Hmmz in the end i didn't go anywhere yesterday...

Didn't go and look for job... and i didnt even go out.. Stayed at home.. WHY?? Coz my beautiful grandmother scolded me for frequently going out.. and the frequently is that i shouldn't go out for 3 days in a row.. so that is one of the reason why i seldom go out.. have so many pple to please.. have so many pple to ask permission from.. better stay at home and rot rite?? at least i won't get into trouble while asking..

She say she no longer trust kids nowadays... why?? Coz she spend 3 weeks in malaysia witnessing my cousin going home late... and she thinks that it applies to me?? HAIz... Sometimes, i wonder.. what should i do... do whatever i like?? or should i do things to please pple... I seriously wonder why she scolds me when she keeps thinking that i've got no friends coz i always rot at home and never go out.. And when i do go out.. She thinks that i'm making too many friends and allowing them to be a bad influence on me.. What you want me to do you tell me??

Obviously, ended up quarrelling with her... haiz.. i never like quarrelling with her or anyone... i never do.. i'll feel so guilty later... i have no idea what to do to make things rite after quarrels... and she thinks that me going for job interviews are just excuses to go out.. coz i go home late and the best part is that i go home late is because i met my mom for dinner or to go out... and she thinks that it is also an excuse coz currently i'm not working... How you want me to work you tell me?? I go home late kena scolding... I go out everyday also kena scolding.. I go for job interviews dun believe... How not to quarrel??? haiz....

Anywayz, let me update you what have i been doing since tuesday...

Hmzzz i've been going job hunting.. yeah that's right.. job hunting.. whahaha... need financial backing man... but some how i just get the feeling that i won't be working anywhere.. but i hope that i'd get the dental clinic job since its so near and all...

but obviously i wouldn't state what happen.. coz it will be an identical entry to suk ching's.. so ya. if you wanna know just read suk ching's blog... that is if you can read and she has remove her marquee code.. wahahaha....

But it was fun though making fun of some of the places with suk ching after we left each building.. hahahha... anywayz, suk ching.. thanks for allowing me to go with you to go and find job... really appreciate it... THX a million.. :P Coz if i were alone, i dun think i'll even go.. wahahaha..

Anywayz, what am i going to do today?? Suppose to go job hunting with suk ching.. but i dunno whether or not i'll be going.. coz suppose to go cycling today.. and nobody msg me anything abt it today.. so ya... if nothing.. then most prob i shall meet suk ching at bugis for our job interview...

Hmmzzz... ok.. since suk ching ask me to update.. i shall update then...

The topic for this entry is: First time I went on the ice... (",)
On mon... Met azi and mel to go ice skating at kallang for 3hrs-$8.. i think its not bad ah... wahahhaa... its seriously hilarious... wahhaha.. it was difficult from the start esp when you have never ice skate before... hehehe... So.. the first time i stand on the ice.. i keep having the thinking that i'm going to fall off anytime soon... going to topple off.. that was how unstable it was.. maybe coz its slippery or wat i dunno... then it was like.. only skating at the sides so that can hold the wall (Is that it?) in case i fall or something...

So, was skating at the sides for a while to get use to it and I can actually skate not that smoothly after 45mins or so.. not bad.. whahaha.. soo much for no confidence.. :P then i already saw mel and azi trying to skate across the rinkbut obviously i still did not dare to do it at that point of time.. yeah yeah.. chicken.. i know...

Then i dunno how or why.. i started skating across the rink and guess what i found out??? That skating in the middle is so much more easy than skating at the sides.. coz the middle is much more smooth while at the sides the ice was uneven coz people tend to brake once they reached the side and the ice chipping the ice.. so ya.. skating in the middle is easier..

Then at around 730pm both azi and mel wasnt skating already coz the blister were killing them.. hehehe.. Since i only had one blister... and it wasnt killing me.. i continued skating untill mel had to threaten me to get off the ice by saying that they are going off now and leaving me alone here.. wahahha.. and i had to go home alone.. so ya.. that made me get off the ice.. obviously..

Went to PP to have dinner and all the way mel was limping away... its not like he broke his leg or sprained his ankle during ice skating.. but it was that he gotten blisters.. MUAHAHHAH!!!

Anywayz, later at night.. i kept my mom awake till around 3am telling her about my ice skating session over and over again.. pestering her went are we going again.. wahhahaa... then each time she close her eyes... i was like poking her all the way telling her not to sleep untill i finish toking wahahhaa... so it was like non-stop toking from me.. muahahaha.. and the next day.. she was late for work.. wahahah...

Finally went out today... hahaha... actually my day began at around 2 or 3pm or so.. Went to escape theme park with my cousins.. the initial picnic plan that i was telling about in the end... was intended strictly for the parents... so the children was shooed away as my mom queued to pay for admission into the theme park as a way for us to be out of their way the entire day.. heee....

So went on nearly all the rides with my cousins... and go-cart racing... woohooo... Was kinda speeding all the way... came in 2nd out of 5... not bad rite?? the first was the guy cousin of mine... i got headache after a few rides... as well as got drenched in one of the rides.. the big splash thing or something like that lah... but then.. sadly.. i only had the chance of being drenched on one slide... coz they had to stop the entire ride coz somebody's child was tooo afraid to continue on... Grr.. but that was another good thing too as i had no change of clothes.. wahahhaa...

So i was drenched and i didnt had the time to go home and change before meeting the rest of them at newton for dinner.. which my initial plan was not to go at all... wonder what changed my mind though... hmmzzz.. Anywayz, took 518 to newton... thanks to SOMEONE's advice, i had an around 1-hour and 15 minutes bus ride to newton... and during that bus ride.. i had the privelege of hearing my cousin lecturing her brother.. and boy! I never wanna be her daughter or son.. wahahahah... was on the brother's side... haha.. and had a "human rights" so-called argument (or was it debate?) with her in the bus

Then it made me realise... sometimes, i just don't know why some people can't accept that everyone's different and each of them have their own strengths.. Her brother is going to sit for a national exam... something like 'O' Levels this year.. and during the car ride to downtown east just now... we passed a penthouse i think... then my aunt was like... "you see, if you study hard.. you get good job.. and you can afford luxurious things.. it's for your own good also"

They've been going on and on about it since this morning actually... and that car ride... just got me pissed.. i mean i cant take it anymore... I just went,'If i were him, i think i'd committed suicide a long time ago.. its a wonder that he is still alive now... coz its damn stressful having someone going on and on just because you can't get the desired results that is comparable to your sis and therefore a future-to-be-labelled-as-failure...." thank god it was my mom who was sitting beside me at least she understands what i was trying to say.. and i think if someone else was sitting beside me.. hahaa.. i would be beheaded...

Why? I mean everyone has a different learning pace.. ACCEPT IT!! Everyone has different strengths... ACCEPT IT!! Everyone has different interests.. ACCEPT THAT AS WELL!!! i was updated about how he keeps coming home late everyday and it is his examz year and all and how he keeps going to his friends house or out jamming... Well.. i think i would be joining him as well if you keep having people nagging at you all day long about how stupid you are... i mean.. would you sit at home to listen to this?? Hell no!! I would be out with my friends to have a good time at least they appreciate me as who i am.. rite??

People has been telling me this.. Everyone has limits.. well it is true.. There is a limit as well to how much you can nag a day and how much a person can take nagging in that particular day as well.. I mean the least you could do if you can't help is support him.. encourage him that he will succeed even though it is not as good as the sis.. i mean.. which 2 kid will be same rite?? each child is unique in their own way... just because s/he only gets 70/100 for maths for term test... doesn't mean that he is stupid just because the elder one had gotten 90/100 when s/he was going to sit for her 'O's.. Welll the limit part was part of my arguement in the bus with her.. haiz..

And the defence given was that i wouldn't understand since i'm not staying there to witness things that are going on everyday... Somehow, the wouldnt understand part was damn familiar.. hehhee.. so.. i just kept my mouth shut and no more comments was heard from me anymore.. coz i know.. if i dun keep quiet and my cousin is in that state.. we might as well not continue our journey and went home.. coz confirm sure got quarrel one.. wahhaha.. so ya.. Put 2 scorpions together... and you get the most horrible battle ever seen... lol!!

The best part was that even my mom was shock when he answered back my uncle.. something that he has never done before... it was somethign like... "Dad.. that's all you can say right?? that i'm stupid.. but do you ever encourage or support me in any way??" That was when my mom realise that he is actually damn stress only that being a guy and like most guys are... they tend not to show any feelings to the world... and my uncle.. haiz.. i dunno why.. but i think ever since sec sch.. i think i've been disrespectful to him as well.. but nvm that...

Its sad lah.. it's just sad... I mean he is not dumb lah.. he is just not within the expectations.. hmmzz... I just hope that i won't be that kinda parent one day.. if i ever become one that is... and now.. let's get back to the things...

Reached newton after a long bus ride all thirsty and stuff... Well.. introduced them to those who were present... and they are.. JENG JENG JENG!! hahaha.... Azi, Mel, Sc and her beloved, Siok Lan and Apri.. well.. my cousins were uncomfortable at first.. to the extent that i kinda felt guilty that i dragged them along.. i mean if they were uncomfortable and not enjoying themselves.. i was my fault for bringing them rite?? well.. anywayz, its over.. wahaha.. and towards the end.. they finally got use to it and i'm glad to announce that they enjoyed themselves.. hehehe...

Then we had ice cream somewhere along raffles... walked to the merlion for i dunno what reason... and than reached home at around 1240 i think.. thank god my mom was not awake... hahhaa.. if not sure kena interrogation session.. and the best part.. my cousins have already set up an excuse scenario.. wahhaha.. the beauty of having cousins that you're close to... they will do anything not to get you into trouble.. :P and i think all the scenarios before worked... coz i never get into trouble when ever they're around and when ever I come home late with them.. hahaha... maybe, it might not be the scenarios, i think my mom just thinks that i need time alone with my cousins.. hehehehe... and now its time tooo sleep....

Lalalallalalala... here i am wide awake on a saturday noon... wahahaha... Well actually i was practically pushed off the bed by my DARLING mother... grrr... at around 940am saying that everyone is ready and its time to go out and if i'm not ready i'll be left all alone at home with no one and nothing to eat...

Well.. here i am happilly blogging away and its around 1230 already... and NOBODY is ready to go out and i'm the only one all ready to go out.. hahahha... mothers... they do the most interesting thing to wake their children up... wonder where we're going today... heard my mom was mentioning about going to the beach or something..

Well.. since my mom is already planted on the sofa watching TV... there is also an extremely high chance that we won't be going out too.. Grrr... i could have woken up only NOW~~~ Nvm... i shall make good use of this time at my hands and terrorie everyone into going out today... No way am i going to stay at home once i'm all nice and ready to go out... especially when i woke up early because of it... MUAhahhahaa!!!

YAWNZ!! Its 455am and i'm not asleep.. wanna know why?? Too busy playing online games that I didn't realise the time pass so quickly...

My cousins from Malaysia came just now... at around 2am.. they arrived.. and they're asleep.. and here i am still awake... well.. its time to sleep now.. coz got alot of things going on tomorrow.. its either i'm meeting them tmr for dinner or going out with my cousins.. still dunno yet.. lalallaa...

And seeing the situation now... i don't think i'll be getting much sleep coz they'll be awake quite early.. and soon they'll be trying to wake me up in the different means and ways possible some of which you can't even think off.. whahahaa... such creativity.. lol!!! Anywayz, ya... its time to meet my bed for the date that i'm kinda late for.. whahaha

Did nothing much today... Rotted the entire day at home.. and my aunt was on leave... so i either pretended to be sleeping or make myself disappear in the house and out of her way to escape from doing the chores.. wahahaha.. and i succeeded!!! YIPPEE!!! Muahahahah!!!...

Anywayz, i'm doing nothing at the moment just waiting for the commercial to be over so that i can continue watching CHASE.. i think it's damn funny.. whahaha... the model girlfriend and the hamster.. hehehhee... anywayz, let me update you on what happen yesterday while waiting for the show to be back on...

Let's see.. yesterday.. supposed to go for Voices at Jon's house.... I went all the way to TM to meet the rest (Azi, Mel and Kay) and once i reached there... and met them... they came to the conclusion that they didn't wanna go for Voices since our group will be the only group who will be turning up for Voices yesterday.. so they decided to call Jon to inform him that we won't be coming...

So we ended up only eating our dinner, hanging out at the arcade and accompanied azi while she ate her ice-cream and then went ot NTUC to get drinks.. whahaha.. basically that's all we did yesterday... coz we were kinda desperate to fill our time with activities as we were waiting for the rain to stop so that we can go home... haiz..

Then reached home at around 9?? i can't remember now.. and the first thing you can hear if you follow me home yesterday was my scream.. whahhaha... coz i came home.. and putting my shoes away.. locking the door.. turning off the lights at the door... and TOTALLY UNAWARE that my mom was HIDING behind the wall... so when i walked pass the wall.. that was when i screamed... coz my mom jumped out at me and shouted boo... when i said jumped.. she literally did jump!! and i jumped as well... got a shock of my life.. and i've never screamed like that before in my entire life.. .wahaha.. coz even my cat run to the door there to check out what happen... whahahaha...

ok ok.. time to go... the show is back... MUACKZ!!

Well.. the first person up on my friend's tribute thingy is:
Miss Riana Sufra Bte Kasmuri
Someone I Never Regret Knowing
Well.. Been toking to or rather e-mailing her for the past few days... trying to console her.. dunno whether or not it's working.. whahahaha.. Let's see... How long did i know her... Known her since Pri.4.. So i think it is around 8 years??

The years in pri. sch. are just priceless to begin with... Especially with the battle of the sexes to add to it.. whahaha.. and the girls purposely hates the guys no matter what and for no reason actually... and each of us trying to get the guys into trouble for everything... wahhaha

Things just got interesting ever since you entered the school in pri.4... where we started teasing you with certain guys.. with the R vs. R for R.. wahahah.. that is one thing that i think no one could ever forget... it was like the teasing was cohort-wide.. whahahaah... i think the only reason was that.. you were the new girl in town or rather in school... hahaha..

You were a true friend esp. in Pri.5 when things were not exactly going the right way for me.. and there you are.. standing beside me all the way even though you know that something is wrong but i'm just not telling.. and everything else in school just went wrong.. you were there no matter what.. even though you had probs of your own at that point of time..

Then we were separated in pri. 6... ended up in different classes.. but even then.. we were as close as ever.. still going to each others house.. and talking on the phone everyday after school for hours and got scolding from our parents for talking on the phone soo much even though we see each other everyday in school and we're even in the same CCA!!!.. wahahhaa... those were the days man.. especially when you got the permission to read my diary.. wahahah.. nvm.. let's just not get into those details shall we...

Pri. 6 was not the only time we got separated.. we were further separated when both of us got into different sec sch.. and even now.. you're in jurong institute and i'm in tp... wahaha... And ya.. how could i forget.. your flirtatiousness (is there such a word?).. so much for us hating the guys in pri. sch.. and you end up with them wahahaaha... you flirting standard is one of a kind man.. wahahhaa.. It's shown each hari raya... when you update me with your relationship statuses.. wahhaha... and please dun try to deny it.. hahaha.. and there's nothing you can do abt this.. since this is my blog.. whahaha... And since i'm not that mean.. i shall leave out the details before you blackmail me with somethin... LOL!!!

Anywayz, what ever you're going through now... is just something that you will go through anywhere at any time.. it just happens that you have to meet with this kinda thing at this particular time of your journey... Just hope that you wouldn't give up to easily... coz always know that.. you have other friends around.. one which you can turn to at any point in your life... so ya... I know I never mention this before... same as you.. you are someone that i never regretted meeting and knowing... a truly great friend that i've grown to cherish...

Well... let's see... what did i do today?? didnt do anything much but eat... wahahah...

Went to a vegetarian restaurant to have dinner today... one thing is also a farewell dinner for one of my mom's colleague.. Well.. one think that came to my mind when vegetarian is alll the green leafy vegetables!! ARGH!! those poison!! they should ban those from coming into the country you know.. URGH!!

Anywayz, i had a really hilarious time there just now.. at least this is the first time after the last dinner that i do not need to stand up for human rights.. wahhahaa... Anywayz, i had a great time concentrating on picking up the mushrooms with my chopsticks... hahhaha... and to think that i actually enjoyed eating there.. help!! wahaha.. the only thing i hate about it is that... it's sooo bland.. hahaha.. and you tend to get sick of the food easily... coz everything is either tofu or mock stuff... hahaha..

And my mom's colleague was making fun of the MOCK suckling pig.. i forgot what abt it though... and really enjoyed myself man... come to think of it.. this pple are adults... and they are like soo much fun to hang with.. whahahaa....

and what about yest?? let's see... one thing for sure is that i got my revenge... manage to catch up on my sleep... YIIPPPEE!!! hahahahhaha... then i lazed around the house the entire day with nothing better to do.. so ya.. whahahahaa.... lalallala.. i believe i can fly... lalallalal...

YUPPEDIE YUP!! Examz are OVER!! WOO HOOOO.... wahahaa...

A closure to yr1 sem2 man... wahahhaa... Just when i was jumping about saying that i finished my year 1 at home just now... My mom had to spoil it by saying that... Its not over as long as you haven't get your results... Haiz... But nevermind... I dun care.. Nothing is going to deter my happiness... I'm just extremely relieve that examz are over... Now only need to wait for results wahahhaha...

Let's see... what did i do just now?? Went to PP with azi, sc and amin to have lunch... Then we planned to go bowling but instead of bowling, we ended up at the arcade... wahahha... It's great wasting money in such a way.. wahhaha... And i have not stopped chewing since lunch... first was banquet, then the muffin, then SC bought potato chips, then azi bought chocolates... OMG!! i think i'm going to vomit already... wahahah...

Then later SC left with her beloved and Amin already left us long ago.. When we were in the arcade... Then me and Azi left to meet Mel at bedok mrt... Supposed to meet him a 6pm then reached there at around 6.45pm... So ya, SORRY MELLY!! hehehe... Then we made our way to mei yan's house...

Seriously, i have no idea why i went there in the first place... Coz i left early and i was sleepy as well as extremely full... hehehhe... Guess what we do there... If you guessed: EATING.. Then you've hit the jackpot... Ate chicken curry (cooked by Kay) and rice... OH man... It was like.. So FULL!! and SO SLEEPY SIA!! wahaha... First time that i really really feel like a pig... Like sooo lazy.. wahahhaa... Oh ya... And Mei Yan's dog is sooo cute... I like!!! whahahaha... Left her house at around 9:15pm and i reached home at around 9:45... Not bad rite?? Only reason was that its easy to go home from her house.. wahahha...

Well... First thing that i'm gonna do as a start of the hols is that i'm gonna get revenge.. I'm gonna catch up on my sleep as much as i can... wahahaha... Which means that tomorrow i'll only wake up when someone msges me.. wahahahaha... Then i'll make plans to go out with my friends... Then i'll see whether or not i can find work... hehehehe....

And during the day when i got nothing better to do.. i shall blog... wahahaha... Coz that is the perfect time for me to do the friend's tribute thingy... Only that i think i shall do it one entry person... So that i dun waste time typing and trying to remember... wahaha... Whoever comes to mind.. BOOM!! S/he will appear on my blog... waaahahahahha... Aiyah.. I'm going mad already lah.. Need to sleep...

YAY!! YIPPE!!

Guess what?? tmr.. is my LAST paper for the semester... yuppedie yup.. you read it rite... tmr's the last paper for the semester... which means.. when semester re-opens, i'm gonna be in Yr2.. damn fast rite?? wahaha... and i thought that poly education is damn long since its 3yrs... but.. its not anymore... wahahaha...

Let me remember what happens yesterday... had tort paper...
well.. what abt tort?? i guess its passable... i just feel like kissing suk ching while doing the paper.. wahaha.. thanks suk ching... for passing me the pieces of paper before the examz... if not.. i think i'll be soo blur during the examz... and sorry for making you wait there for me... but then again.. thankz a million... owe you one gurl!!!

then on sat... stayed through to my words.. i didn't go home late.. actually no one else when home late... everyone was THAT sleepy so.. everyone practically rushed home... wahaha.. didn't even go anywhere to eat first.. anywayz, went to meet my mom and watched movie... MOVIE WATCHED:WALKING TALL It's NICE!!! I like!! It's not because THE ROCK was the lead actor... I dun find him handsome in the first place... i think he resembles TOO Much of an egg for me to like him... whahahaha... Anywayz, its coz the movie is nice to begin with.. wahaha...

Really had fun crapping around with my mom despite me being sleepy and all... It was funny lah.. I laughed till i cry... wahahaha.. went home with stomach cramp sia... laugh too much.... wahahaha...

Well today was MACROECONS.....

I walked into examz hall filled with confidence that i'll win the battle... For the first time, i'm THAT confident of winning a battle over a maths subject... wahahaha.. But.... (Hmmzzz... it always seem as if.. there is always a but... whahahaha...) ANYWAYZ, the freakingly irritating thing about examz is that... you know you know the answer, but then... it never manage to resurface once you're in the exam hall.. well... that is what happens today... only that.. i still manage to complete it... so ya.. i think should be can lah... i think i still can win the battle only that.. i'm left all exhausted and battered.. wahhaha...

Guess what... got another scolding from my mom.... i think she is lonely man... i think she needs a new pet... maybe i should get her another cat as a mother's day present or something.. Coz, last time, when one of my cat was still alive... I never had any scoldings from her... or any naggings... its either the cat was on my side... or she was tooo busy being too involve with the cat... wahahaha... but yeah... now its like... i dunno... but i notice something though... my mom is nagging more now... i mean it is still lesser than my grandmother and i suppose any other parent... but the nagging rate is increasing... last time... it used to be near to never... now its like... once in 3 weeks?? ya.. i think its around there... I think she is extremely stressed... Which also give me another reason on why I CANNOT FAIL ANYTHING!!!

Anywayz, enough about my complaining.. i think i should now round up my preparation for tomorrow's paper... and go to sleep... and later must go home early... cannot get mommy anymore upset.. wahaha.. She's not too happy with me going home late everyday esp during examz week... coz she feels that during examz must come home early and rest... not come home late as usual and in the end still sleeping late.. haiz... i guess... there is some truth in it.. so ya... REMINDER TO SELF: TOMORROW MUST GO HOME EARLY!! (",)

Hmmzzzz.. what shall i blog about???

Oh ya.. had my MBS paper on Tuesday... Hmmzzz. how shall i put it?? It SUCKED big time... and i think i answered the paper.. crapping all the way.. Had no idea whether or not i'm even on the right track... A really great paper to pull your grades down.. hahaha.. which reminds me.. in sec sch.. each time after a challenging paper... everybody will start consoling each other saying that.. "it is a fact that in singapore, the teachers are hired to fail the students" wahahahha... well. i dunno whether or not its true.. but that was one of the most common phrases you'll hear in sec sch... when a person is consoling another.. So ya... i'm trying to console myself.. wahahahah

Later on.. we slacked in the SAR... i have no idea why or what we were doing there... but all i remembered was that.. there was lotz and tonz of singing going on.. wahahaha.. and i was there from the time my paper ends till around 750pm?? and then we went for dinner at macs.. with mel, azi and amin.. it was hilarious.. esp during the Kamsiah incident.. wahahha...

anywayz, today i have no paper... and guess what.. i havent even studied.. i mean got study lah.. but not totally there.. if you know what i mean.. and the best thing was that.. my mom was perfectly aware that this week is examz week.. and she still can happily ask me whether wanna go out and catch a movie... OMG.. wahahaha.. but then.. sadly.. i said.. NO.. whahahaa.. which obviously i know my mom was kinda disappointed... but then again.. ITS EXAMZ WEEK... parents dun ask their children out.. esp not at this kinda week.. rite?? hehehehe...

My next paper is on FRIDAY.. haiz... another paper... its like getting closer and closer to my funeral or something... coz.. i totally have ZERO confidence in it.. at least there was a tiny bit of confidence in crim and mbs.. and yet.. i still find it hard... what abt in a paper that i have no confidence in at all??? Totally dead i tell ya... and the thing is.. i cant fail.. at least i wont let that happen... but then again.. haiz...

What excuse am i going to give to my mom this sem?? I cant think of any.. OMG... I didnt have an excuse last sem.. i dont have a valid reason this sem.. HAIZ... I'm so gonna be in such deep shit this time round.. argh!!.. Anywayz, enough of this desperation of trying to find excuse.. :P

Before i pen-off... i wanna wish someone happy birthday.. and that person is... AMIN...
Yo AMIN!! Happy birthday... Turn 18 already ah... growing white hair already?? hehehhe... anywayz, good luck in whatever you do.. and hope that you wont be sooo stressed out... remember... your examz finish already... so chill.. yarhz?? heheh... keep smiling... and enjoy your day!!

Can this be true? Tell me can this be real?? How can i put into words what i feel??

Exactly my point.. tell me.. "can this be true?" In a blink of an eye, tomorrow is my second paper... As in, its already exams week... "Tell me can this be real?" Please... Someone.. Anyone.. I beg of you.. Please tell me that this is all a dream... A BAD BAD dream.. that i'll wake up one day and realize that examz is still in 2weeks time and not having my 2nd paper tomorrow.. "How can I put into words what i feel?" First tell me, what exactly am i feeling?? I think most prob anger.. Anger at myself for taking this semester too lightly... and doing some other things when i could have used that time to catch up on the stuff that i've missed.... and not miss more things.. if you know what i mean...

But then.. Am i regretting?? WAKE UP NAD~!! Stop fretting over things that has happened and there's nothing that you can do about it... There are just certain things that you have to learn from.. I guess this is one of those times... I just truly hope and pray that I would not have to repeat any subjects.. and one that i am particularly worried about is MACROECONS... This is not funny i tell ya.. It has the power of murder me there and then... The POWER OF MACROECONS... is just tooo great for me to handle.. wahhaha...

Talking about 2nd paper tomorrow... Today was my first paper... And it was CRIMINAL LAW... The first taste of Criminal and i hate it! wahahha... i mean.. it was a challenging but do-able paper.. one which i don't think i'll do well in.. A really great way to start the examz... Feed the students with something totally unexpected.. wahhahaa... Let the students get the taste of torture.. rite?? Anywayz, enough about today's paper... what did i do today??

Oh ya.. after the paper, instead of going home to study like all normal students... I met Mel at TM and we hit the arcade.. wahahaha... well.. i just have to get use to defeat i tell ya.. especially when i keep losing at the moment... But MEL... let me inform you something.. One day... I'll win you!! One day!!! Most prob after the examz or something where i dont have anything lurking around at the back of my mind.. whahaha.... Later on... had dinner at BK with Mel, Azi, Kay and Amin... Bitched around like nobody's business... esp Kay... the bitchiness coming out full force today... then still can say she miss me.. Tsk tsk tsk.. hahahaha

And tomorrow is MBS... Well i hope that my paper tomorrow will not pull my coursework grades down... Coz i wanna see at least one decent grade in the result slip... :P Well.. time to hit the books now.. I can practically hear the books calling out my name... Nooo.. I think i can hear it singing... "Say my Name.. Say My Name... lalalalla" Not bad.. MBS textbook is singing a rather known song.. Proves only one thing... MBS might not be THAT boring afterall huh... wahahaha.. (",)

Someday i wish upon a star..

Hahahha.. i tell you.. i think stress is getting to me.. one day i'm all patriotic and the next is that i'm all oldies?? hahahha... Just that at the moment i feel that i need a life.. wahahaha... but the think is.. i dun think i need a life.. i mean... its not like i've been mugging all day long trying to memorise.... but thats the prob... i cant even bring myself to try and memorise.. if i cant try and memorise...it just shows that i havent try to study.. wahahaha... and as before.. i can hear the books crying out my name softly.. trying to draw myself to it.. and get engross while it tells the story of TORT.. wahahaha

ok ok.. i'm turning cuckoo.. wanna know why?? coz i cant seem to figure out.. why i'm sleeping late when i'm not even studying... well.. i know what you're gonna say, that its coz i'm busy blogging and doing everythign else that is not suppose to be done during the period of pre-exams week.. wahahah.. well.. i got no defence for that...

anywayz, i've not been typing proper blogs this past few days and i think most prob will not be typing proper blogs for more days to come... hahahhaa... its the dunno-what effect that drives you crazy and typing stuff that is not properly organized in a way that it is suppose to come out...

wahahaha... anywayz, here i am wasting my time away... babbling over and over about nonsensical stuff when that is exactly what i should NOT be doing.. so ya... before i start talking to myself on this blog entry... i think i better pen-off..

CLEOPATRA (96 b.c.-30b.c.)
You are like the Egyptian queen Cleopatra VII. You
know what you want, and you get what you want
and if you dont. .You have a black heart, you
dont even care about your brother. You have
immense durst for power. It is easy to you to
get a relationship to the other sex, you are
attractive nevertheless your nose is big. When
your father will die, you will kill your
brother that you can dominate what he left. You
will be together with very influential people
and they will really love you. One time someone
also very influential will hate you and take
you as a enemy. This person will ruin what you
created and take you to prison. Someone, who
loves you will kill himself for you. You dont
want to live like a prisoner . And younormally
get what you want. So after 12 days you will
kill yourself by putting 2 cobras on your
throat.


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Sometimes, National Day songs makes the most sense...
For EG: There was a time when troubles seem so far away, but we did, there was a time when people say that singapore won't make it but we did.. The first sentence in bold, well.. have you ever wished to return back to the time when troubles seemed so far away?? Coz, honestly, there was a million times that i wished that when i opened my eyes i'm back to that particular time where troubles ARE far away... and all this is just a dream... Its not that i regret my life.. i never do... i have cherished every minute of my time.. and enjoyed every moment... meeting who i met... and doing stuff that i do.. but there are also times when you just wish that ya... all this is just a dream.. be it bad or good... nobody cares.. but everybody hoped that it was a dream...

Haiz, i'm at a loss.. i'm speechless.. i'm in amazement... and i'm confused... coz i dunno what is it about and who is it for... But one thing for sure is that i'm just glad that this semester is getting to an end.. i'm just glad a new semester to a new year is going to start soon... i dunno what kinda person i've been this sem... but nothing good has come out of it i think... just hope that i'm a much better person next sem... that's all... But if i'm still the same.. well then... there's nothing much that i can do about it...

Finally law advocacy is over... hahaha.. today was the finals and i was the emcee for today together with Suk Ching... hahhaha.. Damn funny sia.. and how did i get involve?? don't ask me.. hahaha... i remembered the time when i wrote an entry stating that i would try to be more invinsible and not volunteer for anything anymore... but 2 days after writing down that particular entry, vit asked me whether or not i wanna be the Emcee for the law advocacy preliminary rounds... and i straight away said yes... wahhahaha... so much for me trying not to volunteer.. hahahaha... and i was emcee for most of the trial to finally today... the Justice Shield Law Advocacy Competition Finals

Anywayz, it started out find... but after the 10 minutes break, there were lots of changes that makes both me and suk ching turned cuckoo and blur for awhile and then, that was when the mistakes occured...
It started with me pronoucing the soccer team's star striker's name wrongly.. from ruthra to rathra... well.. i guess it wasnt that bad as compared to suk ching who accidentally called Mrs. Kurup, Mrs. Kumar when she wanted to invite her to announce the winner's of the justice shield.... wahahah.. it was hilarious.. the entire lt just erupted in laughter when we started pronouncing the names wrongly.. but somehow i didn't feel that embarrassed... most probably it was because i very thick skin already.... wahahhaa

Finally, all projects are done.. so far.. i'm left with my Arts App project which is a skit that we have came up with.. basically its suppose to be a comedy entitled Strictly Prohibited or is it No Rules?? hmmzz anywayz, its about a family with two extremely strict parents and 2 daughters, one of them is not rebellious but just to get on the parent's nerves she will do anything, while the other daughter is obedient but turned rebellious in the later part of the skit which resulted in their parents killing themselves.. Its truly hilarious...

Guess what role i'm playing?? nah.. i'm not the daughter.. hahahah... i'm the mother.. a cleanliness freak... wahahahhaa and the husband is a commando... even better.. wahahhaha.. its farnie lah.. we just cant keep a str, face each time during our rehearsals.. Besides that, i have no other projects...

Haiz, certain are just damn frustrating lah.. sometimes, i dunno whether to say sorrie or not.. and even better, sometimes i dun even know whether or not i'm in the wrong... so many things have happened.. i'm just sick of it lah... I mean.. what am i suppose to do?? Certain things are just not for me to do.. coz when i do it... the outcome will just be worst... which basically means, i just can't do it... and when i dont do anything about anything.. a different interpretation will be given which also in the end result in the same outcome = BAD!! I mean its not a win-win situation where i can pick either one and do not have to worry about the consequences... i mean its true that whatever you do has consequences but then... nvm.. i'm confusing myself....

At times, I'm just truly speechless.... taken aback... but what can i do or say?? you're like that.. and i know that for a fact from the start...

12th April 2004...

I dunno whether or not you'll be reading this... But just wanna say Happy Birthday to you... hahah 18 already huh?? so old.. can see the white hair already.. wahahah... Well.. would love to go out with you guys to celbrate your birthday... but then... i'm perfectly sure that none of us are free... me with examz around the corner.. you with your design workshops and madeena with relationship problems as usual.. whahahaha...

Anywayz, sorry that we cant celebrate you b-day with you today.. will make it up to you some other day... coz i think your b-day present is already purchased.. hehehehhehe

Well... there's nothing much to blog into this paticular entry.. coz i dun wanna spoil the birthday annoucement with an entry that is gonna drip with sarcasm and nevermind... so ya.. Hidayah!! Once again.. Happy Birthday!! Enjoy your day today.. yarhz?!?!

what's wrong with me?? haiz.. there's so much time.. and i waste it?? then when its late... you say got no time... haiz.... haiyo.. i tell you... i'm getting from bad to worse... it's just plain horrible... i think i've start studying... but the thing is.. or rather the problem is... the word "I THINK"... omg.. i seriously need someone to slap my face and give me a long nag.. or rather just some scolding...

Oh ya.. sorrie.. you know who you are... and why i'm saying sorrie... because i know you're angry and angry with me... but for a reason i do not understand.. but nevertheless... i'm sorry

hahahah... truly enjoyed myself today... wahahhaa..

Compared crim law test answers with siok lan just now.... Well.. there were lots... correction.. tons.. of questions that both of us had different answers... haiz.. but nevermind.. i think i'll be fine.. wahahahaha...

Anywayz, after crim law test, went to Miss Lim Poh Bee's house... Class Gathering... even though not alot of our classmates turned up for the gathering.. at least the population just now was more than the normal number of people that turned up for the past gatherings.... Really had a great time there... catching up on each other's life... or rather bitching around.. wahahhaha...

Supposed to go home... but got sidetracked starting with playing congkak with miss lim and later we played taboo... cool game.. must play it more often.. waahhaa.. its truly hilarious especially when you hear all kinda descriptions that sprout out of others in desperation to describe what was given to them in hopes that they did not mention any of the words stated there... wahahhaa... must ask miss lim to bring that to school and can borrow it from her when we got nothing better to do...

Tmr my mom's going KL... and she'll only be back on MON.. so sad... hahaha.. haiz... will have the entire house to myself... :P... even though my aunt is around... she doesn't count for being someone who will really really scold me.. coz... after nagging for 30 minutes and i still don't listen.. she will give up and allow me to go and do whatever i wanna do.. wehehehhee....

Now, the fun is ALL over.. and its time to get back to studying... haiz... its like... just when you got away from reality and start having fun... it just ends extremely fast and reality just hits you back harder each time... lalalalallaala... anywayz, i'll end my entry now.. need to re-type my tort things

Haiz, i promised myself not to go near the computer.. or maybe go near the computer.. but don't blog.. but obviously.. once connected to the computer.. i just can't seem to pull myself away from typing away into another blog entry especially when i am perfectly aware that i have no idea what the hell i'm suppose to blog about....

The thing is, before i log onto blogger, i had something in mind... and once i've come to the create new post page... the thing that was lingering around in the corner of my mind just seemed to vanish into thin air.. There is just too many things stored in this small little things called the brain... Things that are worth the brainpower to remember or things that are just a wastage of brainpower if you wanna continue remembering it... coz.. its a waste of time...

This entire week, people have been approaching me and asking me "why on earth is my face so black?" Soome thought that i'm upset with someone, some thought that i'm just having a bad day while some thought that.. hmm i dunno owhat the other some thought.. because i think that particular other some.. didnt even approach me at the time when my face was "black".. well.. how am i suppose to answer that particular question of theirs?? I dunno whether or not i should answer it in the first place...

There was one entry where i wished that i would have all the answers in the world... but right now.. i just wished to know and be aware on whether or not things that i do or say is the right thing to do in the first place.... Being insensitive... that is the issue.. am i insensitive?? or am i sensitive only that i am not sensitive the way you want me to be?? what do you think??

Fingers and mouth of mine have gotten into trouble so many times with the thing called insensitivity.... Let me ask you.. does the sensitivity level of a person varies from each individual?? Therefore, how would you know whether or not you've been sensitive enough to a certain person's feelings? What is the reasonble level of sensitivity for an average person???

This month has just begun, but i've been getting into endless troubles.. Not because of anything big.. the thing is.. i've been getting into trouble because of the smallest, minute things... One incident was not too long ago when i just reached home and put my phone on the table, it slided off and obviously fell to the floor. That triggered of the first scolding that later linked to the next scolding... and the following one... I know the main reason is that she doesn't want this particular phone that i'm using to spoil.

But please, why is it straightaway? it's just a phone sliding off.. and the scoldings were enough to make me realise that you doubt my sense of responsibility... enough to make my heart break... enough to make the tears roll.. I know you're going through a difficult time at the moment... but i havent managed to spend time with you... you're the only one that i've got... the only one that i can turn too each time.. after a long day of frustrations in school... we share everything.. that i dun mind.. in fact... i cherish our sharing moments..

The only sense of comfort.. is when we tok to each other.. you telling me your worries.. and me telling you or rather complaining to you about things... we keep secrets.. secrets that no one else knows except us... secrets that contained problems... things that none of the family knows... things that you always keep them from knowing... things that you will tell me when you are feeling helpless... things that i thank you for telling me...

I know you're worried.. you're frustrated.. coz you do not know what to do.. you do not know what is going to happen next... both of us are alone if we face the world without each other.. both of us have friends... but certain things.. you just need someone that you can truly trust with to share... I've been trying not to get on your nerves... i've been trying to keep away from your paths... I've been trying to clear the paths that i've messed... looking back to double check whether or not anything is out of line.. but, when you scold me the way you do... Seems as if.. i dont cherish things that you give to me... i dont value my possessions... when that occurs, i'm at a loss having no one to turn too.. but just stare at a blank page of a diary as tears wet the edges...

lalalla.. i'm sick and i'm tired.. so basically.. i'm just sick and tired... of what?? WAITING!! ya...

Anywayz, today... went to wacth TP Talent Search Finals... well.. some were awesome.. some were just ok... some could have done better... well.. there is always a next time.. rite?? hehehhe

Let me just put all this fun part of poly aside... The thing is... My examz is in 2 WEEKS!! and i have not started yet... well, yeah... i have kinda started on something.. but its not enough... exams is just around the corner... Waaaa!! *Sob Sob* Ok.. i think the next time i'm going to update my blog is after examz... or most prob.. earliest... is after my tort deadline... hehehhehe

you know what... things are just great....

First it was the printer that failed me... coz at first it ran out of black ink... then the stupid printer just refuses to print in other colours just because the stupid black ink is empty...

Secondly, my computer BROKE DOWN!! Damn!! it broke down on Friday night.. leaving me with no computer for most probably the rest of the week.. just nice... i mean how considerate can the computer or technology be rite?? especially when it knows that it is the only form of communication between me and my friends after school hours..

The link for me to do my project and online meeting with my groupmates... and obviously.. i had to kill my social life this week just because the freaking computer just killed itself on a fateful friday night..

And the thing that is even better is that... on sunday... my aunt went out.. my mom had to meet her client.. and my granduncle came to fetch my grandma back to malaysia coz my cousin (Actually he is my uncle.. even though he is only 24 yrs old) is getting married in August... (yes Suk Ching.. another wedding.. hahah) and i was left all alone at home with nothing to do.. no computer to accompany me the entire afternoon... and soon to be the entire week...

A word of advice to everyone out there... TECHNOLOGY IS UNRELIABLE!! It just turns its back on you at the most inappropriate of times!!! ARGH!!! DAMMIT!!!

And how did i manage to write this particular blog entry?? coz.. here i am in school... typing away when everyone could have typed theirs in the familiar surroundings and in the comfort of their favourite chair at home..

Haiz... things just gets better and better... At first i thought the future was rather bright... But obviously, nothing is predictable and things have to take an unexpected twist.. The change in events just make the future rather gloomy and bleak with the possibility of me having to leave things that i've grown to love... But then again, i have to look on the bright side.. it is just a possibility...

hahaha... guess what.. today was april's fool.. and it was not happening.. wahaha.. as in nobody played prank jokes on one another...

And omg.. i am seriously getting grumpy and cranky for no reason.. when i mean no reason.. i mean NO REASON... coz all the possible reasons just doesn't to fit at the moment.. :P.. Maybe i should indulge myself on all the cases that are available rite now in my bag or prepare for my crim case facts scenario.. or maybe i should type out the script... hmmzzz..

Had peer appraisal for tort just now... well.. one thing i've learnt from the peer appraisals.. is that.. i seriously need to wake up and start doing something.. and short term memory is definitely bad for a person.. especially for a student who have lots to do... coz it will just result in me being a bad group member for my future groupmates...

Blocking emotions outside the house is so easy.. with friends to act as a form of your distraction.. and once you reach home.. your barrier just melts away... you wall just crumbles... leaving you unprotected... and one thing that is definite at the moment.. i think i hate myself rite now.. so ya...

Wahahaha.. i better go to school soon.. have tort at 10am.. and its 8.42 now... hahhaah.. and why am i blogging and still at home?? Ans: I decided to skip lecture... whhahahahaha

And since i posted extremely early this morning on the topic: FATE... and i shall let that be the official topic for today.. hahahhhaahahha....

Fate: why do people always give that as an answer?? I mean its fine for you to give that answer after you've done everything that you can do and yet the it still turns out wrong.. or the results are just beyond your control.. then most prob.. yes.. you can say "It's Fate.." But like i say in my previous posting, i just can't stand when people says that it's fate and there's nothing you can do about it.. don't be surprised.. but there are still people in this world that keeps giving that excuse and just refuses to do anything to make their lives better and later blames everyone around them instead of seeing that its time to do something when some things goes wrong..

I used to have a cousin.. hmmm.. wait a minute.. its not used to.. i still have the cousin... wahahaha.. anywayz, this relation of mine... hmmzz.. how shall i put it?? believes in the stars??? As in, if their future is predicted... they will believe that it is true.. and if anything goes wrong.. when i mean anything.. its anything.. they will just say.. Oh its in the stars.. i mean don't you get frustrated when you listen to things that they continue going on and on about... esp. when you feel that it is just totally plain dumb...

Well.. maybe i dun believe in predictions.. but hey! isn't predictions suppose to be telling you what you can expect... i mean even though it might not be true and might just be 1% accurate... and if the prediciton is a bad one.. isn't it a call for you to do something about your life.. as in.. it is YOUR life to begin with... you have the power to control decisions.. the power to make choices... the power to make your life better...

why stop it just because some dumb prediction says that your business is gonna collapsed... I mean if someone gets that prediction and is really worried about the business... they would do everything in their power to make the business prosper even more.. rite??? not just wait there and do nothing and later when you business DO collapse.. you blame it on the prediciton.. tell me.. where is the logic in there??

And then you blame everyone.. you blame everything.. saying that life has never been unfair to you.. and you wonder why is god so cruel to bestow this upon you.. but think.. would god actually wanna give you all the goodness in life when all you do is nothing and leave everything up to fate???

and i better go to school NOW.. or else... DOOM!! wahahahaha

Finally managed to edit the poem that i deleted ages ago i think.. wahahaha..
Even though I have no idea whether or not this is better... i did the editting all by myself.. wahaha.. finally had all the time in the world to stare at it... but still needs practice.. wahaha

I'm tired of running
i'm tired of hiding
you think i'm avoiding?
oh please.. stop exaggerating

I used to think that
it starts from inside
but now I know how wrong
I was from the start
Coz I'm not as blind as a bat
Failing to see who is breaking from your side
Trying so hard to be free
of all the misery and suffocation
while you're on your shopping spree
indulging yourself on the occasion

Why O why do you have continue?
cant you just start on something totally new??

hello hello...

Haiz, can't imagine that i missed Smallville yesterday.. Gosh!! and to think that i was in front of the television all the while.. and yet i missed it.. wanna know why?? coz i fell asleep.. i think the only time anyone knew that i was asleep was when i actually made a sound asking someone to on the fan.. wahahhhaa...

my mom's b-day was on 29th March 2004... went out with her... after waiting for kay and mel to finish their audition.. and left after finding out that there was a 2nd round rite after the first.. so sad.. if not i would have company on my train journey all the way to town... Met my mom at Bugis for dinner.. Happy B-day MOM!! had a great time with her at Bugis.. chilled out and crapped all the way... and went home all sleepy... wahahhaa..

and guess what.. i'm not gonna get my phone in 5mths time.. i think i'm gonna get a new phone by most prob next week.. or latest next month.. cool huh?? hahahahha... and i'm gonna get a new number too.. so be prepared pple.. if i didnt reply to any of your messages soon (the soon is not so soon lah).. means that i've changed my number.. :P

Tell me.. why do i have the feeling that when next term starts.. i have to wear specs?? i seriously think i'm going to go blind soon.. hmmzz.. i think its because of all the lack of sleep that i've been getting this past few days.. which reminds me.. i better go to sleep soon as i have crim law lecture tomorrow at 9am.. and it is 1.32am now..

you know what.. i have something on my mind just now that keeps bugging me to blog about.. and then... now i just can't seem to remember what is it.. haiz.. another disadvantage of sleeping late... Short Term Memory!!! ARGH!!! This is a bad habit i tell ya... and i've been in an extremely weird mood for the past 2 days...

To tell you the truth, i've been rather.. hmmzz.. grumpy?? but i dunno why... thank god.. i didn't bite anyone's head off this 2 days... Phew!! if not.. haiz.. another problem?? whahahaha.. I'm just easily frustrated by someone this week... haiz.. i'm sorry if you're hurt by anything i say.. coz i seriously didn't mean it lah.. i guess its just the weird mood that i'm having.. and the thing is.. i'm just irritated by this only one person.. i dunno why.. but i think i'll figure it out soon... hehehehe... dun worry its not those that i've been hanging around all this while.. its not any of the 3 of you.. and suk ching.. dun worry.. its not you also...

think nad... think.. what is it that you wanna write in this entry??? haiz... Hmmzzz... let's see.. have i remembered it?? sometimes, i just wish that i can turn back time and make everything alrite again... soometimes, i wish that i'm not around to witness anything... sometimes, i just feel guilty and later wonders what am i gonna do to make amendments... sometimes, i truly envy people... envy what they've gone through.. envy certain events that have occured to make what that person what they are today..

To me, i feel that everything happens for a reason... but someone once told me that everything is in god's hands and there is nothing that we can do about it.. which i totally disagree and obviously me being me.. got into an arguement with that someone.. wahahahha...

i mean its true that god determines what our fate will be like.. but the thing is.. god have allowed us to do things within our power, and obviously our actions is the thing that later detemines our fate... am i making sense?? i mean its like.. you can't expect not to do anything for youself and later blames god when nothing turns out right especially when it is something that you could have done something about in the first place...

EEEEEEEE.... This is getting irritating.. sometimes.. i seriously do wonder what's the use of putting things at your own territory... I mean its like.. you arrange it in one way.. the next day.. your grandma wakes up and doesn't like what she sees.. and arranges everything again... and in the end you have to mess everything up again coz you just can't find anything..... EEEEEEE.. and it is seriously frustrating and irritating and a total waste of time...

And the next day you will obviously get a scolding because you messed up whatever she has cleaned up the day before.. and making the place looking like a pig sty again.. why?? coz you didnt have the time to clean it up again.. coz you are already toooo sleepy to bother about anything else.. only bothering about finding your things.. getting your tutorials done... and all the while thinking about your comfy beds...

Even though i keep telling her not to re-arrange anything that is put on my table... she just re-arranges it.. its not that i mind... its just that... when you can't find it.. you go and ask her.. and she obviously have forgotten where exactly she puts it.. and obviously.. you will no longer finds it.. and most probably you will find it in the next century or millenium where somebody wants to move house or something.. ahhahaa.. .but its true i tell ya..

sometimes, can't find the first one... then i have to go and buy the exact same thing again.. then obviously, she had to clean my table again.. and then mis-place it again.. and i have to go buy it again.. coz after asking her.. she already forgots where she puts it.. or claims that she did not touch it or move it.. then.. when your mom.. cleans the other part of your house.. and finds it... and then gives it back to you.. now you have 3 of the exact same thing.. and then.. you wonder.. what the hell are you suppose to do with all these...

Esp today.. i better find Suk Ching's Ericsson phone charger or else i'm dead i tell ya... coz i already put Suk Ching's phone in a paper bag together with all the chargers so that i can pass it back already... and guess what.. today... came back from school.... found the phones arranged nicely on my table OUT of the paper bag... argh!! and i have no idea where the paper bag went and the charger... i'm doomed i tell ya.. DOOMED!!!!

haiz.. i better stop complaining and start doing my tutorial... haiz... printer.. WHY??? Do you have to do this to me now?? WHY?? What have i done to deserve this????

Guess what my mom told me today.. what she says really shock me lah..

Just now siok lan came over to bake cakes for the orders that we received over the week.. last week... so ya.. helped with the baking also.. then helped her with Access in preparation for the Online Test which is tomorrow... hehehe... anywayz, after she left and before i went to jalan kayu to meet her again for dinner...

I was singing and singing at home.. practically making lots of noise lah... i think i sound like a wounded cat or something.. wahahaha.. anywayz, ya.. my mom was trying to make me keep quiet lah.. but obviously me being me... continued singing like nobody's business and nearly destroyed the house.. so i was singing and asking my mom to help me comment lah... ask her whether ok or not.. and how should i sing better?? stuff like that lah...

Then she was like.. i think you should train yourself and go and sing more malay songs.. as malay songs are more difficult to bring then english songs... then suddenly she was like.. you have to feel the song.. sing with emotion... I dunno why.. but you are blocking yourself from allowing people to see your true feelings...

and i just stared at her in shock.. i'm like.. wat?!?! i'm blocking my feelings?? since when?? then she was like ya.. you are blocking yourself from emotions that you are afraid to reveal to others... then i just stared at her in shock and speechless.. wahahaha.. seriously got nothing to say.. and what she said really got me thinking actually... i think there is some truth in it... or maybe there is lots of truth in it... i dunno... that is when i realised...

That i have not shown my feelings to many.. i have guarded myself from showing all kind of emotions in certain situations.. why?? i guess by showing feelings sometimes makes me feel vulnerable.. not being able to be in control of a particular situation... so.. i guesss that explains it i guess.. i dunno...

Oh ya.. it's not that i wanna quit.. I just feel like quitting.. but its just a feeling.. obviously something that i would not do and would never allow myself to do it.. hehehe

JUDGE
(Dominant Introvert Concrete Thinker )

Like just 3% of the population you are a JUDGE (DICT). Your affinity for facts and analytical approach to life help you some complex problems and make tough decisions that others cannot. But don't think you don't act like a bitch a lot of the time. You jump into arguments and hold grudges like crazy. Try jumping into the sack and holding buttocks, instead. You could probably use some love.

While some may see you as a bit overbearing and arrogant, your friends know that you are a trustworthy person with depth and a strong sense of righteousness. Although you are introverted and somewhat reserved, you have a forceful personality that your friends appreciate and your enemies fear. God help them. God help all of us.

God help them.. God help all of us??? what is that suppose to mean?? wahahaa..

Well well well... I manage to get my revenge and catch up on tons of sleep today.. hahahaha... slept at 3am on friday and wakes up only at 6pm today... cool huh?? hahahhaa... Its been soo long since i manage to sleep in and wakes up so late without having anyone to disturb me while i'm sleeping and nobody tries to wake me up because of one reason or the other... It was just a peaceful sleep.. and its so nice... but then ah... there is a disadvantage... why??

Coz it is 2am now and i can't even go to sleep... and now i'm staring at the computer screen with nothing to do... nobody to chat with.... nothing to blog about.. and i have no idea what homework i wanna do first.. wahahhaa.. this is terrible.. absolutely terrible i tell you.. hehehe.. so now once again... i'm trying to crack my brain trying to figure out what am i suppose to type in this particular blog entry.. at least it is to past the time before i actually decide on which homework to do first.. wahhahah

HELP!! hahaha... seriously bored.. flipping and flipping everything that i can get my hands on... You know what.. i realised something.. even though i usually have nothing to write.. my blog entries just get longer and longer each time... especially this month.. it just goes on and on and on... never-ending i tell you.. hehehhe..

anywayz, ya.. i think i would elaborate on the can i quit? topic.. hahahaa... well.. i think i've written this in one of my blog entries even though i dunno which one it is... the one on how i wish that sometimes i could close the book and chuck it in a bin and walk away into another life and start afresh.... so ya... coz sometimes, i just feel that i don't see myself doing this in the future... i dunno.. maybe i'm just extremely tired... or maybe i'm just getting bored of whatever i'm doing and i need something to spice up my life..

yeah i think i'm getting bored of what i'm doing which results in getting tired of everything... ya.. i feel that things are getting more and more routined... its like.. i'm doing the same things everyday... i mean its normal to go to school... and go for lessons... and go for break at the canteens... but its like.. even your homeworks get soo routined... if you know what i mean..

its like.. the assignment is the same.. to complete certain questions.. you have to go to the library and find the cases and then read it... and then answer your questions... or if not... go library... find cases... and then see how it applies to the assignment... hmmzzz.. i'm not complaining... but sometimes... when you think about it in the long run... i'll just go HELP!!!

But when i ask myself... did i actually regret my decision.. the answer is no... coz it's something that i've always wanted to do... it's my childhood ambition... even though at one point of time i wanted to be an architect... ya okiez... let me get back to the topic... its just that... hmmzz.. let's see.. i'm getting bored??

and i finally know which homework i'm going to do now... the lucky homework is... MACROECONS!! Yippee!! hahahaha... ciao.. and good nite.. or rather.. good morning...

Hmmzzz.... Finally have the hazrul song on my blog.. hahahhaa... just can't get enough of the song lah... my current favourite song.. loves everything about my blog.. from the skin to the song.. wahhahaa... hahahhaa.. anywayz, thankz azi... once again for saving my blog.. hehehhee you know.. you should be a computer genius or something... and start charging for your services lah.. but minus me lah.. heheheh

Anywayz, what have i been up to?? nothing much actually... been helping out with the Law Advocacy as Emcee.. i think i've memorised the entire thing on the second day.. wahahhaa... suppose to read out the trial procedure and stuff... anywayz, enough about me.. today those who were on trial was kay and azi.. they were in different rooms lah... then ah... there is a particular someone that i think i just dislike today.. haiz... seriously an unreasonable bird!! hahahhaa

where was i again?? oh ya.. mel covered azi's trial and i covered kay's trial... hahaha.. it was kinda funny.. the witness is soooo into the character that i thought she was gonna break down anytime soon.. whahahaha.. so ya lah... interesting and funny.. hahaha...

been listening to malay songs this week.. why o why?? no idea.. hahahaha... its like malay song after malay song... i mean last time in my disc man it used to be alicia keys.. or britney.. or nelly... and now siti nuhaliza?? wat telah happen?? hahaha... but for those who have known me.. been her fan since pri. 5... she is like POWER to the MAX!! hahaha

Remember there was one time when i said that i think that my blog entries are shallow coz most prob it is a public blog where the world could see it.. but somebody told me.. that someone finds my blog rather emotional... Emotional?? My blog?? Mine?? hahahaha

Oh ya... some have been asking abt my msn nick.. can i QUIT?? what do you think i'm talking about???
(Must remember to watch play for arts app assignment... [Due date:080404])

EEEE~~!!! Can someone strangle him?!?!?!?! By him I mean, MELVYN!! ARGH!!! Once again, i was tricked... i mean its common to get tricked by them... but getting tricked twice on the exact same thing.. Ok for those who are still lost.. let me be more specific.. Mr. Melvyn Lee here have tricked me yet again into watching a freaking horror movie... DAMN! hahahaha

I mean... First it was Gothika and now The Eye 2?? Guess what.. that's the end of your movie tickets buying era.. so that i can make sure that i wouldnt be tricked a third time into watching another horror movie.. Haiyo... I shouldn't have allowed them to know that i dun watch horror movies.. at least i can turn down the offer of watching movie each time they are gonna watch a show.. coz if they didnt know.. they would tell me what they are gonna watch... but since now they knew... obviously, they wouldnt say anything... This is an outrage i tell you!! :P

The best part was that.. Kay knew what we were going to watch and yet she didnt warn me.. hmmzzz.. Ok ok let me start right from the beginning... how am i suppose to know that he will change the movie when he was soo on abt the haunted mansion rite.. Coz previously during gothika... he went in straight to buy the tickets coz we were still discussing on the movie to watch and nothing seemed appealing.. but now... hmmzzzz...

i didnt really followed him to the counter at first.. coz i was lagging behind staring at something which i can't seem to recall right now... the thing that i heard is the part when he says 710pm and i only went up to him when i needed to pass him the money.. now come to think of it.. now then i know why he refuses to let me see the tickets... grrr.... so.. i'm not dumb ok...

anywayz, before the movie.. we went to COURTS and got stuck watching SO CLOSE... i got bored after awhile and started pressing all the hi-fi's buttons and walking around playing with the deep fryer and coming back now and then to pester melvyn that its time to go to the movies.. but obviously he refuses to budge... but now.. after i know what we watched.. makes sense why he didnt budge.... So ya..

I only found out that we are watching The Eye 2 is went the opening of the movie came on.. there and then i feel like strangling him man... EEEEEE~~~!!!!!

But then ah... i think if i dun have someone like him as my fren.. i would never ever watch horror movies... so i dunno whether or not it is a good thing.. but Melvyn.. stop praising yourself over this victory...

After that.. was chill out session at BK... Still feel like strangling him!!!!! But then again.. nevermind.. i will still get back my revenge at him... its coming i tell you.. its coming.. hahahhaa

lalalalalal... had fun today with suk ching and siok lan coming over... and we were suppose to do our revision.. but we just cant bring ourselves to do it.. hahhahaa... Well.. we were suppose to help my aun to bake the cakes for law week.. but in the end only siok lan helped as i was trying to crack my head thinking of what to do for my segment of tomorrow's criminal peer teaching...

Managed to finish all the 6 cake orders... not bad ah... hahaha.. but then ah.. both me and suk ching keep digressing from work.. and as a result nothing much is done.. whahahaha..we were like eating and playing games and munching.. hahhaha.. tsk tsk.. seriously need to cut down on all this.. promised my friend... that by june... i would follow her go and... nvm.. anywayz, ya.. really had fun lah..

and in the end they were like... we cannot go to your house if there is alot of things to be done... only will go when nothing has to be completed or during the holidays... hahahaha.. coz its like.. we were trying to do our work.. and then we will be stopping to watch tv.. bug's life.. then we will try to do our work again.. and then its time for dinner.. then we will try to do our work for the final time.. then we digress.. toking abt our current favourite topic.. and we tried to continue.. once.. again.. and then... forces if nature came on.. so ya.. no use continuing.. hahahaha

Today is great actually.. went to woodlands to get my penal code bound. then met my mom and watched movie.. the movie for today is: Butterfly Effect
The movie is sooo nice.. hahahaa... i kinda get lots of shocks at first thanx to the sounds.. dammit.. i hate those kinda effects.. hahahha.. but i guess that brings out the ambience that was desired for the particular scene... and my mom was like.. since when did you get shock easily... tsk tsk tsk. hahaha.. but other than that.. it was good lah..

I mean everybody knows that lots of things you do will have consequences... sometimes, even when you have the power to change the past to make it perfect, the future might not be all that perfect... Sometimes, you just have to make sacrifices for the ones that you care alot.. so that you will not risk hurting them in the future... come to think of it.. even though the movie is kinda confusing.. it does makes sense... hehehhe...

Its only 10.40+pm and i'm soo tired... Barely can't keep my eyes open anymore.. why am i sooo tired??? why am i soo drained out?? why am i no longer feeling bothered about anything?? I just hope that it wouldnt soon apply to what i've been doing.. to what i'm trying to focus on... Or maybe.. like what my mom says.. she thinks that i'm falling sick soon.. Noooo... hehehhee

Suddenly, there are times that i just dun see myself doing whatever i'm doing for a long time.. there are also time that i just wanna close the book.. chuck it in a bin and walked away.. looking for something else to do and start something else afresh.. can i do that?? hmmzzz... that would be a personal disappoinment and failure...

haiz.. just cant wait for peer teaching to be over and my econz to be handed in...

Haiz...

Things just continously happen huh?? BUt then agian.. i guess that is wat makes the world go around... that is also wat makes the sunrise and later sets giving way to the moon... For the high tide to occur every 6 hours and for a new leaf to grow on the tree.. ok ok.. nad.. stop the crap...

The sun shines as usual.. lighting up the great blue sky.. but watever i've heard today doesnt seem to tally to what i'm seeing.. watever i've heard is not even bright and cheerful.. and definitely NOT pleasant to the ears.. but thank god.. its not the eyes that's doing the listening.. its just the eyes that's doing the reading... But i thought it was over... truly.. i thought that things are back to normal.. and i definitely thought that some have actually forgotten abt it....

But i guess things tend to take a interesting twist.. when things tend to happen again only this time to a different person.. and especially when the story of the previous one is just about to go around like hot fritters... but who am i to say anything?? i think if i continued updating.. most of my entries will be near similar... But then again.. i dun think i'll be affected by such childish behaviour...

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Okiez finally got my sim card... and now finally got a phone.. thx suk ching.. owed you one... and i'll only be getting a new phone in 5months time.. soo sad... but then again.. I will be getting a new phone.. hahaha yippee...

Wat shall i write abt?? hmmzzz... have no idea... oh ya.. wat happened today?? had captain's ball game... hehhehe.. had a record breaking event... lost 3 games in a row.. WHEE~ hahaha

i seriously have nothing to write abt... hmmzzz.. *thinks hard... wrecking my brain.. flipping through the pages and pages of stacked up memories...* guess my mind's just tooo blank.. oh ya.. my mom been complaining that i'm too involve with school.. hahaa.. one of the reasons why i should be more invisible.. hehehee...

oh ya.. finally remembered what to write...

Deleted to be editted.. hehehe... now i shall not attempt things on the spot.. it seriously sounds weird...
i think if my lit teacher read it... she will put her face underneath a bag... wahhahaha... WOndering what sin did she ever do to cause such a deadly disaster.. hahahhaha
(Ok... bad attempt.. i think i can do better if the topic is just something else.. hahahaha)

TODAY IS JUST GREAT!!!

Just damn great.. actually... this morning it was really truly great... my OP was not so bad lah.. think can make it one.. BUt later on.. ITS JUST GREAT!!! I mean just imagine.. first, it was the freaking ATM card that was failing on me... and then it has to be the phone... it just disappeared... i mean it evaporated.. as in.. it's just gone...

and now wat am i suppose to tell my mom sia.. and besides that.. no life till i get another phone.. coz all the numbers are in the phone and no where else... omg... help!!! So.. my apologies to those who have been msging me and did not receive any replies... sorrie guys...

Okiez.. Let me update you with wat happened yesterday...

Saturday: 13th MArch 2004
Went to school at around 12.. Had LSM OP Presentation Rehearsal.. Oh ya.. Still have not come up with a title for our presentation... have to think of it tmr.. actually.. have to think of it by tmr!!! haiz...
Okies enough about OP.. Projects are seriously a depressing subject to elaborate on.. SO i shall elaborate on some other topic.. Such as the trip to esplanade!!! ~WHEE!!~ Had lunch with my friend before going home to get ready for the concert...

Just because i'm the only one.. doesn't mean that everybody tries to filter wat i see.. Just because i'm young doesnt mean that i've not seen much.. I maybe childish and playful.. but does it equals to me being immature in my htinking as well?? Sometimes.. i wonder who's life is it that is sheltered?? Who is it that has not seen enough?? Who's vision is it that has been filtered?? Maybe its just the nature of a human being.. Just because they lived longer... they tend to think that they know better..

Sometimes its true that wisdom come with age... but does experience comes along with age as well?? Let me give you a simple scenario... Let's say the topic is Kissing... A 15-yr-old girl has 15 EXs and a 17 yr-old girl has always been single... who will have more experience?? Never under estimate a person..

Anywayz, back to the topic of ESPLANADE... Went to esplanade to watch the "Nanyang Musical Voyage 2" with Madeena, Hidayah and my mom.. OMG!! It's damn nice sia.. hahaa.. Really enjoyed the Singapore Chinese Orchestra... Haiz.. *Dreaming* Anywayz, wasted coz we had an extra ticket which was supposed to be for Madeena's guy... but obviously they had to quarrel just minutes before meeting us... then obviously he didnt come along for it... But ah.. if they quarreled much earlier.. i could ask someone else along... haiz.. If only... hahahhaa... ok ok.. i shall stop.. i'm mean... wahahaha

Then the singers were Hazrul (local-The talentime runner-up.. remember him??) and Dewi Yull(Indonesian)... And the first few songs were done by Hazrul.. Haiz.. I practically melt down there.. Esp the song.. "Kaulah Segalanya" wahahhaa.. thank god its not literally.. if not my mom would have to bring me home in a bucket... The Malay dance was just ok.. just average... then after that... Dewi Yull sang.. and blew everyone away... i mean.. there was one song that she sang... w/o using a mic and it filled the entire concert hall and everyone was just stunned... staring at her... with mouths hanging open.. hehehe... really.... not exaggerating.. it was just awesome.. and 2 hours flew by damn fast.. and the next thing we know is that.. ITS OVER!!!

Reached home around 11.45pm... Then the best part was that Hidayah slept over!! We talked and talked and talked and giggled and laughed till around 3.30am.. wahahhaa... Luckilly my grandmother didnt wake up and scream at us to keep quiet.. hehehehe...

Then today came along... Sunday: 14th March 2004
Went to my uncle's place for my cousin's wedding... Nice setting... the place was decorated in dark red and pale pink.. i think the concept was garden wedding or something... It was really sweet ah... Got introduced to relatives i never knew existed.. And for the first time.. No irritating comments was passed...

Or maybe coz the pple that usually take up that particular position and take delight in throwing comments wasnt around.. including those who i'm kinda "close" to.. Nadia and Omar.. (So ya.. For those who were wondering who is Omar.. He is my cousin...) Somehow, i wasnt surprised that they were not there... Most prob.. they were not even aware of the wedding also... Ya.. and of coz.. we (my mom and I) were questioned why didnt we attend they function the day b4... hehehehe... Today's event wasn't as stressful as i anticipated.. coz... someone wasn't around

But of course, in the midst of his absence, i learned alot.. i discovered alot.. things that most prob i would not have known if he were around... coz obviously he never wants me to know anything abt him.. and expects me to give all my love to him... i mean.. when you think abt it... how can you love someone and yet you dont even know who that person really is... Eventhough he has an important role in my life..

But to me.. That role is just a name in which its responsibilities you have not satisfied... so ya.. Forgive me.. if one day i might just disappear and run away from my responsibilities and duties that my role has bound me to do... Coz, my role also gives me a choice to fulfill my duties to another person who have done more than what she is suppose to do... who has sacrifice more than what is needed.. who has the courage to fight on when everybody's negative eyes were on her... and someone that i know i could never repay even if i devote my entire life to her...

Anywayz, i dunno whether the rumours are true... but just take care of her.. whoever she is.. And just visit those you have ignored all this while becoz of matters that i think you yourself have forgotten.. so why is the grudge still lingering around?? People are not getting younger each day... and that includes you.. someone practically pleaded me today to pass a message to you.. but i wonder.. can i even pass it when i'm soo terrified of you...
Okiez.. i better stop this...

Haiz!!~~ I'm seriously dying here.. There's so much to do... But there's sooo little time.... MBS is seriously killing me... I dunno how to create a freaking query!! argh!!! Hmmzzz... haiz... The thing just refuses to go on the right track i tell you!! and i'm dying here... and the best part is that i have not done my crim tutorial!! *wails*

Hmmzzz.. this entry seems never ending.. but ladies and gentlemen... this entry for today.. has ended.. (",)

Well.. I better get going to school.. or else... its DOOM!!! hehehee...

Looking forward to meet up with Madeena and Hidayah today... We're going to the Nanyang Musical Voyage with... my mom... hehehhee.... I've been meeting them so frequently this few days... to the extent... that I myself am shock at it.. I think they are too.. .Coz its like we only tend to meet up once a month or twice a month.. or better still eversince poly... its.. once every 6 months... but what to do... you meet up once in a while.. there is so much of catching up to do... But the 3 of us knows that no matter how long we've not seen each other... or we have not been calling each other for the past 3 or 4 months... we know that we will never drift apart from each other... y?? Dun ask me.. heheheh..

Guess what i just realised today?? The term is gonna end soon.. fast rite?? haiz... i feel that i havent been doing anything or rather i havent been doing enough for anything... and its like i'm doing things soo slowly.. that at times even i get impatient with myself... haiz... nonsense...

Well.. Next week is OP (on Tues)... and MBS dateline(on Mon) and econz presentation (tues).... so after next week.. i think life would be much much more less hectic than it is now... coz now its like everyone is sooo tensed with group work... and so stressed with dunno wat... hmmmzzz...

Actually was kinda thinking of joining Law Advocacy.. Part of me goes like.. you join it and you are signing your death contract while the other part is like... just join for the fun of it... But then again... i dunno... I think i'm gonna act as if i'm invisible for the next 2 years or something and that i'd act as if i dun even exist... But it depends on whether i can do it or not in the first place

"I'm waiting for normal body parts to arrive... I'm invisible and I'm drenched...."

Did the love quiz... I think it's cool... rather surprising results i might say...

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.

4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is
ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one that you care not only about the present but
also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship
that you can grow with.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as
something you can get and trash anytime you want.

http://naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm

Lalalalala... Today nothing much happen... lalalllalala

Luckilly we didnt went to have dinner outside today... Coz on my way home, I met Omar in the bus... It's been SOOO long since i last met him... i think the last time was 2 yrs ago... It was like sooo long ago.. hmmzz.. hahaa... must be miss him.. wahahaha... To the extent that i nearly couldnt recognize him already.. He is still gd looking and all.. but he looks so damn matured now... If he didnt smile at me.. I wouldnt have approached him at all... hahaha.. Was kinda happy that I met him today actually... hahaha... Managed to catch up on each other's life quite alot... let see.. we manage to tok for a duration of 5 bus stops before he alighted... hahaha... haiz... hmmzz... well.. i think i should end my ramblings for now....

Hmmzzz.. you know wat.. i realised something.. I really really havent been updating on what i've been doing all this while.. if you know what i mean...

Well... It started with a clear happy mind on Monday night.. and became rather frustrated on wednesday... hmmzzz.. Grrr.. Really complained to my mom during the weekend.. and the best part was when she started laughing in my face at one point in time... hmmzz... It was rather dumb when you think abt it actually... I mean you expect a person to learn how to do it the right way when you should actually be grateful when someone is already showering you with it.. I mean.. at least its better than nothing... Well.. and i've also realised that i've been doing tons of complaining.. which i SHOULD STOP!!! coz, i really should stop bothering pple with my complaints... :P

Then my days really became better with the start of watching "Cat in the Hat"... It's totally dumb and lame.. and guess what.. the moral of the story is really common... best advice to those who are rule breakers... hahaha.. The Moral is:"Never do the opposite of what your mom says and siblings should not bicker constantly" wahahaha... Well.. that's all about cat in the hat i guess... but then again.. i guess it is not the end of cat in the hat.. I think its just the beginning.. (",)

Then on saturday.. I really had a great time... The whole group of us went to Mr. Ferlin's house.. The whole group is those that are involved in the Murder Game... So ya... We ate... and gossiped... and watched lame VCDs (Goodness Gracious Me..) But thank god.. we switched to X2 after awhile.. coz seriously the show is getting lamer and lamer as each episode pass....

Some of us were gossiping away at the gossip counter while me, mel, kay and azi made ourselves comfortable on the couches in the living room.. that was after we explored his house... which of coz we finished exploring in 1/2 hour.. and we found out that he doesnt cook.. coz his stove is piled with dust.. and he has nice toilet which MX later contaminated it.. wahahhahaha... and he has comics collections which he allowed me to read.. and mel practically made me put it back where i found it... and his CD collections is.. WHOA!!! and that was also where we found the item of blackmail.. wahahah!!!

And Mr. Ferlin also taught the 4 of us how to bitch... wahahhaa... Just follow this rule and you can do it like Mr. Ferlin... "If you wanna bitch... Say it without hesitation" Well, of course we tried it on him.. wahahha.. and managed to blackmailed him as well... but then again.. he threatens my OP marks... so ya.. we'll see what will happen during our presentation.. muahahaha!!! The conclusion to that day.. is that... it was AWESOME!! wahahaha...

Then Monday came... and for the first time in the entire semester that i actually loved MBS.. wahahhaa.. as you can see my monday's posting... then today came.. It sucks.. I mean it was fine.. until there came a time.. that it sucked... hmmmzzz.. I mean even though i didnt prepare for it... its such a failure!!! ARGH!!!

Then went to watch "Big Fish" with azi and mel... Well.. the show is nice.. but personally, i feel that it's slow and draggy... and my advice to my friends is that.. only watch it if you had a good long sleep or rest... so ya... then crap with mel later in the night at LJS while having dinner... tsk tsk tsk... Mel.. Next time bring along a meter rule or something... so that it will keep you walking in a straight line... muahahaha!!! (",)

WHEE!! I LOVE MBS!! YAY!! YIPPEE!! WHOOPEE!! I CAN FLY~~ I CAN SOAR~!! I CAN TOUCH THE SKY!! WAHAHA~!! Oh MBS MBS.. Wherefore art Thou MBS? Oh my darling MBS!!! WHEEPIEE!!!

Such a perfect beginning to the week.. Just hope that nothing spoils it!! A perfect start to a BEAUTIFUL day~ (",)

Hmmmzz.. i wanna read my book!! but cannot let my mom see.. hahaha. she will go like.. why aren't you doing your sch work?? thank god my term test results aren't out yet.. if she knows my results and sees me reading my book.. I think i better start digging my grave already... wahahaha...

Finally my arts app presentation is done!! Whoopee!! So happy!! one down and 5 more to go.. yay!!

The saddest thing in life is when nothing happens.. :p hmmzz... nvm.. i'm sleepy.. have no idea what i've said.. wahahahhaa

A word that is constantly used, yet not easily achieved? A word that is easily said.. But let me ask.. can you do the same?? Maybe its time for the other to take their turn to do it.. coz i'm tired of trying to do it.. coz when i'm actually doing it.. you say i'm not.. and when i'm not.. dun even bother.. coz i'm no longer around to even know what's coming up next... So tell me... can you do it?? can you achieve a much better result at doing it?? if you can.. then prove it! coz i'm tired of trying and why dun you take my place and try??

Interesting.. hahahaha.. Quizzes... WHEE~~ You should try.. hahhahaa.. Oh ya.. i'm a wat?? LOL!!! Cute~!!


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Your a goddess! Forget angels, its all about you.
Angels serve god, right? So why not be a
goddess? Hold on there, girl, and easy with the
fame. A Goddess is absolutley the most
beautiful, powerful, and magic being alive
there is, but they can tend to be quite
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with their power, and turn greedy and shallow.
Good ones are pure and full of life, and if on
earth, flowers sprout at their steps. Others,
decided to live in a palace in heaven, with
such beauty never knwon. They are very kind and
good leaders, but can tend to be a little lazy,
jelous, greedy, and obnoxious.


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Just when i've said that i'm free of all things heavy for the mind.. it has to be put into again.. Its not that i care.. Its just freaking frustating sia.. Especially when your point is NOT GETTING ACROSS!!!!!!!! ARGH!!! I've regretted certain things i do.. and yest was one of those times... i regretted doing it.. going there... coz in the end.. as a result the freaking frustration is freakingly seeping back in!!! Its truly shit ah.. truly a freaking piece of shit!!!

you know what.. I'm free.. hahahaa.. I know alot have been hearing this.. But then again, Now the calling "I'm free" is more on a personal level.. I'm free of my own doubts.. I'm free of my own questions... I'm free of everything that is personally confusing.. Basically, I'm free!!! And the feeling is GR8!!! It feels as if a dark heavy cloth has just been lifted up and thrown away.. and you can just walk around freely without any heavy things as restrictions... It's Just GREAT!! Ok.. I'll stop repeating this.. hahahhaa

Hmmzz... I've got one thing on my mind.. that is.. TO QUIT OR NOT TO QUIT.. That is the question... hmmzzz... I'll see whether or not i'll quit... but then.. it'll be such a waste... been doing it all this while.. been going for it... But when i ask myself whether what kinda feeling do i get out of it.. It just a BLANK... Coz there was alot of time where i wondered "what in the world am i doing here?" But when i enjoy it.. i enjoy it.. When i don't then it's just plain boring.. and at times can be stressful.. yes... stressful.. hahhahaa

Hmmzz.. Havent been blogging for awhile.. Have no idea what to update on..

What have i been doing these past few days?? Today was the 1st day of school after the term break... I think i'm gonna start gearing up for examz.. Coz or else i'll be lagging behind.. Cant afford to do that.. why?? Coz i know i'm someone who will never accept it if i failed something.. :P

These past few days have been rather interesting...
On fri, as everybody knew, O' levels result were announced.. On Sat.. I helped Madeena chose the courses... hahaha.. Really had fun terrorizing her with the courses that she dont even have the interests in.. hahha.. finally managed to settle with architecture, landscape architecture, HTM, Horticulture and Landscape Mgt, Interior design, FS&V and digital media design.. hahaha.. Interesting courses... Just hope that she'll get it!! AMEN!!

There are people that just know someone so well.. They just take one good look at you and they know that something is up or just that something is not rite... And they start questioning you... (not in an irritating way.. but you know...) then no matter how you try to change the topic... they can just insist and stays on the exact same topic till you finally reveal to them what's on your mind... Then and only then will they be satisfied... Usually (but sometimes, this is not the case.. :P) these are the people that saw you through your transission periods... seeing you grow...

The conclusion is that they just know you well because of what they have been seeing of you.. To the extent that they will know the next line that will come out of your mouth... So sometimes you dun have to finish your sentence, as they will finish it for you.. (",) They know how you will react to stuff.. and these are also the people that no matter what they say... they just CANT offend you.. rite??

Usually, this are also the people that you tend to treasure most in your life... that you would put your life at stake to save theirs... Ever met this people before?? I'm sure everybody has... But then again.. Sometimes i wonder whether or not I've come ......... Nvm... Forget it..

hmmz finally got a new skin.. haiz..sch is gonna start tmr... sleepy!! SLEEPY!! hahahaa... okiez... have nothing to enter in rite now.. so ya..