Sensitive Doer (SD)
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Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company. All in all, this type is the most likeable and friendliest of all personality types. Tolerance and heir regard for others distinguish their personality. They are very caring, generous and always willing to help. They are open to and interested in everything that is new or unknown to them. However, if their inner value system or their sense of justice is hurt, Sensitive Doers can suddenly and surprisingly become forceful and assertive.
Sensitive Doers enjoy the comforts life offers to the full. They are very happy in everyday life. Sensitive Doers are often gifted artists or very good craftsmen. Creativity, imagination and an especially keen perception are just a few of their strong points. Sensitive Doers are very presence-oriented; long-term planning and preparations do not appeal to them. They take life as it comes and react flexibly to daily demands. They do not like too much routine and predictability. Their talents come more to the fore when work processes are variable and there are not so many rules.
Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly.
Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts - quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them. Sensitive Doers are often very fond of animals and are very good with small children. As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. Their love of pleasure makes them a pleasant companion with whom one can experience intensive moments. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs - often more than to their own. However, should they meet the wrong person, they run the risk of being taken advantage of. They are then deeply disappointed.
Adjectives which describe your type
introverted, practical, emotional, spontaneous, sensitive, peace-loving, reserved, gentle, good-natured, independent, empathetic, friendly, playful, carefree, sympathetic, relaxed, quiet, modest, pleasure-loving, loyal, obliging, caring, helpful, optimistic
These subjects could interest you
art, music, craftwork, garden work, animals, nature, literature, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, music, handicrafts, writing
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Don't you just agree to all those i've bold!?! LOL!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
22 was blessed with 3
It was a day spent with the person I can't lie too, the person who understands me and the person whom I truly love.
Thanks for all the wishes as the clock strike 12. I was still at Deena's place for my Jalan Raya and Neo messaged me. I didn't realise that it was already 25th Oct till I read his message. lol!
Toot-fied pls.
This year, I don't know why but I dont seem to expect anything. But nothing is something that isn't happening.
I thought this year I will be spending it quiet. The way I spent it last year. But seriously. How wrong i was. My cousin abandoned me last week despite promising me that she will spend time with me this year during my birthday. Surprise. She left.
So I decided, I will have my own fun without realising what they have in store for me.
I went to watch a play with Mel and he brought me out for my birthday dinner. Yes it was uber sweet.
Maybe coz I reach to a point where I wasn't expecting anything. lol!!
I was suppose to meet the girls to club that night but little did I know that they and mel have planned something for me! I was temporarily blind, I was given my birthday cake and everyone sang a birthday song for me!!! it was odd but.. you know.. sweet.. lol!!
They gave me my birthday presents and they TRIED to sabo me but i warned them that I didn't bring any extra clothes. So ya.. they were kind. LOL!
I was allowed to open my presents but I wasn't allowed to read a letter. It was painful pls, the fact that I had to wait till the time I reach home to read it.
The night was something I'll never forget. It feels as though its the last time I'm gonna spend my birthday here... Maybe it is.
The rest of the pictures are put up on my facebook under the albums titled "22 was blessed with 3" part 1 and part 2.
I'm looking at the photos and the presents laying rite in front of me. I'll never forget last saturday. that's for sure.
Many thanks to:
Mommy for giving me a Digital SLR for my birthday which made me scream for the entire hougang to hear when I saw it.
Tuti for the bag and perfume. Don't worry la, the bag is fine can!
Bear for the charm bracelet and the letter. Thank you. really. Truly and sincerely. No, not for making me cry. But we both know why. I'll cherish it... forever.
Deena for being the mastermind behind most of it all.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
I swear there are times where I think a person has problems with just the fact that I exist. I mean, one can't possibly be jealous of me. There's really nothing to be jealous about.
I'm not really sure how I manage that really. I try to be as invisible as I can be but it seemed as though I fail each and everytime.
What can people be jealous off? That my friends are richer then them? more good looking then them? I hang with the socialites? WHAT? fuck ah. It cant be me wat? I mean what's there on me to be jealous off? My boobs bigger then yours ah? WTF.
So yes. I concluded, I think its the mere fact that I exist.
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On a sidenote: nobody realised that I wore contact lenses today. And I wore blue. TRUE SAPPHIRE. Do you even know how bright that is? very.
I'm not really sure how I manage that really. I try to be as invisible as I can be but it seemed as though I fail each and everytime.
What can people be jealous off? That my friends are richer then them? more good looking then them? I hang with the socialites? WHAT? fuck ah. It cant be me wat? I mean what's there on me to be jealous off? My boobs bigger then yours ah? WTF.
So yes. I concluded, I think its the mere fact that I exist.
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On a sidenote: nobody realised that I wore contact lenses today. And I wore blue. TRUE SAPPHIRE. Do you even know how bright that is? very.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Hari Raya is... NOT Over yet..
Been visiting my relatives. The grandaunts to be exact. Spent last sunday at Sennett Avenue and witness the old people indulge themselves in reminisence. The day spent in the garden, on the swings under the trees, was like a picture of eden.
Its uber sweet how they talk about their past. Their life. Their escapades. Their husbands.
It seemed so surreal that our grandparents married when they were 14 or so, lived their lives, had kids (lots of them sometimes) and went on even after their spouses passed on.
The emptiness in their eyes reflect the loyalty they buried within. The tone of their voice reflect the undying love for their partners that lived on in their hearts. The smile reflected the happiness and joy of the love they shared. The distant stare showed what they remembered so fondly off.
Somehow, my heart felt empty when I listened to their stories. At this day and age, where the mind ruled over the heart, you'll hear talks of individuals not wanting to have a family. To be able to live life by his or herself. To be independent.
Its when the festive season arrives, and the visiting occurs, that stories are told. So fondly. So everlasting. Forever etched in my mind. Even makes me want to have such stories to pass down to my children, my grandchildren, my great grandchildren...
But there's always the fear. The fear of being left behind not because of your partner passing on. Instead some other external factor. Yeah. I am perfectly aware that I'm not the most perfect woman to be with... And it has been lingering on my mind...
Alittle toooo long then it should.
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I want a fairytale. Found it once.
I want a love that will last. Found it once.
To find it again is something rather questionable...
I want it all.
Greediness is not a crime. Its a healthy indulgence.
If you think Greed is a sin; Indulgence is meant to be sinful anywayz.
So its fine either way... =)
Been visiting my relatives. The grandaunts to be exact. Spent last sunday at Sennett Avenue and witness the old people indulge themselves in reminisence. The day spent in the garden, on the swings under the trees, was like a picture of eden.
Its uber sweet how they talk about their past. Their life. Their escapades. Their husbands.
It seemed so surreal that our grandparents married when they were 14 or so, lived their lives, had kids (lots of them sometimes) and went on even after their spouses passed on.
The emptiness in their eyes reflect the loyalty they buried within. The tone of their voice reflect the undying love for their partners that lived on in their hearts. The smile reflected the happiness and joy of the love they shared. The distant stare showed what they remembered so fondly off.
Somehow, my heart felt empty when I listened to their stories. At this day and age, where the mind ruled over the heart, you'll hear talks of individuals not wanting to have a family. To be able to live life by his or herself. To be independent.
Its when the festive season arrives, and the visiting occurs, that stories are told. So fondly. So everlasting. Forever etched in my mind. Even makes me want to have such stories to pass down to my children, my grandchildren, my great grandchildren...
But there's always the fear. The fear of being left behind not because of your partner passing on. Instead some other external factor. Yeah. I am perfectly aware that I'm not the most perfect woman to be with... And it has been lingering on my mind...
Alittle toooo long then it should.
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I want a fairytale. Found it once.
I want a love that will last. Found it once.
To find it again is something rather questionable...
I want it all.
Greediness is not a crime. Its a healthy indulgence.
If you think Greed is a sin; Indulgence is meant to be sinful anywayz.
So its fine either way... =)
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
This is the one song in Princess Hours that never fails to bring tears to my eyes. Not only when I stare at the television screen. Even when I hear it on my MP3. hahaha. ya i know. crybaby! LOL!
I still think the prince is cute. My mom however has concluded that he looks like a monster, with his half moon eyes and when he smiles, it disappears. I however, still maintain my stand that he is cute.
so ya. This song feels rather heartbreaking but I dont know why though. lol!
Monday, October 13, 2008
She's worried abt me alrite. She's worried how i'm gonna do there. She's even worried what if things just go wrong.
I've wanted this my whole life, would I really allow anything to jeopardize it? If she's wondering that I will other factors affect this. Then I guess I will just have to prove her wrong. Sadly.
I am not that kind of person and never once have I managed to let the other step over the line. There's a thin line in between everything and so far I have managed to maintain it.
Personal and career.
That's 2 different things and I'm perfectly aware of that.
And yes, I will try to tell you everything even when one of my subjects' results are atrocious.
I've wanted this my whole life, would I really allow anything to jeopardize it? If she's wondering that I will other factors affect this. Then I guess I will just have to prove her wrong. Sadly.
I am not that kind of person and never once have I managed to let the other step over the line. There's a thin line in between everything and so far I have managed to maintain it.
Personal and career.
That's 2 different things and I'm perfectly aware of that.
And yes, I will try to tell you everything even when one of my subjects' results are atrocious.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle yes in deed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day.
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
Flaws & All
We didn't realise what we mean to the other, did we?
I am just tooo scared for you. I think you know that already.
Thanks for thinking that of me and answering my question as to why I stay. I'll always be here. Yes, for you.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Fell asleep yesterday while playing with my pet on petsociety. Woke up only to realise that its already morning and my laptop was turned off and put at the corner.
Had the weirdest dream. Its been quite sometime since I last had such things. Sat up on the bed only to have a heavy feeling tugging on my heart. Something wasn't right. Its not right at all. My phone rang and the display pictue appeared.
Something was definitely not right. About to pick it up when it stopped. And then I knew why.
A long awaited invitation has finally arrived. A new player has been added into this game. Me.
I am not what she thinks I am. I'm much more stubborn then anyone I've met.
My only worry is that, what if, what if I accidentally exchanged words of insult in my anger?
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New Player has accepted the invitation. Welcome.
Had the weirdest dream. Its been quite sometime since I last had such things. Sat up on the bed only to have a heavy feeling tugging on my heart. Something wasn't right. Its not right at all. My phone rang and the display pictue appeared.
Something was definitely not right. About to pick it up when it stopped. And then I knew why.
A long awaited invitation has finally arrived. A new player has been added into this game. Me.
I am not what she thinks I am. I'm much more stubborn then anyone I've met.
My only worry is that, what if, what if I accidentally exchanged words of insult in my anger?
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New Player has accepted the invitation. Welcome.
Monday, October 06, 2008
6th October 2008
I cant bring myself to do the necessary. I can't bring myself to post the entry typed out before this. The entry that was typed out 2days ago. Today is 6th October.
And Deena asked me whether is that what I really wanted. I couldn't answer her but instead only tears wet my cheeks. All I said was, Its for his own good. She told me not to be stupid. Its something that the both of us didn't want, she said.
Only god knows the feelings that I've been hiding inside. Guilt being at the top of the list, for now.
This yr's emmy nomination, I've been included. Most probably I'll get the prize for Best Actress, especially at the rate I am going.
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Am I really worth it to go through all this trouble?
I cant bring myself to do the necessary. I can't bring myself to post the entry typed out before this. The entry that was typed out 2days ago. Today is 6th October.
And Deena asked me whether is that what I really wanted. I couldn't answer her but instead only tears wet my cheeks. All I said was, Its for his own good. She told me not to be stupid. Its something that the both of us didn't want, she said.
Only god knows the feelings that I've been hiding inside. Guilt being at the top of the list, for now.
This yr's emmy nomination, I've been included. Most probably I'll get the prize for Best Actress, especially at the rate I am going.
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Am I really worth it to go through all this trouble?
Thursday, October 02, 2008
SELAMAT HARI RAYA~!
Its the 2nd day of raya and i'm at work. Yayness.
The last few hari rayas, i'm either jobless or ya.. Most of it jobless lor. lol! i love being jobless on hari raya... I could sleep and wake up late after a late outing the night before and not worry how many more days of leaves i have after this or whether or not i have work piling once i return from leave.
So this time, I'm at work.. so there is no piling up off work. There is just boredom and the lack of interest to work. I didn't intend to even take leave this hari raya actually. But then my boss in particular has wondered why I have yet to apply for leave since everyone has gone on leave and all and here i am working like crazy.. similar to her, we both have reached a point of flipping out tables once. lol!
So ya, going on leave was due.
she's leaving for taiwan next wk and has been asking me whether i wanted anything... taiwan, wat's there in taiwan? i dont even know lor.. haix.
I am so sleepy, I swear I'm ranting like mad.
So yes. the point i'm trying to make is that. I'm on leave tmr.
WAHAHAHHA~!!
I have photos but i'm at work now and my photos are in the laptop. I forgot to bring my memory card here. point trying to make here: will upload later...
I'm in a kebaya top rite now. with office pants. It feels weird even though i've seen so many pple wear it this way before. Maybe coz i'm so used to wearing it full... But i was late lor just now.. cant be bothered to tie my kain. Point trying to make here: This morning wasnt the best morning. I'm in a bad mood.
Rite now, I'm just sleepy and tired. I dunno why but yeah I'm just like.. bleargh~!
And i saw syaz's Hari Raya photos in Australia. I swear its funny how they're all like so semangat you know.. cook everything and bake cakes and all.. LOL! Ok fine. I think i would do it too.. but its kinda bittersweet though and quite fun too.. lol!
I have that to look forward to next year. kwang kwang kwang.
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Berlalulah sudah ramadan sebulan berpuasa
Tiba syawal kita rayakan dengan rasa gembira
Anak muda di rantauan semuanya pulang ke desa
Ibu dan ayah keriangan bersyukur tak terkira
Bertukar senyuman dan salam ziarah-menziarahi
Tutur dan kata yang sopan saling memaafi
Suasana hari raya walau di mana pun jua
Memberikan ketenangan dan mententeramkan jiwa
Kuih dan muih beranika macam
Makanlah jangan hanya di pandang
Ketupat rendang sila nikmati kawan
Penat memasak malam ke pagi
Wajik dan dodol jangan lupakan
Peninggalan nenek zaman berzaman
Asyik bersembang pakcik dan makcik
Hai duit raya lupa nak di beri
Its the 2nd day of raya and i'm at work. Yayness.
The last few hari rayas, i'm either jobless or ya.. Most of it jobless lor. lol! i love being jobless on hari raya... I could sleep and wake up late after a late outing the night before and not worry how many more days of leaves i have after this or whether or not i have work piling once i return from leave.
So this time, I'm at work.. so there is no piling up off work. There is just boredom and the lack of interest to work. I didn't intend to even take leave this hari raya actually. But then my boss in particular has wondered why I have yet to apply for leave since everyone has gone on leave and all and here i am working like crazy.. similar to her, we both have reached a point of flipping out tables once. lol!
So ya, going on leave was due.
she's leaving for taiwan next wk and has been asking me whether i wanted anything... taiwan, wat's there in taiwan? i dont even know lor.. haix.
I am so sleepy, I swear I'm ranting like mad.
So yes. the point i'm trying to make is that. I'm on leave tmr.
WAHAHAHHA~!!
I have photos but i'm at work now and my photos are in the laptop. I forgot to bring my memory card here. point trying to make here: will upload later...
I'm in a kebaya top rite now. with office pants. It feels weird even though i've seen so many pple wear it this way before. Maybe coz i'm so used to wearing it full... But i was late lor just now.. cant be bothered to tie my kain. Point trying to make here: This morning wasnt the best morning. I'm in a bad mood.
Rite now, I'm just sleepy and tired. I dunno why but yeah I'm just like.. bleargh~!
And i saw syaz's Hari Raya photos in Australia. I swear its funny how they're all like so semangat you know.. cook everything and bake cakes and all.. LOL! Ok fine. I think i would do it too.. but its kinda bittersweet though and quite fun too.. lol!
I have that to look forward to next year. kwang kwang kwang.
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Berlalulah sudah ramadan sebulan berpuasa
Tiba syawal kita rayakan dengan rasa gembira
Anak muda di rantauan semuanya pulang ke desa
Ibu dan ayah keriangan bersyukur tak terkira
Bertukar senyuman dan salam ziarah-menziarahi
Tutur dan kata yang sopan saling memaafi
Suasana hari raya walau di mana pun jua
Memberikan ketenangan dan mententeramkan jiwa
Kuih dan muih beranika macam
Makanlah jangan hanya di pandang
Ketupat rendang sila nikmati kawan
Penat memasak malam ke pagi
Wajik dan dodol jangan lupakan
Peninggalan nenek zaman berzaman
Asyik bersembang pakcik dan makcik
Hai duit raya lupa nak di beri
- This year's fav. Hari Raya song.
Suasana Hari Raya - Anuar Zain + Ellina
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
There are just many things.
Please don't feel betrayed for me. I knew. I've always knew but I chose to believe in the greater good of others. I chose to believe in those words.
I'm buying my time. Yes, I'm waiting. Been waiting for the longest time. For the courage to be given to you, to tell me the truth.
Not many know what I'm capable off. Only some. Many tend to underestimate. But i'm just saying, once i've waited enough and still not get anything, you definitely don't wanna know what's next.
Ever heard of Phoenix rising from the ashes? Yes, Gossip Girl, Serena Van Woodsen did that in the previous episode.
Yes, that.
That i'm capable off.
........ And far worst.
Been there, done that. Don't tempt me to do it again.
Please don't feel betrayed for me. I knew. I've always knew but I chose to believe in the greater good of others. I chose to believe in those words.
I'm buying my time. Yes, I'm waiting. Been waiting for the longest time. For the courage to be given to you, to tell me the truth.
Not many know what I'm capable off. Only some. Many tend to underestimate. But i'm just saying, once i've waited enough and still not get anything, you definitely don't wanna know what's next.
Ever heard of Phoenix rising from the ashes? Yes, Gossip Girl, Serena Van Woodsen did that in the previous episode.
Yes, that.
That i'm capable off.
........ And far worst.
Been there, done that. Don't tempt me to do it again.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Was everything I knew a lie? Or was I just in denial?
Now tell me, what was the truth? I can't believe that you could lie to me in my face despite all that you've said. Despite all that you've felt. Even when you suspect that I know the truth?
Was I, a reason of convenience?
Was I, the perfect cover?
I trusted you with my life and yet you couldn't even bring yourself to be honest to me.
Why? Have I ever done anything to you?
Now tell me, what was the truth? I can't believe that you could lie to me in my face despite all that you've said. Despite all that you've felt. Even when you suspect that I know the truth?
Was I, a reason of convenience?
Was I, the perfect cover?
I trusted you with my life and yet you couldn't even bring yourself to be honest to me.
Why? Have I ever done anything to you?
Sunday, September 28, 2008
EH NAD...
Now, isn't that just familiar? LOL! I realised that not only merlimah uses that with a certain tone of voice... so does everyone else. lol!
Hari Raya's in a few days. 2 to be exact. Am I excited? hmm there was alot of things planned for this hari raya... Some of the things remained even th0ugh certain things have changed. It may be my last hari raya here. Who knows. My gut feeling seems to be agreeing with me though.
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SIDETRACK: HALLY! Your cake order is done please message me when you wanna collect it! You can either come to my house and collect it from my aunt or what la...
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After this hari raya, alot of things will change. The year will definitely end. Faster then expected. I have yet to inform Dad of my impending departure. Still finding the right words, and waiting for the right time. Do I really have to tell? haix.
There's alot of things running through my mind. Its better to keep mum sometimes but yes, I have been worrying. Worrying about alot of things. Swallowed my words and bury it deep within. There's just so many things that I wanna say out but I just don't know where to start.
Alot of pple have told me that I'm stronger then what I appear to be. Is it really? That was a random sidetrack by the way.
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I'm just waiting...
Now, isn't that just familiar? LOL! I realised that not only merlimah uses that with a certain tone of voice... so does everyone else. lol!
Deena keeps thinking that Jordin Sparks is my long lost sister. LOL! Fine, i agree there is some resemblance.. But not that much hor! she is afterall, pretty. I on the other hand is rather questionable.
I was surfing the net when I came across this. I swear Omar didn't realise that his most embarassing moment has been caught on camera and the ENTIRE thing was taped. LOL!
http://multimedia.asiaone.com/Multimedia/Story/A1Multimedia20071212-2170.htmlHari Raya's in a few days. 2 to be exact. Am I excited? hmm there was alot of things planned for this hari raya... Some of the things remained even th0ugh certain things have changed. It may be my last hari raya here. Who knows. My gut feeling seems to be agreeing with me though.
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SIDETRACK: HALLY! Your cake order is done please message me when you wanna collect it! You can either come to my house and collect it from my aunt or what la...
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After this hari raya, alot of things will change. The year will definitely end. Faster then expected. I have yet to inform Dad of my impending departure. Still finding the right words, and waiting for the right time. Do I really have to tell? haix.
There's alot of things running through my mind. Its better to keep mum sometimes but yes, I have been worrying. Worrying about alot of things. Swallowed my words and bury it deep within. There's just so many things that I wanna say out but I just don't know where to start.
Alot of pple have told me that I'm stronger then what I appear to be. Is it really? That was a random sidetrack by the way.
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I'm just waiting...
Monday, September 15, 2008
Its been a truly interesting week, the last one.
Yes last week I was sick, still am, my voice is still rocker and I'm still coughing like free.
I have pics to post up.
It’s been interesting how things are turning out in my life. When I look and remembered the things I used to think about, now I know my life is turning out as I have always planned it to be. Haven't gotten everything that I've wanted. Little baby steps towards it. Slow and steady...
Been sleeping late during the weekends, slept at 6am in the morning. I'm beginning to wonder whether i'm able to finish my beadings by Hari Raya. This is annoying! I've found the cutest, cosiest peranakan shop. I am so in love with it... I'm serious. The owner is sooooo nice lor. *Drools* Haizz... I think my maternal great grandfather's blood is stronger than my Middle Eastern ones. LOL!
Speaking of Middle Eastern, I am envious of those arab/lebanon/(insert any other countries that is related) singers. They're like.. PERFECT AND FLAWLESS! Ok fine there were some minor adjustments (READ: Plastic Surgery) on their nose or something... but they were flawless even before the surgery lor! HAIZ.
Its.. Damn sexy lor! haiyo~ I could turn lesbian if i were surrounded by such females on a daily basis. They're my new inspiration. I shall be like them lor~! Slim and flawless.. *drools* (dunno whether its achievable or not) super sexy can!! haiyo.
Like the rest of us who are falling sick like flies in the office, our office server has caught the virus as well. Its been having connection hiccups and finally flu has everything overflowed and its now ill till further notice.
I've been looking at accommodation and I've decided that there are some stuff that I want more than others. On the other hand, there just some that I have no idea how to get.
I've been getting really weird attention lately. *stares at face* Maybe, I grew a new mole.. OR MAYBE! I grew another eye?! Ok I still am not able to point out what exactly it is but I’ve been receiving attention from the opposite gender. Good-looking males to be exact. That's for sure. Even though it is rather surprising. LOL!
Anywayz, enough of me ranting on before my internet connection fails on me again!
Toodles~!
Yes last week I was sick, still am, my voice is still rocker and I'm still coughing like free.
I have pics to post up.
It’s been interesting how things are turning out in my life. When I look and remembered the things I used to think about, now I know my life is turning out as I have always planned it to be. Haven't gotten everything that I've wanted. Little baby steps towards it. Slow and steady...
Been sleeping late during the weekends, slept at 6am in the morning. I'm beginning to wonder whether i'm able to finish my beadings by Hari Raya. This is annoying! I've found the cutest, cosiest peranakan shop. I am so in love with it... I'm serious. The owner is sooooo nice lor. *Drools* Haizz... I think my maternal great grandfather's blood is stronger than my Middle Eastern ones. LOL!
Speaking of Middle Eastern, I am envious of those arab/lebanon/(insert any other countries that is related) singers. They're like.. PERFECT AND FLAWLESS! Ok fine there were some minor adjustments (READ: Plastic Surgery) on their nose or something... but they were flawless even before the surgery lor! HAIZ.
Its.. Damn sexy lor! haiyo~ I could turn lesbian if i were surrounded by such females on a daily basis. They're my new inspiration. I shall be like them lor~! Slim and flawless.. *drools* (dunno whether its achievable or not) super sexy can!! haiyo.
Like the rest of us who are falling sick like flies in the office, our office server has caught the virus as well. Its been having connection hiccups and finally flu has everything overflowed and its now ill till further notice.
I've been looking at accommodation and I've decided that there are some stuff that I want more than others. On the other hand, there just some that I have no idea how to get.
I've been getting really weird attention lately. *stares at face* Maybe, I grew a new mole.. OR MAYBE! I grew another eye?! Ok I still am not able to point out what exactly it is but I’ve been receiving attention from the opposite gender. Good-looking males to be exact. That's for sure. Even though it is rather surprising. LOL!
Anywayz, enough of me ranting on before my internet connection fails on me again!
Toodles~!
Thursday, September 11, 2008
"As a Malay, I've always been told that I have to work twice as hard to prove my worth. When I was younger, I always thought of myself as the quintessential Singaporean. Of my four late grandparents, two were Malay, one was Chinese and one was Indian.
This, I concluded, makes me a mix of all the main races in the country.
But I later realised that it was not what goes into my blood that matters, but what my identity card says under 'Race'. Because my paternal grandfather was of Bugis origin, my IC says I'm Malay. I speak the language at home, learnt it in school, eat the food and practise lesser Singaporean than those from other racial groups..."
"...... It is not just the NS issue. It is the frustration of explaining t non-Malays that I don't get special privileges from the Government.
It is having to deal with those who question my professionalism because of my religion. It is having people assume, day after day, that you are lowly educated, lazy and poor.
It is like being the least favourite child in a family. This child will try to win his parents' love only for so long. After a while, he will just be engulfed by disappointment and bitterness.
I also believe that it is this 'least favourite child' mentality which makes most Malays defensive and protective of their own kind. Why do you think Malay families spent hundreds of dollars voting for two Malay boys in the Singapore Idol singing contest? And do you know that Malays who voted for other competitors were frowned upon by the community?
The same happens to me at work. When I write stories which put Malays in a bad light, I am labelled a traitor. A Malay reader once wrote to me to say: 'I thought a Malay journalist would have more empathy for these unfortunate people than a non-Malay journalist.' But such is the case when you are a Malay Singaporean.
Your life is not just about you, as much as you want it to be. You are made to feel responsible for the rest of the pack and your actions affect them as well. If you trip, the entire community falls with you. But if you triumph, it is considered everyone's success."
I salute this reporter for typing and writing the one thing that i've been tired of explaining to everyone or anyone when it comes to my race in the Straits Times. They're few like her who take their own stand despite what others think.
We are afterall not born to conform to society's expectations... aye?
This, I concluded, makes me a mix of all the main races in the country.
But I later realised that it was not what goes into my blood that matters, but what my identity card says under 'Race'. Because my paternal grandfather was of Bugis origin, my IC says I'm Malay. I speak the language at home, learnt it in school, eat the food and practise lesser Singaporean than those from other racial groups..."
"...... It is not just the NS issue. It is the frustration of explaining t non-Malays that I don't get special privileges from the Government.
It is having to deal with those who question my professionalism because of my religion. It is having people assume, day after day, that you are lowly educated, lazy and poor.
It is like being the least favourite child in a family. This child will try to win his parents' love only for so long. After a while, he will just be engulfed by disappointment and bitterness.
I also believe that it is this 'least favourite child' mentality which makes most Malays defensive and protective of their own kind. Why do you think Malay families spent hundreds of dollars voting for two Malay boys in the Singapore Idol singing contest? And do you know that Malays who voted for other competitors were frowned upon by the community?
The same happens to me at work. When I write stories which put Malays in a bad light, I am labelled a traitor. A Malay reader once wrote to me to say: 'I thought a Malay journalist would have more empathy for these unfortunate people than a non-Malay journalist.' But such is the case when you are a Malay Singaporean.
Your life is not just about you, as much as you want it to be. You are made to feel responsible for the rest of the pack and your actions affect them as well. If you trip, the entire community falls with you. But if you triumph, it is considered everyone's success."
I salute this reporter for typing and writing the one thing that i've been tired of explaining to everyone or anyone when it comes to my race in the Straits Times. They're few like her who take their own stand despite what others think.
We are afterall not born to conform to society's expectations... aye?
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Sunday, September 07, 2008
I've found respect in this answer.
i'm afraid that as time passes, i'll lose my courage to love..
I hope the person who said this won't mind me taking it and copying it here on my blog.
It takes a very courageous person to admit something like that. Well to that person, good luck on your quest coz not many has managed to retain that same passion.
It is afterall not only finding someone you love, but most importantly, finding someone you can't live without. no? :)
i'm afraid that as time passes, i'll lose my courage to love..
I hope the person who said this won't mind me taking it and copying it here on my blog.
It takes a very courageous person to admit something like that. Well to that person, good luck on your quest coz not many has managed to retain that same passion.
It is afterall not only finding someone you love, but most importantly, finding someone you can't live without. no? :)
Its sunday and it already felt like a really really long day.
I'm down with everything that you could think off, it has hit me. Sheesh. Yes. I am sick. AGAIN.
Wanna say that i've been playing in the rain.. never lor. Its been a long long time since i played in the rain.. seriously.. hahaha.. kinda miss it actually. Shall play in the rain one of these days ONCE i've recovered. HAHAHA~!
Yes yes. One wonders how old I am. *rolls eyes*
I'm beginning to wonder how on earth if I fall sick in Australia? That's it lor. haiz.
Positive note: I have finally got my wireless working. LOL! i seriously think that Singtel is super helpful pls! LOL!!
I've been really close with my lawyer and it just dawned on her that I would be leaving her soon. And she told me that she wanna leave coz of that. I told her to not talk nonsense. LOL. One thing she keeps asking me on a daily basis is if whether i'm really sure about becoming a lawyer.
That is one thing that i'm really sure about rite now. About becoming a lawyer. yup yup.
I'm down with everything that you could think off, it has hit me. Sheesh. Yes. I am sick. AGAIN.
Wanna say that i've been playing in the rain.. never lor. Its been a long long time since i played in the rain.. seriously.. hahaha.. kinda miss it actually. Shall play in the rain one of these days ONCE i've recovered. HAHAHA~!
Yes yes. One wonders how old I am. *rolls eyes*
I'm beginning to wonder how on earth if I fall sick in Australia? That's it lor. haiz.
Positive note: I have finally got my wireless working. LOL! i seriously think that Singtel is super helpful pls! LOL!!
I've been really close with my lawyer and it just dawned on her that I would be leaving her soon. And she told me that she wanna leave coz of that. I told her to not talk nonsense. LOL. One thing she keeps asking me on a daily basis is if whether i'm really sure about becoming a lawyer.
That is one thing that i'm really sure about rite now. About becoming a lawyer. yup yup.
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
To go or not?
Taipei Open Fencing Championships 2008. November 2008.
For the very first time coach asked me whether I wanna go or not. Hmmmm...
Should I go or not? One thing's for sure, confirm gonna get myself slaughtered there.
Mommy told me not to waste money since its gonna be a quick competition. Hrmph!
Taipei Open Fencing Championships 2008. November 2008.
For the very first time coach asked me whether I wanna go or not. Hmmmm...
Should I go or not? One thing's for sure, confirm gonna get myself slaughtered there.
Mommy told me not to waste money since its gonna be a quick competition. Hrmph!
Monday, September 01, 2008
I am currently trying to ignore the pain in my ankle. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW THAT HAPPENED!
I was walking around perfectly fine yest AFTER fencing training.
speaking of which, I did really well yest at Fencing. The guys died! like they DIED. Ran out of energy! WAHAHAHAH~!! Totally love it pls. I mean hello! I haven't been training for very long as well.
Made a new friend. Roy. ROY IS SUCH A NERD I SWEAR!
and the best part? he thought i'm a first year TP student. lol!!!!
Roy to Neo: you from poly ah? NP? No wonder its so much easier to talk to you..
Neo: *points at me* this one from TP.
Roy: Oh ok.. No wonder its such a different feeling talking to you guys as compared to the rest.
Me: That's becoz, we're nice lor!
Roy: you guys fun to talk to
Me: where you schooling?
Roy: TP
Me: which course?
Roy: *Confidently* Biomed. You won't see me in school la.. i'm graduating already... gonna enter the army soon.
Me: WAHAHAHAH~! how old do you think i am?
Neo: you think this one in school ah?
Roy: *stares at both of us & turns to me* aren't you in first yr or something?
Me: WAHHH!! *turns to Neo* don't insult me hor! I look young ok!
Roy: Huh? how old are you?
Me: How old are you?
Roy: 21
Me: I'm 1 yr older than you lor. I graduated like 2 yrs ago.
Roy: ARE YOU FOR REAL?!
Me: I get that all the time pls!
Neo: YOU'RE BORN IN 86?
Me: Ya?
Neo: WE'RE THE SAME AGE!
Me: This one lagi best. *takes out my suit and lamee to suit up*
But of course, my sunday started at 830am when Neo msged me. ANNOYING. I swear he finds joy in annoying me at the weirdest moments! bleargh~!
For somebody who has disappeared to Aust for a mth for pilot training, he sure makes his presence back here known pls! *rolls eyes*
830 lei! 830AM ON SUNDAY MORNING! I mean c'mon who wakes up THAT early on a Sunday and think that everyone else is like him to wake up that early to reply a msg?! sheesh. I only replied him at much comfortable timing obviously. khekhekhe~!
EEEEEEEE~! I am still quite annoyed at my loss of sleep on sunday. lol!
Neo btw is a chinese guy who has his most random mat moments! For example, when i reached he just took out his phone..
Neo: Eh eh.. Ader message sial.
Me: *stares and dies*
Neo was telling me about his break ups and the most recent with his Australian girlfriend...
Me: What happened with that one until you dont wanna see her?
Neo: That was a spectacular breakup. I knew it wouldnt last the moment it started.
Me: o.O"
Neo: Oh I broke up with my australian girlfriend a few days before i left for aust for my pilot training.
Me: You mean this trip?
Neo: Yeah.. very good rite?
Me: Huh? What happened?
Neo: Its another spectacular breakup lor!
Me: -.-"
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I'm going to watch Avenue Q!!
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I got meself a lappie! I never thought that day would actually come. I love my lappie! But i think I'm gonna start modifying it myself. KHEKHEKHEKHE~!
And no, I didn't get myself the Macbook... Even though mommy actually nearly bought it for me, the thought of having to find mac compatible programs was the reason why Macbook is currently not in my possesion. Haix.
Asus Lambhorgini lappie was out of stock! it was sadded pls!
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Deena's daddy got for her the Iphone. It was surprisingly cheap. Deena ask me to get an iphone as well so that we can have matching phones... I told her.. Wait first, if she cant she can ask her daddy to get another iphone for his adopted daughter, i.e: me. Since I need to get another line once i'm overseas anywayz... Which also means I need another phone.
Maybe... Just maybe... It might be the Iphone. khekhekhe~! But first, i'll have to wait and see what are her complaints from the Iphone.
I was walking around perfectly fine yest AFTER fencing training.
speaking of which, I did really well yest at Fencing. The guys died! like they DIED. Ran out of energy! WAHAHAHAH~!! Totally love it pls. I mean hello! I haven't been training for very long as well.
Made a new friend. Roy. ROY IS SUCH A NERD I SWEAR!
and the best part? he thought i'm a first year TP student. lol!!!!
Roy to Neo: you from poly ah? NP? No wonder its so much easier to talk to you..
Neo: *points at me* this one from TP.
Roy: Oh ok.. No wonder its such a different feeling talking to you guys as compared to the rest.
Me: That's becoz, we're nice lor!
Roy: you guys fun to talk to
Me: where you schooling?
Roy: TP
Me: which course?
Roy: *Confidently* Biomed. You won't see me in school la.. i'm graduating already... gonna enter the army soon.
Me: WAHAHAHAH~! how old do you think i am?
Neo: you think this one in school ah?
Roy: *stares at both of us & turns to me* aren't you in first yr or something?
Me: WAHHH!! *turns to Neo* don't insult me hor! I look young ok!
Roy: Huh? how old are you?
Me: How old are you?
Roy: 21
Me: I'm 1 yr older than you lor. I graduated like 2 yrs ago.
Roy: ARE YOU FOR REAL?!
Me: I get that all the time pls!
Neo: YOU'RE BORN IN 86?
Me: Ya?
Neo: WE'RE THE SAME AGE!
Me: This one lagi best. *takes out my suit and lamee to suit up*
But of course, my sunday started at 830am when Neo msged me. ANNOYING. I swear he finds joy in annoying me at the weirdest moments! bleargh~!
For somebody who has disappeared to Aust for a mth for pilot training, he sure makes his presence back here known pls! *rolls eyes*
830 lei! 830AM ON SUNDAY MORNING! I mean c'mon who wakes up THAT early on a Sunday and think that everyone else is like him to wake up that early to reply a msg?! sheesh. I only replied him at much comfortable timing obviously. khekhekhe~!
EEEEEEEE~! I am still quite annoyed at my loss of sleep on sunday. lol!
Neo btw is a chinese guy who has his most random mat moments! For example, when i reached he just took out his phone..
Neo: Eh eh.. Ader message sial.
Me: *stares and dies*
Neo was telling me about his break ups and the most recent with his Australian girlfriend...
Me: What happened with that one until you dont wanna see her?
Neo: That was a spectacular breakup. I knew it wouldnt last the moment it started.
Me: o.O"
Neo: Oh I broke up with my australian girlfriend a few days before i left for aust for my pilot training.
Me: You mean this trip?
Neo: Yeah.. very good rite?
Me: Huh? What happened?
Neo: Its another spectacular breakup lor!
Me: -.-"
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I'm going to watch Avenue Q!!
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I got meself a lappie! I never thought that day would actually come. I love my lappie! But i think I'm gonna start modifying it myself. KHEKHEKHEKHE~!
And no, I didn't get myself the Macbook... Even though mommy actually nearly bought it for me, the thought of having to find mac compatible programs was the reason why Macbook is currently not in my possesion. Haix.
Asus Lambhorgini lappie was out of stock! it was sadded pls!
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Deena's daddy got for her the Iphone. It was surprisingly cheap. Deena ask me to get an iphone as well so that we can have matching phones... I told her.. Wait first, if she cant she can ask her daddy to get another iphone for his adopted daughter, i.e: me. Since I need to get another line once i'm overseas anywayz... Which also means I need another phone.
Maybe... Just maybe... It might be the Iphone. khekhekhe~! But first, i'll have to wait and see what are her complaints from the Iphone.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Without pain, there is no love
Without love, there is no pain.
-12 Lotus
What's that suppose to mean? When you love, you'll hurt and when you hurt only then you know that you have loved?
hmmm... If that is the case, i would be willing to go through the rest of my life without love, then, there will be no pain.
You're my needle; I'm your thread.
Without love, there is no pain.
-12 Lotus
What's that suppose to mean? When you love, you'll hurt and when you hurt only then you know that you have loved?
hmmm... If that is the case, i would be willing to go through the rest of my life without love, then, there will be no pain.
You're my needle; I'm your thread.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Things I need to get/do:
1. Laptop (IT Fair this weekend, shall ask mommy)
2. A room
3. Send payment
4. CID license
5. Cancel school and get pvt.
6. Get my corset frm tailor. (this has nothing to do with sch stuff, this is hari raya stuff, I realised that I have one hot pink corset there.)
7. Get the necessary stuff for nxt yr in the nxt 5mths. (sobs!)
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Btw, thanks for telling me all that the other day. It helped. Alot. Maybe it was my mistake for thinking like that. But i suppose its only natural no? There are times where I just don't know what to do. Thanks for being patient. For always being patient.
Told you you'll eventually find things out from me, the way you always have.
Thanks for having faith in me the way I've always have in you. I will come around. I promise. I've not broken any promises so far, have I? I've taken a step the other day, no? And its not away from you.
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Deena, cheer up ok? There's all the stuff toys i've bought for you to accompany you! I don't know whether the decision you made yesterday will stay that way or not la. But you know what I mean.
And Deena, I need help! to get certain idiots of my back! ARGH~!
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I'm bored and I'm currently at work after my 2 days mc. My fever's gone (thank god!), my voice suck and I'm currently trying to mentally tell and distract myself not to throw up. BLEARGH~!
Now, I shall go disturb my lawyer. hahaha.. She missed me. LOL!
1. Laptop (IT Fair this weekend, shall ask mommy)
2. A room
3. Send payment
4. CID license
5. Cancel school and get pvt.
6. Get my corset frm tailor. (this has nothing to do with sch stuff, this is hari raya stuff, I realised that I have one hot pink corset there.)
7. Get the necessary stuff for nxt yr in the nxt 5mths. (sobs!)
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Btw, thanks for telling me all that the other day. It helped. Alot. Maybe it was my mistake for thinking like that. But i suppose its only natural no? There are times where I just don't know what to do. Thanks for being patient. For always being patient.
Told you you'll eventually find things out from me, the way you always have.
Thanks for having faith in me the way I've always have in you. I will come around. I promise. I've not broken any promises so far, have I? I've taken a step the other day, no? And its not away from you.
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Deena, cheer up ok? There's all the stuff toys i've bought for you to accompany you! I don't know whether the decision you made yesterday will stay that way or not la. But you know what I mean.
And Deena, I need help! to get certain idiots of my back! ARGH~!
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I'm bored and I'm currently at work after my 2 days mc. My fever's gone (thank god!), my voice suck and I'm currently trying to mentally tell and distract myself not to throw up. BLEARGH~!
Now, I shall go disturb my lawyer. hahaha.. She missed me. LOL!
Friday, August 22, 2008
Let's see... Its been close to 10 days since i blogged! A definite shocker, even to me! lol!
First up, I actually like it here... Now, i'm even playing hide and seek with a certain department when I arrived work not according to the dress code as stated in their books. LOL!
The thing is, I've never found anything wrong with it, even my dept thinks that there's nothing wrong with it... Maybe one day I shall wear whatever I was wearing and sashay over to the avoided department and later on see whether is there a mass email being circulated 15mins later. kwang kwang kwang~!
I haven't met anyone for the past 2 weeks or so. Basically, eversince I started here. Not that I come home late or anything. Its easier sometimes, living life like this. Going through life as though i'm a different person and have no association to what I was.
Its been difficult not talking to you. Its been difficult not having anyone for me to tell my nonsensical moments or even at times just having someone to keep me company, among other things. Its been difficult avoiding questions as though I'm hiding things. Sometimes, I don't know what privellege I have anymore and therefore not wanting to be a bother.
I've not disclosed anything to anyone coz nothing is concrete. :)
ANYWAYZ, a decision have been made. I might actually be rejecting top 21 of the world just coz of what I have to do initially. Stupidity? Or just basic survival skills? Hmmm... Many would wanna be in there... but suffering for a year?! lol!
I'll be sending my fees over, can't wait for top 11 of the world to reply me since they've already sent out their offers for this year's intake last Christmas. Christmas this year will be a little too late for me to hold on to any offers without accepting.
So yeah, I'm leaving all sort of familiarity behind rite now.
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My own hopes and dreams are my current driving force and strongest motivation.
Told you If was never in my dictionary. When. Now, that's a better word.
First up, I actually like it here... Now, i'm even playing hide and seek with a certain department when I arrived work not according to the dress code as stated in their books. LOL!
The thing is, I've never found anything wrong with it, even my dept thinks that there's nothing wrong with it... Maybe one day I shall wear whatever I was wearing and sashay over to the avoided department and later on see whether is there a mass email being circulated 15mins later. kwang kwang kwang~!
I haven't met anyone for the past 2 weeks or so. Basically, eversince I started here. Not that I come home late or anything. Its easier sometimes, living life like this. Going through life as though i'm a different person and have no association to what I was.
Its been difficult not talking to you. Its been difficult not having anyone for me to tell my nonsensical moments or even at times just having someone to keep me company, among other things. Its been difficult avoiding questions as though I'm hiding things. Sometimes, I don't know what privellege I have anymore and therefore not wanting to be a bother.
I've not disclosed anything to anyone coz nothing is concrete. :)
ANYWAYZ, a decision have been made. I might actually be rejecting top 21 of the world just coz of what I have to do initially. Stupidity? Or just basic survival skills? Hmmm... Many would wanna be in there... but suffering for a year?! lol!
I'll be sending my fees over, can't wait for top 11 of the world to reply me since they've already sent out their offers for this year's intake last Christmas. Christmas this year will be a little too late for me to hold on to any offers without accepting.
So yeah, I'm leaving all sort of familiarity behind rite now.
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My own hopes and dreams are my current driving force and strongest motivation.
Told you If was never in my dictionary. When. Now, that's a better word.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Alot of people are asking me this.
So now i'm telling.
I'll be leaving either mid January or mid February.
Yup yup.
I better not forget to go to CID to apply for my license. bleargh~!
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Omg Deena, Sandy's getting married! Why is everyone getting married? 22 only leh! 22!!!!
So now i'm telling.
I'll be leaving either mid January or mid February.
Yup yup.
I better not forget to go to CID to apply for my license. bleargh~!
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Omg Deena, Sandy's getting married! Why is everyone getting married? 22 only leh! 22!!!!
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Olympics Mania
I've always been one of those who have always caught the Olympics. I have a strange fascination for it.
But hor, apologies to those people who is gonna be outrage by my comment. But seriously, this is the most kayu olympics i've watched so far lor! Annoying. Scared kena murder issit down there?
And and and... I'm in love with gymnastics! Especially, Fabian Hambuechen from team Germany! YIPPEE!!
And you know wat's the best part? We're both born on October 25th! khekhekehe...
Of course there's the other eye candies like.. Michael Phelps! lol!!
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I was watching Fencing yest. lol! There's a reason why I didn't do Foil. I fell asleep watching it... Even though it was the world's no. 1.
And and and... i think my refereeing skills have improved. But have to watch Men's Sabre later... Confirm cannot see a thing one. They're fast. They're like beyond fast. Sometimes I wonder why they dont do 100m sprints instead. khekhekhekhe~!
I've always been one of those who have always caught the Olympics. I have a strange fascination for it.
But hor, apologies to those people who is gonna be outrage by my comment. But seriously, this is the most kayu olympics i've watched so far lor! Annoying. Scared kena murder issit down there?
And and and... I'm in love with gymnastics! Especially, Fabian Hambuechen from team Germany! YIPPEE!!
And you know wat's the best part? We're both born on October 25th! khekhekehe...
Of course there's the other eye candies like.. Michael Phelps! lol!!
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I was watching Fencing yest. lol! There's a reason why I didn't do Foil. I fell asleep watching it... Even though it was the world's no. 1.
And and and... i think my refereeing skills have improved. But have to watch Men's Sabre later... Confirm cannot see a thing one. They're fast. They're like beyond fast. Sometimes I wonder why they dont do 100m sprints instead. khekhekhekhe~!
Monday, August 11, 2008
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Friday, August 08, 2008
Its been a week. Things have been hilarious here. I'm serious.
ZH caught my eye. He is awkwardly funny can! bleargh~! I wonder... when i become lawyer, would i have secretaries eying me like I have at times eyed my lawyers. lol~ But i guess i have to hire male secretaries first i suppose. Muahahaha~!
ZH is the lawyer that became a lawyer coz he has no other choice. His qualifications did not allow him to choose other career line and he has the worst tendency to do a direct translation from Mandarin to English! I'm serious. His english, you can really die laughing lor sometimes. So, in the department he is the one person that wants to be a fisherman or be a rockstar.
LJ. LJ is my lawyer. She and me... hmmm we have a ONE OF A KIND relationship. She is the kan-cheong queen of the century. I'm serious. She made me change things like crazy when she is kan-cheong. She says she's been like this since school. BAGOS! Everything also wrong lor. Until I will take the thing from her and arrange it myself. That is paranoid at its best. I tell her don't paranoid anymore or I wont be coming to work already~ WAHAHHAHA~!
We spot check what each other had for lunch. She has concluded that I am mischievious. Oh well. lol.
MZ is my other lawyer. I shall call him shy old bear. LOL!
Everyone's nice... for now. lol!
There are times that I can't wait to start my career. lol~~ Things are just getting alittle confusing... Bleargh~!
ZH caught my eye. He is awkwardly funny can! bleargh~! I wonder... when i become lawyer, would i have secretaries eying me like I have at times eyed my lawyers. lol~ But i guess i have to hire male secretaries first i suppose. Muahahaha~!
ZH is the lawyer that became a lawyer coz he has no other choice. His qualifications did not allow him to choose other career line and he has the worst tendency to do a direct translation from Mandarin to English! I'm serious. His english, you can really die laughing lor sometimes. So, in the department he is the one person that wants to be a fisherman or be a rockstar.
LJ. LJ is my lawyer. She and me... hmmm we have a ONE OF A KIND relationship. She is the kan-cheong queen of the century. I'm serious. She made me change things like crazy when she is kan-cheong. She says she's been like this since school. BAGOS! Everything also wrong lor. Until I will take the thing from her and arrange it myself. That is paranoid at its best. I tell her don't paranoid anymore or I wont be coming to work already~ WAHAHHAHA~!
We spot check what each other had for lunch. She has concluded that I am mischievious. Oh well. lol.
MZ is my other lawyer. I shall call him shy old bear. LOL!
Everyone's nice... for now. lol!
There are times that I can't wait to start my career. lol~~ Things are just getting alittle confusing... Bleargh~!
Monday, August 04, 2008
Cuteness.com
I'm gonna be a lawyer tooo! So that I can be classified under cuteness.com... WAHAHAHAH..
The people I've been oogling at here... but nevertheless the lawyers here are nice. The nicest i've met so far in my short period of employment. Most prob coz they're a bunch of really young lawyers. *wiggles eyebrows*
They've been treating me well. Yup yup. But then again... I may be speaking too soon.
They're goodlookers. I wanna be a goodlooker too! I swear it comes with the career. WAHAHAHAH~!
My time could have been billable... nvm nvm. we'll see what happens next. khekhekhekhe~!
I'm gonna be a lawyer tooo! So that I can be classified under cuteness.com... WAHAHAHAH..
The people I've been oogling at here... but nevertheless the lawyers here are nice. The nicest i've met so far in my short period of employment. Most prob coz they're a bunch of really young lawyers. *wiggles eyebrows*
They've been treating me well. Yup yup. But then again... I may be speaking too soon.
They're goodlookers. I wanna be a goodlooker too! I swear it comes with the career. WAHAHAHAH~!
My time could have been billable... nvm nvm. we'll see what happens next. khekhekhekhe~!
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Its been a long and tiring week. Yup yup. VERY long and tiring.
Service was good. I felt like I was a princess. Felt as though I was important. Felt as though I owned the world; well, technically, i did. LOL!
Praises was given. For the first time, my looks was the talk of town. lol! It did boost my confidence somewhat. heee...
I wouldnt mind being transferred there. Yes, maybe i am running away. Despite the pollution, the corruption, the language barrier and the people whom i've called mini toons due to their size... I wouldn't mind living there actually.
And the funniest part was when my driver was driving me to the airport, Joss Stone - Leaving on a jet plane was on the radio. LOL! i suddenly burst out apart from the fact that i was caught in a 1 and half hour traffic jam and had to drive through a fire to get to the airport.... Talk about dramatic. ha.
Time always seem to pass so slowly everywhere else other then singapore aye? lol.
I finally know the reason why I had to go there...
Status: Business deal - Completed.
Next Stop: China.
I think next year holds a thousand possibilities. Yup.
My messages come from the heart.
Service was good. I felt like I was a princess. Felt as though I was important. Felt as though I owned the world; well, technically, i did. LOL!
Praises was given. For the first time, my looks was the talk of town. lol! It did boost my confidence somewhat. heee...
I wouldnt mind being transferred there. Yes, maybe i am running away. Despite the pollution, the corruption, the language barrier and the people whom i've called mini toons due to their size... I wouldn't mind living there actually.
And the funniest part was when my driver was driving me to the airport, Joss Stone - Leaving on a jet plane was on the radio. LOL! i suddenly burst out apart from the fact that i was caught in a 1 and half hour traffic jam and had to drive through a fire to get to the airport.... Talk about dramatic. ha.
Time always seem to pass so slowly everywhere else other then singapore aye? lol.
I finally know the reason why I had to go there...
Status: Business deal - Completed.
Next Stop: China.
I think next year holds a thousand possibilities. Yup.
My messages come from the heart.
Monday, July 28, 2008
SENORITA OUTING NOTICE
Dear Senoritas,
It has been agreed prior to this notice that an outing is deem to be due sometime soon with ALL the senoritas. The term "ALL" is defined herewith as current, active and honorary senoritas.
Therefore, this notice is made to adhere to the pact made at the last outing where 5 of us were present.
I am pleased to inform you that the upcoming outing of which the date has yet to be confirmed will be a bowling outing. Kindly confirm that ALL of you are agreeable to this activity for this upcoming outing before the date is confirm.
Please also note that this upcoming outing, it will be scheduled on the weekends due to the nature of the activity itself.
Kindly revert with your confirmation. Your great enthusiasm will be much appreciated.
Regards,
Nad.
Dear Senoritas,
It has been agreed prior to this notice that an outing is deem to be due sometime soon with ALL the senoritas. The term "ALL" is defined herewith as current, active and honorary senoritas.
Therefore, this notice is made to adhere to the pact made at the last outing where 5 of us were present.
I am pleased to inform you that the upcoming outing of which the date has yet to be confirmed will be a bowling outing. Kindly confirm that ALL of you are agreeable to this activity for this upcoming outing before the date is confirm.
Please also note that this upcoming outing, it will be scheduled on the weekends due to the nature of the activity itself.
Kindly revert with your confirmation. Your great enthusiasm will be much appreciated.
Regards,
Nad.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Weather aches~
The inconsistent weathers are making me uneasy! Aching backs, headaches and surprisingly, I have been warm.
Yesterday, I was annoyed. Irritated. Frustrated. Stressed out.
This year started out with me wanting to experience the moments properly especially with more time on either side and now, I just can't wait for it to end. Once August makes its mark, the year will pass before my eyes.
Seems like I will be accepting something one of these days and after that, I think my year will fly by in a whirlwind. There will be alot of flying around which i will be doing once I've made up my mind. Yup yup.
I'm shocked, yet excited.
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I am here not to conform to society's expectations. I realised yesterday, others may bring me down but I am my own person. It is me who will live my life; not others.
Its my decision that will matter most.
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I am getting quite worried. Maybe I should force her to go for a full medical checkup.
The inconsistent weathers are making me uneasy! Aching backs, headaches and surprisingly, I have been warm.
Yesterday, I was annoyed. Irritated. Frustrated. Stressed out.
This year started out with me wanting to experience the moments properly especially with more time on either side and now, I just can't wait for it to end. Once August makes its mark, the year will pass before my eyes.
Seems like I will be accepting something one of these days and after that, I think my year will fly by in a whirlwind. There will be alot of flying around which i will be doing once I've made up my mind. Yup yup.
I'm shocked, yet excited.
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I am here not to conform to society's expectations. I realised yesterday, others may bring me down but I am my own person. It is me who will live my life; not others.
Its my decision that will matter most.
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I am getting quite worried. Maybe I should force her to go for a full medical checkup.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Don't waste your tears.
Your crying yesterday actually broke my heart. For the very first time, I actually teared along listening to you.
My aunt always say, "Someone is never worth your time if they hurt you bad that you cry"
I want you to remember that. Your disappointment so apparent. Your hopes somewhat extinguished. I love you that it hurts bad to see you like this. Don't worry, i meant it in a sibling kinda way. We can never be.
Your crying yesterday actually broke my heart. For the very first time, I actually teared along listening to you.
My aunt always say, "Someone is never worth your time if they hurt you bad that you cry"
I want you to remember that. Your disappointment so apparent. Your hopes somewhat extinguished. I love you that it hurts bad to see you like this. Don't worry, i meant it in a sibling kinda way. We can never be.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
I'm grateful to god to see her smile like that.
I'm grateful to god to see her blush like that.
Never once in my existence have I ever seen her in such a state. Not even with him. I can't help smiling to see her like that. I can't help but be happy for her.
Then she turned to me; For the first time, I actually knew how you feel. For the first time, I understand what you're going through. For the first time, I don't know what to say.
Woman, thank god it came at a point of the most unexpected, unpredictable and it wasn't something that you went in search off.
Like the saying goes, "You'll often meet destiny on the path you choose to take to avoid it" Maybe there is some truth in it aye? lol!
Enjoy it woman. Don't be scared. Don't be paranoid. Embrace it as it comes and live for it to your fullest. Once you lose your grip on it, its the worst feeling ever. I hope you wont have butter fingers coz this is the first time i've seen you smile like that. Genuinely happy.
I'm grateful to god to see her blush like that.
Never once in my existence have I ever seen her in such a state. Not even with him. I can't help smiling to see her like that. I can't help but be happy for her.
Then she turned to me; For the first time, I actually knew how you feel. For the first time, I understand what you're going through. For the first time, I don't know what to say.
Woman, thank god it came at a point of the most unexpected, unpredictable and it wasn't something that you went in search off.
Like the saying goes, "You'll often meet destiny on the path you choose to take to avoid it" Maybe there is some truth in it aye? lol!
Enjoy it woman. Don't be scared. Don't be paranoid. Embrace it as it comes and live for it to your fullest. Once you lose your grip on it, its the worst feeling ever. I hope you wont have butter fingers coz this is the first time i've seen you smile like that. Genuinely happy.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Stepping Up
I'm having a huge headache. I think one of these days, I'm just gonna stare at a wall and rot. For ONE WHOLE DAY. lol! I think I'm stressed. Yeah... I think I am. Help? Anyone? I want a hug.
I was looking at my cousin's profile on facebook and guess what i saw?
Music: (leaves out unimportant stuff)... Anything cool coz I'm fucking cool
totally WTF RITE? and let me show you the most classic of all! *points below*
About me: I'm really beautiful and I'm never satisfied... Its a curse.
WAHAHAHAHH~!! Omar Elijah Litz, you are such a himbo pls! WAHAHAHAHAH~~!!!
But then, if one were to read Dhanya's blog about our MSN conversation. One would believe that me and him? We're cousins. LOL!
I'm having a huge headache. I think one of these days, I'm just gonna stare at a wall and rot. For ONE WHOLE DAY. lol! I think I'm stressed. Yeah... I think I am. Help? Anyone? I want a hug.
I was looking at my cousin's profile on facebook and guess what i saw?
Music: (leaves out unimportant stuff)... Anything cool coz I'm fucking cool
totally WTF RITE? and let me show you the most classic of all! *points below*
About me: I'm really beautiful and I'm never satisfied... Its a curse.
WAHAHAHAHH~!! Omar Elijah Litz, you are such a himbo pls! WAHAHAHAHAH~~!!!
But then, if one were to read Dhanya's blog about our MSN conversation. One would believe that me and him? We're cousins. LOL!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Its a clear starless night. Staring out into d unknown, her mind wonders.
The sound of cars seemed so distant, pple talking, slamming d doors shut. With earphones plugged in, tuning in to nelly's rapping n kelly's crooning, rather oblivious to her surroundings.
She doesn't like the feeling of not knowing what to do. She blabbers on talking abt her day, smiling n joking ard. She didn't ask how was she feeling knowing d ans at 1st glance.
She hopes it'll be btr the nxt tym she comes.
The sound of cars seemed so distant, pple talking, slamming d doors shut. With earphones plugged in, tuning in to nelly's rapping n kelly's crooning, rather oblivious to her surroundings.
She doesn't like the feeling of not knowing what to do. She blabbers on talking abt her day, smiling n joking ard. She didn't ask how was she feeling knowing d ans at 1st glance.
She hopes it'll be btr the nxt tym she comes.
I am currently bored.
Yes.
As usual.
Hmmmm. My phone's quiet. Its quite sad really.
I think Deena is catching up on sleep and I have a strange feeling, so is my cousin. If my calculations are right, she should be back.
Dhanya and me have been having weird MSN convos. Its been making me giggle discreetly all day. I can't believe some of the things I've said to her as well and she has blogged about it! I should bury myself. LOL!
Bleargh~! *stares at phone*
There are times that I no longer see its need. Sorry phone, I'm not betraying you. I'm just stating a fact. Everything has lessened. Yes, it does. Not lessened. It has become non-existent.
Non-existent. I seem to grow accustom to the word now. There are times I actually do wonder, how am i gonna survive overseas? By myself. Practically non-existent. *scratches head* Quite a scary thought actually.
But hey, I've stepped into every educational level by myself... Now when I think about it. Yeah... None of my friends ever entered any school with me, but I did survive.
Besides, how hard can university be? rite?
Yes.
As usual.
Hmmmm. My phone's quiet. Its quite sad really.
I think Deena is catching up on sleep and I have a strange feeling, so is my cousin. If my calculations are right, she should be back.
Dhanya and me have been having weird MSN convos. Its been making me giggle discreetly all day. I can't believe some of the things I've said to her as well and she has blogged about it! I should bury myself. LOL!
Bleargh~! *stares at phone*
There are times that I no longer see its need. Sorry phone, I'm not betraying you. I'm just stating a fact. Everything has lessened. Yes, it does. Not lessened. It has become non-existent.
Non-existent. I seem to grow accustom to the word now. There are times I actually do wonder, how am i gonna survive overseas? By myself. Practically non-existent. *scratches head* Quite a scary thought actually.
But hey, I've stepped into every educational level by myself... Now when I think about it. Yeah... None of my friends ever entered any school with me, but I did survive.
Besides, how hard can university be? rite?
Monday, July 14, 2008
Enough.
Hey, I know that you read my blog. Yup yup yup... I'm quite certain of it. No matter how much it is that I'm the last person you wish to read about and no matter how much you dislike me. I think you hate me actually, even though the reason for your tolerance to me is her. I know you don't agree with my principles, my mindset, my opinions, my decisions or even my actions and my choices. Think I'm dumb? Think again.
You know wat? Maybe its time you realise what she is made of. I'm serious.
Reality check #1: If she were easily influenced by me as you think she is now, your relationship wouldn't have lasted this long. It would have ended a month into it. That is a fact that I'm forcing you to face. I have ended one of it once a upon a time. I can do it again.
You know what's your problem? Male ego and also... trust issues. Its becoming a joke really seeing how you doubt her so much especially after knowing her for so long.
Reality check #2: A guy should consider himself lucky to get a girl like her. Seriously.
One thing for sure, you should be grateful that you're with her at a time where she is calmer and handle things as it comes. You should appreciate her for it. She is no longer the girl that I became close to 7yrs ago. No longer the girl that I had to pull out of trouble.
But trust me, once you ignite a spark, you'll get a taste of it. She is what she is.
Reality check #3: She may be calmer now, but never underestimate her. Once she has had enough, She will have enough.
You say... she's beginning to sound like me? Havent you heard? Or maybe... haven't you realised... "Birds of the same feathers flock together"?
Reality check #4: She's been patient. The most patient i've ever seen her been.
Just as she opens up, you put a lid on it. Just as she talks, you simply nod. Just as she needs your attention, you fall asleep. Has love suddenly become a state of convenience?
Let me be truthful here, you're not my most favourite person. But never once in this relationship have I ever butted in. I have my own opinions of you some of which she is unaware of.
Sacrifice, let me ask you... have you really done it? You have no idea what she's been through, you have no idea what she's done.
Reality Check #5: Face it, you and her, the only thing that is on the same par would be your looks... other than that?
Seriously, you're not the only one facing the stress. You have no idea the things she worry about, the things she hopes for.
Sometimes, guys just don't know what their girlfriends have done to side them, to fight for them. They're just oblivious about it.
Reality check #6: She is NOT someone you can tame.
Someone who will talk when she is spoken to. Someone who will answer only when asked. Someone who will sit quietly by your side, be pretty, stare and keep her opinions to herself. Someone who you can put aside, neglect or ignore when you're busy. Someone who will settle 2nd best. She is none of the above.
If those are what you're looking for in a girl. Wake up and look around. This is the 21st Century. She is brought up differently. Different than you.
If you want her, change. If you want her, accept the fact that she is not like all those other girls that you have met in your life. If you want her, its about time you prove yourself.
Reality Check #7: If you want her, then don't settle for 2nd best.
I'm only writing this now coz I've had enough. I've had enough of looking. You think its fun to know that she has not been sleeping, she's been crying, stressed up? You really think its fun? Seriously, if it comes to a point where I will have to do the honour. I will.
Don't make a mockery out of love and relationship. Its not simple. It NEVER will be.
Hey, I know that you read my blog. Yup yup yup... I'm quite certain of it. No matter how much it is that I'm the last person you wish to read about and no matter how much you dislike me. I think you hate me actually, even though the reason for your tolerance to me is her. I know you don't agree with my principles, my mindset, my opinions, my decisions or even my actions and my choices. Think I'm dumb? Think again.
You know wat? Maybe its time you realise what she is made of. I'm serious.
Reality check #1: If she were easily influenced by me as you think she is now, your relationship wouldn't have lasted this long. It would have ended a month into it. That is a fact that I'm forcing you to face. I have ended one of it once a upon a time. I can do it again.
You know what's your problem? Male ego and also... trust issues. Its becoming a joke really seeing how you doubt her so much especially after knowing her for so long.
Reality check #2: A guy should consider himself lucky to get a girl like her. Seriously.
One thing for sure, you should be grateful that you're with her at a time where she is calmer and handle things as it comes. You should appreciate her for it. She is no longer the girl that I became close to 7yrs ago. No longer the girl that I had to pull out of trouble.
But trust me, once you ignite a spark, you'll get a taste of it. She is what she is.
Reality check #3: She may be calmer now, but never underestimate her. Once she has had enough, She will have enough.
You say... she's beginning to sound like me? Havent you heard? Or maybe... haven't you realised... "Birds of the same feathers flock together"?
Reality check #4: She's been patient. The most patient i've ever seen her been.
Just as she opens up, you put a lid on it. Just as she talks, you simply nod. Just as she needs your attention, you fall asleep. Has love suddenly become a state of convenience?
Let me be truthful here, you're not my most favourite person. But never once in this relationship have I ever butted in. I have my own opinions of you some of which she is unaware of.
Sacrifice, let me ask you... have you really done it? You have no idea what she's been through, you have no idea what she's done.
Reality Check #5: Face it, you and her, the only thing that is on the same par would be your looks... other than that?
Seriously, you're not the only one facing the stress. You have no idea the things she worry about, the things she hopes for.
Sometimes, guys just don't know what their girlfriends have done to side them, to fight for them. They're just oblivious about it.
Reality check #6: She is NOT someone you can tame.
Someone who will talk when she is spoken to. Someone who will answer only when asked. Someone who will sit quietly by your side, be pretty, stare and keep her opinions to herself. Someone who you can put aside, neglect or ignore when you're busy. Someone who will settle 2nd best. She is none of the above.
If those are what you're looking for in a girl. Wake up and look around. This is the 21st Century. She is brought up differently. Different than you.
If you want her, change. If you want her, accept the fact that she is not like all those other girls that you have met in your life. If you want her, its about time you prove yourself.
Reality Check #7: If you want her, then don't settle for 2nd best.
I'm only writing this now coz I've had enough. I've had enough of looking. You think its fun to know that she has not been sleeping, she's been crying, stressed up? You really think its fun? Seriously, if it comes to a point where I will have to do the honour. I will.
Don't make a mockery out of love and relationship. Its not simple. It NEVER will be.
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
I was going through the Hong Kong photos. No I didn't go. BLEARGH~! I should get myself in S.M.U and get to go to HK for competitions. Its annoying really. Coz I'm jealous! HAIZ.
Anywayz, yes the fencers are camwhores. Birds of the same feathers flock together aie? lol! And trust them to take this of themselves......
Anywayz, yes the fencers are camwhores. Birds of the same feathers flock together aie? lol! And trust them to take this of themselves......
Yes so this picture was inserted into the Visa Ad or rather the Visa was inserted into the picture... but the actions are real pls!
I should start taking pictures while fencing... Shall force Neo to fence with me and camwhore.. MUAHAHAHA.. He shall be my victim!
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Ladies leave your men at home....
Girl's night out. Went to MOS on Saturday with the girls. Yup, there was a mini school gathering among us. Hahahaha... I know i know hard to believe rite? better believe it. lol!
Then there was Studio 54 which was CUTENESS.COM! *boogies ala John Travolta* Everything was so colourful and the swings and the chairs.. lol!
We headed off to St. James - Powerhouse after that to meet someone but we didn't coz she was out of sight and we cant be bothered to search. lol!
Girl's night out. Went to MOS on Saturday with the girls. Yup, there was a mini school gathering among us. Hahahaha... I know i know hard to believe rite? better believe it. lol!Went all over MOS. I mean its the first time me and her were there! Obviously we're like... JAKUN rite?! We went to pure.. which was like... surgeon like white sia... i think it will be blinding if the houselights turned on. lol!
Then there was Studio 54 which was CUTENESS.COM! *boogies ala John Travolta* Everything was so colourful and the swings and the chairs.. lol!The main arena was.. hmmm.. Ok I don't like trance... so ya.. go figure. lol!
We were stuck at SMOOVE half the time anywayz. The DJ was HOTTTTTTTT~!! I was like staring and staring and staring... Me and Deena ended up on the mini platform coz it was too crowded and I intend to get Deena back home in one piece. lol!
And only yesterday then I realised why the DJ was so familiar! He's the same guy from Leap Years... How can I not put the 2 together?! ALAMAK AI! wasted sia...
Did I mention that in the Leap Years, the convent that Wong Lilin was teaching is my school?! wahahaha.. so cute lor when i saw it... i turned to my cousin and i was like... "Nana, Why is the corridor so familiar? isn't that my school?" Cousin: "Seriously Dee, even I know its your school" But I digress... where was i? Oh yes..
He was right beside me when me and deena was taking a break and perching on the stool. He was beside us for the longest times! I could have taken a pic! argh! Btw, he wasn't the DJ with the random song choices. The other DJ was. BRITNEY & LINKIN PARK LEH! i understand if its pieces of me or break the ice or radar.. but give me more?!
NADIA! when you're back, I wanna go MOS just to take a pic with him! i'm serious! Even you also will like.. ooooogle lor down there...
But then again, if Bees have beehive. Mats have MOS lor. Seriously. its like an effing Mathive! Met some of my outside friends. When I mean outside, I meant outside. Even Deena was like.. WHO THE HELL?! lol!
We headed off to St. James - Powerhouse after that to meet someone but we didn't coz she was out of sight and we cant be bothered to search. lol!BTW, I think we look good.. no?
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Its funny how she called as though knowing that something is up.
In every Mr. Big & Carrie, there will always be a Charlotte.
Soulmate is what she proclaims herself to be. But out of everything, I know she is suffering as well.
Just as Charlotte sided everything Big did and told Carrie to calm down as he has his reasons. The day he did not turn up at the church, the disappointment on Charlotte was greater than expected. She has grown to have faith in Big.
She's the exact same. She sided him in every way possible and there was once I just sat and stared at her, speechless. She actually did thought and believed that I would have get settled. She believed that he was someone good for me. He managed to make me noticed, stopped, turned after all these years. She said that she already have faith. She put her trust in him and let go of me.
She finally told me that yesterday.
Just like Charlotte hugged Carrie till the break of dawn, cursing underneath her breath and witnessed her turn numb.
So did she. No matter what she has said, I know deep within she still do love us both.
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Bear, the things i said yesterday... It hurts. I'm sorry for having such thoughts but I just needed to find a reason for Silence and came out with the most unexpected one. My friends, they've scolded me for thinking like that... But I guess I did come to point where I don't know what else to think off coz it was getting unbearable. I was too afraid even though I know better. I still am. I guess we both know now, what our feelings are. Things were cut short the other day.
In every Mr. Big & Carrie, there will always be a Charlotte.
Soulmate is what she proclaims herself to be. But out of everything, I know she is suffering as well.
Just as Charlotte sided everything Big did and told Carrie to calm down as he has his reasons. The day he did not turn up at the church, the disappointment on Charlotte was greater than expected. She has grown to have faith in Big.
She's the exact same. She sided him in every way possible and there was once I just sat and stared at her, speechless. She actually did thought and believed that I would have get settled. She believed that he was someone good for me. He managed to make me noticed, stopped, turned after all these years. She said that she already have faith. She put her trust in him and let go of me.
She finally told me that yesterday.
Just like Charlotte hugged Carrie till the break of dawn, cursing underneath her breath and witnessed her turn numb.
So did she. No matter what she has said, I know deep within she still do love us both.
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Bear, the things i said yesterday... It hurts. I'm sorry for having such thoughts but I just needed to find a reason for Silence and came out with the most unexpected one. My friends, they've scolded me for thinking like that... But I guess I did come to point where I don't know what else to think off coz it was getting unbearable. I was too afraid even though I know better. I still am. I guess we both know now, what our feelings are. Things were cut short the other day.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Random Flashes
Its Tuesday... and my weekend is still ringing in my ear.
I've caught myself smiling unconsciously and mentally smacked myself. Everything was too sweet, even the cake and the cookies! LOL! Lili looked good that night. She looked different.
It was a small wedding. A really sweet one. My friend's married. Yes I know alittle late for me to acknowledge that. lol!
Its really funny how some have laughed at me crying at my speech to her. And its funny how some cried along.
I remembered the corner. I remembered the tears. I remembered the reason why it never stopped. I felt the comfort. I steeled my heart and yet, it penetrates through.
Only one has the power to do that. Even from before. Even from the intial beginning. Even from the days where we bounced up and down the corridors. Only one. And I'm unsure if you know that too...
The sky was clear; velvety blue. The stars were bright; like a blanket of diamonds. The breeze soft; like a song. The water waltz in its own rhythm.
I remembered my outfit. How can I not? It looks pink in the pictures.. *screams* I remembered the heels. I actually love it.
I love the brightness of the island across and how it stands out against the dark waters.
I know for sure, my feelings are still strong and have refused to change... I tell myself, it wont matter... coz... miracles do happen, but not to me.
Its Tuesday... and my weekend is still ringing in my ear.
I've caught myself smiling unconsciously and mentally smacked myself. Everything was too sweet, even the cake and the cookies! LOL! Lili looked good that night. She looked different.
It was a small wedding. A really sweet one. My friend's married. Yes I know alittle late for me to acknowledge that. lol!
Its really funny how some have laughed at me crying at my speech to her. And its funny how some cried along.
I remembered the corner. I remembered the tears. I remembered the reason why it never stopped. I felt the comfort. I steeled my heart and yet, it penetrates through.
Only one has the power to do that. Even from before. Even from the intial beginning. Even from the days where we bounced up and down the corridors. Only one. And I'm unsure if you know that too...
The sky was clear; velvety blue. The stars were bright; like a blanket of diamonds. The breeze soft; like a song. The water waltz in its own rhythm.
I remembered my outfit. How can I not? It looks pink in the pictures.. *screams* I remembered the heels. I actually love it.
I love the brightness of the island across and how it stands out against the dark waters.
I know for sure, my feelings are still strong and have refused to change... I tell myself, it wont matter... coz... miracles do happen, but not to me.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Wedding Bells A Ringing
(The craziness from the bridesmaid's pt of view)
Location: Bora Bora Beach Bar, Sentosa, Singapore
Date: 28th June 2008
Time: 6pm till Late
Dresscode: Smart Casual (Bridesmaids to be in Magenta)
Reporting Bridesmaid: Nur Nadira
Finally get to see them after a week!!! Azi looks happy after the swiss trip lo! I think overseas air always do something good to her! She didn't even look sick lor even though she told me the other day that she recovering from being sick in switz... LOL!!
I'm sorry to the rest that I did not manage to take pics with or talk for very long.. Boo Hoo Hoo~!!
(The craziness from the bridesmaid's pt of view)
Location: Bora Bora Beach Bar, Sentosa, Singapore
Date: 28th June 2008
Time: 6pm till Late
Dresscode: Smart Casual (Bridesmaids to be in Magenta)
Reporting Bridesmaid: Nur Nadira
Yes, people... I changed my hairstyle again. I'm back to being a mushroom head only more vogue this time. WAHAHAHAHAHHA!!
Last Saturday, Lili got married. Yup yup! After about 2months of running around and she annoying me in the middle of the night, the big day arrived. My day started wayyyyy before 6pm of 28th June 2008.
It started from the previous day. Last minute touches had to be made and therefore I couldn't crash at the Bride's pad to entertain her on her last day of singlehood.
And me being me, made sure that I packed her stuff and realised that I didn't have shoes to go with my dress. Paranoid pls! I thought I was gonna end up barefooted on that actual day... Talk about glamourous. *rolls eyes*
I hunted for shoes last minute and really did think that I'm doomed. Ended up buying a pair of 5inch gold heels from Nine West.
The whole week before that, the rest of the bridesmaids were pulling their hair on how on earth they're gonna find a Magenta dress. Well, you see, Lili wanted Lavendar for her bridesmaid. I was on leave, and went around hunting for it! You tell me where can find Lavender in the summer collection?!
So i asked her whether any other shades of purple is fine since I cant find a thing... She said ok. So i was under the impression that, her bridesmaids will be in any shades of purple.. So me and Deena bounced into warehouse and spotted the Magenta dress... which I bought and then Lili asked me to send a pic of my dress to the rest... Then it hit me that they most probably will kill me... Khekhekhekhe...
MOVING ON,
On the actual day I was awake at 8am to compile some song list and get myself ready since I was supposed to appear at her house at 1230pm (which I was late for.. duh~!)
Deena called me to make sure that I have everything ready since she is either worried that i might break my heels or tear my dress before anything. Seriously, that woman have so much faith in me. Sheesh~! She forced me to go over to her house since I needed her handbag and she wanted to do a spotcheck.
*rolls eyes* AUNTY AH! AT THE END OF THE DAY I AM STILL A GIRL LOR! I JUST DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO TIE MY RIBBON ONLY HOR!
But anywayz, I appeared at Lili's house at about 2.30pm to the surprise of everyone of my change of hairstyle and that I appeared in a dress for the first time in front of them. BLEARGH~!
So i went to disturb Lili inside the room and started playing with her veil and can can (is that how you spell it?).. I was prancing around with it... DUH~! Me so omg jakun never see this kinda thing before and so girlish and so frilly... so cute lor!
Then I realised that I was getting warm and that's only when I settled myself in front of the fan and underneath the aircon! Ate pizza and chicken wings and played with Poppy(her cat). Camwhored with cammie that's not mine... So I have no idea where's all my pictures.. HMMM!!!
Went to Bora Bora at about 430pm... And set up everything and I was appointed DJ of the night! The bar area was damn hot pls! I am quite positive that I have at least gone down 2 sizes by the end of the night! So tak glam lor!
But things went quite smoothly despite several annoyance. I just sat at the music area when I have nothing to do... Its really quite fun looking out to the crowd and observing everyone from a 3rd person perspective. heeee...
It was like prom all over again. Everyone so dressed up, drinking, eating, talking and catching up on each others' life since most of them have not seen each other for the past 2yrs... It was very sweet. the entire thing... :)
Finally get to see them after a week!!! Azi looks happy after the swiss trip lo! I think overseas air always do something good to her! She didn't even look sick lor even though she told me the other day that she recovering from being sick in switz... LOL!!
I'm sorry to the rest that I did not manage to take pics with or talk for very long.. Boo Hoo Hoo~!!
Guess what else I've learnt to do by the end of the night? Running around in 5inch heels. When I say run, I mean run. LOL!! And later on dance in 5inch heels! WAHAHHAHAHAHA~!!
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Dearest Lili,
Like I've said before, never in my life would I ever thought that the day would come where I would be there as your bridesmaid on your wedding day or to even assist you in planning it. And I think never in your life did you expect it as well.
3years ago, never once did we ever sit at the same table to have a civilised conversation or even acknowledge each others' presence until one day we started calling each other Kambing. The group's very own Chinese Kambing and the Indian Kambing.
Vulgarities were constantly exchanged, name calling became a way of life, and irritating each other became something that we've grown to be an expert in. Those still remained btw. lol!
Fate certainly has its ways as we both have learnt in the most recent 6months that we entered each other's life.
The past 6 mths have been interesting. We've seen each other in our best and worst forms. You never expected to be one of those to witness me breakdown in such a way, I know that, but you did. The same way I've never expected you to cry to me too... And the intial impression we both had of each other flowed away along with the tears.
You're the strongest girl I've ever met but beneath all that hard exterior lies a girl so gentle with great dreams. Like i said on your wedding day, You came to me unexpectedly, like an angel in the most undefined and unrefined form and I thank you for it.
I salute you for taking this journey. Everyone's afraid of getting married. But hey, when its time... you'll know it! rite? :P LOL! Love is afterall a journey of self-discovery and knowing of the others' importance in your life and I pray you'll find the peace in it.
But no matter what happens, you'll always be my Kambing!
Lotsa Lurve,
Nad.
P.s: Deena & Nadia sends their regards.
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More pics will be uploaded once I know who has them! haizzzz...Thursday, June 26, 2008
List of things - Revised as of 27th June 2008, 11am.
1. Compile song list
2. Get my earrings
3. Get frameless frame
4.Get ring pillow
5.Complete tealight holders
6.Do my hair
7.Put catering invoice in one bag
8.Pester Deena to let me borrow a bag
9. Hang my dress
10.Send my shoe to the cobbler to do something Go get new shoes after dance class today
11.Send out my parcel
12. Remember to bring lili's things on saturday
13.buy ink from Mont Blanc
14. Remind lili to pass all invoices
I cant seem to remember what else is there but somehow it feels as though something is missing...
HMMMMMMMMM
I am tired. I am tired. Lalalallalala....
I am mentally planning my route today! WAHAHAHAHHAA... I can't seem to find my notebook. ARGH!
And i'm feeling bimbotic.. Been giving off bimbotic vibes anywayz.. Even people cant believe the things i say half the time also..
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Desperate times, calls for desperate measures...
As long as it doesnt drive me to the brink of insanity... Yay.
1. Compile song list
2. Get my earrings
3. Get frameless frame
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9. Hang my dress
10.
11.
12. Remember to bring lili's things on saturday
13.
14. Remind lili to pass all invoices
I cant seem to remember what else is there but somehow it feels as though something is missing...
HMMMMMMMMM
I am tired. I am tired. Lalalallalala....
I am mentally planning my route today! WAHAHAHAHHAA... I can't seem to find my notebook. ARGH!
And i'm feeling bimbotic.. Been giving off bimbotic vibes anywayz.. Even people cant believe the things i say half the time also..
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Desperate times, calls for desperate measures...
As long as it doesnt drive me to the brink of insanity... Yay.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
One thing i've never fancied was having an audience.
Some know of this fact and others, i think, remained unaware of this audience thingy. Papparazzis. I don't appreciate it really.
But somehow, it became something quite inevitable in my life.. even though I wondered how and why. I'm not overestimating my importance to anyone or boasting my popularity coz I know i'm none of the above.
Is it fun to talk about other people? Is it? Really? Is it really fun to keep track of others' life and later on talk about it like the next episode of some drama series?
I also don't need rumours to start flying around. I really don't need it. Sometimes I really wonder what is it that I have done wrong... Or maybe my existence really do piss you off?
Nobody knows of the emotional rollercoaster I'm going through and I don't expect anyone to understand it either. Many won't see things the way I do, many won't understand the things I say and why I say it.
I've never begged before. But it seems as though i've done alot of begging this time round. I've sucked in my pride, as though it will really matter as I don't really feel much anymore. And i'm gonna do it again.
While I appreciate certain parties' concerns, I don't need it. Especially vindictive, mean and practically annoying. Yes, certain things happened under certain circumstances. But i still do love and care. So it pains me to be reading certain things, especially when I find it rather unfair.
I exist you know? So don't act as if I don't and say things as if I don't exist.
Just put yourself in my shoes for once. Never once have I tried to hurt anyone and liked seeing anyone being hurt or accused with mean remarks, thrown in their way. When I'm angry, yes, I say things I mean... with also my name attached to it.
I never liked cowardice. Not now, not ever. So please, its been hard. It still is. So just stop.
Please.
Some know of this fact and others, i think, remained unaware of this audience thingy. Papparazzis. I don't appreciate it really.
But somehow, it became something quite inevitable in my life.. even though I wondered how and why. I'm not overestimating my importance to anyone or boasting my popularity coz I know i'm none of the above.
Is it fun to talk about other people? Is it? Really? Is it really fun to keep track of others' life and later on talk about it like the next episode of some drama series?
I also don't need rumours to start flying around. I really don't need it. Sometimes I really wonder what is it that I have done wrong... Or maybe my existence really do piss you off?
Nobody knows of the emotional rollercoaster I'm going through and I don't expect anyone to understand it either. Many won't see things the way I do, many won't understand the things I say and why I say it.
I've never begged before. But it seems as though i've done alot of begging this time round. I've sucked in my pride, as though it will really matter as I don't really feel much anymore. And i'm gonna do it again.
While I appreciate certain parties' concerns, I don't need it. Especially vindictive, mean and practically annoying. Yes, certain things happened under certain circumstances. But i still do love and care. So it pains me to be reading certain things, especially when I find it rather unfair.
I exist you know? So don't act as if I don't and say things as if I don't exist.
Just put yourself in my shoes for once. Never once have I tried to hurt anyone and liked seeing anyone being hurt or accused with mean remarks, thrown in their way. When I'm angry, yes, I say things I mean... with also my name attached to it.
I never liked cowardice. Not now, not ever. So please, its been hard. It still is. So just stop.
Please.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Malay Mania
I think if i were to write an entry in Malay, I will sound damn minah. As in those informal malay.
For eg:
Siak ah... Takot sak nak hantar surat "cinta". Tapikan, yg aku fikir sangat pasal orang lain tu kenaper? At the end of the day, its my life per. I'm the one who's living it.. Not others. If i'm unhappy... Nobody else will know, they're not facing it. So better make decision as I want, even if it displeases others.
Setiap hari masok ofis mcm nak pegi torture chamber.. Its like, aku tak belajar aper-aper seh kat sini. 6 bulan kat sini and at the end of the day? Aku raser, mcm waste time ah!
On top of that, sakit hati setiap hari. I tell you, anak aku is never gonna be an accountant. I will put my foot down seh. Dier org ni, nak cakap bodoh... tak. Nak cakap pandai... pun quite questionable.
Belajar tinggi tinggi.. but what's missing? Common Sense. Bodoh sak. ISH! Geram nyer! And one wonders why I'm the one making such a big fuss about accountants when I'm in Legal rite? that's the problem... Harass me - Pagi petang siang malam... Over stupid minor things that THEY ARE SUPPOSE TO HAVE!
The director of finance pisses me off. I shall refer to him as Babz. you all can imagine la ye what is the long form of Babz. Si Babz nie suker menyakitkan hati I. Dier ingat yang he so effing High & Mighty becoz of his stupid position.
Dier ingat orang will run to him just becoz he minta something. Biler orang need something from him, tunggu la 2 -3 bulan.. still quite questionable dapat ke tak.
He has an assistant, let's call him Babz junior. Babz & Babz junior nie act important but actually not.
At least si Babz junior pernah nampak my wrath so he still quite polite la eh everytime nak tanya things. Si Babz pulak asyik ingat aku nie tak der kerja atau aku tak pernah buat kerja until the other day I actually told him off. Si Babz nie asyik minta barang, biler i cakap tak der.. dier tanyer besok dah jumper ke belum. Dah cari ke tak? Is that bodoh or wat?
Babz shock. I also shock. That I told him off. My voice was raised actually. The usual patient Nad went out the window. The candid all smiling demeanour evaporated as irritation took over.
And the boss? ARGH! dont even know how to begin! Aku raser, there are times that he thinks i'm stupid.
People pleaser. I hate those. BENCI BENCI BENCI!!!! kat sini... those species? MENIMBUN! Why? Climbing the career ladder la tu.. Ah.. Pegi ah panjat tu ladder tinggi tinggi! Pegi I say!
Backstab all the way yo! Aku dah kena dah the other day... that's why I hate Finance. tralallalaa.. One thing they forget is that... In a company, Legal will always be a step higher than Finance. HA! Eat my dust!
But then again, I was beginning to be Miss Bitch.. Now, for a month, I've been Queen Bitch and somehow pple are still fine with me. Bagos. I will continue to do that. Even my boss realise how I deal with things with the rest and he usually just chuckle and go inside his room...
Once I ignore, I really ignore. Once I snap, I really snap.
Then lagi satu.. ARGH! ITU PEREMPUAN MEMANG NAK KENA! lol! i think i just sound Baba! But hor.. dier eh... MEMANG AH! make my blood pressure go upstairs la! Actually not mine only.. everyone else's in the company also.. she is just beyond annoying and irritating. Those words are too kind to be describing her with.
And I just continued the rest of my entry in english.. Banyak punyer nak taip bahasa melayu. Memang tak last punyer!
I think if i were to write an entry in Malay, I will sound damn minah. As in those informal malay.
For eg:
Siak ah... Takot sak nak hantar surat "cinta". Tapikan, yg aku fikir sangat pasal orang lain tu kenaper? At the end of the day, its my life per. I'm the one who's living it.. Not others. If i'm unhappy... Nobody else will know, they're not facing it. So better make decision as I want, even if it displeases others.
Setiap hari masok ofis mcm nak pegi torture chamber.. Its like, aku tak belajar aper-aper seh kat sini. 6 bulan kat sini and at the end of the day? Aku raser, mcm waste time ah!
On top of that, sakit hati setiap hari. I tell you, anak aku is never gonna be an accountant. I will put my foot down seh. Dier org ni, nak cakap bodoh... tak. Nak cakap pandai... pun quite questionable.
Belajar tinggi tinggi.. but what's missing? Common Sense. Bodoh sak. ISH! Geram nyer! And one wonders why I'm the one making such a big fuss about accountants when I'm in Legal rite? that's the problem... Harass me - Pagi petang siang malam... Over stupid minor things that THEY ARE SUPPOSE TO HAVE!
The director of finance pisses me off. I shall refer to him as Babz. you all can imagine la ye what is the long form of Babz. Si Babz nie suker menyakitkan hati I. Dier ingat yang he so effing High & Mighty becoz of his stupid position.
Dier ingat orang will run to him just becoz he minta something. Biler orang need something from him, tunggu la 2 -3 bulan.. still quite questionable dapat ke tak.
He has an assistant, let's call him Babz junior. Babz & Babz junior nie act important but actually not.
At least si Babz junior pernah nampak my wrath so he still quite polite la eh everytime nak tanya things. Si Babz pulak asyik ingat aku nie tak der kerja atau aku tak pernah buat kerja until the other day I actually told him off. Si Babz nie asyik minta barang, biler i cakap tak der.. dier tanyer besok dah jumper ke belum. Dah cari ke tak? Is that bodoh or wat?
Babz shock. I also shock. That I told him off. My voice was raised actually. The usual patient Nad went out the window. The candid all smiling demeanour evaporated as irritation took over.
And the boss? ARGH! dont even know how to begin! Aku raser, there are times that he thinks i'm stupid.
People pleaser. I hate those. BENCI BENCI BENCI!!!! kat sini... those species? MENIMBUN! Why? Climbing the career ladder la tu.. Ah.. Pegi ah panjat tu ladder tinggi tinggi! Pegi I say!
Backstab all the way yo! Aku dah kena dah the other day... that's why I hate Finance. tralallalaa.. One thing they forget is that... In a company, Legal will always be a step higher than Finance. HA! Eat my dust!
But then again, I was beginning to be Miss Bitch.. Now, for a month, I've been Queen Bitch and somehow pple are still fine with me. Bagos. I will continue to do that. Even my boss realise how I deal with things with the rest and he usually just chuckle and go inside his room...
Once I ignore, I really ignore. Once I snap, I really snap.
Then lagi satu.. ARGH! ITU PEREMPUAN MEMANG NAK KENA! lol! i think i just sound Baba! But hor.. dier eh... MEMANG AH! make my blood pressure go upstairs la! Actually not mine only.. everyone else's in the company also.. she is just beyond annoying and irritating. Those words are too kind to be describing her with.
And I just continued the rest of my entry in english.. Banyak punyer nak taip bahasa melayu. Memang tak last punyer!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
PMSING? *shrugs*
I am such a coward when it comes to things like this.
Fark. I'm so damn tired. Tired doesn't even begin to describe how i feel rite now. I'm just whatever.
She called yesterday. Told her of my day, told her what the most unexpected thing that I did the day before yesterday in town. She was shocked. Yes. And I told her, it was like a dream that I could barely remember what the details were. Even though it was shocking, it was that unimportant to me that I can't be bothered to remember it. It wasn't worth my time.
I no longer bother cancelling the days on the calendar, there's really nothing to look forward too anymore. Its like the days past and i'm just staring at it from the 3rd party point of view.
I think I'm in a daze.
I think I am void of feelings.
*pulls hair* Oh god Nad! Just give it. What more than a better time like this? Nothing pple say will affect you anymore! and yet you still consider the feelings of others. ARGH!
Like the rest of this entry, this is so random but this is my 1001th post! ha. its like beginning at 1 all over again.
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I'm walking away (now I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (from the troubles in my life)
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
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I am such a coward when it comes to things like this.
Fark. I'm so damn tired. Tired doesn't even begin to describe how i feel rite now. I'm just whatever.
She called yesterday. Told her of my day, told her what the most unexpected thing that I did the day before yesterday in town. She was shocked. Yes. And I told her, it was like a dream that I could barely remember what the details were. Even though it was shocking, it was that unimportant to me that I can't be bothered to remember it. It wasn't worth my time.
I no longer bother cancelling the days on the calendar, there's really nothing to look forward too anymore. Its like the days past and i'm just staring at it from the 3rd party point of view.
I think I'm in a daze.
I think I am void of feelings.
*pulls hair* Oh god Nad! Just give it. What more than a better time like this? Nothing pple say will affect you anymore! and yet you still consider the feelings of others. ARGH!
Like the rest of this entry, this is so random but this is my 1001th post! ha. its like beginning at 1 all over again.
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I'm walking away (now I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (from the troubles in my life)
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Did you know?
Last weekend i had the most interesting time.
I went to watch a soccer match. Yes, me. I know. Surprising! LOL! Saudi Vs Singapore at the Stadium.
I've always done stupid things everytime the stadium is involved and the last time was catching Singapore Idol live. lol!
Anywayz, it was interesting how boring the match was! LOL! The company was definitely interesting. It was like rivals. I seriously have no idea why the entire group went together. But I pitied her.. She's like having to please 2 difficult parties. bleargh~
But of course there was this particular eye candy at the stadium! lol!!
Made new friends! Pics will definitely be up soon! hehehehe
and guess what i did on Sunday? I went for my distant cousin's wedding. My malaysian cousins came in for it and I dared the brother to go up to the DJ and karaoked for the wedding.
SURPRISE SURPRISE.
He marched up to the DJ and requested a song and I made his youngest sister sing with him!!! LOL!!! They were the highlight of the wedding actually, apart from the newly weds of course. LOL!
after that, i was begged to go Karaoke. Which i ended up agreeing to.. ME? K-ING?! lol! it was fun. he made me duet with him..
If i ain't got you, Dilemma, Baby Boy, This i promise you, My boo... WAHAHAHA.. romantic or wat? lol!
And yes, i sang malay song as well. not only song.. SONGS! *hides face* It was humiliating lor! But yes, i had fun. thanks idiots! I know you guys were worried the moment you saw me that night... No worries k?!
Can i go k-ing again? pls pls pls?
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Cas is my new found friend. We have concluded that we love each other. lol!
Reminder to self: Ask Cas for photos.
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WOMAN! COME BACK TO SG SOON! HOW ON EARTH AM I GONNA SURVIVE HERE BY MYSELF?! FOR NEARLY A MONTH!
oh... don't forget to bring me something from Japan! a telephone number would be good too! *wiggles eyebrows*
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I'm numb. Yes, just keep it coming. Coz I seriously don't feel a thing rite now.
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I'm finally recovering! finally. After a month of being sick. My voice is still ROCKER yo!
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My dance teacher didn't know what race I am. For an arab, I am shocked. They usually know what you are at first glance. But the reason why I know she was unsure when she asked me this, "Are you muslim?" LOL!
You should see the puzzled look on her face and the surprise later on after I said yes. So what am I? Indian Eurasian? this is the umpteenth time in a month... LOL!!
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I wanna shop!! actually i shouldn't. At the rate i shop this month... my closet is kinda packed now! lol!
kwang kwang kwang...
Last weekend i had the most interesting time.
I went to watch a soccer match. Yes, me. I know. Surprising! LOL! Saudi Vs Singapore at the Stadium.
I've always done stupid things everytime the stadium is involved and the last time was catching Singapore Idol live. lol!
Anywayz, it was interesting how boring the match was! LOL! The company was definitely interesting. It was like rivals. I seriously have no idea why the entire group went together. But I pitied her.. She's like having to please 2 difficult parties. bleargh~
But of course there was this particular eye candy at the stadium! lol!!
Made new friends! Pics will definitely be up soon! hehehehe
and guess what i did on Sunday? I went for my distant cousin's wedding. My malaysian cousins came in for it and I dared the brother to go up to the DJ and karaoked for the wedding.
SURPRISE SURPRISE.
He marched up to the DJ and requested a song and I made his youngest sister sing with him!!! LOL!!! They were the highlight of the wedding actually, apart from the newly weds of course. LOL!
after that, i was begged to go Karaoke. Which i ended up agreeing to.. ME? K-ING?! lol! it was fun. he made me duet with him..
If i ain't got you, Dilemma, Baby Boy, This i promise you, My boo... WAHAHAHA.. romantic or wat? lol!
And yes, i sang malay song as well. not only song.. SONGS! *hides face* It was humiliating lor! But yes, i had fun. thanks idiots! I know you guys were worried the moment you saw me that night... No worries k?!
Can i go k-ing again? pls pls pls?
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Cas is my new found friend. We have concluded that we love each other. lol!
Reminder to self: Ask Cas for photos.
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WOMAN! COME BACK TO SG SOON! HOW ON EARTH AM I GONNA SURVIVE HERE BY MYSELF?! FOR NEARLY A MONTH!
oh... don't forget to bring me something from Japan! a telephone number would be good too! *wiggles eyebrows*
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I'm numb. Yes, just keep it coming. Coz I seriously don't feel a thing rite now.
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I'm finally recovering! finally. After a month of being sick. My voice is still ROCKER yo!
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My dance teacher didn't know what race I am. For an arab, I am shocked. They usually know what you are at first glance. But the reason why I know she was unsure when she asked me this, "Are you muslim?" LOL!
You should see the puzzled look on her face and the surprise later on after I said yes. So what am I? Indian Eurasian? this is the umpteenth time in a month... LOL!!
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I wanna shop!! actually i shouldn't. At the rate i shop this month... my closet is kinda packed now! lol!
kwang kwang kwang...
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