BLURP BLURP

I have added a new dish to my ramadhan menu. Fish and Chips. Terrible rite? How to lose weight like that. OH WOES BE ME.

I shall make it tomorrow. YUM YUM. I HOPE IT TURNS OUT NICE THO! hahahaha~!!!

what shall i eat tonight.. hmmmm...

I'm in uni now. Yes I finally attended my PEACE AND WAR tutorial for the very first time this semester. it was an interesting experience i would say especially with majority of my classmates being law students.. *rolls eyes*

There's something about law students, as i have noticed from poly as well as now, that they tend to behave as if they own the world and that their opinions are the only thing that matter and everyone else is wrong. I've always hated that about the law student. Its an attitude that exist even before they know what is really in store for them. -.-"

Oh and they really think they're the smartest around. i'm like seriously?! Its really rare to find lawyers that are likeable. More often than not, we find those that we just wanna slap them and tell them.. hello? we do not owe you a living. -.-" And then you wonder why you're not well-liked rite? terrible people.

I hope i wasn't like that. And i hope when i finally do that law degree i'm not like that. I think I won't be.. and as usual, i'll stick out like a sore thumb. bleargh~ Oh well, when have i ever managed to blend in anyways rite? LOL!

that's all from me now folks.. i'll update more when i feel bored!

TOOODLESS~!!

A WEEK HAVE GONE BY

Since everyone's blogging about their breaking fast menu, i'm jealous. So i shall join the norm of the homosapien societys and blog about my breaking fast menu.

Its been a week and 1 day since I fasted.. Ok maybe just a week since yesterday i realised i wasn't dreaming. but i really woke up to take my flu medication. Coz when i finally woke up at night.. i found the foils scattered on my table.. so yeah! *POUTS*

Got a scolding/nagging from mommy dearest this afternoon coz she found out i was sick again. HMPH! and i'm out of prescripted medication. BLEARGH.

BUT ANYWAYS,

moving on to other topics.

I had driving this morning and today's lesson was: PARKING. me: -.-"

Ever since a certain night drive to Port Adelaide, i've hated the thought of parking. but then again if i were to have my own car.. i will have to put my car somewhere and not in the middle of the road rite? so i will have to learn to love parking a car. tsk.

I have planned out my breaking fast menu for this week.. sort of planned.

First on the list: WONTON NOODLE!

i'm craving for something soupy! so today i've eaten alittle bit of my wontons!! so happy! i still have a tupperware full of meat still naked. will recook it again either tomorrow or sunday...

I even have dessert today! Saw that my housemate bought cake and i thought to myself; WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME THAT I ATE CAKE?

And i can't remember. so coz of that, i concluded that it must have been a really long therefore i would like to have some cake... heh heh

Its a Chocolate Mudcake I bought at Central Market just now. So now, i'm left with half a cake that i am going to keep for either tomorrow or later. See how.

2. AYAM MASAK MERAH AND TOMATO RICE

The reason for this is coz I kept on thinking of tomato rice the past few days. Hopefully i know how to make it. Half the time with me is that... I dont have the recipe for things, i remember the previous taste of the thing I had and imagined how it was cooked and then, i cook it to mine or someone's unfortunate luck.

The reason for the ayam masak merah is also coz i told Mr. Zainal (a.k.a daddy) that I could cook and i am able to cook the abovementioned better than his brother (brother being the unbeatable cook in the paternal family).

Yeah, i know. Ego and Pride is also another huge trait of that family. So yeah, I've landed myself in that situation where daddy would wanna taste the food when i'm back end of the yr so i have to practice to prove him wrong.

3. CHICKEN CHOP AND MASHED POTATOES.

It just that i'm craving for mashed potatoes. So i was thinking it will be abit sad for me to boil potatoes and make mashed potatoes and just it that like that during break fast without anything else. So it got me thinking and coming to a conclusion that chicken chop will be the best thing to pair it with for a complete main course! =)

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so that's all for now, but in the midst of my laziness, i've actually gotten all the ingredients for the stuff. except the chicken for the chicken chop. i cant remember what kind am i suppose to buy.. hmmm *ponders*

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Friend is leaving tomorrow morning and asked me to hang out tonight. And as you all know i'm somewhat unwell. but you know. The last time i saw him was 4years ago. hmmm. I also dunno. hmmmmmmmm. *scratch head*

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I'm currently doing tutorial while sipping on my lukewarm lime juice... yum yum! =D

Random Update

Its been 2 weeks i think since i last posted something here...

I'm not really sure what is there to write about.. i'm tired most of these days... I think its coz my asthma comes and goes.. bleargh. I havent exactly been going to uni...

I know this is kinda of overdue and approximately a week belated.. BUT

SALAM RAMADHAN TO ALL THE MUSLIM READERS OUT THERE

AND SELAMAT BERPUASA MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY BACK HOME!!

I'm checking out flight tickets for Beijing... kinda driving me crazy as well! hmph!

Anyways, i think i'm stressed out about something but i'm not really sure what exactly it is. but i have a really huge urge to spend you know.. even tho i know its really unhealthy and i think thats the reason why i've been cooping myself at home. To reduce the temptation.

I buka out yesterday at a new asian restaurant in the city. I shall remind people not to go there if they wanna go there. its like.. really not worth it la. the food was bad.

I'm craving for mashed potato but i'm really lazy to make them rite now... its like.. so leceh la i wanna go bother myself and make the mash potato. boil potato, put this, put that.. hmmm.. but then again, since i'm craving i might just go and make it.. maybe thursday or friday sounds like a good time to make it.. =)

i havent been cooking much this year also.. i'm not really sure why.. but i think its coz i'm quite uncomfortable in this kitchen. small is one thing, unclean and messy is another.. bleargh.

i'm so thirsty now.. but i cant drink anymore. argh.

i have lecture at 10, i should go sleep now.. but i cant. =(

23.5 hours down and 26.5 hours to go!

That's the hours of driving i need before getting my license. OOOOOOO. I can feel it coming! NEAR!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

so i can't help it. but i'm staring at cars now. HEH HEH.

I'm looking at the Volkswagon Beetle, Puegeot 206, Toyota Celica, Holden Astra and Mazda 3. But rite now, rite at the top of my list is the Toyota Celica.

I'm not usually a fan of black cars coz i think they remind me of mafias. But i think that only applies to sedans.

One of the criteria tho is that it has to be a 4-seater.

Happily only i go in search of cars. Sekali tak dapat. SERVE ME RIGHT!

Choice 1: This is a modified 1997 Toyota Celica. Its been well used and the mileage is on the high side b(appr. 193k kms). Its on a negotiable price. 10k. But I have no idea why i still find it attractive.. the car i mean.

Choice 2: 2000 Toyota Celica. Now, this one is almost new. A really low mileage but of course the price is on the high side coz of that. its a whopping 17,880. But the mileage is 28111kms. I hope the price is still negotiable... So yeah. I'm not really sure how i feel with a white car..

Choice 3: 1999 Toyota Celica. The only problem as of now? Its Manual and i'm learning Auto... Its similar looking to the 2000 series but somewhat different.. LOL! Mileage: 138000. Price: 12k

Choice 4: 1997 Toyota Celica. Mileage: 172, 747. Price: 8.5K. Transmission: Manual

Choice 5: 2003 Peugeot 206. I think this car is pretty. LOL! Mileage: 60,000. Price: 15k

Choice 6: 1996 Mitsubishi FTO. I've actually never thought of Mitsubishi before... hmmm maybe i should take a look at it too... Mileage:108,000. Price:8,499. Transmission: Manual.

Choice 7: 1998 Hyundai Coupe RD FX. I have always like the hyundai coupe from back home.. so i dunno eh.. hmmm.. Mileage: 145000 Price: 7,999. Transmission: Automatic

Choice 8: 1999 Alfa Romeo GTV Twin Spark. Mileage:120,000. Price: 9250. Transmission: Manual. Hmm not bad hor i think... but. i think the back seat like big enough to put my bags and school books only instead of human beings.

Choice 9: 1997 Mitsubishi FTO GPX. Mileage: 67,000. Price: 9,500. Transmission: Automatic.

Choice 10: 2000 Toyota Celica. Mileage: 150,000. Price: 12k. Transmission: Manual.

Choice 11: 2000 Volkswagon Beetle. Mileage: 93,190. Price: 12,380. Transmission: Manual.

I know this is superficial but i think only beetle can pull off funky colours! so i love! LOL!

Choice 12: 2003 Peugeot 206 T1 MY02.5 CC. Mileage: 53,000. Price: 13,600. Transmission: Manual. COLOUR: LIME GREEN! *grins widely*

Choice 13: 2000 Toyota Celica. Price: 13,950. Mileage: 117,600. Transmission: Manual

Choice 14: 2004 Mazda 3 BK Series 1 MAXX Sport. Price: 13,777. Mileage: 113,925. Transmission: Manual

Choice 15: Holden Astra. I am not a big fan of the Holden Astra.. so i'll just show you how it looks like coz i haven't exactly look for it the way i have with the others...

I think thats all i wanna blog about in this entry.. KHEKHEKHEKHEKEHEKH

so i'll leave with this.

Randomization V5.0

My nails are long... not sure if i should cut them or just leave and experiment for the time being.

Leaking. yes. its the time of the month.

Stiff. happens everytime i've recovered from asthma. my back aches i'm not sure if its cramping up.

Guilt. I'm not really sure why I feel guilty. Guilt-ridden. had trouble sleeping this morning coz of that. slept only at 9 i think.

Spot. cant seem to find the right spot on the bed to hibernate. Odd. First time in months.

School. YAY. SCHOOL REOPENS TMR! I am excited. i vow not to miss any classes and go for lectures. i somehow think that the vow will be shortlived.

Cold. The temperature is playing with my mind and the wind is chilling my bones. lol!

Ramadhan. Its around the corner again. a really small corner. Second Ramadhan away, im getting used to it.

Whats the most fatal four letter word? LOVE.

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Lust

Remember how i constantly lust over the Bvlgari Rings? The Unique B. Zero1 ranges which was originally in either gold, white gold or platinum.

Well, this is one. It was in white now it has arrived in black.

This year's B.Zero1 has arrived and its in black ceramic.

18kt pink gold with black ceramic? Its a definite eye candy for ladies or gents me thinks... =P

But nothing will win the hearts of the ladies with the white ceramic. But then again, it really depends on what you wanna project don't you? Image is afterall your aura. =)

Wonderous world

the picture is taken with my motorola dext. i will post up the other pics from the same outing taken from this phone.. i've decided to explore the settings on the phone and it hasn't disappoint thus far.

it was a breathtaking sight indeed. mount lofty, 4th july 2010.

to see the world in a grain of sand
and heaven in a wildflower.
to hold the universe in the palm of your hand
and heaven in an hour..

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GASTRONOMOUS ADVENTURES

tonight's dinner.. lol! its times like this i appreciate the guy's existence especially when i haven't been cooking and have not gone groceries shopping.. lol!

high protein dinner always highly appreciated. I love meat more than rice anyways.. hee. im gonna stay contented the whole night..

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When seasons change and school's out...

My exams are done and i'm officially on hols now.. WINTER BREAK! the temperature's alittle more constant now.. but the rain... oh god the rain.. someone save me!! lol. the wind is deathly when it blowing.. its chilling to the bones..

what will I be up to this term break? hmmm

hopefully i'll be able to go to the zoo... LIKE FINALLY!!

will I be traveling interstate? not sure... but as of rite now, I have no plans for it... yet. =D everytime I think of interstate adventures, can't help but reminisce 2009. the most random occurrence ever. wonder when that'll happen again.. heeeee.. I love my girls. that's for sure..

for now, I'll just have to see what this break have in store for me.. =)

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stupid stupid sun.

its so bright!!! i cant even sleep anymore. or maybe i've slept that deeply that i promptly woke up at 1030 plus plus. but the thing is.. i wanna sleep somemore! Or at least i think i wanna sleep somemore. I'm at mel's place. why? i clubbed yesterday. I couldn't take anymore of South Africa Apartheid.

2 more papers next week..

Hmmm..

how was my public policy exam? I wouldn't say that i did badly.. but i'm not sure if i did well. if i manage to maintain my credit for that subject i'll be pleasantly surprised/happy/insert positive descriptive word. If I got an overall D for the subject, I will laugh so hard for the entire Adelaide to hear and maybe Singapore would be able to hear the faint echoes of it! AHAHHAHAHA. But then again, that's a little too much for me to hope for... i think. =P

Its a very dunno what kind of paper la.. i have mixed feelings about it.

3 sections.

Section A was 5 short essays worth 40%,

section B was "multiple choice" worth 25% (i think i screwed up this section coz some of the questions was fill in the blanks. how that qualifies as multiple choice? I HAVE NO IDEA. the should have made it like Section B. Part 2: Fill in the blanks or something. kns.)

the last question was about commenting, analyzing, evaluating the policy instruments that have been implemented by the Australian Government. 5 issues was listed and we had to choose 2. it was 35%.

I chose the one on climate change and global financial crisis (i did GFC for my policy briefing paper, basically i vomited out nearly everything that i could remember from my essay).

Who would have thought that the day have arrived for anyone to see me typing such a blog entry aie?

Approximately 3yrs ago, i would expect myself to be blogging about my law exams and complaining and whining about it. The overseas bit, yeah well, that was the only thing that hasn't changed from my daydreams. lol.

1 and 1/2 years more to go and i'll be able to hopefully complain, whine, get stressed out by my law exams instead! *waves pom poms to motivate self*

Political economy of Asia Pacific Region on Tuesday. I would like to think that i'm prepared for the paper. coz everytime i read my notes i'm thinking, why am i reading things that i already know from tutorials, readings, essays. I dunno. so confused. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Politics of Third World States on Wednesday. That's my last paper. Its the free writing paper. I'm doing on South Africa Apartheid. yup yup. Don't you think i sound smart typing that? I feel that my smartness have went up a notch just by typing that out. LOL!

I think i'm limiting my essay to approximately 2000 - 3000 words coz i have no idea how long that will take me to write it out manually during the exams itself. So i'm doing the essay with footnotes, type, print, drag to essay and copy it out on the answer booklet that's provided.

I hope that's alrite tho; me bringing in a completed essay.. hmm i mean how else can you do a free writing paper rite with a question of your choice? i missed the last lecture coz i was sick and the lecture wasn't posted up online.. bleargh~ i'm sad. if i cant bring in my essay i most probably will cry in front of my exam venue.

so that's about it with regard to school i suppose. hmm.

On to other topics, what if suddenly one day i announce that i'm attach? LOL! not that i am though.. just wondering what will the general reaction be... HAHAHAHHAHA. that's so random rite?

oh wells.

Seasons may change...

But I?

I may dress and look different to weather the storms

I may be vibrant for weeks and dull the next to adapt accordingly

I may be forgotten but on your way back you might just bump into me again

I may achieve my dreams and bask in my successes

but...

I remain rooted.

Despite all the years, the steps, the changes; beneath it all i'm still the same person you once knew.

P.s: I'm going to start watermarking my photos coz i've realised that some people are starting to take the pics from my accounts and claim it as their own.. so yeah.

O moon, how I long for thee?

Last week was study vacation, today is the start of exams. Well not mine anyways, mine starts tomorrow. I have Australian Government and Public Policy tomorrow at 845am.

Am I prepared? No. Actually, i'm not sure.

Truthfully, i have no confidence in this sem actually but i am clueless why my essays speaks otherwise?

BTW, APOLOGIES FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES.

the last few weeks have been hell with me trying to complete my essays and some of you are aware that i fell sick. And i received a week extension for one of my essays. That on its own threw me off my planned schedule! ARGH.

I was suppose to email my public policy tutor some stuff but he's off for a seminar overseas already,

my corruption essay is due today even though i'm halfway through it; its not done.

my public policy exam is tomorrow - i'm quite worried about that coz i actually thought it was Thursday instead of tmr. SO thank god i checked my timetable on saturday! Alittle late but its better than me checking it tomorrow afternoon or something. I've done some of the past exam papers but i'm still not satisfied coz i haven't fully go through my textbook properly. HAIZ.

funny how 1 week can throw you off your entire schedule. oh wells. no point regretting now.

But after tmr, i have approximately 1 week till my political economy exam and 8 days before my free writing paper. so maybe i would fall aslp tmr after the paper and study political economy once i wake up and get that done and over with and then bury myself in the library to settle my free writing paper for my 3rd world politics exams. yup yup.

yes, i'm that tortured this week and last that i actually put on make up to school today to study coz i didnt wanna look at myself in the mirror in library toilet with bright lighting and scare myself. so yeah...

Anyways, this is all for now.. i'm even tired trying to finish this entry.

GANBATTE TO ALL HAVING EXAMS. most prob its just those in Queensland and Adelaide, coz Josh who's in tasmania is already back in Singapore for the hols.. so yeah..

i'm sipping mocha rite now and i have a can of redbull in my bag for emergency rite after this mocha is done with.

and to me: ALITTLE BIT MORE NAD!

Tell me, How true is this?

What men should know : A woman who truly ♥ you will be angry at you for so many things but will stick around.

What women should know : A man who truly ♥ you will never let you go no matter how hard the situation is.

Men obviously know the above really well and exploit it to no end.

SHORT UPDATE

Been busy with school. Its not funny. Exams upcoming, timetable's out and I still have pending essays to be handed up. Yup yup.

Lack of slp. BLEARGH NOT FUNNY. Eversince i left singapore, i havent drank much coffee, mocha especially. but these 2 weeks, i drink at least 2 cups of large mocha everyday in school.

Tired. Seriously, the amount of books i'm reading its like major knowledge overload. NOT FUN.

Driving. I've done 7 hours of day driving. which means i'm left with 33hrs day driving and 10 hours night.

BTW, did any of you realise how fast the days have been passing. dammit.

I have lost track of dates a long time ago. Basically, ever since i've been lacking sleep to do essays. I only function on today, yesterday, tomorrow, last week and next week.

Ok. i'm going to wear my socks. its 630pm now. i'm taking the 7pm bus to the city. need to unwind. been doing often. its the only outlet for me. truthfully its cheaper than watching a movie. I will blog about it more on why.

And you know wat's the best part? My essays usually form itself the following day and then suddenly everything makes sense. So I know what kind of studying person I am. i can't just sit still in my room enclosed within the 4 walls and a room. and its been proven with my essay results this sem as compared to last sem.

i'll update more when my mind isn't occupied with my Political economy of Asia Pacific Region - Asian Financial Crisis Paper.

Ya. smart me had to pick that topic of all things. LOL!

oh wells. byeee

GIRL TALK

you know, being a girl, there will always be situations where there will be someone attempting to get to know you.. correct?

but you know wat's worst?

the fact that they got to know you, then the attempt to break up with you when there's nothing going on to begin with.

I dunno why, but i've always had more guy friends in certain portions/aspects of my life.. i'm not complaining, coz i enjoy their company... gives me a break from the normal things that some girls talk about. clothes, make up, shopping and boys.

BOYS. sometimes i really wonder, what's so great abt such a topic? I dunno.

Anyways, as i was saying...

while i appreciate their company, there are times that some just can't seem to stay just as friends. I think many of you who already know me, knows that the issue of boyfriend has always been a very non-talked abt topic. Even from when i was really young.

one thing is coz, i'm choosy. i'm really choosy. i know that and it doesnt help that countless people have pointed that out to me as well.. but yeah... I do things my way.

While i appreciate and feel flattered at the expression of interests at such an early stage of acquaintance, i actually find it ridiculous.

How can you be THAT interested in me rite?

While i keep an open mind about accepting friendships (at times, against my better judgement), i have no idea why some people just cant accept the fact that... we're friends.

why can't we just be friends?

do you really have to work to start something? rite from the start?

but i'm not like that. i've never been like that.

But one thing for sure, in any friendship - you have to get to know each other. so in the process of getting to know each other, you will find out certain things about the other party...

but.

guys, they don't exactly listen do they? even if they tell you that they do. So they listen to whatever they wanna listen and come to whatever conclusion they wanna come too.

that pisses me off the most. you misunderstand the words i say just coz you don't read or listen properly, how is that my fault? and why is it that i have to clarify things that you misunderstand? shouldn't it be the other way round?

so one thing, i would say here. if you wanna get to know me, you'll have to accept everything about me. my past, my present and my principles in life.

Why do i always have to defend myself about me?

Coz i seriously cant be bothered to explain why certain things happen the way they do in my life. Havent you realised?

I HATE TO REPEAT MYSELF.

So, stop asking me why am i living my life the way i am. Coz thankfully enough to both god and my mom, i have to luxury to do so. Stop asking me more about my love life when you start getting all suspicious right from the start. I don't have a love life. Stop asking me about my past when you're jumping to your own conclusions from the beginning. My past is part of me. Deal with it.

So i dont know why, i have to be selective about which side of me i have to showcase coz i don't believe in that bullshit.

you wanna know me, accept me as i am.

And deal with that.

Omg!

I've been so busy with uni, you have no idea! I'm so tired and all i wanna do is sleep. Yesterday, i didn't go for my Third World Politics, no, i didn't oversleep. On the contrary, i woke up early on Thursday... But I didn't prepare for tutorial the night before coz I was too tired and when I woke up, I was still so lethargic. I just went back to bed after that.

The previous day, I have political economy rite? I entered class and just sat there. I was so tired, i didnt even realised that my classmate was talking to me until like a full 5 seconds later when i noticed someone staring in my face. All i wanted to do was sprawl myself on the table and sleep, but he just burst out laughing in my face. Like thanks ah.

Surprisingly, i still managed to contribute alot to the tutorial. Proud of myself!! My tutor just giggled all through class... tsk.

so i have an essay due on monday and i wanna go out tomorrow.

so i will try to finish it by tonight. its the seminar paper which i presented on last week and had awesome feedback about it from my tutor. which means, 85% of my research is done, i just have to type it out and reference it. BLEARGH.

I've been keeping myself entertained with something new online which i'm too embarrassed to say it here. so yeah. LOL! soorrryy.. i will i guess one day. i dunno. LOL!

And i joined this facebook contest on iDreamin... in hopes to get a lomo.. here's the pic! Its shot with my Canon 1000D with the new add-on lens that i ordered on E-bay few months back...

This contest is to win a Lomo. SO PLS HELP ME WIN IT.

here's the link: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=4021533&id=117054736218&ref=mf

the steps are the same if you're on facebook, like the group then you can like my picture!

If i don't win this one... I'm gonna be persistent and join in the next one and be more annoying about gaining voters than i already am rite now...

SO PLS PLS PLS SHOW YOUR LOVE!! THANKS

I WANT THAT LOMO!

FOR MAK TEH

Actually any of you readers can take this as well. But my aunt asked me for recipes online, like rite now and i dont have a soft copy of it.. so i'm typing it here for easy reference.

So here's the recipe for Chocolate Paradise.

The most chocolatey and sinful cake i've ever made. And damn easy too!

Ingredients

200g (7oz) bittersweet chocolate, chopped

250g (9oz) unsalted butter

3/4 cup castor sugar

6eggs, whites and yolks separated

3 tbsp all-purpose flour

3 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder

1 cup almonds, finely ground

Glaze

180g (6 1/2 oz) bittersweet chocolate, chopped

3 tbsp whipping cream

1 tbsp vanilla essence

2 tbsp butter

almond flakes to decorate

Method

• Melt chocolate in a heatproof bowl over a pan of simmering water until smooth. Set aside to cool.
  
  
• Cream butter and sugar until light and fluffy. Add egg yolks one at a time.
  
  
• Sift together flour and cocoa powder. Add to batter together with cooled melted chocolate and ground almonds.
  
  
• Meanwhile, beat egg whites with cream of tartar and fold into batter in three batches. Pour batter into a greased and floured bundt pan (any pan is fine. the last time i did it, i just used the normal round pan) and bake in an over preheated to 175C (350F) for 50 minutes until top forms a crust but inside is still moist. Leave cake to cool thoroughly in pan before removing.
  
  
• Prepare glaze. Mix chocolate, cream, vanilla essence and butter over low heat until melted. Leave to cool slightly before drizzling over cake. Sprinkle almond flakes over cake.

Apologies to all for not posting up pics of this cake that i've baked. But when i made this, I was back in Singapore during the summer break and my cousins from Malaysia drove in that night and the cake was gone within an hour after they arrived.

so yeah... LOL!

Of Technological Devices!

I'm half way through my Political Economy of Asia Pacific Region readings!! Yay-ness..

Since i'm so stressed out, and i'm here and unemployed! i can't shop! so i've resorted to joining contests on facebook in hopes that i will win something from somewhere. =(

lol! yeah i know, i sound pathetic rite?! LOL! The FCUK contest? I don't think i will win it tho. oh wells, its either i'm not good looking enough or i'm too embarrassed to outrightly force my friends to vote for my picture.

you'd be wondering which picture i've posted? here it is!

Speaking of pictures, MY CANON MAGNIFIER ARRIVED! so yeah, i've tried it out.. loving my pics.. lol! will post it up when i've transfered the pics...

but anyways, i've joined something else! i've been eyeing the sony bloggie eversince its released. This is the sony bloggie!

So this is the other contest that i've joined. So pls pls pls pls... click like k?!

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=5606625&id=783738676

Time Difference.

(warning: long post.)

I didnt realise till the first weekend of the term break that daylight savings is back. lol! long story short i screwed up alot of things... LOL!

You know, alot of things can happen and change in just a matter of days. For example, in just 3 days i have successfully screwed up my body clock to function in synchronization with UK time or US time slots. Maybe i should go find myself a boyfriend in that continent, at least, i can stay up and chat with him.

I've been so tired that I actually fell asleep while eating just now. how piggy-fied was that rite? Woke up to find my half empty plate in my hands, put it aside and crawled into bed.

So what screwed up my body clock? my politics of third world states that i've been pulling my hair out for the whole of last week. I handed in late, on monday when deadline was on friday, but i managed to get it in early enough for it to be dated friday. so that's good! You have no idea how relieved I was when I found out about that.

so why was my essay late? coz i stayed up the whole of thurs/fri rite, to complete my essay that was due on friday at 4pm (that's like the standard deadline timings) but at 1130am on friday, i happen to fall asleep and somehow at 5pm i woke up to find myself on the bed and that its already 5.

You have no idea how pissed off I was with myself. but now, its all good coz everything turns out alrite in the end. Hopefully, i'll get a decent grade! *prays really hard*

So 2 essays down, i'm gonna start on my Political Economy of Asia Pacific Region soon and the Australian Government and public policy.. can't decide which to start first coz they're due one after the other. bleargh~

That's one thing i've realised. things always have a crazy way of working out in the end. Its just a matter of patience and time. But seriously, who have the time anymore rite? LOL! to be patient i mean.

yeah I realised how alot of things can change with time. 2 weeks can be enough to turn your whole life around. trust me. I know that well enough.

When I was younger, everyone said that when i reach my twenties I will receive my own wedding invitations and friends' weddings that I will have to attend.

Its true. At 24, I realise that girls my age are getting married. While I on the other hand think that its really young for anyone to be married at 24. But I guess, if you're ready, you really have nothing to lose.

Mom asked me when will I get married. Question of the century me thinks. Everyone asks everyone that now...

Truthfully, marriage never crossed my mind before. It crossed at one point about 2years ago, but right now? nah... I don't think I'll be getting married anytime soon... or ever.

Mom is obviously worried at that fact since, I'm the only child and in my old age, i wouldn't have anyone to be with me to share my joys and pains. You know sometimes, i've realised that you will never disappoint yourself.

Sometimes, you realise that men, they disappoint you without them realising it even though they claim that they know you so well. What if marriage life is a series of disappointment? Then how?

So yes, I am afraid. I'm afraid of the disappointments. Of being left behind again. Of finding that someone and then being left behind and alone, no questions asked. Of promises that ceased to matter. Of futures that will never surface.

That, and maybe the fact that i'm not...

I think its gonna take a hell lot out of someone to convince me otherwise again.

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In this facade of that strong girl, lies a really timid soul who finds the need to protect herself from the world.

WHEEE~!!

you know the other day I was looking through my nuffnang statistics and i realised that many of you came across my blog through google when you search for this...

"love nad hate essays"

hahahahahha!! how cute is that? But yay! LOVE NAD!!

well, wat am i doing now? I'm in the midst of reading the books for my essay that is due tomorrow. Yeah I know i've never fallen back on essay completion this bad before. I blame it on the nervous breakdown i nearly had yesterday. LOL!

So I'm in the midst of burying myself under tons of books.

So what did i do yesterday while trying to calm myself down? I surfed facebook and I came across a contest by Catalog Magazine to win $500 worth of FCUK vouchers!

As they have this new advertorial campaign, The Man or The Woman for FCUK.

So? What else? I joined it! LOL!

Here's the link: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=5816468&id=120508340762

so for those of you who read my blog and have facebook, what else? vote for me k?

Its simple: You just click the link. Join the group - Catalog Magazine and click on 'Like' on my picture! that's all! =D

THANK YOU!

pls pls pls make my month k? by allowing me to get a chance to win the $500 FCUK stuff! *GREAT BIG SMILE*

oh.. and tell your friends abt it too...

love love!

How time flies.

Its the start of term break. yup yup. and i've partied the weekend away and will be starting on my essays on monday. yup. lol. I know a hell lot of you wont believe that I would actually do it on Monday but let me assure you that I will coz who knows, I might party again on the weekend then when on earth am I gonna do my essays rite?

Its getting colder now. But the weather have yet to make up its mind if it should be cold or cool. wind or not. yeah. its a bitch. sometimes wearing a sweater or a jacket, you cant decide whether to take it off or leave it on. *rolls eyes*

Having the time of the month and my lower back is a bitch. I feel like a pregnant OLD woman (not that the entire description would make sense. I dont think an old woman could be pregnant) but its alrite, anything to make you feel remotely fine again. =)

And nothing else is happening much on my side other than the fact that well, I've gotten my Learner's so I guess i'll be doing my driving soon.

And yes, I've finally publically announced it here. coz the reason I was keeping it a secret rite, was coz, well, i didn't intend to tell someone coz he was taking so long to ask me why on earth I was so happy or grinning away the few days after I passed my L's. annoying rite? tsk. i even reached to a point of asking him, "aren't you gonna ask me why i'm so happy?" tsk. I know la I constantly happy but I'm sure there's a difference during those few days and the norm. But I told him over the weekend... so yeah. heh heh. its all good now. HEEEEEEEEE.

I actually enjoyed my weekend. a lot. =)

Once the term break is over, the end of semester 1 would be nearing. Which means, exams will be heading my way soon i guess. BLEARGH. oh wells.

Oh and another thing. My parcel that mom sent from singapore have yet to arrived. I'm really wondering wat the hell is going on with the transportation here. it usually takes just 3 days for her courier to arrive. its been more than 10 days now.

If that parcel goes missing, that is one hell of an expensive parcel. coz, aside from the miscellaneous things that mom mailed to me, inside there is my fencing equipments and my zara jacket.

My fencing stuff already total to 1k. so if it goes missing. I will kill someone. I really will. Coz you have no idea how grudgingly i have to deduct from my salary to pay coach every month before I left for Australia.

AND,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH~!

As weird as this may sound to many. Truthfully, i hate missing classes. Due to the lack of friends i have here, i cant afford missing class in case i miss some things that was announced in class that wasn't sent out via mass emails.

Apart from me being lazy, there's one reason why i will miss class. The amazing thing called. BUS. yup. how annoying is that? Today for example, i should be in my Politics class instead of in the bloody library blogging away. its 1.36pm rite now. my class was 1pm. you thought i was late?

i've been waiting for the bus since 12.40pm. yeah. the bus came at 1.20 and i arrived to uni at 1.30. see how close i live to uni by bus? ridiculous isnt it? i'm so pissed.

And now i'm in sch not knowing wat the hell am i here for coz i'm too embarrassed to burst into class half hour late or more than that when class is 50mins only. ARGH. i mean there is pple bursting in class that late la.. like last week for example, my classmate came to class like 5 to 10 mins before class ends. -.-" like that no need to come to class la. but then again. you would need the attendance. haiz.

Thank god for the term break next week. I vow that by the time the 2 weeks end, i resume uni and attend every single class including lectures coz attendance are taken for it as well. I would like to see a D in my result slip this sem. BLEARGH.

I could have just stayed home and do my politics op for tmr.

Now, i'm tempted to go to central market and by lemongrass, dried chilli, coriander powder, chicken and go home and make lemak chilli padi. grrrrr.

DISTRACTIONS

You would think.. what the hell is that. But fret not, its nothing disgusting... i made mango pudding yesterday in the midst of my boredom...

Yeah i know it may seem as tho i havent blogged about my cooking escapades since i arrived here this yr rite? But thats the prob... i haven't cooked... much.

I'm turning lazyyyyyyy... oh wells.

I should be cooking again soon.. was thinking of making otah otah.. its been awhile since i last ate that...

The Last Song

Nicholas Sparks seems to be making alot of money this year. From Dear John and now this, The Last Song starring Miley Cyrus and Liam Hemsworth.

There are a few things i've realised about Nicholas Sparks' movies:

1. Its always romantic
2. It will somehow involve a dying family member
3. At times you will receive the full blown cliche scenarios (but you don't mind it anyways coz it is afterall in its genre. that being said, the cliche-ness is a right on its own. LOL!)
4. Always have the cliche happy endings
5. Powerful tear jerker scenes
6. And hot male leads. LOL!

You know how on the cover of nearly every romance novel you'll always have the illustration of a really hot handsome guy with an equally hot female on it? Well it seems to have transferred itself to the silver screen. LOL! Channing Tatum, now Liam Hemsworth!

Truthfully, I actually like the movie. Maybe its biased for me since i'm always a sucker for this kind of fatherly movies. lol!

You know, Bollywood was once asked why the happy, extravagant, cliche, dramatic and positive bollywood films are constantly made. And the answer received? To give the people hope that beauty still exist in this world.

So Nicholas Sparks and his happy endings? Who am I to complain rite? Its positive, its happy, everything works out in the end. It refueled the dying candle in each individual's heart. Maybe we each will have our own happy endings.

I would say, go watch it. But at the same time, I would remind you not to expect something totally extraordinary coz this has Nicholas Sparks written all over it. It is afterall his trademark.

P.s: I don't know why is everyone making a big deal about Miley Cyrus acting in this movie. I actually think she's a good actress. And as shocking as it may be to many, i actually enjoyed Hannah Montana The Movie.

P.p.s: I think Miley Cyrus is damn lucky to have such a hot boyfriend now.

P.p.p.s: I, therefore, want to be famous too.

BOUNTY HUNTER

I know many would wanna catch this movie coz its a star studded casting. But as most of you realised, this movie did not receive very good reviews from the critics and what would I say? Well, this would be the first time i'm saying it. But listen to them critics you've been surfing for online.

The movie is OK. i think that's about it I would say about bounty hunter. Its something that I don't think you would wanna go to the movies to catch it. Its the kind that you would buy or rent the dvd, watch it when you really have nothing better to do like...

1. when your girls ditch you to go out with their boyfriends (that almost always happen doesn't it? LOL)

2. you're out of money and you could only afford a cup of tea, your mom's couch and yesterday's dinner leftovers.

3. when you're not in the mood for something terrifying, sappy, action packed or murderous.

I wouldn't say that the acting was bad. the acting was good. the scripts were witty in certain scenes... Like i've said above.

It was not fantastic.

It was just OK.

Happy & Sad

that's like a contradiction isn't it? those 2 emotions. How can one be happy and sad? Oh wells.

Happy. Yes, I was really happy yesterday even though rochana wanna kill me for it. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA. kinda thought that I will get it, and i did. SO THAT'S GOOOODD!! I couldn't stop grinning all day.

got into trouble with mom for overspending last mth. i cant remember what i spent on either besides school books and food coz i lost my atm card rite the other day.. I'm sorry.

times like this, i wish i'm working. I wish that i wasn't a full time student. But there's really no point wishing is there? I've already quit my job and I am here in Adelaide doing my second year!

YUP! that. speaking of which. I'm scared for my essays due in approximately 14 days time. its like.. I'm just scared for it.

the other day, i went to admissions office and asked about postgrad. Yeah, I did asked about it. Postgraduate Law in Flinders. the requirements aren't bad but at the same time, after last december's rejection i'm a little... well. put off. And uni in UK do not offer postgraduate. i'll have to do the normal LLB but that's fine coz its the same. 3 years.

I'm jealous. Oh hell yes i am. of friends in law degrees, of friends who just graduated from paris with a fashion design degrees, of friends who's already ending this journey.

Its funny really, when back then, i was that girl who designed. People had visions of me being someone.

This year, i reacquainted with lots of my secondary school friends online. we're chatting online now. they're all graduating this yr. and I can't help but be sad. I don't know what's gonna happen in my future.

Will I be that lawyer that i've been dreaming my whole life?

I wanna be successful, I wanna touch people, I wanna be famous. Sounds like a Pussycat Dolls song.

I had a plan when i was young. When I was 13 I had a plan. I am still on the plan just alittle rerouted. Some things were never meant to be on that plan. but it did. regret? I don't know. it has happened anyways and there's nothing i can do about it.

And my sec sch friends have assured me to be patient. Coz it will all be worth it. The future will work out for me. Will it? Really? I'm just... scared?

I want to change my life. I will. That's a promise to myself and one i've told my myself to do for my mom.

And on other saddening issues, you. its funny really. just really funny the extend you go to. Sometimes, I don't know what is it that you want from me or out of me. I really don't. You confuse the hell out of me sometimes and there are times that i choose to ignore it.

I'm just frustrated sometimes. yes, with you. But i don't show it. as always. and you, you've chosen to ignore it sometimes, as always. why can't things be easy? why?

PUTTING EVERYTHING ASIDE,

i'm like half way thru semester 1. which means that soon it will be over. and half year is gone! and one more year and i will be out of the bachelor of Arts and doing law. hopefully. and finally.

I'll just concentrate on that coz, I guess, nothing else matters.

Omg. i'm so annoyed rite now. gosh. its like as though i'm really gonna kill someone rite now. its 10.39am rite now.. and quess where i am? yes i'm in school.

what time is my damn class? its at 1pm. hooray. fuck. i really feel like as thought i'm about to murder someone. goddamit.

the person is so gonna die. maybe not today but he will die. think can be so easily let off meh?! kns.

well if i were to look on the bright side at least i have time to finish my tutorial prep. bleargh.

whatever it is. i'm annoyed. i could have woken up much later instead of having my alarm starting to ring since 7am. i'm currently waiting for rochana to finish her tutorial coz i can't function on anything rite now. so yeah. prepare for wat tutorial rite?!

argh. so angry. so annoyed. so frustrated can.

yes. i didnt sleep much yesterday. or rather this morning. i only fell asleep at 620am adelaide time.

15 more mins till rochana appears to save me.

btw, i was reading xiaxue's blog yesterday... and she finally blogged about her wedding. i think its really pretty the mafia theme and all.. lol. =)

All first tutorials are done and I am currently quite happy to be where I am. YEAR 2. heh. people should be proud of me i think.

Despite the fact that I have a ton of stuff due in approximately 3 weeks time. As all of you would most probably already know. 3 weeks is NOTHING! gosh.

But year 2 is different. I can see the change and I can feel it too. Amongst familiar faces which I have bumped into over the past year. Everyone's alittle more sane me thinks. And I? I am still the same. =)

I found out that the guys are in Malaysia for the Malaysia Open. Somehow, I don't know why, I was kinda down after finding that out. Even tho they tell me still about their trip, but I just feel bleargh. hmmm its the 2nd year since i came back into fencing that i've missed Malaysia Open.

I don't know. I miss fencing. A hell lot. I should be turning up for training at the uni. But its just not the same. I don't have anyone to fence with. The guys don't talk to me for god knows what reasons and its been a year since I had a proper training.

Being in the only girl in the team is not a new experience for me. I have always been the only girl in the team and I've never been isolated before. *shrugs*

Truthfully, going there and being treated the way i'm treated is the only thing that makes training a chore. 2 days in a week. 2hours a day. Doing one of the things I really love, alone (practically alone k, i do my own drills, i run on my own, so yeah).

But yes, if i have to admit. I miss fencing. Doesn't help that I didn't do much training when I was back the other day.

Its like an unsatisfied craving.

OF TOPIC GUIDES AND TUTORIAL PREPS.

I am currently turning suicidal after reading my Third World Politics Topic Guide. Oh god. Help.

Yes, I think i'm going to kill myself with a root of the tree outside my room. I'm serious. Doesn't help that my topic convenor is bitchy as fuck. Its like she's constantly not satisfied with the attention her husband is giving her (now, that i really wouldn't know).

I was suppose to go for my Australian Government and Public Policy lecture... its a 2hr lecture in which i fell aslp and arrived in school for the second hour. but how can i forget that public policy lectures are held in Social Science North Lecture Theatre 3. Yup. I had the same lecture theatre last sem when I was doing Government, Business, Society (its like a year 1 subject of politics and public policy).

So coz of that, and the supposed break that was suppose to happen in the middle of the lecture didnt happen, i ended up NOT going for the lecture.

Coz, the lecture theatre is THAT SQUEAKY. its like a bloody dinosaur entered the lt even when nobody is walking on it but just shifting from one seat to the other. So can you imagine if I actually came late for the lecture and me dressed the way I am. I'm ONE HUGE AND COLOURFUL DINOSAUR pls. bleargh. so can you imagine the sound it'll make?! it'll be like a bloody earthquake.

argh. but yes, rite now, i'm just panicking at the fact that i think my semester is gonna be hell. SO MUCH FOR 3 BLOODY SUBJECTS AND 3 BLOODY DAYS IN SCHOOL! ITS ALL LIES I TELL YOU! LIESSSS!!!

I will have to print my topic guides out at the end of the day later. haiz. Coz, I emailed my Third World Politics topic convenor rite if i could get a copy of the topic guide and i got a curt and short reply from her asking me to collect the topic guide from her tmr. BUT i sense the underlying sarcasm in the email. let me show you wat the reply was...

"Dear Nur

Most people attending the lectures would have received one. You may pick it up from my office Tomorrow. Room (insert room number)

Regards
(insert name)"

Its like... WHAT THE HELL DID I DO WRONG SIA?!

so I didn't attend the past 2 lectures. Pls la. my lectures and class are back to back you really want me to wait for the bus until the birds migrate for a bus ride that is 5mins and turn up for a 50mins lecture when classes are cancelled? NO RITE.

anyways, i think my third world politics lectures are compulsory.

Oh wells. I should go and find the textbook for tutorial later since i can't find it in the bookshop~!

Australian Government and Public Policy ftw! *rolls eyes and dies*

Dear John

watched it the other day with rochana...

How was it? I would say that its your typical romantic movie. The hot macho soldier who is clumsy and sensitive at the same time falls in love with the sweet, good uber good looking girl (i've never seen amanda seyfried look that good in my life before) which he helped at the beach.

Some of the scenes are so expected that I could just roll my eyes. But the script was good nonetheless, many would say that the book is so much better than the movie but i really wouldnt know coz i've never read the book before. Besides, its just an adaptation. And channing tatum is my all time fav. so that's another plus point! lol!

I would rate the tear jerker, heart wrenching moments 4 out 5. YERP! its that cry worthy! Please don't tell me you won't cry if you see someone as macho as channing tatum break down? LOL!

but anyways,

as expected as it would be, i think the girls would watch it just because of channing tatum and the guys amanda seyfried and some guys, channing tatum as well =)

how can you not wanna stare at him for a whole hour? simply yummilicious!

Alice in Wonderland

Finally caught it the other day with mel... And truthfully I have no idea what to describe it yet. After awhile in the movie theatre, I was more conscious of my sweater making me comfortable and that my eyes were getting drooopy!

Well the mad hatter cant seem to make up his mind whether to be captain jack sparrow, willy wonka or what. The one thing I like about the mad hatter is his make up and costume.

The chesire cat was cute. lol! but he's a cat that's afraid to get in involved with politics sooo... what else can he do rite to influence the story?

The things that I find worth watching was the two queens. They're just plain entertaining. The red queen coz of her tantrum and the white coz of the trying to uphold her demure-ness.

Alice was expressionless. I don't know if she is suppose to be expressionless but she doesn't even look confused even tho her script suggested that she was confused. LOL! am i making you all confused yet? HAHHAHAHAHAHA

But the script was not bad tho, even tho the near-to-monotonous tone taken on by Alice is quite grating.

So Alice in Wonderland? I think you guys buy the DVD better or watch it when you really have nothing else to watch. LOL!