By Temasek Polytechnic DramaTec

DREAMSCAPE 3.0
p l a y . s t o p . r e w i n d .

PRODUCERS:
Shahdon Md. Jamil
Ramkumar Kabetha Bai

DIRECTORS:
Nurashikin Abd. Rahim
Nur Nadira Zainal (yours truly!!)
Shahdon Md. Jamil

Venue: Auditorium 2 Odyssey (Temasek Poly)
Date: 15th & 16th June 2006 (Thursday & Friday)
Time: 7.30pm SHARP (Door opens at 7pm)
Ticket price: $5 (its even cheaper than a movie ticket!!!)

A devise play, set in an unknown space where dreams are played out. Be fascinated by 3 original pieces interwoven with multimedia and live stage performances.

LOST
It’s a story of 2 souls who are alike yet facing different problems in life. Both are engulfed in loneliness and each yearns for freedom. While in search of an escape, they stumble upon an unknown chance to realize a certain relation that they were never aware of. A story unfolds revealing the past, present and an uncertain future. Will these souls be reunited again to form a happy family or its just one of those fantasies that only occur in dreams?

PARANOIA
A lady believes herself to be reformed and never to turn to her old ways. The ways, which viewed by society, will be considered Forbidden. Happily married to a loving man with wonderful kids, she led a happy life devoting herself fully to the marriage. Till one day, in a midst of the hectic office life that the husband leads, she was neglected. He dreamt of a possible reason why she doesn’t seem bothered by his neglect. Did she really reform or was that an old habit that is difficult to cast aside?

DISAPPOINTMENT
Teenage life is never easy. Ironically, its harder for a parent. Attention-seeking, rebellious and lost, Nur Safarina does everything in her powers to feel accepted or feel loved. Her mother, a single parent, finds it difficult to face the society with her current status as well as the fact that her only daughter is not making her proud. Praying to god to allow her daughter to realize her plight, a twist of events took place. Was her prayers answered or was she hoping for an impossible light to cast down on them?

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Interested?

Email me at ddzaniel@gmail.com or my msn, spikeyspike2000@hotmail.com . for those of you that have my number... feel free to message me then..

wheeee

When i feel like giving up and i look at the hard work and i push the thoughts aside...

When i feel like screaming, i look around at the faces and the anger subside, alittle, yet it still subside, somewhat.

When i feel like killing, i remembered that there's enough killing going on in the world and they're not even recruiting for new members.

When i lose faith, i look back at the thing that keeps me going.

When i get disappointed, i remind myself of the times i've been proud of them.

When i feel helpless and lost, i turn to you and i thank you for it. A friend with little to say but actions that speak louder than words. A silent friend is wat i call it.

When i feel like crying, i follow a certain someone i know... think of rainbows, bunnies and colourful lollies and everything in this world will be beautiful again.

and then...

when you look back, you wonder why did you endure all of it?

and unconsciously you find yourself answering, that all of this is a learning experience. For the other to learn from you and you to learn from them.

Coz, beneath ALL of it.

You will not realise at that very moment the beautiful things that were present until yrs have passed and you look back at it again.

And then you see it.

There.

Around all the time, waiting for you to realise it.

Hmmm..
I dunno how to describe it.

Hmmm..

I dunno how to describe it.

The people are nice, the bosses are nice... but you know.. you just get the feeling that you wont stay there long?

yup. i get that feeling.

me? getting that feeling is rather odd you know. esp, when i can be considered rather loyal...

ARGH.

i dunno. maybe i'm easily bored there. Maybe soon, i wont be so bored la.. who knows.

I have my own table which i'm gonna decorate soon. no actually i have like 3 tables to myself, making it look like a U-shape cubicle...

i've transported my mugs there, my crocs are there... i need to transport my sweater, shawl, stuff to paste on the wall, and i'm looking for an eeyore soft toy to put on the CPU! wahaha!! oh yes a place to put my stationaries, nice and colourful ones. At least you know, it will have my trademark there...

SPEAKING OF SOFT TOYS AND TRADEMARKS!

i went to watch Da Vinci Code with my mom, cousin and aunt. like FINALLY!

So while waiting for my cousin and aunt to arrive, my mom went to buy the tickets. So i naturally will tag along rite? yup i did.

Both of us walked up to the counter and my mom asked for 4 tickets to Da Vince Code.

The girl at the counter said, "Ermm, for you info this movie is NC16."

My mom: "Ok. i'm fine with that."

The girl kinda ignored my mom and turned to me, "Exactly how old are you?"

(Pls keep in mind, i just came back from work... So, i was not in my jeans and t-shirt)

I stared at her for a moment to check whether was she teasing or something before i answered, "err.. 20?"

She stared at me before she started laughing.

seriously, i dunno whether thats a good thing or a bad thing.

Sometimes, the cheesiest of songs can be the most applicable to the situation.

Eeks.

Ok.. the great singapore sale is here.. and i'm going crazy..

wahahaha... for the very first time, i'm actually buying things during this period.. as in.. buy things by myself for my own use you know... i swear age is the answer to me going for solo shopping sprees... i no longer wait for my mom, unless the things i wanna buy is like way BEYOND my budget.

well, been going out with mel for the past few days.. and its HILARIOUS!

ok we went shopping on Monday... And the best part of being an image consultant is that...

wahahahaha.. you get to pick out ANYTHING and force it on the subject to try!!!

oh well, been doing that to him for close to 3yrs now... so i guess he's used to it.. LOL! ok the fun part is this...

You go to a shop... You pick out something nice... You force him to try... and he ends up buying it...

So its like..

going shopping without spending a thing!! LOL!!

so in the end?

EVERYONE ALSO HAPPY! lol!!!

Wat did i buy for myself?

On Monday, I bought for meself 2 tees from esprit and a tie from topshop. Yes, i've always been into ties but never found those skinny ones... and finally topshop's selling it!!!! so ya, my mom is encouraging me to buy more ties... lol!

I just hope that once i start working, my colleagues or lawyer wont comment that i got to work as though i'm going for a fashion show.

But anywayz,

I spend a total of $68.90 0n monday!! UNLIKE MEL! lol...

So today i met mel at PS.. wahaha.. after he left for Victoria Concert Hall and before i went to shop for production's make-up... I bought meself 2 pairs of heels from X:odus.

YUP! 2!

Yes, for those of you who have hung around me would know i'm a sucker for shoes and earrings... YUP! i have tons of earrings.. big ones, small ones, glittery ones, HUGE & antique ones... YUP, you name it.. i think i might have it...

But now, my shoes collection is on the rise...

I bought 2 shoes from there and i only spent a total of $33!!! YUP!! That's how much i'm loving the sale rite now!!!

Coz, in 1 week i've gotten for myself 5 items and i've spent around $100!!!!

Wooohoooo..

I still have other things to buy!!!

Like jeans & 3/4s from Dorothy Perkins, Formal Shirts from Robinsons... Oh well, i'll have to put my priority on the formal shirts i guess.. SO SAD!!

But then again, formal shirts = me having something to wear my tie with!!!

YAY!!

Ok i'm mad.

Ok.. i'm bored and sleepy...

ARGH!

"What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me...."

wheee...

i swear i need clothes.

*dies*

Met my mom today... Supposed to go watch DaVinci Code...

But well,

I bumped into my niece at PS instead.

She was with her friends... and well, i didnt realise she was there till she screamed my name for the entire of PS's Basement 2 to hear... and later on jumping on me... My niece's 12 btw.

Well, most of my nieces tend to do that, while the nephews climb all over me. But i digress.

Take note: She was doing all this in the presence of her GROUP of friends.

So yes, i had a group of girls staring at us... while she was screaming and later on introduce me.. "This is my aunt!!!"

Ok seriously, i have no idea whether i should take it as a compliment since she was saying with pride... Or otherwise.

I mean tell me dearest friends, when was the last time you were introduced to your relative's friends as their aunt/uncle?

NEVER!

that's the thing. For all i know, i could be the same age as some of the girls' eldest siblings or maybe even younger.

But, they were obviously staring in awe at me.

Coz, well,

1. i told her i'd meet her another time to celebrate her b-day with her...
2. i guess i dont look anything like an aunt...
3. tell me which aunt will allow their niece to pounce on them in public??

And later on, i found out the reason why they were staring at me.... Her friends thought that:

1. I'm really pretty (DIES!)
2. I'm really sweet (Seriously, i dunno why they said that... considering they didnt see me do anything sweet.. hmmm..)
3. And well, they thought i'm the coolest aunt... (again another, "Wat the" moment for me)

so in the end, i met my niece again after she left her friends... we went for dinner with my mom a.k.a the grandmother... WAHAHAHA!!

She told me that she wanted to watch "Over The Hedge". And since i wasn't doing anything else later on. I thought why not, even though i already watch it last saturday.

And i bought her a huge Chipmunk soft toy for her birthday present... Coz, i thought the chipmunk looked like her... Wahaha.. she was squealing in delight when she saw the chipmunk. i made her carry it though, the paper bag was huge and i was feeling lazy. wahahaha.. and it was a hilarious sight seeing the paper bag being dragged around (literally).

Random point #1: My niece thought i'm 16. She nearly died when she found out i'm reaching the BIG 2 this october.

Random point #2: I swear there are times that i'm so sure that alone is the word i'm gonna hear for the rest of my life. (this have no relation to the outing i had just now.. but ya.. lol)

Random point #3: My niece yearns to have pimples. I told her to stop talking nonsense.

Caught X-men 3 with my mom on 24th May.

It was AWESOME!

wahahaha...

very interesting. very touching. very nice!!!

i wanna watch it again!!!!

so yup yup... anyone up for X-men? hehehe

You know...

Azi blogged about how she got a job. How she came up with the theory that lawyers passed resume around...

I think they do that.

REALLY!

Coz, i think i'm about to get a job.

As many of you would have known. I held myself back from applying jobs due to my commitment to Drama and the fact that i have a production in 2 weeks time.

And this afternoon at 1230 i received a call.

Apparently, my resume was faxed over to the lawyer. And he called asking me am i applying for a job and did i fax over my resume? Obviously, my natural reaction was.. "HUH?" and that was what i said... "HUH?"

Obviously he got over his confusion quite fast...

I think i know which lawyer faxed over my resume. I'm gonna thank the lawyer later. I have an angel in the midst.

But now, i'm still in awe.

Awe at the fact that i have an interview on Monday at a place that i have no idea how to go... But the lawyer was damn nice, he described every single lane and road that i'm supposed to pass by or go thru...

So ya.

Damn patient. wahaha... coz, i got confused half way thru his direction explaination. wahahaha...

And, my fencing coach replied my email.

SURPRISINGLY.

And i might be having fencing trainings that might commence next week. So i guess my sword will be wondering the streets with me again.

I knew it would be temporary parting with my sword when poly starts. But i didnt know it will be this soon.

Anywayz, since i need to vent out my frustration on things... i guess my coach will be the best answer.

WAHAHAHAHAHA....

One would think that they can never be disappointed with something over and over again.

But one thought wrong.

One would think that it hurt once, it would not hurt as bad the second time.

But again, one thought wrong.

I give my all tooo many times only to be let down again. One would think i'm dumb. But i think i'm just loyal.

Yes. Maybe that's it. Or maybe i am dumb, but just denying the fact that i am. Yup that's possible too.

and finally,

I'm sorry.

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If i have the perfect figure, the greatest of confidence, i'll dress up every single day just so i can look like that. Sometimes, its no surprise girls love dolls, its the epitome of perfection. Rite?

I think this song is quite sweet dont you think?


"Dance With My Father"
By Luther Vandross

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

I was actually looking forward to Friday...

Coz, finally get to resume my Latin Class...

So excited...

Then it hit me...

Friday is VESAK DAY!

like thanks alot.

I remembered watching ULTRAVIOLET..

Gosh...

That show sucked big time...

Its exactly the same with AEON FLUX...

Good looking lead, great costumes, bad acting and plot...

totally a waste of money..

but the only good thing about it is that,

it was the first time senoritas watched the movie as a group... yup, after 7 yrs of friendship, that was the very first movie we watched with the 3 of us all present... wahhahahaa.. which obviously was followed by ICE AGE in the previous entry...

wheee..

I wanna watch so many movies~!!!

Gosh.. i've never been this tired from a weekend before...

but yayness! i'm bloody tired...

Let's see.. my latest movie was Ice Age i think...

yup yup.. and i watched it TWICE.. wahahahhaha.. and i still think the animals are as cute as ever!!!

Watched it the first time round with my mom.. the second time was with the senoritas and Melvyn... well, the second time was much more interesting...

we went to watch it at Cineleisure.. it was around the time of the Singapore Fashion Festival if i'm not mistaken... but ya.. there were tall quite good looking caucasians, in other words i dont think the models have left the country... wahahahha..

so the 4 of us was at Cineleisure's Arcade... playing games.... when a particular group of 3 girls walked in looking for a racing game that's vacant... so as you can see, a particular male of the group suddenly turned quite red and extremely quiet... that one tends to wonder whether he injure himself...

so when the 3 of us turned to him...

as you can imagine,

his eyes was fixed to the girls that he wasn't blinking, his face was red, his mouth was slightly parted due to shock, his eyes were as round as marbles...

yes ladies and gents, keep this picture in mind..

and you'll get the exact same expression that me and the senoritas witness that particular day... which made us nearly die of fits of giggles...

seriously, how on earth you wanna make an impression when your first reaction is as such rite? wahahahahah...

and to top it all of,

when we poked his sides, snapped our fingers in front of him... wahahhaa.. NO REACTION!!!

but once the girls passed us... his expressions totally change to a more relax one and he turned to us, "So are we racing now?"

WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH.....

yup. me and the girls nearly died.

and the best part after all this?

"Haiyah. No chance one la... All of them taller than me one..."

Which obviously made Deena swallow a comment... hahahahahaha

Let's create a Movie Review List first..

LOL~!

ok.. Let's see.. i think i watched Failure to Launch first...

So this entry will then be devoted to only the Failure to Launch Outing!

hmmm.. Failure to Launch was hilarious.. watched it with Azi and Mel and Deena tagged along after making various phone calls to various people.. and obviously, Hidayah missed out on that... Just coz, she didnt feeling to watch movie..

what kinda excuse is that?!?! Didnt feeling.. *rolls eyes*

and obviously she, i think didnt know that we watch movie... so she was complaining about how unfair it was that we watched without her.. wahahah...

Now, the lead actress, which by now i have brilliantly forget the name, has gorgeous crystal blue eys which was enhanced by the black mascara and the black eyeliner... total gorgeousness...

Me and Deena was happily talking during the movie, which mel, nagged at us for talking.. something aong the lines of "you guys are wasting money you know that?!?!"

Notice how Azi was quiet throughout all this?? well, Azi was sick and still sick when she went out with us.. Therefore, we didnt irritate Azi at all... So Azi was comfortably seated beside Deena ignoring out chatter.. but i think she heard la.. but how we commented.. "OMG! HE'S SO CUTE!!" or something like that...

But the best part of this outing comes later on when we were at Starbucks.. WAHAHAAHAHA

So, me and deena loves starbucks... azi no longer loves it coz, there's no longer Rhumba.. and Mel only loves it when he has the money or he's feeling rich.

So, i ordered my usual starbucks, Mocha Frapp while Deena ordered her Shrimp Juice A.K.A Green Tea Frapp... But i swear it taste like those shrimp cold dish... you just blend it.. and TA-DA! You get the Shrimp Juice~!!!

But anywayz, we were crapping away at Starbucks... this was the week where the American Sailors are in town.. therefore, town was kinda filled with shining botak head fellas...

Ok, the interesting part is coming up.. so lemme adjust the fonts to make it big enough.. WAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH

And that was when... Mel decided that he wanted to fart at me~!
(Pls note: we are still at Starbucks)

Mel: (turns facing the door with butt in my direction) I feel like farting! I'm going to fart at you!

Me: ASS! (at this pt i was staring out of Starbucks, a particular girl caught my eye and as i was about to turn to Deena i realised that she noticed the girl as well...) Stop trying to fart at me!!! Sicko.


We were sitting near the door la..
(At this pt, ladies and gents, the good looking caucasian girl has entered Starbucks)


Mel: (still trying to fart at me but notice the girl entering and automatically turned back at us with his eyes wide open and his breath stuck in his throat)


Me & Deena: (burst out in uncontrollable laughter)

Deena: Eh Mel, Kentut stuck?? Get sucked back in ah??

Mel: (still dumbstruck at the presence of the good looking caucasian girl merely nodded)

Azi: (stilll laughing uncontrollably)

Me: (giggling) OI! you listening to us or not?

Deena: (still laughing) Mel can you please close your mouth?? And stop staring at the girl so openly...


(Good Looking Caucasian Girl proceeds to the counter to get a drink and comes back with a big glass of PLAIN water)


Me: OMG Deen, she's just drinking plain water. So typical. (Proceeds to faint)

Deen: Huh? She is? OMG.

Mel: (Still staring at the girl coz, she's seated somewhat opposite us) What's wrong with drinking plain water?

Me&Deen: (turned to mel and shook our head)

Deen: This Michelle Chia Rox Fanatic ahhhh..

Me: Mel darling.. there are girls that come to starbucks but are against drinking coffee coz, its unhealthy and will spoil their perfect features and figure...

Mel: (turned and look incredulously at us)

Azi: (all this while still laughing) *Note: if you guys were there to see his face you'd know why no one stopped laughing*

Mel: Seriously? Omg. Like that not interested already la... Such a turn off

Me: (proceeds to faint again)


At this point, Goodlooking Caucasian girl have decided that she has had enough of Starbucks, therefore she and her friends left... but to get to the door they have to walk pass our table..


Mel: (suck in lots of air and couldn't breathe again)

Caucasian Girl: (stares at Mel as if he's an alien)

Mel: (turns somewhat pink and looks down while trying to look at her from the corner of his eyes)

Caucasian Girl: (Gives another Wat-the-stare as she walked pass us)

Us Girls: (trying to control our laughter so as not to make it obvious)



After that?

Mel is back to trying to fart at me.

so ya.

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Check it out!!

SO CUTE!

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Hmmm.. i've been thinking...

I think i could be one of the happiest girl alive... LOL~!

This is because...

I've realised that i've been going out nearly everyday.. and NO! Thats not the reason why i'm so happy...

The reason why i'm so happy is that.. i'm going out with the closest people... ALL OF THEM TOGETHER!!

wahahaha.. i kinda realised that when i look back at the outings list and wondering which one to type about.. LOL~!

Talk about coolness!!

I'm so contented!

Come to think of it, the senoritas met my poly friends... and now we're ALL going out together.. hehehe..

I mean.. Wat am i so happy about is that.. My 2 groups of friends have no problem with the other and kinda happy to be hanging around each other... and the 2 group have merged to become one!!! Sort of la.. i mean we do still have our separate outings la.. i mean.. aiya.. you know wat i mean.. wheeee...

YAYNESS!!

Let's see when did this happen???

I remembered them meeting somewhere in October '05... And then Hally kinda joined the senoritas for our hari raya outing with my cousin... then somewhere later my cousin met my friends... then she started watching my performances, well not performanceS more like performance, since i realised she only watched SINS at Ngee Ann so far... then that was actually the start of nearly all our outings...

and also that my friends are also now my cousin's friends.. so its like.. wahahahhaa.. YAY!

lol.

ok this post is bimbotic... but i'm in love with it anyway.. wahaha...

I shall give the outings entry later on... wheeee.. when i'm less thirsty!! heee.

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Hmmm.. Come to think of it.. i have no been blogging about my social life.. which seems to be never ending this time round... wahahaha... yup yup, made easier with the fact that i'm not working.. but does not help my pocket obviously.. Come to think of it.. i've been going out nearly everyday!! *Gasps*

So, i have a few things i wanna blog about.. lemme type out the stuff out first... wahaha.. as a reminder for me self..

:P

1. Yesterday's Fish & Co. outing with Mel & Azi (14th April 2006)

2. Quotes of the day from my aunt (11th April 2006)

3. Training Experience at Singapore Exhibition Services (11th April 2006)

4. Magic Fundoshi (9th, 13th and upcoming 19th April)

5. Ice Age Outing with Deena, Hidayah and Melvyn (5th April 2006)

6. Ultraviolet with Deena, Hidayah and my mom (1st April 2006)

7. My experience at my mom office (14th & 15th April 2006, including 1st April 2006 and there might be more upcoming mom's office stories in the near future.. LOL!)

8. Lunch at Taka with Mel and Nadia (11th April 2006)

9. Outings with the senoritas

10. Failure to Launch with Azi, Mel and Deena (with hidayah whining about not asking her along) - Inclusive of exclusive story from Starbucks Wheelock. LOL

11. Ayam Penyet at Lucky Plaza

12. Outing with Mel and hidayah

13. Starbucks outings with Mel and Azi

WAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is great.

I'm officially sick..

WAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

and currently feeling very irritated and sorry...

ARGH!

I went to the Fashion Show remember?

Yeah.. it was by MISSONI...
I'll put up the invitation card when my comp isnt like going against me by uploading it vertically when its supposed to be horizontal.

wahahahaha...

This was what i wore to the fashion show together with my black jeans and heels.. not too bad.. but yeah... i was very self-conscious...
anywayz, met my cousin... Who was btw, EXTREMELY late...

So off we went to the fashion show...

here's the pics from the fashion show itself.. somewhere towards the ending...

Wahahahaha...

I've been receiving very weird comments from various people...

One saying that i'm pretty...

That is one unbelieavable comment.. wahahhaa.. i nearly died laughing... LOL~! like seriously, i nearly fell off my chair... wahahhahahaha... but i did choke on my water though.. lol..

and the other is saying that i look like an indian muslim girl...

Wahahhahaha.. i'm getting it AGAIN~! haiz.. nvm, i shall get use to it... pple been calling me that since i was young anyway.. haiz...

Waaaaaaaaaaa... Its sunday already...

Went out with my mom yesterday (Saturday)

And we chilled and did the normal things... and we end up at Haagen Daz... wahahhaha.. coz, I WAS craving for ICE CREAM~! yum yum... anywayz, got my ice cream... i'm so in heaven and currently quite full.. so yea.. i'm quite contented...

Accidently had liquor in the process.. WAHAHAHAHHA... LONG STORY~! lol... but the point is that how on earth can someone drink that? sheesh.. it taste like cough syrup... Dont you guys feel like taking medicine everytime you drink it? WAHAHAHAHA... It even taste like a few of my medicine... sheesh.. *dies of medicine overdose*

No wonder someone once told me a few days ago that i wasnt missing out on anything by not being able to consume it... and yeah... i totally agree man.. sheesh...

But yes.. i'm currently awake, happily polishing this particular pair of turkish silver earrings that i bought around 3 years ago... I'm so going crazy... I cant stand it... I mean i get so happy just by seeing my silver shine again!!! WHEEEEE....

Now for my silver hoops... I better find it man... I cant believe I can misplace something that is THAT huge...

And i'm beginning to sound UTTERLY BIMBOTIC... sadded. lol.

But anywayz, i'm currently wondering what am i going to wear tomorrow... AHhhhh.. this is stressful!

Well, you see, i'm going to a Fashion Show tomorrow... you know those runway kind by this particular Italian Designer... And since my aunt was busy... actually come to think of it... i dont think she is... i think she just want us girls to go by ourselves...

SO FUN! I CANT WAIT... MY VERY FIRST RUNWAY FASHION SHOW DURING THE FASHION FESTIVAL.. WAAAA... I HOPE THERE WILL BE MORE TO COME!!

Oh well.. i act as though i'm in it or something.. wahhaah.. but yeah... i think watching it will be equally exciting... hehehe...

The theme is: Artistic & Stylish

tralalalala.. wheee!!! lol~! Artistic and stylish... Yup i have something in mind.. tralallala.. i hope it will look nice though... but yeah.. I'll be wearing something that will be showing enough of my neck since we're (me and my cousin) going under my aunt's shop's name...

SO.... me and my cousin will be adorned with accessories from the shop... Yup, we are the face (so called la) of Cahaya... That is btw, the shop's name... LOL~!

And i cant wait to see the new batch of earrings that just came in... And obviously cant wait to get my hands on them... wahahaha...

Seriously, we've been like ambassadors or spokesperson of the shop... wahahaha.. we've been happily trying out accessories for the fun of it.. wahahahah...

Talk about madness..

There's another week of something else coming out soon if i'm not mistaken... with the press and all... well, i hope my aunt ask me to come for that as well coz she already suspect that i'll be so excited for it.. wahahahaha...

Well.. yeah.. i'm just too free.. finding for things to do ya know.. lOL~!

PS: HIDAYAH I WANT MY CAMMIE BACK FOR TMR!! lol... See ya tmr.. I'll be getting my cammie back from you.. muahahaha... lol

I just remembered something about just now on my way for rehearsal...

Just now on my way to school, i had the most interesting cab ride.. yup yup..

very interesting.. with Mariah Carey played on my MP3 and turned up to quite high... and it was drizzling..

funny how songs and weathers and cabs and you adds up to being a very very weird and interesting moment in the cab...

it was afterall fogging up..

whee

Since i've already posted the b-day outing thing.. i shall post up another entry you know.. so as not to taint the previous entry and to rid myself of all murderous feeling which i hope to achieve by the end of this entry.. which i sincerely doubt.

Sometimes, dont one feels just like murdering?

I'm currently quite interested to murder/puncture/slap/sit on/ fart into/ kill/ hang/ drown/ flush down/ eat alive/ cooked alive/ be chopped into various small bits a grand total of 2 person in my life rite now...

Please choose whichever is better for whoever you think it is.. Thanks for your kind co-operation and understanding

yup yup..

I think thats alot since its both at the same period and for someone totally clean as me.. yeah.. its a big deal...

Both are getting on my nerves equally bad...

Both i see nearly everyday or whenever i bother give the acknowledgement of presence...

Both actually have the potential of getting me into huge quarrels...

One has a higher risk after quarrel than the other...

Watever it is.. i'm equally pissed with both.. or maybe its more inclined to one person..

Sometimes, i do wish that earth opens up and swallow the both of them... but i do hope that one would be given a better treatment after being swallowed up.. coz, one definitely deserves a better place and standard as compared to the other.

The end. I'm still not feeling any less murderous.. so ya.. maybe sleep'll help.. and yeah.. to memorise something for later..

whee. yayness. watever. fark off.

Mom's birthday was on Wednesday, 29th March 2006

Wahahhaha.. I did my mom a potrait, shaded with graphite stick..

Ya well, i guess thats the benefits of being an art student.. Past or present.. When you're broke, you take out your art tool box from your cupboard and decide whether or not you wanna use paint markers, crayons, watercolour, graphite stick or charcoal...

Wahhahaha..

but then i didnt give it to her yet... coz, i havent bought the frame...

so ya.. i gave her a small present first.. maybe i shall just push the potrait to mother's day.. LOL~!

cheapskate number 1.

Anywayz, we went to Fish & Co. Glasshouse.. and they have this lady performing there.. and well.. they started singing birthday songs and song dedications and started calling my mom Sister Kalsom coz, they didnt wanna call her auntie kalsom since to them, she looks young and like a sister of friend..

since hidayah joined us that night... she was the one who wrote the dedication... and obviously she put Auntie wat rite? LOL~!..

Then they were like.. "ARE YOU GUYS SURE ITS AUNTY? DID YOU GUYS EVEN HAVE THE RITE AGE?"

i'm like.. "Duh, she's my mom wouldnt i know better?"

Everyone laughs.. and the singer: "OMG. Are you sure? But she doesnt look like you... "

*rolls eyes* someone please tell me something new.. LOL~!

anywayz, yeah the glasshouse's house music was funky man.. Hidayah dared me to dance to one of the song.. eh hid.. maybe next time ok.. i was too full the other day.. LOL~! i'm definitely going back there just to chill and nibble.. ya know.. that kinda thing..

OOOOOHHHH... ya.. before hidayah dared me to dance, she dared me to go up to one of the waitresses to tell her that she's really sweet looking and that she has a sweet smile... I was sooo worried that i might sound lesbian or Bi at that point of time..

Well, when the girl came to our table.. i just turned to her with my most angelic face and said," Err, excuse me, but you know wat, my friend here thinks that you're really sweet looking and has a sweet smile.."

I was suppressing my giggle.. coz, i successfully made hidayah sound interested or something.. coz, hidayah immediately interjected saying, "Er no~! she said it.. i mean.. we both agree that you're really sweet looking" WAHAHAHAHAHAH

Then hidayah turned to me... "you see you see.. she cant stop smiling.. and you ah.. make me sound interested.. anywayz, that would really help if i'm a guy or something... LOL~!"

Then both of us were looking around.. i knew hidayah wanted me to say to another waitress, this caucasian girl, that she's sweet or cute looking, but then.. we were distracted by the soundtrack... and singing.. wahahaha..

WHeeee...

I just got back from Arts House... Yup... I went for it.. surprisingly... hrmmm..

Currently quite sleepy.. wahahha...

I like the songs from Closer to you heart...

I like the break up song and the songs from the mother...

In Tainted Flower, i saluted taufik rite? in Closer to your heart, i like the mother~!! LOL~! ooooo... and i love shahdon's voice... hahahah.. his solo, the song he sang with the brother at Geylang and the one where the 5 of them sang together..

Now, the last song was beautiful..

I guess thats all folks.. LOL~!

This is like the 3rd entry all in a day.. so much for me complaining that i dont have anything to blog about...

Anywayz, I had my dance class on Friday.. it was UBER FUN~!! hehehehe.. Although i wished that i have a partner.. hrmm.. *glares at a particular friend*

Anywayz, I'm currently quite depressed.. and rather confused.. Sometimes, i dunno why i'm put in certain situations you know, situations that i dont know how to get out off...

I'm very confused over a lot of things.. I dunno why certain things happen... I dunno why i'm the target at times... There's nothing else to be talked about... Sometimes, i feel utterly alone.. but when i wake up the next day, and i see my msges, i smile realising... i have pple that care... 6 of them to be exact.. There are times that i wonder, how am i going to leave and live without them?

But anywayz, back to me pondering about stuff...

I'm currently quite tired.. i just hope i could hold on you know... and not get certain things to get the best of me and just run from things... i'm not a quitter but sometimes, you just will need to do it no matter wat.... so therefore, i pray for someone to actually hold me back and hold me there till its over...

I know its actually the beginnings of my rather confused days... and i hope that you guys will not run away...

I cried around 3 times while having a MSN Conversation today with a friend today... I just feel lost, but having that conversation actually made me believe that things might get back to normal... i really hope it will.. i really thank you for being there today.. i really appreciate it.. even though you didnt say much... but once again.. Thank you...

Life has been boring for me...

I have Drama Rehearsals to go for.. and other than that... nothing else..

Hidayah stayed over the other day just for the fun of it.. and we talked and laughed for the entire neighbourhood to hear till around 6am where the both of us fell asleep...

It rained at around 4am and that was when we decided to sneak out of the house to go to Macdonalds across the road coz, we were suddenly hungry...

clever us was kinda wet later on and end up feeding my cats some of the nuggets we bought... LOL~!

Did anyone kinda realise how McNuggets are appearing in my entries quite frequently these past few weeks... I should ask McDonalds to pay me for publicity or something...

Anywayz, NATURALLY, i woke up late the next day and that day i have rehearsal.. YUP YUP~! another stupid thing to happen...

you should see how that hidayah wake me up.. she's ONE ABUSIVE alarm clock man.... welll... my other alarm clock that's located in simei failed to call me as well.. so this particular alarm clock kinda smack my back damn hard.. YUP IT HURTS REAL BAD.. well.. i kinda put it aside after realising that its actually 10am and rehearsal is at 1030am... and run into the bathroom leaving her laughing all the way...

P.S: Hidz, dont do that again... Thank god i didnt have asthma that morning or somethign.. or it would have been a totally different story by now...

So anywayz, had rehearsals.. and later on the 3 of us proceeded to town.. with me and mel entertaining ourselves on various poses that we see on the adverts in Taka.. imagining a camera in front of us.. coz.. HIDAYAH HAS YET TO GIVE ME BACK MY CAMERA~!!!

Anywayz, i'm like currently broke... nope.. not just broke.. broker than broke... worse than broker than broke i think.. i'm like the chief of broke or something... and taking a cab to every single rehearsal is definitely not a good thing to happen... just imagine.. $7.50 to school every tuesday and thursday...

I should just go rob a bank.

Especially now that my secondary school past time sorta came back to me.. and that is to hang out at Starbucks or Coffee Bean... i should really get on with my plan for the robbery i think.. hrmph~!

Well... I havent update for quite sometime...

let's see...

Mom's b-day is next week wednesday... And, i'm unbelievably broke...

I guess it shows from my lack of publicity of that event this year as compared to the previous yr.. hahahahha

but i thought of doing something for her... But i did something stupid instead...

I wanted to sms either my cousin or either one of my friends about my idea but clever me pressed.. 9**0*0*5.. and that is like my mom's handphone number.. yup talk about stupid...

so there i was... realising a second too late..

so as i was racking my brian on my way home trying to figure out wat on earth am i going to do now since, i've cleverly told my mom my plan...

and i reached home... rushed into the room... and found that my mom hasnt check her smses~!!! wahahahha... so i deleted them all in front of my mom with my mom pulling and kicking me in her attempts to read the messages..

hehehee...

OK.. i'm back to being bored me...

I'm seriously too free... Too free end up sleeping late... Sleeping late end up waking up late... ARGH~!!!

And waking up late is no good.. lol.. REALLY~! my alarm clocks failed me today... even the alarm clock that takes shape of a human...

but anywayz, i did this test...

and i'm an ATTENTIVE DIRECTOR~!

looook loook loookk... PERSONAL DNA TEST

eh you guys comment on it la... tell me how true it is.. LOL~!

Scatter-brain ME.

I have a whole list of things to do today... or at least thats wat i thought i'd be doing today...

Suppose to do:
10am - be in school to meet shahdon
1pm - be at CityHall to meet a friend for coffee
5pm - back in school for a revision class
7pm - meet my mom for dinner

What i end up doing?

Well, i ended up waking up at 1230pm... YUP YUP~! 1230pm... i can believe myself seriously.. and to think that i've set 5 alarm clocks to wake me up so that i'll be able to meet shahdon in school...

i'm still very guilty about it.. Especially when shahdon is so nice about it... haiz.. once again SORRY~!

so i had to rush to City Hall.. but i informed that friend of mine that i'll be meeting him half an hour later that the agreed time...

SO we met... we talked... catch up on each others life... it was really fun actually.. surprisingly.... hahahaha.. must be coz, its been awhile since i last talked to him... so ya...

so i left City Hall at around 1535hours in my pursuit to school... when i messaged Marcus. Asking him whether or not he's coming for the revision class... When he asked me WHAT REVISION CLASS?

that was when i realise... something's not right... and that was went i realised as well that today is not the 14th... and the revision class is on the 14th.. yup yup... so much for me planning to go to school...

so i alighted at the next station (Bugis) and take the train back to City Hall to change to the Red Line... I was obviously talking to a friend on the phone telling about my adventures so far and obviously he was HIGHLY AMUSED by my story... sheesh... but ended the call since someone was calling him...

so i ended up calling my cousin who refuses to talk to me at that time with no particular reason.. so i took the Red Line and alighted at Orchard... YUP~! All this while... i was alone...

So i walked around Wisma Atria... Looking at clothes and all.. at the same time wondering who should i ask out... Then it hit me.. maybe i should ask one of the senoritas out... But decided against Hidayah.. Since she just came back from Bintan yesterday... I mean she must be tired rite..

So... i called the other one instead... Suprisingly, she actually answered the phone~!! *Reminds self: Go buy 4D later* LOL~! Anywayz, yeah... she answered the phone... so we were talking like for half an hour.. and there i was talking animatedly outside Takashimaya's Zara for the benefit of the world...

And i end up refusing to meet up with my cousin... (LONG STORY.. SHEESH~!) But actually ends up meeting her... Coz, both of us were bored... and she misses me... and she wanna meet up with me complaining about the fact that she hasnt met for the longest time... Sidetrack: The last time we met was on Thursday la... where got long rite? that girl ah...

so we went to MacDonalds to buy 20pcs Nuggets and one Lrg Coke and drag it back up to the shop to eat, gossip and share stories... And i left at around 1730hrs.. coz, she has to meet my uncle (her dad)...

Somehow, the day ends with me signing up to join a particular ballroom dance which now a dearest friend of mine is scaring me over the fact that its gonna be filled with elderlies since i took up a course at the CC... This is btw, the same friend who was utterly amused by my adventures this afternoon... grrr....

Halooooo..

Everything's been great... WHEE~!!

Rehearsal's for Dramatec's Major Production has started and i'm sooo looking forward to it.. LOL~!

its like.. i think things are coming along faster than planned... i wouldnt be surprised at that actually...

The 7 of you... Thank you so much for making thursday's rehearsal a meaningful one... I really appreciate it~!

Exams results are out... I'm actually quite happy with it if not for a particular something...

but other than that.. i've been busy even though i'm not working.. hhehehe... thats the good thing...

the bad thing is that.. i'm broke.. lol

Anyways, today i didnt wake up that late... i was wondering wat i have later on today when i remembered (while rolling around on the bed) that someone's coming to my house later on.. obviously... i jumped out of bed and bathe.. LOL!

Oooooo... tonight's hally's D&D.. she was at my house just now.. Yup, i did the make up for her~! hahahha.. happening rite?? lol.. well.. not only that la.. i chose her entire outfit for her.. like wat's new rite? LOL~! Image consultant in the making gitu.. wahahahhaha...

the theme is R&B.. don't think its like the easiest theme around ok... with a client like hally.. this cannot.. that cannot... i threatened to quit some times.. i even threatened that if she everything also cannot.. she'll go to her D&D either make-up less, bottomless or topless.. oh and acceossires-less.. lol.. REALLY~!! even my cousin nearly gave up as well during our shopping trip..

yup.. she was soo fussy.. that yesterday, she still didnt have a top and a bottom... imagine that.. LOL~! but with me dragging her around yesterday.. we got everything quite fast... around 2 hours.. and her wardrobe is done...

But actually, the outfit came together perfectly... quite nice.. hahhahaha.. not too casual.. not too formal.. just nice.. LOL~!

and her hair?? WAHAHAHHA.. i cant believe i did her hair~!!! WAHAHAHHAA... i swear if she get caught in the rain later.. it will just fall flat on her head.. wahahhahaa... I wanted to have some curls la.. but she bought a hair spray that took a long time to harden... and since we were already running out of time, i made her hair stand instead.. LOL~!

yup.. i shall take her pic from shahdon.. he was at my house too.. commenting on every single thing and trying to make my cats like him.. haiyo.. that one another one.. i dunno why he never go also.. lol

This is one of the very few malay male artistes that i like...

An Air Steward before he starts singing full time... and definitely an eye candy...

And below is one of his music video... wheeeee.... very unique... i like.. i think he looks good as a jap.. LOL~! The music video reminds me of Last Samurai though... And its one of those malay song that i fell in love with.. LOL~!




And here's the lyrics and i'll try translating it into english to the best of my abilities... LOL~!

Title: Mungkin (Maybe)
Artiste: Anuar Zain

Biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu
Biarkanlah saja diriku sepi tanpa kata
Bukan maksud untuk membisu
Sepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian

Allow me to be alone without your presence
Allow me to stay silent with nothing to say
Its not the intention to be quiet
Silence without any words
We've grown apart 'coz we're each chasing our dreams

*I have no idea why the lyrics in the vid is different from all the lyrics i see online... But here's the second line of the song as sung in the vid*

Biarkanlah aku merindu sekian lama => Allow me to forever miss you

Chorus:
Mungkinkan bersama
Dua jiwa ini
Dalam mencari cinta sejati (nan suci)
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
Akan terubat kini

Can it be united?
These two souls
In search of true love (thats pure)
Can the pain within
Subside in the end?

Biarkanlah saja diriku
Sendirian tanpamu
Terpisahnya kita kerana
Mengejar impian

Just let me be
Alone without you
Coz we drifted apart
Each chasing our dreams

(Repeat Chorus)

Hanya satu pintaku
Sabarlah menanti
Ku kan pulang bersama cinta

There's only one thing i request
To patiently wait
For me to return with Love...

(Repeat Chorus)

Went for Tainted Flower: Beneath The Batik today by Yellow Chair Productions...

I would give it an A... A for Amazing... I really loved the scenes that has no lines and strictly songs... it really meant alot and definitely showed alot as well..

I dont really have anything much to comment on just that I love it... I love the protrayal of some of the characters... and Taufiq was great... he did wat he had to do to achieve a certain setting for that scene and he definitely went all out for it.. Not many can do wat he did.. and i really respect him for that~!

*Salute*

I shall blog about it more another time when i'm really awake...

Anywayz, sidetrack a little... Some people have been asking me whether or not Jason Mraz is good and all that... but i didnt know he was gonna perform at Esplanade Concert Hall on the 17th March 2006... If i knew.. i would have gotten my tickets~!!

And rite now when i found out about it, at a point of time where i'm broke and definitely cant buy the tics str. away... i'm really gonna strangle someone... Look at it man.. see wat's left.. EVERYTHING IS LIKE SOLD OUT EXCEPT FOR CAT. 2... and Cat. 2 cannot buy str. away la.. i'm like darn broke sia~!!

you know wat?

There's an itch... yup, itch as in mengatal (thats malay for having the itch to look for guys)..

yup yup yup... i have no idea why... i guess most probably is due to the fact that currently i'm very very very very free and constantly wondering wat to do...

Then i begin to ponder on my ongoing lovelife or rather the lack of it...

I begin to wonder... Why on earth wasnt i attached before?

Ok i'm not trying to be thick-skin or wat la.. but you know... people always will have a match of their own wat.. and its not as if i dont...

i've dated a few... hmmm i shouldnt state dated.. maybe.. hmmm.. more of, hmm got acquainted and welll... i dunno how shall i put it...

but they were guys of various racial backgrounds, social groups (is that the term for breakdancers, satanic, punk and whatknots?)

They were nice people.. really really nice guys... but when they popped the question... i refused without thinking twice... and usually that decision was made long before the question was asked...

There were reasons, all kinda reasons actually... And most of them was the fact I'm too busy with school and that i dont have the time for commitment... Now, i begin to wonder... is that really the reason or was i just afraid of being in a relationship.. Could it be?

i dunno...

hrmm.. maybe rite now.. i am really too free or something that i'm beginning to wonder why on earth am i not attach or maybe i should give relationship a try?

hmmmmm....

hmmm... I really cant believe that its really over...

Who ever thought that 3yrs would pass by so fast?

I entered poly thinking that it would be like a lifetime in there.. wondering when on earth i'll go out of there... well.. obviously, my first year wasn't the best.. so ya.. maybe thats the reason why...

But, as the semesters flew by, i saw the end getting nearer and i really cant believe...

And when the last day of my exams... i was stunned.

It literally spells OVER.

And i wasnt really prepared for it...

I still cant believe that there wont be a next semester. There wont be another time table. There wont be any comparisons of timetable. There wont be anyone coming to me asking me what class i'm in. What subjects i'm taking, when i'll be free...

And on the last day, as i looked around when everyone was taking pics and busy running to pose for a picture at a sight of a camera, i've realised something...

I'm really gonna miss them.

Who would have guessed? LOL~!

I didnt make lotsa friends... I tend to just stick to what i have... But i'm thankful to god to actually allow me to meet more throughout my days there especially towards the end...

And i'm really glad that i have spent those times with them... even for a mere 5mins, you know.. at least, i got the opportunity to know what that person is like before leaving...

I know my last few days before the last paper was rather rocky... Arguments, Ignorance, etc... But i'm really glad it happened, at least it showed me the true meaning of alot of things and watever that has happened.. i've never regretted anything at any point of time...

Instead, i was rather relieved... to the point of being thankful... Things happened, and i wasnt really affected by it.. i guess its cause its expected and well, very predictable...

Throughout the 3 yrs,

I've made friends... With various people... Maybe some i never would have thought that i'd make friends with... I've lost a friend and most prob have gained that friendship again... I havent been talking to someone who i have known for a very very long time... 2 yrs in fact... being ignored? if i am... i dunno wat i've done wrong actually.. and if that person happens to be reading this.. i'm sorry if i did something wrong and i hope there wont be silence between us again...

To those that i've known, I truly cherish you guys~!

Before i did the video... I bought the BSB - Never Gone album.. went to their concert... Incomplete and Never Gone has always been my favourite song... Never Gone i told azi should be used in the video... the lyrics are just too meaningful...

We used it..

After the video, Never Gone has a very different meaning to me now..

I guess all i can say now is...

"If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again"

I have lots of thigns to update about... surprisingly... i still havent find the time to sit down and compose a blog entry... muahahahaha

Sounds busy eh? So wat have Nad been busy about? LOL~!

Hrrmm... *mysterious smile*

I think i've been doing weird things and have a strange feeling of continuing to do the weird things that i've been doing...

So here i am... manage to find the 5 minutes for this entry...

but now, i have to go.. BYE~!

*goes off to town..* tralallalalalala

Hmmm..

Time flies.. like seriously.. I cant remember when was the last time i blogged...

today's like.. hmmm.. FRIDAY~!

and monday's my Banking & Finance paper.. like yay~! and i havent studied.. whahahaha..

*twirls and jumps around*

Been occupied with trying to study... whahahaha.. Seriously, i'm not in the mood... wheee...

and been sick for the past.. hmm.. month? i think so.. wahahhaa.. doesnt seem to recover yo.

i'm so bored.. i'm so bored...

yuppedie doo dah...

And Tydon Banks has chosen...

Wahahahaha.. wanna know who's the unofficial winner of ANTM Cycle 6? Just look below.. wahahhahaha

Hmmm

I've found out that some of you did not get the video clip on the day of prom...

So can those who did not get it, please come forward and take it from me..

YUP. I have extras and i could burn more if its insufficient...

And for those who already watch it...

Comments? LOL~!. i know la.. i abit k-po... but since cannot see reactions.. i'd have to ask for comments rite?

hmmm.. oh ya.. and comments regarding the slide show can put it under the comments box instead of the tag-box? so that it wont digress you know..

THANKIEWS PPLE~!!

oh ya.. and for those of you who didnt go for prom.. no worries.. i'll be giving you guys the video as well.. i mean it wouldnt be fair if you guys did not get it... since, everyone's a part of it...

so ya.. i'm looking forward to see the comments.. and i'm sure azi is too..

at least something refreshing out of wat's happening now you know.. LOL~!

good day ya'll~!

Yes.

Prom's over. Like watever.

Am i happy with it? well.. could have been better...

one thing that i'm kinda sad, pissed or watever is the fact that the video clip wasnt played during prom...

we (me and azi) made it with a reason. We made it so that those who attended the prom could remininse together... share that memory together... it would have been a great meaning for us all..

it would mean alot to me especially.. and to azi as well..

now, it would be just THAT other stupid video clip that happens to be given out at prom as door gifts.

Yup. its just a freaking door gift and nothing else.

it wont hold as much meaning as something else. it will not even have THAT meaning you know..

the kind that something that everyone knows, when it was played.. all their friends were there to watch it.. an when you play it again at home you will remember the memories when you watch it as a group and the memories of those days..

but now?

its just another CD with that video clip. just that video clip containing photos of us. people.

maybe i'm over reacting.. i dunno.

but i know that it will definitely hold a different meaning if it was played there. Prom.

Coz, i remembered during my sec sch prom, the one thing that I really remembered was a particular video clip that was played of us.. the seniors.. everyone watched it. remembered it. cried with it. and realised that those are the people that they will miss when they graduated.

And i remembered seeing the room differently. suddenly all the grudges that were around disappeared for that moment. They understood. They appreciated.

And that is something i wanted to happen yesterday.. to have something from an event where everyone will just be there and remembered you know. i just want that magical moment again.

ARGH~!

I cant believe i'm actually tearing because of it...

i guess i'm really over reacting i suppose... but then again.. i think i should be entitled to it...

since me and azi spent our weekends putting the photos, making sure the songs flow, getting photos from others and places, finding photos of events that occurred when we first stepped into poly and me sleeping at 4am for the past week trying to make the envelopes look nice and dragging it around so that azi could write down the event name and then trying to make sure the stickers stick well.. and staying up till 7am of the day of prom to burn the CDs and falling asleep to wake up realising that i've not finish it and that prom would be happening later on that evening and also checking 3/4 of the CDs to see whether or not its burned properly..

Well, maybe i'm to be blamed for that... coz, i rejected the help from marcus coz, i wanted it to be confidential so that it would come as a surprise.

i guess it my fault as well.. if i really wanted that particular thing to go smoothly as well.. i should have personally made sure that there was backup... i.e: made sure there was another computer.

ARGH!

I should just shut up. It's afterall over. no use of me complaining also.. nothing can be done now.

*scolds self... NAD~! You shouldn't be over reacting~!..
NAD: OH SHUT UP*

I have no comments..

Its 230 pm... the afternoon of prom. YAY.

haiz.

gotta go to the bank.. ciaoz.

I wonder wat the other 3 are doing...

tralallala..

i'm at home...

its 2.42pm...

i have a dateline at 5pm.. and i have yet to complete my stuff.. I have to print in school..

i'm so clever oh soo clever..

YAY~!

i dont even know whether i can come to school or not... haiyo..

my head... pain pain pain...
i shouldnt have rejected my mom's offer to go to the doctor this morning...

*cries*

OMG.

There's so many things that i wanna update...

but but but..

i'm just too tired rite now.. wahhahaha.. 3.57am and i'm still awake.. and wait till my mom finds out.. i'm so going to be killed... why? coz, i'm suppose to be sick and resting.. so ya..

My chinese new year weekend was spent with me catching up with sleep and then today, or rather, yeasterday, i fell sick. I have no idea how man.. especially when all i'm doing was catching up sleep.. so ya.. i think the bug's released especially with the fact that i'm resting or something... sheesh...

i sounded like a bird la this morning.. can you believe it? NOT NAD, NOT MINAH ROCKER! But like a bird. sheesh.. dont believe me ask azi... wahahaha.. she was at my house to witness it.. lol..

and azi.. speaking of which.. i managed to recover it.. so ya.. nothing's lost.. and i've added finishing touches to the first part...

OMG. i just have to sleep rite now...

ALOT OF PICTURES. MUSIC THAT MEANS ALOT. A PROGRAMME THAT NEVER FAILS TO HANG.

definitely not a good combination.. lol.. especially not suppose to last for long hours...

YAWN~!

oh man.. i wanna post my BSB pics.. but nvm.. i shall wait till most of my things are done..

Toodle doo good people.

oh ya.. before i forget...

yes. i know its late.. but at least i'm wishing rite?

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL~!

ok... Wahahahah..

Its kinda late..

And i'm currently too lazy to type out everything...

Coz, everything still seems utterly surreal to me..

REALLY~!

its like..

first, I cant believe that i went to a backstreet boys concert

second, i cant believe its OVER~!!!

Ok ok.. I gotta go..

i'll definitely update all about it..

DEFINITELY~!

I LOVE THEM~!!!!!!!!
*SCREAMS*

Before i indulge myself updating you guys on the Backstreet Boys...

(Yes. i know you guys are excited to read this blog just to hear about the concert rite? But pls be patient, the update will arrive shortly after this particular entry.)

I just wanted to comment on the movie: MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA

If many of you have high expectations of the movie.. Well, i better warn you to lower it before you actually get kinda disappointed with the movie..

Yup. the movie definitely captured awesome scenes moment where either the actor or the actress look ultimately gorgeous and awesome....

But emotion wise, its kinda lacking... especially when they're expressionless half the time.. makes me wonder you know... maybe Geishas are suppose to be like.. expressionless.. not allowed to show any kinda emotion to the world that sorta thing...

but then it will definitely affect the story wat if that's wat they're suppose to do... better film a wall like that...

But other than that.. the movie's fine... REALLY~!

Timecheck: 4.33pm

Date: 24th January 2006

And where will i be heading later?

Singapore Indoor Stadium...

For wat? Backstreet Boys- "Never Gone" Concert..

And wat time it'll be happening? around 3.5hrs staring from now!!

LOL~!

i know la.. my excitement kinda slow you know... only arrived today...

but then again.. i think i know why..

Coz, today's the only day that i'm truly free and allowed my mind to wonder away... and i still cant believe where i'm going later..

whahahahhaah...

its been like a week since i bought the ticket... and i cant believe its finally here...

I'm so tired from i dunno wat...

Currently typing away for Advance Civil Procedure Project... Deadline's tmr at 5pm.. its 2am and i have an arbitration class at 11am.. I wonder whether i'll be screwed for tmr's Intellectual Property (IP) test at 2pm since i havent study for it..

How brilliant can Nad get? Very.

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?
What I got to go to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Let's see i have so many things to be done... OOOOOO... I need to be wonder woman... And i cant believe it.. its like already monday.. which means i'm watching concert in a day time... OOOOOO~!!!!! I can't believe this~!!! oooooo~!!!! wahahhaa.. i must be mad. LOL~!

Everybody knows that I was such a fool
To ever let go of you, but baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am

Chorus:
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth
And now I'm crawling back to you

Funny isnt it? How one minute everything seems to be going wrong... You thought you've had it with things... Then the next thing, everything seems to be alright again, esp because of regret. Regret, funny word isnt it? but how long can regret pull you through? How long more can chance be provided just because of regret?

Isnt it equivalent to be taken for granted? What happens if suddenly, no one is no longer there, to answer when you call, to catch you when you fall?

funny.

but then again...

I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
I'm standing here all along

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right
Where you belong

Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

then again? oh ya.. where was i? oh yes yes.. i need to post up pics soon.. have i ever mentioned how much i love my new blog skin?

wahahhaa.. yes yes.. i love it...

RANDOM PICS



Time: New Yr's Eve (31st Dec 2005)
Venue: Long John Silver - Millenia Walk
Emotion for pic: Sadness/Depressed/ watever you wish to call it...
Reason: We're crazy.

I've finally got a new template..

YAY~!

ABIT THE WHITE..

it actually reminds me of hospital walls.. but i'm looking for something that has a big space for my entry instead of making it look all squashed up..

CUTE?

if it is.. say aye~!

wahahahha.. i like the drawing.. reminds me of an egg.

THE BOTAK HEAD MAN~!

or maybe.. a toyol?

whahaahaah

Now. Its back to me rushing for project datelines.. At least, now, there's no more performances or something...

Let's see.. oh ya..

8th Sin.

Hmmm.. I'll upload the pics up soon..

for now.. all i can say is a very big thank you to all.. not exactly the smoothest performance, esp not in the preparation area...

but still.. you guys rawk big time~! i love you guys..

the only problem i have now.. is that...

I can get over the thought of how dumb the audience can get...

sheesh.

if all they do is to watch lame show and laugh at things that's not supposed to be laughed at, they need to be killed. really.

I mean, if dont appreaciate.. don't come la..

oh ya.. i forgot..

We have a higher standard.
Confirm one..
Pple with higher IQ level was sent to the east of singapore to continue their education...

I'm just so irritated with it.. so ya.. LOL~!

Anywayz,

ON TO BRIGHTER NEWS~!

I'VE BOUGHT THE BACKSTREET BOYS CONCERT TICKETS~!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh

I totally can't believe it..

Especially the fact that it's happening next week the 24th of January 2005~!!!!

OMG OMG OMG~!!

Ok.

It has been an extremely busy week.

I hate and love the weather at the same time.

Love

I love the coldness.. i mean, its not always that you get see singapore foggy due to cold weather and the temperature being a constant 16 degrees is un believable.

Hate

I hate it that i cant do alot of things.. I cant go out esp since its like raining all the time.. I mean its a nice weather to sleep and all.. but its definitely not nice to wake up..

It really hurts lor.. i've been on my inhaler for the entire 2 weeks already... yup. i tend to be breathless and kinda wheezy when its cold.. and well, i hate my face rite now.. its like.. soo bloated thanks to it... the flooring are like so cold.. i really could not take it.. i run around on tip toes in the house.. so sad rite?

I've never felt this helpless.. not even when i was in London.

Well at least dancing around in the house keeps me warm.. LOL~!

wheeeee...

oh ya.. and have i mentioned that my current semester sucks?

LOL~! i mean i love my timetable.. but i hate my deadlines.. its like nearly everyday or something.. wahahah

I wake up everyday panicking as to whether or not i've missed any deadlines or is there any deadlines drawing near..

A really scary feeling.

I cant even enjoy thigns properly.

AND I LOVE THE ZOO~!

i think i wanna be a zookeeper.

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OMG~!

I'm over the moon.

I'm going for the BSB Concert.

Thanks you MOM~!

YES~! FINALLY~!

Wahahahaha...

so it seems my mom is quite for the idea of sending me overseas...

she thinks its time..

MUAHAHAHHA~!

so interesting rite?

My aunt even pestered me to go America and study law.. and no need to come back.. just stay there and practice.. LOL~!

and to think that was what i was thinking when i first entered poly.. wahahahah.. to just end up staying where ever i end up going..

well well well...

who knows rite?

we'll just see then if i really go overseas..

wheeeeee

3rd post for the day

Ok i hate Banking & Finance.. whahaha.. nothing seems to be getting in my head...

Ok OK.. nvm. I shall think happy thoughts.. Like.. errrr

yes.

Eating ketupats for tuesday~!! YUMM~!~!

ok ok.. i better concentrate on my B&F project before my group members like kill me or something.. lol..

wheeeeeeee... PICS, FOOD and nearly everything nice for TUESDAY~! *drools*

P.s: Oh ya, girls you better tell me when you guys wanna sign up for driving soon ok? latest by ermm.. end of this week? yup. no answers by friday, i just go sign up by myself.. wheeee.. Set? set.

Hari Raya Haji

I'm suppose to be doing my Banking & Finance project rite now...

Then i kinda remembered that Hari Raya Haji's on Tuesday. Yup. LOL~! Its hari raya again~!

I just hope that i wont be held up in school tmr.. I have errands to run..

And my mom's making ketupat.. and rendang.. and yum yum~!!!

My house kinda open for visitors. LOL~!

I really wanna go to the Backstreet Boys concert....

I know some of you may go wtf? BSB? are you mad? Watever pple. BSB mean alot to me ok.

HOW CAN MY MOM DO THIS TO MEEE???

I've never asked for anything now.. I've even forgot when was the last time i actually asked for something that i really really want.. Just this.. ARGH~! its not as if i'm asking her to pay for it.. I asked her to lend me money...

i asked her for the cash advance.. and then she asked me when will i pay her back? and i said i'll pay her back like $20 a week and thats a promise.

And guess what she says next? You'd wanna waste your hard-earned money on a concert ticket?

Like hellooo.. i've liked the band since like wat? 9 yrs old.. do you think i care how much the tickets cost? Seriously?

she knows it. she knows i like them since then. She knows i have every freaking CD they made. She knows i practically bought (used to ok) every single magazine with them as cover.

Ok fine. You can call me a groupie. But still... my mom cannot do this to me. I've waited for 10 bloody years for this concert.

I just wanna go ok.

ARGH~! she says that i can go the next time they come... They next time they come, i might not be around.. i might be overseas working my ass off trying to get a damn degree.

Or maybe the next time they come, i'll be like 30~! helooo.. they'll do a different kinda concert by then... They might even need walking sticks to assist their posture or something..

OR EVEN WORSE~! They might no longer be together~! That would just be disastrous! NOoooooooooooooooooooo

ya.. and i wouldnt be surprised if she says that i'm wasting money to go even if there will be a next concert and i have the money to go for it..

I think i could negotiate for a cheaper ticket? I seriously will cry if my mom really really dont allow me to go to the concert or thinks that i'm spending unnecessarilly.. so ya..

ok.. maybe you pple think why on earth is Nad making such a big fuss out of this...

Well here's the answer ok...

Their songs have been there for me when everything else wasnt.

Second post of the year.

I think this song is kinda nice.. wahahah.. rather.. err... cute?

LOL~!

The Pussycat Dolls
PCD
song: Wait A Minute

Everybody listen all over the world
I got a story 'bout my favorite girl (Wait a minute)

Oh, my baby sexy for sure
I had to have him when he walked through the door (Wait a minute)

She was 'bout to drive me insane
She come with drama while I'm giving her chains (Wait a minute)

I'm focused but I'm losing control
He only wants me for my body zone (Wait a minute)

Girl, why you do me like that?
You take all my money
Can't even call a player back (Wait a minute)
Boy, why you tripping like that?
You think 'cause you tricking you get it just like that? (Wait a minute)

Minding my business, I was doing my thing
Got my attention, so I gave him a chance (Wait a minute)
Did I mention he was buying a bar?
Gave him my number, he was trying so hard (Wait a minute)
Bought me some things I didn't want, didn't need
Dropped down his jeans like I'm supposed to drop to my knees (Wait a minute)
He been blowing up my phone like he know me
Been leaving messages "You know what you owe me" (Wait a minute)

Girl, why you do me like that?
You take all my money
Can't even call a player back (Wait a minute)
Boy, why you tripping like that?
You think 'cause you tricking you get it just like that? (Wait a minute)
Girl, why you do me like that?
You take all my money
Can't even call a player back (Wait a minute)
Boy, why you tripping like that?
You think 'cause you tricking you get it just like that? (Wait a minute)

What is your problem daddy?
Slow your roll
Who you think you jiving?
You're disturbing my flow (Wait a minute)
Why you be bugging?
Like I'm some kind of hoe
Got no more questions and I want you to go
So break (Break)

Hey, let me talk to you for a minute
Shut up...shut up

I love the way you strut
Girl, you already know
But, I'm feeling like you don't want me
You just after my dough

Baby, please, I'm fine
I'm not one of these hoes
Chasing dreams not diamond rings
So don't call me no more
(Wait a minute)

Girl, why you do me like that?
You take all my money
Can't even call a player back (Wait a minute)
Boy, why you tripping like that?
You think 'cause you tricking you get it just like that? (Wait a minute)
Girl, why you do me like that?
You take all my money
Can't even call a player back (Wait a minute)
Boy, why you tripping like that?
You think 'cause you tricking you get it just like that? (Wait a minute)

See, I don't want your money
Yeah, I seen you rolling up here
In your cadillac
But, I don't need all that
It is a nice color though
(Wait a minute)

What they call you, Mr. Tin man or something?
See, I don't want your cars
I don't want your jewelry
You can't buy this
So you can keep that
Wait a minute...
Uh yeah, you can give that back

its 1.08AM. 1st January 2006.

God how time files... only an hour ago, it was 2005, last yr. and now.. its like.. 2006...

Saying goodbye to 2005 is definitely difficult.
There were so many things that happened. Good and bad.

It was the year where:

I had my very first holiday job
My very first musical
I made a new friendship that i know will last
My grandfather passed away
There were quarrels
A stronger bond was forged
My performance at SHM
I was ignored by someone
I go out with my cousin often
2 of my friends met the other group of my friends
I made a lot of new friends
I celebrated various people's b-day
I did stupid things on the journey to school
I had camp
SIP drives everyone crazy
An unexpected friendship that was forged during SIP
I did stupid things when i went out with the girls

So many things..

Last movie of 2005:
CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE LION, THE WITCH AND THE WARDROBE.
I cant believe i actually watched it 2x

People I saw on 31st Dec 2005. (The ones i know, aside from my family members)
Gillian Champion (For my entire train ride to Dhobby Ghaut)
Melvyn (For 20 Seconds)
Hidayah
Madeena
Haizad (He's the last person i saw for the yr 2005, and of course deena la.. aside from my mom that is.. :))

Yup. i went out with them.. whahaha.. it was one of the craziest outings ever. The 3 of us were never THAT broke in our entire lifes before and YES. we were VERY broke. Too bad the other 2 couldn't join us.. whahaha.. it would have been hilarious. One obviously had family dinner and the other sprained her ankle while playing zero point. WAHAHAHHAHAH~!

P.S: Girls, wat you think about making Hally honorary member of senoritas? LOL~!

Anywayz, let me get back to my entry about the new year.

should i welcome 2006 with open arms?
I'm actually afraid of 2006. Very afraid of it.

2006 arrives bringing along with it tons of question marks.

It actually brings along the beginning of the end. The last time i felt so unsure of a particular yr was 2003. When it marks the end of secondary school and the beginning of poly.

And now? 2006 marks the beginning of the end of my poly life. Something that i definitely am not prepared to come out of. Especially rite now, alot of things that i'm unsure of.

Anywayz, there are obviously things that i definitely am looking forward tooo.. Quite a list of things that i'm looking forward too actually.. lol~!

New year resolution?
Wahahhaha.. I cant remember when was the last time i had it... hmmm let's see? To be pretty? to look good? wahahha.. Is that considered a wish? or do i like have to go plastic surgery for it?

girls. stop it ah. no. i'm not wishing to get a boyfriend. that's one of the things that i've given up wondering when it'll happen.. whahahahahahah...

Let's just see wat this new year brings.
I'm definitely curious.

I had the most eventful christmas..

Met my cousin on saturday coz she wanted to pass me my christmas presents.. yes pple, me and my cousin tend to exchange presents... yes.. on christmas... its happens... my family is just too colourful..

so we went around clarke quay and ends up with her not allowing me to forget how dumb i can get when it comes to guys... esp when a particular italian spanish guy that came along..

Did some last minute shopping.

she stayed over.. it was the crappiest sleepover ever... she left early in the morning to meet her dad for christmas lunch. And came back late.. but i had to pick her up coz, she forgot how to come back to my house.. talk about lack of direction. sheesh.

we went out on boxing day again... shopping and ice cream outing and movie.. so ya..

and talking about guys.. wahhaha.. and i bought myself a turqouise and pink shoe to replace the pink one that i bought from Charles & Keith in April this yr. Some of you might have remembered it.

And we talked more about guys.. whahahah.. sheesh. girls. lol~!

speaking of girls and guys...

To a certain someone:

CONGRATS MAN~! LIKE FINALLY~!

someone is finally attached~!!! whahahahaha... thanks for making me one of the first few to know.. hehehe.. really appreciate it.. friends for life per.. LOL~!

I swear Carrie Underwood and Kelly Clarkson looks similar now.. seriously~! ok ok.. fine maybe at first glance or something.. but still.. they look similar..

You dont believe me.. go see Carrie Underwood's video - Jesus, take the wheel..

Only difference: one is brunette while the other is blonde

If there are times i feel like killing my grandmother.

This is one of it.