On thursday, everyone was excited and looking forward to Good Friday.

Suk Ching was supposed to come and sleep over at my place on Thursday but my darling suk ching realised that she has forgotten to bring her passport at 10.15am at work. OF ALL THINGS YOU KNOW! She brought her change of clothes, her toothbrush, KOREAN DVD EXCEPT HER PASSPORT!!

*double faints*

So she ended up going to Joanne's house after work after small boss send her home to go and take her passport. I was supposed to be there also la.. There was a MJ session. But i backed out last minute due to reasons that some cant fathom.

Besides, i left work late anyways.

*screams* I better get good returns working here i tell you!

Went out of the country and crossed the causeway with my colleagues yesterday (friday).

They have this fetish with eating seafood... this is the second time we eat seafood eversince i started working there. i don't know whether will there be more to come. LOL!

Was damn tired yesterday when i reached home. Slept early yesterday.

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Had the worst nightmare ever! I woke up with a start, crying and the shock nearly gave me an asthma attack. I was so afraid, frightened out of my wits i refused to allow myself to fall asleep again.

It was so early in the morning, i was still tired from yesterday's outing that my eyes promptly shut again only to find myself continuing the dream that i tried to run away from.

It was so real. I really did feel my heart breaking, i really did feel the lost, it felt so real. I remembered thinking to myself how could someone do such a cruel thing. I remembered asking them to stop. I went in desperate search of my phone.

I felt my phone not too far away, slide it open and saw a message.

I read it several times, forcing my mind to register that everything is fine, that whatever i saw a few mins ago was just a dream. I sat right up in my bed and stared right at my phone. I was trembling with fear, trying so hard to control my breathing.

I was too scared. My fingers can't seem to run over the keypads with ease the way they do on other days. I replied, knowing that its not a dream, just a desperate message from within to let you know, if you dont already know it.

The value to me is so great that i fear for it. I don't want to lose it. Its just too precious to me. I will not let anything happen to it. Losing it has become my latest and greatest fear.

But that dream, it hit so hard. I know how much it means to me now.

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I went out today!!! Went to watch movie. Seriously had fun today la... hahaha.. i took pictures!!LOL! Today reminded me that i need to go and repair my cammie! I HAVENT CAMWHORED IN THE LONGEST TIME! I didn't realise what's today's date till i reach home and about to start blogging. It's the 7th.

I tell you.... I've had it with me coming late. I'm pissed off at myself. how sweet is that?

*rolls eyes*

I need to be on a diet! Seriously.

I hate working in town due to various reasons. One the train is constantly full.. And i swear i'm not skilled enough to squeeze myself into a train yet. i think i need at least a yr's experience before i am fully qualified to do such things.

Have i mentioned that my ear is in pain? yes yes... the other time was my right, now its my left. HAIZ!!!

The air in the area is weird. Certain things shouldn't be done too openly i suppose. At the end of the day, it is still your equal here. How would other perceive the situation is something like this was displayed so publicly?

I'm hungry. SO much for me wanting to go on a diet. ARGH! i should just go and bury myself rite now.

If you wanna know what's tiring? The trip to KL last weekend was effing tiring. SERIOUSLY! i reached KL at 10pm and guess what? I was competing the next day at 8.30am.

I was up at 6, coz breakfast was served at 630 and the bus sending us to the sports arena arrived at 710.

I was at the lobby by 710 and why do you think i was in the state i am below? LOL!

JE SUIS FATIGUE!

Just look at the layers i have to put on just to get ready for the competition! I tell you no need to warm up also feel very warm already la... i'm already in my t-shirt and shorts... and i have to wear my breeches over my shorts... chest protector (which i dont wear when i fence with the guys but its compulsory during competition... so no choice), my plastron (its supposed to protect the arm that you're using to fence but i really dont know whether it protects or not la.. i guess it will in times of when your opponent's blade breaks and she didn't realise and she continued charging... so it wont actually go through kinda thing), my jacket. As you can see in the picture below...

I tell you... its was effing hot la! so many things inside there... i had difficulties zipping up my jacket (which of course was loose after i fence 2bouts, talk about fast)

So this is what i look like AFTER putting on everything... Please la.. this is not complete! i still have to put on my electric jacket over my white jacket ok... and there's still my glove... all these i will only wear when i know what time i'm competing and after warm up... coz i need to put in my wire as well...

Don't i just look like a ball to you? SADDED!

There... that's me with my electric jacket still on after fencing a few bouts... LOL! and waiting for the ranking to be out for the Direct Elimination Round.


Anywayz, here's a photo of me in action.. cannot really see la... that's one of the bout where i trashed the M'asian girl. its all good... we became friends rite after bout. LOL!


I was FAMISHED LA by the end of my competition! Can you imagine. I had breakfast at 630am. I was fencing since about 9am... I got eliminated at 3pm and my coach forgot to buy me lunch... so i only had a donut before my bout. I WAS NEAR DYING THERE LA! Then i still have to drag my equipments out of the Olympic Sports Arena because the entire competition end at about 6pm... so i took a cab.. thank god i was with my mom... at least she flagged the cab for me instead of me trying to balance my stuff and all...

so we went back to the hotel, i bathed! i could feel my muscles aching like shit after that... and str. away went in search of food! I ENDED UP EATING AT KENNY ROGERS! YAY!! one of the plus points of going malaysia. Things i cannot eat here, i can eat down there! MUAHAHAHAH!

Don't i just look like a really really really hungry monster to you? LOL! so anywayz, after that i bought drinks, tidbits and went back to the hotel...

Instead of eating and drinking the stuff i bought, i promptly fell asleep and only woke up at about 12midnight in HUNGER! lol. so thank god for the things i bought sia..

So thats a really summarised and optimistic insight on my KL Trip. LOL! Adios. i need to sleep.

I WANNA FALL SICK!

Lol... actually no need to want, i am on the verge of falling sick... my eyes are so painful early in the morning that every time it happens i thought i was gonna go blind.

And i think my ear is giving me problems again.

I'm so tired even boss gets the hint i guess... LOL! somehow, she thinks i'm stressed. Just coz, i didnt make any noise today, didnt laugh today, didnt do anything out of the ordinary.

I was just being the typical secretary behind the screen doing her work quietly and somehow my boss is bothered by that.

I swear pple worry over the stranges of reasons.

Its just that i'm tired wat... don't expect me to go bouncing around the office when i'm tired rite? haiyo.

But anywayz, i'm gonna sleep now. I'm trying to go to work early nowadays even though its failing miserably but she doesn't say anything since i wok ULTRA LONG hours! Trust me. You won't believe the hours i work.

Let me just give you an estimation. If i were to own my own company, at the rate i'm working, i would have had profits spilling 5 times over. Seriously. LOL!!

So anywayz, the new month has arrived and i have spent the bulk of my pay. It was my mom's b-day on the 29th and i bought her a watch from Marc Ecko.

It was the perfect present. She loved it. WAAHAHAHA... even though my colleagues think that i spent a bomb.

Somehow they are under the impression that i am the kind who wouldn't mind paying a certain amount for things like this...

They said i'm some kind of a walking brand advert. Hmmmm... Let's see if i were thinner... i swear i would already be a model at the rate i'm going!! LOL!!! i wish. *rolls eyes*

And that is just my mom's present. They have not seen what i bought for myself. I bought this.

THE NEW CALVIN KLEIN WATCH FROM THE RAY COLLECTION.

I bought the white one. I swear if they see this... They'll be like... OMG, i swear.... or "I HAVE NO COMMENTS". Suk Ching's already planning to scratch my watch. tsk tsk tsk... wahahhaa..

And i initially wanted to get myself this:


The Marc Ecko, "Better off dead" watch

Its cool isnt it? Maybe i'll get that next month... straight off the Marc Ecko's website. Muahahahaha.. Call me crazy or mad, but hey, its a collection of sorts.

Afterall, the things you wear tells your story.

Don't be subtle, be bold. It is a statement afterall.

Sheesh! Its 2.20am and i cant sleep!

Serve me right for waking up so late today!

And i'm actually watching princess hours again... *faints* i cant believe myself sometimes. LOL! hahahaa.. Somehow, i love the show... Maybe its coz of the various issues that i could definitely relate to.. Different setting, same problems. LOL!

My grandmother is in Malaysia and most probably will be back tomorrow. heheheh... why do you think i've been enjoying myself this weekend! lol! The worst part about it was that... NONE OF MY FRIENDS WAS FREE THIS WEEKEND!

So i spent my time with my mom instead. Told her about work and all... I haven't told her much ever since i started working here... i've just been busy constantly i suppose.

Talked about work and its issues. Then i remembered how one topic which was somewhat discussed at work. Marriage.

Yes. Marriage. It saddens me how people nowadays take the issue of marriage so lightly that its just something written down on paper. I dunno why, but i just find it so insulting.

Isn't marriage supposed to be sacred? Isn't it suppose to be some unbreakable bond made by parties that's totally in love with each other that they would want to spend the rest of their lives together and waking up everyday knowing that you're not alone?

You can call me a romantic or an optimist. But marriage at the end of the day is a relationship shared between 2 individuals and like any other relationships, it needs to be worked on doesn't it?

I just can't fathom how society of this time can take marriage so lightly.

I just need to sleep for now... Gotta go! LOVE YA'LL!.

I am freezing.

I am cold.

I am feeling sick.

I am bored.

I am busy.

I am running ard.

I hate the weather.

I have tummy ache.

I'm sleepy.

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Isn't it amazing?

When one thing collapse, so does everything else.

Today's my mom's 48th B-day...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA!!

Hope today's a great day for you!

I love you Ma!

I know i've never said it out loud or even show how i feel. But I know i've been blessed. You've always been around for everything.

Thank you god, for making her my mom!
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I sorta have a plan for today. We'll see... hehehehhe... i bought her present already. Met rohaidah yesterday. It was some hilarious outing sia. It was a distraction in itself. LOL! And we both realised that i've gotten more and more efficient eversince i took up this job. Haiya, wat to do. You're at the boss' back and call rite? lol!!!

But anywayz, i hope she like what i picked out... even though it wasnt what i initially wanted to get... but to bad la, should have booked it 2 mths ago. Oh well.

let's just hope she likes the present. hehehehe...

I've come to a conclusion in which i have announced to Kiran (my colleague/assistant and also the firm's ever-efficient recep)

I HAVE NOTHING INTERESTING TO DO OR TALK ABOUT EVER SINCE I STARTED WORKING!

*screams and pulls hair*

Coz, she claims that my blog is no longer interesting! HEY! WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?!?! *does a Kung-fu pose*

Oh you know what... i think i'm going to do my hair this weekend. Since, its the 5th Saturday... and we're going to Sentosa and i might be able to drag my cousin if i really put my mind to it... and then since my darling is confined (which is not a good thing, i tell you... ITS A CONSPIRACY!! - yes, i've made one full circle and returned to that phase! WAHAHAHAH!!!)

But anywayz, i've decided, i should do my hair before i happily finish my money! lol!

Oh, and i did not blog about my KL competition trip.

LOL!

1. it was hilarious shite... especially the "shopping" outings with the guys.

2. It was fucked up shite... the competition especially.

I've never actually lost my temper during a competition before till that day. Everyone saw how pissed off i was. One conclusion is that, they better get a more qualified referees next year... or else... THAT'S IT AH! I will go and assinate all the referees so as to ensure that new ones get appointed the following year. Hopefully, i'll be somewhere by next year. *wiggles eyebrows*

Turns out the guys got equally fucked up referees for their competition the following day. So i guess it was understandable that i lost my temper. lol!

SO did i go on a shopping spree? Especially when my mom was there? No la! i had my equipments to drag back and my mom had our clothes to carry... so i decided not to torture her anymore. lol!

But i did get a pair of heels, belt, a pair of earrings, 2 t-shirts, and what else ah? I think that's it...

And i have this itch to go KL on the 6th to do the necessary spree that i didnt do last weekend. wahahahaha...

Anywayz, i'm going home soon. i better this opportunity to go home early, it doesnt come often! heheheh.. and i'm meeting Rohaidah tmr to search for my mom's b-day present and her bf's b-day present. lol!!!!

*peace out*

I fell asleep while gazing at the stars.

That's one thing i love about traveling in Malaysia in the middle of the night.

The street lights are so far apart on the highway that its dark enough to see that the sky was peppered with diamonds.

Diamonds of different shapes and sizes covering the entire sky like sand, glittering like fireworks.

I couldn't help smiling just staring out. It distracted me from the cold air in the bus and i remembered thanking god countless times for keeping me alive and allowing me to see what i saw.

I've never felt so blessed and at peace.

I'm reading story books and i'm currently curious.

How does it feel really to have your sweetheart at war while you're at home wondering whether he's fine? And then you'll just have memories of each other to keep you looking forward to the day he comes back, with his letters constantly tucked in your book and his picture in your locket.

lol! that's the most typical and classic scene taken out of a typical love story. Let's bring this forward to modern days. I SWEAR I'M TOO FREE!!!

Your sweetheart at war = to your sweetheart in NS? (ok that's the only closest thing i can think off, especially with the guys in uniform, confined and defending the country! LOL!)

Girl at home = girl outside of NS (somehow thats the only thing i can think off)

picture in girl's locket = picture in digicam or wallpaper on the phone (TRUE ISNT IT?)

Letters from him = Daily smses, phonecalls or sweet emails to you when he books out as a form of surprise. (even though the final gesture dont usually happen or doesnt happen at all... LOL!)

Memories of each other = Memories of each other (Modern day or not, memories cannot be upgraded, only can be added on... wahahah!)

I guess there is some sort of a similarity from the old and new. And yes, i'm too free... lol!

Now, what happens if both parties are not able to get hold of each other, talk or have any form of contact?

That we'll have to wait and see. lol!

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I'm actually VERY tired! But since i'm feeling kinda stressed up, i cant really sleep!

I AM STILL AT WORK!

ARGH.

Ya la... go on leave rite... i never come back then they know lor! wah lau.

I am...

1. Stressed.
2. Worried.
3. Depressed.

My excitement to compete has gone from very excited to fucked up.

I'm not even excited to go anymore. I don't feel like going already.

I feel shitty right now. I need something to cheer me up at the moment.

Can i just dont go to work and dont go KL too? Can i just bury myself in my own world? Can i? Can i just seek comfort and not emerge from there? Can someone take me away from reality and dont allow me to return? Can someone just take me away? Can?

Please?

*runs to hide from prying eyes*

I had the sweetest of nights on monday.

Tuesday passed in a blur.

Wednesday was tired as hell...

Thursday will be a hustle of activities.

Friday will be welcoming the beginnings of my jitters

Saturday might be stressful

Sunday will be either very high, very low or just plain tired

Monday will be a relaxed day

Tuesday will be a killer.

That usually happens when i go on leave. *faints*

I should either:

1. OFF MY HANDPHONE
2. NOT BRING MY CHARGER
3. PUT IT ON SILENT AND NOT RETURN CALLS
4. IGNORE CALLS UNLESS ITS SOMEONE OF IMPORTANCE
5. JUST PICK UP THE CALLS AND CLAIM THE PHONE BILL

*rolls eyes*

ARGH. and i dont have cammie. This is great. The one overseas competition and cammie had died on me. Thanks Cammie! i love you for that. *Dumps cammie in a bin*

Have i mentioned? i'm stressed. lol. or maybe not... i'm just hungry.

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I love you too, even though i've never said it out loud to you before.

I'm at work and i'm currently having the worst of headaches man...

I'm going on leave soon and i'm somewhat worried that i have something pending and i cant remember what is it. if you know what i mean...

its 11.56am and i've been running around the office as though its 5pm.

I'm walking around in my slippers... with ring files, folders with various widths and weights. I am stressed. lol! No. actually i'm not... i'm just worried. lol.

Oh.. have i mentioned? that my mom has a blog. She told me about it yesterday night on our way home. She just started it in March 2007. but of course, she minus out the address part... lol. Somehow, i have this feeling that the blog is / will be written in malay. i just have that feeling.

She must have been lonely. Somehow, i'm not surprised.

I tell you, one day when i have to wear specs... i'll start cursing and swearing like there's no tomorrow. my eyes are painful!!

and FYSHE!

my prayers of going home early today was answered. SHITE!

i seriously got nothing to do already. its 5.50pm. argh.

Thanks.

i'm only left to call Hyatt Regency, which will probably take me around 5mins.

i totally cant believe this.

*looks around in amazement*

HA. I'm doing my work at high speed from just now hoping beyond words that i'll be able to go home on time today.

But now, i'll just slow down since its fine if i leave at 10pm today anyway... lol! yes yes.. call me workaholic... but ah well.

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Disappointed? Yes.
Angry / Pissed? Nope...

I totally understand the situation, you have alot of people who wanna spend time with you over this break or whenever you're free... so ya, i'll get over it... At least we've met this weekend.

So, don't worry about it... we'll just meet another day or time... aite? :) Love you!

MY LEFT PINKY CANT BEND!!

STUPID JOSH. I'm gonna kill him..

Actually i already did... but still.. the bruise i gave him is not as bad as this one la... I dont think it will even last that long. ok maybe it will, it did send him screaming. lol! well, getting whipped by a metal rod is not exactly very gentle rite? lol!

I REALLY THOUGHT MY PINKY FELL OFF LA JUST NOW!!!

of all things to get hit, is the ONE HAND THAT DID NOT WEAR A GLOVE. maybe i should get a left hand glove even though its UNNECCESARY! *glares*

It was purplish-blue just now before i met mel for dinner. Now its normal colour.. only that i cant bend it..

not only that, my the left hand fingers have lost its strength. i can really grip anything much, and i couldn't even open the kfc chilli sauce!!!

ARGH!!!

And they said i was violent? *Ka-bisH*

Hallo? no matter how violent also, at the end of the day.. i'm a girl wat! confirm not as painful mah! sheesh...

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I got my new FIE mask. Now i can go for more international competitions. ARGH. those guys wanted to damage it.. well at least it does not have visor like josh's. if not confirm become target practice of the day... they were hoping to spoil it. grrrr..

speaking of spoiling things, today was like.. pre-competition casualty/jitters.

1. my left pinky was hurt

2. Matt's blade, BROKE!! WAHAHAHAHAH!! AGAIN!!! That's like the 5th blade he broke in 3mths i think!! LOL!!!!

3. Josh has to go and change his visor la.. seriously, i've never seen a more scratched mask than his..

4. Chen Hsi thinks he's losing his stamina. Losing stamina my ass la... chase people around like shit like that... he stamina sux also confirm get in top 5 one.. *rolls eyes*

5. Morgan... hmmmm... I think morgan is the only person who didnt have any casualty apart from him losing to me 2x in a row and he blames it on A FULL STOMACH! *rolls eyes again!*

i think i'm gonna get whacked left, right, centre in KL! or rather Matt thinks so.. he said, i'm pretty predictable.. *sticks out tongue!!!!* i shall refrain from giving a defense... I'M NOT GONNA BUY INSURANCE!!!

but hey.. getting whacked by the guys and still winning some of them should be good enough for me.. MUAHAHAH!! coz in the end, its the girls that i'm competing against. HA!

OK FINE! I'm trying to console myself.

In reality. I'M STRESSED!!

FYSHE!

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One of the many Highlights of the day

As i walk up the stairs to FM

Matt: Wah, now then you reach ah? SO LATE!

Me: *ignores and cont listening to mp3*

Matt: You graduated from SJC rite?

Me: HUh? Who graduated from SJC?

Morgan: You..

Me: Oh yeah.. i did... why?

Matt: You know a Ms. Ng? Ms. Alice Ng? Curly hair?

Me: Err.. no?

Matt: When you graduate?

Me: 2002? *enters the training centre..*

*put on my jacket and lamee and find my glove and ask coach for my new mask when Matt enters*

Mat: You graduated from 2002? you sure or not?

Me: Err... Ya la..

Matt: That's like 5 yrs ago you know...

Me: Hmmm.. not that you pointed that out.. yes.. 5yrs ago..

Matt: HOW OLD ARE YOU SIA?

Me: err... turning 21 in oct this yr?

Matt: WHAT? *burst out laughing* You're turning 21? *Rolled on the floor laughing (He really did roll)*

Me: Why? What's so funny?

Matt: *Looks up and down and still laughing* You don't look shit like 21 sia..

Me: Then how old i look sia?

Matt: 16! I thought you just finish o' levels or maybe even just in sec 4 or something.. i always thought that you were my age!!!!!!

Me: *died laughing* Err.. thanks? I get that all the time by the way.. so ya.. thanks.. lol!!!

*peace*
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I met my darling i met my darling i met my darling.... after 2 weeks of hell... i met my darling i met my darling i met my darling..

AHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!

I MIGHT BE UP TO SOMETHING!

*wiggles eyebrow*

I've been doing the most terrible things this week.

Cheeky and mischievious as hell.. LOL!!!

its been awhile huh?? lol! you guys might need some getting used too.. wahahahaha

*boogies about*

Its Friday.

I'm so tired, it actually sucks.

haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.....

The consultant is here today... Had to take photo for my online profile, with professional photographer... The lighting, the camera, the whole bit... its damn hilarious la... Can you believe it? I'm actually gonna appear on a website! LOL!!! Totally what the you know..

Has staff lunch just... i went crazy with my boss' camera. I tell you, its not a good thing with the lack of my cammie. I have not camwhored in a long long long long while.

Today, as my boss' daughter said, "Wah.. It looked as though the papparazzis are chasing you guys" LOL!!

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Sometimes, you miss a person so much, it actually hurts bad.

Random Point of the day

She said, "My only mistake or regret was not forcing you to take your 'A' Level. You'd definitely end with a different set of results"

She knows i work better under pressure yet she was the one who was convinced that i will never do well for 'A' levels. I was too depressed at that point of time coz of the fact that i didn't get into VJC, to be bothered about proving her wrong.

And she chose to say it out now, after 3 yrs of poly and nearly a yr after i've graduated.

Her reason? "I didn't know you would follow the crowd. Till poly happened. There's no form of pressure there... Everything was so relaxed."

And me? I was like "WTF" silently.

Ok fine, i did slack alittle. OK ok ok... maybe... ALOT.

I mean i've never scored a D or even failed a subject in my entire life till poly la..

Ok. FINE. Maybe she does have a point.

But nobody can do anything also wat now, i've graduated with a diploma.

*shrugs*

Now? I'm just waiting to see where i'll go next, she doesn't have to rub it in lor.

*suddenly thought of food* I WANNA EAT ICE CREAM!

I'm going to sleep now!

Tmr's another working day. Have i mentioned that my boss LOVES to put me on the spot a.k.a bully me! Totally wat the hell!!

I swear there are some druglike effect to this.

Once you're hooked, you're hooked.

Addiction is an addiction at the end of the day.

It makes you high, happy, excited, calm, relaxed.

I have had many addictions, i have a current one that i seem to be in constant need off.

Its shocking.

I'M GOING TO START COMPLAINING I TELL YOU!

I hate work! Or rather working life!

Hate it Hate it Hate it Hate Hate it Hate it Hate it Hate it Hate it Hate it~!!!!!

SPICE UP MY LIFE PLEASE?

I'm so tired coz of work, i just can't drag myself out anymore. When i'm free, everyone else is not. When i have made plans, work piles in like free.

Work kills your social life. Work makes you lonely like shit.

Yes, i'm in one of those phase again. It hit me bad at my previous work place, i even went home crying once.

But its not bad here. Its just that, works makes a person feels lonely afterwhile. That's for sure.

Thinking that you'll have to work the rest of your life, its definitely a scary thought.

My boss has left like 2hrs ago, i could have left on time too! but... no, i'm still here in front of my work station sending out the final email of the day... just coz, i couldn't find anyone to go out with me today.

you know, sometimes, you just wanna meet someone, definitely not your parents or anyone related to you, right after work. Just someone, a friend, somebody that can just make you laugh, complain to, eat ice cream with and just spend your after-working hours with.

Life sucks. and i'm signing off.

Can i just kill myself now?

*takes a dagger out of the drawer*

Now now, i'm sure you guys won't believe that i have daggers in my drawer. lol! I only have alcohol in my drawer.

LOL!!

I swear! really! I have a bottle in my drawer. The colour is so nice to stare at! Why do i have it? Well, my boss gave it to me coz one day i asked her what was that... So she bought me 2 bottles to give it to me so that i know what it is. lol!!

Talk about educational sia... the other bottle is at home! wahahahaha!!!

I think it has alcohol inside there. i think. i'm not too sure about it. But i think there is. wahahahha!!!

Anywayz, Monday Blues has hit me hard today. The only thing on my mind right now is ice cream... B&J's Cookie Dough and New York something... and Haagen Daz's Macadamia Nut Ice Cream!!

YUMMYYYY!!!

I just wanna curl on my bed so badly i could just cry rite now. seriously. i'm in dire need of therapeutic sleep and relaxation or some shit like that... oh oh.. my boss is coming.. and i need to shit. i shall go and shit.

bye all. for now.

I have so much things to say, i swear its not funny!
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lol!

Went fencing today, after 6-7mths of knowing the guys, we were finally exchanging contact numbers today. Talk about late sia.

And guess what? nobody dared to ask for my number. Like hello? Am i suppose to announce or something? I'm the only girl there la.. Bloody hell..

Me: "So nobody's gonna ask me for my number issit? or am i suppose to shamelessly announce it?"

Edward: "Aiyah, you so pretty, we shy.." *burst in laughter*

I swear there are times, Edward deserves to be thrown in the bin!

The last time that happens between me and someone was a long long time ago. lol! poly yr 1 or 2 like that i think. lol!

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Josh on his turn to fence me, "Yay! It's time for violence!"

Sometimes, i wonder whether do they realise that i'm a girl and the only girl at that in the entire group!

I mean like hallo? Time for violence? Ok ok.. maybe i am violent. But i'm only violent when the guys start "abusing" me... other than that, my hits cant really be felt.

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Then my coach was chasing us out of FM coz he has to go church, my stuff was packed and everyone else was still folding their clothes...

I was making my way to the door...

Josh: "Wow! That was fast! I thought girls usually take such a long time to pack"
Me: "Excuse me... I'm a different kinda girl ok.. Cannot find easily one..." *evil laughs*
Matt: *raises his eyebrows*
Edward: "Ya la, you never see ah this girl? She's the pretty but unwomanly woman"
Chen Hsi: *Chokes on his 100plus*
Me: *glares at Edward* "Thanks ah.."
Coach: *evil grins*

so i left with the guys STILL folding their jackets and my coach hurrying them up, i seriously dunno what's so difficult to pack?? tsk tsk tsk..

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OK. I should go and sleep already... But i really don't wanna sleep! i'm feeling soo lazy to go to work!!

This is one of those times where i have so much to say, i don't know where to start, how to start...

I just need a distraction for the time being. Anyone up for it?

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Oh ya, before i forget and delete it, here's one of Edward's many blogs.. lol!!

http://poblemengrish.blogspot.com/

Enjoy!

ARGH!

i shall go fencing. i shall go fencing. i shall go fencing. My body hurts, i dont wanna go! I shall go fencing. i shall go fencing. i shall go fencing. i shall go fencing.

I better get my ass of my chair and bathe before i change my mind...

I shall go fencing. i shall go fencing. I shall go fencing. I shall go fencing. I shall go fencing. I shall go fencing. I shall go fencing. I shall go fencing. I shall go fencing. I shall go fencing. I shall go fencing. I shall go fencing.

*chants and fades away*

OH MY GOD!

My ENTIRE body is aching like a bitch!

Had a session of Kickboxing cum pilates on Friday evening.

Thank god, coach forgot that he has training with me. If not, confirm cannot move already la.

Kickboxing kills the arms and legs.

Pilates killed my abs.

Romi however was a pain in the ass yesterday. "Batman, don't cramp cramp la the face! You can do it Batman! Batman are strong. Next week you wear superman tee-shirt ok?"

I really felt like strangling him at one point. Gave him the death stare instead. Aside from my boss, you can imagine who was next in line in my imagination during kickboxing rite?

*Rolls eyes*

And today? when i woke up (it was late btw, 10.00am). I felt as though my upper and lower body has come apart.

And i literally jumped off the bed, coz, i was late for my training, AGAIN, which starts at 9am. but the session ended at 10am. Before i winced in pain, my abs was aching like shit! i therefore limped back into bed and promptly fell asleep and woke up only in the late afternoon.

So in other words, i'm gonna get a helluva nagging from him when i see him tmr (Sunday) for my sparring session.

Guess what happens next? I woke up. Ate porridge. Called my mom asking her whether she wanna meet me or not...

And the next thing i know, i'm in a swimming pool with her.

I COULDN'T SWIM AT ALL LA! My stomach painful leh!! i only did a pathetic 10 laps instead of my usual before i stopped and waited for my mom.

And now? i'm awake. its 4.26am. I AM SERIOUSLY ASKING FOR IT LA. i have sparring session tmr and i'm still awake. The guys are seriously gonna teach me a lesson for not turning up today and my coach is definitely gonna nag.

Either way, i'm screwed.

Why do i have a feeling that when Monday comes, i'm gonna be gone!

Oh well, i should just go to sleep now and go for sparring tmr... and then plan on who i shall have lunch or dinner with! lol! And worry about monday, when monday actually arrives. MUAHAHAHA!!!

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Random Sidetrack: Have i told anyone that i totally love Ciara? Yup yup. i totally adore her since forever! I like her style, her moves and her body is to die for! Can i be like her?? Pretty pretty please!

The other one is Nicole of Pussycat Dolls! I want to be her tooo.... LOL!

OK. I'm nuts. i should just go to bed.

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I was chatting with one of my old sec sch friends that i used to bully. Then i realise, i haven't seen alot of people in the longest times. We're just getting busier as the years pass..

I miss them.
I miss you.

Haiz...

I'm at home now. No, i'm not on MC. Gonna get ready for work soon.

Stupid.

I guess i'm on half day!

Haiz.

Went to the doctor finally.

I HATE COMPANY DOCTORS. Period.

1. they don't really care what's wrong with you
2. they act so high and mighty
3. they treat you like shit
4. you have to wait so long for everything
5. they don't listen to what you have to say

Bloody hell... you think i cannot afford issit? CB.

i. am. pissed.

Let me list some things out:

1. Aching back
2. Swollen and puffy eyes
3. headache
4. itchy head
5. losing voice
6. leg cramp
7. Stomachache
8. partially deaf
9. blue blacks on right arm
10. blue black on ring finger

Those are the things that came along with me to welcome Monday.

How appropriate.

People usually have Monday Blues, i on the other hand have Monday Casualties.

I'm seriously, partially deaf! My left ear is failing me for the second time, i cant remember how i got rid of it the previous time but its obviously irritating the hell out of me.

My mom thinks that its coz i'm heaty, lack of water and all... But its just plain irritating la.. like as though there's a barrier there!! Haiz.

And my ring finger is painful lor! i wanna massage it also don't dare la... Waaaa~! My glove was torn thanks to the stupid attack la... I should find more female opponents instead.

Speaking of opponents, i need to retrain and maintain my stamina. Its end of this month and its stressing the shit out of me.

Hmmmm.. Lemme just get back to my work then. haiz.

SATURDAY PERKS

Woke up late today. woke up at 715am instead of the intended 615am! Ok la... maybe you will think wat's so late about 715am. its late lor, when my training starts at 7!!!

I reached training with my hair all over the place, still in a daze and half awake.

I just plopped myself there to wake up when my coach asked me to warm up, which i grudgingly do so after sitting down for a minute.

BTW, I reached training at 8.30am. That in itself received nagging from my coach. Haiz. ok la.. my fault la... but i really cannot wake up especially after leaving the office so late the day before.

HAIZ!

there are just times that i wonder why i constantly love to torture myself with such jobs!

but i digress,

when i reached, Josh had to leave already coz he has some class.. totally hilarious...

me walks in and dumps my bag on the floor, Josh rushed to his bag coz his dad has just arrived and then stared at me, "YOU ARE LATE! WHY ARE YOU LATE? Now i can't fence with you already, i'm leaving... you come so late for wat? don't wanna fence with me anymore issit? see la.. of all days i have to leave early is when everyone is here. so unfair.."

And guess what i did?

i sat on the floor, stoning and just stared at him, "oh ok. see you. bye."

He was speechless and still 'scolding' me for being late on his way out... totally WATEVER LA! i so sleepy can!

i only woke up after i lost to Morgan, Peter and Mongee... I was like... OMG! that totally cannot repeat itself.

And somehow Morgan loves to remind me the fact that my blade was the 4th blade that his blade took. like thanks eh, expensive you know, this kinda thing don't need to be reminded can!!

ARGH! Its ok. i will revenge the 'death' of my blade one of these days...

GUESS WHERE I GO AFTER FENCING??

I rushed home! DUH... i was suppose to go out la.. but dont expect me to walk around with my bag, sword and the fact that i'm from training, sticky and all..

so anywayz, I went to watch movie lor. I was so guilty la. I met my larling so late lor. Suppose to meet him at 1pm, i reach at 1.40pm. Aiyah, i don't there want to kancheong don't want to kan-cheong... WAHAHAHAHAH!!!

but its ok la rite? Everytime go out, must wait here wait there for someone one... once in a while wait 40mins i'm sure he wont die rite.. lol! hehehehehe... went to watch dreamgirls. the show is nice lor, dunno why stupid deena say its not nice even before she watches it.

But anywayz, like how i'm beginning to love Saturdays more and more hor. This weekend the Saturday also i love alot alot leh... very nice and very fun lor... must do stupid things like me than understand lor... if not ah, i tell you hor, very jia lat one if you never enjoy your weekend. Later monday you go to work... DAMN SIAN lor!

Wah lau i typer here long long my blain juice dry already lor... evaporate hor, like the rainwater in the sun. Very scientific lor confirm cannot find anywhere else lol!

And i have no idea why i'm typing in such a way also... lol... but its kinda fun to sound ah-lianish once in awhile...


If this is what they call love,
then i'll gladly say, i've fallen.

Now, i understand why people ask me why i didn't have much of a reaction when whatever happened. Its like as though i didn't have anything happening to me.

I mean ya. true. I am happy beyond words. Elated, excited, whatever else you could find in that catergory and just put it there. It will definitely be applicable.

Why wasn't it apparent?

Fear was the answer i suppose.

I swear no one would believe how afraid i was of things. I remembered bursting into tears once, simply by just thinking about it.

Until of course my cousin knocked some sense into me. Literally.

At the end of the day, i know that i'm not the only one with fears or an overimaginative mind. I guess its normal to have it rite?

Wahahahaha...

*Dodges any other possible abuse from my cousin*

Hidey ho!

Its another entry here before i bounce out of the house to meet my cousin and my aunt.

So what did i do yesterday?

I WENT TO WORK. ya well. yesterday was the last saturday of the month... So i cant complain tooo much about it.

So i met the other 2 yesterday for celebration.

We went for Ghost Rider, dinner at Giraffe, dessert at B&J and met others at Terminal 2.

Its been such a long time the 3 of us met. its damn farnie lor. And to think that we didnt have a cammie! MY CAMMIE SPOILT CAN!! Soo all of you who always go out with me... Please be informed that my cammie is spoilt and that i officially have no more cammie as of now.. and please therefore bring camera for future camwhoring sessions as you can no longer rely on my cammie.

ITS SO IRRITATING.

the 3 of us were so well dressed yesterday and we didnt have a camera to actually take beautiful pictures of us. ARGH!

All the more i'm pissed at cammie for being such an ass for giving up on me at a time like this.

But anywayz, we went to watch Ghost Rider and yes, i still want that tee with the skull.. i shall go hunt for it at zara.

And then i love Giraffe!!!! Its such a cool place... i wanna go back there again to chill!! i love the fish.. it was fun la.. totally scenic and ya... TOO BAD NO CAMMIE!

i'm so affected with the loss of cammie or rather the lack of cammie. its so... SUCKY!

we went to have b&j's merlionster despite us sayign that we were full... and its even shocking that the ice cream was gone in a matter of minutes.. its like a natural disaster has hit the bowl.

we headed off to the airport at about1030 reaching airport at about 1050.. its totally classic why i havent headed home and my mom didnt even mind me reaching home abit after 12. LOL!

and then ya... 1st public appearance.

ITS CLASSIC CAN! ahahahahhaha...

But watever it is... i enjoyed yesterday, it was fun la.. the 3 of us should go out more often instead of every 2-3mths or something. lol!

hahaha.. and my mom just messaged me when she's in the room and i'm out here in front of the comp. WAT THE RITE?

ok ok.. i get the hint.. i need to change and look pretty and meet my cousin and aunt.

CIAOZ!

Someone once commented not too long ago that my blog is a must-read now. Its sooo happy that its contagious. LOL!

I have no idea whether is that a good thing or not you know. lol!

I do have the emo-side that has yet to come out you know. hahahaa.. only that i dont have as much time as i used too to actually blog everything down. Even though i have the itch, i just don't have the time.

It will take a toll on me, sooner or later.

How's work? I'm tired!

So when is the 3 of us flying off to BKK? i wanna apply leave already! WAAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA!!!

Beware!!! whatever you will read below is something not a normal happy entry of this blog. It is something that was hidden for 2 weeks prior to the word vomit that you are about to see below.

If you're in a good mood, please don't read it as it will result in you being affected by it. If you're in a bad mood, please don't read it as well. coz, it will just make you even more depress.


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They always say nightmares are recurring. This one always comes back when life is perfect.

Why should i even bother?

No matter how much, please don't shed those tears for me.
I don't deserve it.

No matter how much, please don't beg.
I have not done anything at all to deserve it.

No matter how much, please don't plead.
I'm not worth all those pleadings.

No matter how much, please just don't say anything.
I have not done enough to get anything more.

Maybe pride is in my way?

Or maybe its just the hurt that refused to disappear...

Or maybe its just fear has taken over and build the wall that not many has managed to break.




At the end of the day, i'm just your daughter only by name.
I've not done anything more, other than knowing that i've made you proud.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

So what did i do this chinese new year one would ask...

RELAX, CHILL & HANG.

So that was my aim this extra long weekend... lol! Wanted to relax, chill and hang out and clear the mind and be refreshed or watever that you call it...

On Saturday, i ended up at SENTOSA!! YAY! its been exactly a year since i last dragged my ass there...

I swear i needed it! lol... My cousin, mom and i happily bounces (i think the bouncing was mostly me...) off to Sentosa on Saturday and we took the bullet train there...

When was the last time anyone saw me or my cousin looking this stressed? LOL!

So when we reached Sentosa, we found a spot and then immediately ran to the water to splash and swim and talk and crap and do whatever shit the both of us always do... Oh yes, swim across to the small islands. LOL!

I've definitely gotten over my fear of swimming in the sea. So i'm taking my diving soon. If i can swim across like that without a life jacket... then i think i can swim anywhere sia! lol!! The both of us were happily competing with each other who will reach the island first and all...

With conversations ranging from our love lifes all the way to her telling me to get myself a bikini (I swear she's out of her mind, ok not exactly.. BUT STILL!! not yet la ok! haiya!) all the way the term Gatal Shark.

By the end of the day, the both of us was sunburnt. Why? coz, my cousin forgot to take her sunblock out and to actually put it on and i dont have sun block wat, instead the both of us just rushed into the water...

this is what pple always say... SERVE YOU RIGHT!!

We're as red as the drunken prawns and the next day? WEARING A BRA IS TORTURE OK!

so i didnt go out on sunday, i met up with her again today (Monday)! We went to Pasir Ris Park to "chill".

CHILL MY ASS LA! lol!!!!

It was raining so heavily, the both of us started running around in the rain and climbing the spiderweb in the rain, bought ice cream 3 times for ourselves, ran around the park, jump in puddles, rent a bike and taught my cousin how to ride a bike, sat on the rock while it was raining heavily eating potato chips... (mostly [OK.. fine.. ALL OF IT] my fault la.. i come up with all these kinda things and force her to do it with me)... all of these happened when it was raining cat and dogs and the both of us didn't bring a change of clothes.. hehehehe..

And she couldnt believe that we're acting like kids..

Helooo.. its fun ok! this kinda thing only happen when you have idiotic cousins like me around to suggest doing stupid things like that lor... lol!

Where was our parents? both of them was in the tent enjoying the weather and the view and talking about everything that i'm not too sure wat.. lol!!

So what am i doing tmr?

Most prob i'm going swimming coz my cousin is having wake boarding tmr in the afternoon, might be going out after that... but for now? i'm going to swim IF getting into my swimming costume wouldnt be a torture thanks to my sunburnt... *faints*
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HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MELVYN!!

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RANDOM PICS

Me and Deena at Vivocity Ben & Jerry's.

Eeeks... THERE'S A TOYOL AT THE BACK!! *runs around screaming* *Dies laughing*

Ain't we're just the sweetest??? WAHAHAHHA!!

We're sweet and we know it!!! *faints*

We're in style! Welcome to the Retro Era!!!

With them, i believe that friendship lasts forever! Its been ages since we last see each other, no matter how much we couldnt stand each other at times, no matter how much we have changed... We're still together... the ENTIRE group has yet to meet up!!

Whose the cutest?? LOL! (Me me me!!! *jumps ard raising hands)

The bouquet that left me speechless.

I can't believe i watched Sepet! Wahahaha... I totally understand why its such a controversy across the causeway... It touches the REAL issues. LOL! Issues that they have always avoided.

The script's witty.

I love it.

There are just some points in the movie that i totally cannot take it can... Some of it is TOTALLY FUNNY! I think the Orked's best friend is cute and farnie!! wahahahaha... The script can be soooo sweet la some times... the letter to her was the best!! lol!!

Let's see whether i can recall... hmmmm *scratches head* Ok i think i only remembered the second half of the letter coz its totally touching plus the entire situation of the scene and all...

"Sayang, I've attempted to write poems about you but no words could describe the things on my mind. In the end, i've written several poems and i've thrown all of them away. I started to panic and prayed to god. Then i came to realise that all these while, i've written poems as a letter to god, for him to listen to me. As a form of my release, waiting my whole life for god to give me an answer. Then my panic subsides as i realise that god has answered my prayers. Coz, he has given you to me. I've waited my whole life for you, what took you so long to come to me? Orked, you are now the words in my poems. I love you."

i was like.. OMG! Is that romantic or is that romantic? Ok fine.. its cheesy but i still think its sweet.. wahahahaha!!!

and the tears successfully fell from the corners of my eyes as i stared at the tv screen witnessing the scene unfolding before me. (chey chey chey... and i cant believe i just admitted it here that i cried over a romance story... spoil reputation! ish!)

btw, i love the ending... it just shows how a love lasts even in the afterlife... For her phonecall to be answered by him was classic la... when in actual fact, the viewers' know that he's dead. Simple and sweet and yet it shows so much. But ah, its like one of those forwarded emails about how you must tell the person you love that you love the person before everything's too late? ya like that la.. wahahahhahaa...

Conclusion? I LOVE THE SCRIPT! Funny. Sweet. Romantic. Crappy.

I'm happy with everything that's happening in my life.

Got home from work EXTREMELY LATE today! OK la not THAT late as compared to the previous time. This is like the 2nd time this week. the last time i was left alone. Stupid idiot don't wanna accompany me. Lucky the office not scary if not i sure die down there by myself waiting for the stupid fax to US to be cleared.

I need my pay soon! i wanna buy so many things.. for myself and others. Seriously. LOL! i owe people presents.

But actually ah.. i should just give people their presents once they have given me my long overdued 20th b-day present rite? *glares around*

Anywayz, good new to everyone... i dont usually stay grumpy very long nowadays! lol! which is of course a good thing.

I'm thirsty! i should buy loads of all kinda drinks to stock up at work. I'm constantly thirsty!

AND! i dislike Chinese New Year! Thats one of the few reasons why i've been working late this week. SUCKS BIG TIME!

And also that EVERYWHERE will be closed!

And also that i cant meet whoever in particular... and i'm going to Sentosa on Saturday morning to swim and tan! i rock!

And i need to shut up and sleep now.. BYE!

*waves and bounces off to bed*

Today is V-day! hahahaha...

I thought my V-day is gonna be like all the other v-days that i've experienced for the past 20 yrs.

but i was wrong!!!

Getting flowers on v-day is ultra sweet

but...

Flowers delivered to you during office hours in the office on v-day was just priceless...

i was in a daze for the rest of the day till its time for me to go off.. ahahahaha.. thank god i only receive my flowers at 3plus.. wahahahah!!

oh and the message on the card is sweet.

I definitely have forgiven you or else we wouldnt be where we are now would we?

once again, thanks for the flowers and who ever else that is involve in this.. *stares at my suspects*

Shit. I've installed the language pack in my computer thinking that all the squares will actually turn into comprehensible paragraphs that i can finally read after so long.

But i thought wrong.

Everything's in mandarin! like that will actually help me like that. Bloody hell.
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But i'm in an extremely good mood today. I am. I really am.

I went out with azi on thursday. I totally miss her can! ok fine, its only been a week from our previous outing but it was fun la with me being pissed with work. I took out my phone and the the next thing you know, i'm pigging out (or destressing) at Swensons with Azi darling. LOL!

Friday was supposed to be spent with Halimah but that girl didnt call me to confirm our outing. Little did i know, we were actually waiting for each other's call of confirmation which obviously didnt come and well.. we end up rescheduling the outing to another which has yet to be confirmed.

The highlight of Friday was the fact that i got to check out and sit in my boss' Aston Martin. Working where i'm working rite now, with everything that's going on... how can i not be inspired?

I WANT AN ASTON MARTIN TOO!!!

I appreciate cars! Have always been, will always be. I TOTALLY LOVE IT CAN~! I want such a car one day too.. it'll be a highlight of my life once that happens, other than other highlights in my life that might happen. LOL!

The last time i was this crazy over a car was when i was driven to school every single day in sec 4 by my fren's mom in her BMW sports. THAT WAS SEXY LA! Its like coming to school in style and one tend to wonder why on earth i came to school in such a manner when me and that fren has never been in a conversation with each other for more than 5mins! LOL!

OK! I'm digressing. So where was i? Oh yes. After Friday... SATURDAY!

My Saturday started even before the sun rises.

I had a 5hr phone call with 2 different person. 3 hrs with hally and a total of 2 hours with someone else. I tell you, thank god my mom is no longer paying my bills if not she'll definitely question who on earth do i hang on the phone with!!! *faints*

I'm beginning to enjoy my weekends more often these days. Don't ask why. I know some knows. And the beginning of my weekend was ok. The day only got better after that.

Went for a meeting and later on headed to town. Before that i had to wait for a particular someone coz he was late from cutting his hair! *rolls eyes*

But everything was fine after that and i had one of my most enjoyable saturdays! lol! Totally dig it!

Ended it with my pri sch fren's b-day party. And they were obviously reminiscing of the old days and i swear my frens parents have to stop remembering me!!! its embarassing can! I dont like it when they remember you and your antics even though they havent seen you for the last 6-7yrs!

And they were like... "aiyah.. you different wat... You clever" I just stared at them and guess what i said? "I'M NOT A NERD!", screams in horror.

And later on they did assure me that i never was a nerd! i'm just mischievious. Have always been, always will be they say.

I'll post up the pictures one day together with the pics from shai's b-day also. lol! i know that's totally outdated.
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Sometimes you dont realise the importance of someone in your life till things happen
Sometimes you dont realise the joy it brings you untill they're near
Sometimes you dont realise how much you miss a person till its time to say goodbye

Its been a month since everything.

Even though people say alot of things since then. But i've never been happier. I've never felt so contented in the longest time. I'm just happy. Just the fact that now i know. Even others see the change.

I know i don't say anything much about it. I prefer to keep some things to myself. Always have been that way. If i tell, i'll tell. If i happen not to, then i won't no matter how much bribery it will take. I still won't. Understood? Even if no one does. I'll just take it that its understood.

I'm gonna make it clear. I respect yours. You respect mine. Period. Anything else between us is exclusive to us only unless otherwise stated.

I permit anyone who reads this to blame it on PMS. Maybe it is contributed by PMS. Maybe i'm just in a piss-y mood. But then again, its only Wednesday and i'm having a sucky week. So deal with it.

I've made it clear and i'm not gonna repeat myself.

Let's see how was my weekends.

I was annoyed on Friday night. I was beyond annoyed. I was pissed.

Teasing me is one thing. Putting me on the spot is also one thing. I seriously never realised my tolerance level to these things till recently. But to do it not only to me, is ok fine if you really want to have fun.

Going over board while doing it is A whole different story altogether.

Saturday was ok. Had fencing training, i came late and i was sooooo lethargic la.. i practically havent wake up when i reached there. Coach, " Dear, why are you so sian?" My answer? I just stared at him blankly. WAHAHAHAHA..

trashed people, talked on the phone, met azi, hung out at my house, went out, came back late.

Sunday came. i had fencing training again. Maybe something was really bothering me. My coach complained that i was distracted during my training. What can i say? I don't even know why i was so distracted.

Had sparring session. Fenced with Morgan. I was leading 10 - 5. When i broke my blade. SHEESH! It broke cleanly off my guard. I literally scream when that happen la. Haiyo. They were like, "Wah! Nad you damn violent you know!" and Morgan was like... "you're seriously trying to kill me aren't you?"

I nearly died laughing at that sia. That was after i recovered from my shock of staring at my guard with no blade and the blade was at the other corner of the training centre where it landed after it broke.

I blame the violence on pms.

Met hidayah after fencing for dinner coz my mom was at Chinatown and she didnt allow me to meet her coz it was crowded and that i'll have to lug my equipments around and it would be hassle. Since there's no food at home, i decided to meet Hidayah.

Well i got a scolding after that.

What else is new?

All in all, despite the little perks, my weekend sucked.

I had such a great monday. yeah rite. emotionally unstable is much better phrase.
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Wheee...

Hip Hop class was fun just now... Totally fun and crappy!

I've made up my mind. i'm gonna take that up plus a few other things.

This week has been tiring. i've been caught up with publication datelines and memberships and everything else and the latest bidding event. Definitely a change. Proof reading an article until i think i was close to becoming cross eyed! lol!

So ya, for now one of it is settled till April and i have 3 other publication datelines for other magazines to chase pple for their article(s), especially when its a short month and CNY holidays are around the corner. LOL!

I've found my inspiration working here. I know there was once i was wondering whether i would really wanna pursue for my law degree. Well, now i do. i definitely will pursue that. For more than one reason.

Even though i'm not doing legal stuff now. I've definitely found my inspiration and yes, i definitely know now that i want that degree.

Working here is definitely different. That's for sure. Doing things i've never dreamt of doing.

So far, everything's ok. and i hope it will stay fine for quite some time.

OMG! I have fencing tomorrow and i'm actually feeling quite lazy to go.. i might not be going for my Malaysia Open due to some unforeseen setbacks and my coach is definitely unhappy about it.

Well, i hope that i still can go since its rescheduled and that's what made my coach pissed off to begin with.

haiyo. I feeling very lazy to drag myself out of bed for training. wahahaha.. i'm gonna get strangled by coach if he sees this.

What shall i do tmr after training?

Hmmmm.. we'll see who's free to go out tmr.. and other than that i have a feeling i do need to go out.. i need to buy some stuff... February is not a good month. There's just too many celebrations!

Its the 2nd of February 2007 and its a FRIDAY!!!

SO HAPPY CAN!

Not for reasons that i'm going out tomorrow ok.. i'm not! *pouts and stomps around* lol.

Its just the fact that its Friday la that i'm so excited and i'm not working tomorrow... and guess what? i'm kick boxing later! WAHAHAHAHHA!!! The music is HIP HOP today!! *wiggles eyebrows and boogies abt*

and everyone is like.. "we are so going to see Nadira's true colours today!"

Totally NOT can!

i'm going to maintain my polite and "demure" reputation that everyone thinks i am. WAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!

Anywayz before i forget,

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY HALLY THE MERLIMAH!

Its not that i havent wished her.. i wished her past midnight ok! lol! dont play play!

Anywayz, stay happy girl, even though i know you missing your darling alot alot rite? tsk tsk tsk.. until no appetite to eat rite? tsk tsk tsk.. so poor thing.. *evil grins* and because of that you start picking on me rite? *smacks hally and stuffs hally in a bin*

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My entire body is aching for the past week la! HAIZ!!!! and i'm currently dizzy (and no! i'm not finding excuses to get out of kick boxing).. i've been nauseous the past week. not say i'm not eating properly and its not as if i havent been sleeping late or anything..

there was once i was walking in the office and it started spinning can! haiyo. Maybe... ok i shall not start thinking of anything bad.

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Oh and one thing i dont like about my job is that i have to inform candidates if their interview was unsuccessful and all that... and also going through resumes and having familiar names there and people asking me about those resumes and there's nothing i can do but just give the most neutral answer i can give.

and no i'm not going to state here where i'm working and what position i'm holding.

at least not yet. LOL!

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Met up with my ex-colleague (Rohaidah) yest.

I have yet to meet up with the rest. I think they're going to kill me coz, i was supposed to watch My Fair Lady the Musical with one of the them 2 weeks ago.. but i was too broke. LOL!

So anywayz, met her at Bugis for dinner and crapping session as well as to search for a dress for her one yr anniversary thats taking place this saturday. How sweet rite? *smacks Rohaidah*

Now why would i do that? Coz, she was giving me a hard time yest. No, not the put on the spot thing.

Just that she wanted me to help her pick out a dress.. BUT, everything also don't want.... too bright, too simple, too plain, too flowery, too vogue, too over, too flamboyant...

I was short of asking her to go and buy cloth and sew it herself!

Why do i have a feeling that she's reading this and i'm gonna get killed later? OH WELL. I know you still love me rite rohaidah? lol!!!!

And she still can ask me to go and accompany her THROUGHOUT this entire week until she gets a dress or whichever is sooner...

*strangles Rohaidah and throws her in a bin*

She says i have great taste (which is of course a compliment to me), but she rejects dresses without even trying it on!

Seriously people, things might not look great on the hanger but do you look like a hanger? NO RITE.

Sometimes, you might be surprised at how it turns out on you...

But other than that, it was a fun outing la.. Damn funny can!
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It seriously is funny how you can make me smile so early in the morning. It seriously is nice to know that you're around. It seriously is sweet to see what you have to say.
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Note to self: I have to stop chewing on sweets in the office, its unhealthy.

Wheee~!!

I have to stop eating!! REALLY!!

the other day i met Azizah for dinner.. and even end up eating her rice coz, she doesnt seem to have any sort of appetite.. that wat happens when a person is tooo tired...

So ya.. i had my noodles, her rice and later on ice cream! totally wtf rite? I'm not the one here that needs to eat. AZI IS IN THE POSITION TO EAT MORE! But.. noooo.. i end up eating like free...

And azi's reason for me eating soo much is? I'M TOO HAPPY! like wat theee...

But that was fine since the next day i was having such bad stomache and went to the toilet ever 30mins or so.

So wat happens the next day?

I went to work as usual and reached home at 7plus... lazed around when i received a phonecall from the senoritas wanting to meet up.

Yes you will think i passed the invitation, since its late and all and since my grandmother is like.. you know you know.. lol! but no i ended up meeting them at Serangoon.

We went for prata supper.. but i was somewhat full already so i ended up sharing pratas with Deena..

That girl ah.. Complain that she's getting fat... BUT!

she orders 3 of the most sinful prata that the shop has.. Cheese, Egg and Bomb (that's like sugar and butter inside)

I was like.. WAT THE!?!?!

And that outing was fun la.. its been so long since i last met them and well.. again i was put on the spot.

What's new these days rite? I've been put on the spot so often and become the topic of conversation.. rite? you all enjoying it rite?

nvm.. the time will come... *evil grins*

not that i'm complaining. oh well, i'm sure you know wat i mean...

So ya, its been like a food spree

and saturday came.. and well, wahaha.. as you all know i was working wat... and happily chewing THROUGHOUT the half day and met Mel later on..

And walked around the entire Raffles City, i swear i've never had such "eventful" outing at Raffles City like Saturday.. *smacks Mel*

So ya walked around all over the place.. and ate!

then after that i met my mom for dinner...

SEE.. THIS ENTRY IN ITSELF SHOWS HOW MUCH I'M EATING! ARGH!!!

*screams in agony*

and it doesnt help that i'm totally in love with this particular dress i saw... its like totally nice and sweet and... waaaa... I WANT IT!

I'm gonna kill Deena for showing it to me!
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i'm going for a wake. haiz. 14 years old. only daughter. only child.

GOOD MORNING SINGAPORE!!

RISE AND SHINE!!

I'm Nad and i'll be the host for today.

Its the perfect weather to sleep in, cuddle up in your blankets, catch up on desired sleep, hug people and dream of the most romantic scenarios.

Timecheck: 9.09am

What is Nad doing up you might ask?

Since its well known that i'm not a morning person and well.. i definitely wont waste an opportunity to sleep in especially when the weather is this great and besides its Saturday afterall.

So you might think that:

1. She has gone mad
2. She has insomnia
3. She has nothing better to do
4. Its just one of those days where people would go and buy 4D.

Well, its simple.

i'm at work

*cues audience to gasps in horror*

Nah. i'm not THAT hard working. But i'm required to work one Saturday a month and i'm scheduled to work on the 4th Saturday of the month.

Since this is the 4th Saturday, so here i am!

Bright and early.

And surprisingly, AWAKE despite the fact that i slept at 1+am. LOL!

And i'm already at work for nearly an hour already since its gonna be 930am soon. LOL!

Anywayz, stop being so shock and stare at this entry ok. I do wake up extremely early on Saturdays ok.. No matter how the weather is..

Ok i can so see you guys go.. YEAH RITE NAD WATEVER!

but its true!

If i didn't work today, and its raining and i would so love to cuddle up to my bolster and elmo and snuggle under the blankets, i would still have to wake up.

Why?

Coz, i have fencing training today. Like most of those Saturdays in December. I swear my coach loves to have trainings in mornings where all you want to do is sleep and not wake up till afternoon.

But of course i cant go and my coach is gonna kill me tmr when he sees me since i havent been having training for the past 2 weeks.

but then again, not my fault wat! His schedule was full! but nevertheless, i know i'm gonna get some kind of a nagging tomorrow.

Anywayz, where was i?

Oh nvm, i shall just look for more things to do before i actually huddle/curl up in my cubicle and sleep.

Things have to stop slipping into my mind like this.

People look at me and they will think i'm mad if i continue this.

To think that its only morning and it has been lingering on my mind for the past few hours.

Its not as though i dont welcome it. But a distraction is a distraction nevertheless, right?

Its like i'm in a floating state. Half of my mind is here with me for everyone to see and the other half is somewhere else in another place, in another situation.

Or maybe i'm just not occupied enough for me to welcome such a distraction.

*Buries self in a hole*

Caught Pan's Labyrinth today.

A very sweet story that was set in difficult times. You guys should catch it~! its really cool la.. The storyline, the effects, and the scenes transistions.

Its a definite must watch!! lol!

So how was my saturday?

My Saturday was memorable. WAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!

I'd have put it as farnie, awkward and sweet. but i think memorable is a much better word. LOL!

I swear there are just some things that will definitely make me as bright as a tomato for awhile and then i'll just continue talking as if i'm talking to myself and look everywhere else except at the subject.

Things that parents warn you when you were kids *winks*:
Lesson #1: Do not stand anywhere near a stranger or make any verbal contact where ever you maybe; i.e: traffic light.

Lesson #2: Stand 1m away from a stranger and do not make any contact of any sort to the person in question.

I know that this entry would not make sense to most people... But then again, most blog entries dont. WAHAHAHA!!

But other than that, GO WATCH PAN'S LABYRINTH!

You might just end up loving spain, its language and the men. WAHAHHA!! *dodges abuses*

Read me a Fairytale...

ITS FRIDAY! ITS FRIDAY!!

*Hops about*

I seriously can't wait for it to end!! YAY!!

Seriously, IT 415PM!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! WAHAHAHHAHAHA...

why am i so happy again? i have no idea why on earth am i this happy that Friday is here?

i was nearly late la today!! totally wth! i came in with my most sleepy and disoriented look, that made everyone worried whether or not i was ok.. LOL~!! *evil grins*

but watever it is...

Friday is ending. Period.

And and and...

I'm not going for Kickboxing later!

Kwang kwang kwang *rolls on the floor laughing*

OMG.

I only realised that its Thursday today when i was checking the clock on my computer. Totally wth rite?

Here i am thinking that i've only reached mid-week and wondering how on earth am i gonna survive another 3 FULL DAYS.

its been only 4 days into the job without typing daily faxes and i can no longer remember the date. Brilliant. Absolutely, utterly brilliant.
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On another note,

The Sex Shop from across the road has been a topic for everyone for the past 2 days. I know, i know.. you guys would go like.. WTF?!

but believe it! its true.

Yest, they were discussing who's going there and wondering what the shop sells. And today? they were asking whether did anyone actually go the shop and what's there and whether or not they got buy anything.

I, on the other hand, was interested to find out but couldn't bring myself to thickened my face and listen... and at that time, my boss came out of her office to pass me some things.

And the office fell silent. I've never felt so relieved and grateful to anyone ever man.

There's kick boxing tmr in the office, outside our boardroom. My boss' personal instructor is coming down. I have yet to give my answer whether or not i'm going. *shrugs* My boss ah.. ONE FIT WOMAN SIA!

yest, she left the office to jog at Botanical Gardens and she says, "Can i go now? If anyone needs me, find me at Botanical Gardens. I'm going for a jog"

I've never been so stressed in my entire life till 5pm yest.

Right in front of me was a woman that has already lived for more than half a century, about to go jogging around at a garden. And here i am, lest than half her age, DONT EVEN LIKE TO RUN!

Speaking of which, i have a feeling, kick boxing is gonna be one activity that's gonna be permanent. Coz, she told us to find 20 exercise mats and gloves for it. *faints*

i have no idea what else to talk about. So for now, i think i shall go to the toilet and shit.

I can't wait for the weekends, for more than one reason. *evil grins*

New place. New job.

Today's my second day of work here and its been ok... The bulk of my work is not in yet... Basically, i'm just asked to familiarize myself with the admin stuff... A tad boring, but then again, there's nothing i can do about it rite? it comes with the job... lol!

Its definitely not the typical law firm where calls come in like free and writs are issued nearly everyday and Defences are due every 14 or 21 days, whichever is later. Not the kind where interviews are conducted every tuesday and thursday or whenever there's no CDR. Its definitely a change.

And my job scope? i have yet to find out the whole of it. LOL!

The people are nice, well, that's what i see so far... and i'm like, literally, the youngest in every sense of the word.

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Anywayz, remember a few weeks ago (OK fine some time last yr) i said that i'll upload the lyrics to the BSB song since its been going on and on in loops? well.. i finally got around to doing it. so here it is then:

Remember when we never needed each other
The best of friends
Like sister and brother
We understood, we'll never be alone

Those days have passed now I want you so much
The night is young and I need your touch
Don't know what to say never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say? What did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice and I start to tremble
Brings back the child I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say? What did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Oooh.. I wanna say this right and it has to be tonight
I just want you to know
I don't wanna leave this life, I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend the rest of my life

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say? What did you do?
How did I fall in love you?

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
Everything's changed remember you
How did I fall in love with you?
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Speaking of songs, my earphones' spoilt! AGAIN! argh. Anyone has a spare one that i can borrow till i get a new one??

*faints*

ok i shall go now and look for things to do.

2nd post of the day... lol!

Time check: its 950 and i've been awake since 830 just now.. wat time did i sleep? 4am. why?

Coz, Today seemed like a very nice day to go out. I'm so excited just by looking out of the window.

Seriously, its not raining and the sun is shining. It is!!

So what have i been doing for the entire of last week? I've been cooped up at home like a cat! Even cats get to wonder free. i was imprisoned. Literally.

Grandmother was being a pain in not allowing me to go out for the entire week for god knows what reasons and getting scolding for no reason is not very fun either. And she uses the rain to make it more difficult to go out of the house. Even going out with my mom has been a chore coz i had an interrogation session from my grandmother.

Its not raining today and i wanna go out... i'm so itchy to get out of the house that i just wanna go out!!! *screams and pulls hair* But now i have another problem instead, i dont have anyone to go out with...

I, seriously, dont have a victim to drag out for today.. ok, i swear i sound pathetic. But still, ok fine, not that i dont have anyone to drag out today... i HAD someone to drag out today but then that person's busy today so i've decided not to try pestering the poor person even though i'm like totally deprived. lol... hmmmm.. haiz...

I wanna cry already la!!! waaaaaaa.. *sob sob*

Maybe i should just go out by myself... waaaaa!!!!!!!!

Ok...

i got meself employed as of 11.01.2007. LOL!

Yup.

2007 has been kind to me...

it started off on an extremely good note.. really!

Work.
so now i've gone from selling grapes to having a job, again. My future job scope's quite interesting. so let's hope for the best.

Love life.
Love life? what's happening in my love life? hahaha.. boyfriend? hmmmm... my love life very non-existent wat.. hehehe.. *ponders, thinks and gets a little blur sotong-ish* Even if there is anything going on also, i'm dense. isn't that rite? hehehe.. Seriously, inexperienced what. wahaha...

Education.
I'll be applying for unis soon. I'm just hoping for the best to come out of my applications. Locally and... overseas, i guess.

So ya, so far 2007 has been kind. but hey! its only January.

And i'm bored and i really feel like going out later... but.. haiz..

oh and i have yet to post the pics from shaiful's 21st b-day.. that will be coming
rite up soon..


I'm fat and i'm stressed! *runs ard in circles screaming*

I'm in shock.

I'm speechless and i'm surprised.

*looks around*

Yup. I'm still in Singapore, in the comfort of my home, everything looks the same.

And i don't think i'm dreaming coz, i'm still awake.

So i think i'm only able to know whether or not i'm dreaming tmr.. rite?

LOL!

I've had the weirdest dreams the past two days.

Both left me in quite a shock, i woke up startled.

The first dream, involved a phone call, a message, a bus ride, a very familiar neighbourhood (even though i cant seem to recall where) and an extreme heartbreak on my part.

The second, involve the same people, an ant (yes a talking one), a cockroach (that one didnt talk), a farm, a fair, but no heartbreak.

Seriously, i have no idea how one could dream of same issues on different days with direct opposite outcomes.
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Had my sec sch class gathering last thurs (28/12) at Seoul Garden Taka. Well, only 10 of us were present out of the 24 or was it 26 in the class? yup small class... so i guess 10 is quite a big turnout.

Presenting to you my class, Sec. 4 Endurance (4E).

There! me pigging out with 1/3 of my sec 4 clique. the other 4 didnt come that day. From left to right (Clockwise): Me!!!, Shi Ya (she's gonna be sent to China for soccer training after CNY! How effing cool is that? i remembered the both of us rushing to my house after sch to watch world cup and pig out! lol) and there's my sec. bestest best friend, Sin Ni! (She lost so much weight la. I'm jealous!)

There's the other 3 of my class, (Left to right) Xiang Ling, Genevieveve and Marilyn

There's (front to back) Yumin, Shirlyn and Pui San.

There's Yumin and Liang Yi. Now, Liang Yi's been my partner in crime thru out sec 4. with our all famous pranks with the whistle sweet. And well, she's been complaining how i've neglected her thru out TP time.. *faints (literally)*

Mean Joke of the day by Dear Liang Yi

Liang Yi: Guess why, we never really remember Pui San?

Rest of us: *shrugs* dunno?

Liang Yi: MUST GUESS! it's mean, but true!

Rest of us: Coz, she's quiet?

Liang Yi: No. Coz, she stands in front.

Rest of us: *starts throwing things at her*

(and that, however, didn't end there...)

We took a class photo as Liang Yi requested, right outside Seoul Garden, must see the Seoul Garden she says.. so that everyone will know where we meet.. *faints again*

Gen with her ever-so-classic pose.

And me with Sin Ni!! I swear i miss her loads. Its been a long long time rite girl? the last time we met was in poly yr1 can you believe it?! haiz.

I feel totally ancient.

And no. i dont have cataracts. I was wearing Gray lenses that day.

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Last friday (29/12), hally, shah and me crashed coregroup. Ok. hmmm.. not really crashed.. but you know.. LOL! After that, 3 of us with hidayah, pika and mas headed to town coz shahdon wanted to buy a beanie. Seriously, it takes 5 girls to choose a beanie for him.

Anywayz, thats not the reason for this post. The reason for this post is....

TO SHOW YOU REC SHAHDON (NNENNA the 3rd)

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On Saturday last week (30/12), the fencers had a bowling tournament at Marina Square. I didn't wanna go initially but was dragged there after my training.

So we had a team competition. And it was hilarious! We started stealing bowling balls from the other team and started making weird sounds as each bowler of the other team was bowling.

Introducing to you my teammates...

From left to right: Jieshe, Benison, Me, Matt Lopez & Ignatius.

and and and.. guess wat?

WE WON! hehehehehe.. *does the kallang wave*

I'm going out today!!

I'm finally going out today!!

wahaha..

i'm watching movie with my mom!!

first movie of the year! wahahaha..

i think i'm going to go find a part time job or i'm gonna start tutoring...

full time job? I'm putting that on hold first.

We'll see how it looks when feb comes.. if i'm still tight by then, i might still go or not at all.

Happy New Year!

2007 has arrived.

I hope i can do tons of things this yr! I hope tons of things happen this yr!

wahahaha...

Hope ya'll have a great and wonderful 07! take care!