Monday, March 28, 2005

To you:

My dear friend.

You know how much i hate seeing you like this?

Yes, even though we seldom meet, we keep in touch with each other enough. You tell me about you, and vice versa - well, maybe you dont hear that much about me. But who cares?

8years worth of friendship have passed... Time and time again, i've told you dont compare us. Both of us = totally different. Me and you is as though, day & night, black & white, sun & moon, shoes & slippers.. OH well.. i'm sure you know what i'm trying to say... Each of us is unique in our own way. Don't think of yourself any less just because you think that you lack certain things.

You dont have to constantly reassure me that i mean alot to you... Friends don't need assurance on that... All that they wanna know is whether or not life's good for you? Basically, whether or not you're still alive. NOT whether or not i'm still your best friend, or some shit like i need to know where i stand in your ladder of friendships.

Friends naturally care. That's the reason why they're friends to begin with. The care regardless as to whether or not they're still your best friend or not. They care without you knowing. They just care. They may quarrel, pass sarcastic remarks, but they still do care.

Well, if you've met pple who's main priority is to know that & that's the reason you do that to me as well. Well, i understand. But, i'm disappointed. After 8 years, you still don't know any better?

I know you just wanna tell me that you appreciate this friendship, but sometimes, the time is just wrong.

Why do you keep on telling me that you're a failure?

Failure as stated in the dictionary is:

" (1)The condition or fact of not achieving the desired end or ends: the failure of an experiment.
(2)One that fails: a failure at one's career.
(3)The condition or fact of being insufficient or falling short: a crop failure.
(4)A cessation of proper functioning or performance: a power failure.
(5)Nonperformance of what is requested or expected; omission: failure to report a change of address.
(6)The act or fact of failing to pass a course, test, or assignment.
(7)A decline in strength or effectiveness.
(8)The act or fact of becoming bankrupt or insolvent. "


But, truthfully, can anyone really measure failure? Can anyone actually give me an exact measurement as to what equates to being a failure?

Is it due to the fact that you can't live up to your own expectations? Is it because you think that you've let everybody down? Is it because that you think that you're weak? Is it because you can't be like everybody else around you?

So, what makes you a failure? Sometimes, we're schooled like this since young to think that if we can't reach a certain goal, we're a failure. If we're doing badly and everyone else is doing well, you're a failure.

But have you realise that we are at a stage in life where you can't actually label yourself that. People who do badly now, have let lots of people down, can actually be a success when they're old? can actually be greatly admired later on in life?

You're constantly heartbroken... Don't ever blame yourself. Blaming yourself makes you regret lots of things... and regretting is definitely not for that department or whatever situation you are in now.

"Love mirrored in your soul, amour. God's gift to life's design, romance."

Beautiful ain't it?

My dear friend, to love, is not to regret. Tell me which love won't end with heartbreaks? Only when it hurts so much when it ends... then and only then you know that you have loved.

Don't put all the blame on youself. Don't say that its due to your stupidity. Coz, sometimes you think that your actions are right even if its wrong. Love is blind they say. Perhaps.

Dear friend, you're stronger than this. I know that and you know it as well.
Don't fret over this for long. Just keep on going. You know if you've done a mistake, don't keep on brooding over it. Learn from it. Stand up, and move on. There's nothing you can do to continue dwelling in the past. Nothing's left back there.

Just remember, people are there when you need support... Turn to Him if you need guidance, and you will not lose your way.

Love,
Dee Dee

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