whee.. like finally i can blog... I realised something... My blog works perfectly fine when my comp is infected with virus.. How cool is that??

Anywayz, the uncool part is that the comp might hang and an entire long entry would vanish in an instant... WOOSSH!! and its gone.. whahahaa... so ya.. what did i wanna blog abt again??

Time check: 215am

Oh ya.. i need to list certain things down so that i wouldnt forget them.. since i keep reminding people of their stuff.. later i forgot all abt my chores.. LOL~!!

Things i need to do by the end of Monday:
1)Hand in LCOMM assignment w/o having to collide into the tutor
2)Settle my MC
3)See a certain lecturer
4)Call evaluators
5)Do my programme sheet soon
6)Prepare my Monologue
7)Do & Prepare for the Area Humourous Speech and Evaluation Contest
8)Do & Prepare a possible speech i might be doing this Fri
9)Do a draft of the Contract Assignment ASAP!!

Hmmm... what else are there?? Oh ya...
10)Study for upcoming exams
11)Try to stay sane in the process

Things i need to do over next period of 3-6mths?
12)Try to loose weight *Yes yes.. I know.. I'll try to do it this time round.. Or Deena will kill me.. Coz, 'Project NPF' will never be executed*
13)I need to buy clothes
14)Need money to do point 13
15)To be able to do all the abovementioned w/o neglecting my friends and my mom.

Yess yess.. I think that's about it... Hehehe.. 15points only.. I think can lah ah.. :P

So ya.. what was i suppose to blog today?? Actually i've typed a freaking long entry yesterday when the stupid comp decided to hang.. Yes! IT HANGED! sheesh.. Waste my time.. But let me try to recall what did i write or type or whatever...

Oh ya.. Just wanna ask... Have you ever felt alone when in real you're surrounded by people you know? Why is it that everything seems so perfect when you're around friends and seemed the total opposite the moment you space out? Why is it that all the wrong things that one could ever imagine fall on you the moment you're alone?

Why is it that nothing seems rite when you're walking alone? To the extent that you don't even realise that your friend is actually calling you.. Coz, it sound so distant... So far away.. As if it was brought along by the passing wind... And when you actually realise that someone is actually calling you... You also realised that your cheeks are wet...

Tralalala.. and seriously.. I think i need to sleep.. YAWNZ YAWNZ!!!

Failure

What exactly is failure?

Not having the capabality needed to complete a task? Not having the standards that you expect of yourself? Being the disappointment to yourself and others?

So once again i ask... what exactly is failure?

The inability to function or perform satisfactorily.


So if you are a disappoinment to yourself... Does it mean that you're a disappointment to others as well?? Are the standards you set for yourself equivalent to standards others would set for you??

Or maybe you feel like that just because you expect more from yourself?? But why do we set such high standards for ourselves?? Or maybe it varies from an individual to the next??

Hmmm... Nvm

I'm just OH-SO-CLEVER..

Haiz, what can i do?? Nothing i do seems to be right nowadays...

But nevermind... What's done is done.... There's nothing one can do about it...

ARGH!!!!!!

THAT'S IT... I'M SO PISSED!!! I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY I TAKE THIS KINDA SHIT FROM PEOPLE...

How many of you believe me if i told you that my comp is infected with virus and it restarts itself every 5-10mins the day before and today... it hangs itself every 5-10mins?? Well... OBVIOUSLY certain parties think i am creating the story up...

TELL ME WHY ON EARTH WOULD I CREATE SUCH A STORY?? FOR FUN PEACE AND LAUGHTER??? JUST TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF?? YOU THINK I WAT?? TOOO DAMN FREAKING FREE ISSIT??

Why on earth would I do that when i cant do my tutorial... cant meet my deadlines.... cant do anything... and feel totally helpless when that is one thing that i hate feeling... HELPLESSNESS... Sheesshhh...

Seriously, I'm not dumb! I know when you don't believe what i say. I know the reasons for the questions you ask. I know when you doubt me. I know when you don't really have faith in me.

You told me to pass it to you this morning. I said ok.... but is it my fault when i cant do it coz i have tutorials to attend?!?! is it my fault that my timetable is like that?? Oh wait.. I forgot.. you think that i make that up to rite?? Maybe i should just e-mail my timetable to you?? Would that please you?? Would that be rite?? Would that be THE ONLY WAY FOR YOU TO KNOW THAT I'M HAVING CLASS AND ACTUALLY BELIEVE ME??

This is turning out to be WORST than a lifetime imprisonment.... Its ending soon.. but that last bit... I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!!!!!

I was told by someone else... I was asked by that particular someone... Abt the thing i'm suppose to pass to you... He told me that you need it urgently... You're worried abt it... DO YOU THINK I'M DUMB? I DON'T KNOW ITS IMPORTANCE? Oh wait... i forgot.. i'm too young for you too actually trust rite?? For you to acutally believe that i'll do it?? Or maybe you just think that i'm just plain incapable??

Messaged me later online... A message filled with exclamation marks... abt me not submitting the thing... Thank God it was my mom that was online... And she told you what actually is wrong... then you believe?? Then you know that i wasn't making up stories??

Oh ya.. Received a phonecall.. On the verge of being questioned and screamed at... When i shut her off by simply saying that i've sent it 7hours ago... So now its my fault too that your mailbox is full and you cant receive mails??

wat a great way to start the day...

Having a MSN conversation with my most hated person!! the most irritating!! The one and only....

I shall not mention names here...

Hmmmzzzz.... SHOOOO!!!!

wahahahahaha...

How nice... Talking to the most irritating person god could ever create and talking about the most boring subject ever discussing about something that i already made up my mind on and having a pointless argument with me...

He can dream on if he thinks of having things his way...

Its peaceful again in the house....

Coz, my cousins left yesterday.... And i can't hear screamings of any sort or talking at the top of the voice.

Just peace.

Quiet.

Silence.

All i heard was the birds chirpping, the fan, the cat snoring and the constant beep on my MSN.. Muahahahaha...

Its not that i hate my cousins. I love them to bits. Enjoy my time with them. But i've been the only child for the past 17 years of my life. And obviously, i spend most of my time alone and none of my friends talk at the top of their voice or constantly talk. So ya, at times i'm not used for not having peace for a long period of time. That's all.

And to have them do that while i'm trying to do my work is worst!!! Argh!! Sheesh.. Hinting me to off the light which i ignored. And having my grandmother siding them does not help at all... I mean its like she knows i had a test on the stupid saturday and i was trying to study as well as do my work... she can happily ask me to off the light just because my cousins are here.

I mean... HELLO!!! Life has to go on you know...

And they were hinting to me that they're sleepy by giving me BIG OBVIOUS YAWNS and talking abt if somebody were to do that at the hostel, they would start quarrelling. Its not like they told me that they were going to materialise at 230am. If i knew that, i wouldnt be doing my work then would i???

And what irritates me the most was that i was using my DISCMAN at vol.7 and i could hear their conversations about their relationships and friends and my grandmother asking me to off the light... 230am!! my discman is playing at VOL.7!! and i can hear conversations perfectly well!!!

Hmmmm... I think me being the only child is turning me into an inconsiderate bitch... muahahaha... Haiz... I mean its not my fault that i DONT HAVE HOLS AND MY EXAMS ARE AROUND THE CORNER AND I HAVE ASSIGNMENTS TO COMPLETE, DEADLINES TO MEET!! AND THAT MY COUSINS AND I ARE LIVING IN 2 DIFFERENT COUNTRIES DOING 2 DIFFERENT THINGS HAVING DIFFERENT SITUATIONS TO FACE!!!!

Anywayz, enough of me complaining... wahahhahaa....

I'm so clever... Oh so clever... ARGH!!!

Come in 30mins late to hand in a stupid assignment... class work don't wanna hand in late.. Must wait until assignment then hand in late rite??? Clever..... Sooo Clever....

Now i'm in school.. And you know wat?? I don't have contract later... Nice rite?? Sheesh... come to school only to hand in an assignment... and better still lcan't even come early...

GRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

Nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm....

yoooohhhhhoooo0~!

I'mmmm Bbbbaaacccckkkk!!! again...

Oh ya... did you know?

I've been going on a movie spree!!! weeeheee..

only problem is that.. none of the movies are of my choice...

i shall continue later.. i have one idiot beside me like a loud hailer... going on and on abt something that goes in my right ear and out the othe/r8816.. (Now she's babbling aimlessly AGAIN)

and the other that wants to go and eat. SO ya.. brb.. After mugging for tmr's acocunts test..

I'm so studious.. *Trying to believe it*

Ok.. I'm in school now.. muahahaha..

Back in school.. doing the same old thing.. trlalalala...

and i'm dying OOOOO dying OOO dying... tralalallaa....

Oh ya.. Met my couz, Omar, the other day... Had a long chat with him in the bus... in the bus you know.. how long can a chat be in the bus rite?? But anywayz, he missed 3 bus stops thanks to me...

Talking about wat he would do after O levels... Haiz.. Poor guy.. he's so confused and the mom doesn't even care... he doesn't talk to me when he meets me at my relative's house coz he's afraid that his sis would scold.. And the only time he talks to me is when we happen to bump into each other...

And his mom happily allows him to go America next yr.. Sheesh... There goes another cousin of mine.. Just because he is American citizen doesnt mean he can happily go there... And the mom still can say that you wanna go next yr also can... go go.. Isnt it like shooing him away??

Tsk tsk tsk tsk... Idiots... And i'm hoping to bump into him again... Fancy having a cousing that you're "close" with and you dont even have his hp number...

Truly amazing, Ain't it???

LOL!! in LCOMM lab rite now. Tutor going through the marking scheme for the opinion letter.. and i am so drowsy rite now.. My nose is turning into a full time tap.. And i think if Nuraini falls sick soon.. it'll be my fault.. wahaha.. coz, she's sitting beside me now... heheheeee...

And guess wat... I got scolding from the tutor not bcoz i didnt do my work. But its for something that is totally not related to the subject... And that is...

JENG JENG JENG..

My...

ASSERTIVENESS

Muahahhahaha... At that point of time i didnt know whether or not to smile.. grin or laugh.. whahahha... It was bad.. LOL!!

She said something which i'm having difficulties remembering at the moment due to valid reasons. Anywayz, she was saying something about me having problems with my assertiveness which leads to me not being a good leader because of it.. So ya.. heheheeee...

and also something about having control over things and that i have to exercise the power that is given to me at certain point of time.. Muahahahhaa...

So ya..

Basically, i'm a lenient class rep...

Heeeee... No wonder my class just LOVES me... *Trying to console myself* lol.. Rite...

So ya..

Basically, thats all for now...

tralallalala :P

Well.. I typed one long entry this morning at around 430am... And guess wat?? ITS GONE WITH THE WIND ONCE AGAIN!!! But nevermind... Since i'm so free in ILAW CHAMBERS now... I shall type away...

Well, its been 5days? I think its around there... Around 5 days since i lasted updated... Break record already... Waahahhaa.. When was the last time that i didn't update for so long?? I think it was during the MG season rite?? Coz, i remembered Kay pestering me update most of the time..

But anywayz, I shall really have to stop digressing like this...

So what am i suppose to say???

Oh ya... People who doesn't watch TV..

OLYMPICS HAVE ENDED

Its sad.. Coz, it means that i have no reason to stay up late already... Grrrr... Nvm.... I shall learn how to sleep early normally all over again...

Let's see what i have been up to for the past 5 days...

Nothing much actually.. Had CCA on Friday. Did OK for the Contest. Oh ya. Had a really interesting conversation on my way home. Went home with my IPP. So ya.. Had an unexpected conversation. I mean, Its not unexpected to have a conversation. But the topic of the conversation was unexpected esp with someone you dont really know well...

Am i even making sense?? Hmmm nvm.. As long as i understand can already... So where was i??

Oh ya... Topic of conversation: RELATIONSHIPS. I think its the age.. Coz, each time i talk to some around that age, it seems as if that is all they ever talk abt.. RELATIONSHIPS. tsk tsk tsk.. Very the limited you know...

But anywayz, it was a really interesting topic... Met him again the next day to go TPJC... Haiz. I was later late for my Crim Pro Meeting. Thanks to him.. Busy physchoing me there to leave TPJC later.. NVM..

So ya.. Where was i?? Oh yes yes.. I was late for my Crim Pro Meeting.. VERY late for it.. So ya.. I'm like any normal slack member that anyone could ever come across.. Late for meetings.. Never contribute anything during meetings.. SO ya.. Beware people..

Had a million scoldings in in the past week.. Screaming from my grandmother for waking up late on a stupid sunday.. Got scolding from my aunt for something that my STUPID cat did.

Nothing seems rite does it??

The journey of a thousand miles, begins with the first step

Its been such a long time since i last posted something... Ermm... Worth thinking about??? lol!!

Today was great... Met my mom.. my mom got pissed over something... but that will be further elaborated in another entry... Coz, i shall not digress now... Really have something in mind... So better type it before i start ranting on and on in another pointless blog entry... hehehe

I ever mentioned in one of prev entries.. Have you ever felt that you were opening up so much, telling everything to someone you're not close with... but you just clam up and can't do the exact same thing to a person you regard as friend??

Well.. What if the thing is now... you dont know how to tell people certain things... How much do people know about me?? That i have no idea... How much do i know about my friends?? Well.. I guess that's for them to judge how much they have actually revealed to me about themselves... But back to the topic... Have you ever wondered whether or not you should tell certain things to a friend...

But the only thing that is keeping you back is the fear of what others might think???

Well, to me... i guess.. it is difficult... True.. Everybody have their little secrets... Even me... But as for me... I tell... well.. not all of it... at least not yet... I'm currently comfortable revealing parts of me to some people... I guess thats the only way for people to get to know me...

I always wonder... Have someone actually hang around me minus the mask... Just them, without any secrets... as i'm aware of the secret... I really wonder that... if yes.. How many??

Some things are just so difficult to tell... I totally agree with that... but i guess, it is the case of who you actually tell... I mean its difficult to keep things and to actually tell things when you have a group of friends... but the thing is... Not everybody in that group knows each other.. as some might feel more comfortable with the other... and some do not... some even know more about the other than another friend in the same group... So ya...

It really is the question of who you are comfortable with.. and who you actually choose to share that secret without having to severe anything of any sort and who would actually share and no leave you alone to face any confusions... am i rite??

I wonder.. i really do.. For how many have chosen or will be choosing me to let out their deepest secrets that they will never share with anyone else as they're comfortable with the fact that it is me and only will be me that know the thing??

Some of my friends... They know who they are.. have chosen me... to reveal things without the fear of having me shunning them away... to them.. i thank you for choosing and sharing with me your deepest thoughts, your darkest secrets.. and having the trust in me, taking the risk hoping that i will not push you away and keep things to myself and only me.... And obviously not allow you to drown in your confusion alone..

I really thank you guys.. for taking the risk to test me for who i really am... :)

Didnt go for APEL today... I'm gonna guard the mailbox with my life... LOL!!

I hate NAPOLEON.... Why can't he just lead a simple life so that i can just read about him w/o having to scan through a 26pg biography all about his wars.. ARGH!!! So freaking confusing..

I'm so gonna kill him...

Oh wait.. I forgot...

He's dead...

WASTED... Haiz...

And My cutest teacher ever... nvm.. I shall not complain... I shall be a sweet little angel and smile sweetly and innocently....

Oh ya... i havent updated on wat happened to my OP rite?? After how much i complained about it rite??? Well Well Well.. Our theme was doing the unplanned planned thingy... LOL!! Coz, we gave up on trying to make it rehearsed... so we did the unplanned.. to make it look planned... makes sense??? NVM... Actually, the OP as well as the Q&A session was fine... Agreed with Wahidah... Have no idea why pple were complaining abt it...

I guess that's abt it...

Seahorse ?? Which Creature Of The Sea Are You?? brought to you by

Stepford Wives Hmmmm... Its the stupidest show i ever watched... Its ok.. but its dumb.. lol... And i think being a Bimbo at times is just so fun... wahahhahaha.... The show is kinda sexist... wahhahaha... Women are abusing their men... and the Men.. well.. They go to great measures to try to boost their self-esteem... SIAO! But it was funny though... Especially with the fact that Azi & Kay neglected the popcorns half way into the show... Making me and Mel having to finish up the popcorns...We nearly succeeded in finishing it... Left another half box out of 2 whole box... and i still have the popcorny feeling in my stomach.. *Bleargh*

Wheee.. I'm in school..
ALONE!!

Oh wait... I'm not alone.. I've found Kay... Or rather Kay's found me...

And kay's throwing tantrum beside me... Poor Kabby...

And i'm hungry... I have a group meeting at 12!!!! Doing wat?? Rehearse... Clever rite?? Confirm ah never rehearse again..

Wanna know why??

coz nearly everybody will start singing... singing and more singing...

Oh ya.. Yesterday i had the most terrifying times on the MSN... Wahahhaa... That nuraini ah... Waaaaaaa!!! I think can make a MSN addict hate MSN man... Tsk tsk tsk... or maybe her hormones were running wild yesterday...

Ok.. what shall i write about?? Hmmm.. Oh ya.. I also JUST realised something... My blog looks like an Olympics news update.. No need watch tv.. Just read my blog will be equally sufficient.. wahhahaa...

KABBY!! I'M HUNGRY!!!

I've developed a power...

A new talent..

Well, come to think of it..

Its not that new...

It's quite old...

I've developed the ability to sleep late and digress so much that even after hours have passed my work is still not complete...

Amazing ain't it?

Woke up early thinking that i have to work today.. turns out that i dont... and i nearly went back to sleep when mom had to "pounce" on the bed disrupting the peace man... Made we wake up.. Planning on wat to do..

when suddenly my grandmother..

Appeared at the doorway.. hands on her hips... "all you know is talk talk talk.. GO AND COOK!!" So ya.. that's what i did.. i had to cook... Wahaha.. Fear not pple.. I have not poisoned anyone.. Well.. everybody in this house is still alive... DAMN! wahaha.. kidding kidding.. lol..

Stayed awake to watch the Table Tennis Match... and guess wat?? I fell asleep rite before the match and woke up rite after the match ended... wahhahha... Well.. as i expected she lost... she... nvm... as a CERTAIN friend of mine is gonna make noise if he sees me commenting her... I'll get strangled for sure.. lol..

Anywayz, Saw the badminton match between Indonesia and Korea.. PHEEWIT!! POWER TO DA MAX! lol! That Taufik Hidayat really goes all out to win a medal for his country... and he just broke down and cry when he got the gold.. so.. nice.. I mean.. you tend to do that if you're representing your own country rite?? Go all out??

Wheee.... You know.. i'm so in lurve with the music video.. She soo pretty!!! Like me.. Wahahaha... *dodges rotten tomatoes*

Anywayz, what was i suppose to blog??

Ahhh... Stared at the TV.. You know wat.. I realise something... Eversince Olympics started, that's the only thing i've been watching...

Come back from school... Turn on TV... Watch Olympics... Middle of the night while doing work.. TV is on.. Channel 5... watching Olympics... Before going to school.. waiting for time to go.. On TV.. Watch Olympics.. WAT THE HELL RITE??

Soon, i'll be watching olympics... eating olympics... sleeping olympics... bathing olympics and breathing olympics... oh man.. Tsk tsk tsk tsk...

Oh oh... Guess what... I love the seasons quiz.. LOL!! i mean my answer lah.. The picture so nice... So erm.. ermm... mysteriouss... Yes that's it.. Mysterious... sooo Whheeee... wahahhaha...

Oh ya.. Watched the Table Tennis Match... SIN Vs. PRK

Bravo to LJW for the effort!! I mean eventhough i have something against them... She did well just now... It was tough... But well.. she wasnt mentally prepared for the full 7game.. But still she put up a tough fight.. So ya.. Well Done!! hehehehe...

Did i mention?
I lost my freaking EZ LINK... wahahha... And i made it just now... Cost me $21... Sheesh... $21 for a stupid card... and the worst part.. i pd $21 for a blank card.. I still have to top it up... Grrr... and the WORST part is that... I lost my ez link on friday... and i just topped up my concession stamp.. 52 freaking dollars.. GONE WITH THE WIND....

So ya.. All those pple who owe me money.. betta watch out.. i'm becoming a loanshark... asking pple to pay me back.. so that i can replace the concession stamp without my mom finding out... So.. Better run and hide before i find you... lol!!

Haiz.. You know wat!! My OP is this MONDAY!! YAY YAY!! YIPPEE!! WHY?? COZ I'M DEAD! I'm gonna kill myself for OP... But i'll be dead even before Monday.. I'm gonna get chopped by my president... HAIZ... She's gonna warn me again... I think at the rate i'm going, i'll be dismissed w/o even have to think hard wat to tell certain pple..

Oh yes.. Haiz.. Need to slp.. Have a feeling i'm working tmr...

Speaking of work..

Did you know that some pple find me rude.. becoz i didnt return a hello?? I mean like hello.. There's such thing as the tone of voice for you to consider you know... and you even dare to call me rude???? And you say that i have an attitude problem just becoz i didnt say a hello??? I mean who the hell is having the freaking attitude problem here?? You or me?? IDIOTS!!

And who are you to warn me to pick up my phone... I mean.. are you even paying for my freaking phone bill??? When you yourself dont pick up my calls!!! Why?? Just becoz you're higher than me.. You have the rite to ignore any calls... and only select certain calls to answer?!?!?!

argh!! Nvm... If you want to see attitude problem.. I'll give you attitude problem...

Ok

i was awake yesterday..

Till god knows what time.. Guess what i was doing??

I was watching TV... The Olympics is seriously succeeding turning me into an owl...
Watched both the table tennis games.. Singapore Vs. PRK and the other one is Singapore Vs. China...

Singapore Vs. China OMG!! I so totally didnt expect them to win!! *FAINTS* By them, I meant Singapore... Seriously, didnt expect them too.. wahahha.. I mean i support the Singapore Team.. But ah.. They havent been performing eversince ice age... So i gave up on them.. really!!

whahaha.. And she wont.. Yes.. I admit.. I wasnt hyped up about it.. Why? Coz, the fact that she wasnt born here.. I mean the feeling will be different if the player is a true-born-singaporean instead of imported-given citizenship immediately-singaporean.. I think you guys know what i'm trying to say.. so ya..

Anywayz, We'll see how long she'll last.. The track events have started!!! Wheeee... wahahhaa... Oh ya.. and the russian gymnast.. Khorkina or something.. So sad.. first time she didnt get gold sia... but nvm.. she already have tons of Gold Medals from Olympics..

And i think i should start doing something abt something.. doncha think??

You're Most Like The Season Winter ... You're often depicted as the cold, distant season. But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and Independant. You have an air of power around you - and that can sometimes scare people off. You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you rarely let people in if you can help it. You can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be negative, and hard to relate to, but you give off a relaxed image despite being insecure - and secretly many people long to be like you, not knowing how deep the Winter season really is. Well done... You're the most inspirational of seasons :) ?? Which Season Are You ?? brought to you by

Wheee.. Its the fifth day of Olympics.. Its damn happening.. Especially the swimming events.. POWER!! Yesterday's 200X4 Men Freestyle Relay was damn happening.. USA & Australia was damn close!!! Oh ya... And the Ladies Volleyball!! PHeeewwwiitt!! Soo sexy!! Wahahahah... especially the italian team.. Waaa.. so pretty.. LOL!! Oh ya.. and the ukraine swimmer.. and the romanian swimmer as well.. WAAAA... Ok ok.. GET A GRIP NAD!! wahahahaha.... But... ya... Damn happening... so nice.. hehehe

In LComm class rite now...

And i'm having a freaking headache rite now.. My eyes are just about to close anytime soon..

Shouldn't have come to school today.. Really not in tune with the world.. Trust me... I'm going to die.. wahahha... But ah.. I never go to the doctor.. so ya.. Have to come to school.. Miss Lim was giving me the LOOK when i told her i didnt have an MC.. wahhaha..

And the best part is that I'm late.. One more late or absent without MC from me.. I can kiss LComm goodbye.. wahahha.. Really.. debarment.. that is if my calculations are rite lah.. hehehe..

The air-con is seriously not helping.. grr grr grr... Its freezing my brain at the same time its boiling it.. Argh.. Go away.. stupid headache...

Ok.. I'm suppose to be writing letter rite now.. Write write write... Type type type... Draft draft draft.. Enter enter enter.. Check check check.. And guess what?? Its still a blank page.. whahaha..

Ok.. i better go now.. LOL!!

Didnt go to school today...

Can't believe it man.. I fell sick.. ARGH!! but nvm... I shall try to go to school tomorrow... But you see lah.. So clever rite?? 1248AM already and i'm still at the computer blogging away... Sheesh.. stupid headache coming back..

Anywayz, What did i do today?
Tried to get better..
Ignored my grandmother's nagging...
Later, Ignored my aunt's nagging...

Sometimes, I just dread staying at home... Grrr.. I mean what kinda person scolds you and then puts a nice tone at the end of the long nagging asking who you were... The abovementioned pple did that.. Grr... You know.. LCOMM naggings doesnt work.. I'm using complicated english... whahaha

Woke up today with my grandmother screaming in my ear every half an hour to wake me up reminding me that i'll be late for class.. And at that point of time.. I had a splitting headache... Haiz..Sometimes, STAYING AT HOME DOESNT HELP... Got scolded for the stupidest stuff..

You wanna know what?? For changing the switch into a different socket!! WHO in the world scolds people for that.. The abovementioned pple did... ARGH!! I was just heating up a freaking bread.. And the prev. socket couldnt work.. so i switched the plug into the next socket.. And i got scolding becoz i didnt change it back... ARGH!!!

Why did i get the scolding?? Coz, the other socket was for the rice cooker.. obviously, the rice cooker didnt work.. coz its not plugged in.. And my grandmother thought that its spoilt.. Aunt came home.. Complained to aunt abt the rice cooker and something else.. Aunt got irritated.. Found out that the plug is my doing.. Scolded me.. And my grandmother helped...

And ya.. All i did was heating up a freaking bread coz i was hungry...

Shitz..

My cousin came yesterday she went back to Sabah... her term started today as well.. And i was shocked...

Wahaha... Coz, my grandmother was back too..

Just as i was enjoying staying alone at home during the hols.. And just when school started... My grandmother have to come home...

I mean.. Is that just a coincidence?? Or its a sign?? Argh.. My luck just seems to get worse by the day..

Hate everything at the moment... Hmmm.. Except my friends.. They're the only one that has been keeping me sane rite now (Besides my mom)... Did i mention that they're the greatest? Ya.. they're the greatest.. wahahaha..Really thankful to them.. THANK YOU GUYZ!! hahaha.. i dont think they even realize that lah... but nvm.. i shall thank them anyway.. so once again.. THANK YOU GUYZ!! wahaha.. i sound like a spoilt tape recorder... lol..

Haiz.. Today first day of term 2... Some people having their OP today... I mean.. Is that just plain bad luck? or maybe its good in a way.. But the thing is.. Just as you finished your hols.. you have a project deadline today.. Aiyo!

But ah... HOLIDAYS JUST EVAPORATED IN THIN AIR WITHOUT YOU EVEN REALIZING IT!!! haaa.. Feel so much better now that i've screamed it out.. LOL!! i'm going mad... tralallalaa... I wanna buy digicam.. tralalala.. so can take more dustbin worshipping photos.. tralallaa...

went to watch THE VILLAGE with them the other day.. (Thursday) Them = Azi & Mel Why did i watched village when i dun even watch thrillers? Well... Coz, as usual, I was tricked... This is the 3rd time... OMG... 3rd time that i got tricked into watching something i dun wanna watch!! Haiz, its been a long while since that happened.. I thought that it will never happen again... Well well well.. Guess i'm wrong... As usual... I was on the phone with Kay before i met them... She already warned me that i might be tricked again.. Then i said to her... Cant be lah... Since mel said that Azi wanna watch catwoman.. GRR!!! I TRUST MY FRIENDS TO EASILY!!! GRR!! But nvm, i shall continue trusting them... wahahhaha.. I mean its not like its anything important or wat.. The most i might just die of FRIGHT if they happens to trick me into a really scary movie.. wahhahaha

Abt THE VILLAGE
If some of you have read azi's blog... Well.. you'd get a gist of the story... But its not all that lovey dovey... Its just twisted and weird and dumb and hilarious at times... OMG.. The scene where girl proclaimed her love.. LOL!! Damn FUNNY!! I've never seen a girl do that... maybe i should do that... whahhaa.. I shall proclaim my love to azi and kay and deena and hidayah... whahahaha.. Tryouts.. LOL!!

Really had fun actually... despite all the disco lights and interruptions my phone was giving... I managed to keep my mind of things... hehehe

Ok i have no idea, why the violet didnt come out... but anywayz, Yesterday, FRIDAY 13th As i predicted, i'd have the SUCKIEST of days... The worst that i've actually come across... WHY? Coz, i SCREW UP!! Was suppose to do my 1st speech... Well, that i did perfectly fine... Even though it was last minute without any preparation and rehearsal.... I still did fine... WHY? Coz, everyone commented on how well-rehearsed i was... What an irony huh... But, i screwed up the rest of it... So much for trying to make things better.. I just screwed it up... I try to see reasons... Reasons that will not make the fault mine... But even though i see it, I just know that deep down... I could have done much much better... deep down.. i know that the fault IS mine.. WHY? Its because of the responsibilites given... It will be my fault.. No matter what.. By the end of the night.. I was on the verge of tears... but nevermind... What's done is done... All i can do is try to do better the next time round... But the bottomline is: I suck... I screwed up & it could have been better without me... I'M SORRY

you are violet #EE82EE

Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be. Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan. Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.

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I'm sooo LOYAL to school i tell ya.. wahahha..

Why?
Coz, I'm in school library happily typing away in another pointless blog entry...

Had crim meeting today... Wahaha.. We met at 3pm.. And then.. we only get down to work like around 5pm.. And we ended at 530pm.. Not bad rite?? So.. What did we do for the past 2 hrs?? Wahaha.. We were corrupting the mind of the innocent... While one of my groupmates were looking around for eye candies... And We were updating on our gossip library.. LOL!!

It was the most happening group ever.. Then when we realise that its already 5pm, we started blaming each other for putting each other in the group.. causing us to digress so much... LOL!! Funny sia.. Ya.. love my crim... WAhahah!!

What else eh?
Oh ya, Having cca this friday... I'm just about to give up on them.. Haiz.. But whatever it is.. I must persevere... and endure.. yes yes.. Nad! Perservere! Endure! You can do it! Yes! I can do this! But seriously, i dunno how long i'll last before i actually made up my mind to pull out...

Oh man.. My malay is damn rusty... wahaha.. was trying out the previous entry in malay.. and it sucked!!! Wahahaha... rusty rusty rusty... tsk tsk tsk.. need to polish it man.. wahahha..

Anywayz, what was i up to today??

Well... didnt do anything much.. Rotted at home... till deena came over.. wahaha.. hilarious.. and then hidayah came too.. Well.. she wasnt suppose to... dunno what made her change her mind to come over... LOL!! It was damn hilarious.. wahhahaa...

We were crapping all the way... And hidayah was singing her rendition of.. what song was it ah?? oh ya.. right here waiting?? I think that was the song.. wahaha.. it was hilarious!! really enjoyed ourselves there.. and the thing is.. we didnt even do anything.. just came to my house.. and rotted.. and chilled... and slacked... I think they're stress with school.. My house is a de-stress outlet... it has always been the case with everyone...

Scenario:
Human: Haiz... So stress sia.. Must hang out somewhere... must go out.. I know... Go Nad's house... (looks for me...) Nadiraaa OOoooo Nadiraaaa... Can go over your house or not today?? need to de-stress sia..

Wahahhaa... cute... i dunno why they look for my house also... Come over sometime.. its not like they slacked... They read books.. play with my bears... and sometimes even continued studying... madness i tell ya...

Anywayz, where was i?? Oh ya,.... Then we were drinking cups and cups of strawberry tea... With hidayah going on and on how it is not sweet... but still.. she keeps on drinking... Wahahaha...

Setiap kali aku memandang ke luar jendela, menyingkap kembali kenangan silam. Aku keliru. Aku tidak pernah memahami apa yang telah berlaku. Aku asyik bertanya. Tetapi soalanku tidak pernah terjawab.

Aku buntu. Tidak mempunyai jawapan dan juga tidak mempunyai sesiapa untuk bertanya atau meluahkan segalanya. Aku resah. Kadang kala, aku geram kerana aku tidak pernah dapat apa yang ku cari untuk menamatkan segala kebuntuan yang ku hadapi ini.

Adakah ia suatu cerita yg telah lama ku tanamkan di pelusuk fikiran ku? Ataupun, ia adalah suatu karya yg tidak ingin ku sambungi? Mungkinkah ia suatu rahsia yg tak patut di timbulkan semula? Apakah soalan ini suatu tanda ataupun ia suatu bukti bahawa aku berperasaan? Aku berperasaan perikemanusiaan yang ku jangka tiada lagi di lubuk hati ku. Ataupun ia muncul akibat perasaan serba salah?

Did i mention??

That my cat is sick...

I think she's having a fever... Coz, she is like shivering... and her body is damn hot.. and she is like sneezing where ever she goes... And i have no idea why she stays up at night to accompany me while i am busy blogging away...

She really needs to sleep... She needs the rest.. hehhee.. Poor cat... Sneezing like nobody's business.. I think she has a headache too.. Coz, she keeps sleeping.. and when she walks... she cant even walk in a straight line... She walks all over the place.. and the next thing you know.. she just sleeps...

Tsk tsk tsk.. Poor thing.. I guess the flu season is in.. I'm surrounded by infectious pple or things or animals..

MONDAY

Today is National Day!! Wahaha.. I mean... Everyone so patriotic today... People wearing red everywhere... Its like.. the national day mood was there...

What did i do today??
I went to my aunt's house...

For what??
To celebrate her maid's birthday.. So cute rite?? Hahaha.. it was so much fun lah... so much laughter going around...

Its like.. celebrating her birthday when the parade started.. they started singing birthday song and cutting the cake.. and it looks as if.. we were celebrating Singapore's birthday instead of hers.. lol!!

But only thing was that.. The parade this year.. Well.. It was just.. WRONG in every way!! It was such a mess man.. tsk tsk tsk... Like nothing special like that..

Anywayz, watched Singapore Idol... LOL!!! It was damn hilarous.. I was HAPPILY making fun of people.. dammit! i'm so mean.. But who cares?.. I enjoyed myself.. and so did everybody.. lol!!

Anywayz, before the parade... Aunts were sitting around the table.. I was there... happily munching away.. *Ps:This is my mom's side... all the iron chefs!!* Anywayz, The party was great in a way.. Coz, the host doesnt have to cook.. all the aunts will bring something.. And the best part was that...

It is all homemade!! LOL!!

There was this bread that i thought my cousin bought it from some confectionary.. and it turns out that my aunt baked it.. wahhaah...

There was... chicken chop, satay, sausage rolls, sushi, cream puff, chocolate chip pancakes, tuna bun, noodles, popiah, fruits, drinks, jelly... And NOTHING was bought!! It was ALL HOMEMADE! That's the best part... And it was great...

So where was i?? Oh ya.. I was happily munching away and talking to my mom... When they brought up the topic that i nearly choked on... No no.. Not that they asked me whether or not i have a boyfriend.. I'd be to used to that to actually choke on it... It about HIM! SHEESH!! ARGH!!.. I just look at my mom with my eyes nearly popping out... and my watermelon was in mid air..

Since it was so noisy, at first i thought i didnt hear properly... But then, my aunt apologise and repeated herself.. that was when i just stared at her... and then i nearly snapped back... when i realise that some people who were sitting there are not my relatives.. they are family friends... That's when i just shut up, switched off.. and concentrated on my bun... Haiz...

There are just some things that even years passed... and the anger will not subside.... Nothing will extinguish the burning anger... the stubborness and worst of all the FEAR towards him...

Anywayz, that was all before my cousin arrived... I havent seen him in the longest time... He used to be one of those that i'm really close with.. Well, obviously now... grow up already... we're actually shy to be seen in each others' company.. LOL!! That was lame.. but its true.. That was how we got distanced... Anywayz, he is like DAMN TALL!! Grrr... And then i just stared at him...

Stare and stare and stare and stare... I was like.. Oh man.. Usher is in da house!! Wahahaha.. Idiot.. so good looking and so damn tall also dunno for what... lol!! But ya.. Usher... my cousin is an usher look alike.. wahaha... or rather.. in the malay music industry.. he looks like ferhad...

Anywayz, busy looking at him and telling my mom... Gossiping away on who he looks... and had to entertain his younger brother who is like totally in lurve with me... i think... Coz, each time i'm around... He'll blush... wahhahahaha... Look at me and start smiling... and turn all shy.. and blush... and run behind a chair and hide.. and peeking at me from there... Then whisper to the mother that he wanna sit beside me.. wahahaha...

Then once comfortable already... He'll be like.. I wanna sit with Kak Didi... I wanna eat what she's eating.. I want Kak Didi... I want to hold Kak Didi's hand! So ya.. hahahaha.. But he is damn cute lah... Hair so curly... and he is soo small.. And i forgot how old he is... hehehe.. Hopeless rite?? I know...

Overall, I had a really enjoyable time... hehehe..

SUNDAY

I was late for work... Overslept... The thing is.. my mom forgot to wake me up.. coz she thinks that i wasnt working... And the thing is.. i had 2 alarm clocks.. I mean why in the world did i set 2 freaking alarm clocks?? It only has to be one reason rite?? That i'm working on that day... Aiyoh!

Then obviously, i was late!! Luckilly i wasnt scolded... Instead, my boss was laughing at me when i told her.. Haiz.. But nevermind... At least i wasnt scolded or warned or whatever.. The thing is.. She just told me.. Next time dun be late... Waste your money on cab fare only.. hehehe.. And she keeps thinking that i'm spoilt... Coz i took a cab to work.. I mean.. Hello!! I was late! What do you expect me to do?? Hmmzz....

Anywayz, I didnt expect that i'd be working late that day.. Coz i was told that went my shift ended at 230.. i would be able to go off... But i didnt expect to be driven over to Katong Mall and continue with work... And only get released at 730pm..

I was suppose to go out with the other 2 man.. And i brilliantly blew the outing.. coz, i had to work late.. Its been 3 mths since the 3 of us meet.. and i had to do that lah.. I mean.. Both of them went out.. with the thought that i'll be joining them for dinner later.. HAiz... Well... I cant possibily do that when i'm still at the EAST at 730pm... Well.. I guess that's what work will do... Screw your social life.. BUt nvm..

Sorry guys! I'm really really sorry.. I didnt expect that to happen.. i'm really sorry...

We shall go out some other time ok? I promise.. Only problem is that.. I'm having break.. and the 2 of you are not... and now.. I suppose.. weekends are out of question.. i'm just sorry lah for the other day...

Havent been blogging that much... Well.. Most prob... I think its just because that my stupid blog refuse to turn out the way it suppose to turn out.. SO ugly one!! Stupid fonts... Haiz.. anywayz, lemme begin on FRIDAY... Went to Causeway Point to meet my mom after contract meeting... Walked around... Went to watch MEAN GIRLS... The show was oklah.. Normal teenage story... Bitchiness can still be improved.. When you actually think about it.. The bitchy factor was rather mild.. Then wat happen ah?? Oh ya... I was complaining to her about something.. that i can no longer remember... Before we went for the show, looked for present... Kept worrying that she wouldn't like it.. Oh well.. Whatever it is.. It's already bought.. so ya... I think thats the end of friday... Lemme move on to SATURDAY... Saturday was the chalet.. I was late lah actually.. And i was damn tired and sleepy.. Rushed to Pasir Ris to meet them rite after work.. Oh ya.. I'm working now.. Hilarious.. Didnt expect to work while schooling.. well.. surprise surprise.. I'm doing it.. Anywayz, crapped all the way at the chalet.. Singing National Day songs... at the top of our voices... Me and SC... proving to the world how patriotic we can actually be! whahaha... Besides that, We took tons of photos.. Making ivan vomit blood and making azi.. continously rolling her eyes that i was afraid it would actually fall out off her eye socket or something.. LOL!! Then before all the photo-taking.. we were at the playground.. I was playing on the bridge thingy.. then i was on this thing.. you sit on it... and it goes round and round and round.. well.. i closed my eyes you see.. and the next thing i know.. i was on the ground.. LOL! Went home all tired.. and fell str. asleep...

i dunno what to say... I dunno what to blog... How many times have such things happen? Tons rite? Wanting to blog... but it doesnt seem to flow... Why do you have to ask me why in the world i made that decision? I mean am i wrong to decide what i've decided? Maybe i'm too nice? Maybe its time for a change? Maybe its time i'll become more mean? Maybe its time for people to hate me? Maybe its time for something? I thought i was already mean... But i guess, not mean enough huh? Well.. wateverlah... Maybe i'm just out to prove a point... That even though after everything... I'm not the person that people thought i'd be... Not the person that was rumoured to be... Just the kinda person that they never expect i'd be.. Well..

Ok... I'm in school rite now...

Having my contract meeting... My crim meeting just ended... LOL!!

I had the most interesting crim pro meeting ever sia... All the gossips of the world!! I think i'm so gonna love my crim group man... So funny! The four of us are like schizos there... Its just damn hilarious...

The gossips are damn priceless man...

I cant believe this!!

Whaahhaha

If only they know... Secrets... Tsk tsk tsk...

Topic of gossip was damn unexpected...

It even started the beginning of school...

Wahahahha... I wanna die of laughter already...

Now i know why some people are uncomfortable around me... LOL!!!!! Wahahahahaha!!! Priceless man.. Damn priceless!!

I'm a Koala Bear!! A blue one to be precise!! Wahaha.. Cute quiz! Wanna try? http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php You are Blue Koala, who is extremely honest person, and will say things that come up in your mind straightly. You are also active and very cheerful. You also possess feminine attraction and have distinguished atmosphere. You are very popular, and tend to be with lots of people. You value your friends too. But unlike your outlook, you don't like to loose and are a strong-minded person. You possess strong will-power, and are independent enough to carry things out without getting the help of the others. You have great creativity sense and are much talented in this. You act simply, but you possess complicated inner emotions. You may be thought little bit eccentric. You like to lead varied life, and try to change the atmosphere yourself too. You can make quick decisions, and possess courage. You are well liked by both men and women. You have great sense of instinct and can get right at the point of things. You can affect people as well. You are very strict on money. You will not go buying things on impulse. Someone you love and your love life is what is most important to you in your life. You possess great natural skill to manipulate men. You should not rush into marriage after a passionate love.

Ok.. Guess what.. I'm in school.. and i'm hungry!! help!!

What am i doing?? Actually.. Nothing.. Coz, i'm here to hand in my legal opinion thingy... Tralalala... And i'm finding somebody to eat with me.. so ya.. haiz...

Whee.. Have i mentioned it?? I've got my phone!!! waahahaha....

My phone!! My phone!! My phone!! *chants away*

I'm so in LURVE with it!!! Wheee...

My mom wants to steal it... The green eyed monster in her is out!! Wahahaha

Anywayz, enough about my phone.. I shall blog about something else...

*thinks* Oh shyte... I forgot what to blog about.. thanks to my phone.. hmmmm

Oh my oh my...

They are sooo cute!!!

So tiny!! So cute!! So innocent!!

Oh ya oh ya...

They're a damn sweet bunch too...

Ahhh.... I'm going crazy...

Noooooo I can't help it... *Drools*

They're just so cute and innocent and chubby... and cute... and cute... Oh ya.. did i mention cute?!?!?! AhhH!!

Hmmm.. i think i'm done with accounts.. tmr is accounts test... and i'm confident?? Hmmmm Half way there lah i think... Need to buy stationeries man... Nvm.. I shall go meet my mom.. Oh ya.. today is MONDAY!!! SECOND OF AUGUST 2004...

SOMETHING IS COMING MY WAY!!
But i dunno whether my mom remembers or not... I've been telling her that over and over and over again... tralalalalala......
SOMETHING IS COMING MY WAY!!

Tralaalalalalala....
I need to go buy batteries tooo... And why am i even writing it here?? Hmm no idea... dont ask me why.... Checklist?? Its not as if i can bring it to popular to remind me...

Oh sht.. Talking abt checklist... I need to submit LCOMM checklist.. OH SHYTE.... Oh Ducking fish!!! Argh... nvm... chill.. i shall go do it now...

~Peace out~

Oh ya.. Did i mention?? I didnt go for PAGES... Wonder how it went though... Hmmzzz... Sorry Azi. Sorry Kay. Didnt keep my promise of going for PAGES... I guess I'm just tired.... Extremely tired.... Of everything... I practically ran out of school yesterday.... lol... Its lame.. but yeah... When i bumped into a fren of mine and she asked me why are you in such a rush? where are you going? I just looked at her and said... I'm going home... I'm late... Please take note that it is not 10pm or 11pm.. It was 650pm.. rite after french... hahahaha On my way off, mom called... Met her for dinner... Keeps going on and on and on about the fact that MONDAY, 2 AUG is just 3DAYS away... Muahahaha... Something is coming my way... Something is coming my way... tralalalalal.... Then rite.. my mom bought chocolate... so there i was pestering her to give me the chocolate... This is how it went: Me: "Maaaaaaaa..... I want the chocolate!!" Mum: Sticks out tongue... Me: "Can you like give me the choco-burrrppppppppp!!!" Mum: "So full already still want chocolate.... Definitely no chocolate for you young lady" (Mom starts nagging) Me: (Threatens to bite her arm) Mum: (Got tired of trying to hide arm away from me... Gives the chocolate) And another victory point for me!!! Muahahahhaahh!!!

At home now... suppose to do the biz proposal... but what am i doing?? As usual... Wasting time...

Yesterday during french, we watched this french movie... Well, my perception of the french being a romantic bunch of people changed to french is a bunch of psychopath when it comes to love... They create stories in their mind that never exists and the person that they're worshipping doesnt  even know that they're involved in a love web of some sort...

tsk tsk tsk.... The story is just plain freaky... Well, its just the story.. wahahaha...

So pple... have anyone been doing anything extremely nice for you?? You might the next target of someone's affection.. hehehhee

I just so love french rite now...

muahahhaha...

had my french exam yesterday.... muhahahhaa....

I'm in love... oh soo in love.... in love... yeah... oh yeah!!!

For people who easily get confused.. don't worry i'm not in love with a human...

Not a man or boy of any kind...

I'm just in love with french!! muahahhaha.....

HELP!!

I confirm going to commit suicide already....

Wahhaha... Having Lab session with my most favourite and most adorable tutor... SO one would understand why i wanna commit suicide.... Cant stand her "CUTENESS" any longer...

muahahha... she is one teacher who loves to give homework man... Remind me of the "good" o'l sec sch days... Holiday assignment... haiz haiz haiz... Give reasonable deadlines but it is never reasonable to us students coz, we have to especially come back during the holidays just to hand in the assignment...

But nevermind... i shall not complain... I shall do it all with "open" hearts.... Grrr

Arrr... Arrr... Arrr...

This cannot continue man... It is seriously not healthy...

Why cant i just scream at them at the appropriate times?? When i feel like screaming... i give a polite smile... And after that... I feel like strangling someone and tearing someone's head off... Seriously, what is the point of that you tell me??

coz, after you leave, the person that is suppose to get the yelling is not around... you have no one to strangle... then.... you get irritated.. seriously, no point man... waste energy!! haiz...

nevermind... its just pointless explaining myself... and trying to get points across... coz they never listen.. i mean... who ever listens to me anywayz??

Questions
Where am i? What am i doing?

Answers
I'm in biz lab, Doing nothing... Waiting for Mel and Kay... and wondering where in the world has azi disappeared of too.. I think she had event management meeting...

Oh just as i was thinking.. Azi appeared... heeeelllooooo!!!! *That was Azi*

now.. i have to go meet my pressie for awhile...

Off i go... tralalallala

Ok.. I feel calmer and more at peace with the world now..... I can practically float around... Whee!!! So light!! LOL!!

Haiz...

Oh ya.. i forgot to mention what happened last friday....

Last friday was my installation night....

I think it was ok lah... But something was missing... but then, thats beside the point...

My mom attend it... And OMG!!! She was damn LAME!!

Let me go into detail...

We have a table topic session.. This particular table topic session is somewhat different as someone has to volunteer themselves and pick something out of the bag and talk about it for a whole 2 minute....

So my mom was actually kinda sabo-ed by me.... And she had to pick out something from the bag... She chose and chose and chose... And out came a bottle...

She looked at it incredulously and looked back at the audience wondering what in the world is she gonna talk about...

She was like:
"What in the world am i going to talk about?" (looks at audience)
"what is this?" (Holds the bottle up for everyone to see..)
"This is a bottle."(Answers her own question)
"What do you use it for?" (poses another question)
"You use it for drinking." (Answers her own qns again) *All this while i'm sinking deeper into my seat*
"Most probably there is an extra use for the males. In case any of your teachers did not excuse you to the gents" (She elaborates)
"Now, let me go on describing how the bottle actually looks like..." (Holds bottle in her hand and scrutinise it)
"The bottle is clear. It has a white coloured bottle cap" (She explains... all this while with a serious facial expression)
"What else would you want to know abt the bottle?" (Looks around)
(Drops the bottle.... Giving a fake bimbotic look....) "Ooohhh.. It did not break"

I nearly fainted when she did that... And there was everybody cheering my mom.... And how later on, people came to me.. mentioning on how cool my mom actually is... when in actually fact she was being nothing but just plain lame...

Tra la la la la la....

Just came back from meeting... AND BOY! Was my defence up.... lol!! He is an irritating human being man... Seriously getting on my nerves.... GRrrr... Have to get back to the other 3 on the workshop that i proposed... I need to set a date for it soon..

Coz,
SOMEBODY was being irritating just now.. and i feel like shoving the info under his nose on the next meeting... so ya...

And once again... They gave me a last minute task to plan the damn thing... How many times do i have to tell them... I dont do last minute stuff... Today they informed me of friday's meeting... What the TOOOT!! He keeps saying that if we dragged any longer members will run away...

Like hello! Its been 3 weeks since the orientation meeting, then we had the installation night... People still responded to my emails... They did not ignore... They still assure me of their support and presence for the upcoming meeting...

I mean... If you are so DAMN AFRAID that members will run off... Wouldnt they've done it in the freaking course of the 3 weeks.... Some people just never think.. do they??

At times i just wanna kill myself... I wanna strangle someone... i just wanna cry!! ARGH!! Irritating MAGGOTS!!!

GUESS WHAT... ONCE AGAIN I'M NOT SLEEPING.... ARGH ARGH ARGH... Muahahaha.. but nvm.. I'm a trained owl!! *Hoot Hoot* *Hoot Hoot* Argh.. still can't find my pre-lab assignment... So gonna get beheaded by my dearest tutor... She is sooo gonna slaughter me and make me into curry!! Haiz.. Nearly misplace my class's lab assignments as well... And i panicked and nearly got asthma attack in the process... but that was before i located it lying next to my bag.... Oh ya.. I'm still going on and on abt how my blog hates me.. and how my internet connection hates me as well... GRR!! Anywayz, ya.. just now i already typed out a nice long blog entry... then i was erasing the word before... when... my whole entry disappeared into cyberspace~~!!! ARGH!! IDIOT... That was also when i burnt my tongue... Coz, my dearest mom happily made me tea after i pestered her too.. But what i didnt know was that she boiled the water on the stove instead of using the water in the thermos... So ya... Steps to burn someone's tongue: 1) she boiled water 2) added the sachet while it is still on the stove... 3) added milk... and then... she see the colour nice already... 4) Poured it in a cup and gives it to me... "Nah.. Your tea is ready... It's nice... Trust me!!"

So there i was so stress... with the blog and still pondering over where i left my assignment... took a sip of my tea... The next thing i know... I practically jumped out of the chair... Yelping... and there was my mom giving her innocent smile... "Ooopss Didn't i mention.. I boiled to water on the stove to make your tea.. and i lazy to wait for it to cool down... GRrrr.... She's THE devil i tell you!!!

Hmmm.. what can one do if her comp keeps hanging itself??? Should she reformat it?? But she has so many things inside there!! Hmmm... But then again... Maybe she should... Unless somebody out there can recommend a better solution besides this? It hangs at the most inappropriate times.... ARGH! She cant even blog that often at home anymore!! Its really driving her crazy!! Anywayz, Let's see what did she do yesterday... *scratches head* *thinks* Can't really remember... She wonders why she went home late yesterday... Then she remembered... She had Français yesterday and it ended at dix-neuff heure... (1900hrs) Then she had dinner... And then what happens? Oh ya.. She had another long phone call... Kept her company throughout her bus ride home.. Or at least till she got the final bus to go continue with her journey....

Then she slept late... Doing a video using  a software which she knows nuts about... and now quite proud of it! Coz, she thinks its great....

Then she can't find her pre-lab assignment which she is suppose to correct and hand it in tomorrow.... Which she actually thought of handing it in today... As, there is no other choice, she would have to hand it in tomorrow before going for the NE Seminar... That is if she can actually find her assignment in the first place...

Now she wonders why is she typing such a pointless blog entry and referring to herself as a third person.

But then again... People have done weirder stuff... And she is now going to get ready and go to school to find her friends... And later go for CCA...

Yeah well.. Let's see...

Since my computer keeps hanging yest... Let me blog about what happen yesterday....

Let's see.. I was doing my tutorial... When a certain male friend of mine has a group meeting... The group meeting happen to take place right beside me... So ya.. He got frustrated or angry or watever.. But the thing is, he turned RED!! Very red!! First time i witness an outburst like that from him.. lol!! It was scary.. (But it was kinda funny though.. LOL!! Shh.. if you happen to know who... pls dun tell him..)

Hmmm.. then i went for tutorial... and that's the end...

Oh ya oh ya...

I had an extremely long phone conversation with Mel on my way home yesterday!! LOL!! it was a hilarious phone call man... It was crappy lah.. The whole bus was staring at me.. and i had to substitute certain words to a much cryptic and more polite words... Grrr.. but its so fun!! muahaha.. i shall do this more often.. as in.. pray for pple to call me to keep me accompany throughout an entire bus journey home.. muahahahha...

And MEL... HDB flats' lift have reception can.. its for emergency cases... DUH!!

ARGH.. YOU KNOW WAT????!!???!!! I HATE INTERNET!!!

Now, i'm in school typing away... why?? Coz my idiotic computer... or rather my idiotic internet connection keeps HANGING... Seriously, I think that its going to commit suicide... Get it? Hang itself.. commit suicide... lol... Ok ok Fine.. Its lame.. i know...

Anywayz, let me continue my blog entry later.. need to help kabby with something...

I'm SO STAYING AWAY from MACDONALDS NO MORE!! I had the most horrible and traumatising dinner ever! Oh ya... WORD OF CAUTION Dont ever mix fries together when you have four of them... Coz, you'll feel that your eating is never ending and soon you'll get sick of it. So, after awhile we were too full and somewhat drunk with fries and nuggets. Therefore, NO MORE MACDONALDS! I think i'll start puking if i hear MacDonalds within my hearing range... I'm so going to stay away from it... 3 Months should be enough.. rite?

Oh ya Oh ya.. Pls check out the link below man.. ITS DAMN CUTE!! wahhahaha

http://64.4.16.250/cgi-bin/linkrd?_lang=EN&lah=621d31c228a12c909e6a594d187b9aee&lat=1090346695&hm___action=http%3a%2f%2fi%2emadblast%2ecom%2ffunflash%2fswf%2fwasnt_me_mb%2eswf

This is one song that i'm crazy about.... I think i'm crazy over it for about more than a month already man... ARGH!!! Eversince the single was released... *DIES* But then, What can i do?? It's just NICE!!!
 

"Burn" By USHER
 
[Intro]
Girl, understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto thisI
 know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn
 
[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heartIt's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn
 
[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
 
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
 
[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return
(let it burn)
 
[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn
 
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's overyou know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
 
[Bridge]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)
[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooohOoh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh
So many days, so many hoursI'm still burnin' till you return
 
[Chorus]
 

Hi once again to all my readers!! muahahaha...
 
Anywayz, What am i doing?
1)I'm freezing in the library
 
2)I'm typing away
 
3)I just realized... There is a possibility of me being late for consultation...
 
So ya.. of i go..

Let's see...
 
If anyone wanna read something interesting please go to Mel's blog...
 
For those of you who are dumb... pls read the following instructions that will guide you along!
 
Step 1: Please go to my navigation table... Yes.. It's the one with the Tagboard..

Step 2: Scroll down till you see my links...

Step 3: and look for the person named MEL...

Step 4: Click on it... Then you'll be directed to his blog.. like duh..
 

What will you find there??
 It is the beginning of a very interesting epic. So, stay tuned for me... I think if you wanna read more of these stories... just check out our specialiased blog... Click here
 

YIKES~~!!! Dammit... I just remembered... Tmr or rather today, my group or rather my class have to present the learning issues!! Oh SHT OH SHT!! DOUBLY SHTY!!... The other day's discussion is not enough... And i have to think of more to contribute... ARGH!! and obviously I havent done it... OH MAN!! I'm so gonna get killed by my group members...

Oh shite!! This is the second time i'm typing this stupid thing... See i told ya.. SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH THIS STUPID BLOG OF MINE!! ARGH!!!

Anywayz, i'm currently desperately in need of break... YAWNZ!! I think I'm going blind soon. DAMN! its never healthy to stare at the computer for so long.... Seriously am going blind... But then.. Maybe i can start wearing contacts if i do need specs... *Thinks of the possibility* Haiz... This report is killing me....

Advice to everyone out there!!
Never do any last minute work!
So much for me telling everyone but fails to follow it myself. Been guilty of this crime eversince i can remember man....

Anywayz, i seriously think that something is OH SO wrong with this dumb blog. Just look at my prev. entry! I did not even change the font... and it is in some other font as well as in a different colour altogether! ARGH!!! Its going MAD!!! 

Ok.. nvm.. I shall continue with my report now... enough of resting...

Ok.. I seriously need to be focused right now... Seemed to be continously distracted each time I'm suppose to be doing something that is important and extremely urgent...   Saw my Malay Cikgu on friday's newspaper... She just graduated with Masters in Malay Language and she's pursuing her PHD... Cool huh... But each time i think about her... Never fail to give me the urge of killing and strangling someone... But nvm... That was the past... 2 to 3 years have passed.. LOL!!!   Oh ya.. Hidayah darling... In response to your blog entry... We would try to meet up as soon as possible... Provided that all of us are free... And at the end of the outing, it will end with the 3 of us... and not the 2 of us... like how it usually is... Forever dating.. hahahaha... and also.. provided that I'm still alive.. hehehhe...   What else to write ah?? Hmmmm.. i dont think there's anything else.. anywayz, good luck on your projects people...

Hmm let's see... I'm suppose to be doing my Crim Pro project that's due on Monday, 5pm. But once again, i cant seem to bring myself to do it... HAiz.. Instead i'm typing away... another pointless blog entry. Anywayz, didnt have school today... But still go to school coz i needed to hand in my pre-lab work and i turned up for CCA. A rather interesting experience i might say. Something different.
 
Oh ya, Something is very wrong with this blog of mine. But i can't seem to know what is it.. For eg: The blog below on the quiz thingy... Seriously, it is a waste of space. The quiz is so small but it takes up tons of space. GRR.. and the best part is that i cant seem to fix it. Anywayz, the quiz is kinda cool even though i had to do it 3 times before it actually confirmed that i am "Down-to-earth" as they put it..
 
Hmmm wat was it that i wanna write ah? *ponders Scratches head* Oh ya. I remembered... Have you ever realised how easy it is to digress from one topic to something that is so no related even though it has a link of some sort? It gets irritating. Coz, after awhile you tend to wonder why in the world you said it and how you even said it and how it slipped out of the unconscious mind. hmmzz.. Then after the conversation, you tend to wonder what in the world is the person you're talking to thinking about. and then you tend to scold yourself. and then you tell yourself, that you're not going to talk anymore. LOL! I mean, has it ever occurred to you? especially at times when you ask yourself to shut up, but you can't... and you just keep on going...

The down-to-earth girl Which girl stereotype are you?

Rushed of from school today to meet MOM at Dhobby Ghaut... She's been hinting that we've not been going out for quite some time... So, I dont have the heart to reject the outing... And was left with no other choice but to say yes...

On my way there, I met this sec sch fren of mine... *hidayah... Control yourself.. I know you wanna know who it is... But relax.. chill sista* I met SARAH CHAUDHRY!! wahaha.. yes yes yes.. *Hidayah, Pls put those eyes back to where they belong...* Anywayz, Don't intend to elaborate much on her...

Ended up watching movie with my mom.... *Why do i have the feeling that i'm gonna be beheaded if i reveal what i watch?* Anywayz, since i'm gonna be beheaded sooner or later, might as well get it out now... I went to watch KING ARTHUR... *Ok, I can practically hear pple screaming at me.. I think its just paranoia... Yes yes.. it IS paranoia...*

Anywayz, the show was good... It was heartwarming.. something like last samurai with a gist of LOTR... Somewhere around there lah... Anywayz, Just to escape from my death penalty, GUYS... Pls be informed that...
I wouldnt mind watching it again! :P

Oh ya... And seriously, the itch of wanting a new phone is getting intolerable!! ARGH!! nvm.. patience nad.. Patience... it will come.. the time will come.. it will be anytime soon...

Mel is not the only dumb friend i have

Trust me... When you read this person's blog.. you'll know what i'm talking about!! Wahahaha.. its damn hilarious.... LOL

The Unfortunate person IS......
KABBY BOOBLE BOO!!!
PLs go to her blog!!
http://curlykay.blogspot.com

HIDE AND SEEK

Bet you guys have been playing it when you guys were small or maybe.. some might even play it last weekend or something. Hmmm.. Let me ask you a question... Have you ever played it with a moth?

Well, guess what... Right now, I've been playing hide and seek with the exact same insect! ARGH! And its driving me crazy! The thing flying around my study room making my skin crawl... And there I am crouching on my chair with Baygone in hand. Spraying each time it gets closer to me!! I mean I'm not afraid of moths or butterflies or crawling flying thinges. But I hate having the thought of a possibility that it might land on my head or on my arm or on my face!!

DIE YOU INSECT!!!

You would never have guessed what i did today... Wahahaha... Been pondering on it for quite some time... In the end i joined it!! LOL!! wahahaha...

Oh sht.. I forgot what i wanted to type... hmm nvm..

Quizzes time!! First up...

FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.
Thats it.


~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
brought to you by Quizilla

Wahahhaa.. I'm a FROZEN QUEEN!! lol!! Hmm Kinda true.. Doncha think so? ANywayz, Next QUiz...

Independant


What is your behaviour towards guys?
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End of quizzes... wahahha

The eye twitches continously yesterday besides making me giddy, it actually hurts. I was like, what the hell was going on? Then, I found out the cause of it today. I knew it! It's always like that. Each time the eye twitches till it hurts, I know something will happen.

I mean my eyes tend to twitch. The normal twitching is usually, not enough sleep. Then when it twitches for a certain period, it usually means that somebody far away is coming. Well, that is what usually happens. Then if it twitches once or twice, and it hurts so bad. Then the next thing you know its gone and you thought you were actually dreaming that your eye twitched. When that happens, I will get the feeling that something is wrong.

Anywayz, didnt do anything much today. Just that have been a road directory the whole day! It started of when my aunt and a distant uncle came in from M'asia. And i was woken up by my grandmother screaming in my ear. Then a phone call from my mom. And before i knew it, my cousin was pouncing on me while i was sleeping.

Then i had to follow them go visiting. I had to be the road directory, and i was in a car with a distant uncle of mine... ARGH!!! he was so damn noisy and complaining that the traffic is not moving. And he was saying that we should have taken the expressway instead of this route, that route. Wahlao!! And there i was trying to keep my mouth shut and trying sooo hard not to be rude. Then he and the wife will have a minor argument where the wife will ask him to shut up and stop being irritating. There i was, trying to give directions over these 2 quarreling human beings.

I just felt like throwing him out of the car or make him sit at the back while i do the driving. That is also went i told myself that i have to get a driving license no matter what. At least, i'll be driving my own car and i can throw anyone out of the car at my own will.. MUahahaha!! such a nice thought.. *Daydreams*

I think there's REALLY no pre-lab this week!! Yippedie YAY!!! wahahaha... Which means.. I don't need to wake up early on Monday to hand in the pre-lab work!! YAY!!

And i still have not get my Chicken Rice!! Omg.. I'm not suppose to be thinking about food.. I've been chewing and munching like nobody's business.. So much for trying to loose weight and be on diet.. grrr....

Anywayz, I have to go now... Time to sleep.. Grandmother is awake.. She's already nagging at me.. But her voice was drowned by my music.. whaahhaa.. so, before she actually scream in my ear... I think i shall disappear first...

Oh man.. It's 428 am and i am still wide awake... this is wrong!! Very wrong!! Maybe i should do something productive.. Like reading contract?? You think it will go in at a time like this?

Anywayz, did i tell ya what happen on Wednesday and Thursday (07072004 & 080702004)?
I reached home on Wednesday at around 615pm... Ate my dinner... And went on my bed planning which homework to do first and i was playing with my phone lah... Then the next thing i know... I was woken by my mom coz, its time to go to school.

My mom being who she is... I seriously thought she was disturbing me just to make me wake up or something... Then i checked my phone, it was 650am on Thursday Morning. Pls take note i have not changed the night before. So there I was on Thursday Morning, fully clothed. When i mean fully clothed, I havent take my socks off... and my mom was like.. I think if i woke you up late.. you would still be able to reach school on time since you're already dressed... *OMG.. how lame can a mother get in the morning you tell me??*

Strangled her before i went to bathe... Then, i realised that I haven't touch my work at all... There I was doing my work like nobody's business in the bus AGAIN... Grr.. So moral of the story: Don't go near the bed when you have not finished things you're suppose to do.

Hmmmm... Let's see what i've been up too...

Been staying in school for reasons which I cant seem to find...

Yesterday,
Went to watch Movie instead of going for french. I'm going to strangle that Mel... His excuse was something about me having implied consent or something like that lah... Anywayz, We went to watch Spiderman 2....

The show was great i think... kinda funny at times. But ah... Their special effects can be SOOOO much better.. The part when spidy was jumping around and flying around town, it just loook so cartoonish... And when Dr. Octopus carry MJ... Omg.. That was just hilarious.. It look so damn fake... Wahahhaa... Yeah.. Besides the special effects, the show was great lah...

Went back to school for meeting. Waited for Kay with Azi and we found Amin... So went dinner together lah... So nice... The food... I wanna eat some more.. well, actually i'm just hungry at the moment.. :P

YAY!! I survived the night in one piece... It's a battle won i tell ya!!! wahahhaa... of maybe it coz, Dragon wasn't around.. I think Dragon was too busy with the new mate to actually care about everything else... And besides that, none of the irritating maggots was around as well... But but but... CUTIE WAS THERE!!! trying to impersonate spiderman.. ALAMAK!! SO CUTE!! And sukching.. he is not my crush of some sort... he is my nephew...

Basically, it was just a peaceful gathering of the past to reunite the present so that we can brave the future... hmmm amm i even making sensE?? I met people i never expected to meet... 2yrs disappearance was enough for me to get the hint that the relationship is just not important...

I was sad and felt kinda betrayed at one point of time... I mean all the promises made on how our generation would not allow history to repeat itself just evaporated into thin air... just because of something that neither of us were even involved in... How a person would never stand up to fight for their right so that ties were not severed....

Then it occurred to me how insignificant the relationship was even though we had the greatest moments ever... Never did i expect to see you just now... The shock both of us had... the expression on our face was just PRICELESS... How at first our vision was just limited to a certain angle... and how conversation was just everything but comfortable...

But no matter wat... we are related in one way or another... our relationship has always been good and we know that no matter how long we're separated... it will not make us strangers... Secrets were shared... Stories were exchanged... It was like the good old times again...

When numbers were exchanged, you told me things that you once said... I no longer believed... I'm sorry, but i no longer believed... But then i suspect you knew even without me needing to tell you anything... and you messaged.. i was shocked... i was amazed... But i no longer hoped where it will lead... Coz... If tonight's meeting is the first and last... i'm already prepared... coz now i will never allow myself to hope for things just because people happen to say it... it's just too disappointing when things don't turn out as you anticipated it...

I REALLY HAVE A DUMB FRIEND

Seriously, he doesnt even know how to spell my name!!!! can you even imagine it??? OMG!! and he still have the cheek to call me bimbo.. Tell me someone... where did i come across this unfortunate soul? tell me where?? And why did i even made friends with such a human being... it tends to drive you crazy... especially.. with his feeble attempts of trying to call you a bimbo when he is the one with the airhead..

tsk tsk tsk....
Here's a slight description of him for all of you out there to get a glance of the big picture...

M - monkey
E - erratic
L - liable for any damage caused
V - very irritating
Y - yucky yellow yak
N - Nimcompoop
Ps. to be changed once i reach home and has more time to ponder on his name... really need to rush off....

IDIOTIC ASSHOLE

EXCUSE ME.. you're the one taking your time ok... when move already you take your time to slowly move!!!! Then when people move already he never notice.. DUMB ASS!!!

YOU CAN GO AND DIE FIRST FOR ALL I CARE... But one thing i know is that i'm not gonna be the one dying....

IN YOUR DREAMS~!!

ESPECIALLY FOR MELVYN!

You can continue dreaming and wishing that i'd die.. one thing i can assure you is that i wont die anytime soon...

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz.... Cant wait for it.. but at the same time.. i'm actually dreading tonight... ARGH!! Wonder who's going to be there... hmmm... but nevermind, cutie is going to be there!! wahahaha... Cannot help it man.. he just melts my heart... tra la la la la...

But i have no idea whether or not the dragon will be there... it will just spoil everything... when i mean everything.. it is EVERYTHING...

Ahhh... The cutie came today!! And he called my name.. First time!! I just melted sia.. So CUTE!! Last time he used to shy away from me.. now soo talkative... Talk and talk and talk.. and he pulled me all over the house... Ahhh... SO CUTE!! DROOLLZZ!! whahahaa.. The hair so curly... The eye so big... ahh!!!

I was blown away... He took my heart away... LOL!!!

Need to put my body clock back on time... ARGH!! Havent been sleeping early.. and the you'll get dead tired in school that you dont think you can last another second longer... hoping that there is a bed directly there.. staring at you.. one which you can collapse in at any time... and i've been wasting money on cab fares... cant even be on time for a late lesson... And most of my classes only starts at 1.. and i have to take cab to school.. Imagine that.. ARGH!

But just now i was early without even the help of a cab... hahaha.. actually this week.. so far i only took cab once.. coz i needed to hand in the pre-lab tutorial.. so ya..