mind i'm in right now. I've no idea what's going on. Ever felt so incompetent? Well.. WELCOME TO MY WORLD THEN. Ever felt as though someone has made you seem so incompetent? Then, I'm welcoming you once again to my world.

Here look, I've rolled out the red carpet, photographers of magazines are invited, limousines to send you and pple around to witness your arrival. How grand... How warm...

Suddenly, you realise what you've been doing have been your work constantly and well... not well informed of alot of things. And right now, its all you can do to survive on a daily basis. Its like as though you've just started all over again. But only difference is that, you didnt and pple have expected more out of it.

I'm like a fish out of water and I'm trying very hard to survive. Harder than usual. Not in a very good state of mind and i'm looking for an outlet.

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Really on verge of screaming and tears
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Shredding into bits & pieces

Rite now, I just feel like strangling someone, biting something or rather someone and just like abusing something... i'm serious...

I feel like screaming also.

I knew it was coming. I swear. I'm serious! This is annoying! I feel like killing things.

SIAK AH! I'm currently so geram rite now. Dah pergi jauh jauh pun lagi menyusahkan aku sak! GERAMMM NYERR!!!!!!! Babi ahhhhh...

I have fencing later. How perfect rite? Someone's gonna get beaten up bad by me. Go figure.

I just need to call someone later.. but rite now, i cant even complain... my batt's flat. YAYNESS!

Surprises...

Met Mel on Saturday... Have already told him about Saturday since 2 months ago if i'm not mistaken and told him to make himself free... He, on the other hand, have no idea what's happening.

It was a belated birthday celebration for him since i did not get to see him during his birthday... and didn't expect to see him during that period.. but i did... BUT, i already planned for saturday so i literally ignored the fact that i've not given him his birthday present. lol!

It was fun planning it.... but efficiency plays a huge role in all of it... including your friends.

Planning something like that while you're working, i swear is not the easiest thing around. I was so worried that I will not complete some stuff in time lor..

PARANOID i tell you. lol!

But it was fun. No doubt. And to tell you the truth, very memorable... lol! The process and the day itself. Well at least for me, i know it was... =)

There are just some things that I still amaze myself with. Seriously. I'm not exactly the most romantic human being around... Well, at least you know, not in this department... hehehhe... But I've found joy in pampering him... lol!

I'm really grateful that he still went through some of the things I planned... Especially that one particular thing. I felt so guilty throughout that... I wouldnt have mind if he said no before entering it. I'm still glad I get to go on it with him... It was priceless.

I just hope he did enjoy the whole day... =)

I was literally grinning from ear to ear the whole day.. WAHAHHAHA! I think he must have believed that his girlfriend was a chesire cat in her previous life. lol!

Gave him his birthday present. I tell you... His first reaction... My paranoia just disappeared and evaporated into thin air. lol!

Thank god! But he told me he's not gonna use it... Tooo precious he says...

(-,-)"... I got no comments lor. If everything I give so precious, then how like that? *faints*

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We're like kids all over again. Smiles. Laughter. Running around. Teasing.

Showed him a part of my world.

I love you... Mel.
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Took it off Isya's Blog.
I was too curious to see my ans.

Where did you meet?
In school. So cliche. lol!

When did you meet?
First day of poly. He was my classmate!

Was it love at first sight?
hmmm.. not exactly love at first sight.. there was some attraction. lol!

how old were you both?
I was 16 and him, 17. He's older than me by 8mths!

Where was your first date?
The Cathay.

We went out only after like a week after we got together? He was busy with camp and had a test to sit for that Saturday. Yup yup.

Our first date was Pan's Labyrinth.. Wahahaha.. the entire thing was awkwardly sweet. :)

How long until you met the parents?
Well.. i've met his parents before when we were in school and all.

When was it official?
7th January 2007... After 3 years of friendship.. *smiles*

THE GOOD

Whats the sweetest thing he has ever done for you?
Too many things.. From when we were friends to now... One thing that never fails to make me smile is how he always try to make me smile or rather the attempts... No matter how bad my mood has been, no matter how sucky the day has been, no matter how i'm on the verge of tears and no matter how bad his day has been...

Does he buy you lots of gifts?
Not exactly... I wish he would tho! lol!! then i can wear or see it everyday... lol!

Whats your favorite thing to do together?
Annoy the shit out of each other, shop and annoy each other in the process as well, we go to the arcade! lol! and just spend time with the other.

When did you know you were falling in love?
hahahahaha... It was a gradual thing.. I don't know when exactly and i don't know whether i should state it here.. this is so embarassing. lol!

I knew when I already fell when some thing happened during our friendship, some may know this, some may not... its when you're not talking to each other and you try so hard to ignore the other but he is the one thing on your mind. You saw him sad, you saw him alone and yet you know you cannot and shouldnt be the one comforting him esp when another party is doubting your friendship... You wish against all odds to give him a hug, to talk like before and just to see that smile... And yet, you know you should just be the one looking from a far and taking his lead. And that was when i knew i've fallen i guess, when it hurts so much to see the one person you care about like that just an arm's length away and all you could do is just look and pretend that it doesnt bother you.

Who said I love you first?
Him. =)

THE BAD

Whats his worst habit?
His death stare, when in actual fact he just woke up from sleep...

What annoys you about him?
errrr... let me think.. oh yes! when he doesnt reply my smses!!! Or when he doesnt get the hint that I want some attention here... helooooo?? Wahahhaha...

Has he ever hurt you badly?
erm... not that i can recall.

Would he ever cheat?
Nope.. I dont think so.

Do you trust him?
yup.

DEEP & MEANINGFUL

Could you be without him?
I doubt it...

Do you think about him constantly when your apart?
yea.

How long have you been together?
Relationship-wise: going into our 14mths

Can you see a future together?
with God's will

Would you like to get married?
To him? of course. :P

Where can you see your relationship in a years time?
together... Amen.

5 years time?
let's see.. in 5yrs time i'll be on my way to turning 27.. *screams* OLD! anywayz, thats not the point. i shouldn't digress. Still together, i hope. =)

Do you know there is definatly no-one better out there for you?
I've been picky and extremely choosy in my life so far... And i've picked him... so go figure!

Is he your best friend as well as your lover?
What can i say? I have the best of both worlds! =)

Does he come first over everyone else in your life?
he holds an importance in my life, that's for sure.

Would you die for him?
Depends on the situation...

ON A LIGHTER NOTE

Whats the funniest thing you have ever done together?
Do i really have to state? lol! hmmmm let me recall the most recent funniest thing... oh! Last Friday! I wont state what we did tho but he did find it amusing tho.. *rolls eyes*

Say something that only you two understand...
hahaha.. who doesn't? lol! Sometimes, don't need to say anything also... WAHAHAHHA! we are telepathic... can volunteer ourselves in those war as message messengers. lol!

Does he make you laugh?
yup yup.

Is he tickelish?
MUAHAHAHA.. *wiggles eyebrow*

Are you?
I shall not reveal my secret here! LOL! =P

HAVE YOU EVER?

Spent the night together?
hmmm.. only if you refer to our after work outings that goes late into the night...

Celebrated a holiday together?
Hopefully, one coming up soon?

Met his parents?
nope.

Made him cry?
erm.... Maybe?

Done anything spontaneous together?
yes.

Is this love?
Yes, Definitely.

Fun, Hot & Sinful...


It was one unforgettable friday. It was definitely addictive. I had tons of fun. Did things I never thought i'd do... Definitely not in front of him. Spoil reputation yo. Some of my friends would have expected it out of me. but still!!! lol!!

The company was *winks* awesome. The music was good. I love our moments.

I don't dance in front of certain pple for well.. obvious reasons. But I cannot just behave myself when R&B and hip hop is in the house! lol! That's something I've been listening to for the past 10 years of my life! Lol..

Hmmm but still, i think i do still surprise myself. lol!

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A smile was unconsciously carved. Rosy pink coloured her cheeks. Her mind wondered off to a recent memory as a kiss still lingers on her mind...
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Saturday came and I met up with my Sec sch classmates. yup yup. We talked. They updated. Some had many blonde moments. I became a target for a certain topic. lol! Not that I mind, I just find it odd! seriously.

Social Standing. One that I've forgotten everytime i'm away from them and later on gets reminded of everytime I see them. It is a way of life. They constantly remind me how I was like that. It is still my way of life. But it is not as extreme as what it used to be. Circumstances.

We talked about brands. About bags. About watches. They talked about others and me and her listened politely. We came mainly to see each other. We made a promise that we wont only see each other every class gathering. It's really sad if that happens.

We excused ourselves and headed off for dinner after she cancelled on her Uni friends. We miss each other terribly even though we no longer say it anymore. She's the one person who knows of my extent of mischief without me having to tell her anything... Coz, i have always been the somewhat reckless one, the hot-headed one and the risk taker. *rolls eyes* And I know her fears without her having to explain further.

We both have beliefs and strong opinions of certain things and never once did she ever question my decision. With her, I know I could say anything and we will still respect each other.

Even though there was one thing that she nearly knocked my head for.

LOW FAT MILK? SERIOUSLY LOR SIN NI!!! WHERE THEY GOT SELL LOW FAT MILK!?

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She was brought up to appreciate the finer things in life. She was brought up to know the difference. She was brought up to live like that. They made sure of that. Seeing them, reminded her of alot of things. Its is their way of life. It is hers as well isn't it?
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Sit & Reflect, and Bitching appears.

Met the Senoritas the other day. Had dinner. Sat by the sea and talked. Its been a long time since the 3 of us actually met up like that.

Hid's a teacher now. She's going into NIE and well, she's teaching at a Seconday School. Art. Deena's doing her degree. And Me? Well.. ermmm... I am still there.

Haiz.

Talked about alot of things and here I thought January only sucked for me. Then I found out January sucked for them as well. Maybe 2008 didn't really start well for most of us. Its like a residual spill over of the previous year.

I hope they're doing fine. I hope they will be able to cope with anything that comes their way. They're great people. Loyal, Nice, Kind, Sweet, Caring, Loving, Understanding and have I mentioned.. Loyal? LOL!

Sometimes, people just don't realise the things they have. People tend to take others for granted. Especially their girlfriends lor! Eh girls, forgive me if the next time you see your boyfriends, they're missing a finger or something. lol!!!

Anywayz, I'm going out today!!! Meeting him!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally!! *hops about* stupid stupid camp. I haven't seen him for ermm... close to 3 weeks!!!!

ANYWAYZ, i think the following pics are funny! lol! I was giggling when i saw the Dugong and the Shark one! lol!!!

SNAIL PACE

Even the snail is moving faster than how the day is passing by. This is driving me crazy. Why can't it speed up? I'm like so tired and sleepy and I'm aching all over the place. I need a neck massage! I'm serious! *looks ard for volunteers*

Sidetrack: I think I look really good today. lol! The clothes, the hair... Very Safari Ranger look. lol! Only that I'm just very sleepy.

Approximately an hour to my freedom today! haiz. AN HOUR! GET ME OUT OF HERE! I WANNA LIE DOWN!

aiyah, not say i'll be going home straight also. I'll be meeting the Senoritas today. FULL SENORITAS. Hidayah is coming today. Singapore should annouce today as public holiday. It is a historical event please. *rolls eyes*

I am currently filling a form that I never thought I'd ever fill.

I'm currently counting down to 6pm. There's 45 more mins.

I'm currently looking for inspiration for a particular saturday. Everything is in order so far. Bookings made. Items bought. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!! Left a few more things to do! lol!

I am good at multi tasking.

And here's a birthday shoutout on my blog:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELVYN ALEXANDER LEE!!


Take care and ENJOY! Before you know it, you'll be 23. khekhekhekhekhe...
See you on Friday love! *hugs and kisses*

I have a class gathering on Saturday at Selegie. Where the fark is Selegie?! haiz. They are so gonna scream when they see me! CONFIRM LO! What shall i wear?! khekhekhekhe~~

I am not training this Friday! I AM GOING OUT! Period. And coach is enjoying being sarcastic to me. "Why cannot make it on Friday? Go pak tor issit?"

Ya la! THEN? haiyo.

And just as it has reached 20mins to knock off... someone have to decide that something was wrong.

Durga Durga~~ WHYYYYYY??? why does it always happen to me?!

We're Soaring, Flyin,
There's Not A Star In Heaven,
That We Can't Reach

Everytime I watch High School Musical, a guy like Troy Bolton never fail to make me smile.

He's cute, he's sweet, awkwardly romantic, he sings!... I LIKE!

I also want someone like that... Awakwardly romantic is always good... captures the heart no? macam makes you go... awwww, he's so sweet.

Wahahahha..

I know i know.. kids show! But hey i love Zac Efron pls! LOL! The boyish look.. *drools*

Nobody can deny that Zac Efron is cute la! And he's only a year younger than me!!! lol! he's birthday also in the same month as me!

You think got chance or not? *wiggles eyebrows* heehehe... omg. i have to stop being so gatal pls!

But he's really cute la... cannot help it! I wanna fly to Hollywood and "accidentally" bump into him.

You know the world can see us
In a way that's different than who we are...

High on Limeade

So I didn't have any plans yesterday. My cousin is back and to avoid the lovey dovey atmosphere, we refrain from going to ice cream parlours, restaurants, movies and whatnots. I mean confirm couples are smooching everywhere rite?

To avoid getting affected by the surroundings. We ended up somewhere unexpected.

Hahaha.. I wont mention where here.. coz, i know someone will kill me. In particular, deena, for going without her.

Music was good. Atmosphere was ok... Crowd wasn't so happening but it was ok la.. hehehehe... The carpark was.. fuyooo. the cars was orgasmic. lol!

We hopped from place to place... yesterday wasn't too happening... Coz, it was a thursday... So it was like.. bleargh at the other places... We left early coz the group was tired... quite disappointed though.. just as the music was getting there. ARGH!

Will be going there again on other days to check out the music. =)

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Talked about some stuff. Told her off. Yest's conversation better get in her head or we would be going in circles everytime such things happen again.

If an attraction occurs, things will be done to grab your attention. It is your decision to decide where and when to place the full stop. It takes 2 to clap. Don't tell me things like I didn't do anything. That's pure bullshit. Especially in the circumstances we were referring to.

I'm not putting him down. I'm not saying its wrong. At this rate, it will be a matter of time before some other mess crops up. Worst than this, and I wouldn't be surprised if I actually do have to be there when that happens. No matter how I tell you that I'm not going to answer your call.

At the end of the day, we're girls.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Have fun all! I hope you guys have a great day today! Enjoy!

What will I be doing this yr? Same as last yr... I'll be meeting my cousin.

I tell you the day my cousin gets attached, will be the most omg day... other than the fact that i will be extremely happy for her... I won't have anyone to meet for Vday already! *grumbles*So yeah.

Its been a long long long long long half day so far... Gosh! Alot of things went wrong from the moment I woke up this morning. It started with me waking up late. Later than usual! and then, I couldn't find the clothes that I wanted to wear. talk about bad luck!

Well, at least this year, i didn't witness anyone getting fired in front of me... Last year was... WHOA! talk about hiding behind my cubicle. lol!

I think seeing pple get flowers here today is more sweeter since there's so few female colleagues here. lol! I JEALOUS~~~!!!

Nothing of that sort will happen la, other than the fact that I'm so busy today! I was ready to force people to eat worms and vomit blood.

By lunch, i'm having a splitting headache.

Now, I'm just taking a break from high speed typing and searching for documents, coz I think I've flooded alot of people's emails and they have yet to reply. MUAHAHAHAH!!

I seriously hope that the day will miraculously and gradually be much much much better.

WILL WONDERS EVER CEASE?

I was on a road trip this long weekend. TIRING but nevertheless, FUN.

I met Lili on the eve of CNY. I know I know, that in itself is a shocker to everyone! lol!!! don't believe me?? i have proof! lol!!

Yes. I went out with the one person that i've never hung out in my entire life and only talk to each other when we need to i.e. group projects.

And yes, i wore overalls to work. That, btw, wasn't a fashion disaster moment. LOL! if it was, i would never have agreed to go out also. LOL!

I still can't get over the fact that I met her on Wednesday. Not only her, her bf as well.

WILL WONDERS EVER CEASE?

I went on an unplanned road trip. Singapore - Melaka, Melaka - KL, KL - Melaka, Melaka - Singapore. All in a span of 2days plus.

I need to get my driving license soon!! At this rate, i will just die of curiosity to know what it feels like to speed along the Malaysian highway. LOL!!!

WILL WONDERS EVER CEASE?

Went to a water theme park. I swear we're all waterbugs. Cannot see pools of water and cannot see rides! lol!

I was having fever btw. and yet we're all screaming and running around...Spoiling our reputation... but I don't think my reputation was all that spoilt. *winks*

By the end of the day, I recovered from my sore throat... lol!

WILL WONDERS EVER CEASE?

Fell even more sick the moment i reached Singapore and went on MC on Monday on top of the already long weekend.

WILL WONDERS EVER CEASE?

I changed my hairstyle. I'm famous for this no? LOL! I'm not uploading any pic as of now... All pics with new hairstyle will be uploaded this coming weekend so as not to spoil any surprises or even later than that! lol. i don't want pple too see me with new hairstyle and die of shock. LOL!

WILL WONDERS EVER CEASE?

And he is in camp this thursday due to some airshow. And I most probably might not get to see him till end of the month. haix!! Which means... i most probably might not be seeing him for the whole month! Argh!

WILL WONDERS EVER CEASE?

I'll be back soon.

Real Soon... but I guess no one noticed my absence. My phone have been silent for the longest period. heee...

The sun was so bright today! The drive was long! The food was gooooddd!! :)

I miss people already.
Do they miss me?

As The Stars Sparkles...

Unplanned. Away from the bustling city sounds into the tranquility of the night. She yearns for something more and yet... She knows she cannot push it. At least, that's what she thinks.

Laughter filled the air. Everyone was eating, laughing and chatting about anything and everything. They laughed. She laughed. Cameras flashing. Smiles.

She looked directly opposite her and she observed. She smiled. How cute, she thought. How sweet. As he stares at her, so loving. As he whispers to her, so kind.

The mind wonders off. The hand unconsciously caress the smooth metallic gadget. The heart misses a familiar voice. A smile carved for a distant memory.

Her nose, constantly exercising. Her head, spinning. Her eyes, dazed. Her mind clouded with voices and events... After awhile, she grew silent no longer bothering to match a face to the voice.

She lay her head on the pillow and was transported into the other realm... She let out a sigh.

With a smile carved on her lips, she fell into an undisturbed slumber.

Deena!! FAMILIAR OR NOT THE SHADES? WAAHAHAHAHHAH!!!

This, ladies and gents, is one of the most gorgeous shades that i've laid my eyes and have tried it on when I was at Bvlgari boutique yesterday. Why was I at Bvlgari boutique? Well, I wanted to buy something.

BUT ANYWAYZ,

Nice rite the shades? khekhekhekhe... Wanna know how much it cost?

SGD1,180.00

yup yup. No, i have yet to get the shades in my bag! *wriggles eyebrows*

And deena, I found out somewhere else is selling it at a cheaper price please.... *chesire cat smile* ok ok.. not much cheaper... but definitely cheaper!! =P

And Numbness took over...

They met in a desperate attempt to update each other. Yet, at the back of her mind she knows. She should be home. He was there, She was there and she, was and still is sick.

She was going to be in trouble with him the next time she meets him.

It seems as though she never bothered. It seems as though she never cared. She knew better than that. Even though others think otherwise.

She has never managed to show her care in the right way. She has never managed to vocalise her concerns. She has never knew how to reach out.

So she stayed away.

She stared in silence at the scenes unfolding before her eyes. She asked what she needed to know and nothing more. She voiced out her concerns only to her. She knew that it will be the best way to deal with things. If anything else happens, it is she, who will be emotionally detached enough to resume the role and responsibility in a desperate situation.

No wonder they always commented that she can never feel. No wonder they always commented that her heart was cold.

But she knew better.

TWINS GALORE~!!

We went to see Tutz the other day... I think i did blogged about it. LOL! yup yup. One half of my godsons! He is also currently the wallpaper on my phone! WAHAHAHAH~~

There you have it! Aniq with his mummy and godmothers! =) Adrian wasn't with us coz he had to go through some check up... Nvm nvm... i'll get my hands on Adrian soon! MUAHAHAHAHA!!

Its been a really really long time since I last hold a newborn. I am so scared lor! Its like so fragile and so small and undoubtedly cute! heeee... I have a very sick image of me accidentally detaching the head from the body. Yup yup.

My imagination is one of a kind. lol!

I really do wish that I could steal it! It obviously will fit in my bag... haiz!

And the picture below happens to be my favourite photo of Aniq and me... I wonder why. LOL~!

RANDOM RANTS

I finally got a new laptop on Friday. Now, I don't have to squint anymore! LOL! Especially if I am in a rush. muahahhahaa... Its a definite change. I mean I do like my previous lappie, apart from the fact that its light, white and small.... the small-ness was getting to me. lol! I was having problems with the height.

My friends have been quiet the past few days. I wonder if they're all ok. :P

I wonder what Deena has been up to... she hasn't called or msged for the past 4 days... And that is ODD in our dictionary... Since she proudly calls herself my other half. In other words, my girlfriend when the boyfriends are not around.

Talk about making use of me sia. LOL!

My Cousin has MIA-ed again. She's back in Thailand...

BUT

EVERYONE'S SO QUIET!

Maybe its the chinese new year buzz or something. Everyone's going on last minute shopping sprees?

I met Azi on Thursday. I MISSED MY AZAI!! We must go have float somemore! Ok I just made azi sound like a pet.... but anywayz.. azai darling, we didnt take pics!!!

I wonder what Hally's been up to.

Suk Ching's been rather quiet as well!

Not to mention, Hidayah. She should be featured on the next episode of missing. And hidz, if you're reading this, i'm not being sarcastic. I'm stating facts. ha.

The only people who have been messaging me is my sec sch clique... coz we're meeting up soon. Hahahaha... i miss them also leh.. haix.

Haiyo... Everytime when i think back on things ah... I wonder why dont things stay the same...

Oh and i wanna see my godsons & daughter again!!!!!!!! Aali'ah, Adrian & Aniq~~

Why do i have a strange feeling that I'm gonna pamper them so much? kwang kwang kwang... tutz should get worried. lol! especially when you have godparents such as me and deena. khekhekhekhe... I think ah, like this, i dont have kids also nvm... LOL!! *grins*

Before I forget-

I've spent time with my cousin already... but oh well..

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY GURL~~!!

and also for Hally the Merlimah..

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY HALLY~!!

everyone's slowly turning 22. this is super scary.

I need to get some things done. I cannot hold it anymore i think.

I went shopping on saturday! Got some clothes and shoes... hehehehe... I need to get some other things as well.

I CANT WAIT FOR JULY! khekhekhekhekehe... I should end this entry. Its been too long. *winks*

When things are well, I'll take my leave then.

1 - 0.54209743 = 0.45790257

I've found my problem here.

Everyone's so calculative. It actually gets on your nerves.

No wonder i'm irritated half the time.